I have no right to be depressed. Over the past decade, I've fixed my life, mostly. I went to college, got my degree, got a great job with fantastic co-workers... But that doesn't take away from the fact that I did in my 40s what I should have done in my 20s. I'm looking back at a wasted life and seeing things that I will never achieve now. Getting married? Having kids? Pft... I didn't do it in the past because I wasn't going to subject anybody to the immature shitshow that was my life, and I'm not doing it now because I don't want to subject anybody to the immature depression that is my life. My meds are helping me to not break down crying on a regular basis, but they don't take away the hard truth that my life is almost over and it was wasted.Starting my life so late is also putting me in the wrong peer group. The friends that I had from high school until my mid-40s are no longer a part of my life. Right now, my very best friend is nearly half my age. All of my co-workers are also young Millennials. Some are even Gen Z. My belief structures are more Millennial than Gen X, as are my interests. I'm currently watching Avatar and She-ra, for fucks' sake.Funny thing? I'm not suicidal. I have a crippling fear of death. Non-existence just scares the hell out of me. I just want more time... Or to take back what I wasted. My co-workers accept me and include me in their social lives, but I can't help but think that I'm just some creepy old guy hanging out with kids... Kids in their mid-to-late 20s, but still. We get along, our interests are the same... But I don't belong. Then again, I also don't belong with most of Gen X either. I'm just a fucking mess right now and need to vent. Sorry for wasting your time.
>>24295824Epstein files
>>24295824Les Wexner put RFID Tracking chips in Victoria Secret Bra's
>>24295824Google "depression + constipation" and you will find the two are almost always connected.Chronic slow motility leads to depression. It all starts in the gut.Speed up motility, improve metabolism, and the depression lifts.
>>2429582450 is watershed sadly and it gets worse an worse with the passing of time. Welcome to the autumn of life when death is not theoretical anymore and the lost opportunities look like an epitaph https://archive.4plebs.org/pol/thread/504877369
>>24295824>Getting married? Having kids?One of my colleagues is 52 an he is having his first child in a few months. It's not over until it's over.
>>24295824 >My co-workers accept me and include me in their social lives, but I can't help but think that I'm just some creepy old guy hanging out with kids You are to them (guaranteed), even if they never tell you. Michel Houellebecq wrote exactly about this: >But then I happened to see my face in a mirror and realized: I was well into my forties. My face was worried, rigid, etched with life experience, responsibility, and sorrow. I really didn't look like someone anyone would want to have fun with. I didn't stand a chance.In the modern world, you could be a swinger, bisexual, transsexual, sodomite, or sadomasochist, but being old was forbidden. And the loose morals that were so charming, so refreshing, and so alluring in young people could only become, in me, the repulsive behavior of an old pig refusing to leave the stage. >Right now, my very best friend is nearly half my age That's not a "friend", but an acquaintance at best. You don't make real friends past the age of 25 (only exception is maybe traumatic bonding in war with your comrades). >But that doesn't take away from the fact that I did in my 40s what I should have done in my 20s It's just depressing, that's normal. I did some things in my 30s that I should have done in my 20s (or even earlier). The main difference is that the "spark" is just gone, so even when doing it for the first time, when you're that old it doesn't mean much anymore.
>>24295824Start taking roids, breed a young 20s wife and die when the kid is an adult but adores you for fighting even while scared of all that. I got an uncle the same age as my eldest sibling because grandad tried again in 70s to be a dad. He's still around 20 decades later.
>>24295829 What an awful, selfish age to conceive a child. Imagine trying to play table tennis against your son when you're in your 60s. He will die and not even see his kid getting a degree. Old parents are less lively and less in touch with their kids.
>>24295824You're an ungrateful little faggot. Society gave you a chance to restart your life, after 40, and you're still sad about it. >>I now have to befriend the young. Jfc, you're pathetic. who even stays best friends with the people from high school? Do you live in a 3,000 people town?
>>24295824How about you kill yourself you doomjak posting retard
>>24295824We warned youNo refunds
>>24295824If a genie appeared and said the best he could do is make you 10 years younger and you woke up 39 tomorrow, what would you do?
