File: JjLRJ1SFSPO-riSLD5FrEg (1).png (128 KB, 718x893)

128 KB PNG

I don't have a home gym. Half the time I go to the gym there's this one guy being annoying and playing super loud music. So, I have spent the last 4 days doing nothing but jerking off.

Im dying. It sucks.

I have chronic cystitis, platelet anisocytis, thrombocytopenia. Im in constant pain. Im pissing blood clots all the time. Im on so much medication that i didnt even know existed 3 years ago. I miss being healthy. I miss not being in pain. I miss the old me.

I'll never have a family, or a relationship. I dont want to die, i want to be healthy again. The medication keeping me alive is carginogenic. So either i stop the meds and die from blood clots, or i keep taking meds and develop cancer.

Value your health, you never know when it will be gone

>>76735583
sorry to hear that anon :/

A bad childhood memory popped in my head recently.
>be around 8
>mom is fat
>dad is abusive to us and cheats on her
>unspoken rule in the family to never talk about it
>dad makes us all watch the miss universe beauty pageant with him
>he makes comments like “she looks nice” “wow she’s pretty” etc
>gradually gets more vulgar and says stuff like how hot the contestants are and that he’d love to spend a night with them
>last comment he made was “I wish your mom was skinny like her”
>mom starts crying and goes to her room
>dad makes the rest of us to stay in our rooms
I really regret not consoling my mom that day.

>be me
>doing sober october
>read these posts
>want to open a bottle of brandy immediately

File: feelsrain3.gif (1.87 MB, 448x524)

1.87 MB GIF

>>76735583

Damn man, really sorry.

>>76735595

You were just a kid. If your mom is still alive go visit her, just be with her, don't bring up anything. If she's gone, prayer can help.

File: proxy-image.jpg (147 KB, 700x394)

147 KB JPG

>>76735458
I hit 5 pullups (with decent form) but I keep injuring my lats bros. No matter how much I adjust my form or control my cadence eventually something just gives and my lats flare up again. I'm probably fucking something up but maybe I'm just getting old. I just wanna get to 10 without being thrown back to PT.

>>76735583
I'm so sorry to hear that, anon. I really don't know what to say, but all my sympathy goes to you. Hope you get better.

>>76735583
Fuck bro. Can you at least get some opiates?

File: bg,f8f8f8-flat,750x,075,f(...).jpg (68 KB, 750x1000)

68 KB JPG

>>76735458
>40th Birthday tomorrow
Still got it

I'll take an alcohol free beer.
Been feeling pretty good about everything recently, things are going well and finally have some stability in my life after years of chaos and inconsistency. During that time just kept my head down and kept grinding with work, training and my hobbies.
Tomorrow got a date with a cute girl. First one in a long time after deciding to give up on it to focus on myself.
Not that exited about it though, getting a weird needy vibe from her. But will see.
Winter is approaching where I live and started training indoors again at my local gym. Where I've been reuinted with the girl I really want to date, but she's not interested, it seems.
Kinda sucks but I think it's for the best.
Come to realise she seems a bit like a repeat of previous long term partners that I've had, which have always ended up being toxic relationships. And I feel this is why I'm so drawn to her.
So ultimately just trying to keep to myself in that respect and focus on my training.
Doesn't help much thet she keeps instigating conversation with me.

Anyway thanks for gleaning my blog post.

>>76735595
Your dad did nothing wrong

Already posted this in /roon/ but whatever.
Did working out bring peace to your incel existence? I thought I had a pretty good run and then on my way home I drove by these fancy restaurants and wine bar that were jam packed with millennial yuppies socializing with their friends and girlfriends and the hype from the run immediately vanished.

It's friday night and I'm going to take a shower, cook some shrimp, watch a few episodes of the office and go to sleep alone. Fucking hell.

Had something of a crash out early this year and eventually quit my job back in the end of April. I guess to make a long story short, I felt like I should be doing something better with my life, something more fulfilling. I was tired of earning shit pay and dealing with completely unreasonable expectations and shit project management all to make some shithead richer. I was invited to a meeting with shareholders that spoke entirely of how many millions they were saving on exploiting me and my colleagues. I had enough of good people and good employees not getting their dues after years of hard work. It's been about 5 months since I left. Honestly, my life has gotten worse since then. It was brash of me to quit without a proper job lined up. Since then, I've worked as a tutor, a cashier, now a security guard. I make 1/3rd of my old pay and I'm depressed about how much I leech off my siblings now. I don't have problems with the work I do now. It pays worth the effort I put in. It's a necessary service and I get to provide a very small, but often positive change in people's lives. I just wish I was back in my field so I could do more for the people that support me too. I've been looking since last year. I hope I die in my sleep every day

File: f8207b54b8ad94a463bdf7b10(...).jpg (165 KB, 860x860)

165 KB JPG

>>76735716
It didnt bring peace to my "incel existence" but it does help alleviate many of the symptoms caused by mental health issues. I think whats been helping that is appreciating what I do have. I recommend taking an aimless hike through nature and taking some time to ignore the part of you that berates you for not being one of those people out there socializing on Friday.

>widow's peak + taking fin because started malding
>deviated septum
>suboptimal zygos
>visibly autistic
><6ft
>started retinol cuz I've got fine lines and a degree of sun damage at the ripe age of 22
>college dropout due to ADHD that I only started treating recently
>too poor to afford a degree in a decent institution, but not enough to get gov assistance
>wasted my teen years and early 20s isolating myself and am just now starting to walk again
>living in 3rd world shithole
I hate being subhuman so much. If maxxing everything I can doesn't get a woman or man to love me then I'll just give up on trying altogether.
>>76735583
Sorry to know that, anon. Being just a bit unhealthy already sucks, so I cannot imagine your pain.
As others said, try to get opiates or something. In such cases it's probably best to just try to distract yourself from the whole situation.

>>76735583
GOMAD + stop using seed oils should fix you right up... unless... vax status?

>>76735458
Going to pump my wife full of ciders tonight so I can finger her asshole.

>>76735595
And people wonder why we don't have kids/family these days. Can you imagine your mom's life? Holy fuck I couldn't take a week of it

>>76735716
I aged out of it

>>76735458
I have an interview in about 3 minutes. If I pass it, then I am pretty much guaranteed for the job. If not, just another on the list of multi-round interviews that went nowhere. Lord Jesus, if I get this job, I will abandon all vices to follow you. Even this website.

>>76735458
I'll take a moscow mule, pls and thanks.

Well I found out there's a good chance that one of my uncles may die soon. He was in a coma from some sort bacterial infection and ever since waking up has not gotten better. I don't know him that well but seeing my mom all stressed hurts to see.

>>76735797
>suboptimal zygos
Mate the first thing you need to do is cut that faggot looksmaxxing shit out of your mind. I don't even know what that is and I don't want to. It's fucking mind poison.

File: James-Bond-with-Silencer-(...).jpg (43 KB, 940x500)

43 KB JPG

I'm sick of not living my life anons, I'm sitting in my room all daydreaming about living adventures and being cool à la James Bond, when in reality I'm a socially anxious loser who never goes out and has 0 friends.

