I thought I had a shot with a perfect (for me) woman but OF COURSE she's already taken and anyway probably not even that attracted to me
rejection hurts like a motherfucker, usually I dgaf and move my sights onto the next woman but this one hurts and I have trouble processing
cutting contact off helps but DAMN that crushed a literal dream. oh well, at least I tried

ex doesnt text me we could get back together so easily just break no contact fucking text me and tell me you were thinking about me

Why is it so fucking hard for people to leave you alone with something they asked you to do?
Why do they constantly have to come in and fuck with you?

I dont listen to demoralization campaign and know my m is mine and coming home to me.

I want to find friends by means of food. How do I do that?

>>35005209
Can't you just text her?

I don't know what to do.

Ian I am so sorry and I wish I chose you.

Cinderella

>accidentally told the post office the package (controllers) I was shipping had no lithium batteries
Hope that doesn't bite me in the ass

Everything is fake, gay and tasteless nowadays.

It was stupid of me to break no contact. If that's why you suddenly went silent on me, I get it. I wish you'd told me what you were thinking though - you're treating it like a breakup when to me it felt like a rejection.

i pre-came in my pants today at work. it was only a little bit, but it made my pants wet and it was obvious. i had to stay an extra hour just so it could dry. its so over.

i'm gay
FUCK
i hate myself
FUCK
how are you doing?

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Sorry I'll try to stop. I'm back to my shitposting that does nothing. The sun didn't really do it for me today for some reason. Couldn't cultivate meaning today, was demoralized and depressed the moment I woke up and felt defeated already in the mind, as if I was hypnotized. I have a problem I don't know how to articulate, or I'm too asleep at the wheel to, and it paralyses me.

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Sucks. I feel like I've run out of music that would help me right now. My taste is a little selective. If I relisten to the same shit it won't distract me from the inner pain. Maybe I listened to too much. Then again, what do you do. There's a lot to do. Too much to do. What is my place. I have no place. There's a fearsome truth, that people are less and less a thing in the modern world. People are less real than they used to be, as in, more of a fiction. People don't meet each other on a deaper level. Fractionated prisons. Fuck me what has this Hell come to. Where the fuck am I. Where is the air. Lord Jesus Christ, son of God, have mercy on me.

You said I did what I wanted but didn't you also do what you wanted?

Everything I say is contrary to belief

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>>35005184
I keep wanting you back in my life
And yet I keep posting about it here
I messaged your DA ages ago when I went to Poland and was too cowardly to open it up again.

It's weird... things... are going well, shockingly, feel like I've finally got a path in life, making something of myself and yet, when I get into bed all I want is...

I want to hold you again, kiss you and touch you. Just for the night and let everything else wait until morning.

Can we do that M-D?
AB

I've said all this before but like Orpheus I ought not look back further. I'm sure you'll laugh but think on it, I've not moved, door is always open

she showed an interest in me when no one else did.
then she told me about her past.
not being her first bothered me at first, but after a while I subconsciously convinced myself I was of comparable to a broken women with a body count.
now, when she talks to better looking guys, I get jealous.
I try to read every detail in her face to see if she's having a better time with them than me.
I feel like the honey moon phase has ended.
She doesn't make excuses to touch my sweater as much or smile at everything I say anymore.
Now she's talking to me about some buff guy friend who's going to the gym with her and setting up a fitness plan for her.
Claims he benched 500lbs, even though that is improbable. I think she just falls for anything a confident man tells her.
I feel like I only liked her because she is attractive and is my only option for companionship.
Maybe she doesn't like me anymore because I try too hard and it comes off as desperate.
Maybe that's over now and I'll go back to being alone again.

