I feel like my life is so fucked that it's beyond me to unfuck myself it even though it's objectively way better than what other people have to deal with.I can't get close to people because I know that when they like me enough to care they won't like me enough to fully commit to actually helping. Half-hearted or token gestures do more damage than doing nothing. I need my hand held through everything like a childish retard and that's far too unreasonable a demand to place on anyone, so I ended up alone.That would be fine if I was the kind of person who responds to pressure with resolve, but I just cave instead. So I'm drowning and nobody is willing to reach that deep to pull me up. If I was mentally stronger maybe I could do it myself, and maybe I could gain that strength somehow, but I can't see that happening by myself.I don't see a way out and it's scary. I'm not the least bit suicidal but I feel like I'm going to die a stupidly avoidable death alone on the streets within the next couple years just because I wasn't able to figure out how to live. In the meantime all I'm doing is at best only slowing my descent.How the hell do I even get started at approaching this when every piece of seemingly sensible advice is something I can't make myself take action on?
>>34963349You have learned helplessness.
>>34963356Yes, I know. I just described that myself. Knowing doesn't change the reality of the situation though, nor does it give me the power to overcome it.
I feel you bud. I'm in a similar situation and trying to figure it out alone. Not much to say but you just have to keep working hard. Make sure your time is well spent. There is so many distractions in the modern world. Overindulging in them will be your downfall. Ideally avoid them completely. Self discipline should be your main priority. Good luck Champ
>>34963349Avoidance, escapism, and sleep.
>>34963349>blud’s survival instincts are completely cooked>literally begging for a high-level player to adopt him and hold his hand through the base-level tutorial>wondering why nobody will "reach that deep" to save him>bro doesn't understand that displaying this level of infantile dependency triggers a hardwired biological disgust response in the tribe. nobody wants to carry a grown adult because it is a massive evolutionary liability.>your prefrontal cortex is completely fried. you are stuck in a paralysis loop because you expect motivation to spawn out of thin air.>brutal biological reality: mammalian brains require physical momentum to generate dopamine and neuroplasticity. sitting still and waiting for a savior literally signals your nervous system to initiate the dying process.>force your meat mecha to do one (1) uncomfortable thing today to start rewiring your brain, or accept that natural selection is going to successfully filter you out of the gene pool.
