It's the start of the week again, take a deep breath in, hold it and exhaleWere you thinking of giving up today? No you weren't. You made it through last week, you'll make it through this one as wellWhat are your goals for this week? What do you plan to achieve? List it all down.Take a deep breath, hold it and exhale, move at your own paceWe're ALL gonna make itThe motivation thread is openLast week’s thread >>7664985
>>76674161Today's lifts>Bench 245x4 245x4 275x1>DB Incline 4x6 @ 85s + DB row 4x9 @ 115>Incline front raises 2x20>Face pulls 2x20I got the holy 2.5pl8 bench but it was a garbage rep, one of those body English heaves where you don't even feel any muscles working, at least I can claim it for Indonesian birdhouse carving board purposesI think next week is a rest week, I was out of gas after the first superset which usually wakes me up. Trying to be more proactive with letting myself take time off before my lifts start backsliding and I'm zombie walking in everyday lifeAlso I'm on the toilet rn and my shit smells kind of like bacon
>>76674161I went swimming today. I only do crawl but next time (Wednesday) I'm going to see what happens if I do breaststrokes instead of stopping to take breaks. I tried Ruth Kazez' couch to 1500 before but got stuck after 400m, so now I just want to get back to 400m crawl and then start the program again.
did not take that exam last week because work has been a complete shitshow and i needed a haircut. i will get it done this week, likely tomorrow just so i can say "hey i got it done in september". after that it's an all out war to get out of this company, and even then my next job is likely just a stop gap until im done with the industry. decided this is going to be a rest/deload week before starting madcow for the rest of the year and likely going to start a 531 variation after that. Cardio is going well and got my vo2 max above 50! Still absolutely sucks running even 5k the day after squat day. Don't think if cardio will get me to the point where I don't need the CPAP and chances to even test that are gonna be limited. Goals for this week:take that stupid testlight workouts for big fourcut out half the snacks i eat at the office. not a huge source of calories but it's not zero.
last week I finally dialed in a consistent sleep schedule. not perfect but I was asleep by 1:30 everynight and woke up everyday at 9:30. ate a lot of homecooked meals and trained everyday. this week will be better god willing.
>>76674493routine is the way to go, congrats
Gym after work. Then I’ll finish up my YouTube video, which will be released tomorrow after more than a year of not uploading. I’ll conclude the evening with a walk. Godspeed, Anons.
>>76674161I need to get some stuff, but I lost the link to the site that sells medication and let's you use your debit card (not requiring crypto). Anyone got a link?
I WILL SUCCEED IN THIS JOB I WILL STUDY HARD I WILL PASS MY LEVEL 3 CFA EXAM THIS JANUARY I WILL MAKE IT OVER THIS MOUNTAINWork has been slow lately but it’ll pick up again. I’m anxious about beginning a new cycle. However, this time I have experience completing tasks. I’m much more confident entering this cycle. I know that I just need to survive this job. Once I pass my level 3 CFA exam, I can begin my escape. For the time being, I must succeed in my role. Studying is going much better than last time. I feel confident answering questions and going through practice tests. Yet there’s still doubt in my mind about whether I can reach the summit. So much about my life will improve once I pass this test. I have to reach the summit, no matter how unclear the path to the top is. I have the strength and willpower. Now I need to climb up every day. Even if I stumble, I must move forward, inch by inch. I’m ready to reach the top! The man you are today must brutally mog the man you were yesterday. Keep working hard while retaining confidence and self belief. WAGMI!
it's gonna be a good week brahswagmi
>>76674161Woke up early to lift before work, keeping up with cut very well after having a bad week. New week excited for what it’ll bring. Just gotta keep grinding brothers I know personally that we will all make it. Enjoy your present.
>>76674547Oh I found it! It's naps then the word gear and it's a dot org. Never tried them before, but hoping they are good.
>>76674341Congrats on benching 2.5pl8! I’ve only been able to bench that weight once in my life. You should feel proud of your strength! Got any tips for improving my bench?
>>76674161Just started a mechanics training program and having doubts about where it'll lead. I was under the impression it would lead to a 2 year apprenticeship, but after hearing the career instructor more, it seems to just be the 12 week training, but I would still only qualify for an entry-level job. I already have a degree, but fucked up my chances in corporate with poor work ethic and short stints at multiple companies. Fitness wise, I'm about 15lbs away from my goal. I'm going for groceries soon, and lifting tonight. Also thought about registering for a 5k later this year.
>>76674863Gain weightMaybe play around with rep ranges every few months. Do ur fahves, then go down to training doubles-triples, then after that try going ham with sets of 10 using the most weight you can muster. I had a phase early in the year where I was doing 5x10 work sets @ 185-195lbs twice per week with minimal rest time, it was exhausting and probably threw me into an overtraining slump, but I think it's paying some dividends nowBut mostly gain weight
About to quit my job, 3rd in a row that I couldn't keep for more than 8 months. Such is the life of the unqualified waggie.
