this is so lame where is everyone
Hi
>where is everyoneit's 3pm on a thursday
Hey
>>24221673yo
>>24221677:D
>>24221680He's talking to me hoe
>>24221675AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH>>24221676>>24221680Hiii!!
>>24221694Did you lose any weight since the last time you posted a pic of your hand or something
>>24221697oh shit you still remember that>any weight sincenot really I haven't
>>24221704Post it again
>>24221672Hello anon
>>24221672was workingood evening
>>24221711>>24221713don't mind the blurness I don't wanna get doxxed so I hid my keyboard and mouseyou 4channers are scary>>24221713Hii >>24221742Evening mate <3
>>24221749I'll ask one again in a month, get thinner by then
shit nvm
>>24221694
>>24221753it won't get thinner in one month it will take moreWhy do you pics of my hand though
>>24221763I mean I'd rather you post pics of your waist or something, you're the one that choose handBut don't post waist pics now, post them when you get thin
>>24221764nigga fuck off even I've got skinny I won't be posting pics of myself or anything>>24221760https://files.catbox.moe/czmmtk.mp4
>>24221774You literally just did tho
>>24221774>https://files.catbox.moe/czmmtk.mp4:O
this nigga stay asking for pics broaverage indian
>>24221672Mr Jazaaer are you gay?
melonade goons to faggot cuckold shit like this
>>24221809no mate I'm not gay>>24221780that's my handI'm not posting my waist or body to anyoneand stop with the gay shit
hey where did everyone go :(
>>24221873you are not a very good conversationalist
>>24221881sorry for being that waywhat do you wanna talk about then anon Maybe I can converse about anything you have in mind at the moment
>>24221885you should try bringing something up
>>24221887If he got thin he'd bring my dick up
>>24221887I really don't know I have nothing in mind right nowI'm just chilling listening to some nujabes
>>24221672im working >_>_>but im over ithow are you today
>>24221947>how are you todaylosing my mind like alwaysbut I'm doing great thanks for asking hehe>im working >_>_>ugh work, employment, responsibility so lame at least you are making money having money is nice>>24221962woooah cute
>>24221967Looking at porn. HARAM
>>24221981yes
>>24221967whats are you losing your shit over today?being a mentally ill autist while pretending like im not is a lot of work, but overstimulating music helps a lot
>>24222005>whats are you losing your shit over today?everything I guess >being a mentally ill autist while pretending like im not is a lot of work,I know right I'm not mentally ill but trying to fit in is just almost impossible with normies I feel like I'm at the verge of dying just being there
>>24222029try not to take it too seriously, we arent getitng out of this shit aliveit took me way too long to accept that i dont have to say anything, its okay to be quiet and even silent which has greatly improved my comfort around the normies...say less is a fundamental part of my being nowits kinda funny when the conversation shifts to me like im supposed to say something and i just kinda stare at them autistically until they awkwardly take the convo backor if its a work think i've got a few softball questions to shift attention away from meunless its an actually interesting conversation that i can say something real about i mostly stay quiet but i am a loner too
>>24222044>out of this shit aliveI don't wanna be alive anymore anon>its okay to be quiet and even silent which has greatly improved my comfort around the normies...being silent has always been the best choice arguing or just talking none sense just drains any bits of brain cells I have> funny when the conversation shifts to me like im supposed to say something and i just kinda stare at them autistically until they awkwardly take the convo backlmao reminds me of pic relatedI've been way quieter this days and many weirded out or scared and say shit like it's just a time phase it will pass and none sense like that I don't know why they are being like this >i mostly stay quiet but i am a loner toothat's so coolloners are coolbut I have question for you do people like you have friends and actually interact and talk with them and all thatI sometimes feel like some of the people here are straight up people with bodies and no souls they don't talk or try reach somewhere talking to someone even their friends
>>24222080>I don't wanna be alive anymore anononly at your lowest is the greatest opportunity for change, dont give up, become stronger..its within you and you're the only thing standing in your way (very common)>arguing or just talking none sense just drains any bits of brain cells I haveyeah conversations are superior to arguments by far>but I have question for you do people like you have friends and actually interact and talk with them and all thati only have aquaintences and i do talk to the people at work but they're highly relatable tech nerds like me (very uncommon scenario), the last time i had friends was 10+ years ago sadly...and 3 internet friends>people with bodies and no souls they don't talk or try reach somewhereim connected to higher consciousness and i talk to god instead, as well as the voices in my head...we are freinds nowthey get a little angry when i talk about them thoughpretty convinced im not crazy though and its part of being connected with the greater, but who knows...still sounds schizo af, and it kinda is..hard to say definitively (its probably the schizophrenia)
>>24222116>its within you and you're the only thing standing in your way (very common)I don't want that I want nothingI just want to not exist and it's just nothingness>3 internet friendsSo you do have friendsonline friends are nice> i talk to god insteadhow do you do that?I wanna do it too I do wanna talk to god himself and get answers from him >as well as the voices in my head...we are freinds nowthey get a little angry when i talk about them thoughthat's so cool the voices why do they get angry when you talk about them though do you have DID or somethingI once talked to someone who had DID maybe he was lying about it but it was funny talking to him he kept referring to himself as we and had many personalities and characters>still sounds schizo af, and it kinda is..hard to say definitively (its probably the schizophrenia)oh no you are just like that dude Terry A. Davis
>>24221672>That picAre those two guys in the dream cloud?