I'm decent looking, good body, smart, never had trouble with women, with my parents, never really had any serious problem really, but I'm freaking out whenver I'm in a social situation, I'm constantly fearing other's judgement. My anxiety was so bad I had to drop out of highschool.

I'm doing a bit better now mentally but I've become a complete shut-in, even tho my mindset is more positive and I have gained confidence, not going out regularly for years has made me super anxious about just taking the bus, whereas when I was still going to school I had not problem doing it

I know what the solution is, to let go of the fear and do stuff despite being scared, but I just wanted to vent about it. If any of you have any tips please share

>>76735771
>aimless hike through nature
That's my weekends in a nutshell.

>>76735807
How come? I'm in my thirties and find it worse because at least during my twenties I had some single mates, now they're all married with families and I'm the same social retard I was before.

>>76735588
>>76735618
>>76735635
>>76735797
>>76735648
>>76735799


Thanks for the kind words anons, its nice.

Yeah, i have a drawer full of opiates, i can request as many as i want, they help take the edge off. My doctor is kind to me. She wants constant urine and blood samples, she wants me to live, its nice. No vax. I still try to be active but its borderline impossible now. Cant work. Just in bed, in the dark. Theres nothing glamorous or romantic about any of this, its just chronic pain. The part of my brain that processes joy has died. Its an absolutely strange feeling to just sense my body dying. If you have any loved ones, send them a message now just saying hi, you dont know how long before they're gone.

>>76735583
Fuck my dude, and here was I complaining I about trivial shit.

Much love brother.

File: 454aee04173d4137bedc7da1e(...).jpg (98 KB, 624x855)

98 KB JPG

Watching my mom destroy her life with alcohol has killed a piece of me. She's in her 40s but looks as old as my grandma. Probably less lucid to.

Resist the urge, find help, find God.
Do what's best for you even if it's hard.
Alcoholism is ugly and just so sad.
It steals from you, what makes you good.

File: 1684011836581727.jpg (119 KB, 1024x817)

119 KB JPG

>>76735458
>went on a date with a female doctor
>she said she's into cosmetic medicine and whatnot
>told me one of the reasons she swiped on my profile was the fact I don't have frown lines
>that apparently means I don't get mad often
Thanks, I guess

>>76735583
Keep going anon, you've got nothing to lose

>>76735458
Sent my ex a text today, it wasn't exactly nice and I doubt I want her back other than to fuck

File: 1632016968416.jpg (120 KB, 465x750)

120 KB JPG

>>76735583
Damn. Sorry, mate.
I’m 47yo and still in very good shape. But every day the feeling of running out of time is getting bigger.

>>76735895
Talk to someone about it. I’m not an advocate of shrinks but for some they really help.

>>76736001
Cool, bro,…keep it up with that sexy doctor, Don’t screw it, please.

>>76735909
Seriously? I look at the life my peers have, with their families and jobs and all, and I shudder. I may be a social recluse, but the amount of freedom I have is unparallel, completely different dimension from these people.

>>76735895
I was a social retard and still are to a degree. But things got sorta better. This is how it eent for me:
Had to get a shit job on retail. Having to deal constantly with customers and coworkers helped me develop much needed docial skills and intetpersonal communication abilities.
On the other hand, working retail made me realize how fucking dumb most people are, which increased my already high disdain for humanity. It's hard to fear or feel anxious around others when you know most of them are so fucking retarded you wonder jow they manage to tie their shoes.
It was a sink or swim situation for me, but it worked.
Also banged a couple of my female coworkers.

File: 88483772-the-big-shaggy-c(...).jpg (132 KB, 1300x1134)

132 KB JPG

>>76735977
>No vax
Fuck, it stings to hear another unvaxxed chad go through it like that. Keep hanging in there brother.

>>76735895
Perhaps you should channel those desires into a sort of creative endeavor like writing. Hell, you could even bring that up in conversation with people and perhaps forge those bonds you seek with however few people you still engage with and more. You don't necessarily have to be good at the craft either. Aside from financial needs, most of these types of things start off as hobbies to entertain the craftsman himself first. You might also want to consider picking up things like hiking or photography. They're pretty convenient excuses to just get around more and learn more about where you live and sometimes meet new people

File: 1742120151455.jpg (818 KB, 817x1220)

818 KB JPG

>35 year old virgin
>went on the first date of my life yesterday
>it sucked
>I'm still upset
It's not even that I liked her but she didn't like me, it's that I genuinely didn't like her. I tried to like her, I really did. And now I'm thinking that this is it, my options are boring single mothers or being alone. Both are suicide fuel.

I started getting my shit together too late, like showing up at the restaurant hungry but late and discovering there's only moldy cheese left. Eating or not eating will both make you miserable.

I want to fucking die. I know I'm no catch, but is a mid girl that actually likes me too much?

>>76736038
>But every day the feeling of running out of time is getting bigger.

I'm 46 and I've been feeling that for some time. I was about to vent about feeling fepressed layely, but after that anon's post with his fucked up health I feel like I have no right to complain.
Anyway, I think this feeling is quite common at this age. My friends of around this age sometimes open up a bit about it aftet a couple of drinks. Guess it's the midlife crisis or something. Some buy motorbikes, others leave their wives and families. Others start abusing alcohol.
Me and another one just got depressed.
I wish I had words of wisdom or comfort to share, but alas, I have none. I've grown older, but not wiser.

It's sick how you can write paragraphs of stuff, then be like "ya na this doesn't need to be shared" and delete it but still feel like you got it off your chest.

>>76736282
That's why people wrote diaries back in the day.

As a last resort I've been getting a ketamine infusion for my depression, and I think it's actually working so far, my brain is noticeably more quiet and less negative. Sadly I've had to severely cut back on drinking, because it fucks with the ketamine if you drink too much.
It's probably for the best in the end.

>>76735801
Keep us updated

>>76735583
*brohug*
Thanks for sharing this with us bro. I love you man. I'm praying for you, for a cure, and for your comfort.

I'll have a Campari.
Much love to everyone in this thread.
If anyone struggles with PTSD, or has difficult memories that afflict them, read "Waking the Tiger." It's got how you can rewrite chunks of your past and heal from them. Anna's Archive has a ton of versions you can pirate, or you can use an AI to summarize the steps it walks you through.