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>>35005184
I want to be assaulted again but worse. I dont know whats wrong with me. I feel like dirty scum, a peice of blackened gum on the pavement. I am disgusting. this is all I am good for. I desperately need it.

i feel like the loneliest person in the whole world will i ever stop feeling like a fucking alien

>>35006463
Same. Maybe in a year you won't

>>35005184
God told me to not an hero myself in elementary school, but now all of the shit that's happened to me has left me with no chance of happiness and made me do some evil, but not illegal shit I ended up going to a mental hospital for. My previous employers are obviously sabotaging my job search, and frankly it seems the only thing I enjoy in life is that my life has become other people's problem. Any chance I can find a companion female demon spawn? I'm totally a good person if you get to know me though.... 90% sure some guy tried to follow me into the mall bathroom and kill me last weekend. Pretty sure God only uses me to test other people's worthiness at this point.

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I realize that I've been an idiot for a long time.
I've been with my wife for 6 years now, two of them married, and I didn't really know what drew me to her until I broke my foot this week. I got a ride from a coworker to the ER. He's sitting there griping the whole way about a sale he botched, our company's bullshit, yadayada. I have a friend call on the house because we'd agreed to watch their dog, and it's mostly about their vacations and everything, what heat lamp their reptile cages use.
My wife comes home and it's immediately.
>Are you hurting? You have to rest. I mean it. Stop trying to reach under the bed, I'll get it later. You're injured and need to take that seriously. You could be out for 6 months like this! Make sure you're taking pain relief. Don't shower until I get back.

I realize that I can trace that entire pattern back to almost everyone in my life, minus a couple of waystones. People who pointed me down the path to become what I am today. They were all genuinely interested in me as a person, they cared about what happened to me, they loved me.

I love her, too, and I'm really sad that I've worried her this much.

I just found out that my landlord is selling the building out from under me and I have 3 years to move but I genuinely don't have anywhere else to go I've been in my apartment for over 28 years. I can only afford the rent because I'm the building manager. I'm so far beyond pissed, I have no friends or family I can get help from, I have chronic conditions that makes it difficult to even walk some days. Wtf am I supposed to do? I'm so overwhelmed and stressed I want to genuinely die.

I don't hate you, I just have a strong distaste for your behavior. It's just a little sad that the person that I thought I knew wasn't really you. I saw those flaws and wanted to see you through them, but you can't force someone to want to grow. I really hope you overcome your fears, rather than pretend they aren't real.

>>35006598
Likewise

>>35006598
Doesn't mention which one they are replying to, doesn't mention if they were one of the ones that let hatred turn them so evil they are now on par with racists, and did stupid high school gotcha bullshit like staring at someone for 20 minutes instead of just talking it out like and adult, because they couldn't bear the weight of their own sins at that point and would have to admit them that way. I clearly do not know this anon as you as you wanted them to grow, but I got zero such opportunities and cancel cultured instead. Life treated me like shit, and Americans would rather hate someone until they off themselves than do the right thing to allow them to grow. Remember, God was watching and you choose the easy and fun thing, what Satan told you to do.

>>35006598
I don’t care about being judged. Find something else to do

In retrospect I can't believe how close I was to moving to be near you. Not that I'm mad at you, but I'm glad I didn't make that mistake.

Yo J,
CALL ME. Text me. Anything. You have no idea how badly I want to hold your hand and just smile up at you. I want to hug you and nuzzle into your neck and kiss you while I absorb your body heat and learn your scent. I want to crawl into your lap, grazing my teeth on your jaw while I feel your pulse quicken.
I want to make you blush and smile, and give you a flood of happy emotions that wipe all the old pain and distress away.
I know I'm the one for you. And I know you're the only one for me. So don't keep me waiting too long, okay?

>>35006661
Why didn't you move to her country?

>>35006476
Just realized my employer is going to destroy my life if they can't stalk me. Hmm...

>>35006670
how and why are they fucking with your job search?

You dropped me because you said we made no progress and resent for wasting time despite both of us clearly making progress from where we started, why did you end it at the 80% loading mark? Was having a downpayment to a house one year later than wanted that big of a deal?

I didn't drop you, but I didn't pursue you any further because we hadn't taken off and you'd kept me at arms' length too long. I didn't sense any interest, and I had no more time to make my decision. If you wanted me to stay, you should have said something.

>>35006671
They're clearly calling up my new employers and getting the job offer mysteriously rescinded. 2 times now. I lied this time, but clearly they called as they keep asking where I'm going.

