>>35051770Delete this thread. There already is a new gioyc open herehttps://boards.4chan.org/adv/thread/35050126/get-it-off-your-chest-lost-loves#bottom
This place looks really weird right now and I don't like it
it's over.
>>35052083Finally done wasting your life with the narc in tx
>>35052115narc narc narc sahur narc sahur narc sahur
>>35052115narc in tx? what the fuck are you talking about
wish you'd left a note on my car that night when you hit it instead of later in the afternoon so i wouldn't have filed a claim and police report by then. now i feel bad.my sister says that's what insurance is for but still.
>>35052176they're a retarded tranny who posted on /lgbt/ about receiving hate as a tripfag
3 more hours, what an absolute waste of breath.
>>35052229C is a tranny. Got it.
>>35052333Ohhhh so they're all fags and troons. The Ms and C. This is suddenly making so much more sense.
My aunt who swore to take care of me like her own child when my mom passed just found out I have never been to an obgyn in my life despite just turning 30. She just survived a horrific ovarian cancer herself. My mom died of cancer too. And now she's insisting on taking me there no matter what.Anons what the fuck do I do? I'm *this* close to lie that I went by myself just so they leave me alone. I know that you should go to the obgyn by the way, the idea just makes me want to die. I've never had sex and never will because the idea of being naked or touched intimately by anyone makes me wanna die anyway. Although I've been cutting on my legs recently and don't want anyone to see that shit either. Fucking hell...
>>35052357No only c. He keeps making posts about being with guys
>>35052397But him and M are still a couple? I sort of hate M for leading Mike on. I do think Mike is a schizo narc too but it's not like C is holding M captice
Need the nausea to fade. Want to sink into the bed and sleep all day, but can't.
>>35052404I dont think they are. C keeps making gay posts about being with other men and m wrote to mike last thread that she misses him.
I admire my sister, though her life is far from anyone's idea of success, or fulfilling. But had I stopped while I was ahead, when I found contentment, none of this would have happened. I would have been ok. Shitty counselor.
I hope my doctor prescribes me the medication I want and that it works. I am in mental anguish every waking moment
I let myself be devalued and chose to cuck. I understand why, it was an impossible situation, bluffs a kind man couldn’t call. I forgive myself. This is my punishment for doing wrong when I knew what was right. Fuck it.
I regret choosing her over you so bad even now. I only did it because I was more attracted to her but now I know looks aren't everything. You have the most beautiful soul and we would've been so happy together. I'm a stupid man. I should've married you when I had the chance. I regret what I did and how I treated you so bad. You are actually the best person I have ever met and there is no one else like you. No one else even comes close. You didn't deserve what I put you through. You showed me kindness when I really didn't deserve it. Even when you were hurting way worse than me and I was just complaining about dumb crap like it was the end of the world. You really cared about me. You were always there for me. I miss the laughs we used to share. I miss how we never ran out of stuff to talk about. I still repeat we said in my head all the time. I really only ever loved you and I still love you. It's been 10 years now but I still regret everything I did and wish I was with you. I know I will miss you forever and deep down I still hope we will meet again someday. Hope you're doing well out there wherever you are.
You should have rejected me and went with her. You could have lied to her about me, but you didn’t. That was entirely on you when you had the choice to choose me over her. You chose me because of guilt, not because of how convenient we were. Maybe if you went with your gut, you wouldn’t have wasted all those years with me to when you could have spent those years with her instead. I wonder, if your dad raised you, you would have made the right choice the day you chose me. I didn’t force you, you forced yourself. At least you know now, right? That’s the point of overall experience. You were young and stupid to realize you went for what felt easy and available all to feel wanted by somebody. All those years wasted because you could never admit that you weren’t happy with your decision. Lesson learned, so fuck off and pray your relationship with her lasts longer than you expect while you reminisce about everything you could have done with her before I entered your life. Don’t ever fucking say I forced you to be with me, because there was never any leverage your immature mind believed there was against you. With all experience you went through, do NOT fuck it up with her. NEVER break her heart, because if you do, then my doings would have been for nothing. This time, you fucking do what it takes to stay with her forever. Otherwise, that experience with me would have been for nothing. Don’t EVER break her promise. More importantly, TREAT her better til the day your heart stops beating. That’s exactly why you decided to stop being obese, correct? If so, then the day I finally stop breathing will be the day you do everything it takes to prove you’ll stay by her side and treat her better. If you ever wonder what the purpose of this post is, it’s me praying you make her happy for the rest of her life.
october has been some fucking weapons-grade killyourselfium for me, not gonna lie
>>35053073You'll be okay anon. Don't give up.
>>35053073ironically, it's the repeated cycle every time the year nears its closure. call it depression or a phase, almost everyone gets that inevitable feeling this time of year. winter is coming, so bundle up & take good care of yourself. sending love your way, anon. never kill yourself <3
>>35053073It's demon month
>>35053073Same kek. I've got that knot tied and waiting.
>>35053118>>35053128to be clear i am NOT suffering from seasonal depression, i suffer from constant depression and this month just about everything that can go wrong has gone wrongno platitudes please
You know, rather than not-so-vaguely posting on social media how much you miss me and hoping I reach out, you could reach out yourself, right? You have my phone number. If I'm the only one doing the heavy lifting in this relationship it's not going to work out.
>>35051773other thread is not titled correctlythis is the thread
>>35053156Your breath stinks and you’ll get HIV/Aids for sleeping with hoes raw— she don’t like you no mo, faggot.
I really don’t know what people expect from me or what kind of acknowledgment they want. Do they want a participation ribbon just for living? We all do that. Some people live better than others.
>>35053241idk who you are though
>>35053257NTA random schizo poster. Or Mike.
>>35053259No. Not me. But makes sense you say that with your tantrum narcing out larping on letter thread.
I get it. You were trying to see if I was back yet, and now that you know I'm not, you've decided you have a little more time to figure out what you want. You're not as subtle as you think.
>>35053296Is trying to figure things out a bad thing?
>>35053296If you think that then fine, I hope you figure out you're wrong eventually. Or is that just what you want to be true?
nothing makes me happy anymore, i dont find enjoyment in anything that used to make me happy or distracted ? i guess it was all a distraction ? Ive lost many friends, failed many relationships, i hate my job, i used to like it alot, idk, my mind is all over the place, lots of contemplation about self harm but it would just make things worse, idk.ive lost meaning to this all.
Happy Halloween, anons.
>>35053326Happy Halloween, Orange Cat!
>>35053322Don't start self harming. Look for a therapist if you can OP. You sound clinically depressed.
>be kid>would get really mad if my parents kissed each other in my presence>would tell them that it's disgusting and I would get reprimanded>they're still together>didn't realize how lucky I was>nearly all of my friends growing up had divorced parents>wish I could go back in time and smack myself in the face for being ungrateful douche
I have no idea if you are aware of how much I wanna be yours. One day I'd love to tell you.
All my strength has gone out the window and I am seriously contemplating ending it all again. I wish I had no one depending on me.
>>35053435<3
>>35053398Le reason. Kek
>>35053465Are you me?
>>35053435I know, but in my defense I've been wondering why you never acted like it.
my tummy hurts
>>35053694Too much candy tonight?
>>35053723no i just have tummy problems a lot, idk why hows ur halloween going ?
>>35051770Is Halloween just an excuse for adult girls to get dicked or something based on what they are wearing?
>>35053730Two groups of kids came trick or treating this year. Up from zero in the past. I didn’t get a chance to celebrate since my store is already setting up Christmas. So I will be enjoying my pumpkin at every chance from now until Thanksgiving.
>>35053742anything is better than nothing, mustve been nice, did u dress up as anything fun?
>>35053747Only myself.
>>35053755spooky... O_o
I try not to reply to too many posts, only the ones I think are you. Because you're the only one I want to talk to.
And what's left, but to hollowly move on? We mistook each other for someone else - I wasn't yours, you weren't mine.
Tired fantasies of him, of the care and patience he would have shown, of the soft words and gentle hands. Strength, balance, soothing, at my best and at my worst. Someone to build with. To heal with. Just dreams. Always just a dream.
>>35053805What do you mean by this? What exactly got mixed up here?
Reality brought one who harmed. Who let me fall, and fall, and fall, and hated and harmed me more for falling. I should have stayed alone and dreamed dreamed dreamed.
bonefish
I didn't need bread today, well, I did, but I made a mistake and didn't go and grab it. Oh well.
I wish I hadn't been born. I never enjoyed any aspect of being a teenager. Any joy during university didn't last past the first year. Now I'm almost 40 and I constantly keep thinking about the logistics of getting a shotgun to end it all once it reaches the point of being unbearable. Nowadays all that keeps me together is the thought that "mom would be sad"... but she is getting older.
>A estrada do sol>O comeco de tudo>E as nuvens que agora se afastam>Mostrando um caminho que esta sempre la>E que e qualquer lado que a gente quiser caminhar
I will not blaspheme the Holy Spirit with the demonic suffering in me, but good lord am I depressed
I'm just a notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song.
I only just now realised you were the selfish one.
Halloween is just an excuse for goyim NPCs and their future wageslave children to be annoying around my house
>>35054073The only thing I did that you could possibly call selfish was a reaction to the way you acted for months.
I'm miles away, he's on my mindI'm getting tired of crawling all the wayAnd I've had enough, it's obvioushttps://youtu.be/wmK-MqRxawY
>>35054105Long distance? Shit's rough, I feel you.
I know she’s not foolish enough to look for me. She deserves better than that
im all out of poptartsthis is devastating
>>35054094dont reply to me that message wasn't for you.
>>35054112Thanks anon.
You shine bright and I wish I could sunbathe in your light...
>>35054144*replies to you again*
>>35054173There was no compromise on your end it was only your vision of the future or nothing else. That was the overpriced half flat upstairs to your parents lower flat for a 1million+ when we were both only just starting in our careers. That is all you cared about, that stupid property listing, while whining about increased house prices for years to our peers. You planned that we would retire to your home country while we were in our 20s without any opportunity to offer alternatives.Since you replied it wasn't for months this is for years, it isn't a reaction it was their reason of being since being a teenager. Their family gave them nothing, and falsely promised the lower flat to her, I was to be their way out of that life yet wanted me to be entrapped in the very life she was trying to escape.
