It has been over 10 years since I graduated from university and I'm still very sad and bitter about how I had zero friends or social life throughout the entire time there (and afterwards).The experience is always portrayed as the peak of a person's life in terms of relationships, making friends, partying, and so on, and I experienced none of that. I was the ugly loser in all of my classes who sat next to no one. I went to a few activity clubs a few times but people barely interacted with me.In the first week of my first year, there were lots of fresher's week events and I went to none of them because I was too intimidated to talk to anyone. My subject had some social events assigned in our schedule and I remember skipping lunch with some other people on my first day to mope and walk around alone because I was realising, based on my interactions with people in the morning, how I was never going to fit in. I barely talked at any of the other events. In the later years, seeing the freshers week events was always painful. I remember sitting in the library in my first year, reading the graduation regulations, and realising correctly that I would eventually choose not to go to the ceremony. As my course narrowed down its participant numbers over the years as the subject matter became specialised, basically everyone in the class was part of one big friend group that excluded me. They organised major parties or trips.I discovered, in turn, 4chan, r9k, and then the incel blackpill during my time and the latter really nuked my thought patterns for the last year or two. It explained everything (and still does). I remember having a crush on two girls during my first few terms and never talking to them.
I had part time jobs during the summers, one of which was at a clothes shop with the highest concentration of attractive girls (other employees) that I've ever been around except for university, and I never made any friends or interacted socially with anyone. My social skills were horrific and I failed numerous graduate job interviews, which involved a lot of travelling by train to London for the day and being socially judged by normies a few years older than me or by HR women.I disliked the subject and had no interest in it from day one. I went to a university nearest to me, rather than the best one I had the grades for. I feel like I was failed by institutions and that, rather than acting as ladders to climb through hard work and merit, they became filters to get rid of me as soon as possible.All of my university memories involve me being very sad, totally uninterested in the work, and the atmosphere being very oppressive. There are too many memories to list. Losing interest in video games at around the age of 20 was very weird, after a lifetime spent loving them. The library in my second year felt like a very dry aired place, with lots of dull colours. I spent a lot of time in my final year in some run down computer rooms with cracked desks. In my second last year I remember leaving an awful meeting with a lecturer about some work I could barely put effort into and walking past some students with their faces painted, in costumes, doing some sort of scavenger hunt.
Same for me. I didn't make a single friend in uni.It didn't help that 90% of other students in my field were Chinese or Jeet international students.
I dont think we can change your past. Time to change your future.
Same as you OP. Went through all of university without making any friends, let alone dating. Still a virgin btw and live with my parents. Severely underperformed career wise because I was too socially awkward to network or pass interviews and just been working dead end jobs.I have basically no good memories in university, just sat in the library alone. Everyone already formed friend groups in freshman year and anywhere I went I could make small talk for 10 minutes that ultimately goes nowhere. Starting to believe social skills is more important than basically anything else as it directly connects to financial, career, and romantic success and the positive feedback loop of being liked and accepted by your peers. If you're a social reject freak it never even began.
I don't know OP, I was fucking prime young pussy at uni while having friends to party with and getting good grades. God life is great.What was I trying to say? Uhhhh anyway, try not to kill yourself, I guess it's bad or something.
>>60993967Same here pretty much down to a T. Graduated uni in 2016, never had a single gf or intimate encounter with a woman. Made a few pathetic attempts at irl flirting but quickly got discouraged. Had maybe one girl show interest in me but too autistic to realize at the time and too low confidence make a move regardless. I was too low confidence and scared of women to even make an online dating profile. Discovered r9k and 4chan at 18 in 2012 which fucked me up pretty bad with the black pill shit as well. Since graduating and getting my own place with a car, job, money I have improved though. Eventually got my shit together and now that I’m early 30’s I’m basically a normie, however I completely missed out on formative experiences with women in HS and college. Literally not even one hug or kiss, or even platonic female friend during that time
It depends on the country and the university. The university I went to in Australia, nobody interacted with each other, everyone did their own thing, and this was in 2015 when people had yet to be completely brainrotted Pretty sure the whole "le epic uni life" thing is an American thing
>>60994128You act like this is some rare tragedy.I didnt make a single friend in college or lasting friend in highschool. Fuck those niggers!!!!
>>60993967I did not read your blogs beyond the first paragraphs, but who cares about life experiences? stop being a faggot, you want to have fun? get some cocaine, get a revolver and play russian roulette while doing shorting ETH at x100 , no one of your faggot college classmate have experienced anything like, best they got as college experience is some diluded marihuana and mediocre pussy every now and then, anyways just bee yourself
Man, it's amazing, I'm somewhat of a shy dude and I remember how all the friend groups at university were literally made during the first hours of the first fucking day o_o. Those few moments might become the most important moments of your life.And yeap, I also made 0 friends. I could have been different.
The truth is that social dynamics and social structures are very similar in most situations and a low level loser in one group will more than likely also be a low level loser in any other group he joins unless he makes drastic changes beforehand.So a timid lonely loser from high school will more than likely still be a timid lonely loser at college/work/anywhere else. So you either have to make extreme drastic very hard changes about yourself from the ground up or accept that you're a low level loser who will always be automatically put on the lowest level of every social hierarchy.
That’s really sad bro. I was honestly a fucking loser in college but now I’m wealthy and attractive to women so I never think about it
>>60994772you absolutely have to come in clutch on the first day of each class and sit next to the cuties if you want to get laid
When i read these threads i get more and more how im not one of you but the prototype of a failed normie and far far more extroverted then you
>>60995131Funny when I read them I starting to think I may literally be the only person in the world that actively has to make an effort to avoid making friends. Fuckers keep trying to hang out with me, when all I want is to be rich enough to not have to work and be able to hermit in a decent home forever
>>60993967>>60993973>>60994128>>60994195cry baby niggers
>>60995148No its similar here in regards to brown people which i always have to keep away actively
