been quite a while so let's bring this back again! post and discuss
I always like to see images of girls who are just as miserable and isolated as I am. I appreciate it, mutt. Last time I just posted Tomoko even if my brain is so bad at focusing that I can't even sit down and watch a anime to save my life, leading to a severe lack of actual context. I did manage to watch Lain 20 years ago though, and she always was more authentic to what this feels like. Seeing those girls you posted and how they style themselves, the black hair, the skin tone I can best describe as "ghost", since you've rotted away already, I have seen a few girls like that. It makes me think about how I myself try my best to feel alive, especially as a man with the slider turned over to feminine just enough to care about how I look. Even when I am able to look at a human being face to face, there's this idea of still trying to come across as happy and alive, even if inside I feel exactly like your images. Maybe it would feel intimidating to a girl like this who really is my type, but idk, I can't surrender to that horror inside of me, and I always felt I was meant to take leadership to resist surrender for more than just myself. BTW if anyone tells you they are actually authentically normal and happy all the time they are for sure a alien infiltration unit. Don't trust them. Misery gives you humanity.
>>11397855you deserve a hug anon
>>11398204Glad we're on the same page. You deserve one too, mutt.>>11398205Ive depression nested pretty hard before but I think my high score was still only 80% of the power of this image. Even at 10% its still not great, but hey, jerking off all day is just all you're going to do.
There was this one older kinda creepy girl who would constantly ask to hug me whenever she saw me in my early 20s. She was in some sort of poly relationship but clearly found me cute, and we would have these long ass hugs where sometimes it basically felt like she was feeling me up. This image reminds me of her.
>>11398314>touch starved, lonely>especially want this boy I like though>if I hug him constantly, I can at least have that>what? Nah I'll shower and take care of myself properly when I am sane enough, hugs now, sanity laterI mean even if she was in that relationship I can feel that. Atleast she asked. Probably did a lot of other messed up stuff, but she learned that lesson at least. If that was a while ago I hope she learned more.
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>>11398431nigga how tf can someone be "touch-starved" in a poly relationship??? she has both her hands in individual pots, and by hugging dude put her foot in another to simultaneously eat from that one, too
>>11398541Hey man I'm not this woman, idk. Seems weird to just randomly still try to hug people in such a extreme way so maybe that poly relationship was actually online or long distance or actually with 3 other women who were all Hatsune Miku.
>>11398541Most of the times the "Poly" bullshit is just an excuse for the Chad-Stacey of the relationship to openly cheat on the other partner with more attractive people, while keeping them in a leash for monetary satisfaction or as a reserve in case they don't find any good dick/pussy that season.So thinking she was touch starved is not farfetched at all.
>>11398545well you can feel bad for the poly person if you want. i'm not trying to suggest that indulging a poly person's craving for intimacy is bad; i'm just saying that hearing of a poly person wanting lingering hugs and calling them "touch-starved" and "lonely" is crazy work. in my opinion>>11398551i've heard some polycule horror stories (most of them), but in my opinion, even if someone is a victim to the polycule menace, i am not going to assume that, because polygamy is founded on different values from monogamy in the first place, so i think i'd be projecting were i (as a monogamous person) to default to assuming poly = victim. so unless she moved across the country with no support system without her polycule, i should assume she just thinks poly is more of a good thing, and hugging dude is reflective of that
>>11398564That dudes probably going to be a bit weirded out by how much I read into the memories of his old weird friend, but idk, something about how uncomfortable he described it as being, alongside that image, made me think of her pushing out any doubts of how uncomfortable demanding that intimacy was making people, since at least it was something. Hope she was able to learn from that. Have more interactions with human beings face to face to draw from. At least 7 of them, 7 is a good number.
>>11398580you know that "_master1200" filenames means you're saving the sample image, right??? unless the file size is too big to post, you're just fucking up
>>11398658Yeah the vast majority of the time I save the sample size. A lot of the images are actually too big to upload when getting the proper master, and the resolution is still good enough anyways. Best to just do that as a force of habit instead of going to upload stuff and having this forum dedicated to traditional tengri religious practices get mad that it's too big.
>>11398676i disagree that saving sample images is ever "best" nor "good enough", but different strokes, i guess
>>11398680I understand the desire to maximize the pixels in all circumstances but it was just too annoying to keep track of which images when saved in full would upload properly and which ones would get me a visit from lightning daddy Perun. For your own collection of images pertaining to sad anime girls and pre-christian slavic mythology it'd be unwise to rely on trawling the forum to get the best but it doesn't bother me that much. I make sure I have hi res copies of my favourites anyways.
