Been sticking with the running since last Sunday and it's been getting a little easier. Still writing in a journal most days, it's kinda been helpful. Yesterday was pretty productive, today I'm probably just relaxing. Hasn't been terrible.

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>>76647584
Either I go a full week or more with no sex drive whatsoever, or I'll be constantly hard and have nonstop coombrain

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its over

>>76647584
Lost my first ever gf a month ago today, still think about her everyday. Refused to believe she genuinely loved me until it was too late, but hey, them's the breaks.

Its been ok, my schizophrenia has been bad.

I haven't been able to exercise for one week as i had microneedling but i can do some tonight yay. Ive been eating lettuce and spinach everyday, and just trying my best

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>>76647584
Been real tired. Took a week off the cut and lifting, got back in both no issue so far. But goddamn I lack so much motivation Im so tired bros. My workouts are 10-20 minutes longer just do to me procrastinating.

Long story short a couple years ago at work I was getting really bad headaches and spacing out and started slowly acting out of pocket. Then last year at work I slipped and hit my head, might have told you that, can't remember.
Then the past 3 weeks or so I've been getting headaches come back and I just really don't want it to stop me boxing but I know getting knocked on the head even in sparring could be dangerous if this is something serious...
I've worked so hard to where I'm almost ready to convince the coaches to let me get ready to compete, I don't want to quit now.... I lost my confidence when boxing and have been training hard so I don't wanna give up before I've even had a match or two...

>>76647751
RIP brother

>>76647751
I had headaches too for half a year. One time it came as a quick and sharp pain like my head was being crushed and i fell to my knees screaming. My guess is it was dehydration for a very long time coupled with bad sleep for a long time. Now make sure i take my potassium, magnesium, eat well, sleep well; thankfully it didn't come back the way it did then; do with this info what you will.

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>>76647584
Spent the whole weekend partying, taking drugs and meeting new people. I swore myself to stop dating but somehow got the number of two girls, both texted me first and are now playing hard to get even though they flirted with me first. Ghosted both of them now because i cant be bothered to deal with this shit anymore. Will probably meet 10 new bitches in the coming weeks anyway so who fucking cares, this shit is so meaningless

>>76647584
I'm gonna start looking for jobs again tomorrow. As for the weekend, got drunk on Thursday and smoked weed yesterday. Been a while since I've done either and they're the only things that help deal with being NEET in this shit market. I wish I could go back to being overly, retardedly confident like I was until my late 20s where I was oblivious to people talking shit. Yet somehow it motivated me to lift more and be more successful yet it makes no difference in 2025's world.

>>76647751
Might want to consult a neurologist and get some scans & tests.
Like a lot of things in life, you may potentially have to make some tough decisions.

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My life went off the rails in a strangest way possible and i can't properly tell a story about it, it's very complex. I have to shorten a lot, like, a whole lot. Maybe write a couple of posts to get this shit off my chest.

I suddenly found out both of my parents are narcissists and i was emotionally abused for decades which lead me into a heavy depression and insane problems with relationships, both friendly and romantic. I felt alien my entire life, like i'm not supposed to live, like i'm not supposed to be alongside other people. I had to copy others in every social situation because i felt like my natural actions should be masked or supressed. I just thought my parents were relatively normal just, like, a bit retarded, maybe, but they're downright evil. I thought they were getting old and i HAVE to help them somewhat but by staying with them i just basically fucked my life over. My mother is an evil bitch who can go from helicopter parenting into an ear shattering screaming fit within a minute (this literally happened this Thursday and the moment i said "that's it, i'm not dealing with it, i'm going to the gym" she starts playing the victim like i was the one who hurt her and "she's not my enemy") and my father is never happy no matter what i do and he thinks my achievements are his achievements and my money is his money. Now i'm in my 30s and still a virgin. I packed my bags and moved out IMMIDEATELY despite living with them my entire life and never moving out. I feel betrayed. Like i was raised wrong as a joke. Like my lifelong suffering is architected. I thought me saying shit "mom, dad, i'm fucking depressed i want to kill myself, i can't even find a girlfriend because i feel like a sub human" and them saying "you just made this up you're fine you don't have any problems" was them being boomers and not them being evil fucking people unable to feel empathy for their own fucking child. The worst thing is that no one fucking understands

>>76648083
Good job moving out, now go live your life.

Rest of the week has been solid. About to hit three straight weeks of solid cutting, running in the morning, and lifting three times a week. Hit my run this morning and at my calorie goal but fuck I'm always tired on Sundays. It's like if I don't have work or things I have to do all my body wants to do is sleep. Hard to keep my eyes open but some friends want to game in about an hour.

>>76648083
>Like i was raised wrong as a joke.
I relate way too much. Ironic because the only way to get peace amongst them was to be a jester which I in turn learned meant I needed to act like a clown amongst everyone.

