I don't even understand what the point of it all is. I don't understand why I was put here. Every day is misery, all I care about is getting to my bed. When I'm asleep I feel at peace but as soon as a I wake up I immediately realize who I am, what I am, how much of a lesser person I am. Life is noting but suffering for me. What's the point of it all seeing the ones you want but just not being good enough. Having your heart shattered by the one you loved or at least though you loved. I don't understand why it was me why was I chosen to suffer such a cruel faith. Everyday feels like it's more meaningless then the last. The loss of youth, the loss of hope. I am left starving everyday for love and something else some form of satisfaction it feels like I'm running through an abandoned building with my life constantly.
>>947334326Try being a doordasher. Then you can complain. It's a huge load of reality all over your face every fucking day.
There is no point. Stop trying to understand it. The point doesn't matter. Make your own purpose if you need one to continue living in a meaningless universe.
>>947334530I know I have one time it's awful.
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>>947334326Meaning is a human construct, an effort to rationalize an absurd and irrational universe. Read Camus' Myth of Sisyphus.
>>947334326That's weird. I listened to my instincts, I shunned Jewish nonsense and their NPC golems, and what I've got is a life that I unironically want to praise God, praise somebody for. I don't even claim any religion. It's sorta as if life is what you make it. Pretty awkward for (You) if youve been in this reality for several decades now and have nothing to show for it.
>>947335619Yeah I didn't make the right choices in my youth still trying to get my shit together and I'm pushing 30 already. 4chan hasn't helped.
>>947336098You always got the westernoids trump card. If you can't make it here, you can always cash out and live like a king in a third world country for as little as tens of thousands of dollars. Might not be glamorous, but you'll be instantly high caste and a fresh restart
>>947334530I'm just gonna complain anyway and you can't stop me.
>>947334326God is evil.
>>947334326>getting to my bed.I spend half the day sleeping since I learned to lucid dreamfar more interesting than my daily awake nightmare
>>947338758Lucid dreaming will fuck you up anon. You're not supposed to do that you'll take to much of your brain power. Your mind will purposely stop you and make your nightmares worse until you do.