>>11398703i feel this convo has overstayed its welcome, so this'll be my last reply. if you want to save and repost sample images out of laziness, that is fine, but like i said, i disagree with the idea that sample image resolution can ever be considered "good enough", nor that defaulting to sample images (out of laziness) is somehow "best"but because i was curious i found a pixiv that posted exclusively .pngs that i scraped recently (with gallery-dl), and filtering by file size (using "everything" by "voidtools"), of the 43 .pngs, all of them are <4mb (can be posted on /d/), and only a single one is >2mb (cannot be posted on /b/; maybe other boards, but i don't know which boards share /b/'s 2mb file size limit):https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/114985975https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/134126970>134126970_p0.png - 3.35 MB, 2000x2000 resthen i figured, maybe it's cheating, because this artist doesn't draw backgrounds. and .pngs are good with large areas of the same color. i found another one:https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/10035446of their 125 images, 65 are jpegs, all under 4mb. 24/60 of the .pngs are over 4mb. but this is definitely not standard. i just checked cham22's pixiv anyway, and i only have about half of it on this hard drive, but literally none (but the ugoira) were over 4mb, but cham22 doesn't draw backgrounds, i guess. i also half about half of taigerarts' pixiv on this hard drive, and only a single one is over 4mb:https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/24043865https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/132215172but i guess taigerarts doesn't tend to draw backgrounds, either. but either way, i think you're full of it. sorry. i do not think it is reasonable to assume that every pic is absudres and >4mb, therefore everything indiscriminately should be a sample image. you could just say you're lazy and leave it at that
>>11398710Oh no I am for sure lazy. Don't get me wrong. Like its not that many, but the first time a above 4 MB image did me in that was it. I just save shit into a big pile that I occasionally pull from too, like a caveman who barely understands what a computer is. I'm still getting used to things not being abacus based. I appreciate how much suboptimal pixels clearly upset you, this is the place and the thread for it, just sorry that me being clearly a techno barbarian in how lazy I am with those pixels sets it off like crazy.
>>11398713>There was a HOLE here.>It's gone now.
Does anyone else cry because they can't be a young NEET girl forever? I wanna go back I want to enjoy the comfy times forever
>>11400091All good things must eventually end. Best advice is to find like-minded neets.>>11398541She was the third wheel but for one reason or another wouldn't end things. Poly relationships are usually just 'grass is always greener on the other side' in practice.
>>11400131>All good things must eventually end. You don't understand how it hurts. I'm genuinely sobbing. An actual flood of emotion that causes me to scream and cry at onceI never even got to enjoy it to it's fullest in the first place.>Best advice is to find like-minded neets.I'm not even a NEET anymore.
>>11400554There just isn't a satisfactory answer to how to not be upset about growing old, especially as a girl. The only way I think to truly defeat it would be to have partners and friends accept you unconditionally in a extreme way, but identifying with the sad anime girls means you aren't doing too good in that area. The past few months Ive had long crys for the first time in years. If its any consolation, it's not just you. Maybe it'll make you feel 0.5% better having a threadbare connection to a internet stranger who is also upset about being in his early 30s. Maybe 0.3%?
>>11400580>There just isn't a satisfactory answer to how to not be upset about growing oldUsually it's just numb but then something happens that reminds me about being a kid again and then it sets me off and I start crying uncontrollably
>>11400606...Yeah, even the culture of the time, especially if you haven't seen it in a while, its flashing back to how much you've lost by not ever doing anything. Hope my lain pictures aren't doing that right now, I personally look shellshocked whenever I see our old friend Windows XP.
>>11400608>...Yeah, even the culture of the time, especially if you haven't seen it in a while,I have nostalgia for even just 3 or 4 years ago. The last 2 years just feel cursed
>>11400665When every year is worse than the last, it's just mathematical to feel nostalgia for 2021, however utterly cursed that statement is.(Also Tomoko is happening, do not resist)
>>11400674>feel nostalgia for 2021, however utterly cursed that statement is.Yeah, I think around 2022 was when life started feeling off for me>(Also Tomoko is happening, do not resist)Idk what that even means
>>11400683It was always just a slow grind down for me, makes the years going on even worse. Did something particularly bad happen for you in 2022? It never really...Peaked that much for me. >Idk what that even meansI had a cache of Lain images I was posting, now I found some Tomoko ones. Just have a bit of a complex about attempting to post images alongside my posts whenever I can, nothing more.
>>11398314There was one girl in my major who would hug me almost every Tuesday and Thursday for like a year and a half.I think I probably would have an heroed if it wasn't for her
>>11400721Yeah...Looking back, it's not hard to imagine what not getting that bare minimum physical affection would have done. It's been a while for me, it's pretty rough. I actually do go on walks every Tuesday and Thursday, for about 20 minutes. Even if I increasingly feel uncomfortable in my own skin in this world trying to go out and see what things look like is invaluable as a touching grass expedition. Helps you attempt to stay grounded, and also just helps you not do the same day every day. There's a reason why it feels like time has stood still despite it being years.
>>11400724Subjective time moves faster when it's buried in routines.>>11400699COVID turned the gradual realization that the mid-to-tail-end of the millennial generation and older zoomers were getting old into a sack of bricks. Your 30's are a weird time because you're too old to be young and too young to be old, but instead of a somewhat graceful transition you went into COVID in your late 20's or early 30's and came out... old. And despite having a golden opportunity to try and reinvent yourself you squandered it, probably on stupid stuff. Speaking from personal experience. >>11400580>>11400554Growing old is what you make of it. It is a massive privilege most people aren't afforded, but it is also a reflection of the life you've lived. It is also why it is so damn important to have meaningful social connections. COVID utterly obliterated my social life- my best friend died and it made me realize the people who were calling me friend were absolutely not. I'm pretty introverted but isolation goes from an oasis to a prison pretty quick when it isn't counter balanced with meaningful social engagement. All of which is to say that you shouldn't beat yourself up too much. You can scorn your past self but you made decisions that made sense at the time and if you had the option to go back, you'd do it all over again. Change sucks and it involves forgiving yourself for your past decisions and conceding that you're a giant fucking loser but being self critical turns into self loathing real fast. And doing what you've been doing will only bring you were you've already been.Not gonna wish you happiness but I hope you find whatever you're looking for.>I'm not even a NEET anymore.NEET is a mindset. Especially when you're not 23. The reality is that most people wont get 'tism bucks and financial realities don't let you be unemployed forever.