>>35006692
but why would they do that?

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drink and dph
were sleeping good one way or another tonight
lel

My J,
I'm giving you space like you're giving me space. Reach out if you need me, but all good if you don't. And keep on kicking ass, you're gonna make it.

>>35005410
M said the same thing to me here

>>35006661
Just contact her

I don't know how to be a person. I wish I had at least just done what my parents wanted me to do. I'd rather be miserable with a sense of purpose than miserable and without one.

I feel like I'm incapable of being attracted to others and I could never be actually desirable to others. And yet I feel lonely. I feel as if I should have the ability and the easiness to be into others, to find others attractive, to want others. But it's almost as if that ability was "taken" and there's empty spaces where it should be. But if I try to figure it out and think about it too much, it doesn't become clearer and all o get is this feeling like a hazy cloud in front of me. Like I can't see past some really simple questions inside my head. Like there's a mental fog surrounding all of it.

>>35006598
Im sure you're a mountain of flaws

Alphabet niggas are active rn

I miss you, Emily

>>35006762
nypa, NIGGER

>>35006911
you fucking cuck, everyone misses emily. half of us baby dicked assholes are missing a slut named emily right now, and chances are she got her holes blown out by chad, and its over. move on with your life.

I miss ur sweet voice bwo lol
Hope we can talk again soon
I think youre everything and the kitchen sink

>>35005184
Any benevolent divine or supernatural beings, preferably an almighty one.

Are you out there, in the universe? If you're reading this and maybe not hearing my prayers; please. I need your help. Desperately.

>>35007046
I can teach you to pray with your soul, if you wish. Direct link and stuff, you know?

>>35007053
I'm agnostic, but I haven't seriously prayed to any deity seriously since maybe I was a kid. My prayer, which I promised to keep private, is a general distress call to anyone who is listening.

Sure, I'm open minded to a proper way to pray.

>>35007061
Close your eyes. Control your breathing, aim your thoughts to the middle of the diaphragm where it meets your chest then say the prayer with the thought of your soul in mind. (To aim your thoughts, just imagine them projecting into the middle of your diaphragm where it meets the chest)

>>35007067
Thanks. Do I always have to be vocal or can I think my prayers, too? I've been vocalizing but I stumble on my words.

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I'm not angry at women anymore. I consider myself retired from thinking about them romantically

>>35007078
You can think your prayers, it's easier, actually. Good travels.

>>35007090
Thank you, genuinely. Same to you.

>>35007087
Finally nigga stfu and fet some pussy

>>35006453
This is why no one wants to fuck you

>>35006118
Stop being a bitch, have a baby w a lesbian who wants a kid an raise em while you both be gay

>>35005283
You only want me for my food baka

>>35006463
Reach out 2 sum 1

Hi lol

>>35005184
Fuck God

>>35007226
Hilo.

God is a piece of shit

You made it pretty clear you were to drop me, I didn't relent in your decision when you continued to act friendly too friendly for someone who ended things, that is why I had to remain cold after, you just manipulate feelings after stabbing directly to the heart.

Why did it take me so damn long for me to output dogshit code into my git?
I wanted to push it yesterday, but I kept wanting to fix and change to make the code presentable and "neat,

And now someone (who's never seen my shitty sloppy code work) was thinking to code with me and my smart friend.
But maybe im being way too hard to myself. Only my friends know how better ive became, but i dont want my failures known to them.

>>35007078
I forget where i read that god can hear your thoughts but demons can only hear whats vocalized, physical like written.

Thats why you always pray silently

You dont have to do any weird visualization or diaphragm stuff either. Just naturally think.

Should I get Lebanese food or tacos in the afternoon today?

>>35006191
Check out MNEEMO and Moonboy on youtube. Look for their 30 min+ mixes

>>35007252
Why do you people act like you know what The fuck you're talking about? Do you think my method came out of nowhere? Shut the fuck up and learn to withhold your fucking tongue.

briefly entertained the notion that maybe today won’t be totally miserable and immediately hit my damn head
this is clearly a sign

it is true. instead of pursuing any sort of future with you, i discarded the notion and lived in my dreams instead of building a future for myself and (maybe) you. now all I have left to do is to build something with what time i have left. i mourn what could have been, but maybe it is better left in my imagination. who knows what it would have actually been like.