>>76648083
Despite all that i started getting my life back together and now i'm stuck between being at the best state of my entire life and feeling like garbage all the fucking time. I don't fucking know how exactly that happened but i met a goth girl at a festival, she invited me to her social circle and now i have started hanging out with a group of goths in their late 20s-mid 30s, they're pretty nice people but i'm so out of place there, i was in a social isolation for years if not decades, i haven't had a friend group since high school where i was, like, the group's jester and scapegoat who was there to get laughed at, abused and stuff. But these men and women knew each other for years if not for more than a decade then some lonely autistic guy suddenly appears and they just go "hey he's pretty cool let's include him in our group". Now i'm afraid to lose them but at the same time i just love every single person in the group i interacted with so i want more of them. I keep waiting until someone says i should fuck off and leave them alone but no one does it. I keep overthinking every interaction and feeding the bits of text from the chats to chatgpt and deepseek just so i can get the "dude what does it mean what the hell she meant when she wrote this" off my mind. I try to be myself because being my autistic myself made me likeable in the first place but i don't know where's "me" and where's "this is who i think "me" is so people can like me". Like i'm going insane from social isolation but social interactions make me short circuit. I know and i understand that to get relatively "normal" i need to just stay with them and show up from time to time and that's it but i just want to run away and hide in my room.
>>76648096
Thanks. I'm doing it.

>32 YO KHV
>Loose skin from dropping 180lbs
>retarded and sober
I never felt loneliness until this last month. All I want is a wife and a family but I feel as if its just too far gone at this point

>>76648182
save up if you have to, then get surgery for the skin. Start clean bulking. If you can have the drive to lose 180 lbs, you can have the drive to do the other two. You'll make it.

>>76648201
Got 80k saved up but think id rather buy a gay little townhouse

>>76647584
I weighed myself today. 105kg, fuck man. Help me lose 15 kg ASAP please anons.

how do you guys stay consistent? I have 2-3 weeks that go perfectly, but something comes up that ends up leading to a week of skipped workouts and feeling like it'd be easier to give up

>>76647584
Kids win soccer games in the morning
I win rugby game in the afternoon
Monster trucks in the evening
Fuck the wife and play with her tight butthole in the night
It's a good weekend, lads

I don't know about americans, but I'm sort of baffled by how casual the european equivalent of boomers and silent generation men were about marital infidelity. They practically brag about it. Meanwhile I still feel pretty damn guilty about cheating on an ex I didn't even get married or engaged to like five years ago.

>ex no longer responds
>now it’s me texting her every few weeks and being left on read
Lol, lmao even. Oh well I gotta remember I left her for a reason. If she moved on and she’s happy then great. If she did want anything to do with me she’d still be trying to text me or would reply to my texts. It is what it is. Not the end of the world but it’s a bit of a gut punch
>girl from past has started shit talking me to people and has ruined a career opportunity because she got herself into that field knowing I wanted to and then slandered me and it’s a field where everyone in that field in any city know each other
I don’t got much to say other than wow. I’m just tired at this point. Is God punishing me?
>only close friend did some fucky shit which wasn’t that big a deal but entirely two faced of him and it dragged on for a couple weeks so in an effort to feel like I had control over one thing in life I totally shit on and disrespected him in the same ways he has to me our entire life
Now Im the bad guy and he won’t speak to me fucking lmao. 24 years of turning the other cheek and being civil I do it back once and now it’s a problem. The guy is potentially also trying to now slander me and sabotage things for me but it’s only been one circumstance I can prove at the moment so I’d rather not make that accusation or have that suspicion. I’m fine with losing this friendship I don’t think he ever considered me one of his friends anyways in all fairness
Wahh whah wahh everyone hates me clearly I’m not the LCD! I’m really not. I dont have these issues with everyone in my life. But I can’t seem to catch a break
>could be worse
Yeah. And by that logic no one at all has it bad not even the starving war refugee who lost both arms as a child has it bad by that logic. Because he coulda lost both legs too.
I just mean it’s always all this bullshit. Life used to be so simple. I look back at pics from ages 18-21 and things were so different for me.

I used to be doing so well. So happy. I had a social life. Hobbies. Goals. I was so healthy and I looked great. I smiled and laughed almost daily. People wanted me around and went out of their way to show it. I only had a few years of that. Horrible childhood, then some happiness, then most of my adult life has been depressing and so dull and shitty. I just want to be happy again. I don’t need a lot. I’m now wanting the bare minimum normal.

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>go swimming
>only one in the pool
>lifeguard just watching me go back and fourth for 20 minuets

>>76648654
>>76648644
I may just actually kill myself soon. As a teen I promised myself I would do it at the age I’m turning soon if I wasn’t happy. Always been there for people when they were feeling like this and now no one’s there for me ain’t that some sunshine

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I can't watch porn anymore without feeling like a genetic waste. I'm almost 30 with nothing to show for it.

>>76648179
>>76648083
I relate to your post. Im so fucking tired of my autism.

>>76647621
Sure the west over.
So leave and find a better life elsewhere.

>>76647748
why do you lack motivation?

