The thread for losers who hit rock bottom and have the courage to tell their story.During my porn-addicted sissy phase I posted dozens of images of me in panties sucking on giant dildos and ramming them into my asshole. I used to listen to sissy hypno every day and wear a charity cage and constantly wear a butt plug and at one point I submitted to this guy who I mailed the key to my cage to and he also made me wear a choker with a padlock on it 24/7 and kept the key to that too.He made me quit my job and mention that I'd found a new calling as a "pornstar cumslut" in my resignation letter. He also had me open an OnlyFans and apply to a bunch of porn studios. He used to organize orgies for me and I would be blind to a bed, blindfolded and used by dozens of men one by one for a whole night. They'd cum in me, leave a tally mark on my ass in Sharpie and leave only to be replaced by the next guy. I did this all the time. It's a miracle I don't have any diseases.I came very, very close to actually being a gay porn star before I came to my senses, which was a very painful experience. Total meltdown, suicide attempts, endless crying, everything. I had 250k+ followers on twitter at one point. 250,000+ thousand people regularly watching me completely debase and humiliate myself on a daily basis and for what? For the approval of strangers? For a stronger orgasm? Just because I was addicted and couldn't control myself?I had to be hospitalized and I had to make major life changes to recover. Ghosted my dom, started therapy, moved to a new state, changed my name, the whole thing. Now I'm mostly recovered, I have a fairly stable career and I'm going back to school. I also have a girlfriend I love very much and everything's going fine but sometimes I get random flashbacks of my past and it legitimately makes me want to kill myself. I still relapse sometimes but it's nowhere near as bad as it was at its worst.
>>61250465bullish 4 xrp
>>61250465its unironically over
>>61250465How did you recover at the hospital
Bullish for LINK
>>61250465I, uh...I stop-lossed on Quantum today and lost 5 bucks...but that sucks or whatever man
>>61250465post pics
>>61250465>I still relapse sometimes but it's nowhere near as bad as it was at its worst.Just don't relapse so hard you prolapse.Also thank you for your bravery in telling us your story.
>>61250465How do I profit?
>>61250537Short sissies
It sounds like your life is on the upswing Anon. Just don’t fall into modern trappings (assigning importance to your past) and focus ahead. Keep it up champ
>>61250551>Jew id
>>61250465good bait made me respond
>>61250465I wish I didn't read that
>>61250564Even on /biz/ they must always jew
>>61250495I had severe mental health issues and recovered with medication and therapy>>61250530>>61250551thanks anons
>>61250465Why is this on biz? Also does your current girlfriend know about your past? I feel like most women wouldn’t want to date a guy who had been railroaded on camera before.
>>61250465least u turned things around
>>61250599were you raped or abused as a childhow does someone actually become this fucked up
>>61250465l wish you the best.
I watch a lot of animal rehab videos. It's crazy how animals who have suffered their entire lifetimes can have a complete turnaround after a few weeks of dignified treatment. Yes humans are more complicated than animals but it just goes to show that healing is always possible
>>61250465>sometimes I get random flashbacks of my past and it legitimately makes me want to kill myselfnever kill yourself. never.you had a patch that's objectively much worse than most will ever. but you rejected it and this is now behind you.God is stronger than every sin and every degeneracy. my advice is that you need structure and optimism (download "Learned Optimism" on Anna's Archive and read it. negative thinking is not symptom, it is the disease itself). join the Church, find a good parish (not all of them are good, look around on masstimes.org and find a good one - frequent confession and adoration and Latin Mass are good signs), try to pray every day and go to Mass as often as you can. if you relapse, don't wait and go to Confession as soon as you can, doesn't matter if last time you went was yesterday. don't let the evil overwhelm you.read about the Saints. many of them converted from worse starting points and here they are praying for us in Heaven. ask for their intercession.God loves you more than you can imagine. No matter what you have done you can always turn back. "Just so, I tell you, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance." "But where sin increased, grace abounded all the more." Read the parable of the Prodigal Son.those flashbacks will also subside as time goes on. don't despair.I will also be praying for you.
>>61250465This shit did NOT happen. Good try, mossy.
Whoa what the fuck op you spent 250,000 dollars getting blacked? That's nuts.Anyway for me it was losing 5000 dollars on HUT miners in 2022. If I had held I'd have made like 40000 dollars in 2025. A real bone-head move. It also killed my plan to save and invest 50,000 dollars into bitcoin at 20k, leading to me being broke and poor now.
>>61250465Did your anus look like picrel? Do you unironically hold ROSE?
>>61250465Is gay porn a good industry to work in
Best thread on biz rn
>>61250617You'll be amazed at the current state of "women"You're thinking at women from the past, this nu Gen of trash will fuck anything that is "cute"
good luck anon and I hope your LINK recovers
>>61250465does your girlfriend know you're a faggot?
>>61250465Wtf is sissy hypno
>>61250465I bought fucking ass retarded Link and im down like 25%. Its my smallest position, so its not that bad. Everything else is printing, stocks and derivatives. Fuck crypto. I lost 3k on stupid 3M 2 years ago.I have questions:1. Im a 36 year old very muscular masculine hunk that fags adore, beard, chesthair, can fuck for hours but cant fuck someone ugly as I need good visual stimulation (pretty face to kiss). How can I whore myself online for money?2. Do I have to show my face?3. Do I have to do ass stuff? Or throat stuff? Because thats a no go for me4. How to start and with what? What pays well? 5. Where to start and how to get fandom?6. Does anyone care about muscely hairy bearded masc that is not doing weird stuff? Is the market customer just all old tops and I would get nothing? Should I do niche stuff?7. Do I have to bang fags? How about fems and trannies? I could do that.I have time since I lost my job so I could do gay entertainment stuff.