I just love her
>>35054198It's higher than mortal love with me for her.
>>35054204That’ll do
>>35054162Sure. That would be chill (assuming you are my girl)
>>35054221I'm a guy, Mike. It's not about you.
>>35054227You wrote like you are writing to the sun. Im the sun.
I think I am losing my mind over falling for someone who has no desire for me and I genuinely do not know if it will be worse to never tell her or if I should face rejection
>>35054231No, not even Ra is the sun, dude. You may call yourself the sun and use all these metaphors, but it doesn't make it true.
I'm a man.... LOL! It's over. Who would want to be a man?
>>35054273*raises paw*
>>35054236She knows me as the sun, just as she is my moon.
>>35054285That's cool, bro, but I'm not her.
Don't mistake my attention, how I keep my promise to you as something it's not. Don't mistake what being provided and cared for means. You seem to write a narrative based on insecurities and fears, not the truth. Listen and see me. Ive told you the truth, i do love you and I want to give you whatever you desire, what makes you happy, where you never feel guilty for eating, Don't feel guilty for wanting things. With me, you don't have to earn the right to be taken care of. You just have to be here and be yourself. I love you for you, who you truly are. I want to feel you, find pleasure in the parts of you that are foreign to me, to experience the rest of you. I look forward to when you come home, where the silence is instead the sounds we make as your body learns mine. The way you bite your lip as I bite your neck. The way you feel home.
>>35054278I'm not sure I get it, if there's anything to get.
>>35054327im raiisng my hand to show that i do in fact would want to be with a manmy hand is a paw tho, i hope u dont mind
>>35054333lol
>>35054273Fi always wanted to master swinging my own pp back and forth so i can dance with it
>>35054333*paws at you**rubs my litter box paws on your face*
>>35054344Overrated trick tbqh desu, sorry to break it to you.
Gonna continue playing on 2-player mode. Stuck and unable to progress without you playing your part of the game.
>>35054349>*rubs my litter box paws on your face*too far anon... too far
yeah? I think i made the pieces fit. DID you?
Tried my best to attain a career for you to leave anyway. This sucks.
what??? I feel like there's too much metaphor here.
>>35054372She left you after you glowed up?
>>35054365nooo wait come back i’m sorry i’ll lick them clean i pawmise
>>35051770Saw my ex upload, forgot I was still subscribed to her. New handle, same old Yugioh edits with a few dozen views.Resting my head it flashed before my eyes, how good it's feel to hold her, to tell her that she was the girl I fell so hard for, how everything in that split second felt at ease.I hate that I miss her still. I hate that I have everything in my life but a girl I love in it now. I unsubscribed, last she'd want is me commenting on her videos. I know as she deleted the one I left last year, God I find out she blocked my account.Even now I don't have the heart for that.
>>35054355a woman can dream
>>35054376:T fine...best get to cleaning then >:3
>>35054378God help me if I were to find out she blocked my account; I don't have the heart for that even all these years later. *
>>35054383Oh thank god you didn’t just stay in Atoga, yay
>>35054374The previous year I did a 1 year masters degree, from that got connections and friends that helped to finally win, She was ready to leave if I didn't get a job in that previous year ( was struggling to find work previously with only a bachelor's degree) but I said I will do my best to get work in my chosen field that is why I did the degree.She left after 2 months after graduating on Valentine's Day, I got a job secured 14 days later in march and have held it for almost 2 years now.
>>35054387huh o_O who do u think i am? and who r u ?
>>35054390You’re the fatshitter
>>35054388Damn, you need a woman with more patience, it sounds like she was checked out already.
>>35054393well when u use that name instead of just fatfetishist then that makes me think u were being sarcastic when u said 'yay' lol u also didnt tell me who u are...
there is a group/entity comprised of jews, masons, bankers, working against the good of creation, they taint the transformation of the soul by tainting the world it is occurring. evolution is just energy transformation after all, and all energy transformation follows the same rules, it was all created you see. we have been trapped inside, the way out is by creating a world without the zero sum and negative sum and deception/lies of this one we are in the truth quite literally sets mankind free. the free will man is given to create a plus sum world is inverted to create a zero sum, negative sum world using currency as a weapon. nature creates life, and it is inherently plus sum, native americans for example had a better understanding than Europeans about this concept. right, so this entity created abrahamic religions to create ideological and spiritual slaves to jews, and they inverted the bible and all that jewish nonsense to enslave instead of empower the human spirit and soul, the cross is actually a plus. over the last 2000 years the main entity that has left a trail has always been the bank through it's currency issuance, nations, empires fall but the bank continues, after all what is currency without slaves to consume it. the american revolution was about this entity getting their own slaves to print against, of course it took until the 1900s to fully accomplish this with the federal reserve being created, and the 1970s to completely trick the world into debt slavery. the debt unit, fiat currency devalues work, time, life. it might be hard for the american to cope with the fact that they are nothing but their foreskin farm and cattle to print against. you see the masons brought slaves, and then freed them, from the banks point of view they need cattle to print against, because they sure as fuck weren't going to be able to move the kingdoms of england, spain, etc... Elon, Trumps, enleague with them, Neuralink is evil, ai is evil, their agenda is evil.
For all the talk of loving me you were very quick to sabotage yourself. Fuck you, I hope you never forget about me for the rest of your life so you can torment yourself.
>>35054405What do you mean? I can look at you without regret or sadness. I hope you forget me soon.
>>35054397It was a long relationship that got delayed further by covid. When we met she had a bachelor degree that had no employment value due to portfolio requirements not up skilled enough.(game art), That was in 2018, I had full time work and was pushed to also do a bachelor degree, I did animation 2019-2022, somewhat equally worthless but a mandatory journey step. I supported her in fumbling about finding work paths ( teaching, librarian, hold over jobs for her to do, none really stuck until 2021-2022 she did a CS masters) while trying to do mine. It took her a bit to find work until found IT work at a company relevant to my field (2022, it took almost a year for her to get that after being rejected even from computer repair shops) so I suppose it was a perfect dream where we would end up in the same company. 2022 - 2023 was me trying any opportunity for workshops, short courses to bridge from being unknown to get a foot in the door. 2024 was my last try which is why I did the degree, it worked because they had scouts looking for talent in that course. She mentioned it looked like I moved on and that she couldn't compete with my friends ( I don't understand why I did it all for her). Yes I think she channeled her resentment from that IT job and put up with it for me even though I never asked for that, and that experience is in her favour now she is rubbing shoulders with AI med tech startups and marrying someone with a Phd i.e. rich enough to have freedom in pursuits.
>>35054381In all seriousness I think that a man who likes being one either doesn't think about being one or was just given an easy go. It feels like being an icon of sin, almost embarrassing, but a subtle and buried kind of embarrassment that you deal with because what else can you do? Is what it is. My life situation hasn't let me get out there much, but even men who do don't know what love is. I consider it a thing of fiction.
>>35054419Ah, this seems like it could be the fact that she expected you wouldn't make it and you made her feel insecure, especially if you're in the same field.
>>35054424Maybe that's too brutal a way to put it lol.
>>35054425She used to say ngmi, popular saying in /ic/ circles, which I believe was meant to serve as a motivator to prove her wrong. But I realise this is a terrible methodology especially when it comes from your companion who should always be in your corner. I think she regretted encouraging me on this path because if I did a mediocre work for the duration of the relationship we would have had enough for a down payment in mortgage for home ownership, her true aspiration at the time, but forgets covid obliterated my previous stable work anyway.
>>35054361In that way, yeah
>>35054361Yeah, my slow movement is a problem with many. I'll be around though, in other forms.
>>35054405>>35054410IMO best not to take the bait
I made $14,000 in the last 24 hours. Good day.
>>35054481who did u rob
>>35054410We both know each other long enough, if you wanted to pull that act off you should've done it sooner You literally cannot even sleep with me accompanying you, and I know much emotional burden this past few weeks has been for youBut you brought this to yourself, so I want you to make sure you never forget about how much of a scumbag you are.
>>35054493I'm sorry I disappointed you. Don't waste too much time scorning me.
I may be a despicable piece of shit, but at least I'm not an abusively powerful despicable piece of shit like Satan.
>>35054488My state has a grant to incentivize and support businesses to specifically output what my business does. Its free money. That one is $10,000. The second is through a non profit for $4000. I got an email for the gov grant status that im approved. The non profit distributed the grant but its funded by a family trust. I did the tele interview with the head of the trust today and am approved. I need to order everything in the next week and turn in reciepts to be reimbursed.
You heard me say one thing prefaced as might and decided that it was absolute. You were inflexible in our arrangements.
>>35054551Yeah, I tend to take people at their word. I thought that was a virtue, but I guess it's not. Games are $70 now, so you're gonna have to buy in.
>>35054555keyword 'might' something is possible or uncertain
What a waste of my time. Friends my ass
>>35054563What is it you're expecting?
>>35054565To know better
You wanted to plan visiting the grave of an online friend in our group who killed himself that you never met over visiting me. I visited you within a year of meeting, you made me wait 5 years after that time.
Im pretty sure I accidentally made my younger siblings all furries >was 17 and bought nomad complex boxers online>left them on my bed with the bedroom door open, alongside my sketchbook full of hot anthros>came back and both the undies and sketchbook were missing>"cool drawings anon!">where tf are my boxers>mischief and teasing occur. They are cackling when I bring up the boxers. Find out after the fact that they were wearing them when I confronted them about it.
My foolishness knows absolutely no bounds. I'm so fucking retarded. I'm my own worst impediment, my friends are probably flimsy in truth, I involve myself with people who feel limiting. I have no place, I have no belonging. My presence feels embarrassing even where I do nothing wrong. My mind is attacked by unseen forces. I am an absolute FUCKING idiot. Fucking stupid FREAK.