To be told that Ive been dead for a long time and this is actually hell would be ultimately vindicating. Clearly something has gone deeply wrong on this planet, this isn't living. To know that for sure would harden me even more to live for even a single day, even if it takes 80 years.
I wish women like this existed.
>>11401507They do, just living this way as a girl must crush your soul even more. There's just not a lot of other ways to explain my interactions with them.
>>11401649Why would it crush their souls? They're getting pampered and spoiled at home
>>11401660It's not the worst. Getting autismbucks you can occasionally order doordash to feel slightly better. Sure, monthly rent is 150% of your income, but disability isn't meant to keep people alive. If you have family to support you then it's not the worst, plenty of people don't and aren't capable of complaining anymore. Trying to rise above that with death hanging over you is hard enough, but since you do often want to interact with people similar to you that's part of why I think being a girl helps you just give up and retreat to the neetcave. I'd describe my view on feminism as "There are infact differences between men and women and I'm really mad about it", even at a basic level everyone treats you differently as a girl. There's this culture that you're the one that people will fight to break through the isolation and misery for, which makes it even more soul crushing when you still need to try and you don't. Best to just rot with your own feelings rather than face your friends that you think you've failed. There's someone who posted around here a while ago, possibly years, talking about how she is seeing her friends for the first time in 6 years. She posted a update after a while that it fell through and she still is trapped in the neetcave, but I remember that since 6 years is a long time, made me feel better that she still isn't dead. Ive got a long time to go before someone I know reaches that high score but the idea that I can still one day pull them back even after that long stuck with me. So long as you are still technically alive, you can still one day see a human being face to face.
>>11401691I suppose girls may worry about social expectations more. However, she must at least lead a happy life if she can't change. Taxes fund neetbucks, it would be a waste not to enjoy it. If my food is stolen, I would rather have the thief like it than that they throw it away
>>11401864I much prefer when people freak out about getting robbed, actually. It means you're getting something good, you didn't bring the parabellum for nothing. Nah honestly idk if you're trying to get a rise out of me but you're fine. You got any more images of anime women playing Nintendo consoles? It'd be a real shame if something were to happen to your virtual boy...
>>11401885>You got any more images of anime women playing Nintendo consoles?Maybe
>>11401899I mean I guess that'll do. I tried to look at your virtual boy before I swiped it but now I can't see anything anymore. I'm sure those girls are cute though. Put the anime in the bag and nobody has to lose today.As far as the neet experience goes I do wonder how many people also do drugs to deal with that. My autism is far too powerful to ever be defeated by drugs but the cultural shift around weed where I live has been absurd. Can stare at a wall and get assistance with disassociating all day without the anxiety. I do use take-out food a bit like that but I prefer my drugs to be prohibitively expensive and also slowly kill you while not smelling as bad.
>>11401507I meanI doIt sucks
>>11401937Yes.Idk why people think that just because girl neets don't go outside they don't exist. Boy neets go outside the exact same amount, baka.
>>11401956I had no idea 4chan had that word filter. Waow. I could look up which ones are in effect but its more fun if I don't and just randomly stumble into them.
>>11397855i hope you're able to find some level of happiness, even if it is fleeting, today. from one ghost to another i wish you all the best, anon
>>11401965I appreciate it, fellow ghost. If only the ghosts I do know understood just how much I get stuck on them. I wish you all the best aswell, anon.
>>11401956I guess, I try and put myself together when I do go out, so it's not like I exactly *look* like a neet when I'm outside
>>11402003Yeah if you go outside lacking in hygiene and stuff like that it brings the misery inside your soul to the forefront. Need to struggle at that and try your best, especially when its rare to go outside, it's a good opportunity to show the world what you want to be one day. Honestly even if I'm struggling a lot more now Ive pushed to be a lot more ontop of that. Not been dumb enough to go outside not having showered in a while, although I swear my hair has a mind of its own with how many new problems its having. It wants to become like picrel, and will fight me in hand to hand combat to get there.
>>11402011For me it's a bit different.I wasn't always this bad, I actually did have and hold down a job for like three, four years. Got a bachelor's. I have the memory of how to function. I just don't have the energy anymore.
>>11402019The memories of having been alive, once. I would like to hope they can motivate you to reclaim that one day, but I have a feeling they would torture you further. I suspect they would for me. The exhaustion, I already spend hours every night flashing back.