>>24222170yes
what do you anons think about my hand writing
>>24221873>accuses me of homosexual pedophilia in another thread>claims he's not gay>claims he dislikes cartoon porn>posts sus meme about cartoon boy child pornDo you have something to confess to?
>>24221873>Shotas
>>24222183relax geez anonI'm just shit posting that's all I found that pic in archives it looked nice so I posted here
>>24222136People will cry if you kill yourself anon.What would your parents think? They loved you even when you were a baby. They probably thought that you were a miracle.
>>24222116sounds more like demons than schizophrenia or divine..
>>24222202>What would your parents think?I know they will be devastated that's why I wanna do it in a way that feels like I died a normal death instead of me killing myself
>>24222136... but seriously Anon. Were your parents there when you took your first steps? Were your parents there when you said your first word? Weren't they proud of you?
>>24222214yes they wereThey did like me when I was a baby I don't think they like me anymore
Frog-claimed board. Frog-claimed website.
>>24222222holy fuck
>>24222222NOOOOOIT SHOULD BE A CIRNO POST
>>24222222
>>24222213You may have given up on life, but we haven't given up on you. Right everyone?I remember in that one other thread you said that you wanted sex with a woman. Maybe we could help you with that?You've put your foot down about the gay stuff and so I've decided to respectfully not bring that up anymore. Is there anything that you want to know about women?Also, are there any femanons here? What do femanons think of Mr. Algeria here?
>>24222213>>24222216is there nothing you would enjoy in this world?imagine if you had no anxieties or obligations or problems/headaches, would you still want to not exist?
In the other thread, the Algerian mentioned that he likes older women and women who will make the first move sexually. Can anyone help him with this?
tiny white pecker cuckolds subhumans all are orbiting a tranny pedophile now...
>>24222216>I don't think they like me anymoreHow do they treat you now?
>>24222237>is there nothing you would enjoy in this world?He said in the other thread that he wants women to rape him. In other words, he wants sex, but doesn't know how to initiate I suppose.
>>24222222cirnoggers eternally BTFO
>>24222233>I remember in that one other thread you said that you wanted sex with a woman. Maybe we could help you with that?I don't want have sex anonI just want a peace of mind at this point ?I don't have that waking up feels assdressing up feels painfulsitting feels painful sleeping is comfortableI just want a endless voice of endless nothingness and just never exist > Is there anything that you want to know about women?why women are retarded and mean and evil at times>>24222237>imagine if you had no anxieties or obligations or problems/headaches, would you still want to not exist?yes but imaging such life is impossible cause that life is heaven in itself cause a world with no anxieties or obligations or problems is perfect and thing shouldn't be perfect>>24222242I don't know they treat me normally but I feel like they are disgusted and disappointed in me in every wayI really start to hate facing them or talking to them
>>24222249
>>24222222keyed>>24222241jealous dt?
this is so lame I can't believe I'm losing hair at the age of 19 this is fucking ridiculous
>>24222254i have some things i'd want to say but i'm getting too tiredbut i would recommend you try intense exercise, if you can bring yourself to do soit will put you into a different state of consciousness
>>24222258sorry..i'm 22, my hair's been falling out lately, i think from poor living conditions more than anythingbut there's more to life than that, and the sort of women (or people in general) who'd cherish/abandon you based on your hair aren't worth getting involved with in the first place
>>24222263I'm already an ugly mother fucker losing hair will only make me look like a child predator I don't want that>>24222261bruh what exercise I'm suppose to do in first place *sigh*
>>24222254>sleeping is comfortableMaybe you just need rest>I just want a peace of mind at this point ?Death doesn't put your mind at peace. Death is the end of your mind, not peace of mind.Maybe just rest more on the weekends?
>>24222258Oh no... Sorry about that mate.Maybe this will make you feel better?https://www.menarebetterthanwomen.com/bald-is-manly/
>>24222274>bruh what exercise I'm suppose to do in first place>*sigh*something intensesprinting would be ideal, you can find a place on google maps & sprintsprint for 1 minute, walk for 1 minute, repeat several times..something along those lines>I'm already an ugly mother fucker>losing hair will only make me look like a child predator I don't want thatthere are all sorts of fucking weirdos in the world, people don't care how you look as long as you act "normal"looking like a child predator is more about your disposition, if you walk around with a dead thousand-yard stare and never talk people are gonna think ur weird/unpredictableyou can be very handsome with a full head of hair and still look like a child predator, it's besides the point
>>24222258You're so mature for your age
>>24222256I AM A BOAR BOAR BULLI don't need annoying tiny white pecker cuckolds bothering me every 5 seconds for me to fuck their wives/girlfriends
u might hate to hear this, but you are young and emotional and socially anxiousbut at this age, it pays if you can make yourself not overthink, learn to make people comfortable around you, and throw things at the wall to see what sticksu can try peoplewatching, in stores and in parks and whatnotyou'll see some crackhead retard have a lively conversation with a cashier, etc
>>24222283is this actually melonade or another groomer tranny pedophile?