Reason I ask is for me, my life sucks. I rationally know I should stay healthy, but 'keep doing what youre doing' & 'im unhappy' are a hard sell.

Are you nobly depressed like me, or just a bitch like everyone else?

>>76647992
Is this based or not? Its hard to tell.

>>76648668
Why would you want kids in this economy where the president is literally lying about how he cut 970,000 + jobs just to give rich people more tax cuts?

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>>76648724
niggers took that too

>>76648737
Having kids is the greatest joy imaginable.

>>76648737
lmao

Not bad overall. I ran some on Saturday morning and saw my folks today. I'm waiting to hear back from an interview I did and feel good about, but nothing in life is guaranteed, you know? I also haven't had a drink in over three weeks, mostly due to the fact that I can't be bothered to go out and buy the shit (I don't keep any in my house typically)

>>76648229
I told everyone i know my gym time goes before them.

>>76648737
You couldn't be a more stereotypical far left faggot if you were smoking crack and had a dilation wand in your surgical war crime.

>>76647584
It's been good, but can someone explain this to me?
I haven't exercised in like 5-7 years and I decided to see how many bodyweight squats and pushups I could do: ~50 squats (I lost count) and 14 pushups.

The main thing is that afterwards I started fantasizing about aggressively fucking chubby girls.
Can someone explain the connection between general exercise, taste in women, and arousal?

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TL;DR: Fumbled what should have been the easiest lay in anyone's life.

This girl at work who I estimated to be at least 10 years younger than me starts asking for help, fidgeting with her hair when talking to me, catching her staring. This goes on for weeks with me being nice back to her (like gifting her limes from a tree in my property) but I never ask her out, mainly because I have no balls but my excuse is that she's a co-worker who's younger than me, I could be misreading the whole thing.

A female friend of hers outright asks me if I'm seeing someone, seeing where this is going I (lie) say I recently broke up. She asks me what I think of this girl and I tell the truth: I find her attractive but I'm older than her and we're co-workers. This friends tell me that's just FINE, that I don't look my age at all, we always say you two would make a cute couple, but she thought you had a gf because you never asked her out. I say alright alright, I'll talk to her.

So yeah, I have it EASY. I know she's into me and that her friends had been pysoping her my way. How could I fuck this up?

The next time we talk I outright ask her out for coffee or drinks, feeling like I was looking at her like I was Jack Gyllenhaal in Nightcrawler (2014). I actually caught her by surprise, but she says she's interested, we exchange contacts and end up agreeing to meet each other over the weekend.

We meet at this overpriced bar, things seem well but I'm really cautious. Then tragedy hits: she tells me about how her sister married young and had a kid with a man WAY older than her. How old, I ask.

10 years older.

Two choices lay ahead of me:
1) I lie and secure getting laid this night, deal with the consequences later.
2) Tell her my age and see what happens

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>>76648663
please dont do that bro. I myself have dealt with extreme circumstances and was 99% convinced that the only way to escape was suicide. that 1% was myself forcing myself to have an inner voice that says to just keep going, one day at a time. one step at a time.

I know, like you probably know, that when you're in a certain state of mind, almost nothing can influence you to feel or think differently. I just want to let you know that time has a funny way of making this different and changing how you feel, especially when you can act on the things you have control over. if not for anyone else, do me a favor and just keep going one day at a time

this might be really stupid to you or sound corny, but this song from a childhood game of mine caught me in a really vulnerable moment when I was in one of the darkest moments of my life. I remember feeling a subtle hint of light hearing it randomly. sharing that in case you care
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jN6eIQOxtzc&list=RDWGB9L42aAKw&index=4

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>>76648875

I chose 2. I can feel her getting the ick.

She starts asking about commitments, relationships and other things, telling me about her parent's divorce and what not, I was sort of in a haze, my mind kind of blanks so I can't remember exactly but I'm pretty sure I went all the way and told her that all healthy relationships should be a test drive for going steady and making a family. I felt this was the stupidest thing I could say at the moment even as the words came out of my mouth, like if the Holy Fucking Spirit was talking through me trying to Evangelize this hoe.

We talk a bit more, says she needs to wake up early tomorrow, attempts to pay for the drinks herself (clearly as a way to wash her hands off me) and I end up having to insist to drive her home, telling her to not worry, nothing's gonna happen.

So here I am, we avoided each other at work for while but things are back to civil now I guess.