>>11402023I wish I could. I have no idea what's wrong, no amount of blood work or physicals have found anything. I'm just constantly exhausted, and even small exertions put me out of commission for a day or two. I helped a less functioning friend of mine clean their apartment about a month ago. They had let their fridge completely go, and had just let fast food containers and stuff build up in the living room, it was awful. They live on the second floor of an apartment complex, and going up and down those stairs to get the 20 some odd bags of trash down to the cans wiped me out for seriously a week, my legs STILL hurt a bit from it. At least a part of it is just I'm older now, but, it's not been a normal experience. My parents both have more endurance and ability to recover from things, and my dad's almost 60. I'm not even THAT out of shape. Just overweight, not even obese. That's entirely on the back of not being able to do things anymore, too. I used to be in good shape. When it started I was in relatively good condition, 'cuz my job was sorta physical. Stocking.I have the memory of functioning, and the desire to do so. I know how to do things, I feel the need to do things. I'm just so fucking tired, constantly. I'll sleep 10, 12 hours, and wake up tired. Towards the end when I was working, I had gone down to three days a week, all I could do, and my first day off, I'd sleep for like 16 hours, wake up for like three, then go back to sleep for another 4-8. I hate that I can't do anything anymore. I hate that I'll wake up more tired than I went to bed. I hate that doing moderately straining things I used to be able to do without a thought will have me in pain for a week.I can't even masturbate properly. Cumming makes my legs clench in a way that I'll feel for a few days. I'm too tired to do it at night, and doing it in the morning kills anything else I could do during the day, and using anything besides my fingers or an external vibe leaves me sore for days.
>>11402379I...Honestly just feel your pain. My issues with fatigue and exhaustion are nowhere near that bad, not even close, today I felt maybe 10% of what you do. From one internet stranger and/or ghost to another, I just want you to know that while I will never claim to understand what life like that is truly like, the just sheer despair in what you posted is something that I feel deeply. Spending all this time in bed as the world passes you by, the sheer despair knowing that you tried to do something and yet your limited time was not enough. The pain on your body is...I just hope you're able to find peace one day. If anyone has ever told you you're too negative or something and are just heaping your trauma onto people then that's a pile of complete bullshit since having to live that way is a pile of complete bullshit. Fuck that. If you're regularly suffering that much I don't care what you do to stick around.
Cute.
>>11402729Thank you. It is too much though, especially out of nowhere like this, sorry for that. Just feels good to complain a bit, and feel a bit heard, even if it's probably a buzz kill. I'm stubborn as fuck so that's not really a concern, and it's not like there aren't nice ways to pass the time. And there's the part of me that's very aware and grateful I have support from my parents, and a few very good friends, to be able to exist in relative comfort like this. I can't imagine going through something like this actually alone. Just, getting to complain a bit is nice.
>>11403177Nah man. Ive got a sleep disorder problem that is life long and seemingly also unsolvable. It might max out at 10% of that power honestly. Exactly enough to know just how awful it would be to have to live that way, even if you were screaming every single second you're alive that'd still be acceptable. I don't care, that's some extreme bullshit to have to deal with every day. Vent wherever and however you need, even in the part of the internet about sad anime girls.
>>11403118poor sick girl has no tits>>11403257i like this category of technically unappealing girl, shrinking away from everyone hides massive fucking tits
>>11404868Great aren't they?
I miss the old internet
I've been away from these threads for a while (because I think hanging around them was bad for my mental health), but I kinda missed them.
There was a period of me being terrified about becoming a NEET when I was older after a particularly shut in summer, now I've become a hikki whose weekly "outing" usually consists of sitting alone in a quiet section of my favorite park
>>11407292Being on this site is already detrimental for your mental health anon. I've been trying to stop too, but being dead honest with you, I just got nowhere else to go.
Neet girls are the cutest
I love huge babies.
>>11407582YeahI used to use it a bit years ago, in a much more limited form. I'd get a new game or watch a show or something, and find threads about it, since that was usually better and less... I guess I'd say, intensive, than talking about it anywhere else. More as an accessory to enjoying a thing, than a primary thing I would do. Sure, every now and then I'd shitpost a bit or argue about something, and I've liked using the red boards to talk about things I can't talk about anywhere else since forever. But it wasn't until I started my decline that I ever started using 4chan as a primary activity, and substitute for actually doing things. And it's absolutely not healthy. I FEEL the way my mind gets hooked into shit I don't care about, or get anxious about missing a thread that will be there now, later, or ij a year anyways. And worst of all, I know it's not healthy, but I still do it.
>>11405294Yes. It's adorable and hot as well. Maybe they really didn't had much curves first, probably felt unsexy compared to rest of her classmates, ended up wearing baggy clothes anyway so even when she blossomed at least in chest area she remained nerdy, neet dork. Then the bomb drops as she starts undressing and bummm her massive tits are out. Maybe she is now ashamed of them being so ugly and grotesquely large
>>11408365It isn't unhealthy. Your way of engaging with it is unhealthy. Set some modest limits- don't linger on a thread, see what you want, make your posts, move on for the day- and you'll be fine. That and have high-investment social relationships rather than talking to random internet strangers, which is the polar opposite of it. The problem is when people start treating 4chan as a replacement for meaningful human engagement when everyone here is a stranger who owes you nothing and expects nothing from you. >>11407581>>11403118Completely perfect. >>11402379At a glance, have you had your rT3 levels checked? Doctors will frequently request TSH tests for your thyroid but T3 / T4 / Free T3 / Free T4 and rT3 tests will often fly under the radar and many doctors don't understand that thyroid issues can crop up with seemingly 'normal' TSH when it's as low as 2 and doctors are getting scores back hanging around 5. Thyroid is complicated and most doctors can't be arsed to figure it out because it's also one of the more frequently over-reported meme issues. So they run the cheapest, quickest test, misunderstand the results because it lacks context and proclaim it can't be your thyroid.Otherwise, just how clean is your living space? How old is your mattress? Over-exposure to environmental mold (dust mites, mildew...) can suck the life out of you and if you're not sensitive to it, it'll frequently fly under the radar. Tons of seemingly weird stuff- like an over-accumulation of polyester clothing and bed sheets, over-consumption of industrial food- can all accumulate into an environment designed to kill your energy levels.