>>76736001
Is she a dermatologist? You should ask for her skincare routine and report back here.
>t. got wrinkles, dry dandruff AND oily skin at the age of 22

i feel lonely

>>76736045
why do you think it will help ? I'm not to keen on seeing a therapist desu, maybe it's exaggerated but I don't want to tell my life and ambitions to some 35yo blue haired woman who will just want to get me on pills

>>76736086
I'll try this, I was thinking about talking to people online (I remember back then I was so retarded I would just leave the voicechat with the boys without saying anything) but I feel that's too easy, it's real life that frightens me

>>76736140
Thanks I'll try this, I've been thinking about writing poetry for some time, I'll probably try to write some short stories too (been reading Bond and Holmes stories lately so I'll just try to copy that)

>>76735895
(op here) Tonight I went out and tried something retarded to face my fear, for the last weeks/months I've been seeing this van parked with it's rear door not fully closed, it's been here so long the grass grew to the top of the tire. I thought it would be cool to take a look inside and act as if I were some sort of detective investigating. So that's what I did, it's night time here, I went out, acted as if I were James Bond and looked around me to make sure no one was watching, and I tried to open it (it was actually closed, a rope blocks you from opening the door)

I wasn't going to steal or do anything bad but the thrill of it was fun

>>76736432
join a runclub or ask someone to spot you

I'm very close to giving up on trying to find a long term relationship and just starting to fuck fat girls of Tinder who are the only ones who actually send me likes cause Im getting rejected by every other type of girl both irl and online

>>76736439
you're being a pussy. That's okay. But knowing you're a pussy and still being one isn't. Honestly man see if you can do some sort of martial art. Even if it's adult karate at the local rec center. If you're in some methland, join the local prowrestling gym. Learn to give a punch, take a punch, get out of your comfort zone and realize that humans are humans, all doing the same journey as you (taking the session). You already know what you need to do what tips do you need? Be a man tf

File: Screenshot_20250406_12270(...).jpg (387 KB, 1080x1064)

387 KB JPG

The only regular sexual partner I have these days is married. We have been fucking for about 2 years now and it's been fun to explore some kinky things with each other. We are good friends too so it's a very comfortable situation.
The fact that it's so functional has made me realize that I have pretty severe commitment issues. I like this situation BECAUSE i know it's not going anywhere. I can relax, knowing that I'm not going to be pressured to live together, see each other a certain number of times a week, etc.
I have real commitment issues. Usually this is where someone says, "....but I'm working on them," but I don't want to. I don't like being in a relationship. Yes I've done it before, for years at a time. It can be nice, but i realize that i prefer to be single. I like having people in my life who i enjoy, but I don't like having to revolve my life around someone else.
I wonder if I will always feel this way. I'm almost 40 so I guess this is it. Picrel.

>>76736457
Hey bro, fatties can be loyal and cook good. Have you thought about changing your barber, putting on cologne? Bringing and carrying around a case of beer to a party? Do you care more about you being understood, accepted, and growable with someone, or being around someone that other people find conventionally attractive? Make sure if you're dating a slampig that she's smart tho, cause dumbfatties aren't even worth the fuck.

>>76736462
That's the weird part anon, I've done martial arts, I did boxing then MMA then BJJ, I went boxing and wrestling on the grass with my mates, I took and gave punches but fighting doesn't frighten me, I don't have much stress fighting a guy 30 pounds heavier than me, but the social aspect, being in a room with people, not being able to just leave without them thinking "wtf is this guy doing leaving in the middle of a session", that's scary to me

>>76736464
my brother you have the ability to slut around at your age and that is a blessing. Especially to still pull pussy you feel worth slutting for. Many men get married for taxes, status, and/or responsibility of raising a child. I'm thankful to be married but I'll be damned to think your way isn't the right way for you. People like you are called free spirits.

>>76736486
I'm deadass man, try the prowrestling out. Your local indy promo is going to be oddballs and a lot of them are socially inept too, but train themselves to open their shell under the limelight. The chance to roleplay and develop a personality. Will give you a lot of experience with what does and doesn't work on people, and you can fall back on "it was a work lol got u" when something falls flat. They'll help you learn how to be charismatic. Doing a gig in sales will help too on that front; lots of chances to see what makes people tick and how to act to get the outcome you want. It's not superficial if you are actually trying to better yourself. Legit the best salesmen I know are very genuine people that have developed through conscious practice. Bottom line is it takes multi-sensory social interactions not just typing online

sold house to move to a studio apt in a bigger city so wife can persue career. She's breadwinner. I'm thankful to be employed at a great gym.
ppl here so gaudy. Gotta pretend like saying hello and goodbye are important. don't wanna get to drinking at these expensive bars so I drink at home.
The restrictions have helped me realign with personal improvement. People want me to do things and explore the city. I want to hunker down and focus on being needed before I'm wanted. I won't be caught stinking.
GOD IS GOOD.

File: 1755893059688258.gif (950 KB, 140x140)

950 KB GIF

>>76735458
I hate winter bros. The only thing that keeps me sane is going outside and walking around and looking at animals but now when I come home from work it's already dark. I have nothing to distract myself with so I just sit there ruminating about how much I hate myself. Would help if I had a gf or at least friends to spend time with but no. Nobody knows I exist. If I disappeared the only person who would notice or care is my employer. Don't know how much longer I can spend my life like this.

>>76736566
Checked. I'm already feeling winter depression with the sun going down already and it isn't even 8:00pm.
>hate myself
>employer
Same feeling except I can't even find a fucking job so imagine sitting at home all day to where you hate video games, you hate being on 4chan, you hate LinkedIn, and you hate yourself as you look back and analyze every little detail knowing YOU were the fuckup the entire time and that arguably in the modern world it's too late. That looking at a house is about the same as animals at the zoo who look at the fake environments painted on the walls.

>>76736566
I hear u bro. ppl that not been in that shit dont know how it is. Bitch ass sunrise with a sorry ass sunset. plow ur driveway twice a day, sitting waiting for the car to heat up. utilities going up. ppl not living it each year think it's some fun time they don't know shit. Helped me to spend time extra at the gym; has a sauna and shit. Can you do winter esxclusive things like ski, build a snowman etc? We have to pretend it's fun. Ur a man. Ur a warrior. We need you.

I can track my rebounds to deliberate moments of trauma. Seems like I have to like, harden the fuck up or else I'll never be a healthy weight.

>32 yo khv
>sobertard
>loose skin from dropping 185lbs that will keep me from intimacy
coworker asked why I dont have a hot date this weekend, just told them I am beat from lifting instead of completely dead inside and not bothering with dating. I figure its too late for me at this point

File: screenshot-www.instagram.(...).jpg (670 KB, 1030x1204)

670 KB JPG

>>76735458
I keep thinking about going back to ling ling's massage booth. I went before, and ling ling made me jack myself off, felt really lame after. Jacking aside, it more just depressed me that she pretended to be interested. I'd prefer if she just let me know she thought nothing of me. I want sex, or well sexual contact, but I hate the messiness of a ONS. My sense of pride and loneliness are in a constant battle it seems. I don't feel compatible with anyone, and becoming some kind of whoremonger just makes things worse.

>>76736691
ONS is not messy lmfao wym. U both kno ur fucking and moving on. Only mess is doing an std test after to make sure u don't have calls to make. let your dick run rampant slutboi no bitch is worth hunkering down with

>>76735583
Stop being a bitch and either do a full fasting or full carnivore diet.
>muh blood clots
Take vitamins and iron then.