>>35054651SO TRUE BESTIE! I LIVE IN A HELL OF MY OWN CREATION HEARTEMOJI
>>35054658https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TlUMmlvVTwI
>>35054651Thanks
>>35054668huh wuh? I'm a man. I'd be a himbo, perhaps. Certainly not a bimbo
>>35054673Well, tough luck.
Rolling for buckshot.
>>35054708Lucky me. Live another day.
>>35054578You're angry with me?
sometimes im having a good day then i think abt my ex and all the signifcantly better looking and behaving girls he'll be around when he moves sometime next year andthen i want to crash adn burn myself
>>35054752whast?
>>35054756does gioyc not embrace venting? thats what im doing
>>35054752Same. It also makes me mad to think how men never get tortured by thoughts like this. I mean, even on here you never see stuff like that
>>35054773i dont think thats true, men do feel this way i think u just see it less cause men dont show or share their emotions as much
It just feels like I keep running into the same exact person over and over again
>>35054752>>35054773If it makes you feel better my ex found a very successful older man ( as in they were doing a phd when we first met, incomparable to compete with, worked in top companies etc) a year after breaking up with me, she is the one who left me.
>>35054789i appreciate the effort but this really didnt help at alli thought you were going to tell me he cheated on her or stole her life savings or something, that wouldve made me feel betterim sorry that happened to u nonetheless, sounds awful
>im just not good enough for you and im gonna be dead inside for the rest of my life on but pls see someone else and be happy :(((thats it then, we're donethat being said...lmaoooo you are such an embarrassing piece of shiti dont get enjoyment making anyone feel like this let alone my former lover but holy fuck what do you want me to do about it? you rejected every time i offered to make things better and the very last fucking words you'll ever tell me is one of self pitying and "woe is me i love you but i could never make you happy" bullshittery
>>35054816Do you really think I can make you happy?
>>35054809Sadly no he is a direct upgrade from me, we experienced the struggle through early college and entry into workforce. He and her get to be a power couple in their dream endevours making companies and earning lots of money, affording a house, starting a family.
FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!
>>35054824have you tried picking up dating again since?
>>35054752I've beat the system and found out it all is just memories from experiences.
Welp, gonna go to bed. Hopefully tomorrow is better, more blessed, and I won't have as many reasons to fantasize about suicide.
>>35054816i still hoped there was a way forward for both of us but unfortunately thats not what you've decideddo you hear yourself? if i was actually there with you right now i'd be more than happy to comfort you and stop you from crying right now because i still love youafterall it's hard to reverse years and years of relationship on a whimbut i genuinely have no FUCKING idea what you want and its pissing me off. i gave you every explanation i could possibly want before you blocked every communication channelGROW UP ACT LIKE AN ADULTyou made me believe you were the one, just as you thought i was the one for youbut no, you just couldnt help yourself. how could you fuck up THIS BAD???
>>35054832No, I never intended to date really, the person I was with was originally a friend and pursued me when we were both younger in our early 20s I think 23 after I got a stroke of luck into a well paying govenment job, previously I was a neet from the age of 16. She pushed me to do tertiary education ( rule set to get parents approval for marriage) and struggled to find work in that field until last year at age 30. I was focused on the requirements for this relation and studies until then. I don't have what it takes for normal dating I don't think.
... if that is you, I simply wasn't expecting that. I didn't clue in until now... sorry if I wasn't supposed to know? uhhh. it's time for me to make a move, somehow some way. I thought this was quite the opposite in many, many ways. sorry for being dumb! himbo minus the muscle.
>>35054841and if you came back tomororw, next year or next fuckign decade i'd be welcoming you backbut i told you before i dont have much time, and I wanted to choose you over anyone else. spend the rest of my life with you. thats why I really really wanted to have a conversation with youI dont know if you even realized that or cared enough but I'm so fucking sick of thinking about iti love you but i hate you so much right nowif forgetting about me and become dead inside like you have told me is really what you want then so be itbut i still love you and i hope you remember that
I just... have many, many questions. i have no idea how to do this, or if you even want me to.
>>35054789I've had TWO ex bfs leave me for similar women. The women were both self made multimillionaires, like prodigy level smart, but they were apparently insufferable due to being "too demanding" aka he just doesn't want to put effort into the relationship so he fucks everything up and loses it all. >>35054809Mine sorta has a satisfying ending, they came back saying they wished they stayed with me instead, even asked me to marry them, but I rejected them and never talked to them again. AFAIK they are both alone and miserable right now
i wish ppl emphasized the importance in putting effort to maintaining friendships u have as a teen cause the second u reach adulthood and u lost those friendships, youll never make them again. and next thng u know its approached a decade of not having had any irl friends and that just really sucks sometimesi want friends!!!!!
come to think of it, i had this feeling before.the lesson i supposedly learned the last time was not to make things right but to make things straightdo NOT tell them how you actually feel, its more important to stabilize and resolve the issue asapits okay, so long as i get to maintain our relationship a little bit of lies are worth the cost.
MIKE WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM? FACE ME LIKE A MAN!!!!! I WILL BATTLE YOU FOR MARIA! my my my my moon!!!!I'm sober btw. It's called 'art'.
i simply want to be normal... to have human physical contact. i never know what the right thing to do is, but i cannot repeat the past. i... :)
>>35054860i'm learning the exact opposite lesson rn. i should've told them how i felt rather than just fixing things for the sake of maintaining the relationship. i should've just let it end naturally if it had to
>>35054856Thats a crazy chance that two separate millionaires are connected through padt relation, i dont know if would apply to this circumstance since she made cofounder to his startup, highly infatuated, giving effort toward making the guys vision come true, that will likely succeed with or without, she gets to reap the benefit from two others timeline. saddens me to see the effort shown when it was all on me to make the relation work previously.
>>35054857It's easier to make friends as an adult than a teen
>>35054875anon its halloween not opposite day
>>35054876Stealing balloons on free balloon day is a classic.
>>35054879lets make out
>>35054874>saddens me to see the effort shown when it was all on me to make the relation work previouslyWorst feeling ever
>>35054872maybe i just had a streak of really bad encounters that warped my worldview but the more honest i was being, the more intimate they get with me the more likely it is for things to fracturebut i still want to have a relationship with these people. if being 100% honest with my feelings means i lose the joy of being in a relationship then its not worth it to be honest, i thinkyou are right though, if this is how things is deemed to turn out then i should just let it happen
i really really really wish i had a boyfriend
>>35054886So get one.
>>35054885that actually makes me fucking pissed about myself more than how i handle relationship itselfmaybe im the problem, maybe im just too fucking stupid and i consistently fuck up the whole "being honest" part
I'm seriously just deranged and have worked myself into thinking that I will somehow get in trouble if I speak to you in any capacity. I truly do not know the source of that, though at this point, who knows. I just ... I don't know. we're similar in some respects maybe. i can't tell anymore. i COULD say i didn't see this coming, but actually, am I surprised? I hope I'm vagueposting enough to annoy people. you do need to hit the gym though, especially if you're going to dress like a gym bro.
>>35054884Most of alI i just want to create again without feeling like it has to be for a portfolio or a job, she turned my efforts into only being valid if it was to benefit the larger picture ( money )
i have that stupid bingbingbing thing stuck in my head
>>35054893I didn't know you were listening.
>>35054885Sometimes people make stating cruel things or actions permissable saying it as honesty.
>>35054896dont say scary things to me like that its 2 am
>>35054907My mistake. Won't happen again.
>>35054908better not.. or else
>>35054233Why would you lose your mind? If you’re uncertain, just ask them out. People like you better if you like them
i am crazy and spend too much time online... i'm normal elsewise. I'm at least tolerable. I think? I always was? honestly, I just want to live in the woods. YOU might chop my head off though.... scary!
>>35054916You do know that there are territorial spirits in the woods, right? Like, it's not always me.
>>35054887i spent the whole day at a busy intersection just looking for potential bfs. the only guys in their 20s walking around outside are on dates
oh bestie... I'm well aware of many, many, many things, yet I still play into them. stupidity? certainly. lost in translation? your literal ->poetry converter isn't appropriate here. try a different method of analysis
>>35054912I had my self esteem lowered because the wrong people told me they liked me >>35054233You should tell her. If this harms her you just gotta accept that it harms her
>>35054928Don't talk to strangers.
>>35054933>I had my self esteem lowered because the wrong people told me they liked meare you a woman? this is some guys biggest fear lol. good to know it's not unfounded
>>35054928>waiting at the intersection for a bfinteresting mental image.
>>35054938why not? i'm trying to turn them into not-strangers
>>35053073I laughed. Don't kill yourself anon, killyoursefium is hilarious.
>>35054947Have you learned nothing from the films 'The Strangers'? All jokes aside, though. I don't see how you don't have a bf.
>>35054940>are you a woman?>good to know it's not unfoundedYes
guys pick one: Y or N
>>35054960Y
>>35054963oakie doakie
I gotta go around and look at ALL of those books today. I missed my chance yesterday like a FOOL.
>>35054451It's not just your slow movement - we have friendlyfire turned on. I wish there was a cheat code to turn that off but that's banned.The people that taught you to play have been in your crossfire too, do you realize that?Well we're the ones playing now. Unless we play single player or find another person this is it for us. We have to play together to progress further.What are you going to change?
>>35054980I don't attack the Elites, I only attack those that attack me. Regardless of how you may think I do. If you have a few choice words for me, 13, then tell me. I have no problem with The One or whoever else the Elites serve. I actually very much would like to meet The One personally one day, I'm sure it'll be like meeting an old friend. It does not matter what I believe, so in turn, I am not attacking your way of life or anything of that nature. I just didn't think people would be offended by the things I believe, to be honest.
Sorry! I had my finger in the dike, but the garden does need to be watered. Why did I plug it then?
>>35054979Who gives a fuck. It's just memories in the end.
