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>>948324599

Homosexual spam thread
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It was gradual process for me. I had experience blowing guys before I bottomed. It didn't affect relating to women, I never talk to them very much.

>>948324599
>>948324679

Samefag detected
>KYS

>>948324679

Did you feel more submissive after that?

>>948325034
I was already fairly submissive, but it probably made me more so.

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>>948324599
It was ok, back when I was a twink I tried bottoming a bunch of times and I wasn't really that into it. I think you have to physically enjoy it, I don't think I'm wired for that.
As I approached 30 guys wanted me to top them more, which I wasn't into at first (still twinkbrained) but I got into it pretty quick.

>>948324599
Yes

>>948325182

Is it common for gay dudes to switch up?

>>948324599
It felt great the first and only time. He only went halfway in and only did it for about 30 seconds but as soon as I found him Bush in, I was really enjoying it. Wish you would’ve really gone harder and come, but it was still fun. Laying on your back like that with legs up is a bit of a weird feeling, but I was with somebody that I trusted so I enjoyed it.

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>>948325521
In my experience all my friends started off vers-ish and then tended towards the one they like most.
Another factor is what guys want you for, I'm in a place in my life now where I get messages from guys on Grindr asking me to force fuck them. Even if I wasn't already a top, there's environmental pressure to do it lol

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Takes a lot of work to get there

>>948325656
Being with someone you trust is very important. I also like to lay on my back with legs spread for my man.

>>948325732
Looks like you have had your share of cock.

can i respond as a tranner lol

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>>948325839
Nope. Not yet :)

>>948325826
Yeah, now I wonder if taking a cock in another positions would feel even better? It was a bit hard to get the angle right when I was on my back.

>>948326144
You have to experiment to see what works the best. I do believe that the top man decides the position. Most of the guys I've been with took me in the face down ass up position.

My first was my second best experience taking dick in my ass. His size was perfect, not too small, not too big, almost perfect. Only problem was he came too fast.
It was my fist time with a man, but my ass had plenty of experience with very different objects (I don't even remember everything I had put in my ass) and many dildos and buttplugs.
All other times, with one exception, were kind of OK, but not actually great.

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>>948324599
My first time i didnt like it. It hurt and I did take the sensation. But my second time was with a gay bar friend who is double my age so I was I was in my early 20s and he must of been in his 50s. I was riding his cock and it felt great and I wanted to make him feel good which adds to it. So it depends in if your into the person or not. I just felt weird though for riding someone thats the same age of my dad

>>948328153
>>948328165

Did you feel emasculated after that? I don't mean that in a bad way, just wondering if you felt wierded out after your first.

My first time was in the forest just 10 meter from the road. I arrived first and my heart was pounding. I watched some sissy hypno while waiting for a bit. Then I heard his car and i saw him coming into the little clearing i was in. I had this excited feeling I've never felt before. We said hi and then i dropped to my knees and opened his pants. His cock was way bigger than i had expected and i sucked him for a while. The I asked him if he wanted to go inside me and he said yes. I pulled down my pants and i dropped to my hands and knees and i put some lube on my ass. When he pushed in it hurt a bit but i felt so slutty that it was perfect. He pushed in deep and started fucking me. After some time i asked him to cum deep in me and fill me up and he came immediately. I want to experience it like that again but im in a relationship now

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>>948328392
I did feel ashamed and a bitch afterwards but thats something you get over. But in the moment your holding hands and kissing. Cuddling in his arms with his cum leaking from your ass. So your going to feel emasculated

>>948324599
So fucking hott

What's like having cum leaking out of your ass after that?

>>948324599
Different for everyone, right? I'm a hetero-presenting guy. Physically attracted to women, date women exclusively. But I have a bottom fetish. I was sticking things in my ass not long after I first masturbated, around 13 or so. The first time I bottomed I was so turned on by the idea of bottoming that I nutted before his dick touched my ass. The full feeling and the pressure against my prostrate was fucking awesome, and it was easy since I'd been fucking dildos for years. I've never been attracted to a guy, and I can't even imagine kissing one, but I'll ride a dick if I get the chance.

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>>948324599
>Gay/Bi anons
Where do you rank yourself, OP? Gay, bi, straight?

>>948328961
Bicurious

Unfortunately I came to that conclusion after I got into a long term (and hopefully my final) relationship

Will probably never experience sucking or being fucked

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>>948329139
>Unfortunately I came to that conclusion after I got into a long term (and hopefully my final) relationship
Ohh I see.
The best of both worlds situation would be if your wife was down for you having gay flings on the side, but that's unlikely to happen and would probably change the dynamics in your relationship which idk that's something you want.

Never taken it in the ass but I've sucked a lot of dick and it's actually got me laid by a woman once. Was drinking with a lady friend and we got on the topic of sex. She told me she had a hard time throating dick cause of her gag reflex. I told her I've never had an issue. She was like "no way I wanna see." She pulls out her dildo collection and we're both just sucking on dicks. I get hard cause I'm watching a pretty girl suck dick and she notices. She ends up sucking me off while I deepthroat a dildo and then I fucked her while she did the same. We hooked up for a while until she found a bf who doesn't suck dick.

What I've always been curious about is (assuming its a hookup) how do you feel when you run into the Top again?

Do you automatically feel submissive given he dumped a load in you?

>>948324599
It was a little intense. I had been practicing and we took our time but there were still a lot of new sensations I wasn't expecting.

That said, zero relation to women, bottoming has always felt like a masculine act done between two men

It was awesome. I was riding him and I felt it so far in my ass it was wild. Honestly no, not at all.

We were both dressed up in lingerie from my collection while high on speed. I don't know how, but I could take it to the root without feeling any pain, and it felt so exciting and slutty. I haven't done it since, but I'm not regretting anything. I feel that it wouldn't work without wearing thongs and stay-ups at a minimum, though.

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>>948324599
Dude was girthy but I had been fucking my own ass with a dildo for a few years by that point so it wasn't so bad. After some initial discomfort because he was thicker than anything I'd taken I settled into it and it felt amazing. He fucked me raw doggy for about 10 minutes, never really getting much faster than a normal plapping, until he pulled out and told me to get on my knees while he bust a load on my face. Overall great first experience

>>948328392
>>948328153
I did not feel emasculated. I felt happy I finally got to take dick in my ass. Up until that moment I had already masturbated countless of times just with the thought of doing it.

