been quite a while so let's bring this back again! post and discuss
I always like to see images of girls who are just as miserable and isolated as I am. I appreciate it, mutt. Last time I just posted Tomoko even if my brain is so bad at focusing that I can't even sit down and watch a anime to save my life, leading to a severe lack of actual context. I did manage to watch Lain 20 years ago though, and she always was more authentic to what this feels like. Seeing those girls you posted and how they style themselves, the black hair, the skin tone I can best describe as "ghost", since you've rotted away already, I have seen a few girls like that. It makes me think about how I myself try my best to feel alive, especially as a man with the slider turned over to feminine just enough to care about how I look. Even when I am able to look at a human being face to face, there's this idea of still trying to come across as happy and alive, even if inside I feel exactly like your images. Maybe it would feel intimidating to a girl like this who really is my type, but idk, I can't surrender to that horror inside of me, and I always felt I was meant to take leadership to resist surrender for more than just myself. BTW if anyone tells you they are actually authentically normal and happy all the time they are for sure a alien infiltration unit. Don't trust them. Misery gives you humanity.
>>11397855you deserve a hug anon
>>11398204Glad we're on the same page. You deserve one too, mutt.>>11398205Ive depression nested pretty hard before but I think my high score was still only 80% of the power of this image. Even at 10% its still not great, but hey, jerking off all day is just all you're going to do.
There was this one older kinda creepy girl who would constantly ask to hug me whenever she saw me in my early 20s. She was in some sort of poly relationship but clearly found me cute, and we would have these long ass hugs where sometimes it basically felt like she was feeling me up. This image reminds me of her.
>>11398314>touch starved, lonely>especially want this boy I like though>if I hug him constantly, I can at least have that>what? Nah I'll shower and take care of myself properly when I am sane enough, hugs now, sanity laterI mean even if she was in that relationship I can feel that. Atleast she asked. Probably did a lot of other messed up stuff, but she learned that lesson at least. If that was a while ago I hope she learned more.
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>>11398431nigga how tf can someone be "touch-starved" in a poly relationship??? she has both her hands in individual pots, and by hugging dude put her foot in another to simultaneously eat from that one, too
>>11398541Hey man I'm not this woman, idk. Seems weird to just randomly still try to hug people in such a extreme way so maybe that poly relationship was actually online or long distance or actually with 3 other women who were all Hatsune Miku.
>>11398541Most of the times the "Poly" bullshit is just an excuse for the Chad-Stacey of the relationship to openly cheat on the other partner with more attractive people, while keeping them in a leash for monetary satisfaction or as a reserve in case they don't find any good dick/pussy that season.So thinking she was touch starved is not farfetched at all.
>>11398545well you can feel bad for the poly person if you want. i'm not trying to suggest that indulging a poly person's craving for intimacy is bad; i'm just saying that hearing of a poly person wanting lingering hugs and calling them "touch-starved" and "lonely" is crazy work. in my opinion>>11398551i've heard some polycule horror stories (most of them), but in my opinion, even if someone is a victim to the polycule menace, i am not going to assume that, because polygamy is founded on different values from monogamy in the first place, so i think i'd be projecting were i (as a monogamous person) to default to assuming poly = victim. so unless she moved across the country with no support system without her polycule, i should assume she just thinks poly is more of a good thing, and hugging dude is reflective of that
>>11398564That dudes probably going to be a bit weirded out by how much I read into the memories of his old weird friend, but idk, something about how uncomfortable he described it as being, alongside that image, made me think of her pushing out any doubts of how uncomfortable demanding that intimacy was making people, since at least it was something. Hope she was able to learn from that. Have more interactions with human beings face to face to draw from. At least 7 of them, 7 is a good number.
>>11398580you know that "_master1200" filenames means you're saving the sample image, right??? unless the file size is too big to post, you're just fucking up
>>11398658Yeah the vast majority of the time I save the sample size. A lot of the images are actually too big to upload when getting the proper master, and the resolution is still good enough anyways. Best to just do that as a force of habit instead of going to upload stuff and having this forum dedicated to traditional tengri religious practices get mad that it's too big.
>>11398676i disagree that saving sample images is ever "best" nor "good enough", but different strokes, i guess
>>11398680I understand the desire to maximize the pixels in all circumstances but it was just too annoying to keep track of which images when saved in full would upload properly and which ones would get me a visit from lightning daddy Perun. For your own collection of images pertaining to sad anime girls and pre-christian slavic mythology it'd be unwise to rely on trawling the forum to get the best but it doesn't bother me that much. I make sure I have hi res copies of my favourites anyways.
>>11398703i feel this convo has overstayed its welcome, so this'll be my last reply. if you want to save and repost sample images out of laziness, that is fine, but like i said, i disagree with the idea that sample image resolution can ever be considered "good enough", nor that defaulting to sample images (out of laziness) is somehow "best"but because i was curious i found a pixiv that posted exclusively .pngs that i scraped recently (with gallery-dl), and filtering by file size (using "everything" by "voidtools"), of the 43 .pngs, all of them are <4mb (can be posted on /d/), and only a single one is >2mb (cannot be posted on /b/; maybe other boards, but i don't know which boards share /b/'s 2mb file size limit):https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/114985975https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/134126970>134126970_p0.png - 3.35 MB, 2000x2000 resthen i figured, maybe it's cheating, because this artist doesn't draw backgrounds. and .pngs are good with large areas of the same color. i found another one:https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/10035446of their 125 images, 65 are jpegs, all under 4mb. 24/60 of the .pngs are over 4mb. but this is definitely not standard. i just checked cham22's pixiv anyway, and i only have about half of it on this hard drive, but literally none (but the ugoira) were over 4mb, but cham22 doesn't draw backgrounds, i guess. i also half about half of taigerarts' pixiv on this hard drive, and only a single one is over 4mb:https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/24043865https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/132215172but i guess taigerarts doesn't tend to draw backgrounds, either. but either way, i think you're full of it. sorry. i do not think it is reasonable to assume that every pic is absudres and >4mb, therefore everything indiscriminately should be a sample image. you could just say you're lazy and leave it at that
>>11398710Oh no I am for sure lazy. Don't get me wrong. Like its not that many, but the first time a above 4 MB image did me in that was it. I just save shit into a big pile that I occasionally pull from too, like a caveman who barely understands what a computer is. I'm still getting used to things not being abacus based. I appreciate how much suboptimal pixels clearly upset you, this is the place and the thread for it, just sorry that me being clearly a techno barbarian in how lazy I am with those pixels sets it off like crazy.
>>11398713>There was a HOLE here.>It's gone now.
Does anyone else cry because they can't be a young NEET girl forever? I wanna go back I want to enjoy the comfy times forever
>>11400091All good things must eventually end. Best advice is to find like-minded neets.>>11398541She was the third wheel but for one reason or another wouldn't end things. Poly relationships are usually just 'grass is always greener on the other side' in practice.
>>11400131>All good things must eventually end. You don't understand how it hurts. I'm genuinely sobbing. An actual flood of emotion that causes me to scream and cry at onceI never even got to enjoy it to it's fullest in the first place.>Best advice is to find like-minded neets.I'm not even a NEET anymore.