>>35054984Yeah that just about affirms everything i suspected but never verbalized because it sounded crazy. You realize you're a goyim level player right? You're never going to play with The Elites. Your grandiose narcissistic ideas about yourself are the problem. You believe yourself to be a great player. I agree. I think you're a great player because of your militant thinking, your way to manipulate the NPCs, you provide the resources we need to play. I'm not pointing out your flaws or telling you how to change your game. That's for you to decide. I'll ask the same question - what are you going to change about how you play with me?
GET A ROOM LOVER BOY
My ex had an unhealthy obsession with Swain from league of legends and it caused me to no longer be as attracted to her because I knew how much emotional attachment she placed into that instead of me.
>>35054993I've been an Elite before, it's not really my intention to play in their circles. Meeting The One has nothing to do with that, he just seems like someone that took an interest in you.To answer your question, I'll ease up on trying to talk about things you may think I don't understand. If you have something to ask of me, ask it. If not, then I hope I gave you the answer you're seeking.13, it does not matter what I believe about this reality or myself. I know who I am, I don't need you to believe me to know.
WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? 13? Is this House?
>>35055004Sorry, you were speaking like a friend of mine. My mistake. Though she might not think we're friends anymore.
meowmeowmeowmewoemwomeowemomeow
>>35055001I'm not 13, I'm just some random lady lol Basically trying to explain how marriage works to my husband that's not even going to see this.
Why is touching kids this common? There can't be that many pedophiles just out there, can it?
>>35055006*SPLAT*
>>35055005I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING! IM CRAZY AND NEED TO LEAVE!
are you like talking to yourself or what? how does this play out now? am I in the game, or simply an observer?
>>35055009Guarantee everybody's family has at least one. Sometimes they hide it well enough until they get access to a niece or nephew or something. If we started publicly hanging them, I'm sure there'd at least be fewer offenders.
>>35055008Oh, I thought you were someone else, my mistake.
I now know how Fry felt.
People don't really care when they hurt you. They don't like if it's pointed out, or if there's change in your behavior or opinion of them. It feels like an attack on *them,* it's uncomfortable to know you've done wrong, so they turn it around on you, because now, in their reality, *you're* the one who hurt *them* for having a reaction to *their* behavior!
>>35055022If I hurt you, tell me. What would you like to be done in reconciliation?
I get it. I get it all. uhhhh.... I think.... I'm worried? I think? I may have started a chain of events from some force that... might be a bit beyond my control. I didn't realize many, many, many things until like 12 hours ago. I didn't do my research properly, apparently. Was I supposed to? Ever? Unsure. All it takes is one good photo to reveal the truth. I think? Who knows.
>>35054481Fuck you.
>>35055022not really? you can be trained out of this at least.
>>35055023I've told them both what hurt me and how, and what I needed to reconcile, they don't care, it was all taken as grave insult lol.
>>35055022And somehow you always end up the one apologizing for bringing up the fact that they hurt you. Sometimes, you even have to comfort them and tend to their hurt feelings. And they'll ask you to have more empathy for them.
>>35055024Ive got receipts, yes you were wrong.
>>35055024You'll be fine.
>>35055022>>35055029This is every time I ever tried to be friends with someone who had autism
I didn't know uhhh, a certain key detail, apparently. I don't know if this is fixable, and that's my fault.
>>35055036You'll be fine.
>>35055032Autistic men have less capacity for empathy.
you are patient, and you are kind, I will give you that.
you is smart you is kind you is important
>>35049523
I can't see the numbers. I thought YOU might have been able to see the numbers, but, if anyone can, it's a third body, isn't it? ah... I never took physics. If neither of us have the right numbers, can we solve the equation?
>>35055042This post is abusive
>>35055045Kek
>>35055043I'm not good with math or numbers consciously. That ability was booted out of me.
>>35055037>>35055031will i? it certainly isn't as I expected, but none of my expectations were realistic
>>35055038Autistic men are abusive af
>>35055049Yes, you will be. Have no worries.
am I student or do I work here?
I'm gonna go watch a few shows. Later.>>35055053You go here. Even the Plastics would accept you.
I see right through you now.
oooo spooky vagueposting!!!!
>>35055056YOOOOOOOUUUU SEEE RIIIIGHT THROOOUGH MEEEE, HOW DO YOU DO THAT SHIT?
I hate myself for not doing the things I need to be doing. I am just hanging on by a thin rope which is gonna get cut off any day now. Also have a sissy fetish which makes things worse.
HUGH? HUH?fucking keyboard.........................,,,...,,........................,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,.......,,,,,,,,,,,,..............................................oooopsie dropped all my dotsokay
I only slept like three hours but I force myself back to sleep I feel like I'll wake up to a hang over. I spent so much money last night too damn it. But honestly for going out by myself it could have gone worse. What a weird way to bump into people
If you think I hate you it's probably because you know that what you've done is deserving of hate.
yeah. I know. If only knowing was enough to fix things.
>>35055050Worse than narcs and borderlines imo. On par with adhd men
i feel like 'abuse' implies some sort of intention (at least in this context), but to say that autists are innocent little butterflies is also wrong. when two autists (or aut adjacents...) are slightly off from each other, now that's a fucking headache.
I'm on the wrong damn site
>>35055067Knowing is the start. Action needs to follow.
>>35055073and the action would be? i assume not trusting internet weirdos?
>>35055068>On par with adhd menNever met one that didn't use ADHD as an excuse to be an absolute fucking slob and lazy do-nothing
>>35055069Autistic men never "intend" to abuse anyone, that's what they always say. But they are aware of what they're doing and they exploit it. They know it works to get what they want. It's kind of like how psychopaths don't try to abuse anyone either, their behavior is abusive though
>>35055075Asking the person you want to fix things with what they need, is a good start.
>>35055069"Intention" is an escape route for abusers
>>35055068>>35055077I don't even mind that part. I don't even mind the random ghosting and mood swings and always being late for things. But why the gratuitous sadism and cruelty? Why?
>>35055079I don't know how to find them or if they want to be found, but I know how not to find them. I do have a valuable piece of information thoughit's always the fucking eyebrows.
>>35055081Because it gets a big reaction, which in them, triggers dopamine release.
>>35055080learned that one the hard way. i kept forgiving people because they didn't *mean* to abuse me. which is crazy looking back. because wtf do you mean you didn't *mean* to abuse me
>>35055081>>35055083They're just bullies
>>35051770I take photos/videos of men I find attractive using my phone. I just have an entire album of it on my phone I can’t stop. I don’t even masturbate to it or anything I just look like looking at them
>>35055091You take random photos of men in public? Can we see?
>>35055036Get murdered.
>>35055098what? where's the body?
>>35055065Bitch SHUT THAT DUMB AS UP AND GET FUCKING THERAPY
>>35055101Make yourself the body. Die quick.
they told you back in July what to do. It's been too late for a while buddy. Beware the Honda
>>35055092Most of them are random customers from work or co workers. I have one co worker who I take photos of a lot cause he’s my favorite. No I’m not gonna show them on here I’m paranoid I’d get doxed somehow
the one and only time i tried to take a creepshot of some guy he caught me and asked me to delete the pic off my phone
>>35055110LMAO
>>35055110The trick is you gotta make:A. Look like you’re checking your hair on your phone while pointing the camera at them (but since you’re fixing you’re hair they assume) B. Turn the camera on video and put it in your pocket with the camera out and walk by near themThat’s what I mostly do
>>35055085Yeah, I made plenty of excuses for them in my mind based on their upbringing, but eventually, when you keep explaining what parts are abusive and offering alternatives and counselling, you've gotta accept that they're aware of what they're doing and just don't care about you. "I didn't mean to" only works a couple of times.
I'm deeply bald. how does that work?
>>35055116There's no way this doesn't look obvious
I will see you, eventually. Asap, even. I must sleep.Night night.
>>35055124Goodnight.
>>35055065Nah you directed hate toward me to move on in life
>>35055129Is that how you're twisting things to avoid accountability this time?
>>35055098by whom?
>>35055107Faggot, say it to me or shut the fuck up.
>>35055124You will see your lights turn out.
>>35055145why do you want to kill me? what did I do? murder?
>>35055139Your ugly ass self
>>35055150Who will clean up the mess? You just want the money, don't you?
>>35055148Total piece of shit. Fuck you.
Hope you get a good lawyer
I dug this hold for myself. Dead, only 25. Oh well. Better luck next time.
>>35055122well either no one has said anything despite noticing (which would be questionable) or it is efficient I’ve never been caught.
>>35055157Me too. I've got a good back up though, and my evidence should speak for itself.
why did i evenet myself get into this mess? should have never even come here
>>35055167What made you want to come to this site?
I mean this fucking planet. What are you, a journalist?
>>35055134Where is the accountability needed, Isn't that what you wanted though to move on?
>yeah, I should have been MORE abusive, that would have gotten her to act right!Faggot
>>35055168i like to complain without attaching my identity to it, though obviously i have been too lax.
>>35055174Alright, keep your secrets then.
>>35055175I literally just told you why.
>>35055176It was a Lord of the Rings reference.
>you telling me that my words and behavior hurt me is disrespectful
>>35055173>>35055178who are you talking to?
>>35055177>Lord of the RingsYou must be one of those really old people on this site
>>35055119some people are just born wrong. I think I was.
>>35055134Furthermore you ended it with me and built resentment for not allowing you to treat me the same way as if we were together still. That messed me up severely and continues to. My accountability in our lack of progress doesn't make sense when I took the necessary steps to attain what you wanted from me, which was a job to support your desires, you just ran out of patience for me and left.
>>35055183Surprisingly, I was late to the LoTR train, and I haven't read the book.
I love my baby. Seeing her go house to house, waving to everyone. I'm going to be good for her. Patient, calm, listening, guiding, loving. She should never feel unwanted or unloved under my roof.
>>35055209The book is about jewish
>>35055229I don't do well with reading, so I'll probably never know how Jewey it is.