One chance at life and I am a wagie moid instead of a neet foid.
>>11408365Hey you're right to understand that this is a horrific facsimile of human interaction but in terms of how to do better than that I just don't know. A lot of the ways Ive conned myself into settling with this life are extremely personal, as I imagine they are to you. If there was a foolproof way to feel better than this you wouldn't be here, nor would anyone. I like when I look at the anime girl and she's just as sad as I am. That's nice atleast.
>>11408405idk but i feel like she wants to die posing like that. Like she is super emberassed but doing it for her fans and not hating it. It's just after posting it, she would plant her face into the pillow and screen "FUCKING HELL I WANT TO DIE, WHY DID I POST IT AAAARRRRGGHHHHHHH"
Games are the best
>>11408405>Otherwise, just how clean is your living space? How old is your mattress? Over-exposure to environmental mold (dust mites, mildew...) can suck the life out of you and if you're not sensitive to it, it'll frequently fly under the radar.Pretty clean, I think. Lotta dust, that accumulates quickly 'cuz high desert, but otherwise pretty clean, and it's so dry most of the year there's no real mold growth anywhere there's not active running water. Probably a bit less than reccomended for bedding and mattress cleaning and changes, but, I stay on top of it. Daily showers, sometimes two if I've feeling especially shit. Cleanliness is just about the only thing I still do maintain. Food-wise I can be a bit swingy by week, but I think I mostly do pretty well there, too. Mostly fresh meat and veggies, my pressure cooker is my best friend, since I can do big cooks that last a few days. Curry is easy like that, pot roasts, ribs, carnitas, refried beans, that kind of stuff. I used to be a lot more varied, that much I do know, but, making tons of dishes or too much ingredient prep is just exhausting. I'll research the thyroid stuff. Worth a shot at any rate, I think I have my next checkup in a few weeks, can't hurt to add something else on. Clothing wise, idk. Mostly I live in tank tops & sleep shorts, or sweaters & sweat pants by season these days. I have other stuff, just, if I'm not going out, I don't bother changing.And yeah, that's definitely what it feels like for my 4chan usage. It's definitely more and more a surrogate for interaction. I'm trying a few strategies to moderate it, but, only slight success. I'm not as alone as some, I do have some people and try to get out once a week minimum on principle, but, it's still way easier to just do this.
I've gotta stop jerking off so much. I'm doing it 3-4 times a day, which is always a sign I'm letting my life fall apart
>>11409804Should be doing it like 6-8 times a day, that'll sort things out. >>11409645Ever run a half-decent air quality scanner (so down to ~1 micron) for air quality? Mold is tenacious and I wouldn't assume that just because you live in a place that's only not a desert by about an inch or two of rain annually that you don't have any. >I'll research the thyroid stuff. Worth a shot at any rate, I think I have my next checkup in a few weeks, can't hurt to add something else on.When doctors run out of ideas and rule out the obvious signs of thyroid cancer / conditions, diabetes and sleep disorders they tend to run out of ideas. Diagnosing a thyroid is half an art so a lot of them wont even understand what they're looking at. >Clothing wise, idk. Mostly I live in tank tops & sleep shorts, or sweaters & sweat pants by season these days. I have other stuff, just, if I'm not going out, I don't bother changing.It's more the material than the type. Polyester is common and should generally be avoided. Both in terms of wearing it but also because the simple act of laundering polyester clothes exposes you to crazy amounts of meme micro plastics.
>>11409820>Should be doing it like 6-8 times a day, that'll sort things out.I'm scared of doing damage to my dick. I was was unable to maintain and erection and it scared me so bad I didn't jerk off for a week
>neet thread>it's only femalesi hate this shit, women can't be lonelyretarded thread
>>11401937trannies don't count
>>11410358Sorry anon. I only want a female neet housepet to take care of, molest and love
>>11410358There is no love for boys.A woman will never write a love letter for man as they are super defensive and we just a bunch for creepy bastards on their head.Sorry.
every board I visit has it's venting doomer thread, is it a sign of recession or am I just that fucked?
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>>11410358Sobbing. Girls are cute
>>11410624Not true. Love letters are childish and dumb and women are more likely to write them to guys they actually like. It's actually a girly thing (hence a bad idea to write them as a guy anyway).