>>76648875

There is a third way: fake your death and never return

>>76648896
Thank you man. I really don’t want to kill myself but I can’t imagine going another 50 years like this. I’m not Sisyphus. I see the absurdity in the struggle and rather than rejoice in it I’d rather it not be a problem at all. I just want the most mundane bare minimum shit in life at this point but every other week some new bullshit gets added to the pile of misery. I’m somewhere between feeling hopeless and too tired to care and pissed odd enough that I think I may end up maiming someone for something as small as them trying to cut me in line. I’ve had it. All I want is things to be chill. Okay fine, life has its bullshit. But why does my life seem to have always been the most absurd bullshit with sprinkles of more normal bullshit around it, and it’s like a constant thing. Normal people’s bullshit is “oh I got the flu this year 5 months ago” or maybe everything’s chill and they get a flat. There is no chill between for me it’s just all constant crappy. I feel like this world doesn’t want me in it and it’s trying to make it known to me.
I’ll try to take it one day at a time. But I’ve reached the point of thinking about it again and I’ve tried to stay optimistic through it this time. If I was happy once surly I can be happy again. But I really can’t live like this forever

>>76648732
I honestly don’t know I’d say I’m nobly depressed. I do everything I need to and I’m always active. I workout, go to school, work, and more. I just want to be a good person is all, I’m just so tired. I don’t really feel sad but there’s definitely something. Can’t wait for tomorrows lift.

>>76648737
Good thing you won't (can't) reproduce

>>76648875
>le "fit poster who 'doesnt look his age' has a girl 10+ years youngerthan him who wants to fuck him" post

this has to be a bot at this point. theres no way countless fit poster all say the exact same thing

I was in here 2 weeks ago debating losing my virginity to a girl that liked me when I didn't like her. I took her out on a date a few days later and we really hit it off, so we went out a few more times and we've both really enjoyed ourselves. I feel like I finally have hope again.
So, to the anon that suggested I take her out and see where it leads, thank you so much. You told me the right way to go about it and it worked out far better than I expected.

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>Tx is about to have it's first cool front next week

I usually shut down trying to meet women when it starts getting cool down here just because I like the cold and I use it as 'me time.' So I'm giving it one more month then shutting down trying to meet women for the year. It might be another year I go without even getting a number from a girl.

Honestly it doesn't feel too bad as this is what I'm use to feeling anyway. I also know that I sabotage myself by being super forward and will immediately ghost if I don't like something she did if me being forward doesn't scare her off.

I was hit with depression around two years ago after a lot of my mistakes and regrets in life caught up to me. I hate sounding like a bitch but I considered suicide because I don't think I can like live this for 50 more years.

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>>76647584
I think I can start doing squats again but that could just be the opiOIDs talking
I tried to code but I think I'm just gonna say fuck it and get shredded now
Too obnoxious with only one arm

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>>76649210
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I’ve come to the conclusion that muscle women suffer the same fate as manlets. I for the life of me cannot attract the submissive cute men I desire because I’m short and muscular. Guys into femdom only want masculine tall girls or extremely feminine short women. >:

>>76649229
>manlets
Only faggot nazis talk like that

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>YOU MUST ALL BE ZE SAME HEIGHT I AM ZE BIG BEAR AND YOU ARE ZE MANLET TRANNER
>-ACK

>>76649229
Once we're no longer naive shotas who just want to get molested we mature enough to realize that just means you want to cuck a guy with a dominant aggressive man who chokes you half to death so men wised up and are no longer submissive, instead plotting in bunkers fitted with faraday cages about how much time have left to take your rights before the world slips into unstoppable mind control slavery for all eternity

I'm exhausted.
Since Friday, I spent all day studying and still didn't complete my work.
I've been waking up in the middle of the night as well and feeling anxious the rest of the day. Working out helped a bit.

I'm going to get the courage to finally talk to a girl tomorrow. The past few times I wasn't able to as someone stopped me to talk then she wasn't in class the other day. I'm hoping no one else stops her.
I think it will help me feel a bit better and less jittery while dealing with school.

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>>76648736
Its not based at all. While pursuing love i became a bitter fuckboy because sex is all i got. I spent so much time selfimprooving only to realise that even if there is absolutely nothing wrong with you it wont guarantee you that you will find a gf. The girls i met this year absolutely shredded my heart to pieces and now as a defensive mechanism i act like an asshole so girls leave me alone before i get to know them and get my hopes up again. I am not based, i am just a sad boy who doesnt want to get hurt anymore

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>>76647584

I just failed BSCP exam for second time because od HTTP Request Smuggling vuln which i spent three hours exploiting. Other app was pwned in one hour..

Im revising now my notes,grind never stops.

>>76649396
Good luck anon, you'll do fine

>>76649141
Nice, anon, great to hear that's working out. Just keep enjoying spending some time with her and see where it goes.>>76649141
>I feel like I finally have hope again.
My one little bit of advice is don't get TOO wrapped up in this just yet after a few dates. Keep it cool, casual, and keep doing what you're doing. If it doesn't work out (and hopefully it does), no big deal, you can get this again with another woman. WAGMI

>>76649235
>tries to fight a dude taller than him and gets raped
Lol just grow dude

>>76648917
You did nothing wrong you dofus
Obviously you want wife and kids and she wants something casual. Its a pretty usual scenario. Nothing to worry about, just move on and find someone better for you

