I think I’m gonna use /bant/ as a place to talk about my day, I doubt anybody wants to hear about it but I can be candid and I want to be heard I guess..The last 2 months has been rough I experienced a lot of losses. Parents split so I lose my chance at a first romance because I have to move to Canada -> I cope and meet someone online who I talk to for awhile(hi if you see this lol)-> I feel euphoric at the fact I have someone I can talk to this often about everything and I’m not bored!! Yay!! -> I cut them off because of a values issue, though I don’t resent them at all. -> I feel lonely and get treated like shit for 3 days leading up to this post because my sister came for xmas-> I give my friend $40 ecard, he’s an alcoholic I’ve been there for him for awhile. Always supportive..-> I vent, “dang that’s rough,” then talks about WoWI know nobody owes me anything but I feel like it’s always not reciprocal. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong anons
I feel dumb for complaining but it’s nice to scream into the void Please don’t be mean to me anons…
Wow, this board keeps getting blogposters lately. Where are you all finding this board from?I'm nooooticing the influx of new bloggies
>>23803067Haha I didn’t realize there was that many blog postersI mostly just linger in advice threads and decided to migrate tho if that answers the question
>>23803067bants always been a blogposting type of board, wdum?
It is a mistake blogposting now. I am over 50% sure of it.
>>23803078I guess I never sat down to lurk hard enough or maybe I just notice it more since I have more time near xmas
>>23803079Yea I regret it immediately
>>23803095haha...well I do have your answers I am just mad with myself because I'm pretty tired after two long holidays.
>>23803104Wait what
>I think I’m gonna use /bant/ as a place to talk about my daythat is as far as i read. you`re new around here, but /bant/ is actually a place where I, Me, Myself, talk about myself and other MUST listen. So, as I was saying, my day went swell. Thanks for aski~~~ing!
>>23803111Did anything interesting happen?
>>23803116you ever tried talking to a professional, you know, someone who has some degree of interest to help you unwind your thoughts rather than dumping disjointed feelings to some bozo online who is probably stroking to your sob story?
>>23803124I’ve talked to multiple therapists and I tell them everything to the extent that I can (time constraints + I have issues explaining/speaking sometimes, like you said, disjointed LOL)I’m convinced I can’t be fixed so I’m just going to continue looking for bozos
>>23803060>>23803063<3
>>23803137>I’m convinced I can’t be fixedWhat is there that needs to he fixed? What imperfections do you keep projecting onto yourself? i mean, i dont know you, but maybe you keep creating these screwy thoughts about yourself and it starts to set you off? Idk --
>>23803139
>>23803151I have a weird attachment style, the setting myself off thing you mentioned.. probably more than I can think of atm . Plus I thought it was implied something needed to be fixed if u said I should talk to a professional
>>23803154>Plus I thought it was implied something needed to be fixed if u said I should talk to a professionali said this because from what i read on your op, i got the impression you probably have gotten groomed online or get attached to internet weirdoes cuz feed you false validation and attention. i will admit, i only came in here to mess with you, but i kinna lost interest cuz i think trolled enough today and had my fun irl.
>>23803161Oh I see, enjoy your trolling tomorrow then if you decide to..I think this is my issue just that the people I meet don’t do it intentionally maybe..>get attached to internet weirdoes cuz feed you false validation and attention
>>23803164im bored, you`re bored (and needy) so....what you do today?
>>23803168The curse will never be lifted.. I REBUKE THEE!! But I’ll entertain within the thread I made German pancakes, I open presents, I play Minecraft, I watch fallout episode
>>23803171german pancakes? wat makes dem any different from regular pankekes?did you have a decent chrismas?