>>76674161Starting as a Guardian Ad Litem volunteer training this week. I get to genuinely help people and kids while studying for the Multistate Bar Exam.>had A LOT of fun this weekend, probably gained 1.5lb of fat, rest is water. >still need job, parents swear that gussying up my LinkedIn will be the magic key>but this GAL thing is kind of hot to women cause it shows that I’m caring or something like that.
I am still a 24 year old virgin. I don't even give a shit anymore really.Life or God or the universe or cosmic vibrational energy or something is just fucking with me at this point with all the random serendipity it's been showing me, or maybe I'm just getting better at putting myself out there and it's returning dividends. My virginity status is less of a concern now, I've already basically proven to myself and others that I can, it's just been bad luck the times I got close back at those parties that screwed me, and some of the friends I'd made told me as much, that fuckups happen and you won't always score. But beyond that, I'm happy I came out here. Just the other night, a serendipitous flash of friendship with a dude my age who I hung out with all night smoking and drinking and laughing and conversing about things most people don't touch, about ourselves, while hanging out with a local guy I was friends with in SEA. Just the little things that let you go places, and I don't think it was the weed or liquor that loosened our lips, it was deeper than that and shows just how valuable male camaraderie is since either one of us could've gone at any point but it was an all nighter of just chilling. And then time in nature on my own. And bad luck with getting back from nature. But then more serendipity before bedtime that I don't even want to discuss here. I think I'll be OK now. Maybe not all at once, but as the older wise man figure I encountered on my 2nd psychedelic trip, it's just about always moving forward, always looking. I picked up spirituality a little via prayer/meditation, praying for other people first and foremost. And I want to lock in further on my fitness by taking it seriously and crossing the finish line to get my ideal body, or something so close that I just vibe with the sexy lean 6 pack for the first time in my life. And also go decompress someplace quiet from it all for a bit, since I need it.First time I've said this I think but:WAGMI
>>76674161English degree anon here. I'm currently planning on going back to school next year (pending current decision) and becoming a teacher. Ironically though, it looks like I got my first job. Today is my first onboarding day. I'll have to see what it's like before I can say for certain. If I do get my credential, I don't know if I will geomax or just stay here. I don't look very handsome to put it mildly and my social skills are uh just not used very much. But anyways, I'm gonna keep working out anyways. Idk what the future holds, but if I get lucky, then I may have a chance of making it somehow.
>>76674387This time will be different. Good luck in your endeavor!
Have you guys ever been so broken down you rebuilt yourself stronger? I'm at my lowest point and I want to hear some inspiring stories. They don't have to be grand, just some proof that ruts are temporary.
>>76675279Thanks man!
>>76675291I saw myself as a malfunctioning robot that was good for nothing and the summer before my 25th birthday I finally decided to hang myself. I was lying on my couch and realized that I was finally going to do it, I was going to go buy the rope. The reality of the situation got me scared in a way I haven't felt any other time and I went home to a friend and watched him play Nintendo. He still doesn't know anything to this day. I've had many other times when I've thought about it but that was the only time I really was about to act on it, and nowadays I don't have that reflex anymore. I'll be 34 later this year. Without my faith I might have gone through with it a couple of years later, but now I feel like all the shit I've been though was meant so that I could help others.
>>76674161shitty rainy day where i live.after work, i hit the gym and i always start monday with legs because all the fags are working anything else.couldnt believe, had an amazing leg day, good legs pump, good exercies, killed on the bulgarian splits + abs for the end.7/10 qt (great ass, mid face) started working on my abs bench, low key taunted her, tried to get her engaged and challange her abs routine.she was feeling kinda arrogant, low key not interested or whatever the fuck was that. couldnt give a fuck, did my social practice and flirt for the day. got home and ate.today was a good day
>>76675291I'm the SEAmaxxer tard above and used to think I was a schizoid doomer, now I just realize that was a label I stuck myself with because I thought I had no agency at all. Maybe we don't, maybe genetic and causal determinism is a fact, but most everyone tells me it took balls to run to the other side of the planet the way I did. The bigger point is a year ago I was depressed and miserable and at my lowest I think around this time, I literally started a blackpill YouTube channel to cope with the dead end misery of my life, thinking I'd be lonely and miserable forever and there just bitched and moaned because it was all I ever knew. Made over a hundred videos giving my autistic takes on social life and how awful everything is.Today I'm sitting in a little room with dubious electrical consistency and less than ideal internet speeds, but I've never been happier. The friends I made, the bits of love I experienced. It was life changing. It wasn't just the psychedelics in hindsight, it was all of it out together, the environment change, the people, the need to be self sufficient from necessity for the first time, and of course the mind altering drugs.Things can change more drastically much quicker than you'd think. I never wanted to live so badly in years as I do now. Everything seems smaller by comparison. And it's been weeks since I did those drugs so it's not just hippie Dippie shit now, my social experiences did a lot for me after a lifetime without any.
>>76675291in 2021 I was unable to talk to women I didn't already know, I almost went to jail from drunk antics, and made >40k a year living with 3 roommates who were all cuntsI switched careers and now make 100k, have a single br appt, and just had a breakup, but was in a functional relationship for 10 months.I pretty much crashed out, moved home, and went monk mode studying for certs at 26-27 and now and 30 and made it to the other side.