>>24295824Dude, try Grindr. It seriously changed my life in such a gooood way ;)
>>24295837You can thank me later
>>24295824After reading this, I understand you... it's like falling out of the flow of your generation... But you also have a unique opportunity to become a person OUTSIDE OF TIME... don't conform to your surroundings... don't judge yourself every second based on how you appear to them... just be... the way you want to be seen...Some people here might envy you. To fall out of your time and not commit suicide (in any form; some commit suicide by consuming bad food, drugs, alcohol, and tobacco, etc. I consider this a passive form of suicide—INVISIBLE SUICIDE)...so, back to the topic...it's surprising you didn't commit suicide, because many people can't cope when they fall out of their generation's stream...They are consumed by apathy and an oppressive feeling of being out of place...this is even beyond the word DEPRESSION...no depression leads to SUCH A STATE...this is different...
>>24295824>I would be happier if I had done what I'm now doing for 20 years more.You're being foolish. You're imagining things would be better, but they are only better in your imagination. In reality you wouldn't feel happier. Life would still be a struggle. Your main problem is your inability to really understand you can be happy only now and that's regardless of circumstances. In no other place or time can you be happy but now. Instead of internalizing that truth, your imagination tells you you would be happy if x, if y, and if z. And since you can never get tangible proof you would not be happier if x, if y, and if z, you believe your illusion to your own detriment.How many people find perfect happiness when they attain what they dreamed about? Protip: not even one. It makes them feel happy momentarily, but after the first rush passes they feel empty and soon they're back thinking "if only x was the case, then I would be happy". That's how life is for everyone. You need to be a lot more critical about your imagination.
>>24295824i've thought a lot about what i'd do if i got to your age and never fixed my life (i'm still a fuckup loser at 27 whose done nothing). i would probably go out in a blaze of glory...minecraft some politician or executive. live my life on the run and eventually get killed in a shootout or something. but who am I kidding? i'm a coward now i'll probably be a coward then and end up living as a hermit browsing the internet till 73 and die of a heart attack. not sure what the answer is anon
>>24295832existing is better than non existing. Creating new healthy whites is never wrong.Also your children don't have to wait until they are 60 to inherit from you. Not a bad bargain ultimately.
>>24295829This. You’re still breathing air, my nigger. Find some type of gratitude in that. Also, NEVER commit suicide, no matter what.
>>24295824You started to fix your life too late. I fathered 4 kids from age 35 to 42. Have a good wife. It makes all the difference.
You might as well go all-in with fitness and anti-aging and self-improvement and that kind of stuff. I mean, you're not 80. Eating collagen and working out can probably keep you trim and fertile for a while longer.
you supposed to post this shit on /r9k/
>>24295824>>>/r9k/
>>24295831> He's still around 20 decades later.Your grandpa is 270 years old?
>>24295824>>2429582852 here, anon. I am in the best shape of my life. I almost punched out at 48, living out of my car. But clott adams said something that changed my life - we are grown, we are adults, and we can just do things. I make more money now than I ever have (I came from abject poverty), I am happy, sober for 4 years from everything. Don't listen to what the world says. Who says life declines after 50? Why do they say that? It literally doesn't have to. Just change how you think.
>I can't help but think that I'm just some creepy old guy hanging out with kids.hey thats what i was gonna say
>>24295824Man, just go to live in a place with no air and light pollution and enjoy the time, watching the sun and the stars
>>24295824You're 50 years old and memeflag posting on 4chin? You deserve to be depressed.
>>24295824Winner of the My Life is Going Great so I'll sabatoge it with dumb outlooks award.
>>24295824Eat shit boomer you’re the reason I can’t afford groceries or rent so you can eat shit and die.
>>24295824>millennial woesTheir youth is gone and their best years are behind them. Their women are withering away, many of whom never even blossomed into motherhood. They have no assets or stake in the economy. They have no social standing and mostly stand alone.Like an old work animal whose time has come and needs to be put down, like a stray dog who overstayed it's welcome, like an old man who understands so well the point where oblivion takes you forever, it's over for millennials they are finished.
