sometimes i feel like ill never find true love in this hypersexualized disgusting world.im an unattractive autistic girl, and a few weeks ago i was asked out by an older man at work (he was 29 im 18 but at the time i thought he was 24-25ish), it was the first time anyone has ever asked me out in my whole life, and i was so excited. i texted all my online friends about it, stayed up all night dreaming about how it would go. i knew he liked to play video games, so i thought at the very least we could bond over that and maybe play together, but the day came, we met at the park, and i got in his truck to chat. the whole time all he did was talk about sex and all his ex girlfriends, i genuinely wanted to cry my eyes out. the one guy whos ever asked me out in my whole life, and i couldnt even get a word in! all he did was talk and talk about sex with girls and old workplace drama, i wanted to talk about video games and maybe ask him if he liked anime (which now im glad i didnt)i know im 18 now and i cant act like a little girl anymore, but deep in my heart i still am. i still sit around all day drawing anime girls in my sketchbook, i still watch my little pony, i still watch markiplier, i still play roblox, i still roleplay with my friends.. i wanna talk about hatsune miku and genshin impact not your stupid fucking boner dudeim not even completely opposed to the idea of sex, but i just want LOVE first. ive always dreamed of falling in love with a guy that i become good friends with first, and then getting crushes on each other. i know it sounds so stupid when i say it outloud. i quit my job not long after, so its back to neeting for me, making it even harder to meet anyone.be honest, should i just give up? should i stay single forever and just live with my fantasies?
>>947079148I’m sorry to hear that friend, I don’t think you should give up, but do keep in mind to try and first feel out what kind of person you wish you want to enter a relationship with. Perhaps start out as friends with them and both have the goal of becoming something more romantically of course. Do keep your head up all isn’t over
>>947079418thank you, it means alot to me that you took time out of your day to reply! sadly making friends is pretty hard too, but ive been trying to learn how to play MTG so that i can maybe go to events and stuff to get out and meet other nerdy people,maybe ill have some luck. again, thank you
>>947079148>should i just give up?You need to grow up first, then see if getting into a relationship is what you want/need right now.We could be friends irl. I'm a 25 year old neet, and I play Pokemon.
>>947079543That’s a good idea, try going to tea rooms and or other public events that might tickle your fancy. I don’t know where you’re from but in my area there’s always something going on with stores shops and public events of that nature.
>>947079556i get what you mean about growing up first, i do tend to get way over my head sometimes. not to traumadump but i was never really loved as a child or ever in my life so ive always had dreams of wholesome love/relationships to fill the void in me. but life isnt always like that, and i cant count on a relationship to fix my mental issues. but i do still yearnps i like pokemon too :3 i recently got a modded 3ds and ive been playing pokemon moon nonstop
>>947079675sadly i live in a small kentucky town so my options are limited.. life is hard for the country weeb :<
>>947079718You sound smart and self aware of your problems. I know that even though you know getting into a relationship right now is probably not a good idea, you still yearn for it.Just try to have low expectations, and maybe someone special will show up.I love pokemon sapphire (Hoenn region) and leaf green (Kanto region). But these are the only ones I had the opportunity to play so far.
>>947079148You are a little girl so there's nothing wrong with acting like one. 18 is very young to have figured relationships out.
>>947079851im glad you feel that way, i guess i just look at girls my age and feel so behind in life, like theres something wrong with me because im so different
He was emotion dumping on you and has bad people skills. Its not that he does not like you. He is just autistic.Also this world is prudish if anything. Can't even talk about sex without someone making a big deal about it. Until there is an orgy outside every other day I see no reason to call it hypersexual. So far I have not seen one. Not ever.
>>947079148Don't give up. You can't let this experience dictate how you perceive people forever. There are people out there who aren't sex crazed and genuinely seek connection.PS im also in a small kentucky town, and ive had similar experiences with women, so i understand your pain
>>947081070thanks anon, it means alot. i never thought id end up hearing such good advice from people on b of all placesmaybe we can all be happy :)
>>947081188Correct. It's never over, unironically. You seem like a really cool and genuine person, and i can tell you with all sincerity there are people out there who aren't shallow and impulse driven like that guy. Unfortunately there are a lot of bovine idiots who think about five things maximum, all of them decadent and ephemeral, but there are absolutely still plenty of true souls out there. It took me a while to accept this because my town is filled to the brim with these sorts of people, but the more i got out there and interacted with others, the more i realized it was true.
>>947081423youre totally right, i want to see good in people, though sadly that requires leaving the house and even when i do manage to go somewhere public my social anxiety makes it near impossible to actually interact with people, even when theyre talking about my interests, or have a good merch item that i like and wanna talk about, i get so nervous and scared of being cringe that i just hide and stay quiet.. but i want to have courage and come out of my shell, i really truely do.