>>76648875
>>76648917
Yes you fumbled but not for the reason you seem to think. Your mistake was operating under her idea that your age even *might be an issue. You should have nonchalanted it, laughed it off and steered the conversation to something fun and not serious. But you entered into her framework and basically tried to make a case for yourself under her rules instead of setting your own rules for the interaction

week pretty good but then I got drunk for two days and that was rather stupid
it's all good tho no serious damage but still it adds up. it was a big holiday were I live and my gf was out with her friends so it was the perfect time to get wasted, but I've been trying not drink and there's perfect occasions all the time
I wanted to buy some poppy seeds and plant opium at home. I love plants and I figure that might be better than alcohol, I use opiates sometimes as a substitute and it's way less harmful than alcohol in terms of my behavior, being functional and not getting hangovers. nothing too strong tho. still, I'm struggling to find them, there's probably legal issues and shit

I'm not doing so well with alcoholism. Not failing tragically, but still struggling.

>>76650140
What this guy said, you should have said your age and moved on.

>>76650140

Oh yeah, I've considered that, part of me coping is saying it was just my age. But I really did panic at the moment and also I have to confess I entered into this whole thing with failure in mind.

I just hope I've learned something I guess.

I wish I wasn't such a sperg around women. I'm decently attractive and I think women work like looking at me. But the second I talk I'm just an autistic sperg and I hate it. I guess spending my 20s as a shut in virgin loser wasn't the genius idea I thought it was.

>>76649964
>weak knees, uppercut and sense of heterosexuality
Automatic loss

>>76650766
There are no adults alive today. Just children playing pretend. Take that to your advantage and see trough the façade.

Got b& and had to wait a day to get to the only thread I look forward to

>>76650766
I wish everything wasn’t a riddle. They say some string of words and expect you to know what it all means. It’s equivalent to me dumping all the newest graphic card technology on them and getting mad when they look clueless at me (I have never done that but I imagine it’s the same). And if you don’t know what they’re talking about they just leave. Am I supposed to fake that I know what they’re talking about? Maybe I’ll try that

>>76650766
I used to be a sperg but then I became kind of a harraser. I just told women I want to fuck them and things like that. obviously it repels most of them, but some really like it. many men beat around the bush for hours and women get bored of talking about their jobs or studies for the millionth time
i told a girl I wanted to take her to my place and fuck her the entire weekend and she agreed, it's been four years and now we live together and are engaged. she told me she was bored of guys just talking and never doing anything. then this good looking guy comes and tells her he just wants to fuck her all day long? fucking a

>>76649028

A balding zoomer wrote this.

Norwood III at least.

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>>76648083
>I feel betrayed. Like i was raised wrong as a joke. Like my lifelong suffering is architected.
Beautifully put.

Fucked a ching chong prozzy Today boys

>Went to london to get away, me and my fiancee of 9 years broke up 4 months ago but we are still talking and trying to work it out (shitty step kids are the issue)

>After her I dated another girl, dumped her as she was a major cocaine head and borderline alcoholic.

>Today in london I am walking through chinatown and see "MASSAGE" sign above a door with a sexy Asian chicken stood in the door

>she smiles at me. I walk past and then eventually find myself back there in front of her agreeing to a £35 body massage

>I go upstairs with her. I actually expected just a normal massage. She tells me to take off my underwear so I figured I guess not.

>Starts massaging my back etc, tells me to turn over, touches my cock and says "Sucky fucky?". I agree, cost me £100. She feels me up and stuff while I fuck her down. She keeps calling me Daddy which was offputting, I am 35 years old and pretty sure she was 7 or 8 years older than me.

>I just cum as fast as possible (wearing a rubber obv), she offers to give me massage after as we have more time and shes gonna jerk me off again. I say nah and thank her and leave feeling disgusted with myself

I don't know why i did this bros. I am an amateur boxer, I can get laid. I just felt like it.

>former fatty
>lose weight and become skinny
>start going to the gym
>start bulking a tiny bit to gain strength
>put on the tiniest bit of weight (hardly even noticeable to others, probably)
>brain instantly panics and I start starving myself

>>76651129
Damn, you got aids bro.

>>76651165
Used a rubber the entire time

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>>76647584
>plateaued at 189lbs on my weight loss which is ass because my goal weight is 184
>took my yearly fitness test for work and almost doubled my normal numbers. I'm really happy my training is paying off, I want to max my scores next year
>missed my weekly campout because I got off work way too late Friday evening and had to go in Saturday morning
>got stuck at work all weekend and today in my day off
>built a new gat for the house and rattlecanned it Desert T Block camo because I am naturally attracted to hideous things
>got banned from all boards on the 19th until today because im a filthy phone poster and I guess my IP was used for spamming roll threads somewhere
>I dumped a full container of (not dyed this time) worms in to Chuck the Turtle's enclosure and he ate all of them which is bad for his tummy but good that he's showing improvement. Last time I dumped worms into his enclosure it took him a week to eat them all

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>>76651192
And the weekly Chuckdate

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>>76647584
>>76651227
And bartender I'll take a Mai Tai please.