>>948332698
post hole

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I loved my first time, felt amazing to finally be fucked

>>948325826
I want to be your man.

fully gay man here.
had one boyfriend/partner of any kind in my life, it was for many years.
anal is extremely painful, it feels almost like a burning sensation, it’s not good at all.
he’d stick it in for a few seconds and i’d have to scream for him to take it out to give me a minute to breathe, then reenter and it’d be slightly less torturous but still just BAD.
the entire time, every time, i was begging for it to be over in my head while trying to seem into it
i’ve tried several times, and yes i used lube you retard, and yes i used a lot, we tried many different positions, i still hated it.
and it just isn’t sexy, because at BEST (which is extremely rare) it feels like pooping. which is nice, but not how i want to feel while being fucked.
feelsbadman. i’m a bottom but fucking hate receiving anal, i’d much rather give it (never tried, ex was a total top) sigh.
is there are even anyone out there compatible with me? i love giving blow jobs and BEGGED my ex to let me eat his ass, but never got to try

>>948333150
Thanks, I like that but I currently have a man.

>>948334103
Long thin cocks are the most comfy. Try loosening yourself with a dildo before you have sex.

>>948324599
I'm especially curious about bi anons who have had both. I like a toy in my ass while I jerk off but I've never had a total bottom experience and I bet that it's very different from fucking a woman.

>>948334311
thanks anon. i don’t know. people say to practice with dildos, which admittedly i’ve never tried. but like, i just don’t think i like it. i love the thought of being pinned and humped but anything entering my hole is too much. mentally i don’t like it either. maybe i was molested because he couldn’t even touch my ass without me reflexing by kicking or squirming. maybe he just wasn’t the right one, but i don’t know, yes dick size varies but really THAT much? where it’s just undoable and not a tiny bit of pleasure?

I did not enjoy it, at all. Was drunk, out of town at a work conference. Rather horny, cruised a few pages to find some fun. Was a guy staying in the same hotel as me, reluctantly went and met up at the bar, had some drinks and shot the shit. Then, we decided to head to the room and fuck around. Guy was hung, thick. We started with mutual oral, had drinks, once tipsy enough, I couldn’t stop gagging on him and he asked to fuck me. I let him, dude was NOT gentle. Literally lubed my ass up, his dick up, no warm up and forced it straight in.

Long story short, I was basically pinned, whimpering and grunting, he relentlessly fucked me for a few minutes until he came.

I felt like he ripped my ass inside out, literally hurt to shit for like a week.

>>948334517
are you mentally ill by chance

>>948334554
lol

I feel like gaymaxxing is better than being a virgin, (unless u get drugged raped and killed ofc.)

if it wasnt for the psychos, i was actually offered sex on a dogging website in the UK but i declined because i thought it would be dangerous.

i dont want aids and he thought i was vulnerable because i was 17 at the time.

>>948334841
It definitely beats being a virgin. Use common sense. Use condoms until you really know the man. I feel less lonely and I really feel appreciated by the guys I have sex with.

>>948334592
:( lol
in a way i guess
why? i’m curious what makes you ask that, even though i know you’re joking, i’m curious what i said that was so weird?
i don’t have any friends, let alone gay ones, i really don’t know much about this magical anal orgasm people talk about, even when i tried experiencing it myself

Had my first time bottoming last weekend. 22M who's long had an interest in Crossdressing/Femboy fashion, mostly stemming from an addiction to pretty female celebrities like Elle Fanning.

I took the plunge and purchased myself a good quality blonde wig, a black babydoll, matching panties, suspenders, stockings and black heels. Posted myself on Grindr and got swamped with messages of people wanting to top me.

I picked an older married dad

>>948334978
I wonder what it's like getting home wrecked by a boy

>>948334978
Married guys are a good choice. Practice your oral skills too. You will be quite popular.

It was pretty good, I had him dress me up as a girl too, that was phenomenal. It made me realize that I am better suited as a top, ultimatley. Sex life ended with me fucking him in the face and ass. :)

>>948335606
>Married guys are a good choice
how come? i dont want to engage in someone elses dishonesty

>>948336022
Tend to be safe, discrete, no drama.

my first time was recently when i found a guy on grindr in my hotel. i have played with toys somewhat but it doesnt really prepare you especially if they are eager

>>948336382
Please elaborate, I have only taken toys

>>948335465
>>948335606


Hahaha I wonder how his wife would react knowing instead of being at a work meeting he was instead balls deep inside a boy pretending he was Elle Fanning

>>948336430
i mean with toys you're completely in control and you mostly know what's happening next
he was very dominant in my case. choosing when to speed up, slow down. pushing me into a prone position or turning me over
i guess if you are more confident you naturally are less passive about it though

>>948324599
First insert hurt because we were both completely inexperienced, but now that we've been fucken for months, we got the hang of it and it's all smooth sailing :))) Topping is equally fun! Make sure to do both!

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>>948324599
First time I bottomed I came harder I've ever cum before or since. I've chased that dragon ever since, and while sometimes I cum while bottoming, never again did I experience such bliss. Unironically my legs gave up and my whole body was shaking, and the guy kept just powerfucking me while I spewed cum spout after spout. It was insane. He was pretty big but I think it was more about the release of all that pent-up sexual desire towards getting fucked by a man. Craziest thing is that I came twice more during that session, the last two ones were less intense but still amazing and so close to each other that I was basically flaccid during the last orgasm, but I still came some more. And that feeling having your ass absolutely filled when he finally came... Indescribable. Like he fucked me long and deep and with such intensity that never have I ever been able to fuck like that, nor has anyone fucked me like that since. And when he was done and he lied there on top of me, and I was pinned behind him and the matters, and I felt his still hard cock throb inside me, spewing more cum in me, I was in love at that moment. After the guy left, I went in front of the mirror and I remember fingering my cum-filled ass and saw it leak out and it made me so hard I had to jerk off again, I almost sent a message to him begging him to come back. Hate that I didn't see him again. He was incredible.

>>948337070
sauce on the top?

>>948324599
I'd say it took me years to really enjoy it completely, though it was never my "primary focus."

>intensity
It's the only thing you can think about. The thing I've said about it before is when fucking, guys might have a trick to "think of baseball" or something else to keep the show going. Getting fucked, there's no thoughts other than "I'm getting fucked right now."

When it's good, it's the most intense thing I've ever experienced. I don't want to say I'd "relate" to a woman but there's a level to it sexually. The orgasm feels much more "full body."