My partner keeps asking me if there's anything they could do to make me happier but I can't think of anything. I'm just constantly depressed.

>>35007312
Huh? You seem to be having an episode

>>35007550
I'm not having a fucking episode, you disingenuous piece of shit. I'm telling you my method didn't come out of nowhere and it's not something to just dismiss offhand because you think The Creator is everything everywhere all at once all the time.

IM NOT HAVING AN EPISODE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHABAHAHA

i put my cock in a tube for you

>>35007353
You're constantly thinking negative thoughts therefore you make yourself more miserable. Stop that. Hitting your head was an accident. You'll be okay remember to massage your head it'll help.

>>35007559
That's why Jesus isn't God. You fucking retard.

That's part of the reason you will always be stunted retard mode, moron.

WHO ARE YOU TALKING YO?

>>35007568
You. Moron. But you knew that. You will never advance in anything spiritual if you keep this retard mentality of yours. You'll stay the stunted retard you are what seems like indefinitely.

>>35007572
Im not >>35007562

>>35007581
No, you're not and you never will be. Keep your hand out, see what happens.

>>35007582
What? Who do you think I am? Why am I spiritually stunted? I haven't said anything about spiritually.

>>35007584
Because you believe in false gods and false information. You think demons can't read your thoughts? Who told you that lie?

>>35007591
I'm not that guy either? >>35007568 is the first post of mine ITT

>>35007594
Okay.

Though you would probably hate me anyway because I don't believe in God or demons or anything. It's fine you do, I might one day, might not. Who knows? I don't.

Been thinking about ending it all back and forth since I was 9. Attempted when I was 19, became unconscious, but ultimately failed because the owner of the property I was trespassing on saw me and called the police.

I'm 28 now, and it's hitting the hardest it ever has. I was told it was selfish, but is consciousness intrinsically valuable, or is its value dependent on the experiences it makes possible?
That's the question I've been building for about a decade now. All the things people have seen, things you do, are your experiences. Becoming a slave to the cabal that is our society now, becoming homeless, or kicking the bucket seems to be the only options. I used to champion myself for overcoming, feeling like I've done the impossible, going through life without caving into being a piece of shit, holding good values, being true to myself. But redpill after redpill, reality sets in. It all goes away as the future looms, my consciousness about "the right thing to do" slowly transforms into "taking the exit now is better than dragging others with you on the path of fuckville."
I'm just tired now, I love my mom, my gf, my dog, my family, but I feel like things are just not worth it for me to be around anymore. They can get what they got from me from other people, and I'm comfortable in that fact. I've had my choices of purpose, have kids, find cool hobbies, be passionate about things(fuck watching goyball every Sunday or collecting useless Funkopops or whatever the fuck), but now 90% of them cannot be done without causing others pain or suffering. Why should I be selfish and put others through that? I appreciate all the experiences I've had, paid my dues(I have a 730 credit score), and now things are running on fumes and I mean myself. If I go now, I can say I never hit a woman, never committed a crime, never cheated on a test, and always helped others, and I think that's a good point in time to end it. People on here have made me laugh very hard!

You don’t love me anymore? Well that breaks my heart, but you will respect me

>>35007869
You did that on purpose?

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My NEETdom life ends tomorrow and I already miss it.

