I don't have the energy drive and self motivation to make itIt's over
No more laziness, no more procrastinating
>>62258021easy to say when you are neurotypicalI have severe undiagnosed add and my executive function abilities are beyond cookedeverything requires 1000x the energy of normal people>inb4 just lazythat too, but it's way deeper than thatnow add mood swings and anxiety and depressive episodes on top of this as a result of thisit's all so tiring
>>62258050Have you ever thought about not defining yourself by your disabilities? Changing your mindset might change your entire life. If you think you'll fail all the time, chances are you'll fail.
>>62258050What about the times you did find motivation and energy despite unfavorable circumstances? When there was a deadline and you made a heroic effort to complete something? Its an illusion lil buddy, you got what it takes in your rn
Yeah that shit dies off naturally after around the age of 35 anyway.
>>62258075I don't I don't even think about things and I forget about them for the longest a life time of failures is not motivatingsure I have some wins here and there and it motivated me, but the core issues still remain and everything is 1000x harder and requires more effort>>62258081>When there was a deadline and you made a heroic effort to complete something?Yeah but this is extremely close and requires way too much effort and was just hair line thin to failure and now catastrophic failure maybeit's exhausting living like this>Its an illusion lil buddyI wish>>62258118I'm over 35 and my ability to force myself to do things have gotten just slightly better but overall it's the same problems from 20 years agoit never got better I just feared the consequences more, but essentially it's still as painful
>>62258234What is the problem anyway, can't stop playing vidya at 2AM?
>>62258050then the logical conclusion is that you must work hard on finding a remedy or way to improve those issues. it's what i'm doing and i won't go back to work before i'm fully recovered. it works, there are solutions out there don't lose hope
>>62258118My shit from my past caught up with me in my 30s rather than disappearing.Caring about what others think evaporates tho
>>62258272failing academically (again), thus becoming unhireable, no money as a result, depression anxiety (as a result of no money)meeting obligations in general, doing anything, having energy to do anythingthis has been disastrous for my life >>62258330there is only one problem at the source and that is moneyif I worked I wonder how long I would last before a mental breakdown too so that might be a problem later or not, can't tell yet
>>62258341>failing academicallywhat were you doing instead of studying?
>>62258374welfare and being sent in and out of obligations and work training until I wanted to kms because I could not go back to classes (no student gibs and blocked from studying part time because they cut my gibs)so in a limbo state for years until it took so long since I was able to get student gibs again (due to prior failed courses) so I could go back
>>62258390yeah but I mean once you were in the academics again how did you fail?
>>62258341Try getting some adderal. I hate taking it but it helps pull me out of the chaotic void sometimes and just catch up on all the little shit. It helps.
>>62258474not doing the assignments on time and handing them in (most likely)and too much things piled upcreating even more mental barrier and anxietythis is the baseline problem but not even close to all other things added on top moreI have extreme problems getting things done>>62258507addy isn't prescribed here
>>62258635>Not doing assignments on timeDo you always rationalise you could do them later or pull it off at the last second?
>>62258341money is not preventing you from improving anxiety and other health issues, excepted some specific issues of course that can only be medicated.all you need to start fixing anxiety is a few books, and daily dedication. Seems to me you understand you have an underlying issue sabotaging your life yet you're not ready to battle it.