>>948324599
I stole a vibrator and would jerk off with it up my ass starting when I was thirteen, didn't have many gay thoughts though. Always jerking off to girls. I got drunk and with a older boy when I was fifteen and passed out on his bed. I woke up to him trying to put his dick up my ass. I remember helping him find lube and him being surprised I wasn't trying to fight him. I liked it but missed the vibration and he came too quick. He was all freaked out afterwards and I thought it funny.

>>948337742
always intrigued by guys who naturally start masturbating with their hole. seems like guys either fall into the playing with hole group or playing with nipples group. are you bi or gay

>>948338007
I'm bi. I stole my friends older sisters vibrator and I would jerk off to pics of her with it up my ass. Didn't get fucked again till I was 18 after the first time. The dude who fucked me was a weirdo and was acting all ashamed and wouldn't do it again.

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reading this thread like
i’ve tried everything it’s just not even remotely enjoyable
how to be a massive sub without anal?

>>948338588
get into the humiliation fetishes like piss and feet and cuckoldry

>>948338588
By all means, you do you and if you wanna figure it out, you can. There are gay guys who shy away from anal

But I'm a believer that every man COULD enjoy anal if he could figure it out. I started with my ass, and I'm bi primarly attracted to women but my ass gets me so much harder than my dick

I know you said you tried everything, but have you ever just gotten a little stoned, put in a plug, and just edged? And don't even touch your dick. Just watch some guys get fucked and clinch and release your hole for as long as you can take it? That's what got me to the next level. I could feel that orgasm in my knees. Prostate stimulation has been a must to a great time regardless of what I'm doing after that.

>>948338737
>piss
i mean maybe
>feet
sure, i wouldn’t mind that at all actually but are there guys that are into guys that are into feet? seems to be one sided.
>cuckholdry
no, i like love.

>>948338783
I typed that like a retard and I apologize, but the point is there

>>948338808
yes there are guys that get off on humiliating others

>>948338588
Since when does a sub decide what he gets to do? How can you submit and then say "No I won't do that"? You can't be a "massive" sub and then not participate what 95% of people see as the main act. A good sub shuts up and does what he's told, and if his dom is benevolent then his needs will be taken care of as well, but that is secondary. Your first purpose is to serve, not to get serviced.

And that's a difference so many people can't fucking tell apart. Sub and dom are not synonymous with bottom and top. The former is about who holds the power, the latter who gets fucked. By all means go find a dominant bottom who commands that you fuck him and who wouldn't even have a thought about putting his dick up your ass. But if you want to find someone who is dominant AND a side, well, be ready for your standards to drop harder than the 2001 New York Skyline because fyl, you're trying to look for the 0.001% guy based on two qualifiers alone. If you have any standards based on looks (e.g. "he must be taller than me", "he must not be obese" etc.) then you can literally forget it.

>>948338783
i dunno :/ i just don’t think i’m into it honestly. which sounds like “okay then what’s the problem just don’t do it” because i have to if i want a husband lol. just sucks
putting in a plug doesn’t sound like my thing at all. i love the thought of a cute little asshole (i’m a total sub but i love butts even more than dick. i don’t know what’s wrong with me either) but the thought of gaping assholes is so fucking disgusting that even stretching out my own is just… shivers. no judgement at all thought dude. if anything i envy you :/
i sort of enjoy the thought of finding the “right man” and him showing me how to do it in a way that makes me finally see that light
but that’s too risky… i need at least SOME connection and love to be there to enjoy and feel safe with intimacy… but if i was already connected and THEN found at i STILL don’t like it… well fuck
sorry for fucking up the thread lol mb just yapping
thank you for reading anon

>>948338993
yeah, i know.
i don’t have standards for looks. just be white
maybe i shouldn’t have said “massive sub” because i’m not like into bdsm or anything crazy… i want a man to love me, not command me around if i truly have a boundary…

>>948324599
First few guys were was a pretty mellow experience. I got fat and I connected with a dom black guy who liked to fuck fat white boys and that was intense. He had a thick 10" and it was scary. Definitely know how a virgin girl feels after that. When I was doing a good job sucking his dick was the only time I felt relaxed and in control.

>>948339028
That's fair. I think it takes a second to rearrange how you feel about things

I don't know what it is, but I just instinctively gravitated towards anal. It's an elephant in the room but many bottoms don't really have a choice and learn it regardless. And from that you learn how to keep yourself clean and all of that. If I'm really on it with my diet, a little bit of prep work ends in a clean dildo after use. Not sexy to bring up but since you thought it was "disgusting" i think it's obvious what we're talking about. I will say getting over that barrier was massive to actually having sex though. I'm really clean especially when I'm bottoming but still the first time a guy rimmed me my spine wanted to shoot through my back.

>>948339095
I've always been convinced that curious "sub" bottoms are bottoms that need a top who's going to tell them everything's all right and they're wanted, but are uncomfortable with that kind of talk from a man. It helps cutting through the awkwardness when you have a guy bossing you around, but it's not as much fun as a guy who can put you in the mood and intimately and mutually enjoy each others bodies.

>>948339028
>>948339095
Lemme give you a hint boy. None of this matters as much as you think it does. Seriously. When you DO find that man you love, so many things you once thought you weren't into, you'll learn to love. And as you both experiment shit, you'll find new shit to be into together.

1.5 year ago I didn't know my man yet. I was (and still am) a scrawny short twink who was into other short twinks. I am bisexual, but always had the feeling I'd end up with the guy. Guess what situation I am in now? I am dating a fucking windmill of a guy that towers over me and can fold me like a lawnchair. He's hairy (though trims the groin and ass for convenience sake) and has a beard (something I never looked for in a guy). When my friend introduced me to him I literally thought "Bitch did you ever listen to what I am looking for???"

But man his jokes had me from day one. And as we slowly got more and more serious I thought "Oh great, guess I am gonna go the heteronormative route of tall dom top and short sub bottom. I guess can live with this." But when we started having sex, we quickly found out we both are fine topping and bottoming. Sometimes he's dominant, sometimes I am. We found our way in this. And honestly, while the sex feels physically good, it's 1000000x better because it's with the man I love. And if you love each other truly, you're willing to try/do stuff for the other. Sometimes someone is really 100% a bottom but... I'd still encourage that person to try and do it. He really loves to suck on my nipples, I have zero feeling there. The first time he did it I was just lying there thinking "do I have to pretend to like it?". My dick went limp and my mind started drifting off. But then I thought "let's just focus on making him happy" and I started to focus on how turned on he'd get. And now, every time he does it and I see how horny it makes him... I get all horny as well even though it gives me *zero* physical stimulation!!! That's the power of love!!!