>>76651192
>I am naturally attracted to hideous things
I was going to ask

>>76651255
Don't tell my wife

>>76651317
brutal

Life is a battle of you vs yourself. And I'm going to kick my ass.

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Went on a 30km hike with a guy I met through a friend. It went really well,we explored a ton,went into a cave,got stung by wasps which was pretty funny. I think I got some sort of autism since I genuinely can’t tell if he’s a friend or that he dislikes me. I think I’m paranoid telling myself for years that people are shit and that being alone is safer wasn’t best thing ever. My health issues are getting worse. During the day reality hits and I realise all my plans for the future are a fantasy. Online friend that I have known for a year and half told me she was trans. All this time I thought he was a Christian man and I valued our friendship a lot. This came after we decided to meet up. My views on lgbt is clear. I don’t have any hatred towards them but NOT in my personal life. I’m a conservative religious person. I can’t accept this. LGBT is a blasphemy against God. How can I be in a friendship with someone like that. I already feel discomfort being in the presence of a transgender. If my son ever came and said he spend a day with a transgender I think I would disown him. I’m in disbelief for not being able to realise it on my own.

>>76651652
>guy goes on a 30km hike with you
>durr I wonder if he likes me as a friend
He doesn't just like you dude, he wants to pound your bussy.

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>>76651129
>a sexy Asian chicken stood in the door

>>76650589
>>76648917

Dude it's literally what this guy said >>76650140
You were in her frame, she owned you. That zoomette literally had more balls than you that night.

I met a 19 year old at the gym and i'm 33 and she literally said nothing when i told her i'm 30.

Went on a few dates with a 22 that thought i was like 27 and when i told her i'm 31 she tripped out a little and said 'realizations' then we continued the date.

If they notice you stressing, they will eat you alive

>>76651671
Shut up bro i can’t really fanthom the idea that people want to be my friend. My experiences in life so far taught me that people can be horrible. He was quiet later half of trip but he was struggling to walk properly so I think he was just tired. Anyways my rant is done I’m gonna keep it S-OL-O

>>76648083
>>76648179
if it makes you feel better im 40 havent been with anyone in 15 years and have recurring thoughts about grabbing an escape bag or water bucket

>>76651652
>All this time I thought he was a Christian man and I valued our friendship a lot
>I’m in disbelief for not being able to realise it on my own.

What kind of false flag Sunday-school-ass post is this anon? If you're not making this up, these are your options:

1. The tranny has degen habits and is a bad person in their other aspects of life and you're a terrible judge of character, you should've known this before you met them in person.

2. The tranny is good person and good friend who happens to be a tranny. Take the L and either try to evangelize to them to keep them out of hell - or suck it up and just keep them as a regular fucking friend, retard.

>>76651721
People can be horrible? You're abandoning your long term friend because they're trans. They're probably horrible because you're a piece of shit.

I don't even like troons but you were their friend before; and now you're acting a victim when you're being a piece of shit to someone whom doesn't deserve it.

My weekend was fine until sunday, I woke up too late to get to church, I forgot to take my meds so my brain chemistry is on fire, Im unemployed, angry, and disatisfied with life. I dont know if Im gonna make it

>>76651931
>Church
>meds
>neet
The holy trifecta

>>76651939
I dont want to be a neet anymore, I dont want to be a loser, I am sick and tired of of getting shitcanned at life

>>76651958
Good, take your meds then and get one.

>>76651998
Well I started today, now I have to keep at it. And for a drink, blue gatorade

>>76649769
Thanks.
I think it went great and a lot of relief after doing it.

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>>76651324
I fixed it

my girlfriend is cheating on me.
ive been attending college again after dropping out and my professor clocked me that im not 18 years old and brought it to my attention.
im so broken. I wish I were dead

>>76647616
Hey me too. It's weird. I honestly prefer the no-sex-drive weeks. I get so much more done

>>76647621
This is genuinely repulsive

>>76647992
>Ghosted both of them now because i cant be bothered to deal with this shit anymore
>>76648736
Very based I'd say

>>76649472
I feel you man, I'm kind of the same way. But persist through the "I don't want to bother anymore because I'm hurt" and you will reach "I don't bother because I'm so much happier without it". It's a wonderful place to be. And ironically, when you are happy and complete by yourself, this is when you will draw a partner to you that is also happy and complete alone (ie no toxic codependency bullshit). Good luck anon

Nothing stops the pain anymore

>>76650815
>have spent last 2 years doing knee training
I could ass to grass pistol squat with weight just to get to your level to beat your ass
>upper cut
In your case it’s a frog punch all things considered lol
>hetero
Leave it to the guy destined to become a femboy twink faggot to swerve the convo into gay

>>76651735
Looking back there were clear signs. She didn’t have any “male” hobbies or interests. Always mentioned pride/lgbt in positive light. When I received selfie I replied with very handsome bro u gonna get so many girls in uni. When I asked about height I thought God had to nerf him somehow by making him 1,65m manlet. It’s crazy how I can’t really say anything negative about our friendship. One of the few people that checks up on me regular. Asks about my day,wishes me luck in life. She told me that she’s planning to do surgery and has been taking hormones for about 5 years.