>>76675326Must've been scary though I wouldn't know the feeling. My faith keeps me from that too like you, fortunately.>I feel like all the shit I've been though was meant so that I could help othersKeep getting similar thoughts as well, like this is happening so that I can become a better man for my family and those around me. But I don't know if I'm being just arrogant with that train of thought and the shit I'm going through is only because I'm a failure and it isn't any deeper than that. >>76675346Good for you. I've been hesitant with psychedelics though I've read the benefits if done right. But I always err on the side of caution especially with anything I put on my body, so I think I'll grind out the slow grind of rewiring my brain than risk it for some heightened neuroplasticity.>>76675359Sorry to hear about your breakup, though it doesn't look like youre shaken up too much about it. I had the opposite trajectory. I'm trying so hard to monk mode but I'm addicted to porn for the first time in my life. Literally went from top academic performer from a top school, multiple side hustles, offers after graduation, to just bedrotting all day and 2 fucking years a NEET.
I'm down to 11% bodyfat at 5'7. Started at 190lbs in January. Down to 127lbs as of this post. Gonna keep going down to 8.5% bodyfat, then lean bulk to 12%, then cut back down to 8.5% and repeat until I die.
Today I benched 40kg (up from 30kg last week) which is slightly more than half my bodyweight.In the evening I decided to do cardio, I was hoping to do 5k alternating between walking and running but I ran too much and only did 2.5k.
>>76675368>But I don't know if I'm being just arrogant with that train of thoughtPray to God for humility then. When you help people out online anonymously you can't do it for your own glory. I'm sure you could also ask your priest if there's anything you can do anonymously.
>>76675291I have but they are too personal to share. >Ruts are only temporary Lol NO. The deepest rut will change you permanently. It is like changing the composition of the soul. It's a permanent effect. Sometimes, there are scars that won't go away.
>>76674564why are you taking a chick fil a examstill rooting for you tho big guygo identify the fuck out of those sandwiches
>>76675359>pretty much crashed out, went home, and went monk modeI’ve been doing the same, but have constant anxiety about how to exit said mode.Since moving home I’ve gotten my AA and am starting a bachelor’s, but I won’t be done for another couple years.After that, I have no idea what I’m going to do.I love school, and love using my brain this much on a regular basis, but once I’ve attained said bachelor’s, that’s the end of my grant funding.I don’t want to go into debt going to school “just to go to school”, and either way the novelty of doing so wears off the instant you get that magic piece of paper.It’s nice being able to say “oh, I’m attending ______ university,” but once I’m done I have no fucking clue what the next step is. How’d you figure out what the next step was for you?Prior to this I was a very social person, and while taking a break from it has been good, I am getting a bit stir crazy staying with family. I don’t want to be stuck like this forever. But I also don’t want to go back to kitchen wageslavery, destroying my body and mind just to barely make ends meet.
>>76674468There’s no shame in delaying your exam. Now you have time to ace it! You have a solid path towards a better life, keep working hard!
>>76674540Nice job getting back in the saddle! What type of videos do you make? Godspeed, fren
>>76674619Let’s make it a great week! WAGMI!
After 3 years of being fat lazy and unmotivated, I'm gonna go for a run tonight.
>>76674638We have to keep grinding, no matter what we encounter. I’ll try my best to enjoy my present :) WAGMI
Drank way too much this weekend due to several birthdays I attended. Still dragged my ass out of bed at 430 am to hit a workout knowing I wouldn't have time after work. Been riding that high all day
>>76674896There’s nothing wrong with an entry level job. If you’re unsatisfied in a year, quit for something better. Focus on amending your work ethic, actually commit to this opportunity
>>76675077You need to identify what’s wrong with you. You can’t keep on continuing this cycle, eventually it’ll catch up to you
Still drinking too much. Still getting high too much. Those are my copes. I run to them to hide from reality. But I’m consistent in the gym. I made it past the first round of job interviews. Fuck it, we ball.
>>76674951I’m a manlet without visible abs so I’m frightened by the concept of gaining weight. But maybe gaining 10-20 pounds is the secret to me unlocking a higher bench. Thanks
>>76676174Congratulations, anon.You’re doing something.If you’re trying to cut down on drinking, I’d suggest a cut. I was struggling for the better part of a decade and after many seizures, detoxes, and relapses, the thing that made me finally quit drinking all the fucking time and stick with it was: counting calories.I still have a drink every now and then, because holy shit sobriety as a lifestyle is miserable, but it did help me master the discipline of moderation.After a whooooole lot of struggling.I didn’t think it’d be possible. I’d reckon counting calories would probably incentivize you to lay off the DUDE LMAO, too.Recommended cut meal: grilled/ oven roasted chicken breast that’s been marinated in balsamic vinaigrette over like half an entire fuckin’ bag of spinach with little or no pepperoncini dressing.Season the chicken with powdered ranch, the cut’s best friend ever. Sorry that this devolved into a preachy blogpost, I really am proud of you, anon.
>>76676256Thanks anon. I might take a crack at that recipe. Sounds really good.