>>11410358The endless onslaught of men who generally don't have the emotional maturity to be in a relationship but absolutely want and feel entitled to sex can be isolating for women. Especially when it makes them a target for other women. You have to second-guess the intentions of every man because they frequently wont even know when they're lying to themselves, and a ton of women will treat you like you don't exist because you being a NEET means you're of no value to them.You can absolutely make a neet lifestyle work for you and you can absolutely achieve a healthy life balance without completely abandoning the things you love but you will have to be willing to endure the uncertainty of change. Sorry that you're lonely, but the person who can fix that is you. It is rarely pleasant but the first thing you have to accept is that if you want to move into a (hopefully) better tomorrow you have to first be willing to sacrifice the things that make you comfortable now.Of course the author for Welcome to the NHK did sheepishly admit that after he made his money he proceeded to spend the next decade living off that money being a shut in neet again. >>11411020People can't find the satisfaction they want in real life so they go to places that make them feel comfortable to vent about it. 4chan users are overwhelmingly going to be the type who wants a nerdy dork girlfriend who they can engage with on an emotional level and also has a strong sexual appetite and doesn't judge them for wanting to huff her arm pits and kiss at her neck in between borderline autistic conversations about obscure ephemera.
>>11411020I posit that there's a contingent of "older" 4channers aged 26-36 who've been browsing this website for 10-15 years, and they never really aged out of daily use. The world has changed too much for them and they feel even more out of place now, so they spend too much time here. I'm not saying you should never use this site, but if you have a reasonably healthy social life, if you've got a couple hobbies you enjoying putting effort towards, if you're taking care of yourself, you probably don't need to visit this place that often. Or at least, you don't need to spend more than 15 minutes a day here. But unfortunately lots of Anons don't have friends, their jobs are crap (if they even have any), and they don't have much of a reason to get up in the morning. It's compounded by the thought that even if they did take strides to improve themselves, it'd take so long to see the fruits of that effort that they may as well not bother. It's a bad notion, because unless you're going to be dead in a few years, you'll probably enjoy the fruits of 3-5 years of self improvement for an additional 40. That said, if your goal is to get a girlfriend, you're kind of fucked if you're ugly and over 30.But this is just my two cents as an honest coomer. Just vibes mixed in with a little projection.
>>11412628I think there's some good thoughts here. Alongside the person talking about how women are also sad just in ways even harder for equally sad men to understand. Probably projecting a lot too but I legitimately lurked for years before actually posting was the least bad of a lot of bad options. 4chan is like a holding pattern or some form of purgatory for millennials. I will say especially since if you're getting in on 30 now and the world feels even more alien now that the memories of CRT screens are completely faded then your status as a unfuckable goblin is way less real than you'd expect. I get it, you're self conscious since being out in the world is even harder as the years pile up, but if you've got the kind of sexuality where you are extremely attracted to the opposite sex, think about how high your standards actually would be for someone attempting to interact with you, and then think about you being in that position, just reversed. Like yeah if you're a boy for a variety of reasons girls are treated way differently by society but they're just as fucked up and sad as you are, it's the human condition, they think they're unfuckable goblins and long to return when things were slightly less horrible in the 2000s too. Your vision of how horrible you are is such a difficult task to reflect in reality that you probably aren't actually doing it.
damn i hate my mind sometimesAnother social post about le women strong for wearing high heels and fucking up le feet or putting on heavy make up that takes hours to prepare.Forcing a girl like that to abandon wearing high heels, to stop her from putting on make ups. To see her initally hate her "odd" and natural look, but gaslight her into enjoy it (i mean bags under eyes aren't that bad, i'm sure everyone got it from stress killing their sleep time or having stupid long shifts and hard to have a good night), then watch as she slowly accepts not trying to appeal to everyone or trying hard to fit into a society. Just relaxing, watching shows, sometimes going out. Not a total neetification, just removing her from stuffs that annoyed her, but was too strong headed to admit she didn't enjoy pushing herself so far to appear beautiful.stupid dumb fantasies
>>11412628>That said, if your goal is to get a girlfriend, you're kind of fucked if you're ugly and over 30.Incels massively over-estimate just how ugly they actually are. 95% of it is people who want to justify inaction and not even trying because their current life- hell that it is- is still more comfortable in their minds than the risk of actually investing themselves in something that doesn't have guaranteed returns. Attraction is complicated and as long as you're not some Quasimodo looking ass, you've got a ton of cards to play. Generic physical attraction is only one of them, and most women can't even articulate what they really want. >>11412645I think it is more that you got a bunch of Millennials who are malding out because COVID made that transition from adulthood to middle ages less of a transition and more like a train accident. The people who thought they always had more time to figure it out realized they don't. That makes them angry and bitter. >>11412651Goblinification.
>>11413654>Covid>Less a transition and more a trainwreckYeah...Hey I don't really consider the way ive lived really living to begin with. Makes me slightly less angry and bitter, if I get a single day of life I'd be happy, it's not like ive really lost that much. The 2000s were still absolute hell, but if every year is worse than the last on a global scale and if we just flew off a fucking cliff in 2020 then longing for the days of Windows XP is a bit more than just nostalgia. Don't ever con yourself into thinking that things were actually good, they were just mathematically less bad. Especially when the computer was in a room in your house and we gave this totem of chaos the respect its power clearly deserves. >Incels massively over-estimate just how ugly they actually areHey now that I'm not having a 2 AM crashout I think I can articulate what I'm going for with that kind of thought. Being actually ugly on a physical level that you repulse everyone is a full time job, and being this sad is unemployed behaviour. I really doubt anyone is putting more effort into being ugly than they've managed to put anywhere else in their entire life.