>>948339388
thank you so much for the kind reply anon
to be clear i actually didn’t mean poop, gaping assholes make me really uncomfortable in general. i wasn’t thinking about poop at all, it’s more of a… internal organs and rectums and intestines etc. being naturally gross to me, just like how it would be to anyone not into that. and the thought of essentially doing a plunging motion in an ass triggers my disgust really bad.
truth be told i’ve never douched or “watched my diet” and i never had an issue with poop at all while doing it, i’m not sure what’s up with that lol.
>need a top who's going to tell them everything's all right and they're wanted
YES
>but are uncomfortable with that kind of talk from a man.
uh… what? no, i love it, i’m gay as fuck and would feel really uncomfortable being told that by women
>It helps cutting through the awkwardness when you have a guy bossing you around
hell no, what?
i guess i’m just focusing more on the wanting love and connection lens instead of the animalistic sex solely for the sake of pleasure for oneself lens

>>948339028
>>948339095
>>948339510
I'M NOT DONE YET!!! PART 2!!!

I never once saw myself being into BDSM. Then one day he completely manhandled me. Had my hands above my head when he was fucking me and he grabbed them with just one of his big hands and restrained me. I could not go anywhere and that fucking gave me SUCH an adrenaline rush. My face apparently got SUPER red and I just felt like I had lost all control. That's when he fucked me like there was no tomorrow and that was the hardest hands-free orgasm I ever got.

Then we decided to buy handcuffs. BOY. That was a gamechanger. Now I was able to physically overpower him despite being much smaller. He could resist all he wanted, but he couldn't break free. And suddenly... we both developed a huge interest in bondage, despite never having done or having had interest in it before. Don't set limits for yourself, except for core relationship requirements such as monogamy, marriage, whether you want children and consent. Those are things you can't compromise on. But the rest? Boy, his whole body is there for you to explore and enjoy. And if he loves you, he'll let you. And if you love him, you'll let him. If the man you love the most looks you deep in the eyes and says "I know you can't get pregnant, but I'm gonna try it anyway"... Mate you'll be begging for that dick in your ass, you *will* love to get railed. Trust me. It'll happen all by itself.

>>948339946
Hey... is this the psychic from the hardware store? :O

>>948340336
Kek I knew it, meowmeow back! From Ruru as well!
>>948339946
Yeah sorry, I should maybe not universalise my own experience because I guess that I've always been bi and versatile so I have always been able to swing whichever way my partner would want me to swim and just got lucky I met someone who did the same... Still. Idk. I think it's hard to categorise these things and the only solution is to keep deeply communicating with your partner. There's not really any solution that you can work out beforehand. It will really depend on the type of person you meet, what they are into... and just depend on luck. And I know that sounds extremely shitty, but most things in life boil down to stupid levels of luck. Might suggest venting to the song "O Fortuna" (you'll know it once you hear it). But that's what I did when I felt completely shit about my accident. I was dealt a good hand with a nice family, then got into an accident which ruined my perception of myself, now I got extremely lucky with this man... and I am already tearing up writing this but I am also one horrible unexpected traffic accident away from losing him. It could happen any second, we can become 100 together. Stupid luck. Unpredictable as fuck.

And hey, don't delete ur messages :(

>>948340447
oh no don’t cry
i understand those intrusive thoughts but they don’t do you any good
Ruru is safe, he’s not going anywhere
are you okay? also don’t apologize for giving your perspective! that’s all we have anyway is our own perspectives

>>948340609
Yeeh am okay, already got the forehead kisses to make me feel warm and fuzzy again. It's just that a nasty side effect that I still have from the trauma is that I sometimes imagine my loved ones ending up in the very same accident. And that sometimes comes with some violent imagery. Like that branch that ripped into my back, I can literally visualise them getting impaled by it. I'm getting therapy for that and it is getting less and less as the months go by and honestly, my best therapist is that goofball right next to me... But I am wondering if it will ever completely go away.

/b/isexual anon here.

It took a while to open up to being able to bottom a guy. I've been with women my whole life. Eventually after a bad breakup, I decided to explore my sexuality. Started with just blowing dudes and it turned me on a lot. Then I met a guy I trusted and bottomed him several times. It was incredible. Nothing close to using a toy. The feeling of a real dick and real cum inside me makes the whole experience better. I definitely relate to women better now. I understand the enjoyment of being "taken" and how much better it feels being with a warm body vs a toy.

This doesn't take away my attraction to women, I still find women more attractive than men and don't find myself romatically attracted to men in any sense. From a physical pleasure position, I prefer sex with men. From a relationship position, I prefer relationships with women.

>>948340779
i’m so sorry :( i’m sending virtual hugs
about the trauma, in my experience it’s sort of situational
if you continue to be around those who love you, understand what triggers you and scares you, and can give you a hug when you need it, that helps a lot! it allows your brain, or at least mine, to view the world more healthfully and not feel the need to dwell on trauma. also try not to consume extremely distressing or agitating media
i’ve isolated myself so bad since last year when my ex left me that my traumas from adolescence have been eating me up inside but, that’s my fault :p you’re actually working on it by opening up to your loved ones and going to therapy for it, that already shows you’re making progress! it shows that you really want to leave the trauma behind and once you get over that step, it’s all uphill

>>948341025
Also goes for you, I hope that you won't give up no matter how bad it gets because as I've already said before... you really deserve that guy who's there for you. I've also been taking some time to let things cool down. This is actually the first month I've been able to breathe since I've met Ruru. First we were dating, then the travelling back and forth, the first sex, engagement, the holiday season, the first trip together, valentines, we had a busy time at work last month... But now it's just... winding down. Really getting used to the fact that he's there as a member of my house and my family. Not always having a dopamine hit of The Next Big Thing happening. I don't regret a single thing from the last 1.5 years, but in hindsight it was... A LOT xddd.

Oddly enough, we even found some peace by dropping into church some times. Not like I'm about to convert (well, got baptised and all that but meh)... it's just an hour a week where you're kinda "forced" to be calm. The priest even noticed we were new, had a talk with him. Kinda feared he was gonna be like "Gays??? Shoo!" but he cautiously worded his sentences and said something along the lines of "I know what the teachings say, so I cannot sanction it... But when I see relationships like these I often ponder if there's something we might have misunderstood, because your love doesn't seem to come from a place of desire for sin and it has all the signs of being a grace from God... even if it's not in the... "proper form". You guys really give me a lot of thinking-work to ponder over!"