>>76674161I have been lifting and doing cardio pretty much every day for 6 months. I finally started dieting 2 months ago. My father in law said yesterday "damn you look a lot better that must take a lot of discipline". I have lost 30lbs so far and have about 20 more to go. Ill get there.
>>76676270Balsamic vinaigrette it good for marinating chicken in because you can leave it for multiple days (I’ve gone as many as five) and just pull a piece out and fire it whenever you need it.Italian dressing makes an awesome marinade (childhood favorite of mine, I might be biased), but the acidity will tear up the chicken if left for more than 10-12 hours. This happens with a decent amount of marinades. Not balsamic though!btw I was not kidding about the ranch powder.It’s a game changer.You can buy little packets or get a bigass shaker of it. Shit’s so cash. >it’s also gud in burger patties if you’re bulkingGood luck out there, anon!
>>76676279HELL YEAH MANEI know we’re not “supposed” to be doing this for validation in another’s eyes, but that had to have felt good as fuck to hear.Especially from the in-laws.
Today I saw a man bench 365 lbs for a single rep! I've never seen anybody irl bench that much. He seemed really happy, everyone congratulated him. He said his goal is to bench 4pl8. My goal is to bench 3pl8 one day. I want to get stronger
>>76675077Quitting a job? In this economy?>>76676123>There’s nothing wrong with an entry level job.I have no shame in being a wagie at this point. It's just the dread and self-loathing that comes with wasting my bachelor's and still being in debt. And if I quit this program, wouldn't I just end up in the same place next year, only older and with even less credibility and opportunities for upward growth? I've been amending my work ethic, I just need to find something worth working towards. But that's being selfish given my current state.
>>76674161>Were you thinking of giving up today? No you weren't.YesI wanted to not go to work so I could go to the gym
My old man has diabetes, but is committing to doing his best to stay in shape, which is excellent to hear for a man his age. He randomly asked me if he wanted to try out his blood sugar monitor, just to see what it's like. I say sure, why not. The result came back as 131 mg/dL. Keep in mind, this was about 10 minutes after I finished eating a bowl of chicken noodle soup. He told me it wasn't that bad, but he recommended I seriously start watching what I eat. Gonna be honest bros, I've been slacking on my /fit/ness and diet, and this was the swift kick in the ass I needed to get my shit together. Are those numbers really that bad, like in pre-diabetic territory? For reference, I'm 32 years old and weigh 170lbs.
I was married for 8 years, had 2 kids with her...I filed for the divorce and have 0 regrets, she's still bitter but at least I get my kids half the time. This most recent gal I dated...only about 5 months but holy fuck did she mess me up, she was easily an 8 out of 10, but she love bombed me hard and has been in a ton of relationships...sad thing is she was the one who pursued me, broke up with me and then had "second thoughts" so I thought we were re-kindling...only for her to be like "nah, I don't feel it" kicked me to the curb after hanging out with her a month ago. Still torn up on her, fully realizing she's an avoidant and it's dumb because shes been in countless relationships and ended them all, the cycle will obviously continue...but god damn does that mess with your head when you're constantly getting praise from someone and then they toss you away...needless to say Ive been lifting hard for the last month and have so much motivation to get jacked by February where I will likely run into her, I want her to see me and feel embarrassment for herself. By then I probably wont care about her anyway but right now its tough but on the bright side the desire to be better is at an all time high.
>>76675094You’re doing good in the community, nice job! Make sure to balance those responsibilities with studying for your bar exam! Good luck!
>>76676459doesn't sound that concerning if you just ate, if it's that high when fasting then maybe get it checked out
>>76674161I've lost 21 pounds since 1 July.My pants are loose fitting now.Still have a lot of work to do.
>>76675706They're like little video essays on movies I like. I hope you have a great week
>>76674161Today's lifts>Squat 355x3 355x3 365x3>Front squat 4x5 @ 185>Dragon raises 3x15>Weighted back extensions 4x10Squats (and bench) continue to go better than expected, I had squatted 3.5 before so that wasn't a concern for me, I figured I'd only get 2 though.Had a weird rep on the first set of front squats and something on the side of my left ass cheek got yoinked, it hurt during rest periods but not during the remaining sets, if it wasn't time for a rest week before it is now, hopefully I can deadlift fridayLast time I did dragon flags (friday) I had soreness going into yesterday so they definitely work
>>76675109I’m glad you’ve reached some level of epiphany. You’ve identified what you want and are willing to take the necessary steps to achieve those goals. Best of luck in your process, WAGMI
>>76674161>What are your goals for this week? What do you plan to achieve?I have been doing diamond push up for reps.Planning on doing Archer push up next before moving to one arm push up.
