Early in my career I believed that happiness should come first. I attached that belief to the idea that I was happiest only when I was with someone, like when I was with “Lena,” and not working. Work felt like an interruption that pulled me away from emotional closeness, and I assumed that working less would mean feeling fulfilled and at peace. In truth I misunderstood the cause. I was not unhappy because I was working. I was happy because of the relationship and the emotional connection it gave me. I mistook the comfort of companionship for the absence of responsibility, and I projected that misunderstanding onto work.I also need to acknowledge a recurring pattern in my life. Even when I take time off or step back from work for long stretches, I often still feel depressed, anxious, and directionless. Breaks that I thought would bring relief have instead left me feeling hollow and unfulfilled. Even many overseas trips that should have felt exciting and restorative ultimately made me feel empty. Simply removing work has never guaranteed happiness. I need purpose, structure, and internal grounding, and forgetting that has led me to repeat old assumptions and chase the wrong solutions.
Looking ahead, I cannot let work push aside the core foundations of my well being. If I ever step into a relationship or marriage in the future, I want to show up with balance, not dependence or avoidance. Trying new medication when needed must remain a priority. I need to protect my sleep because it stabilizes me. I need to eat properly and maintain basic routines that support physical and emotional health. Therapy is not something to delay but a commitment to deepening my understanding of myself. Housing decisions, personal responsibilities, and life logistics deserve consistent attention and follow through. These practices cannot wait for a quieter work cycle. They form the base that allows me to function, to feel grounded, and to build a life that includes meaningful work and meaningful connection without sacrificing either.
>>61253376Yeah you’re supposed to do drigs and not work retard
>>61253396Based. At least someone made it, good luck with the trd tard. Might give k a try.
>>61253376>Even when I take time off or step back from work for long stretches, I often still feel depressed, anxious, and directionless.Everybody needs a commanding boss and a demanding woman so that you never run out of tasks to do, that's what living like a real man is all about.