>>76653335
You want to fuck the tranny don't you. Disgusting.

>>76651798
Im not some sort of trans or lgbt ally. Since day one I said I won’t have this in my life. You don’t need to be some sort of genius to see how wrong all this lgbt sex change non binary all is. We have been friends for probably more than 18 months. I have been always vocal about my beliefs,thoughts in my head. All that time SHE didnt say anything about it. Made me believe I was talking to a religious Christian man. Then when we decide to meet up and the gig is up she tells me one week beforehand. Ofcourse I feel betrayed.

>>76653364
Hell NO. If I did I wouldn’t have any issues with meeting her. Last messages she send me CAN’T WAIT FOR YOUUUU. But I replied with I can’t I got stuff to do. It she ever asks me again I gotta tell her that I’m not comfortable with being in her presence. Since she was great friend and for all the support she gave me I will be friends online.

>>76653386
Yeah, you fuck trannies.

This world is a curse

I've been really lonely lately and it doesn't help that all my friends keep bugging me to try and hook up with a girl we hang out with.

On the plus side I started taking creatine and I wish I've done this earlier. I just finished the loading phase and now just taking 5g a day. I no longer feel exhausted by lunch time and I have an actual appetite

i'm on vacation in aus here.
my gf is just gnarly, man. don't do this, nor that.
when we're talking, she doesn't even listen. when and where? she doesn't even know that we looked into it half an hour ago. and ye
no sex

>>76653386
he* anon HE*
it's a man and always will be

>>76647584
I have to go out with an associate and i don't like the idea desu, i accepted without thinking and now i regret it i hate wasting my life on or because of other people, wish i was more assertive and confident

>>76654045
maybe put the phone down and enjoy your holiday

>>76654019
>I just finished the loading phase
lmao

There's a girl at my college that I like and I've flirted with her a couple times and she seems decently receptive but I don't know how to escalate. Due to logistical issues it's difficult to spend some time with her, plus she seems like the kind to not not have guy friends and spends most of her time with her other female friends. I wanna ask her out on a date but we're still basically strangers and ideally I'd like to get to know her a little better so it's not too awkward but it's difficult and I feel like time is running out, and if I don't polarize her even more soon she'll lose interest.

what do bros

>>76654428
You're suppose to get to know her on a date. Ask her out, if she's going to say yes she's going to say yes. If she shoots you down then it is what it is.

>>76654458
> You're suppose to get to know her on a date

Yeah I know but honestly the whole idea of going on with a date with someone who is basically a stranger feels weird and forced. I feel like it would be better to get to know her at least a little (of course keeping it as flirty as possible) and only then ask her out on a date to see if there's a spark and interest. Asking her out at this stage feels like it's too much too early.
Plus there's quite a bit of a conservative culture in my country and there's a good chance she thinks the same way. Then again you could make the argument that if she's sufficiently attracted that wouldn't matter all that much.

Maybe I'm just being a faggot and should stop bitching about it, although I don't think my reasoning is predicated upon fear.

> If she shoots you down then it is what it is.

Yeah I'm fine with that, it's just that if she says no, I want to know that it's because she was genuinely not attracted, not because I didn't play the socially predetermined game I'm supposed to play before asking her out.

>>76654428
Next time you meet up with her, have some idle chat then ask if she'd like to go out for a coffee or something
Rest is in your hands

>>76654613
Yeah I probably should.

We usually meet in class, 5-10 mins at best before it starts. There's lots of other people around, is it ok if I ask her out there? I wouldn't want her to feel any pressure. Would it be better to do it somewhere more private or should I not bother?

>>76654428
if you don't want to do anything like ask her out directly, ask for her IG or something. then ask her out from there after casual chatting.

that being said, just ask her in person

>>76654646
Yeah, it's alright; other people will be occupied with their own things.
I'd say after some chat 'hey, d'you wanna grab a coffee (boba, tea, whatever the fuck) sometime? (pause here for a couple of seconds for her response) Or, if you're free (provided you are also free anon), after this class?'
If she says she'd like to, get her number or give her your number after class.

If she says something like: 'Ooh, I'm really busy Anon, I don't think I've got time' then them's the breaks.
If she says 'I'm busy after class but sure I'd like to' give her your number just before class or after class

>>76647751
make sure you are getting water, salt, and magnesium. don't get punched in the head.

>>76654194
Biological female FTM
I WONT ACCEPT TRANNY DELUSIONS.fuckkkkkk

orange rosemary lemonade pls.

>>76651246
he looks reallly cute, particulary his feet. how is he doing

>>76654722
Happy as i can tell, I got him a bigger pool to sit in like you guys suggested and he seems to enjoy hunting the worms i drop in the habitat. I'll sneak a pic of him swimming if I catch him in the act

>>76654372
i did! it was a good day. hope you have one too

>>76654722
Kek I didn't know you were a /k/tard

>>76651722
>if it makes you feel better
Why the fuck would that make me feel better? Dude, get your life together. I hate to see someone else suffer.