>>24222286>>24222292exorcism
>>24222292I AM A BIG BLACK BVLL WITH HUGE BALLS
try not to beat yourself up either, it will only make things more difficult
>>24222275>Death is the end of your mindyes that will cause peace no more thinking no more bullshit>>24222280no>>24222281>ead thousand-yard stare and never talk people are gonna think ur weird/unpredictableyou can be very handsome with a full head of hair and still look like a child predator, it's besides the pointthat doesn't matterI don't wanna be ugly I don't wanna be accepted by people eitherI wanna feel good about myself when I stare in the mirror and see myself I like it>>24222283thanks I guess>>24222288>learn to make people comfortable around youno one feels intimated when I'm around them>you'll see some crackhead retard have a lively conversation with a cashier, etcI've had countless interactions with strangersand don't wanna socialize with anyone anymore >>24222292are you seriously calling me tranny pedophile>>24222300I can't...https://files.catbox.moe/8f8d8f.mp4I'm going to sleep it's pretty late for me you anons take care
>>24222327sleep well
>>24222222schway
>>24222222got it
>>24222222CheckedFrogs up bigly
>>24222327>yes that will cause peaceno more thinking no more bullshitIn another post, you mentioned that you are only 19. You know that a lot of people get really depressed at the age of 19 right? If you survive through it, it gets better.When I was your age, I was DEEPLY depressed and confused. I was still a vigin. I was struggling with the emotional scars that the bullies from high school gave me. My mom was pressuring me to just get on with life even though everything felt awkward. I deeply regretted some decisions that I made during the years prior. My first job went poorly.Things got better when I was around 22.You should have told me that you were only 19 sooner. This all makes sense now.You are going to make it little man. It gets better. For now, be sure to spend your free time relaxing. Don't put too much pressure on yourself. You are still young.If I have a son one day, I hope he's just like you.
>>24222222checked
>>24222136>> i talk to god instead>how do you do that?sit quietly, pray, admit your faults, ask for help, listenrepeat until he answersyou have to mean ityou HAVE to mean it, there is no other way to hear from him>that's so cool the voicessanity is a challenge, its not as cool as it soundsespecially if i break my routine shit gets all fucking crazy...especially during a mania episode and then the crash after...fuggggg>why do they get angry when you talk about them though do you have DID or somethingdunno but they get very loud and chatty, and repeat my name and there is an undeniable presence at times...its hard to explain>I once talked to someone who had DIDsome people larp because it sounds cool, but anyone who deals with this shit can identify those pretty quicklyDID/BPD is pretty serious though, and will seriously turn into a different person at a moment...like one moment they're nice and friendly, next moment they are cutting you down like you killed their dog....no joke (sadly i know, not my issue tthankfully)and nah it sounds crazy, i know it>>24222205the presence of god is an undeniable experience and likely its a combination of all 3
>>24222175nobody writes like that in english anymore unfortunately
>>24222452i write mostly in cursive, its easier
I'm sure that OP will age like fine wine. All men do.BROS: Make absolute sure this fine young chap doesn't kill himself. His head is full of signals and he's having a hard time sorting it all out and he probably assumes that he needs to figure everything out quickly. He doesn't.In another 15 years this guy will absolutely exude big dick energy ... if he's still breathing.Be nice to this young pup.
>>24222222based>>24222229lmao rekt
>>24222222put me in the screencapniggers tongue my anus
>>24222327>>24221873you posted an image associated with pedophiles and advocating pedophilia.
>>24222327sweet dreamsapproaching midnight in burger land too
>>24222222Greetings from /trash/
>>24222222another (You)>>24222221
>>24222222huh...So it was the frog all along. Noted
>>24222222(You)
>>24222222Kek
>>24222189I'm getting the sheik to castrate you mr jazaaer
>>24222222a decisive frog win
>>24221672either at work, gooning, or contemplating suicide
>>24222222ehem...ehhh, how you say,-eternally, BTFO-absola freaking luterally
>>24222375>depressed at the age of 19I'm not depressed anon>If you survive through it, it gets better.no, it won't things are not gonna get better>If I have a son one day, I hope he's just like you.why would someone wish for their son to be like me are you delusional anon>>24222404>you HAVE to mean it, there is no other way to hear from himgod do hear me all the time but he never really answer I want a straight up direct answer him talking to me >especially during a mania episode and then the crash after...fugggggthat's not normal anon have you seen a specialist for this kinda of thing you are going through maybe you are schizo for real>is an undeniable presence at times...its hard to explainTHE VOICES!! AHHHHHHHH>and nah it sounds crazy, i know itlol I feel like everyone in my country is bpd at this point>>24222452why I saw many still write this way>>24222475>big dick energy ... if he's still breathing.>Be nice to this young pup.nomy dick is small>>24222493hmph I hate pepe the frog>>24222516sorry>>24223324but castration is haram>>24223483that's not cooldon't goon or kys anon
>>24224142Raping little boys is haram and youre posting shotacon imagery mr Jazaaer, I think you should be more careful saving those things on your puter or if you are genuinely not like this
>>24224144ok
>>24221672Thats how I sleep thinking about my brown algerian on bnat
>>24224169
>>24222222Cirnosisters... Our response?