>>11413754>I really doubt anyone is putting more effort into being ugly than they've managed to put anywhere else in their entire life.'Ugly' is usually an absence of effort. Honestly it's usually bad socialization that's at fault. You got people with limited social experience and low social maturity who misunderstand why people don't want to be around them, take the worst advice from awful people and then when the reaction to them inflicting themselves on people who don't want to be around them, they think it's a design flaw at fault when they're looking for the wrong thing in the wrong places.But if you're priming the pump and declaring you're an unfuckable old uggo, that is exactly what will happen.>Don't ever con yourself into thinking that things were actually good, they were just mathematically less bad.People hate getting old because they're told it is a bad thing, rather than something different.
Neet girls = best girls
>>11398551Poly takes a lot of time and communication to work. Been poly for over 20 years now, married for 15 of those. Been in a solid triad for nearly 10 of those years. Will still maintain: "Poly is great. I don't recommend it." To work, it requires a level of self-awareness, communication, and time investment most people just aren't willing to give.
>>11414474Yeah, I'd agree.I was briefly in one for about 3 months, four people total. For about two weeks, it was the best thing ever. As much love and affection and intimacy as I could take, always someone to do good stuff with, and there's something just incredibly, deeply satisfying about the people you love, loving eachother. Then it started breaking down slowly. I honestly don't even think the problem was me, self serving as that sounds. I think I was actually managing it pretty well, and at the end, all three wanted to stay in contact with me. I'm sure I made my own missteps, but, I think I was doing pretty well.But, things between the others started chafing. I don't think any of them were things that would be that out of place in a normal relationship, it's just that whenever one of those things happened, it caused a shift in the overall dynamic and balance, and if someone got a bit hurt, they didn't work it out properly, just retreated to one of the others. Lotta unhealthy avoidance and resentment, a lot of paranoia and stress. I'm someone who doesn't really play that game, I talk about my problems, pull problems out of other people to deal with them, and have always been able to maintain multiple channels of communication with people. I think I'm the only reason in lasted three months, I think it would have broken apart in under a month without me. But, that's part of it. YOU cannot make it work. One person MIGHT be able to make a two person relationship work, it's not the most healthy, but I think it's doable. But you can't make it work between other people, they have to be able to make it work, too. So, it's not just making sure you have the right stuff to enable it, anyone involved needs to be good at it, too. And, I have to imagine that makes the idea of adding anyone new incredibly stressful, because you're compounding successive 1/50 people level odds with each.
>>11414474>>11414705Polyamorous relationships usually only work in a trinary, and usually only along the terms that you're looking at a group of people who all fundamentally like each other and see no reason to sacrifice the shared friendship on the altar of monogamous exclusivity. Usually also takes a high degree of trust and a willingness to communicate. When it works, it works but the problem is that kind of like how BDSM has an unfortunate dovetail with dark triad personalities, polyamory dovetails with.... shitty people. They pass off cheating and infidelity as being poly when in reality they just don't like the fact that their existing relationship carries responsibilities with it. That and people who have such a lack of self identity that they'll put up with being the designated third wheel because they think it's better than being single.
>>11412615≤3this
In the late 2010s I managed to be closer to alive. Being trapped the suburbs without enough money to survive is tough, every single thing you try to do outside is a event that you need to commit to, but I had friends who I knew wanted to see me, and we could both do it. 2020 must have broke them. I flashback seeing the faces of a lot of people every time I spend hours trying to fall asleep. Everyone I must have ever seen, which isn't a lot. Maybe if it was only 20 or 30 minutes a night for me I could have enough time to spend the multiple hours on foot I would need, but so much of it is eaten up by all that torture. Roughly 5-6 hours of sleep most nights, about 14 spent in bed, sometimes more, sometimes less. I can only hope that none of those faces I sob remembering are truly just memories. I don't blame someone for wanting to check out of this life, it isn't living, but I won't rest until Ive had at least a single day of life.
I want...
>>11415741I wish I could hug you right now
>>11417170I can't remember the last time I felt physical affection. The last time I saw a human being face to face would have been late april, maybe early may. Going back through the texts to make sure would be too painful. I appreciate that a internet stranger feels the same things I do when reading other peoples venting posts.I swear I'm getting a early start on sundowning, feel immensely worse when the sun comes down, which considering that's at 5 PM now where I live isn't great but hey that's just how the planet works. Not worth it to get mad at it. Man created this hell, we're clearly more powerful than the planet, it would not have done this to us.
>>11415741>I won't rest until Ive had at least a single day of life.I hope you stick to this, anon. You might just find that once you've lived that single decent day, you might have the urge to live another. And another. And another...I hope you do.