still me btw, am on ipad now
>>23803188Idk, they’re essentially crepes though. no because my sister is a fat cunt who won’t stop crawling up my ass about every social mistake ever.. made me blow 30 dollars on dye because she won’t shut up about the uneven job I did on myself it I cavedHow was yours, I’m sleeping after you reply. Goodnight manipulative(?) anon
>>23803191my day went far better than i thought. for a few hours i was stuck with some terrible relatives i dont care and so i decided to dump my frustrations onto poor, ol’ punching bang anon. thats the trolling i refer too. after that romp with the unwanted relatives, i went strolling around the locale and my aunt told stories of the famiglia. lotta heavy stuff…at the end, we stopped by a church which i havent stepped into in years so i felt a heavy air in there with mixed emotions. > I’m sleeping after you replyalright, good timing because the internet here is bad. if this post even goes through then good night> Goodnight manipulative(?) anoni guess i give off mixed feelings. guess thats a problem of my own. i conceal my emotions and set up walls…give out opposite feelings too.well, guess i hope you take care….not like it matters.
>>23803060Seems like you give a lot of yourself anon and I’m rlly sorry you’re not getting the same care in return. I hope Canada is kind to you <3- a Canadian anon(Princess jellyfish is my fav of all time)
>>23803124>some bozo online who is probably stroking to your sob storyIt appears I have been compromised.>>23803191>dyed hair, I assumeGentlemen, we have a lady in our presence.
>>23803078Sup, pedophile. You trying to groom new users again?
>>23803210Thank you canada anon.. princess jellyfish is partially why I’m a jellycel!!! I love it
>>23803209You also take care I hope you figure out your church stuff eventually stop using poor anons as punching bags!!!!!!!!!!!
>>23803067Blogposting fits the format if the person posting has something against simply talking to their own countrymen. The one thing I can't blame Americans for.
OP, work on maintaining awareness of values largely being an expression of an individual's preferences and understanding that needs to be applied to ourselves as well. As long as those values aren't directly in conflict with the relationship with you have with them, there is always a way to excuse them and still make it work. The current atmosphere tells people partners should agree on politics but that's just activists trying to tell you what to do with your genitals. Something they really love to do regardless of the party they represent. When I hunt for jobs or apartments I usually specifically look for ones that have flaws that bother me a lot less than other people. The same is applicable to the dating market even if I personally don't care about engaging in that because I'm getting old. I do genuinely prefer larger women, though, and that made it a lot easier for me to find partners because I chose not to be ashamed of it.
>>23804448Ah jt wasn’t about politics or anything it was about interpersonal values if that’s what you’re implying.. I did put a bunch of stuff aside because I didn’t care or it had nothing to do with me but this really sent me over the edge.The segment about looking for flaws makes sense as well though , thank you anon
>>23804466I don't know you well enough to make accurate assumptions but politics and interpersonal stuff is the easiest to address. It becomes a matter of problem solving when it's every day mundane stuff like how clean each person wants a home and how to divide chores. When I lived with roommates I had a tendency to be more comfortable with disorder than they were and they felt they had to pick up after me. They were happy to tolerate that when I stepped up and did the big chores like laundry and dishes for them as well. We wanted different things but we made it work. Often solutions like outsourcing to technology is a good idea so nobody has to be badgered on their values at all. Dishwashers provided a lot of comfort to men because women had less of a reason to complain despite them being slobs. But I think you might have been experiencing more a momentary hiccup so this might not be all that relevant to hear from me.
>>23803060>cutting off someone for "values issues"Most retarded gay faggot bullshit to do, you should kill yourself
>>23804448Men have a tendency to get really inventive either because they want to impress women or they want to make them stop complaining. The only thing that drove human development more than that was the moment in evolution when we realized we were really well equipped to pick up sticks and walk around with them. Sometimes the least impressive factors are the most significant. I feel like paleontologists are really afraid to emphasize that to commoners because we're basically chimps except we chose to adopt hubris instead of ripping each others balls off when we get upset. I'd still call it a major improvement.
>>23804489Let me clarify a bit more, it was that they were only willing to label me an acquaintance(even if I did say in communication w them for longer)when I thought we were closer than that and I got mad being grouped in with people who are essentially strangers… they’re rather immovable in their perspectives I guess so I figured I’d just spare myself and leave because I knew I’d be mad. Though it had only been a week and I’m nuts but it was !!intense!! Your words still make sense though, could be carried over to other Situations