>>76675244Being a teacher is a difficult but insanely rewarding job. Be the /fit/ chad teacher those kids need to look up to. Regarding social skills, they’ll improve a lot if you work in an office. You have to believe that you’ll make it somehow
>>76675291>that ruts are temporary.Lmao, it will always be there. I have gone through several ruts after I lived my best life.It's just that you get used to being broken down that it won't bother you as much as anymore and become "stronger" in a sense.It's like pain tolerance in a sense. You will experience painful shit in life, but at least, you can hold it unlike your first time
>>76674161Here my friends, the /sig/ archive to better yourself, to become the best version you can be or just to make at least one single step towards a better live.If I could do it, so can you <3sigAnon files 01.2025for_my_anonshttps://mega.nz/folder/Lro2TQxT#xGKCfbRYvE5cUkCPZyjzGA/folder/L7RDBDBCMotivational picshttps://mega.nz/folder/Lro2TQxT#xGKCfbRYvE5cUkCPZyjzGA/folder/DmokwDhJsig topicshttps://mega.nz/folder/Lro2TQxT#xGKCfbRYvE5cUkCPZyjzGA/folder/7nQyyRaS
>>76675337Congrats on your legs! You’re getting stronger!
Have applied for 4 jobs and have 2 interviews (already did 1). Hoping to get something worth while. Wanted to run today but my back pain has returned yet again and I want to fucking OD on painkillers right now.
>>76675398Congrats on your progress! You must be insanely sexy now! Got any advice on cutting?
These threads are the only reason I still come to /fit/. Keep up the good works anons, we're ALL going to make it.
>>76674161bros, on days where it is cloudy and I get no sun and the weather is windy and cold... I feel like killing myself.On sunny days I feel amazing.I need to move, probably. My family will give me shit for moving to a sunny place without them (they are under the impression that the next time I move I will move back to their city). I might need to just tell them to fuck off.Anyways, I don't know. I turn into a little bitch when it's cloudy. I don't even know why my body is like this.
>>76676891Buying new belts (and pants) was painful to me because I’m so fucking broke, but also a huge feeling.What an incredible victory.I tamped any bittersweet feelings I had with the notion that I was investing in my confidence that I’d be able to keep myself in the decent shape I’d gotten into.It’s been five months, almost six.Congrats, anon.WAGMI.
>>76675501I’m this nerd and if anyone has any advice I’d really appreciate it.The gist of it is that I have no fucking clue what I want to do with my life, am concerned that whatever choice I make may no longer be viable in the near future, and all the shit I really love to learn about pretty much only has jobs teaching said subjects.I’ve been going to school just to go to school, on federal grants.I’m prepared to go back into wageslavery, but also while I’m attaining my bachelor’s at a legit university I intend to make use of their career advisement faculty.I know how important networking is, and fortunately I’m pretty personable- it’s just going to feel a little weird doing it at nearly 30 as a geriatric college student.
>>76678765That’s a real thing, though.Look up Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD, not kidding). If I recall correctly it has to do with your body not getting enough vitamin D or something from sunlight.It got really blown out of proportion when it was first discovered, but it’s a real thing and it might be what’s fucking you up.They make lamps for it and you can just sun yourself like a lizard, could be worth trying.
>>76676155>You can’t keep on continuing this cycle,Off course I can. I'm in my thirties, some savings, no debt or loans whatsoever, no wife, no kids. I have no responsibilities, if I don't like the job I quit it's that simple.>>76676396>Quitting a job? In this economy?There's thousands upon thousands of poorly paid slave job offers out there. I could probably get hired on the same day.
>>76678850Not the anon you’re replying to but:I see exactly where you’re coming from, I’ve always found it so fucking easy to get a job.Just go out, talk to a few people, and then the end of the day I’ve found work.The problem is, the jobs that will hire you the same day… Have vacancies for a reason.They’re not good jobs.They don’t have room for promotion from within, they just keep cycling through people like us with quick turnover until they find some 40 year old who will do the job in a remarkably more reliable manner that’s happy with a $0.50 raise who will hold that position forever.I’m sure you’ve worked with a few of them.I feel like we’re both stuck in the same hell where we’re not above anything, but also don’t have enough experience for anything other than entry level stuff.The people who are “struggling” to find jobs are looking for specific ones where they can leverage their skills and experience for better pay.Unfortunately it seems that the longer you’re funemployed, the weaker that leverage grows. I’m not sure who has it worse. Everything’s pretty fucked, I’m glad I have fitness to keep me sane.If I’m not progressing economically, I might as well be progressing somehow.
>>76675291I am still not 100%, but if I really meditate on it, I do realize that I have made genuine progress.When I was 19 I was hospitalized because I was a "threat to myself" because I wanted to kill myself. I was incredibly lonely my entire life and the idea of moving out and getting a job and making good money and having a girlfriend and having friends at all was absolute nonsense.Now I have moved out and I got a job (just recently got a fully-remote gig which is nice as fuck) and I make good money doing software. Still lonely, but a couple of major problems that I assumed were permanent just kind of vanished after a few years of work.Now the next major hurdles are getting actual people in my life, but the progress makes me realize that the "that will never happen" feeling is more fluid than you realize.It also made me realize how opposite I am to normies. For normies the hard part is finding a job you like and how to grind and make good money and get promoted and how to get a nice apartment with a view and all of that shit, but having friends and having girlfriends and having sex is just automatic for them.For me it was more of the opposite. Normies don't realize they ARE born with talent, just "normal" talent like making friends within just an hour of meeting someone, rather than being willing to write high-quality code for 6 hours straight.