>>24295849based boomer
you can still do something great and be remembered forever
>>24295824You are part of a failed generation. The Sons of whores and bastards. You should embrace that and use it. You will be happier.
>>24295824Stop worrying unc you are fighting the fightMost of pussies would off themselves, you are different.Wasted life = less things to cling on when end come.Half empty half full type of thinking honestly in the end.Happy birthday
>>24295824>My co-workers accept me and include me in their social lives, but I can't help but think that I'm just some creepy old guy hanging out with kids...If they didn't want you they wouldn't invite you. You said it yourself you are on their level with the stage your life is at right now, so it's not just that they are your friends it is natural for you to be with people like that. Or would you rather be hanging out with married couples with kids as the fifth wheel and trying to bond with them over the last meltdown on their kids dentist trip rather than with other people who have interests in things you can actually talk about and enjoy with them. It might seem a little awkward based on what you believe you should have achieved so far, but if you can put that aside you will realise you are not only exactly where you need to be but you are accepted by those who are also there and have a place and are not alone. Better late than never, do what the kids do. Watch them, learn from them, ask their advice, and into moving into the next stage of your life with them, get the gf and then wife. But don't be sad about your current situation. You do belong with the people who put a smile on your face, and you theirs.
>>24295824do biohacking to optimize your hormones and sleepyou should lift, build wealth, fuck young women
>>24295824it's over for you fat fuck. it only gets worse as your body decays faster and regenerates slowly
>>24295824> Getting married? Having kids? Pft... I didn't do it in the past because I wasn't going to subject anybody to the immature shitshow that was my life, and I'm not doing it now because I don't want to subject anybody to the immature depression that is my life. I'd quit the lamenting. You appear to be a very late bloomer, that happens and you do rather well considering the wasted decades.In your case you should turn the predicament into a system. This means go out find a woman half your age and make babies with her.I bet you won't regret it. But you will likely regret if you don't do it.
>>24295846"Poland" is rightful Russo-Germanic clay.
What's there to be depressed about? I'm 51 and things have only gotten better.
>>24295824I won't blow smoke up your ass, you are old.I'll refrain from reminding you of the bad things you already know.But its not too late to get married. You can still find a woman and not be alone the rest of you life. But your dating pool is limited. You're stuck with the leftovers. Divorces mainly. You're posting the 4chan, so you're probably not rich or good looking enough to get a girl in her 20s and 30s.Children? Its possible, not recommended, but definitely possible. Just know at your age Autism is very likely. The only thing that will reduce the chance at your age is the younger the mother is.Robert De Niro is 83 and has a 3 year old daughter.You could do invitro. And if you don't care about genetics, adoption is a good thing.But just remember, people are frequently living into their 80s nowadays barring accidental deaths.Don't smoke, take it easy on the booze and exercise.30 years is a long time. And who knows, maybe you'll make it to 100.You don't have to join a church, but read the Bible from front to back, get Baptized, and pray every night before bed.A "wasted" life won't matter in the span of Eternity if you get into Heaven.
How sad! Boohoo!Meanwhile I can't get even a burger flipping job to continue my engineering degree, half the men in my family lost their jobs despite having 30+ years of experience doing what they do, I'd need to magically conjure a $70k+ income to move out and into any apartment, and my mom has cancer.TOTAL BOOMER DEATHTOTAL GEN X DEATH
>>24295824At least you have something. I spent the last 10 years trying to fix my life and got nothing for it.
>>24295824Demoralization thread.ARE DEMORALIZED YET?
>>24295824Quit meds. Start lifting.
>>24295824imagine browsing 4chan while being 50 LMAO
>>24295869Hold the line for GTA 6 and post scarcity robot waifus. Life is literally this easy
>>24295872>he doesn't knowYou're here forever, kidWelcome to Hotel Chuddiefornia
>>24295872Imagine being jeet from switzerland
>>24295868skill issue