Good thread, Im here
>>61251381You need to repent.
>>61250465I probably could have ended up like thatI stopped the crossdressing and posting my pics online eventually though and didnt go much further than that. Great that you managed to turn your life aroundWhat do you mean by relapsing though? What do you do
>>61250950I'm interested in Catholicism but confession puts me off.How can confess to a priest about some of the heinous sins I've committed like literally banging a tranny and a twink? I would never be able to show my face at that church again.
>>61250465I had a lot of mental breakdowns and said a lot of relationship ruining things, honestly to isolate myself on purpose because I identified as an incel, and now I live a spartan lifestyle and gamble on meme coins.
>>61251141Thank fuck I’m not a zoomer. Zoomettes seem turbo fucked the more I hear about them.
>>61251555They don't know it's you. You should become catholic, it can be really difficult to live it out but the sacraments are worth it. Even small confessions are a healing experience. There is nothing on this earth like a good confession and a worthy communion.
>>61251555Nice trips. It's not that bad because you say it behind a screen and they're never judgemental because they've heard worse
>>61251555multiple points.1. priests have heard it all. you think they have never had a parishioner confess gay sex? you don't need to go into lurid detail (in fact, it would be wrong to do so - because priests are humans too and you should arouse their imagination with unnecessary detail. I'll spare the example but you get the point). all you need to say "on [insert number here] occasions I had sex with men." (or if you don't know how to estimate the number, you can describe the time - "over period of x years I committed sexual sins. y-z times a week sex with men, u-v times a week consuming pornography, r-s times a week masturbating") that's it.the devil is trying to fool you by whispering "well, your sins are so great, how can you ever confess them?" but the only thing God wants is a contrite heart and a commitment, with His grace, to try to never commit those sins again.all that is required is stating kind and approximate number. if they need more detail (e.g., has the penitent returned money that they stole?) they will ask>Providing Unnecessary Details>Honestly, just naming the sin in kind and approximate number is all that is necessary (even a term like “habitually” or “a lot” could suffice as an approximate number). If necessary, the confessor will ask for more information. “If necessary, the priest helps the penitent to make an integral confession.” (Rite of Penance).https://stelizabethseton.org/about-confession-letters-from-fr-casey/2. priests get special grace to forget confessions.3. you can always confess to a different priest than your regular pastor. in fact, that is what seminarians are required to do in most dioceses now - your professors can't be your confessors.
>>61251632>you should arousemeant to say "you could arouse.">>61251600correct
It's still too hard for me to tell my story, even to strangers. But after failing at everything and falling into a depression, I gave up and moved to the countryside. I guess this is it for me. Just waiting for death.I must say that at least I felt better not having to talk to anyone. Streets are empty, you see the stars at night and the nature is beautiful.
>>61250465>business and finance
> During my porn-addicted sissy phaseHehe. Stopped reading there. Thanks for the laugh tho.
>>61250950>join the Church, find a good parishAnon, he's already lost enough money. Giving away more of it to kiddie diddlers so that they can tell him silly stories is terrible advice.
>>61250465I lost a total of ~$3000 on Robinhood prediction markets between golf, college, and pro football trying to catch underdogs as they rise before ultimately losing.Oh, I see what this thread is actually about.
>>61251682Find a good priest, set up a time to talk to him. There is a way out.
>>61250465The bad things improve a bit with musichttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvZJI8rerWA
>>61251381what holding link does to a nigga
>>61250465been there but stopped being a femboy before i got fucked by a dude, i couldnt bring myself to do it. no longer a faggot. lifes amazing.
>>61250465Terrible.>sometimes I get random flashbacks of my past and it legitimately makes me want to kill myself.One thing that helped me with memories of my schizopsycho episodes that were relatively spoken about and grew a reputation on myself, is to first understand that you survived. The second is to not try and internally tear yourself away from the memories, but to observe them from a birds eye view, separate from your experience, like you're watching a movie. This slowly, over time, separates your emotions from the memories, which is what binds them to you. This serves two purposes; not having that sharp impact on you in which recall brings up suicidal ideologies, and the frequency of the memories lessens over time as well. Eventually you look back and go "Well, that was unfortunate" without pain, or you laugh at it when it becomes a tragic comedy in your perception rather than horror.Be well.
>>61250465You're like alesteir Crowley except for the esoteric part. Only the butt sex
>>61251595dude my fucking coworker was talking about getting a fucking tattoo sleeve of pennywise the clown today. saw his hot ass wife (who did onlyfans and got an abortion couple months ago because dude's a fucking tard) with a new eyebrow piercing. i want his wife and i feel like it would be easy but i can't talk to chicks i like.
>>61251395I did not do anything, yet. I just want go flex nude in front of camera, jack.off and get paif for it>>61251990Kek. Its a small position, If it were bigger I dont think it would turn me into a orgy loving bottom like OP. I can show skin for money, I wear stringer top in the gym so Im whorey already
>>61250465Its a good thing you didn't follow through OP, you would of probably died from drug overdose, if not that, then just roping yourself when you got older.I'm proud of you anon how far you have come. Keep going anon, don't stop fighting. Life ends so fast and we will be judged, so keep doing good. I will statistically speaking never see you again in any way, but know I am happy for you.
We gonna go down
>>61250599Thanks for confirming what I already believed—being a fag is a major mental illness.
Feeling bullish on GRND
>>61250465Absolutely abhorrent post there, anon.