Can I get love? Can I ever hug my parents without being scared that they will scold me and make me feel worse than I did before coming to them. Also I kinda like this girl but can't get myself to talk to her there's too many problems I am not attractive maybe even repulsive idk, don't have money how will I date her, parents well traditional indians so you can understand this point, marriage ? Yeah intercaste or even love marriage is a big no in india. After all this I always think of her when I go to sleep at night I want her to be my partner It will be okay if it genuinly dont work but other than that I think I really want to talk to her and get her but cant get myself to talk to her. I've also written things simple ass maybe can say shayari it's ass but yk I overthink about her too much well luckily not all the time now but I still do think about what can I say oo maybe this line or no that or say maybe this my own made shayari but its all in the head every convo in my head and fuck its bad when every beautiful convo you've did is in your head fuck I've written shayaris mostly sad after i've imagined she would leave me for someone handsome. I havent written many only maybe 5-6 things and they are shit but whatever thanks for listening to this lonely soul and yeah the wanna be loved and with my parents things was because I once thought can I run into my parents arms even after the world betrayed me and the first answer was No I thought about there part too then after sometime the answer became yes think I should tell them after sometime of this shit and what they can be to change the answer to a fuck yes but am also worried that the things I say will be inevitably used against me like you're like this what a kid we have, people's kid are better and blah blah blah. Thank you for listening mr. No one or maybe this will get drowned in the world of internet who knows maybe one day someone will read and talk about this and I will be smiling silently.

>>35006995
emilies are always the worst type of whore

>>35006661
I can relate, but I'm mad at her. I think she blew something that could have been great for both of us.

I need her to lock me in chastity and make me eat her pussy for my freedom.

>>35007930
Do you even know who you are talking to?

My birthday this week...another year where I haven't dated or fucked a girl.... can't do this shit any more it is not fair. In my early 30s by the way.

>>35007229
son, trust me, i tried to do this. you can't touch them.

I just had a really fucking pathetic dream where I nearly cried because certain members of my family want nothing to do with me despite really putting my best foot forward to make things work and I feel like such a loser for caring so much, I need to move on.

>>35008213
You're not a loser anon.

I dont listen to narc manipulation and will never give up on my m
>>35007282

>>35007146
I just told you I'm retired. Also lust is a sin

I hate that you got to treat me that poorly and will probably never feel guilty enough about it to change.

>>35008325
you'd be amazed how many emotionally immature people there are past a certain age who don't even know they're treating you poorly. they won't feel guilty because they're too stupid to know what they did. move on, and don't waste any more time or feelings on them.

>>35008333
25 years old but treated me worse than girls I dated in high school. It's unbelievable.

>im trying to find guys for X to date, what do you think her type is?
>sorry anon, I don’t think I can make it this weekend, this date might go super long
I thought I could be friends with her but clearly my feelings are unresolved. Cutting her off will fucking suck though, she’s the only person who invited me out to do stuff. Going back to sitting at home alone with my thoughts will be torture.

>>35008336
the dating market is brutal nowadays, so it might feel like they're the best option you've got, but it's better to be single than in a relationship with someone who treats you poorly. this might not help if the wound is still fresh, but let her be someone else's problem.

>>35008368
What I'm really pissed off about is that she might just keep being a problem for other men. I'm angry that this woman might be able to live her entire life acting like a teenager.

Life is shitty rn. I'm already compromised because i'm in specialized housing (for minor felonies and mental health concerns), and it's already shitty as it is. Now I'm dysregulating my digestion and mental health too because i go from not being hungry and undereating, to overeating because of anxiety (just in case i get hungry later) and it causes me indigestion and deep sadness. i can't read my hunger signals properly actually, just like autistic people, and i've had eating disorders because of it, so i don't understand when somebody is serving me a meal, if i actually want more of it or if i'm done. I only notice that i'm full when the plate is already served. This is why i can't fully enjoy my stay, if there is anything to enjoy at all; my day gets thrown off track because of indigestion and eating against my will (when i already said yes to the main course instead of saying i'm full at the first course). So i have to eat because i didn't warn the caretakers to stop, i get really sad and i don't want to talk to anyone, and feel like i threw away some enjoyment out of my day. This is why i feel like it's a terrible idea to put me in community care. No one gets me because few people know what it's like to not be able to read your own hunger signals properly. Add some social anxiety and people pleasing (they get angry is we waste food) and you get the picture. What a waste of time i'm only 29 and stuck in this loop.