>>947081583I used to be like this. The best thing you can practically do is repeated exposure. I know it might sound cliche, but it really is the best way of overcoming it. I used to be unable to even go in stores because id get so panicky, but now i think nothing at all of dealing with crowds or expressing myself.In regards to self expression, you have to affirm to yourself there's nothing wrong with liking what you like. You aren't doing something immoral, you aren't being a bad person for liking particular things. Individuality is a blessing, not something to be ashamed of. For the time being, try to go out more and just generally be in the space of people. While you're there, acknowledge that people aren't as judgemental as anxiety cooks them up to be, most of them aren't judging anyone at all unless they're being a menace and actively bothering others or being inconsiderate. From the information i have here, i legitimately don't see you as behind in life or cringe or whatever else. I think you're being entirely too hard on yourself which is natural, anxiety blows things WAY out of proportion. The best thing you can do is just be who you want to be and don't think too deeply about the thoughts of people who are, in some cases genuinely, thoughtless.
>>947081769yeah, youre 100% right. i know its gonna suck the first couple times, i might not even muster up the will to speak at all, but ill try to just be there, however that may be.. it doesnt help that im a really easy cryer, always have been my whole life and ive never found anything that helps, the second i get even a little upset/dissapointd/embaressed i burst into tears and cant control it at all. if i did go out and get made fun of id probably hibernate for another 10 years in shame.but i guess i dont know if i never try? i think this week im gonna try and get a magic deck together, and maybe start by asking the shopkeep about mtg stuff.. thatll be the most ive done in a while.i sympathise with the store thing also, i have to majorly hype myself up to go in my tiny little dollar store lol..
>>947079148>sometimes i feel like ill never find true love in this hypersexualized disgusting world.True love is never going to ask you out, but you can ask true love out if you take initiative and make intelligent dating decisions. You need to be careful about age gap relationships because some of these dudes are aged master manipulators. Have make sure you're making intelligent dating decisions. Moreover you should not enter the car (let alone house/apartment) of what is effectively a stranger on the first meeting.That was extremely dangerous. What if he was an axe murderer?>im an unattractive autistic girlNonsense. Generally speaking, men do want the hottest they can get and when they get that some of the mean ones want yet more women that they can ensnare on the side while maintaining the hottest.Ultimately men find the predominate majority of women attractive on some level. You might not be the prettiest but you never needed to be.>i know im 18 now and i cant act like a little girl anymore, but deep in my heart i still am. i still sit around all day drawing anime girls in my sketchbook, i still watch my little pony, i still watch markiplier, i still play roblox, i still roleplay with my friends.. i wanna talk about hatsune miku and genshin impactThen find a clique at school that float around some of that stuff. Probably some dudes there that are more your speed.>im not even completely opposed to the idea of sex, but i just want LOVE first.Eeehhhh... well...The way oxytocin works is that you'll feel the love when a guy does a good job about 3 times consecutively, just how the biomechanics works out.You're not wrong though. Allowing yourself to bind to someone like that, you do want to pick a guy who actually likes you, likes the things you like, and that cares about you and you care about him.(cont.)
>>947079148There are a lot of women who throw themselves at Chad and Chad binds through vasopressin, not oxytocin, and Chad ain't getting much vasopressin built up, let's just say that.>ive always dreamed of falling in love with a guy that i become good friends with first, and then getting crushes on each other. i know it sounds so stupid when i say it outloud.It's not stupid. 100,000 years ago when people were in secluded tribes of about 100 people that's exactly how it'd go down. You'd be friends for over 10 years before puberty would kick in. In atomized, individualistic, society you don't get 10 years to build a friendship with someone you get 1 to maybe 5 dates/outings before either of you get fed up with the lack of anything happening.So what you should do is find a group of people who're you're more likely than not to eventually become good friends with, get to know them some, start that process, and if in a month or 3 they don't gross you out completely? Shoot a shot, and if they do well? Reward it with sex.>be honest, should i just give up? should i stay single forever and just live with my fantasies?More people are doing that. People are getting real fed up with the dating marketplace.It's a decision you're going to have to make, and the wonderful thing about it is that you have time to make that decision and do right with what's best for you. No need to rush.(end)
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>>947082012You've already made a big step by committing to trying. Even if you're prone to crying easily, it doesn't have to be that way forever. You can build mental fortitude with repeated experiences. It does suck for a while, obviously, but it pays off tremendously in the end. I can almost guarantee nobody is going to make fun of you for basic stuff like buying merch or expressing interest in something. It just straight up doesn't happen in real life in 99.9% of cases. You should def go for the deck because that's a great start, speaking to someone with a shared interest gives you a foundation to work with and takes off some of the pressure. Do you have discord by any chance? You seem like a really good conversationalist
>>947082202you seem pretty wise ^^ yeah, i am self aware enough to know what i need to do, its just.... the doing (ominous)...my discord is yanbite if you wanna chat :3c
>>947082398>you seem pretty wiseBut do you?You make a post advertising you're barely legal, inexperienced, and divulge to a bunch of sociopaths what you're looking for, and lo and behold you have someone tailoring their responses to that vibe throughout this entire thread.I mean read this shit:>>947082202>You seem like a really good conversationalist>Do you have discord by any chance?Predator laying the groundwork for the trap.