>>948341295
lol yeah reading those greentexts, i could tell you guys were having a ton of fun. but i’m glad you guys are settling down and getting into the swing of things as a couple :)
>I know what the teachings say, so I cannot sanction it...
i dunno man. why would you tolerate that shit. there’s nothing wrong with your love. no judgement, i just don’t get gays that tolerate the church. but it seems in europe it’s very different culturally. although, don’t let it be forgotten that the bible is very clear homosexual sex is a sin. period. i’m letting you know so no charismatic religitard bait and switches you and then you’re in a room full of people who view you as a sinner, which they do.
sorry man, i’m miserable these days lol. without my name i doubt you recognize me.
i’m really happy for you guys though. i’m hoping we can get a new cozy thread going sometime

>>948341550
Tbf I already thought "This does read a bit like Kitty" but when you said Lux, I knew it was you XD

It's not really about tolerating it, but it's about... idk... planting a seed for change? I had a friend who is still deeply religious but made a 180 on gay stuff when I had some good talks with him. It's not like I see myself as being on a mission to convince others and spread the Gospel of Buttsex, but I feel like some work can be done because most things are just misunderstood. I can see that priest is at a kind of turning point, and I would be happy if through both our own free will and his free will, we can have open conversations that offer him the perspective he might need. Most of these people aren't malevolent, it's just hard to unlearn things we've previously assumed to be crystal-clear truths. I mean, that first time in the shower when I saw his DHICCCCC I thought like "WTF that will NEVER fit!". Look at me now, kitty. Look at me now.

>>948329330
Her bf doesn't suck dick? What kind of an asshole is he?

>>948341003
Are you still getting fucked by that same guy or have you tried other ones? What position did you find was the best for you and how big was his cock? How many times did it take for it to feel good? What does it feel like for him to come inside of you?

>>948341800
that’s really great and noble of you so i don’t wanna argue against it! you’re clearly much better than i am with this.
i’m just saying there’s a difference between someone have prejudice toward gays due to stereotypes and misunderstandings (that can be changed, as you described) vs. people who think it’s wrong just because a book written thousands of years ago says that a god says so. christians are the latter.
they think it’s a sin because god said so, it’s that simple. not because of misunderstandings you can fix, it’s because the bible clearly lays it out many times regardless of what they try to say to make it work. unless they’re willing to forgo their faith entirely, those bible verses are always there. and i don’t think anyone who truly cares for gays would support that. it’s really hard for me to understand but granted i’m retarded

>>948342547
But kitty, the key to understand life is to know that we're all retarded. Even I don't know how the universe works or what made me gay. All I know is that it indeed did not come from a place of malice and it hurts neither me nor Ruru, so it's all okay. Butttt, I notice he's getting sleepy so I'm gonna exhaust him and then sleep for idk... 30 hours? Got nothing to do tomorrow so I wouldn't mind completely skipping it by sleeping XDDD

See you in the next gay thread we will encounter each other in :3 meowmeow!

>>948342694
goodnight Lux :3 thank you so much for always being so bright and kind, i’m sorry about that

>>948338993
god damn dude this is still replaying in my head why does my faggot ass still go to /b/ to cry about my deepest insecurities kek

i love everyone here, please have a safe and pleasant night

>>948324599
bi, 33. first time i bottomed was for a 40 year old black guy when i was 15, and he was incredible. 7 inches, uncut, muscle fat. he didn't just fuck me, he made love to me, he made sure i was cumming over and over again before he finished in me.

>>948345421
sounds hot! was he able to get it all inside you?

>>948325182
Whats the sauce

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>>948345826
It hurts but youll like it. But I only do it for people that make me want to be submissive

>>948345921
whip that dick out!

>>948345826
would plow raw

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>>948346172
Aww I would love that.

>>948345680
yup, balls deep. he was nice and slow, and guiding me through it. not even 2 months in i was begging him to destroy my ass until i couldn't walk.

>>948347002
sounds so hot. how many times did he fucked you?

>>948346928
show that ass! strip

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>>948346152

Considering it happened when I was 13 and my step brother was grooming and taking advantage of me. I did kinda feel like a girl in that instance. Like wed watch porn and act it out and id be “the girl” in the video. Once i got used to it, it was mind blowing and became the norm.

>>948347191
oh god, who knows. he lived nearby so i spent a lot of time "at friends" getting my guts rearranged by bbc lol. if i could get fucked by him, i did. he was up my ass after school basically every single day, unless friends were coming over, or i was doing something. he was super cool too, never pressured me into doing anything, never guilt tripped me if i didn't come over to fuck, even told me up front that i'm young and just having fun. honestly, i'm glad he was fucking me and not random men, because he always made me feel safe.

>>948347287
nice dick! love your big balls! how big you get being hard?

>>948347403
you lucky SOB. you got a cock stuck up your ass pleasuring you and filling you up every day.

>>948347403
roll for a bbc bf

>>948347287
bump

>>948347721
i was deepthroating his bbc all the time too. i would legit sneak out at night just to suck his cock a few times lol. god, and the amount of times i would lie to my parents to see him lmao. more than once i would call my mom, tell her i'm staying over at a friends for the night, or the weekend, all while he was just pounding my asshole into submission. he got me into dirty talk too, and race play. i remember just fucking yelling out
>I LOVE YOUR BIG BLACK NIGGER COCK
>I FUCKING LOVE NIGGERS
he got off hard on me using the n word, and as a young horny white boy, saying it in a sexual way for him, especially loud enough for the whole block to hear, i would blow my load extra fast.

Went to a friends place when I was a teen, I went to the basement and stole his sisters thong. It was a Lace VS and I accidentally let it slip above my pants, I ended up riding him until he nutted.I remember drooling uncontrollably as I came with his rock hard cock keeping my butthole from clenching, first time I realized how important kegels were because he was telling me how fucking hot it felt feeling my asshole clench on his shaft and milk the cum out of his balls. The sperm felt so warm and filling in my ass,fuck I miss that feeling.

>>948348049

Anal kegels? How do you do that?

>>948348912
basically just clenching your butthole, fuck yourself with your finger, clench on the pulling out and you'll feel it a bit.

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>>948347452
6 inchs but im thick

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>>948347452
Last one before I go to sleep

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>>948324599
My first time was when I was 16, with a same-age friend of mine. We'd been fooling for a few months. We were both confused and insecure about our sexualities, so it had been a gradual escalation from jerking off together, to trading handjobs and frotting, to giving each other head.

Buttsex was explicitly off-limits, we both agreed that was too gay. But we eventually wound up thigh-fucking and grinding on each other's asscheeks.