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>>76651652
>>76651721
>>76653375
>>76653335
>>76653386
>>76654675
You disgust me, you have a person that genuinely loves you for what you are and cares about you enough to check on you, she can even handle your views that CLEARLY conflict with her views and you want to cut off this person for their (very retarded but theirs) life choices? Talking about being a good Christian, Jesus talked with whores, alcoholics, thieves and murderers on a daily basis, he never discriminate against them, he helped them instead. You're a horrible person.

>>76655240
t. Tranny lover

>>76654646
Probably better to do it in private, but if she isn't in the spotlight, it can't hurt.
I waited a minute or two after class to say hi to a girl. It went fine, I just hope I didn't look weird if other people thought I was hovering around.

Life is cruel

A woman told me she'd hang out with me but I'm too negative. This is the same woman who dated a convicted armed robber for years who stole from her and wrecked her car. Nice

It’s my birthday in an hour. I’m turning 24. I’ve been unemployed since I graduated a year ago. Still live with my parents. Only friends are online due to distance. Haven’t touched a woman since uni. Chest injury has put me out of gym for months and I look like shit again. I never thought this would be my life. I would lurk on this site for years out of morbid curiosity for the failures on here. Never thought I’d become one of them.

The worst thing is how my mindset has deteriorated. I genuinely have no hope for the future, not for my personal life nor society as a whole. Everything sucks on a marco and micro scales and seems to be getting worse. I know this isn’t depression, I’ve had that before and it felt different. I just cannot muster the will to care anymore, life seems too much of a hassle. I probably won’t kill myself because I’ve become comfortable at rick bottom, but I wouldn’t mind dying right now at all.

>>76655555
Nice quints, faggot. I'm glad you're comfortable at Rick's bottom. Those digits are probably your biggest achievement in a while.
At 24 you've still got along way to go. It's what everyone's going to say, but it's true. Not like it changes anything. Honestly you might fail at everything or might actually make it, only time is going to tell. If you give up failure is guaranteed however.

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>>76655555
Checked. I was 32 when I got my first real job. I'm 36 and never graduated nor touched a female ever. I am also balding. Get a fucking grip you literally have over a decade to get your shit together. Ideally you should be quick and not waste years like me, but it is not the end of the world if it takes time for you to stand steady.

>>76655591
>Rick's bottom

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>>76654675
Oooohhh okay it took me a minute to realize this, I think several of us thought it was a man and you were using his "preferred pronouns" but really your "male" friend turned out to be a woman.

She needs dick, anon. She needs it bad. A few good trips to pound town will set her straight.

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>>76655718
Cont. Meet up with her and be respectful and nice and just see what she's like in person. You may be able to save her, anon. Save her from the mutilation.

>>76648644
>>76648663
>>76648896
He just wanted to update I no longer feel this way at all. None of those situations matter. I was just hungry because I forgot to eat after a busy day
>ex
Just some bitch I used to fuck. She’ll inevitably hmu again, I knew it wouldn’t last. Literally nothing lost
>bitch from past
I don’t even wanna work in that field lmao nothing was lost here
>friend
This retard was never a real friend. Just uses people as he sees fit. Miserable crab in a bucket. If me having the gal to not be a doormat means I never have to deal with that shit again then fine. Even with him trying to shit talk and fuck me over in other ways behind my back this is just like a fly in a car. Mildly annoying, forget it exists because there’s more important stuff going on, easily taken care of by opening a window. Nothing was lost here. Not to mention I have to remember what all his shittery stems from (I accidentally cucked him years ago). He’s effectively just an angry cuck with a mental scar he will never heal from


My life is great. I’m tall, I live in a dream bachelor pad. All I have to do is get lean and then figure out my job situation and I think I found something which will handle both of those problems at once. I’m doing great. No debt, year of savings.
If this works out then in 1 year I will potentially be working in another country for a short while

>>76651129
>am an amateur boxer, I can get laid. I just felt like it.
What's your record and how long have you been fighting?
>t. Former ammy kickboxer

>>76655783
>crab in a bucket
Crab schizo, is that you? Fat shit lmao

>>76656777
No I’m not crab schizo.
>he used a common terminology another anon used it’s him it’s the same guy!
Anon surely you can see the irony in calling others schizo

>>76657530
Yeah you're crab schizo lmao

>crab schizo schizo is back

>>76652731
>girlfriend is cheating on me.
Dump her
>ive been attending college again after dropping out and my professor clocked me that im not 18 years old and brought it to my attention.
Literally not a problem.

How do I sex a women, I am a 32 year old virgin.

>>76657952

I learned this firsthand, but the vagina is lower than you think

>>76657952
Transition then let me take your virginity

>>76655136
was it my dangerously based beverage choice?