>>24224142He is not an instrument or tool you can use and expect some sort of results from. You need to listen without expectation. God rarely answers in the way you expect. >that's not normal anonI am aware, maintaining a healthy routine, diet, and exercise really helps a lot. I think that applies to most people and situations though?
>>24224235>You need to listen without expectationlisten to what there is no sign nothing it's hard to tell if he ever listened to what you wished for >I think that applies to most people and situations thoughnot really
>>24224412you are expecting some sort of transactional interaction and thats not how it worksin addition to that you have to be willing to do what's been asked of youit seems like you have your mind made up already
>>24224445>transactional interaction and thats not how it worksI know... but at least a sign or something there is nothing it's impossible to tell if god have actually answered what you wanted I know it's kinda disrespectful to just say things like this about god and all what he do but it's all doesn't make sense to me >what's been asked of youb-but... I can't that's why I'm asking him to help I got no one only him and myself
i thought that you wanted to quit this site and focus on your exams or somethingat least listen to some good music if you wanna be emohttps://youtu.be/Fnx8ClmhIVM
>>24224872>at least listen to some good music if you wanna be emomy god you and your horrible music taste>i thought that you wanted to quit this site and focus on your exams or somethingI can't do it man i tried... I can't
https://youtu.be/qYEJZoK1eIA
everyone is gone again cmon come back
>>24224470there is no easy way out and thats by design>>24224948>>24224884https://soundcloud.com/kaiwachi/when-we-touch>>24224987have fun and shit up some threads :)
>>24225114>[SoundCloud] Kai Wachi - When We Touch by KAI WACHIwhy you gay folks always with the loud ass music>have fun and shit up some threads :)I don't like to troll...
>>24225125is this too loud too sweetie?https://soundcloud.com/ufality/twlght-hylia-out-of-sight>I don't like to troll...ask questions
>>24225144>[SoundCloud] TWLGHT & HYLIA - Out Of Sight by Ufalitydon't like itfeels like a song in a geometry dash or osu or one of them rhythm games>ask questionsI can't find interesting threads
>>24224884thats not horrible. way better than jrpg ambiance slop >>24225144What anon complained was actually the music not being loud enoughhttps://soundcloud.com/geistezkranker/leg-mir-eine-line-aufshould be closer to the stuff he likes <3
>>24225153>jrpg ambiance slop are you seriously calling jrpg music slop https://youtu.be/S37JcVTbyTMhow can you listen to shit like this it's making my ears bleedhttps://soundcloud.com/geistezkranker/leg-mir-eine-line-auf
>>24225153thats ogey, i cant get enough of EDM, anything from the ultra feminine to pretty hard (minus the headache screechy stuff)>I can't find interesting threadsa bit frog heavy but i think they're just at war with cirno....wish they would focus fire instead of creating threads>>24225155>>24225163>SoundCloud] LEG MIR EINE LINE AUF [ TBK REMIX ] by GEISTEZKRANKER my ears are bleeding now ;___;
>>24225206>ultra feminine to pretty hard white girls music or something>i think they're just at war with cirnoI will side with our godess cirno I don't like frogs
>>24224142>I'm not depressed anonI've noticed that blatant denialism is a recurring theme in your posts."I'm not depressed!"Why did you want to kill yourself then?I won't judge you if you admit that you are depressed. I WILL judge you if I detect blatant denial of reality.>why would someone wish for their son to be like meare you delusional anonWell ... I imagine a lot of women are going to think that you are a cutie-pie softie-poo. You just need to free yourself from internalized abuse. Other people have tortured you with abusive language and this has infected your self-perception, but you can cure your mind. You are still young and you have plenty of time to heal. If you need to slow down and heal in your twenties and "catch up" in your thirties then you can. That's my life in a nutshell.I see the goodness in you. See the goodness in yourself.