>tell someone I don't vote because that means I didn't participate in putting any of these politicians into power therefore I am not responsible for anything they fuck up>proceeds to tell me I am the problemAmericans really are fucking braindead aren't they
>>35055015No some random schizo repliedIt's an analogy for a relationship. Like in games where you're playing and the screen wont let you progress until the other person catches upI can only control my player - I cant make him want to change
>>35055020No worries, it was my mistake calling you a grandiose narc
Notice how the whole thread is flooded with bots with messages that are as vague as possible to be relevant to pretty much anyone visiting the thread, a.k.a. Barnum effect, with only a few variations cycled through
Your family loves you so much. I know you love us too. Why do you keep your mouth shut until you get so made you explode and burn people? Even babies learn to cry to speak up for their needs. Then cry louder when they dont get it. You skip the first quieter cry and go straight to full blown anger, or saying rude things, doing passive aggressive things, holding resentments and then striking at the first opportunity to get your revenge.I know this is all coming from something hardwired into your brain or learned in childhood.I wish you would use your voice to help yourself and not just hurt people. It's getting to the point where it's just simply you're choosing to be mean. Quite possibly to get that dopamine idk.I want to be loyal and committed to our relationship. But I at the very least need a couple weeks away. I cant live with you like this. You need therapy. You need to quit smoking weed. My therapist (the brand new one) called you an abuser and I only told her 10% of the shit you've done. She asked me if I thought you had narcissistic traits - I told her you're just an asshole. A self hating asshole. Ok i didnt say that last part but I think it's more accurate.I think you know your coding is corrupted. But it's easier to wallow in your hurt feelings when someone dares call you out for your behavior. One last time - what are you going to do to change?
>>35055301>GIOYC is a psyopYou're just now realizing this?
>>35055312Family? Who even are you?
>>35055301I just post what would be applicable thoughts that would at least open to a reply chain to work through some troubling thoughts, if I went too specific on the first post no one would acknowledge it.
>>35055317I’m not schizophrenic so I’m not sure about that. What would be the purpose?
>>35055349Shits and giggles
>>35055323A wife
>>35055383Oh damn. Sorry miss.
Damn even being out and about with friends who love and care about me I'm thinking I wish I had my blades here to go cut at the toilet for a little bit lmao. Is it over for me?
You'd think a company worth billions wouldnt have such ass AI. Jokingly responding to a post just had my fucking account suspended. Messenger, Instagram, everything. But how is it fine to share memes of hate and spread it? Things that are actually violations of their terms. Responding "been up all night smoking crack" shouldn't even be a violation at all.
What a weird hang over. I don't have a heabeache or nausea but my heart beats feel so loud
>>35055410I no longer feel my heartbeat.
>>35055412Why not
Was in a really long (5 year +) relationship. Over time, gf became really annoying and distant. She said it was because I didn't want to commit etc. Past year has been the worst, nagging and belittling me for almost any little thing. This lead me to insult her several times throughout the year. We lived at her place. She decided to break up, even though we got along amazingly well before this. I'm about 90% sure there was no other guy involved since she's been really honest with me and never hid phones etc.I'm currently living on my own and it's really fucking lonely. I wanna get back with her, but at the same time I can barely handle the loneliness and wanna date some girls on apps. I work in an environment with a lot of females and there's a chance that a mutual acquaintance might spot me there and tell her and this would probably mean we're through forever. What do I do, ye adv sages?
>>350554325+ years without a proposal? Brutal.
>>35055424Because my heart was spiritually taken out of my body.
I'm learning something every day
>>35055438I did 7 years without a proposal because of the hurdles placed as priority before it were all out of order, she wanted everything sorted before even testing if we were a good fit to even live together.
>>35055566Unless you started dating at the beginning of highschool, a lot of that shit can be worked on during and after an engagement. And you were already living together. Sounds like thumb-twiddling to me, and it seems it did to her as well.What were her other complaints, besides the lack of commitment?
What's on my mind is not her attractiveness but her living in a good home. If only she'd see that. But I guess what goes on in most people's minds is harmful behavior to where I can't ever get that across.
>>35054623congrats, you indirectly recruited your siblings to be part of the most hated members by society. pray they don't cave into diaperfur because of your underwear.
>>35055596We were not living together that is what caused such a delay, she wanted everything lined up before even starting an engagement process, that is career in same area ( moving countries to her ), for savings to afford a down payment to a house, there wasn't ever a complaint about lack of commitment, and by her own record we never had anything to fight about, the only thing was results from studies to a job that would allow us to be together, which I did get in the end. We start dating when she was a recent graduate at a bachelor level, she complained about house prices even then, that was the main focus the entire time. I've seen now how other couples navigated how to work together from college age, they did their degrees, supported each other to get their first jobs and then rented a space to live within, they are doing well. We didn't do that because she thought it was a scam and wanted all-in, therefore a longer delay in preparing.
Another day. Hopefully, a good one!
Can't believe I never got arrested for the crimes I committed for over 10 years. With the feds keeping me company, it gives me comfort knowing I'm not alone when I goon to degradable shit. I love you, fed-sama.. please don't ever leave me alone, or I'll actually kill myself this time. You wouldn't want that, you got a paycheck to look forward to!
>>35055462You should put that back in
>>35055875It was taken.
Its kind of weird being without facebook, made me realize im actually addicted to it and the internet. Im unemployed, but even then most of my time is spent online. I really dont do much of anything else, and really cant. But, I got a couple of days for the review. But facebook has gone mad with flagging my posts even though most of them were of not really in violation of anything. If I cant joke, than whats the point? Its nothing really vulgar, violent, etc. Its just me amusing myself more than anything. But at the same time, no one really talks to me or likes my posts, so im kind of yelling out into the void most of the time. But, its a time waster, I wach a lot of reels and things like that, interact in groups im in, etc.
>>35055876Who took it?
>>35055880My brother's gf got her account temporarily banned for sharing a post from another Facebook page. Something up makeup and it banned her for term violations but was really vague about what it exactly flagged her for. Basically facebook has terrible Indian ai and its really fucky and constantly makes mistakes.
>>35055884Something about make up, I mean.
>>35055883Wouldn't know, they were veiled.
>>35055892You should get it back!
>>35055902I will. Just not now.
>>35055892VEILED? What sort of Halloween shit is this?
only children don't deserve "llve"
Understanding the origins of wounds does little to heal them, nor does it help prevent vultures from coming to pick at you.
what's with the schizos telling randos to kill themselves?
>>35054824being a cuck is disgusting. I know I'm worth everything to my girl and better in every way. I don't give up on her. Ever
>>35054849>somehow some way. FYI I didn't write this letter, though that is a phrase I use often with you.
>>35054863F off. You mean nothing to me and her. I have no reason to even interact with you besides the annoyance of your garbage pollution in this time before she's home with me again.
>>35055285You called me that. If you think who you just replied to is Mike, that's not. I am. Look for my trip code at the end of my trip or message me directly on discord fromsuntomoon
>>35056024Understanding the origins of wounds helps you stay away from what caused them. Touching the stove won't make you immune to burns, but it should teach you to never touch the stove again.
>>35056112Let's hope I finally learn that lesson, then.
>>35056120Best of luck. And don't be hard on yourself if you fail, things are rarely as obvious as touch stove -> get burned. In dating, for example, you can be with the same person for months before realizing you've been bleeding yourself dry the whole time.
so sad.,.... we could have bought 2/5s of our parents trailer together
>>35056147I think I get too far into the sunk-cost fallacy thing, and wanting to believe that people are good and kind and caring when they say they are, despite actions indicating otherwise. Or rose colored glasses, and then I get myself into a situation where I'm "trapped," or can't easily get out of, even when I see that the relationship is killing me. I tried to make it work for the baby, and because I had nothing to my name to make leaving a possibility.Thank you, and thank you for reading.
Born too late to butcher communists with my bare hands. Furthermore to late to slaughter Romans in the Teutoburg Forest.
i don't like that i'm instinctively going to eporner when i'm bored or my mind wanders at the computer. think i've gooned too close to the sun.
>Let's hopeAnd have faith >finally learn that lessonNot just doing my best, actually do it>thenI'd like that
There’s this girl that works at a coffee shop near me and I swear she is the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen, her smile is addictive af but she has a boyfriend and she’s only there once a week
Where did you learn what it means to reciprocate? How much can I be expected to tolerate?
i wish i could walk up and just lift mens shirts up in public and see whats underneath
>>35051770Obviously it is sad to get rejected by a girl you've been crushing on, but also cathartic because you have been crushing on her for long enough that you have developed a realistic vision of what your life together would've been like and you weren't sure if that was the kind of life you actually wanted.Would you actually have liked this hypothetical life with this woman? If she said yes, then obviously you would at least try it out to see if it's worth it. If she said no, then at least you know it wouldn't have worked out because she wasn't into you in the first place.
I got the ban hammer from facebook. But today i went to an old graveyard in bath, nc. Had graves going back to the early 1800s. I was standing beside a kids grave, that had a lamb on it. Ghost tube said "amy", i apologized for walking over her grave. It said "i want to stay". Then near a veterans grave, a marine, it kept saying "blood", like he was trying to say he was killed in battle. And "hole" which i think was a reference to the graves. I was very nice, introduced myself, that i wasnt there to bother or meddle. If anything wanted to speak they could. It was actually pretty cool
>>35056646i guess you could take upskirt pics if they're wearing loose shorts/shirts
>>35056689And did the "father, son, holy spirit" sign as I left. Just in case, but felt the really wanted to talk to me. But I had to leave, lol @ my brother going to the car when I pulled ghost tube up. "I thought you were going to be a pussy" lmao, nope.
>>35056646Men be shoplifting
Good thing I was split from my siblings and adopted by the retarded christian half of my family who never stayed in the same state so I could the military to cover college or else I would've been adopted by my normal retarded family and still joined the military to cover college like my sibllings. What a huge difference that would've made in my goycattle life to not be influenced by the jew god.
>>35055041based
>>35056646me too
>>35056693i wish to see ur nipples though
i don't like when men have hair around their nipples especially if it has that weird swirly pattern. it's like it's pube hair but on their tits
>>35056744like this? i hope not, i love this type of chest hair phenotype
>>35056750Jesus Christ
>>35056750Why does he have round dinner plate nipples like a woman
>>35056760stop body shaming>>35056755what?