So one day this led to him playing "just the tip", basically teasing my ass with his lubed-up dick. He gave me all the cliche "just for a second, just to see how it feels, I'm not gonna do it for real" type assurances as he slowly started pushing his dick into me. I put up some token verbal protests, but was way too horny and turned on to stop him.

I told myself that I'd stop him as soon as it got painful... which I definitely thought that it would, considering he had a pretty big dick. But he took it super slow and kept edging me, so it never got more than mildly uncomfortable as he kept working his cock deeper.

Eventually he was balls-deep and I still didn't want him to stop. Then he started rocking his hips in and out, and THAT was a wild feeling... not painful but overstimulating. Learned later this was what prostate stimulation felt like, but at the time it was a very new and confusing feeling which I later described to him as "like getting punched in the gut except good."

At this point I realized I was for-real getting fucked, but I was way too far gone to stop him. He didn't last long before he started gasping and getting erratic and I realized he was cumming in me. I felt like I "should" be grossed out by this but instead it was a massive turn on. He then kept his dick in me while he finished me off with his hand... when I came (like a fire hydrant) he complained that I clamped down so hard on his softening dick that it hurt him lol.

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>>948334103
What sort of lube are you using? I had the exact same issue for years when I learned that glycerin, a common lube ingredient, can cause a burning sensation. It doesn't affect my skin but sensitive tissue like the ass it hurts like hell and since switching to lube without glycerin anal has felt a million times better.

>>948347403
>i spent a lot of time "at friends" getting my guts rearranged
I pulled this move a lot during my teens lol. My parents never suspected anything weird about how often I spent the night over at my friend's house. After all they were usually the ones who drove me. What they didn't know is that my friend's parents were divorced, and I was visiting his dad's house even when my friend was staying with his mom.

>>948352906
no time like the present

>>948351897
did you top him

>>948324599
I'd worked my ass pretty hard with toys for years and years before I bottomed for real for the first time, so taking a cock wasn't a problem.

First time was with a small-dicked dude who insisted on using a condom. It was a different experience to playing with toys because I wasn't controlling the penetration and felt like crossing a threshold actually doing it with a guy. But it wasn't mind blowing.

Second time was with a bbc from porn central casting and I'd consider that the real first time... Physically that was another level. I took the cock (with some discomfort), but it was a railing that lasted for about an hour and finished with a huge load in my ass. Mentally that was unbelievably intense and unforgettable.

Well I stuck a finger up my ass as a kid which in turn made my orgasms more enjoyable. When I was really horny I always came in my own mouth. To bad post nut clarity kicks in immediately so having swallowed the nut gave shame.

I found out that I become a slutty bottom when I relapse in amphetamines. Idk everything feels amazing in my hole and my dick shrinks to a clitty which is also very sensitive. I have came from anal with a toothbrush or makeshift toy while on drugs. I have a relapse right now and am horny af gooning for 48+ hours. I am straight and present myself as straight. When the drugs wear off I always get a feeling of shame and guild. Like noone should know it. A lot of people do know that I have seks with men under the influence.

Its a bummer that when I am sober and try anal play it just hurts and isn't that pleasurable so I never developed my bottom slut in me when sober. Which makes me long to drugs to bottom again which in turn make me relapse.

Sissyhypnos and gay porn transitioned me to go out and get fucked by men. My first time was at a chem party and I got creampied by 4 people and I sucked off 2.

I do find it hard to reintergrate my bi sexuality with me beeing sober which in turn gives a lot of guild and shame.

I also hide my phone now I am watching gay porn because I have the feeling my neighbors will know. Getting a bit paranoid haha.

Time to slut out and cum on omegle

>>948324599
Pretty intense for me because my first time was a threesome with two older guys who took turns. Luckily they did take their time using toys to help me open up. Its a feeling like no other when its good. Im scared of STDs so I only bottom with my dildo now (7.5")

>>948329933
Damn that vid is just like my own experience bottoming for a black dude, except that I was on my back in a sling

I was fucked so hard and good for my first time. He really broke me in, after initial penetration and a moment of adjusting, he really went to town on me. The discomfort at the beginning went away and turned into pleasure.


He made sure to dominate me put me in place, and experience everything a bottom should. Eventually had me begging him to put it back in every time he stopped or pulled out. We fucked for hours, cumming in me a few times.


It was so good, I messaged him to hook up again the week after.

It all just came natural to me. Like I already knew what to do.

>>948359614
>It all just came natural to me. Like I already knew what to do
lisan al-gayb

>>948359672
Yea it was too easy. It turned him on so much how intuitive it all was. He applauded my posture and positioning and presentation. He loved that I instinctively knew to squeeze on his cock pulling out and to push out when he inserting. Didn't even know that I was automatically convulsing on his ejaculating phallus; I get my first assgasm from the breeding; my ass convulses on his twitchy ejaculating cock. We both experience mutual simultaneous orgasms. After, he collapses in exhaustion on top of me. He doesn't pull out, keeping us connected by our sexual organs. Slowly settling down, his cock deflates and slips out. His sex fluids leaks out. He quickly eats up all the sperm from my hole.

So hot

>>948324599
My first time was really rough and abrupt. I ended up loving it later but my first time was too much.

>>948362440
details?

>>948362440


Hehe for tops it's a major turn to see you groan at first, then as he inserts his massive cock in inch by inch slowly. I use my hands to control full penetration, guiding him until he's balls deep. I take deep breaths adjusting to his size. I can feel my butt muscles sucking in his fat mushroom cock head. But the most thrilling moment is when he really gets going and gets careless. It ends with him stabbing the last thrusts in as deep as possible and flooding my guts. Sounds of his grunts compliment my moans. Our heavy breathing turn into smooches.

>>948359672
For some of us it came very naturally.

>>948324599
My first time was more or less forced. I didn't say no but I also wasn't prepared. Subsequent times were better

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>>948352937
I tied topping him several times, but it never panned out. He was reluctant to even try (despite the fact that he "owed" me) and always wimped out before I could get my dick even halfway up his ass. Even though I wasn't nearly as well hung as he was.

Up until that point, we'd always been strictly "fair" about trading sexual favors. It let us pretend like we were just transactionally helping each other cum instead of, y'know, having gay sex. His refusal/inability to bottom for me broke that unspoken arrangement... but getting fucked felt way too good for me to turn it down when he pressured me into more. For a while I played it off pretending like I didn't really like it and was just doing him a favor, but we both knew that was just bullshit to cover my insecurities.

