>22yo pussyfree lonely incel addicted to bnwo porn>Extreme social anxiety and barely go outside unless forced to meet relativesWhy am I like this?
come home, whiteboi
>>944349257Post more porn here
>Extreme social anxiety and barely go outside unless forced toYou must have extreme guilt and paranoia. All it takes is you finding a girl that is okay with you being her faggot gay bestie
Anyone want to help me relapse to blacked while at work?057e5bbe9f2fb9e3cc9bacee4cb94765d7ffe9d80da25a798efd31a3cb0482b806
>>944349459I’m home now :/>>944349471Why?>>944349532>You must have extreme guilt and paranoiaI do and I always think people can sense the loser in me when I look in their eyes
>>944349257>>944349459Pure /kino/
>>944349257>Why am I like this?because you are brown
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>>944349471Also, this.
>>944354120I’ve seen this
Pussyfree whiteboys unite
Failure to launch developmental porn addiction is realDigging out of it is a bitch, because it's a reinforcing cycle of social anxiety and drugs the body makes on its ownBeen fighting the same battle for 25 years and it doesn't get easier, but you can develop tech and tools to help
>>944349257I still bust to that Lana and Leah scene. Just search discord for BNWO or BBC goon servers, you will find more people like you.I recommend Whiteboi Sanctuary Blacked NexusThe Goon cave
>>944355215It’s so hard to escape this
>>944355386you doesn't even look white
>>944355386>>944355592it's the lighting
>>944355548I don't know if you're American but the social fabric here makes it so fucking difficult to talk about this kind of thing outside of a clinical setting.Can't talk to family for obvious reasons, unless you have a same sex sibling that understands.Nobody wants to be the jerkoff guy, regardless of what kink hole you're into.I constantly remind myself that a relapse isn't a regression, and that a certain amount of masturbation is healthy. If you can learn to masturbate without porn then that's a big first step. It's really hard at first.Use of porn as a drug is where the problem is. And people use drugs because they're hurting or fear it will hurt without them.
>>944355889The weirdo Christian line about sexually abusing yourself is pretty much bullshit. The connotation that you're forcing your own body to constantly make the feel good chemicals is however very real. There isn't an overdose line but you can develop super high tolerances and dependence on the chemical state, and that will manifest as compulsive porn-seeking and masturbation.The bnwo thing is new. I didn't have to contend with that when I was younger. Assuming you're white there's a whole other layer of racial anxiety that comes with it. Remember that it's not fucking real, the whole thing is a giant fetish construct the internet made up that mostly only exists online. Everyday people don't brush up against it in the same way you do.
>>944356140I know that it’s a fetish. The thing i’m worried about is how it has rewired me over the years. How has it turned me into a social awkward loser, why do I start sweating and stutter when talking in public, why do I always think people look at me as if they’re disgusting, and so on…When I decide to give in and start stroking to bnwo/interracial porn, is when I get a short relief. But then, I don’t know what my issue is.
>>944356396Same, dude. I sought out counseling and had a couple lucky breaks with situations where I couldn't indulge for extended periods of time.The rewiring part is tricky. When the trigger is social anxiety about being a wanking loser, and the temporary fix is going for a wank, then it's self-reinforcing.It really is a vicious cycle. Therapy can actually help, since it's a compulsive behavioral pattern. I have not found a secular AA equivalent for porn addicts, which is a fucking shame.
AMA
When did you all first cum to blacked porn, and when did you know you were addicted?
>>944357360Megan Rain's first scene in 2015
Why do Russians and Israelis make these threads so much?
>>944357495They both have issues with other ethnic groups and see themselves as pure. Then a little Ivan or Yosef sees Lana Rhoades ride Jason Luv and they get hard and have ethnic issues to work out.
>>944357435how old were you at the time?
South Asia needs to be IP banned.
>>94435763220 I'm 31 now, 10 years of blacked
>>944355386your penis looks genuinely putrid
>>944357716aww
Good boy
You should use grindr to meet a black king and submit to his black dick
>>944355386I've seen your Elyse Willems tribute, have you considered Barbara or Griffon and Millie?
>>944357813why isn't he licking his asshole?
>>944358987no but I did an Alanah onehavent done tributes in a while, just goon on discord with other whiteboisfull Elyse vid is on erome
>>944349257Possibly the best scene Blacked ever made.
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>>944359635>>944359730normal guys see this and think "hmm, I would like to fuck these girls"whitebois like me see this and think "hmm, I would like to be those girls"
>>944359635yeshttps://www.erome.com/a/uJdW7r6s
>>944359953>>944357341Holy fuck this looks so good, like it's about to burst at any second. I can feel the tension through the screen. It's pure pleasure coursing through that meat. Makes me kinda jealous honestly.>>944356396Fapping ends up being a great form of self-pity, unfortunately. I also fail a lot in social situations, especially with women, and cope by (figuratively) running home and fapping. The problem is quite simple, really: it feels better to keep coping than to try and make the effort to improve.
>>944360379you gotta have fun doing what you love