>>76736691
I remember after I nutted, she left for a little, and I threw on my clothes, and she was like no no I give you more massage in this room. My ego tells me that I was gonna get some action, however, the guilt of what I did already sat in, I lied about having work, and ran out, an oil covered autist. Was I so bad that not even a prostitute would jerk me off, or was I mearly being vetted to see if I was a fed. I'll never know

>>76736775
>the guilt of what I did
Why guilt? Ling ling offered a service and you paid for it. You supported a local business and got a nut in there, too. Enjoy brother

>>76736691
Would be hot if she shlicked her clit while you jerked off bit alas she just wasn't into you.

>>76736824
She put my hand on her fully clothed butt, and then I tried to get some digging action, but she was like no dig. I don't think I'm an ugly guy at all, people tell me I'm handsome even. I guess I was just looking for some kind of sense of warmth in the wrong place.


>>76736784
I like the way you think anon. I remember after, I read a rumor about how those places extort them, and I was like shit am I a rapist. It's pretty retarded how neurotic I got, considering the worst she did was touch muh balls.

>>76736429
shes a proctologist, i let her finger my asshole

>>76735458
I made a little joke and got a few girls in my lab to laugh pretty hard for a while.
It was a small incident a few days ago, but it's stuck with me.

>>76736869
Does she drive a brown Probe?

>>76736566
I hate winter too. I have tinnitus and the still winter atmosphere drives me insane. No birds chirping. No squirrels chittering. No children laughing. Just cold still night air and the lovely sound of ringing inside my head.
I gotta move down south bros, somewhere more temperate year round. It’s the only solution for me.

I'm stressed out. I'm a bit behind in my classes and have a big test in two weeks that will decide the next year of classes.
I'm need to get through the next two weeks, pass my test, and then go out and unwind on Halloween, hopefully meet a girl for the night.

>>76735458
HOW THE FUCK DO I GROW MY CHEST AAAAAAAAAAAAA
I've been stuck at a sub 2pl8 bench for 2 years. Tried replacing flat bench with incline DB press, no change. Did dips for months, no change. Dis flat bench for months, no change. The only way I ever got a heavier bench was doing 5x5 flat bench every single session for months on end while also using creatine, and the moment I got off creatine my strength melted away. My current PR is 185lbs at RPE 10.

>>76736324
Alcohol is a depressant, you are aware right? Good luck tho

I finally reached my old lifting level from before I started a physical job 6 months ago and I believe it's the threshold passed which I can't recover from both work and lifting. I have to ease down the lifting if I want this elbow and wrist pain to heal. Again. At list it didn't get to the shoulder this time. It's bad news: my mood has been deteriorating and I need the physical activity to feel less like shit. Anhedonia is kicking back in and I have no plans whatsoever for anything. I'm pretty sure even if my life was perfect I'd still feel like this because the problem is somewhere outside the scope of my consciousness. I feel more and more detached from and misunderstood by my surroundings. It's all so tiresome.

dumped via text last night. two times now. the session tonight is going to be great aha.

>>76737379
>Alcohol is a depressant, you are aware right?
makes me break laws

>>76737328
Bench 2xweek. Instead of 5x5 sets across fo one top set at 85% of your RM for 3-5 reps. Do the other 4 sets 10-15% lighter than your top set. Increase weight when you manage 5 reps on your top set. Do triceps accesories and some sort of flyes or peck deck machine.

File: big_red.png (471 KB, 1160x836)

471 KB PNG

I'm one of those tards that transfers their phone photos indefinitely. Was looking back at the various weights that I had been in my life and seeing the difference in 180lb, 200, and 220.
In one of the pictures of me I see one of my ex's in the pictures and just sit there and stare for like a minute. It was so jarring to see us so young almost 10 years ago it was like shell-shock.
All these emotions came rushing back since we had an attempted rekindling later on got into some nasty fight and I've had her blocked ever since.
I've moved on twice over now but, seeing a young and stupidly naive version of us was almost charming? I don't like to delete this stuff because denying mementos kind of rubs me the wrong way.

In other news I have now begun hitting 3pl8 squat for reps, and a lad asked me to spot him after he watched me, so that feels cool.

File: 1751123264694050.png (92 KB, 222x215)

92 KB PNG

>at work earlier this week
>one of my coworkers nearly got heatstroke the previous day so I had to switch spots with him
>the conveyor line he was on originally is thinner, faster, and way more dirty than the one I've been on the entire rest of the time I've been working there
>get put on cardboard duty which puts me right at the front
>obviously everything comes in blazing fast and I'm trying to pick all the soggy rotten cardboard out
>missing tons of it because of the speed and because most of it is underneath chunks of mortar and concrete
>guy next to me has to pick up my slack and throw what he gets behind him, which I pick up when the line's not as crowded
>short break comes after two hours
>can hear one of the really funny chill guys I look up to vaguely talking shit about me by joking about how cardboard "isn't that fucking hard to pick out" forgetting I'm in earshot
>same guy comes up after the break and tells me to switch places, putting me all the way at the back to shove everything that isn't concrete or stone into the bin
>can see him not missing a single beat while casually shooting the shit with the other experienced workers
>after five minutes of fucking up because of the sheer tidal wave of shit coming toward me, which the head site supervisor sees, I get put one spot forward and have the line supervisor take over that spot so I'm in charge of lessening the load for him
>that line's supervisor is pretty chill and becomes the first person to have a conversation with me after all these weeks
>can't tell if it's because he's a good dude or just taking pity on me but I learn a thing or two from him regardless
>either way my inferiority complex kicks in because he's younger and has way more life experience than me
>try to relate to him but fail beyond normie vidya
>finish up feeling like a complete loser and paranoid that everyone on that line is silently judging me

>>76735583
Dang, guess this is some perspective

>>76737637
The fuck do you do for work?

>>76738396
He moves cardboard, can't you read? Do you even know what would happen to our economy of the cardboard movers went on strike?

>>76735510
Just go to another gym

>Get back into walking round hilly countryside some ways from my house
>end up with a cold and no strength to lift or train
Everytime I try to increase my cardio things go wrong some way or another, I swear
Asides sitting about all weekend until I'm better playing games, not too bad a week

File: G3cTeSsXAAAxrZS.jpg (188 KB, 1366x2048)

188 KB JPG

>>76735458
I NEED ASIAN PUSSY NOWWWWWWWWWW!!!!! Asian pussy was promised to me 3000 years ago.

My best friend is my lesbian co-worker.

File: crusaderfren.png (1017 KB, 915x758)

1017 KB PNG

Finally met a dream goal of owning land and I have the ability to work on it every day once I'm done wageslaving. The problem is when I have breaks on the weekend or days off I quickly self destruct, binge drink, and eat like a slob.

It's like I can't handle free time and need to have acres of trees to cut down or ponds to dig or a cabin to build and if I don't have something to absolutely demolish myself with I find a vice and go far too hard with it.

It's an incredible problem to have and next week I'll have 5 days to exhaust myself fully with land work but my greatest struggle has been to not ruin myself with free time. Used to smoke immense amounts of weed and since quitting alcohol has taken its place. Used to game heavily but it feels like such a cope for boredom I've given it up.