>>35008404
If we*

>>35008379
unless she's in your friend group or a coworker or family, it shouldn't matter. if she keeps treating people like shit, she'll end up alone while the men she meets move on and find other people. and if she does find someone, it won't end up being a worthwhile guy. trying to change her is a waste of effort. take that effort and work on yourself instead.

WHY DOES HE ALWAYS HAVE TO MAKE NOISE!! EVERY FUCKING SECOND (EXCEPT WHEN HES ALONE IN HIS ROOM) THE MOMENT HE STEPS INTO A ROOM ITS ALWAYS "UUUUUUUGGGGGHHHU, AAASSHHHHHHGGGHH" OR ALWAYS BITCHING COMPLAINING ABOUT ANYTHING HE CAN THINK OF! IM LIVING IN HELL AND ITS MAKING ME CRAZY

I don’t think I got enough oxygen in the womb, I can’t seem to do anything right

Remember when my Ex said she hated music, but oh when Trentul and Queen of the King's came on OH HOW I SHOULD HAVE TOLD HER
Dumb bitch, still love her

>>35007658
find out who God is

>>35008436
I am, just needed to vent about it today since I came across her again.
Thanks anon.

>>35007658
https://youtu.be/rBpN752FZQM?is=gCR-HQosPu5g58g2

Remembering when I voiced my worries to my ex and she took it as blaming and trying to guilt her so she called me narcissistic. I just wanted someone to I could trust to talk to.

Hope that bitch is unhappy, but I doubt it. She’ll get to float through life and never engage with anything beyond the surface because she’s gorgeous and rich. Shallow, cold cunt

Why let me back in if you won't meet me halfway? I'm trying to do better. If it's not good enough, for god's sake, tell me instead of leaving me to wonder. If this can't be fixed, then why let me back in at all? If you don't want to fix it, god, just tell me and I'll go! Don't jerk my chain like this...

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I want to detox from caffeine but I don't want to suffer

https://voca.ro/1auGBI5bocec

asctually nice voice. can you sing some more?

>>35008943
Why are you implying that she’s a fine and evil Siren?

>>35008952
thats a man and he has a nice voice? I hear nothing evil

>>35008442
Bad roommate?

you caused me so much pain and anguish in such a short amount of time, but god i loved you so much. i want another chance with you.

>>35005204
I feel you brother. Had the same thing happen to me, except she started dating a guy the very night I first met her. I was so pissed dude. We're gonna make it. we got to.

>>35008876
I have money and can provide for my girl that way if she shows up. Money really doesnt mean anything to me through compared to how I feel about her

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>>35005184
Guys, I think im fucked.
In less than a month, I officially get out the Navy. I've got no jobs lined up, Forgot to log my hours so I could get a journeyman, and I moved to a state that I have no friends or family in. The place im currently interning at has no job openings, and my internship ends in less than a month too. There's this really cute girl there that I'd probably be down to date, but Im gonna have to give that up too, (after I had just got her number.) I can only afford to continue living in Florida for atleast 3 months without working after that I'm fucked, cause I have no where else to go.

I think I might just book a flight to thailand, enjoy all the cheap drugs and hookers and hopefully die before I run out of cash.

i keep thinking if i start practicing cutting my leg i can work through the mental block i have that keeps me from slitting my wrists
the only alternative i can come up with is minimizing the amount of time i spend awake and alone but i can only fix the awake part and i’m a bit of an insomniac as it is

>>35008146
Nah.

I know it will never work but just the slight bit of hope helps keep me going. And this isn’t healthy but I’ve never been healthy.

>be retarded
>feel no meaning
>stop thinking and draw a picture
>entirely reorient one's existence
>escape the mind, make it real
Don't bother yourself with "what you can do", exist at the level suited to you (which at truly is not a matter of measurement). Or something lol.

I have a character in mind now and I'm going to make her real. She will be the beginning of an anthology. Every person has this power and it only takes a moment for the vanity that consumes ones existence to turn into the beginning stages of creation.

>>35009340
Literally thought I was retarded and boom, a random October 14th comes and a work has begun.

>wah my idea is derivative wah my idea is this wah my idea is that
Nigger, why do you walk into the weeds? Once the fire is forging all of that is out of the equation. It's time to create. It's time to build.