>>35056750no like this. they're neckbeards but for nipples. nipplebeards
>>35056767i seenothng a lil nair cream can’t fix
I have a fetish for guys with chests like this
>>35056774do u think u can use his chest as as makeshift bowl for my cereal if he lays down flat on his back?
I don’t know why they didn’t know the color of the light. I don’t know why my hand was hurt.
>>35056711why were you split?
I need to stop posting on 4chan. Goodbye, anons.
>>35056778God that's so hot. And considerate of you too because I would've suggested hot soup
On second thought I probably could have talked to them but I fumbled it too soon. Sheesh
>>35056793>I would've suggested hot soupgoodness femanon... o_o
>>35056689Amy demon PoseidonGhost wanted you blood hole. .Neither good. Dont let things attach. Only harm is caused
Too many people using "I love you" as a shield to act however they want, harm you however they want. Demanding endless access to you, selfish entitlement.
Discarded? Fled. Self preservation.
Why can't I make myself go insane over a goal to the point that I will starve and bleed myself in the pursuit of it? Is it just IQ at the end of the day? I can't even learn small things in years time. I've had my interest piqued by things like computer programming but I should probably throw that idea out forever. I'm too dumb, I'll never even learn that shit.
I miss my exes. Breaking new ground I know but I want someone to hold in my bed again.I want to play with someone's pussy, I want to play games together on our bed and fuck the next I miss it a lot
>>35056944Cool observation
Are you also happy I have nightmares of you?
>>35056774Hey bby how you doing?
Need a girl who's tapped in the head, want to say I'm fucking her tight little cunny and get off on the grotesque taboo.
And to have the gall to accuse me of using someone as a weapon, while you use them as a tool to punish and surveil me. You always did project a lot of your own hateful feelings on me.
>>35056937Amen
I don't know how, but I'm thinking it'll all work out.
>>35056958i had this mindset for years and im miles behind my peers. try to do something, anything
>>35056646I wish my ex wasn't emotionally stunted so we stayed together and she got to worship and suck on my gyno like she kept saying she wanted to
>>35056958You fight when you need to fight, only you know when that is
>>35057079how big is your gyno?
>>35057060SomewaySomehow
Right now I'm thinking about if I could load a shotgun and decapitate myself completely by aiming it at my neck.
If I had a revolver I'd be tempted to roll the dice of fate and do a round of Russian roulette. Fucking frustrated right now. Might take the chance to run away soon. Nobody will give even the smallest shred of a fuck for me, but maybe I'll find a creative way to kill myself that tells a story.
I shouldn't be annoyed. Everything is what it is, but still I feel everything about myself is taken out of my hands such that I will NEVER become myself or become anything at all. If I had a genie I'd ask for the ability to shoot myself in the head with a full clip before I finally drop.
My final outstretched hand, spat on. Lol. Ok. Should've known better, retard.
>>35057125Last time I reached for your outstretched hand you stabbed me
I realise you would have left me anyway if I didn't do that course to get a job. It was an excuse to discard me.
>>35057131You imagined a knife where there wasn't, every single time.
>>35057091I'm not sure how to measure them since I don't know how cup sizes work but they legit look like 2 years of HRT tits. I am borderline underweight.
>>35057156More like I imagined an outstretched hand when there wasn't, every single time
I still like you so much. You keep doing things to show me you like me too. Or am I crazy? I have no idea at this point. I'm going to reciprocate next time. Then I want to push further, but I'm scared. You're honestly hard to read. The last time I saw you, you barely smiled and seemed nervous. The time before that, you talked a mile a minute even though I wasn't even that nice, and you were smiling the entire time. I guess that's why I enjoy the obvious signals when you send them. They let me believe that you really might have feelings for me.
>>35057178Tired of trying to convince you of otherwise, now imagination is all you have of me.
>>35057194As someone who fucked things up by trying to read someone for way too long, make your move sooner than later. You never know how much time you've got left with someone before they think you're not interested and move on.
I'm so very disappointed. You were not the man I thought you were.
having a liquor shop within spitting distance of your job is actual hell because it would be so convenient but you cant let them know
You weren't the woman I thought you were but I didn't care. The more I learned you were human like me, the more I wanted you.
had the worst sex of my life the other day. this guy was a horrible kisser and put his entire mouth around mine, could not maintain a semblance of rhythm for more than three strokes, was dead quiet, couldn't find the clit, it was just crazy bad. i didn't know you could be that bad at sex. i told him to just stay still so i could move because i was getting annoyed, and he couldn't even do that. so i would just stay still and he still wasn't hitting it right or consistently. the weird thing ive noticed with guys who are bad at sex, they want you to be on top the entire time. the lack of moaning and responsiveness bothered me the most though
>>35055349to get people to confess to crimes or other horrible shit?
>>35057312>You weren't the woman I thought you were but I didn't care. The more I learned you were human like me, the more I wanted you.An appeal to hypocrisy, or tu quoque fallacy, is made by deflecting criticism with the fact that the accuser has likely done something similar in their lifetime. Once again, rather than addressing whether their behavior is right or wrong, the argument is sidetracked to whether the other person has ever made a similar mistake.In charged discussions, this appeal may actually seem like a valid rebuttal, which is what makes it so reliable. Ultimately, however, it's simply another way to avoid taking responsibility.For instance, imagine that you're trying to call a narcissist out about lying. Instead of explaining why they lied, or admitting that it was hurtful, they instead say, "Oh, so you've never lied before?"Dishonesty is no longer the topic at hand; your past mistakes are instead. With this logic, they make it seem as though only a "perfect person" has the right to call them out.Narcissists employ appeals to hypocrisy when they have no desire to engage in a meaningful conversation about their actions. They choose instead to create a false equivalence that vindicates them — a reality where there's neither a need to take accountability or admit that their behavior was unjustified.
>>35057022whut. is this like a divorced child situation>?
I got a lot of pain to get through and it ain't gonna be easy. The reward is supposed to be great from it all.
>>35057435I honestly don’t know why my post screamed “narcissist” to you, but I can understand why my actions did to her. I had limited time to decide to stay or leave, and she took so long to open up that I figured she wasn’t interested. So when she finally started opening up the last time we met and I told her I was leaving, she probably thought I was dumping her because she wasn’t perfect. Really I’d already made up my mind at that point and had no way to reverse my decision, and it made it hurt even more saying goodbye. I tried reaching out and telling her to go be herself and stop fearing what others thought of her but she won’t talk to me anymore. It hurt me, but yeah, I’m well aware the poor timing probably hurt her way more.
>>35056937And then discounting your love if you leave "you dont love me" if you leave/stop giving them attention following their behavior
>>35057567Multiple people just spam that term here. Don’t take it to heart. Far easier to say narc than to engage in dialogue and reflection. Very easy to dismiss people with smear terms.
>>35057699The person didn't simply say "narc" as a smear term. They gave a large reply as to why that post was narcissistic. But that would make you accountable so changing the argument to some other thing entirely (the use of smear terms) is much easier to justify, which by the way is a narc tacticA straw man fallacy is the informal fallacy of refuting an argument different from the one actually under discussion, while not recognizing or acknowledging the distinctionIt's very easy to dismiss you as you are being dismissive and not able to engage in dialogue and reflection.
I have narc name calling fatigue.
>>35057727*sniffs*MMM yes smells like a NARC made this post*sniffs again but more dramatically*
>>35057738I lost the quick draw to call you a narc first... no u.....
You know, accepting the truth of being the black sheep of the family doesn't torment me at all. The constant name calling using the same labels over and over won't drag me down. Was always used to it, so it has little to no effect to me at all whatsoever. You can laugh and boast about me cowering in fear and not doing anything about it, but I still find it amusing you're all putting the effort in trying to make my life miserable despite the fact I enjoy living in solitude and find comfort in being alone. It's sad and pathetic, but what more do you expect? Exactly. Nothing.
>>35057403>the weird thing ive noticed with guys who are bad at sex, they want you to be on top the entire time.It's the opposite for me, they always push me off when I get on top of them. Apparently it's because they'd cum too fast. Guys who are bad at sex ime flip between doggy and missionary every 10 seconds like I'm a burger on a grill >the lack of moaning and responsiveness bothered me the most thoughI'm straight up scared when they're like that. Like did he...die?
Miss having sex, hate the appsReactivated my Duolicious and immediately deactivated itNot even jokingly, I have far more value than the foids on there
Yesterday my mother an i were sitting in the living room watching k dramas. and then suddenly she switches personalities. first it started out just complaining about everything then she switched to being needlessly aggressive "every night you go in your room and close the door i hope you dont wake up the next morning" and when i fell down the stairs who did you call your dumbass friend" then when you get mad and tell her to shutup she starts acting aggressively defensive "hit me!, choke!" Then she starts saying shes going to call the police and im like do it, im so tired of this, instead she calls her cousins wife and is like "he choked and hit me" And they are talking like oh my god i cant believe this . and im like thats not what happened.she does this everytime first starts getting aggressive telling me to kill myself, or how im too stupid, and do nothing and why am i here. Then when you get mad and tell her to shut up and stop talking she gets defensive and plays victim
>>35058083these two are legitimately perfect for each other. Because they get on the phone and she tells her how she basically hates everyone. Her daughter, her sisters and brothers, her mother who died years ago. Both of the fathers of her children, The nurses and doctors when she's in the hospital, her own private physician. And she talks about them as if they are literally he worst person in the world for everything they do. And i'm like "here's an idea if you have that many problems with every person in your life. YOURE THE PROBLEM" she's been in every hospital in the area multiple times and she ends up having the same complaints at every single one. "they dont feed me""they are ignoring me""they are mistreating me"Then she comes home and shes complaining about me the SAME EXACT WAY"hes not feeding me"hes beating mehes ignoring mekeep in mind this woman was in the hospital and told them she was going to jump out of a window and kill herself. So they tied her to the bed. because she was starting to get aggressive and suicidalShe somehow switched the situation to (i told them she was going to jump out of a window and kill herself. And that it was my fault they tied her to the bed)
Miserable, meddling, cunt. Lol. It won't work out the way you think it will, at least.