I need to quit booze, bad food, and go on the 3 mile walks I used to before getting this land when work stress was talking me into fast food and a drunken goon sesh. Prayer and Bible study are equally important but we live in such a vice-centered world it's very difficult to maintain that personal growth with a culture actively enticing you at every corner to fall to sin.

Pray for me brothers. I will pray for you. WAGMI.

>>76738618
my best friend is a woman too i know her entire sex history she’s also attractive

>>76735458
Things are cool. Been seeing a 45 year old woman, 35 year old man myself. She's a pretty serious rock climber and into fitness.
I gotta say I went in kinda just thinking we could have some fun, and we have, but I can feel myself starting to really like her. After I get settled in my new place I'm probably gonna try to see about taking it to the next level.
>>76735837
Hope to never see you again. Take your oath seriously, Jesus miraculously healed my right arm over night after I begged Him after months of agony, and now I will never arm wrestle again.

File: 1641046593461.gif (792 KB, 220x124)

792 KB GIF

>>76735458
Sparking water for me barkeep

>Layed off from professional job few months ago
>Unemployment + good financial position means I've just been.... enjoying it
>No more intrusive thoughts about dumb cunts or old cunts from the dayjob keeping me up at night
>Just reading, hiking, living
>No will to finish up bachelors and get industry certs
>Never want to go back
>Feeling lazy
>Been doing some pro-bono consulting, might be able to make it work but I'm almost 30 and still don't have a house
>Can't figure out if I want to go all in and never go wage slave again or get back in the shackles
Asides that, I deadlifted a new PR without fucking anything up, feeling great brahs.

Can someone please tell me HOW this is possible
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/68xWGrezEfE

>>76739642
Getting married?

>>76739654
He's at least 5 points lower than her and she has 2 inches on him
and also yes

Why the fuck did I say no alcohol for a fucking year for a fucking new years resolution fucking retard six months sober would have been just as good would have gotten all the same pats on the head and good boy points but no had to say a fucking year I'm a god damn fucking retard and alcohol is the only thing that makes this dog shit existence bearable fucking grown ass man having to ground himself because he hasn't learned self control in 37 fucking years fuck this shit 74 fucking days to go god fucking damn it

Girl who friendzoned me said last Sunday she wanted to fuck, that she likes being dominated, and needs to trust me more so she can really "let loose". I know if she wanted to actually fuck we would have already. Not sure what her game is but hopefully she keeps sending me pics in underwear and maybe nudes.

File: 1704992858510528.png (39 KB, 171x182)

39 KB PNG

>so many lasses as friends
>they all see me as their "gay best friend"
>even though they know I'm not gay
Lifts for this feel?

>>76738493
No other 24 / 7 gyms in my area.

>>76739708
neck hangs x F

File: 1760737172796385.jpg (303 KB, 1024x1024)

303 KB JPG

Tweaked my lower back today warming up on deadlifts. Stiff as fuck and hurts pretty good, but Ill be okay. No issues walking and air squats/air deads make it feel better

>>76739762
>break the rope from being a fatass
Does that count as a failure?

What slop snack should I get tonight? A pint of ice cream or a bag of chips and french onion dip?

>>76739763
It happens to the best of us. You’ll be back at it 100% in a month. Keep doing the movements slowly and safely for rehab.

>>76735657
Happy birthday Anon.

>>76739708
Do they at least think you're a top?

gonna book an appointment and get ADHD meds again. I stopped taking them a couple years ago after a few months because they had no effects so I’m gonna try the next one up. I’ve been needing to do this for over a year but just couldn’t muster up the drive to do it

>>76740174
My aderall wasn't doing shit one day, so I tried snorting it and thought I was gonna have a heart attack. There is no way I didn't cause permanent damage.
But I passed my tests so it was worth it.

Why is trying to cut around family members so infuriating?

>you don’t need to lose any more weight
>seriously? you look fine!
>what you’re doing is unhealthy
>sounds like body dysmorphia to me
>whats wrong with my cooking?

The constant nagging combined with the perpetual hunger is doing a number on me. I don’t know how much longer I can do this.

>>76740179
>snorting
Kek. I remember I snorted like 3 or 4 pills in 1 night with the BPDemon I was dating at the time AND drunk on like half a handle of vodka AND was high off of weed. When we fucked that night I has an out of body astral projection experience which was cool until it's 3am in the morning and I was looking at the ceiling practically screaming on the inside for Jesus to let me sleep.

Good times.

>>76736241
You're thinking with 1990s pre hoeflation lenses , even a mid chick today in swimming , your mistake was remaining a loser that didn't make enough money MORE than being a 35yo virgin

>>76739763
Tweaked mine on friday too. It doesn't hurt, just flares a little bit sometimes but it feels stiff. At least I have a reason to skip legs for a week or two. Will try bodyweight back extensions to see if it gets better.

>>76738949
I would try tapering your dopamine down slowly , when an addict gets used to a certain operating level of stimulus , its hard to come down to being just productive and not being a fiend

>>76736241
i feel u dude its so over

>>76736241
if youe'r 10 years into a tech career after finishing cs masters u should be making like 400k total comp and not have to settle for entitled single moms assuming ur in shape at all which on /fit/ i assume

>>76738949
this is my fear on trying to start a business, i have no prob working hard in a structured environment like work or school but when it's just u how do u stay on track and no just waste time posting on 4chan and shit?

>>76737328
Have you tried incline bench?
I think my chest is big and I only do incline bench and OHP.

i have a lump on one pec, it used to be tiny before the pandemic i always thought it was a weird pimple under the skin or something, but after the pandemic it got bigger and now that i got down to rly low body fat it really pops out. my google searches says its prob lipoma or something which is like a harmless fatty deposit which insurance would categories as cosmetic to remove, but could it be a cyst or something? i would go to a doctor right away if i didn't know i'd had it for more than 5 years i think i noticed in like 2018 or something, but back then it wasn't visible i could only feel it. what is /fit/s non-medical advice on this matter? it doesn't bother me at all but it does make me feel self-conscious to wear tight shirts or be photographed with shirt off etc.

File: f624dfd38c2d8da38b35c7886(...).jpg (36 KB, 410x512)

36 KB JPG

I’m getting tired of my girlfriend’s shit, and I don’t know what to do about it.
I swear to god her life is like a sitcom with all the things that go wrong, and I try to support her, but she lashes out so aggressively every time like the world is ending. If I try to tell her things aren’t a big deal, she takes it as an attack, like I’m just supposed to agree and suffer with her over something I think is not a big deal.
She has had all of these genuinely fucked up experiences that gave her trauma and a fucked up relationship with her family and gets so fucking depressed and there’s nothing I can do to help. She refuses to go to therapy because she says it doesn’t work and wants to start cutting. I want to be there for her because I love her, but it is so draining and whenever I try to help it’s like I’m always doing it wrong. She’s always miserable and it’s making me miserable. It makes it harder for me to feel attracted to her. And whenever we fight and I have to explain my perspective on something or I feel like I’m not being heard, she says I always make things about me and I’m being a victim without any irony that she’s doing the same thing.