>>24225294>Why did you want to kill yourself then?I told you before it's too much everything is a fucking suffering even the little stuff drinking, eating, sleeping, dressing, clothes everything is just uncomfortable and weird nothing makes sense the world is at war people are dying normies don't give a fuck >blatant denial of reality.I'm not denying anythingdepression is not real anon>I see the goodness in you. See the goodness in yourself.can't see anything >I imagine yeah you said it imagineit's not gonna happen
>>24225278something like that? idk....i dont support the indefinite necrobumping, that shit is more cancerous than the frogs
>>24225437can't you guys just contact jannies via irc and tell them to purge all cirno and frog threads
>>24225445seems that they are allowing the perpetual necro bumps even though its obvious what is happeningnot sure if you've looked but its mostly the same anon bumping and deleting their post afterimho they should just let those threads die and make new ones for fresh replies and convo to happen
>>24225474I guess yeahthe board is pretty slow having few threads will be kinda boring
>>24222222cirnofags btfo for all eternity.thank you for your service
gn everyone
>>24225479could have liek 25+ more threads if they werent there...sigh>>24225588gnight, sleep well
>>24224142>nomy dick is smallWhen I talk about "big dick energy" I'm talking about the confidence to get outside and take on life's challenges.Has nothing to do with your actual penis length.Please don't start obsessing over your penis length OP. I have no idea what your penis looks like but every man's dick comes from his family DNA. Don't start getting into "looksmaxxing" shit.All penises are beautiful. Yes that does sound fucking gay. I don't care because I'm desperately trying to save your life and prevent yet another male suicide.>sorrySee? This is another good thing about you. I see a willingness to learn and apologize in you. You seem like a really nice and sensitive young pup who has just seen some shit. That's why I'm trying to save your life during my spare time. I could be working or playing my video games or cleaning my house, but instead I am desperately trying to prevent your death. Don't make me cry man.
>>24224412>listen to what there is no sign nothingSo ... you are Muslim but you don't hear the voice of Allah? That reminds me of my own childhood. I was raised to be Christian and my Dad told me to ask God questions, but I never heard any answers.That's how I became an atheist ... but you don't want to do that eh?Just know that you're not alone. Maybe religion is giving you stress and you need to think about something more calming?>not reallyDiet is important though. I actually feel way better ever since I stopped eating sweets and stopped drinking sugary drinks. Also, I eat a lot of fatty meat and drink a lot of whole milk.Contrary to popular belief, consuming animal fat does NOT cause obesity. That's actually one of the most dangerous diet myths out there. Eating fat is actually good for your brain. Maybe drink more whole milk and eat more butter?
>>24224445I think that you need to fuck off and leave this poor boy alone.Listen asshole. I grew up with an extreme Christian fundamentalist Dad. I know from experience that submitting before God doesn't improve your life. I just causes insanity.This poor guy has clearly been beaten down by the world and now you are basically telling him to be EVEN MORE submissive. He doesn't need to submit even more. He need to chillax and think happy thoughts WITHOUT guilt weighing down on him. Don't fucking stomp on a man when he's already struggling to stand up. Don't say the same shit that his religious parents probably force-feed him every day.
>>24224470There's plenty of other aspects of life to think about man.If letting go of God would make you feel better then fucking do it. Just ... be happy. No pressure. Just find a way to relax.Maybe you are just too smart for religion? That could be it.
>>24225921nope not gonna happen, and im not an asshole, just because you dont like your dad and how he handled things doesnt mean that there isnt truth in what im saying or finding and connecting deeply with God, your higher self, the universe, and the greater as a whole (maybe if you aske dsome questions about what i believe you might see there is something deeper than than your Dad)hopefully one day you'll reconnct with god on your own terms rather than seeing him through the lens of your fatherkinda feel like you're that one guy from r9k a few months ago with this same story but its also not uncommon
>>24225335>the world is at warSee? That's more of the beautiful goodness in you shining though. You understand that war is Hell and that it hurts people. My favorite song ever is Disposable Heroes by Metallica because it's a song about how much agony war causes.>normies don't give a fuckYou're saying that because your IQ is above average. You are intelligent.You have stated before "I'm not smart." That is WRONG. Why do you see yourself as stupid? More internalized abuse? Who or what hurt you?This hits me on a personal level because I'm autistic. I am smart, but a lot of people think that we are stupid.Have you made shit mistakes in your life? Believe me, I made mistakes when I was a teenager. I even lost a friend over some shit that I shouldn't have said. Even smart boys can make mistakes when under pressure man.Seriously. Tell me more about why you see yourself as unintelligent. You remind me of my own younger self so much that I'm literally crying right now. I am not joking. I'm crying as I type this.>depression is not real anonYes it is!!!This sounds like more internalized abuse. Some piece of shit monster told you that depression isn't real and now you are denying your own depression. You are depressed and I won't let you fucking die.>yeah you said it imagineit's not gonna happenI detect a lot of gentleness coming from your posts. A lot of women want a gentleman.
Keep this thread alive guys. Don't let the Pepe/Cirno cunts slide this thread away.OP is gradually revealing more of his inner pain and inner beauty as time passes. We're making progress. We are heroes who are saving a life.We're going to save this kid. I know it. He'll grow into a beautiful man. Don't give up. What we are doing is true love.This is already becoming one of the greatest experiences of my entire life. I'm saving a life guys. I'm so sad that he's hurt, but I'm so happy that I'm doing the right thing.