>>76675359>have a single br appt,I read this as>"Have a single-" *BRRAAAAAPPPPPPPT*
>>76678805I take Vitamin D supplements and I am not sure if I notice a difference. I guess I can look into the lamps and shit but I need to just find a very hot, sunny place and live there, even if the rent is expensive.
>>76678918Damn 100%, almost feels like I could have written that myself. That's exactly it, good or specific well paid jobs sure that it's hard to come by but menial labor? Anyone that says they can't get hired is having a laugh. Of these last 3 jobs, one I got hired through email after replying to a facebook offer I saw, like 3 or 4 back to forth emails and off I go to a new place, probably the job I enjoyed the most and the best coworkers/boss but it was seasonal. The previous one I got hired over facetime, decent pay but literally back braking and high risk of injury. Current one got hired over the phone, next day was doing medical and 2 days after was driving a van for my employer.Also got hired for a quarry and gas station but got cold feet and didn't show up. Literally just be polite, tell the recruiter what they want to hear and you get hired, even crackheads can do it lol.>I’m sure you’ve worked with a few of them.One of my coworkers is like that, he's a great guy and has a large family so he just endures whatever the boss asks, but he's not just reliable, he also knowledgeable.I stopped sweating it, I made my bed being a fucktard at school so now I'm somewhat at peace with it. When I'm working I try to save as much as I can, which isn't hard because I leave pretty frugally and have no social life, that way I can tell the boss to fuck off if the jobs starts sucking or he acts up.
Failed to reach summit of a solo hike Saturday in the alps. :( 600meters left to go turning back was best option. I know I could have reached the top since I had 4 more hours of light and enough energy. I wasn’t sure how tired I would be when I would have to turn back. There was so much snow. In April I will try again I’m making this mountain my little BITCH
>>76675429Congrats on your benching progress! Keep at it and you’ll be benching your body weight as well as running 5ks soon
>>76678928Oh look another fully remote rich software engineer on fit
>>76679054600 meters? Bro you should have sprinted it
>14 years of social isolation I unironically, no gaffe, devoid of all tomfoolery and exaggeration, want to fucking die. This makes it hard to exercise and watch my diet.I hate this about life: one thing crumbles, then everything else crumbles and it all comes crashing down faster than you can fix it. Like scooping water out of a sinking ship with your bare hands.Unironically a single mid gf or a single solid friend would make everything so much more bearable. Meanwhile I can barely make it through a workday without multiple toilet breaks to just sit there and despair. Worse yet? I've been in various forms of therapy for those 14 years, each more incompetent than the last. And I've tried "putting myself out there", but I always need to initiate everything and it stops the moment I stop initiating. Other people don't genuinely want me around, they just tolerate my small talk. That's all I ever fucking do: small talk. I show genuine interest in others just to be glossed over, like everyone else's "friendship slots" are filled and there's no room for one more.I'm tired of fighting an uphill battle. I just want the silence of the grave and the embrace of the Lord. Life has nothing left to offer, I've seen it all and I know it's only getting worse. I feel like one of those ww1 soldiers that opted to shoot himself in the face rather than confront a flamethrower.Lifting heavy metal no longer silences sad voice in head. I progressively overloaded my suicidal ideation past that point.Thanks for reading my blog, I just needed to put this out here because I have nobody to talk to. Haven't had anyone for years. I still don't know why this happened to me and I'm done ruminating over the why and how.
>>76679276I was 3000meter high all alone no snowboots/crampons,experience. It’s 40-50cm thick snow.
>>76674161How long did it take to find your current job from the time you started looking/quit/got laid off?
>>76675109Your post brightened my day, Anon. I’m thinking we might all make it. I hope to one day (figuratively) encounter that wise man you speak of myself.
>>76675479Chartered financial analyst exams. I want to escape compliance and get a quant job. Thanks bro. I’ll inspect those sandwichs
it's been 1 week exactly since i started going to the gym. did my 4th session today and i am feeling very good about it, i can notice my mind starting to adapt to it morewagmi
>>76679306Same bro. I have 3 friends. None of them live in my area. I recently tried befriending the chick I had a crush on at work. We got on really well and talked about really deep and personal stuff with each other. I work nights so she’d stay and talk to me for like an hour after her shift ended. Thing were going well, we had so much in common surprisingly and she was one of sweetest people I’ve ever met, sadly she was bi but in a long term very serious lesbian relationship lmao. I was fine with cucking and being friends. We both talked about going to church because similar upbringing but lapsed, I asked her to go with me because I knew I never would alone, she said yes and then bailed but had a good excuse so then I asked her to just hang out casually, she said yes immediately again and then bailed a 2nd time. I kinda poured my heart out to her (not romantically), and it was like her entire attitude/demeanor towards me had 180’d over night, just suddenly really cold. Said she wanted to just be work friends and then she got another job not long after. Idk man, I wouldn’t have cared if she just said no from the beginning but I actually started to look forward to it and now I feel like I’ve lost the last shred of hope I didn’t even know I still had.