File: zz top.jpg (153 KB, 1125x1390)

153 KB JPG

>broke two plateaus today
>didn't get mugged on my cardio route

File: crypticman.jpg (122 KB, 1024x1000)

122 KB JPG

>>76740548

this bitch is a BPD demon , I'm literally enrolled in abnormal psych right now - her lashes out like the world is ending / takes it as an attack - could literally be a variation on the diagnostic criteria for a manic episode kek , does this last for a week? at least 4 days? how many years even? This all changes the nature of the advice the therapist would give.

If I had to armchair diagnose without actually knowing specifics - if its "controllable" a, id say it borders on cyclothymic disorder or if uncontrollable a rapid cycling bipolar but that really depends on the nature of the depressive/manic episodes and any other underlying conditions.

There's your therapy bro - free of charge. There's no "fixing" this or hoping it goes away. There's only "managing" it with drugs and I don't know too much to comment on how effective those are. If you value your sanity , just run for the hills. Last case I read about - married couple , wife was like this , woman got on medication - she gained 100lb and became a couch zombie essentially, I can't say the same will happen to you BUT from what little I've already been reading in my notes , textbooks and slides -- if its severe theres not really happy endings for these sorts of people - just bearing it until its unbearable and they think they can fly one day or bet the house on black at the roulette table and you're homeless

if u actually stick with this , keep your money seperate for the love of god , give her an allowance if she can't work

>>76740342
if this was 2015 maybe

>>76735458
Ive lost most of my weight, im gained a noticeable amount of muscle, im getting lasik next week and after that im getting 2 months off of work. This is the last section of my himbomaxxing path. After that, im gonna reopen my dating apps profiles 100% tryhard mode. I gave up on women long ago (ive had a bunch of gfs and hookups and i got severely blackpilled about them). Im aiming to farm as much attention and mature and gilf pussy as i can. Why old ladies? Becausr they are the only ones who are not semi bald obese fucks with hormonal problems and lack of fashion sense. Also, there has been a huge uprising of childless old ladies looking for fun. This is it. Im getting already matches and likes with my disgusting nerd profile, maybe i will get more if i himbomaxx.
>also
I scrolled thru the male section of a local escort site and holy shit, those fuckers are fucking worthless. Im unironically thinking about doing OF or escorting for a considerable price. Maybe i go an extra mile, create social media profiles and recklessly spam followings and links everywhere. We live in a world of degeneracy and i want to take my chance at fucking every single woman that i can. The bar is absolutely low nowadays
>also also
Exes are recklessly hitting on me again, so i must have been doing something well enough

I need a sign that I can stil turn things around at 36 because I honestly feel like killing myself.

>>76735716
>Did working out bring peace to your incel existence?
No, it just helps with some symptoms of mental illness.
At a certain point, you just stop giving a shit.

>>76735458
My wife stopped showing any sexual interest in me for the last 5 or 6 years so I recently moved downstairs and now shes crying wanting me to come to bed. I feel nothing over it. I think the end is near fellas.

Not sure where else to ask this but where the fuck do you meet people as an adult? Just moved city and all the people at my work are settled with kids and never really go out. My hobbies are lifting, biking and vidya so pretty limited chance of meeting people there. Like where do you even meet people beside shitty apps...

>>76740828
>lifting
gym
>biking
biking clubs? events?
>vidya
local arcades or tournaments?

Go to your local library or church too. Even if you're not christian, even churches have pamphlets and things on the notice board for things happening around the city.
When I visited London, I found out about a free jazz concert through this church that no one barely visits.

>>76740686
What is your situation like?

>>76740417
Get it tested, maybe your insurance covers that? I mean it could be a tumor for all you know

>>76740342
In the states maybe, software devs elsewhere are worth jack.

>>76740189
Well, you think they're lying when they say you look fine, but cutting is kind of a body dysmorphia move. Unless you're really fat.

>>76736038
I am in this image and I don't like it

I feel like a horrible profane thing, encroaching upon an uncorrupted garden. I'm married to a wonderful woman but I don't think I deserve it.

File: IMG-1b5144b74ffe3eea42757(...).jpg (129 KB, 900x1600)

129 KB JPG

>>76735583
Damn, dude.

You remind of my friend's mom.
She had 6 autoimmune diseases. It was so heartbreaking seeing her, a healthy 40 something year-old woman turn into a completely atrophied, 80 pound, dying woman.

I still tear up whenever I remember what she told my friend before her passing.
That every day she's able to wake up and open her eyes is a victory, because she gets to see her son and her family one more time.

File: 10920127.jpg (13 KB, 174x177)

13 KB JPG

My relationship with my elder sister is pretty strained right now and I feel like I'm exacerbating it a little bit. Maybe I'm being vengeful but at the same time, from the way I see it, she's also very self-sabotaging.

You guys ever see those posts or meme about how if you open up to a woman in a relationship and she uses that vulnerability against you? Yeah that's her. Except that she's my sister and family. I think from when I was a teen she started becoming like that and it more or less shattered my self-esteem. It took me a decade, ego death, and just generally distancing myself from her to build at least my mental back up.
Ever since I realized and understood how egotistical, immature and short-tempered she is, I've started being very emotionally distant towards her. I can't and don't allow her to know much about what's happening in my life or talk to her about things anymore because if I so much as give her some sense of vulnerability - she'll use that against me in her fit of rage. It has happened more times than I can count. She blames our parents, her friends, exes, extended family, even me for her past failures. Every time she's been confronted she gets irrationally angry she tries to off herself in that rage. Hence, my distance.
But at the same time, I feel like its my responsibility to tell her that the way she is and the way she lives isn't going to help her out in the long run. The only thing that I fear is if I eventually have this serious conversation, she'll get mad and try to jump off the balcony.

>>76741382
That sucks anon, but you're doing the right thing. When a relationship is toxic, no matter if its a girlfriend, friend or family, you should just distance from that.

A lot of people just have uprocessed mental issues and you can't solve it for them but they sure as fuck can transfer them to you. Its unfortunate but its true, until they want to change they won't change.

Maybe you'll talke to her in a couple years and she will be more mature and ready for your advice...or maybe not who knows.

>>76735458
Unathletic dyel here, I've tried to hit the gym in the past but issues in my personal life have always given me an easy out before every being consistent for more than 2 months straight. All I do is bedrot when I'm working my comfy WFH job so to no one's shock, I was so weak that I couldn't do a pull up, chin up, bodyweight squat or even a push up 8 weeks ago.
Today I managed to do 3 chin ups, bodyweight squat with minor assistance due to balancing issues and 3 pushups. They were slow but I'm proud of my progress. I think that I have lost a bunch of fat since my stomach is a lot flatter and the DIY pinch test seems to grab less flab but visually I'm a long way from looking jacked.
Is there an up to date tool I can use to compare my measurements like bicep size with lifters with different experience levels and heights? I've watched videos and read a few blog posts already.
6ft, 85kg, 14 inch biceps seems alright for a complete noob, my weight hasn't changed at all since I'm at maintenance.
Also it's really strange seeing people struggle with much smaller weights than me in some exercises but are physically way more jacked, most are shorter but some aren't. Do I have better "mind muscle connection"? It seems bullshit, I think they're just not comfortable going anywhere near their 1 rep max for some reason. Maybe I have better neural adaptations? Idk.