>>24222222good
>>24226365Fuck off you cancerous faggot.You Pepe/Cirno slide cunts keep sliding the actual fucking discussions and ruining this board.OP is literally an impoverished, suicidal man living in a third world country who can't afford therapy and so I'm trying to prevent him from killing himself.Grow the fuck up and ram your cartoon frog up your cunt. Jesus Christ.
>>24225588OP, you are asleep as I type this, but when you wake up and read this, I want you to follow my instructions. Strip completely naked, look in the mirror, and tell your nude reflection "I am a beautiful man."You have already stated multiple times that you view yourself as ugly and now you are insulting your own penis size. You must gaze upon your own body and declare "This is beautiful."Also, do your parents ever ask for your help when they need to move heavy things? I'm asking because the male body is strong and you need to be aware of your strength.Us men are beautiful. Read The Manipulated Man and skip to the chapter "The Fair Sex".https://selfdefinition.org/psychology/Esther-Vilar-The-Manipulated-Man.pdfSomeday, a woman will see you as a sweet, smart, sensitive, beautiful man. How can I get you to believe in yourself?
>>24226438>actual fucking discussionsLOL this nigga thinks there are discussions on /bant/
Bumping so that OP sees my posts in the morning.Other Users: Please keep this thread alive until OP is back.
>>24226438>OP is literally an impoverished, suicidal man living in a third world country who can't afford therapySo OP's solution is to vent on /bant/ of all places and have literal morons like you with ZERO soft skills LARP as crisis counselors?
>>24227292>So OP's solution is to vent on /bant/ of all places and have literal morons like you with ZERO soft skills LARP as crisis counselors?I'm trying my best you jerk. I'm not a trained counselor but I know what suicidal thoughts feel like and I understand the horrible pain that OP is feeling.
Bumping just so OP will see my posts when he comes back. Pepe/Cirno spammers deserve an eternity in Hell.
>>24225844>the confidence to get outside and take on life's challenges.If I had a big one I would probably have confidence >I'm desperately trying to save your life and prevent yet another male suicide.you are just like everyone else a liar everybody lies to me even my parents they will always said I'm good looking, I'm this and that but it was never true you are just lying to me what's the point of you lying to my face like that it is nice yeah but it's not real I'm sorry>I am desperately trying to prevent your deaththat's nice thank you, you actually carebut I'm not quite sure if I'm gonna change my mind about it meanwhile there is really no good way of ending my life currently I have no money for OD other methods are not really gonna work cause I don't have the stuff I need to do them so I'm stuck here for now >>24225893>don't hear the voice of Allah?I want to but i can't and it's impossible I'm sure god got his own reasons for not letting us hear him or talk to him>Maybe religion is giving you stress and you need to think about something more calmingwith or without religion I'm already a sinner and a horrible person that's why I wanna die too so I get punished for every bit of horrible thing I did living like this with too much corruption inside your body is really tiring I don't wanna be a sinner>Diet is important though.we are a big family I can't really have a diet on my own or cook for myself so I eat whatever my mother makesI don't eat sweets or drink much anyways >>24225921>God doesn't improve your life. I just causes insanity.no>>24225944>If letting go of God would make you feel better then fucking do it. it won't it will only escalate thingsWhy you atheists try to shove your ideas and hate on god so much just leave me to be man I don't wanna be an atheist or not religious I hate atheism not believing in anything is retarded to me
>>24225944>just too smart for religion?I'm not smartislam just makes sense and feels righteven if I die I won't regret being a muslim or get disappointed cause I know it's the right thing >>24226005it's a common thing for people to feel this way there is saudi writer who became an atheist who talked about topics like this and extremists who made his life a living hell and muslims tried to assassinate him 3 times cause they only disagreed and thought what he wrote is very controversial which really isn't he even mentioned that the first time he met his father he hated him so much his father into a horrible person just cause of being extreme >>24226045> Disposable Heroes by Metallicamy god it's so loud what's with you guys and loud music> IQ is above average. You are intelligent.no I'm not>Why do you see yourself as stupid?cause I'm literally stupid duh >Have you made shit mistakes in your life?I can't I always things about the smallest details of dumb things I did in the past that nobody ever remembers I don't like to remember the past but I always do and it makes me feel horrible not just mistakes awkward stuff it doesn't make me feel good at all how disgusting I'm such disgusting freak>You remind me of my own younger self soyou can't be as bad as me I'm sure>Some piece of shit monster told you that depression isn't realno>You are depressed and I won't let you fucking die.I'm not> A lot of women want a gentleman.I'm not a gentleman
>>24226107>I'm saving a life guysyou ever thought for working on those crisis help line or whatever that shit is they pay really good money for doing stuff like that telling people not to kill themselves and shit >beautyall I see is ugliness where is the beauty anon>>24226541>Strip completely naked, look in the mirror, and tell your nude reflectionI don't like seeing myself in the mirror I'm already obsessed with mirrors it makes me feel more ugly I don't wanna look at mirror esp when I'm naked >and declare "This is beautiful."it's not >to move heavy things?yeah I'm the elder son I got only one little brotherthere is nobody to help my father really only me >Us men are beautiful. Read The Manipulated Man and skip to the chapter "The Fair Sex".you know me I can't read and I'm too lazy to doprobably won't understand what it's saying anyways>will see you as a sweet, smart, sensitive, beautiful manthey won't>How can I get you to believe in yourself?don't know desu