On the upside, I'll never have to move again, no matter the fit or threats you throw at me.
>>35058083>>35058090keep in mind im the same guy from last week. When she was trying to claim i pushed her down the steps.its actually insane how much she makes up situations and my wifes cousin is like .YES THIS IS HAPPENING, but at the same time wont do anything about it .Its like wtf kind of friend are you if you think shes being abused and you wont do anything to stop it?!?!but if you dont think shes being abused why are you still blaming me ?!?!
4 months after my mom passed, I accidentally saw my dad was texting with another woman while helping him with Google maps. He quickly took his phone away, and I pretended I didn't see anything.She was calling him my love and whatever. He also has a book in his bedside table with a note where she calls him "little bear" lmao. But she didn't have her number saved in his phone. He tries to keep it a secret but it's kind of obvious when he locks himself up in his room to speak in the phone because he does it with nothing/nobody else. lolI don't care if my dad has a new girlfriend but he is so secretive I suspect he may have been cheating before my mom died/got ill, and that does irritate me.Asking him would be of no help, because if he was actually cheating he would not admit to it if confronted.Maybe I'm overthinking. Maybe she's a prostitute? Idk. Maybe they started dating afterwards...?
>>35058187*He didn't have her number saved*To speak on the phone*EtcSorry for typos I'm on the bus lmao
You took advantage of my loyalty and empathy. Thought you could do, say, whatever you felt, without consequence, because if you just played the "everybody leaves me" card and tear up a bit, I would comfort you and not want you to feel "abandoned." Was there ever any honest love in you, or was every act of kindness or generosity a show, a calculated move to get what you want from me? The ego boost of "I did something good, so I'm good?" None of it was for me, all of it was for you. My feelings or reactions were byproduct.
was never able to eat spicy food but I changed my birth control because it was making me sleepy all the time and now i cannot stop craving extremely spicy shit like i cannot stop eating buldak and shit and its GOODi could never eat this shit before in my whole lifewhat the fuck happened
i did it all for you.
>>35058242Was it worth it?
>>35058242A liar to the end, though perhaps you really believe it. Not sure which is more disappointing.
>>35058250Yes.. I didn't have much purpose before at least I made friends a long the way I wish I could still be their friend though instead of >>35058252I am not a liar sorry to be a disappointment
>I’ll write her letters and be out of her life. Watch from afar. Dedicate myself solely to my work. I can’t stomach a broken family. I’d rather her have no dad than an absent one. You can have everything I have just tell her I died. It’s over.Wish you meant it instead of just trying to manipulate me to do what you want lol
>>35057727>>35057738>>350577503 anons quick fired and shot each other in the face. The only confirmed narc from how its typed is the *s and all caps.
>>35058294Was >>35058116 toward you?
my ex refused to call me by my real name for the duration of our relationship which was years and instead called me by a username.
>>35058341Same except it wasn't a username I just never told him my real name the entire time I was with him
You wish you looked like Ryuuko matoi but you didn't look after yourself.
>>35058348>>35058341online relationships are not real lol
>>35058242so how could you? how dare you?
I need a fucking drink.
getting on adderall and prozac soonwill this fix my life?
Do they get pleasure from my pain? Control? I’m trying to be kind. I’m trying to be there. It’s hard. It’s so hard. I can’t sleep. So worried. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts.
I want to be there everyday. It’s not my choice. I failed but I tried, I was willing to keep trying. I’m sorry. It hurts so much.
>>35058475Only you can fix your life, but the medications can help make things less daunting to fix.>t. PharmD
>>35058505>Only you can fix your lifei just need to be less retarded
Shit, im really just doing the best I can. It’s excruciating. I’ve wanted to vomit and thought about dying. Can’t sleep, work myself up into fits at night when I should be tired. This isn’t right. It’s not natural it’s not fair. But what can I do? Just be kind. Hope that it breaks through their shell. That consistent kindness shows I’m not a threat or enemy or evil or a monster. Yes, I still care about you too, retard. This wasn’t my choice.
>>35058509As do we all, anon
>>35058518I love you too
It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. I asked for help.None came. I’ll be ok. I’ll offer help, all the same.
>>35058519I wish you were her saying that
Coming home to them, a dream now. Checking on them while they sleep. Silently thanking God for them and praying for their safety, seeing them grow and play and be happy. They deserve a proper home. I’m sorry. It’s not my choice. I’ll do my best. I love you. Always.
I wonder when they’ll ask. It’ll be hard. I have a hard enough time now. My sweetheart. I love you so much. You’re perfect. I’m so sorry. I’m so so sorry.
Tainted. Ruined. Destroyed. I’ve always been all or nothing up to now. I think shes changed that, though the impulse still remains. Sometimes I would still rather die than fail. I just love them so much though. Would that not be a greater failure? A harder explanation? Pitiful, undesirable, cursed situation. Not my choice. Not my choice. Not my choice.
Ive brought such shame on our family. Unable to head my own. That’s not for you to be concerned about, but I am sorry, it does hurt me. Changes how I see myself. I don’t deserve anything, failure. But I have you. And you need me, want me, love me. It’s mutual. I’m sorry. You don’t deserve any of the anguish this will bring, the instability, the feelings of inadequacy and anxiety. I’ll tell you that as often as I can. It’s not your fault, it’s mine.
Im sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I really tried for you. I tried my best. I’ll hold you tight. Tell you I always want you, always will love you.
I need to be kinder to myself. This really wasn’t up to me. Yeah, I failed, but I tried. Intention matters.
Kind to yourself. Very difficult. I feel like I’ve always lived to serve and protect others. I find it very hard to turn inward, to celebrate myself. I can accurately gauge my abilities and objectively say the good qualities I have, but in terms of appreciating them, it’s hard. I don’t know why. My parents would compliment me, friends too. I just never really cared much for things that werent related to protection. I’m exploring that in counselling. Why I view myself as function over feeling. It’s not like I’m a psychopath, I get happy, sad, etc. I just am not neurotypical in this regard. Strict moral code taught to me by my dad? Plays a role to be sure, but it’s not like he ever told me to not be happy about my accomplishments and good qualities. Autism? Perhaps. Ah, I miss having someone to share all of this with. «You are light» that meant a lot to me, when I was questioning my worth and downplaying my abilities. Ah, regret. Regret. Regret. Couldn’t help them. Couldn’t save them.
>>35058553>Intention matters.I know what you are.
Its a self fulfilling prophecy. But I think it’s better to not fight it. There’s some happiness in fulfilling my role. It’s not something I hate, just would crave a little extra. To be loved for me and not just what I do or provide. Too selfish, I’m sure, not grateful enough for what I have. Pain. Blah. Words. Vomit them out. Is there anything here to even fix? I feel bad because the situation is bad. That’s normal. I’m being kind and doing the best I can. That’s better than most. Shouting into the void every now and then helps a bit.
I wonder. If I offered to just be my role, would that be enough? If I didn’t ask for anything in return? Really was just a wallet with muscles, would things have been better then? A foolish dream.
I really wish they at least would’ve tried things my way. The counselling I tried for them didn’t help. >list out your grievances >ok And that was it, lol. No actionable advice, not analysis of arguments. Just tearing each other apart. I didn’t want that? Why would anybody? Stop thinking. Stop thinking. Stop. I wonder if in some weird cosmological way my worrying somehow helps at all. Like the energy of care transfers. I’d like that, but it obviously doesn’t. I’d have worried enough to make everything ok. I needed help. Do you how hard that was to ask for? I never asked for help. I can’t remember the last time I did outside of some chore related minor shit. But to really openly ask for help for something serious? Ha. Ignored too. Pleasure in pain. Idk man. Just fucked. So cold and calculated. I don’t get how. Like it’s unnerving. I just wanted a fucking hug.
>>35058572Would this love have been enough? Would I still have been abandoned, ruined, eventually? Were those notes I loved so much lies too, like the tears we shed together, like our embrace, throwing each other at one another, clinging to one another? It felt so real. It felt like the pressure of everything was gone. That I was well and truly loved and loved in return. That everything would be ok as long as we held each other. Thank you for that. Even if it was fake.
It felt like everything was worth it. Like I was appreciated. Cared about. Hahahahhahahahahahaha. Ha.
if i don’t get some kind of good news soon i’m going to snap
I am playing wow this week for the first time and am hoping it is a solid month+ distraction from thinking too much about you lol.
>>35058622Please don't forget about me
>>35058623That would never happen. You are very dear to me.
I hope you never think of me.
>>35058726Sorry but I do. Too much in fact.
>>35058726Get out of my head get out of my head get out of my head get out of my head!!!
My celebrity crush got embarrassed live on French television. She played one of her worst songs in a duet and it sounded like shitty karaoke... I can feel the attraction fade... Thank God...
I really hope that wasn't you who initially posted that thing about someone raping their relative. I don't believe that, and I don't even know who it is about, but around me believe that I believe it, I think. Concerning!
You saying how you had a job lined up for me confirmed you were a liar to make it out like you were going to that job just for me to frame me as the villain, that isn't how reality is.
Im scared. Please. I’m cold and alone and need you.
>>35058726I wish it were otherwise, sadly, you still haunt my mind even after all this time.I still haven't found someone I have loved more than you.
>>35059265why does this house anon always post when I pos? Are you a bot?
Im scared. I don’t want this. Please.
>>35059288No I am not a bot I am someone with troubled thoughts and cannot share it with anyone so I post it here, why do you think i am that home guy who only replies to posts by reframing everything to be about him.
also, I know I'm just playing into the schizo accusations (against me) here, but any time I see a post that reminds me of you I freak out. It's deserved, especially atp when I keep picking at the wound, and when I keep falling for it (gullible). Some of the shit I raged out at internally is hilarious though, you gotta hand it to the mentally ill mind. It's one of the most creative things on the planet.