>>76735458
Dealing with my wife's mother and her dementia for the last three years has drained my soul. Finally put the mother in a home earlier this year, but the wife is still anxious and grumpy all the time. I go to work and deal with sociopath women all day and then come home to a dirty house and a wife grumpy over some small matter. Lately I feel she is picking fights with me and shit talking me to her friends. They seem to give me that look now when we hang out. Apparently I said something that pissed her off in front of them the other day and I'm supposed to be a mind reader and know what it is. I thought moving MIL would make things much better and it was initially, but that hasn't been the case lately. Just tired and don't know what to do.

>>76741382
My elder sister is literally fucking crazy and fucked me up.

I broke up with my ex gf some months ago because she did some things i didn't like and i blocked her everywhere and ghosted.

I made the mistake of bringing her back in the day for lunch with my family and like everytime my fucking sister hang around with her and they exchanged instagrams. i didn't give it much attention and some months later when i blocked her my sister was liking her posts and acted like i didn't know anything.

Anyway 4 months later to today we were eating dinner with family at a restaurant and my sister had more wine that usual. a qt passed by and my mom knew her mom and they stopped to say hi and i started talking with the qt and got her instagram after 5 mins then they left.

My sister after this goes:
>your ex was way better
>well she is my ex
>well you made a mistake for leaving her
>and how the f do you know why i left her
>because we talked on the phone with annonette
>wtf?
>yeah you blocked her everywhere and she couldn't reach you, you are harsh and misogynist

After that i lost it and i told her that you betrayed the family because you are talking with an ex instead of getting on my side. I told her that it was a relationship that was harmful to me and you choose her side, then i told her imagine if i hanged out with all the chads that fucked u. then she shut the fuck up and my dad started screaming.

Its over

>>76741413
>A lot of people just have uprocessed mental issues and you can't solve it for them but they sure as fuck can transfer them to you. Its unfortunate but its true, until they want to change they won't change.
That's true. Honestly she has this mentality where she leaves the onus of her change on others. My parents and me to be exact. Constantly seeking validation and expecting us to temper her mood when she gets pissed. I've told her before also that its not our responsibility to calm her down whenever she feels slighted and that she's in control not us. People can piss you off but its upto the person to react. I still remember she screamed at me in rage when I was a teen and she in her mid 20s for not being "the bigger person" and "more mature".

>>76741419
That's fucked up. Must've been irritating as fuck trying to make sense of her reasoning behind that.
I was also in a similar situation. My sister still follows my ex on instagram.When my ex and I broke up we still sort of talked for a moment. It was my first hard break up so I was still trying to navigate my emotions. My sister saw us texting and she insulted me for it. Rather than help her brother navigate through something like this, I was berated for being vulnerable at that moment.

>>76740794
I am genuinely curious as to how it got to this point. How long have you been married? Is she going through menopause? Did you use to have good sex?

>>76740828

I realized I needed to get out more earlier this year (I'm a retarded shut in), so I downloaded the Meetup app and have been going to random events. First couple were awkward (ie. I discovered I'm god awful at Karaoke) but I've now met people that have invited me to birthday partys, house parties, bar crawls, etc and have some form of social circle for the first time. You got to remember anon there are lots of other lonely people out there too in your same boat.

>>76741772
Used to have great sex. There's a lot at play. It started after she hopped on birth control. The sex tapered off pretty quick and she just showed little to no interest. I tried doing other things to get stuff going and she didn't respond to them in the way I was hoping. I started building resentment like a mother fucker. We talked about the issue multiple times but nothing has changed and it makes me even more resentful, but now I'm to the point of apathy.

I've told her to get her IUD taken out but she's just lazy and hasn't set up the appointment, which also pisses me off. I'm just tired of her shit desu brother. No action of hers tells me she gives a shit about me outside of a comfort type of companion, not a lover.

>>76735458
Looks like another weekend spent cockblocked by the kids, boys. I love these little shits, but we're going to be so fucking old by the time they leave home.

Ah, who am I kidding. The real issue is the wife that feels no lust for me or any particular urge to put my needs on her list of priorities. I get the lack of lust thing, we're both fatter and older than we used to be, although she's arguably slid farther than I have and I'd still eat her for every meal of the day.

The prioritization thing though, man, that's gonna break me. Had a talk about it recently and I could tell she was just internally rolling her eyes.

>>76738987
>serious rock climber
WHORE. FUCKING WHORE.
I promise you she has 3 other dudes she is actively fucking and at some point will ask for an open relationship even if your dick game is good.
>t. former rock climber

>>76740137
>>76740304
Feeling a lot better today
Fuck it we ball (I will do lightweight DB rdl's to grease the groove)

>>76735657
Happy birthday pops
I turn 30 next week

>>76737379
>depressants make you depressed!
You're retarded, you are aware right?

>>76736367
Flew too close to the sun. She had to be carried up the stairs and was too tired to do any foreplay. Only did one position before she got off and rolled over to go to sleep. I was pretty devasted; I should have cut her off at 4 instead of 6. But while spooning her, I figured I might as well still play with her body. Was working her clit and she told me to go lower. So then I started to finger her. And then she grabbed my hand, turned into me, and said, no, lower, and took my finger and inserted into her asshole. Proceeded to make out and finger her ass for a couple minutes until she cut me off because she's a tease.
Next weekend I will pivot to prosecco or go back to long islands

>>76741898
>>76737379
Common misconception
Depressants are not called that because they make people depressed. It's because they depress (read: surpress) central nervous system activity, which is the opposite of what stimulants do. There's still plenty of dopaminergic/sometimes serotonergic release going on and therefore pleasure/euphoria.

Depressed people taking depressants are not depressed because they are taking depressants; rather they are depressed beforehand and ineffectively self-medicating with depressants as a bandaid solution instead of treating the underlying root cause of the issue. This is the same for any drug, including stimulants. If you engage in escapism with any substance, depressant or not, you are setting yourself up for failure. Whether you think a chemical imbalance is the root cause or not is a hot topic of debate, but you probably already knew that.

>t. former 420chan drug autist

File: 1737647775151220.png (1.44 MB, 1200x800)

1.44 MB PNG

>>76735458
His science is really shabby, but I welcome the endorphin release.
My stomach can't handle eating spice every day, so this will do in its place.
It made my life less miserable when I do WHM every morning.

>>76735716
Sort of. It's enjoyable as a hobby and makes me feel superior to non lifters, which makes the pain from lifelong celibacy bearable.

>>76741417
Sounds hellish. Do you have children?