>>24228445>If I had a big one I would probably have confidencePlease stop. Stop hating your body. This is a big part of what is killing you. You need to make peace with your own body.>that's nice thank you, you actually carebut I'm not quite sure if I'm gonna change my mind about it meanwhile there is really no good way of ending my life currently I have no money for OD other methods are not really gonna work cause I don't have the stuff I need to do them so I'm stuck here for nowMake peace with yourself.>I'm already a sinner and a horrible person that's why I wanna dieI am pretty sure that, if you end your life, THAT will be the most awful thing you ever did. Think about how hurt your family will be. Have you EVER done anything worse than that? If you feel guilty about something then let it out and tell us. During my teenage years, I did some really retarded shit and some fucking evil sadistic shit ... and I did all that shit because I was mad at my autistic brain for being such a fucking nerd. I've forgiven myself, even though some people cut me out of their lives and refuse to ever forgive me. I know what it's like to fuck up man. It's like ... you feel like you deserve a punishment, but you are still afraid of said punishment.Talk to us. What did you do? Could it have possibly been worse than the shit I've done?Have you ever watched Digimon Adventure 02 man? Remember Ken? He did some evil shit but he redeemed himself in the end.>living like this with too much corruption inside your body is really tiring I don't wanna be a sinnerWhat does this mean? Tell me. What corruption?
>>24228445>Why you atheists try to shove your ideas and hate on god so much just leave me to be man I don't wanna be an atheist or not religious I hate atheism not believing in anything is retarded to meNormally I keep my beliefs to myself but you are literally suicidal and openly struggling with religion. Again, I am trying anything to keep you alive. If you don't feel comfortable abandoning Islam then okay. I won't push you that way anymore. I'm just proving ideas and if you feel that one of my ideas won't work then I'll back off and try to think of something different.
Wassup my niggas how’s it goin?
>>24228479>my god it's so loud what's with you guys and loud musicWell ... you got yours and I got mine.>cause I'm literally stupid duhNo. Explain why you feel that way? Did you make a big mistake? Did someone abuse you? Talk about the "stupid" shit that you've done and I'll be the judge. Also, you are only 19. Literally everyone gets smarter with age ... unless you live to be 80 and then your brain starts to fall apart. Basically, the years will make you smarter until you are around 80.>I can't I always things about the smallest details of dumb things I did in the past that nobody ever remembers I don't like to remember the past but I always do and it makes me feel horrible not just mistakes awkward stuff it doesn't make me feel good at allThis isn't stupidity. This is mental illness. It looks like you might suffer from PTSD, OCD, autism or a combination of them. That's not the same as being stupid.>how disgusting I'm such disgusting freak... but more of your inner beauty is coming out in nearly every post that you make. That's why I'm still talking to you instead of giving up on you.>you can't be as bad as meWhen I was 17, I hated my own autistic brain so much that I bullied this other autistic boy so badly that he went into silent, paralyzed "shutdown state". He still hasn't forgiven me. I'm crying again.Tell me about what you did. It can't possibly be worse than the disgusting, monstrous shit that 17 year old me did. I'll forgive you if you can find it in your heart to forgive me.>I'm not a gentlemanIf you had a girlfriend, what would you do with her? Tell us and we'll tell you whether or not you are a gentleman.
>>24228562>You need to make peace with your own body.ugh body positivity>Make peace with yourself.how?>Think about how hurt your family will beI know that's why I don't wanna make it look like a suicide and it won't leave or harm the body >Have you EVER done anything worse than that?I did bad things >punishment, but you are still afraid of said punishment.I am but I deserve it hell is scary> worse than the shit I've done?yeah>He did some evil shit but he redeemed himself in the end.well for me it's not repenting feels like it's not enough>What corruption?sins bad shit you know>>24228564good thank you >>24228573hey what's up!
>>24228495>you ever thought for working on those crisis help line or whatever that shit isthey pay really good money for doing stuff like that telling people not to kill themselves and shitNah man. I like you specifically because I see so much of myself in you. I wouldn't offer free therapy to just anyone.>I don't like seeing myself in the mirror I'm already obsessed with mirrors it makes me feel more uglyI don't wanna look at mirror esp when I'm nakedHoly fuck man. The Beast (from Beauty and the Beast) hated mirrors too. I get that Beauty and the Beast is a "silly movie for little girls" but the similarities between you and the Beast are impossible to ignore now.>yeah I'm the elder sonI got only one little brotherthere is nobody to help my father really only meSo ... you have the big, strong arms of a man but you don't see beauty in that? Women like strong men who lift heavy things man. Some women even want a man who is strong enough to protect them from rapists.Isn't that what you would do if you had a girlfriend? You'd probably move heavy things for her and beat up any asshole who tried to rape her right?That IS male beauty! Men and women both have beauty. Women are beautiful in that they can give birth and make milk and they can take care of babies more effectively than I ever could. Men are beautiful in that we are big and strong enough to do muscle work and protect women and children. Plus, if you want to get even more muscular then all you need is a bit of extra protein.