>>948347399
more detail please

>>948347403
>>948347721
>>948347916
>>948345421
Fucking rancid
You were molested and groomed nigga

>>948347916
disc?

>>948324599
Do you guys find that you can take bigger cock than dildo?

>>948369468
The opposite for me. I can take a bigger dildo because I control the insertion completely. Guys bring a bit more force and in and out movement even when going slow

>>948369613
That's interesting, I can only take a medium dildo but when I watch porn I imagine cock filling me up past my limits and cumming that way. Probably just horny brain

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>>948369468
Yeah, I find real dick is way more comfortable and pleasurable than using toys. Partly it's that cock is warm and more yielding/flexible than silicone. But I'm sure a big part of it is that it's much easier to find an angle and position that feels good for penetration when you've got a partner instead of trying to awkwardly do it yourself.

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I went into my first time bottoming expecting it was gonna hurt like hell. That's what all the porn stories I read had prepared me for, at least. And in a way, I kind of wanted it to be awful.

I was insecure about my sexuality, deep in denial that I wasn't really gay. Told myself that my gay urges were just, I dunno... I was horny or hormonal or porn-addicted or something? Convinced myself that once I actually tried stuff with another guy, I'd hate it both physically and emotionally, that it'd shock me out of having gay fantasies.

So I arranged a hookup with this hung dude who was way more masculine than the sorts of femboys I usually fapped to. Told him up front that I wanted him to dominate me. That I didn't want him to let me back out of anything even if I begged, that I gave him my permission for him to basically pin me down and rape me.

When we finally met up, I did get cold feet and tried to chicken out. But instead of forcing me, he backed off and convinced me to just stick around and chill out. Spent the next couple hours slowly seducing me, pushing my buttons and getting me horny. And when he finally fucked me he took it slow and really knew how to use the big dick of his.

So even though it was my first time getting fucked, it felt fucking great. I stayed hard the whole time and ended up having a prostate orgasm before he blew his own load. I was so mindbroken from how good it felt that the post-cum regret didn't really hit me until I was on my way home, and realized that this meant I really was a fucking fag after all.

what happens after you get cummed in if you dont push it out straight away? does it eventually come out or do you like... absorb it... which would be kinda hot

>>948371286
The cum rots in your guts

>>948371337
1337

>>948353163
Wait you can just hire porn stars to fuck you?

>>948372014
I for one am shocked that a porn star would fuck for money

>>948372257
Fair point, I was more referring to them referencing a casting agency that they could hire through

>>948329139

Just throw your girlfriend/wife a strapon and tell her it's time to saddle up.

Yea, she'll be shocked and feel weird, but it'll probably be better than her finding out you've been fucking a dude on the side twenty years in to satisfy that curiosity that's been gnawing at you.

It was uncomfortable at best, but not a bad experience.

Was curious. Had various owned and used toys. Finally bit the bullet and met up with a guy. His cock was on the small side which probably turned out to be a good thing. He was pretty careful and didn't hurt me, but I didn't have any idea about douching and I didn't know enough about my body to really relax into it.

Thought "glad I tried it, don't need to do that again" for a while, but eventually got horny enough that I decided I would give it another go. It wasn't until my third or fourth time that I actually got pleasure from it. That's likely more because I had been practising on my own with toys, I learned how to douche, and I was very turned on by that particular guy because he had a larger cock. He was also a very chill guy and I felt at ease, which I hadn't felt with any of the other hookups which were very rushed and hush-hush.

After I'd had my first good experience though, it became much easier to do it again. Even when I'd be dating a girl and there were gaps of several years between taking it up the butt, I could do it again. And yes, real dick is wildly different to toys. Mentally and physically.

In between trying anal I was also regularly blowing a couple of guys which helped me open my mind to the mental side of submitting, making a guy happy, etc. Which I see now does help me related to women more. It also means I know how to fuck a girl in the ass and make the experience really good for her.

I know this board and thread is a biased sample but it feels like once you’ve had your first same-sex experience you will never truly quit.

>>948376238
Getting a cock in your ass is not something that you do casually. Most guys that do this probably thought alot about it and decided that this is something they really wanted, so most repeat the experience.

>>948324599
Your homosexual urges are a punishment from God for your iniquity

>>948376867
>Thread full of dudes retelling good, pleasurable experiences
>punishment

Oh no, punish me harder sky daddy. No one made your god put a prostate *right there*.

>>948325924
Bro we're talking about gay butt sex, as long as you're not a transbian freak feel free.
[spoiler]I'm trans btw, not sure if that matters[/spoiler]

>>948371286
your body absorbs the water over 24-ish hours but you will eventually have to pass the rest, leaving it in sucks because it'll will probably just leak out over time (and god forbid you fart or sneeze)
never actually played catcher before, rather my girlfriend compared it to a stickier period, which killed any interest i had in doing so

>>948334977
Well you say you're a gay bottom but don't like being fucked? I've said this before, and take this to heart, there are a lot of straight people in the gay community. Ever been with a woman?

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>>948341003
>From a physical pleasure position, I prefer sex with men. From a relationship position, I prefer relationships with women.

>>948371286
Depends on a lot of factors... how deep your guy came in you, the consistency of his cum, how tight your ass is.

My first fuckbuddy had a super thick cock and came like a fire hydrant... I'd slowly leak cum all day long after he fucked me. My current bf is the opposite: he likes to drive his dick as deep as possible when he cums, and he shoots thick, sticky loads that stay in my guts until the next time I have a natural BM.

>>948355577
Yeah the same thing with me. I dont go that hard-core into the sex though. Just sissy hypno and gooning and crossdressing but after I nit I have this huge shame and its sticks in your head and makes me crave Meth again. Been stuck in this cycle for 11 years now. But.im actively improving and getting more and more clean amd im ready to stop

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>>948379021
Currently on a relapse right now and Im resisting the urge to go on grindr and getting fucked by some random man

>>948371286
Some of the cum will absorb into your ass if you leave it there, but sometimes you can’t even keep it in inside.

My last time, dude went balls deep when he shot his huge load, then slowly pulled out. You can really feel the slick, wet sensation. He’d been fucking me relentlessly for ages, so my hole was gaping a bit and there was cum dripping out. He actually laughed when I put my fingers there to feel it. More was running down my leg when I stood up. Unavoidably farted some out when I had a bathroom stop. And could still push some out when I got home about an hour later.