Why is it that 90% of the Mikes I know of are complete and utter bums?
>>35059309so you didn't break up with a woman who wanted to buy a flat?
>>35059315Oh that is what you meant by house anon, yes you are correct.
>>35059313dont say that name you'll set him off.>>35059320who else would it be?
I want to throw up. I want to throw up. Shaking.
>>35059326It's not a joke, I know of this Mike who's a schizo bum, I know of two others who are complete druggies and fucking stink. I only have met one successful Mike. The name is cursed in my mind. Need my kids to have good Anglo-Saxon names, a good name is a blessing in of itself.
>>35059340What's wrong?
>>35059272have you tried a sweater? a blanket, even?>>35059307changed your mind?>>35059340: ( Sometimes it feels better after you puke, but don't force it. I've also felt sick to my stomach many times lately because of mental shit and you just have to distract yourself in that case.
>>35059326Yeah it is me the anon who broke up with a woman who wanted to buy the upper flat to her parents lower flat
i wish i had someone to buy a flat with. Maybe in another 10 years?
Ill be 41 in 10 years, with my savings accumulated I could afford a flat probably but by then what would the point be. People only want shortcuts to their goals and if it is around money they'll step on whoever to get it.
>>35059429A place to live? What do you mean? Unless owning a flat is low status in your country or something idk.
>>35059434I already have shelter with family. Flats are likely deemed lesser than free standing house considering the prices are almost the same.
>>35059457Why not buy something and move out eventually though? Unless you're inheriting the house when they die? I'm mid 20s and I haven't lived at home since I was 17, so your experience is a bit strange to me.
>>35058553Fyi Im not the one writing any of this, just making that clear
>>35059475I was behind in life until recently. shut-in from age 16 to about 23, years of studies without pay off until 30, this is the first time I've ever had considerable savings from the last year of work but it isn't enough to justify moving out anymore, I don't think there ever will be.
You're not a good friend if you decide to arbitrarily leave them just because they're a pedophile
>>35059313Narc tactic to attempt to decieve her into mispercieving me>>35059342I am successful. Dont be a twat. Also i finished reading will the thread and need to mention my last posts have my trip. Im not any of these no trip posts that are having an episode
>>35059522Acting pedo or non acting pedo who is seeking therapy? Big difference.>>35059510Ahh. I'm not a complete shut in, but I'm a bit too lazy to go to school at this time. It's hard to start something for me, so I've just procrastinated with working.
Things got a lot clearer once I understood your accusations were confessions.
you took seeking reason and answers as lashing out.
I think my mom sees me as a loser It frustrates me a lot that she sees me that way but doesn't come out and say it.I feel like I'm trying my hardest to improve myself and be as independent and functional as I can possibly be, yet I still don't live up to her unspoken expectations. I have a job, maybe not a great one, am saving up money and applying to grad school. Yet every time we speak she gives me a look of resigned disappointment. What do you want from me? What more can I do?
I feel physically sick the longer I go without seeing you. I honestly don't know how I lived without you in the first place. Please change your mind.
>>35059651I never not wanted to be with you.
>>35059624have you tried asking her what she needs? She's your fucking mother, you need to do whatever you can.
>>35059731>what she needs?Wdym. If she needed something i would do whatever is necessary of course. That's not what my post is about
Lol you're so full of shit, all that "I'll be kind" and begging and the moment you get here you're glaring and reacting with hostility to anything I say.
>>35059784Whom?
>>35058559I can understand and relate somewhat though I don't feel like im overly altruistic to others. I have the same tendency though of underplaying myself and disliking being complimented or given attention
Did you really think I'd come crawling back, with no change and effort or accountability on your part? Ah, I guess that is my fault for doing so twice before, and giving your words, promises, weight over your actions. Over empathizing with you, not wanting to "abandon" you, led to me bearing such fucking cruelties, again and again and again.
I imagine that every schizo post in this thread that's vaguely female is the girl I like and I imagine she reads every schizo post in this thread that's vaguely male as me and it makes GIOYC a lot more fun.
You said I abandoned you after I stopped responding so much to you, What did you expect after breaking up with me for a reason that I was actively working on and did succeed in? You became a lower priority in my life after that day.
Tell me, what is it you desire?
>>35060157Freedom.
>>35060157Her.
>>35059313I'm no bum...
i jobbed to my insecurity
>>35060199That's okay.
>>35060199What happened
>>35059522Nah they did the right thing to leave
>>35059313Michael Jordan? Mike Myers? Get outta here, goombah
>>35060157Peace. Care. Real love.
>>35060157I want to reconcile with her. I don't care if I never end up with her, but I want to tell her my side of the story and I want to hear hers. I think we had an eerily similar experience to each other without knowing it.
>>35060157a husband
>>35060276Wanna hang out?
>>35060282only if ur husband material
>>35060292I'd like to think I am. Do you think you could keep up as wife?
>>35060095Thats why I have a trip. So she isnt misled by the lies others say, larping as me and spinning some bullshit false narrativs
I only want your voice. Your truth. If its you larping, stop. Dont Larp from mine. Speak from yours
>>35060215i gave up too soon
I want to go back to the mountains. I want to take her to the peaks and look down on the valleys, dotted with highland cows and turkeys and sheep. I want to find a stream and splash around with her, keep every rock her tiny hands give me. Build little stick dens and fires, tend to our animals, lay in tree-dappled shade in the summer as bees humm lazily by. I'm condemned to a city. I will never have the family I wanted, I will never be able to give her the life I wanted to, because I chose wrong.
>>35060371Nothing wrong with trying again right?
>>35060295...hmand what makes u husband material?
>>35056785idk I got sent to the aunt on my dads side and the others got sent to the aunt on our moms side. idk what the logic was, especially with all the legal issues, it should’ve been easier to keep us in the same family
>>35060445For starters, I'm financially secure enough to own my home and car, and I work a well paying job to support myself and future family.Do you want to take this elsewhere? Have discord, stoat, or some form of contact?
>>35060471u seem way out of my league , it makes me nervousfarewel
>>35060383i'm not sure if i'll even have another chance lol. not that i was given one to begin with
>>35060480That's cap and you know it. Oh well
>>35060494What makes you think there's not another chance? Cant be that bad can it?
>>35060469I don't see why that would be the case, unless there's conflict between the children OR one of the families can't take all of them. Still odd. I'm an only child so I have no idea what even having a sibling is like, but that really has to fuck up your relationship with them, at least for a bit.
>>35060380Your husband left you?
>>35060562I left him.
Has anyone here done trauma oriented therapy?
>>35060471How did you afford your own home, is it still in mortgage?
I want to watch Wildwood.
>>35060517i'm not sure.
I thought better of you, really I did. I thought you had the capacity for depth and better understanding.
>>35060670I do. But I still don't read minds and my empath 'abilities' are shut off.
>>35060586I do it on myself as much as I can. It helps a lot. If I had money I'd use it to seek a professional for sure
maybe she'll regret dumping me if i self immolate on live television
>>35059576Just find something you like to do
>>35060693I used to have those thoughts too 1 year into the relationship. I was going to buy her a massive christmas gift then fly to her country and self immolate at a famous stadium nearby her home. We patched things up but repeatedly broke my heart every year for 7 years until I didn't want to be hurt anymore. So that last time I became an uncaring wall. She moved onto someone else and marrying them a year later.
>>35060713i hope you were able to move on, anon. every relationship is different but to me, marrying within a year is usually a sign of settling/desperation or delusion. one year isn't enough time to decide you want to spend the rest of your life with someone imo. but if you were off/on for 7 years it's certainly for the best that you didn't end up with her, even if it hurts.
>>35060746Im trying to move on, i tried to confront her about some of the bottled up feelings around it in attempt to ease it but it only worsened things to where one day blocked because she had secured the next person with very favorable prospects. I just feel I was keeping to the path but was never good enough.
>>35060693I wish a guy cared enough about me to do this. I'd remember him forever
"And I wouldn't marry me eitherPathological people pleaser..."
>>35060817Taylor Swift is actually a good example of a "people pleaser" aka narc being a bad person
>>35060830Okay?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TxfBE1qX924
>>35060830i'd consider listening to any modern female pop artist a red flag because they all sing absolutely insane shit about sex, exes, dating, etc. but that would disqualify 99% of the dating pool unfortunately. skimming through lyrics to olivia rodrigo and sabrina carpenter shit for the first time because my ex really liked them was an eye opening experience.
Had a dream yesterday where I met and fell in love with a woman but had to call the relationship because she refused to get attached and was falling into addiction. I can't stop thinking about it.
>>35060857Can you give an example?
>>35060857The male equivalent of this is listening to Drake
>>35060920I listen to Drake.
>>35060788I have money self employed passive income, the house paid off, everything really. The truth is none of thet matters to me. Its all indulgences and satiations. Love means more to me.
>>35060913specific examples off the top of my head no, but i just remember there being a funny pattern of songs either being about casual hook-ups, flings, etc. or about hating men for only seeing the artist as good for casual hook-ups, flings, etc. as if one attitude doesn't inevitably lead to the other. also iirc sabrina carpenter was more "extreme" than olivia rodrigo and taylor swift.i guess i just find it funny that women identify with those lyrics. like if my girlfriend said "this song reminds me of me and you" and showed me a song by sabrina carpenter i'd be concerned. also i'm not talking about taylor swift from like two decades ago, "you belong with me" and the like were extremely inoffensive.>>35060920drake sucks ass and i wouldn't fault any woman for dumping a drake fan for musical taste alone.
>>35060982>"you belong with me"wasnt this song about stealing taken men? at least the mv was
>>35060982I like his music.
They need to increase the bump limit on this board. Either that, or give GIOYC its own board since it's not technically seeking advice.
>>35060930Good for you champ.
>>35061125GIOYC and ATOGA are the only threads that consistently hit bump limit, there's not much point in upping it IMO.
>>35060815You either die horribly and be remembered forever or disappoint long enough to be eventually forgotten...