>>76675952You better have. The best time to change yourself is right now
>>76679471Anon you seem like you’re in a rough place and I’m sorry about that, but I’d like to point out a few things and am trying to be polite about it… From the tone of your writing it does not seem like you were “just cool being friends,” and if you’re anywhere near as subtle in-person (or even over text) I think she likely also picked up on that. Also, telling a bi girl who’s in a long-term, lesbian relationship that you don’t mind not dating her, and then inviting her to CHURCH is seriously tone deaf.Even if you really weren’t trying, from a distance it would be very easy to think that you had the long term goal of conversion-therapying your way into her heart.Which is probably what her friends, girlfriend, and eventually herself thought.I am sorry that you lost that friend, but try and learn from this.Be honest with yourself moving forward, and maybe don’t come on so strong.There’s nothing wrong with you, it’s just that some people are already overwhelmed with their own existence, and you’ve got to practice some tact in lieu of that.WAGMI.
>>76675455>I have but they are too personal to share. This is 4chan, come on now>>76678013>I have gone through several ruts after I lived my best life. Like what
>>76679547You’re 100% right and trust me I already know this. It just kinda hurts because I’m a very private person and I told this chick stuff I’ve never told anyone. I actually let my guard down and allowed myself to care and ended up getting burnt. Ah well, such is life. One step at a time, I will keep going. Thanks man.
>>76679306As someone in a similar spot in life, I'll say this.You're not trying hard enough. If you really felt as bad as you did, you'd do something drastic to change, or kys already. That many years in therapy and trying to engage with people via small talk is just beating around the bush.If you weren't on this site, where would you be? You're not a victim of your own life, anon.
>>76679553It’s hard figuring out who to be vulnerable in front of, and when.I know the feeling you’re battling, too.I’ve definitely poured my heart out to someone that it, in turn, scared the shit out of before. More than once.It gets easier as we live and we learn.In the mean time, all we can do is move forward.p.s. definitely don’t take this as a cue to shut yourself off from the world emotionally, good friends are out there. You’ve just got a lot of feels that need an ear lent and they all want to fly out like a burst dam.Most everyone feels like this at one point or another, it’s all just a matter of tact and how we carry ourselves.You’ll find the right people to open up to one of these days.
How do you avoid chickening out at the last second when asking a girl out? I've made enough small talk to where I feel I can ask now and I was planning on doing it today but just froze right at the moment I planned on doing it
>>76679553One last thing:When shit is keeping me up at night and I’m overthinking all the dumb stuff I’ve done that has put me in embarrassing situations and it’s giving me anxiety, it helps me to remember that NOBODY thinks about us as much as we do ourselves.Everyone has their own personal, mental-rolodex of dumb shit they’ve done that they’re flipping through.They’re busy thinking about their own cringey moments, or how they’ve fumbled social situations and “what could’ve been.”We are but an incredibly minuscule fraction of the lives of everyone we interact with, which gets processed and filed among their ever-updating consciousness. The entire spectrum of social interaction is a double edged sword, and that’s the positive side of it.
I just finished the first day of a new program and it was great.Basically switched to super high volume - sets of 20 or failure if I couldn’t reach 20.Not only that, but I finally did some ab exercises which is a step towards losing my belly.BUT THE MOST BASED THING BY FAR was when I did cardio after the workout. I put the treadmill at an 8.0 incline and walked 35 minutes. The last 15 minutes I put Wherever I May Roam by Metallica on repeat, and walked with my water bottle at face level, holding it as if it was a sword and I was a wandering samurai.Fuck ya
>>76679612Oof, that’s a tough one.My brother once imparted some wisdom upon a young me, “it’s only weird if you make it weird.”Possibly, consider how much you’ll regret NOT asking if you walk away?When you get nervous, cherish the feeling, homie. This is what life is about.
>>76679612It’s really as simple as “Hey- I’ve been meaning to ask, would you like to go on a date with me?”I know it doesn’t always feel like it, though.
>>76679661>>76679667Thanks, this seems like good stuff. I will try to absorb it
>>76675985Trying even when you want to shows real character. You’re a strong man, even if you don’t feel it. Your perseverance will pay off eventually
Had a pretty decent productive month of September. Kinda faltered at the last week because I had to work on some family related stuff but picked up myself again.Went to the gym frequently, with a day or 2 gap in between. Timed my study and other focused activity using an app and got 80 hours, 15 mins of focus period. Looking forward to this month as well, although one of my week in October might be off because my uncle is getting married and I'll be traveling. Working out and studying is gonna be a little tough.
just worked out for the first time in about year. havent drank since sunday after drinking everyday for a few years. im weak as fuck but better late then never.
>>76680245Congrats, anon.If you used to lift, maybe you’ll bounce back into it pretty quick once your muscles remember what lifting feels like.How much were you drinking daily? I know it fluctuates, but let’s go with average weekdays.If the weekends were some kind of crazy 80+ drink benders, feel free to mention.
Passed my operatives test, not exactly an accomplishment in itself as it was literally just 50 questions of common sense health and safety questions with a few excavation/confined spaces questions added in but it still feels good nonethelessGoing to hit back+chest soonishWagmi
>>76679699>checked You got this, anon.Seriously, “it’s only weird if you make it weird” has helped me through a lot of stuff.Do you think she’ll find you being a bit nervous cute, or are you trying to avoid bringing that up?