There would have still been a bit left, I’m sure.

every month or so I’ll have a couple friends over. I have one buddy that stays until dawn, and when it’s just us we get really fucked up and jerk off together taking turns wshowing videos of our wives or porn. He’s into lady boys and I’ve got no judgment it just doesn’t do it for me. I’ve been seriously cotoffering to jack him off and he jacks me off. I think it’s because it’s so fucked it makes it hot

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I don't actually remember my first time. I got black-out drunk at a college part, woke up the next morning naked in bed with some guy who's name I didn't even know.

I guess I don't know for sure that I got fucked. But my asshole was pretty sore, and when I made it to a toilet it sure did feel like I had multiple loads of cum up my ass...

>>948379285
nice pair of balls anon!! I would ilift your legs up, slide it all inside your ass while I massage your balls and cock with my hand! keep going

>>948380050
fuck, that sounds hot! would love to feel my ass full of cum

>>948369468
Never thought about it but I suppose that's accurate. I have one pretty large dildo now that I can really TAKE if I've been using it consistently. But before that, I definitely had a few hook ups with guys who were much bigger than anything I'd put up there before and was surprised when there was no real "challenge" in taking them.

>>948371286
I've never left it in for that long, but I can tell that if it's up there for a couple of hours, I'm actively keeping my butthole from letting it leak out.

My first actual penetration was the 2nd attempt with a middle aged man I met on craigslist when I was 19ish.

First time I went there just to blow him and he asked to fuck me. Was horny and agreed, but he couldn't even get a finger in without hurting me.

Second time I went in thinking I was better prepared. Had a really good time blowing him in the shower and that was my first experience of being face fucked (although it was pretty tame looking back). That really turned me on. But his cock was pretty thick and I'd guess he didn't know how to get it into me without hurting me. Eventually I just bit the pillow and didn't stop him. Hurt the whole time, didn't enjoy it. He stopped after a while and jerked onto my face, and I didn't like that either. By the time I got home he'd blocked me too lol. Pretty sure he was married to a woman.

Ironically, I did give myself a bit of a kink for guys fucking me beyond MY comfort level. I've found a couple of tops over the years who know how to fuck so that I'm constantly on the verge of asking them to stop or slow down, and that's my biggest turn on.

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My first few times hurt like hell. We were horny young idiots who didn't know what we were doing... we thought that buttsex was "supposed" to hurt, and that the only reason anyone put up with it was so they could get a turn on top. Plus my friend was stupidly well hung, especially for his age. The only reason I let him do it is cause he'd already let me do it to him twice, so I owed him.

We did this an embarrassing number of times before we eventually had the genius and original idea to try using some vaseline to make it easier. That was a fucking game changer... though I still wouldn't say I liked it, since my friend couldn't keep himself from going full jackhammer with that stupid horsedick of his, but still.

>>948381621
nice

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>>948380379
Fuck I would love that.

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>>948382251
Would you cum in me or on me anon

>>948382251
I wanna suck your big balls!

>>948382393
Inside you and all over your face

>>948324599
gradual
then I ended up getting hit on at a gay club and I thought to myself "fuck it" and that was that

>>948382393
Go and shave that shit then we can talk

My first time was from my drunk stepdad drunkenly forcing himself on me.

He'd already been grooming/molesting me for a while... already had me giving him head on the regular, and had been teasing/threatening that he was gonna start using my ass too.

So I knew it was coming. Didn't expect to like it, but was basically resigned to putting up with it, just like I'd been putting up with his BS for years. Then when it actually happened, and I actually ended up getting off on it... which massively fucked with my head. Made me feel like a total fag who really did secretly want/deserve being treated as his fucktoy.

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>>948382644
>Made me feel like a total fag who really did secretly want/deserve being treated as his fucktoy.
I can enjoy the physical sensations, but the bottoming headspace is incredible.
Most guys grow up feeling you need to be constantly competitive, battling for status. To allow another man to dominate you so undeniably can be really liberating.

I've always been slim/skinny with hardly any body hair so to accept that I'm built to be fucked is such a mental weight off. Just felt incredibly right the first time I had a jacked top ramming me balls-deep.

Haven't been fucked yet but I recently started giving blowjobs to this guy. I can't tell if I enjoy it or not. Cum is not my favourite and having a dick block your airways is confronting. But I am very turned on by giving him pleasure and getting nothing in return. Total submission. I'm even turned on thinking that I might not even be gay, I'm just doing this because I'm a good sub.

>>948324599
My first and only time being a bottom I came hard in a couple minutes. All my sexual experience was with women before and after that. I would usually go for 20min or longer.

No I couldn't relate to women more. I felt the most guilt in my life after.

>>948385853

Did you eventually come to grips with it just being internalized homophobia?

bump

First time I was drugged n raped at a sauna.

Embarrassed, uncomfortable and humiliated.

>>948386858
No it is just a progression of porn to me. It's like the worst post nut clarity. I obviously want to try it again, but I haven't because I think it would be the same guilt. I think about getting on grindr to find someone to bend me over and use me like a toy. I don't want kissing or anything like that. I just want the part where I get my cheeks clapped until he cums in me.

When I was like 22 and moved out of my parents house I started fantasizing about being dominated by a trans woman or older man. at that time, and still until now i've only dated women. I never did find men attractive but for some reason a large cock made me horny and want to to submissive.


I bought a dildo, but always felt super guilt after I used it... until I was horny again then I would try it again lol I ended up meeting a trans woman on a dating site a drove like an hour to meet with her. She face fucked me in the back seat, then asked if I wanted to do anal. I was so nervous the whole time I didnt even know what to think, but I said yes anyways, so in my cramped car I bent over and she fucked me doggy. her cock was pretty small so it didnt really hurt, or feel good tbh.

I felt super guilt after, but later got turned on by the thought of me being used like a slut like that.

I've periodically had moments since then where for some reason I just crave being submissive for a cock and inevitably give in. So now in the past 5 or 6 years i've been with probably 10 men or transwoman and have always bottomed.

My second time after this I went to see another transwoman and she invited over a much older man without me knowing. he showed up and come in while she was fucking me, and pretty much just put his cock in my face and I was too shy to do anything else but listen. So I ended up getting spit roasted by this trans woman and some random dude I've never met before or seen again after that.

I don't think it made any difference in how I relate to women my experiences lol

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>>948325182
thats me and ma homie yoh!

Any wholesome loving bottoming stories?

>>948324599
>>948324599
My first time was with my swimming coach. At first we were just kissing and jerking together (sometimes i gave him bjs) until he said he wanted to fuck me. I agreed.

He took me to his office and laid me over a mat on the floor. He grabbed my waist and kept pulling me into his cock. He ended up cumming in me.