>>11417206If Ive had a single day of life, I am sure I could fight for another hundred years to live another day, sustained by those memories.Two might be worth a thousand years. Zero is already worth a human lifetime, although I guess some people can really eat their depression wheaties and make it to 100 but none of us can really expect to be so cool as to be sustained purely by spite for that long. Not going to let this man made hell feel the thrill of victory over me.
>>11413654>I think it is more that you got a bunch of Millennials who are malding out because COVID made that transition from adulthood to middle ages less of a transition and more like a train accident.millennials were best positioned during covidit's zoomers that are malding
>>11410358>>it's only femalesEveryone wants or wants to be a NEET femaleBeing a male NEET is a curse
I'm a female neet. Depressive thoughts hit me often. I do nothing besides watching anime, playing cozy stuff and trying to grow my chest. Life inherently sucks
>>11417921
>>11417921>and trying to grow my chest.Feel like you mentioned this just so people would ask
>>11417928>snapchat
>>11417975Dam...
>>11417921this reads like you're going to scam me
The flashbacks were especially hard last night. Thankfully I was able to spend the entire day staring directly at the Mid 2000s videogame. You don't really need nutrition if you can instead disassociate. >>11417997My girl very likely is and I wish her the best of luck. This is a poor place to target, people here are horny sure but horny -and- sad. They're just going to trauma dump on you and they barely have anything worth stealing anyways. There's a reason why the best people to scam through the internet are old boomers who have a lot of money and not a lot of sense.
>>11417928>>11417989These ham planets are putting the pig in 3DPD.
I've always liked these thread but never understood why they are made here. They could easily be posted in /c/ or /e/.
>>11418245Thick neet
>>11417928She's pretty>>11417929Not really. It's among the things I waste my time on>>11417997I guess
>>11417921Having a female neet friend to play pretend rubbing udder cream all over her tits and talking about some hentai science on why it would help her tits explode in sizes would be fun
>>11419711Not gonna lieMy tits get pretty damn sore nowadays, someone to massage them would be nice. Just don't squeeze too much
>>11419816Sensible level of breast kneading and squeezing. Yep, i can work with that.
>>11418246A: Hentai.B: NEETdom usually dovetails with some niche fetishes. Alternative body types, slobs and sweat comes to mind.C: Perverts need a NEET thread, too. Arguably eroge and erotic culture has more in common with the NEET lifestyle than /ecchi/ and /cute/. Will agree that about 80% of the images being posted aren't /d/ grade though.>>11417921Have a social life. Get outside. Eat a cleaner diet. Life is pain and suffering but your relationships are what make it worth living. You don't deserve eternal agony and torment, you deserve to share it with those around you. >>11417575All comes down to luck. Of my wider circle of friends, the millennials tended to get fucked over. All but one of my friends got laid off, and while I managed to hold onto my job, it did involve moving four hours away, twice, in about five years. Also helped to normalize me to a semi-NEET WFH lifestyle I'm still trying to kick out of.
>>114182461. This kink is a sorta composite/specific combination of fetishes, kinda like venus. And those kinds of more esoteric fetish combinations trend /d/, if for no other reason than exploratory and vibes based kink development can't really happen on those other boards.2. Some of the sub parts of this kink are themselves /d/. Strong odors & body hair, "unattractive" qualities, ect. 3. A non-insubstantial part of this thread is the social aspect, /d/ is by far the best social red board. Whether or not the people in this thread are actually female neets, male larpers, or anything in-between, that's still part of the whole. Talking about kinks, lifestyle and kink, or anything else like it is very /d/ behavior
>>11420060>All comes down to luckYeahOf the fistful of people I know, I don't think there's any particular trend. One friend completely lapsed into unemployed neetdom after college, they graduated in 2019. I don't know what they've done to be able to maintain it, besides living in their parent's second property, so they don't have to pay rent or anything.Another got a huge, huge pay bonus for their job at some marketing place through covid, since they lost everyone else, so is doing well. The third older person I know, had a bunch of shitty jobs for a while, got laid off for covid, met their wife during, who does some computer stuff, and I think got a similar bonus/promotion during covid.My two younger friendsOne went through iirc 10th, 11th, and 12th grade via distance learning, and is basically completely fucked. They weren't a great student before, basically got cheated out of three years of education, and has no idea how to catch back up. The other only went through iirc 12th as distance, got a good job at a Starbucks right as things were restarting thanks to my aunt, and seems to be doing great. So, really does seem a bit like luck. There's obviously some markers of things that worked out vs didn't, but, there was no real way to know beforehand, you know?
am i really the only one here whos gotten so deep into the depression hole that ive started pissing in bottles
>>11420822It's stuff like that, alongside talking to a AI, that I am thankful I have still refused to do because of how visibly worn down I must be to cross that line. Maybe one day I'll fail, but for now I'm strapped incase some clanker thinks he can be a replacement for human connection. Also if you're having problems drinking water or much fluids at all you'll piss way, way less. That's a separate issue and you can't really influence the way depression strikes but there's a silver lining to that at least.
>>11420822I still can't imagine itCleanliness is pretty much the one thing I have left
>>11397792i dislike the miserable blogposting that goes on in the threads, but these kinds of girls are exactly my cup of tea..romance with lanky ugly femalesbedbreaking, babymaking sex with lanky ugly femalesmarriage with lanky ugly females
Need gyaru caretaker