>>76680394Please tell me this is some dude that got drawn on after passing out at a party with his shoes on, and not some European rapper.Although, if he is a rapper I’d like to check out his music, purely out of morbid curiosity.
>>76680394Also wait, that’s different than the chick fil a test some other anon had to taste. What was it for? Sounds like construction.
It’s Wednesday, my dudes.I felt bad about not going to the gym Monday night/ Tuesday morning, so I went around 3:00am and have just been enjoying the fuck out of goofing around in an empty gym.Am finishing my final set now. It has been desolate and I fucking love it.So comfy.Just dicking around and lifting whatever the hell I want, minimal rhyme or reason.Managed a bench PR (sort of), as I can now do 1pl8 for reps.I have only been lifting since late June so I think I’m doing alright. WAGMI bois, WAGMI. If anyone has any favorite exercises (free weights or machine) shout ‘em out and I’ll try it before I leave.Or when I do this again later this week.Seriously I have no idea why I rush myself, all I cheated myself out of was consuming media and I’ve been maxcomfy for the almost the last two and a half hours.
>>76680531Kek no I don't think so, it's Charls Carroll from MDE>>76680533>What was it for? Sounds like constructionYeah it's so I can get my CSCS Labourers card so I can work on construction sites, later down the line I'll look to get a blue card (skilled workers card) when I'm considering a career
>>76680559Dang dude, this is not stereotypical “hurr durr oi it’s seven bong” shit talk/ bait, but:I knew Brits were kinda lunatics about having a loicense for everything, but you need a license to work on a fucking construction site? That’s crazy.
>>76680571Lmao it's more like a qualification/certification so you know basic health and safety requirements about on site rules etc, they do give you a physical card though which does lean into the loicense gimmick which is funnyThere isn't something similar in yanklandia?
6 year NEET from last thread (I think) here. New job's going alright. 3 days a week from 8:00 to 1:30 (although both shifts so far have ended early due to technical issues) with good pay, and I'm in good company with most of my coworkers seeming to be recovering NEETs themselves, fellow autists, or special needs, so I'm pretty blessed in comparison to the 9-5 slaves. A couple fuck ups from not being able to discern one type of trash from another and throwing them down the wrong chutes are making me nervous and lowering my already pitiful sense of self-worth, but hopefully I can get better before I get chewed out or fired. I am getting home completely shattered from the heat, dehydration, and fatigue of manual labor though, so I've got no energy for anything productive beyond shooting a few ropes to porn and web surfing. There's also the crippling fear of having to run off for a shit in the middle of work gnawing at me because I'd be holding the line up or making the others pick up my slack, which isn't helped by a bout of diarrhea the night following my first shift, but I am trying to avoid the food that more commonly sets me off to hopefully prevent it. Also my muscles are killing me.I have zero clue what I'll do after this job. There's an offer for a permanent position if I prove myself, but fuck working 8-5 five days a week when it's already hot as balls and not even summer yet. The practical assessments for my spur-of-the-moment Cert to get easy NEETbux are coming up very soon but I don't think I'll pass; it's been so long since I've had any education and my most recent coursework has been using high school Math I completely bombed in, and I'm not really even interested in the subject anyway.I guess I'll grind this for as long as I can, get off my ass and invest a little of each paycheck in some crypto, and hope I score big enough to not work ever again at the cost of returning to being a shut-in loser.
I'd rather die alone than talk to a woman
>>76680555>It’s Wednesday, my dudes.>AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
>>76676398Continue showing up, even if you don’t want to. Part of being an adult is doing things you don’t want to. It shows maturity that you didn’t skip work
>>76680432I don't know her well enough to say if she'd find that cute or not. Hopefully she does because when I do ask it's probably going to be kinda obvious I'm nervous lol. But I'm thinking the act of doing it should show confidence that'll offset the nervousness while doing it
>>76676476Use this experience as motivation to full potential. Eventually you'll become the type of man she can only fantasize about
>>76682000Checked.I’m glad that someone appreciated that reference.holy fuck it reminds me of better times, take me back to 2016 please.
>>76682101Not that anon, but I’m kind of wondering what the point of all of this is.I’m getting kind of tired of slaving all fucking week for the privilege to pay someone else’s loan off and barely feed myself.My two “hobbies” are cooking at home and getting fit, which are consuming my entire fucking budget as though the two were luxuries that I could be expected to forgo if necessary.(they’re not, they’re necessities/ basic acts of life that I’ve tricked myself into thinking more positively about, as I take them seriously. Because they’re all I can afford to care about)
>>76677802Neat. What movies would you recommend?
>>76677802Seconding this >>76683279Let’s hear some movie recs b0ss! You very well may have the power to dictate what I watch in the coming evenings.
i'm constipated and i cant shit no more
i've only ever done machines before but i did my first ever barbell lifts todaycomplete beginner weights but i learned a lot about form
I'm entering my mid 30s and I still don't have a gf
>>76677900Congrats on your lifts! Got any advice on fully activating your abs during dragon flags?
>>76681971in a way based
>>76677984Congrats on your progress! Doing a one arm push up is crazy impressive