>>24228495>you know me I can't read and I'm too lazy to doprobably won't understand what it's saying anywaysSummary: The book is by a woman named Esther Vilar. She's a woman who doesn't like anti-male bullshit and so she made a whole book about everything that she likes about men. In the chapter "The Fair Sex", she disagrees with the whole idea that women are more beautiful than men and so she talks about how much she likes men's testicles, nipples, legs, shoulders and so on. It's my favorite part of the book because I can tell that Esther Vilar typed up that chapter with one hand and masturbated with the other. Hahaha.>they won'tTell me about your experiences with women. Have you ever tried to get a GF? If so, what happened? What did she say?>don't know desuI'll keep trying. I'm not giving up yet.
https://files.catbox.moe/wm72ce.mp4
>>24228636>ugh body positivityWell ... feminists are actually right about one thing. MOST of the body positivity stuff is actually true and good for both men and women. I disagree with fat acceptance (obesity is deadly and can be controlled) and I disagree with the idea that video games need to censored to remove all the sexy boob women (If you don't like it then don't play it.) but yeah people should accept their bodies.>I know that's why I don't wanna make it look like a suicide and it won't leave or harm the bodyYour family will be devastated even if you make it look like a non-suicide.>I did bad thingsTell me! Tell us. I already revealed my tale of regret. I was literally crying as I was typing but I revealed my painful story to this entire borad because that's how much I care about saving your life!Tell us what you did. Can you? It's okay if you cry. Maybe you just need to tell us. It can't possibly be worse than what I did.>well for me it's notrepenting feels like it's not enoughCome on man! Think about all of the characters in stories who made mistakes and learned from them. The Grinch, Simba, Darth Vader, Ken from Digimon, Lord Blumiere from Super Paper Mario. These stories exist because you CAN redeem yourself. You clearly recognize that what you did was wrong and you believe that you deserve death and the fires of Hell for it. Just tell us already! NOW! If you seriously believe that you deserve to burn in the fires of Hell then you have clearly learned your lesson. TELL. US. NOW!!! WHAT DID YOU DO???
>>24228636>sins bad shit you knowYou can either keep your secret and die or else you can reveal your secret for a shot at redemption. Again, this is like one of those traps from Saw in that you need to do something painful and scary or else you might die. Revealing your secret might be painful ... but ... well ... in one of the Saw movies there's this one guy who needs to cut out his own eye because a key was surgically put behind his eye and he needs to the key to remove the death trap. Sometimes you need to do something painful to prevent your death.
>>24228773> I disagree with the idea that video games need to censored to remove all the sexy boob HELL YEAH BASEDI like tities>I disagree with fat acceptance (obesity is deadly and can be controlled) that's what literally what body positivity is all about no?>Tell us what you didI can't I'm sorryI always push people away from some reason and act like a jerk so they would leave me and I stay all alone it's all misery in a misery >NOW!!! WHAT DID YOU DO???no don't bring this up again please>>24228830why are you so curious sorry but I'm not gonna tell you it's just... idk
https://youtu.be/DhOv8OoPBUI
>>24228858>HELL YEAH BASEDI like titiesSo ... you like video game boobies but not cartoon porn?>that's what literally what body positivity is all about no?Well ... the good kind of body acceptance is helping people like you.>why are you so curious sorry but I'm not gonna tell you it's just... idkWell ... I am running out of ideas. I'm trying my hardest to save another man from suicide but nothing seems to make you feel any better. If you don't reveal anything more about what hurts then I don't know what to say.Either you give me more information or else I have no way of knowing what I should say to you.I've said it before and I'll say it again: Being nosy is bad UNLESS you need to be nosy to save a life.
>>24228911So ... are you still going to kill yourself or have you changed your mind?I've given you all the advice that I can give ... unless you give me more information to work with. I get that talking about your problems can be painful but I feel like I've hit a wall when it comes to saving your life. I will repeat myself. Either you tell us all more about what hurts or else I am out of ideas.
I already thought of another idea for a question. Is there anything that you are sexually attracted to but most other people don't seem to be into it? This is related to autism because autistic people are more likely to have unusual sexual fetishes.Me: Most men apparently really like very thin women. I don't like women who are grossly obese (to the point where they look like they will die soon) but I find it really cute when a woman has just a little bit of puffy fat on her belly. This is appealing to me for two reasons. 1. Those women often have larger-than-average breasts and buttocks as well. 2. I imagine that having sex with that sort of woman would feel very warm and cozy.
>>24229892^^^IGNORE THIS WRONG THREAD SORRY