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Your mind literally works differently when you are engaged in the creative process by the way, and there's an entire element of your mind that can tirck you into circling, procrastinating, etc, and it's illusory. Don't think, don't talk.

>>35009359
and on that note it's worth considering that forms shapes and symbols can capture the mind, because your mind fills in the holes, and if you aren't careful you'll let your mind be made by them. This is the harm of "doomscrolling". It's why you feel enslaved by it. You need to be the creator.

>>35009345
a work has begun? what?
>>35009352
who are you talking to?
>>35009359
???

Engagement with the creative process erases the derivative nature of it and even if the beginning thought was the element of the mind that breads anything else isn't active when you aren't exercising it. It's also in the creative realm that you can see the meaning and essence of things and not be caught up in meaningless words.

>>35009379
okay. you are stating this why? to help others? nice of you to do that. I do agree that the creative process is very important, sadly I have always struggled with getting something out. I HATED art class as a child. I never felt like I could properly express myself. How do you get past that barrier?

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>>35009391
It's GIOYC. This isn't really a place where your posts necesarilly are catered to anyone but perhaps yourself, but that being said, if it would resonate with anyone in any way at all, that's great, because I've been in a mind prison and it's good to hear you can escape it. I guess it's just a loud meditation. The mind is a real battlefield.

it's over.

ITS NEVER REALLY OVER. FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!

>>35009431
IT is.

>>35009446
What is and how so?

>>35009391
As far as expressing yourself goes I don't really know. It's a hurdle I've felt myself. I can be kind of repressed. I wouldn't want to create music in front of people for example. I don't really know how to deal with it. There's more I can say but as I typed it I lost sight of the essence and considered I may have been schizobabble, but there's a certain state one can enter that really is hard to describe without devolving to that. I think when you create you kind of have to see beyond, in some metaphorical sense, all things around you, all things apparent, all things which would try to put a prison on your mind.

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>upgraded ID comes in the mail
>compare it to old one
Holy FUCK the light in my eyes is gone, shit bummed me out man

well time to molest people in a videogame.
etc
>etc

ofc I think you're attractive. I have a hard time thinking of an unattractive feature d-esu. It's about repressing it so you don't feel like a pervert or like you're going to jizz your pants whenever SOMEONE wears shorts.

>>35009464
It's alive, afraid, a lie, a sin
It's magic, it's tragic, it's a loss, it's a win
It's dark, it's moist, it's a bitter pain
It's sad it happened, and it's a shame

I think I’ll take him out for some clothes and a decent haircut. He’ll like that

my family is so mean.
i spend my hard earned money on food for everyone to enjoy. and nobody ate any. not even 1 bite. not even a "no thanks". just nothing...

i recently discovered I might have pancreatic cancer. If I do, I'll be dead by February. Im 23.

>>35006663
gay asf

>>35009828
Hoping for the best anon, I don't know much about cancer is there no way to survive it with chemotherapy?

>>35006701
thats gay asf.no thnks

I have jacked off to myself in the mirror before because sometimes I am fucking sexy. Okay?

WHO WANTS ME?

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>>35009828
Drinking clove tea may help. Overdose can be fatal so 8 cloves or less each day is recommended, 3 per cup. Teaspoon of baking soda in a glass of water each day as well as lemon in water will alkalinize your body and it’s said that cancer can’t survive in that kind of environment. I recommend eating grains, vegetables and cooking with olive oil.

As I sit listening to the lecture;
from utter boredom my eyes begin wandering around.
From the speakers, to the light fixtures;
until they yet again land on her.

Fine, lovely, pretty girl.
With that pondering look, and I cant help but gaze in awe;
That red hair, her pondering eyes;
Lovely smile, that soft voice just in a moment captivates me.

But someone's already waiting for me at the cafe;
I don't know what to do in the moment, I pray to God;
I ask those whom I can trust, but in the end
I, confused, am still just sitting there, gazing at her.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DloZ1xZHCmo

>>35010244
Is this for G? Or O