>>76741793
It's the birth control, 10000%. Make the appointment for her. I have sad personal experience with this. The synthetic hormones in IUDs, pills etc hijack her whole body, including emotions. Get her off of it ASAP. Take the lead on this, don't wait for her because she is under the control of the IUD. Save your wife, anon. Please

>>76741916
Very good. She wants it, but doesn't want to admit it. You have to slowly draw it out of her and let her go along with it like it's your idea. I look forward to your updates.

>>76735458
I’ve not done shit all weekend. I have a lot of stuff to get done at work this week and only 8 hours left of weekend before bed time. Idk why I can’t just do the stuff. All I have for today is
>vacuum -10 mins
>clean kitchen - 10 mins
>spot clean bathroom -5 mins
>clean room -10 mins
>organize room -10 mins
>install shelf in shower -15 mins
That’s an hour of cleaning
>plan apartment improvements / decor
Call that 30 mins. I’ve already found my paint colors.
>maybe go get said paint
Call that 2 hours
>buy new silverware and plates/bowls and a pot
20 mins to find and buy online
>lift
45 mins
>shop for some furniture
Doesn’t even have to be completed just have to spend some time looking
Not even half the remainder of my day can get all this shit done. I’ve been up for 7 hours for fucks sake. I’ve jacked off and played video games all day so far. All weekend other than some laundry.

File: seinfeld george thinking.jpg (251 KB, 1432x1076)

251 KB JPG

>35
>Haven't dated in years (just been focusing on myself and work)
>Decide to try dating
>No friends anymore
>No Social life
>No matches on dating apps
Well fuck, what do i do?

>>76742244
Make friends first.

>>76742244
>>76742261
Seconded on the advice to make friends. That way any romantic prospects will be met through mutual friends so if your like the friends, they're already screened and maybe not psycho. Online dating is a total shitshow and you might wind up with an actual crazy person

>>76742261
>>76742281
>Make friends
That's the issue. I have some work buddies, but they all have wives and kids etc so they aren't free on weekends for going out. Guess i'll just stalk women in the supermarket until one talks to me...........

>>76742302
No need to be like that.
You have many ways to make friends, be it spiritually or through hobbies. Just remember that YOU need to show up and put in the effort also.

>>76735458
Turning 29 next month

Have a decent paying job with a good amount of money for someone my age and yet all I can really think about is how much more I need. I should be celebrating as much as my youth as I have left but money is always on my damn mind. Both my parents were lower middle class and I just want to be rich in my life so I can feel accomplished that I made it to the top from nothing. Its especially more important now that the economy is going into the shitter while the cost of living is so fucking bad for everyone

>>76742349
Nothing wrong with that man, money is king and you need to get as much of it as you can.

>>76742068
no children. on second marriage already. don't really want to divorce but sometimes it crosses my mind ever since she got blackout drunk and accused me of things I didn't do and asked for a divorce - she did this twice in the last year. Her friends think we have a great relationship from the outside but they don't see the daily babying I have to do with her to manage her mood swings.

>>76742349
Hey man I wanna display how different things could be. Do not misunderstand me, keep that desire and drive to do even better because in all reality you are not done yet not even close. But you also shouldn’t feel like shit about where you are.
I’m going to be 30 in a couple months. I work a dead end minimum wage job. The only real accomplishment I have made in my adult life is moving out and even that isn’t what it should be because the apartment is owned by a family member so my rent is low; I wouldn’t have been able to move out otherwise. My previous career route failed. The only job I’ve had making over $50k was in a startup which closed in 2021 and I had to work 60 hrs just to make what I was.
I’m now at the point my only real goal is to join the navy in hopes that I can A.) feel as though I actually accomplished some shit and B.) get a skill set I can market back into the civilian world for a livable wage actually doing some shit I find remotely interesting with some form of growth to be made.
I have always been the first person to suggest people do NOT go military. That’s where I am at. I’m desperate for improvement now. Going back to school isn’t an option in my circumstances. I have no friends, no gf. My plan is join, go to medical over every single paper cut and bruise, hope that gets me some extra income via disability, hope that the experience gets me a job making a good (comfortable) amount of money where I can grow, and THEN worry about friends and women


This is on top of the same realizations as you have. You are one step ahead of me while being a year younger. You are in a position to make that growth man. You can emotionally suck your bosses off and hope that gets you promoted (take them out for lunch discuss the possibility, you gotta politic it like that), you can job hop to a new company for a higher pay every 18 months, etc

>>76742349
Scarcity mindset, an adopted idea that isn't good for you. I don't have the cure, though. Maybe look up, actually count, how much money you need to achieve the lifestyle you want.

>>76742152
This, hormonal birth control can have some crazy effects on people. I dated a girl for 1.5 years and it was a fantastic relationship. I thought she was the one, all that good stuff-- she gets on hormonal BC, the implant, and literally within 2 weeks our relationship went down in a ball of fire and I felt completely blindsided. It fucking sucked.
Your relationship sounds like it's been going on long enough that it's worth trying to salvage- have a serious talk with her about getting the IUD out and also go to couple's therapy. I'd bet my paycheck that it helps.

File: G12KfWPakAA3UYC.jpg (235 KB, 1240x1890)

235 KB JPG

I'm tired of just looking at pictures of pretty/hot asian ladies.
I'm jacked, lean-ish (around 17% bodyfat if I had to guess, so semi-visible abs and some definition still left on my back) and make decent money. How do I make it on dating apps?
Obstacles are: I don't take pictures of myself ever, haven't used any social media since 2016 and the last time I had anything close to a girlfriend I was in middle school.

Slayers of /fit/, help a brother out and I'll reward you with pics from my azn booty folder.

>go running early every morning before work
>gf sleeps until the afternoon every day
>perfect opportunity to get some strange any day of the week
>have no problems talking to women
>no women
>not a chubby milf, aged cougar, not even a strung out addict in sight let alone fit runner chicks
why even live

>>76735583
do your conditions have a cure or are you stuck treating it forever?

>>76742163
Oh no, she hates it. She just tolerates it because she knows I like it. But this was a pleasant anomaly, she has no memory of it happening. She only remembered being carried up stairs and nothing that followed.
I have no intention of fucking her ass, just like playing with it. However, I just turned 34 and she said "6 more years until you get to fuck my ass." Uh, what? Why's that? "I just feel like that's something you do when you turn 40."
I'll update you.

>>76742627
>Slayers of /fit/
>slayers
>/fit/
lol
lmao

File: file.webm (1.87 MB, 1280x720)

1.87 MB WEBM

I'm 24 and a complete failure to launch

Need to get strong physically so I can be strong mentally. But that's just if I want to make salvage of what's left of my life.

File: tony montana.jpg (22 KB, 436x365)

22 KB JPG

I'm lonely, and I need a job to meet people, but I hate the idea of working because it means I'll have to be around people, and I'll be too tired to do anything when I get home. Every time I leave the house I always come back pissed because of other people. If I could just stay in my house forever without ever feeling lonely, I would. What do I even do?

>>76735583
We're all dying, anon. It's just coming for some of us sooner than the rest. Were I able to lend you a day, I would but I cannot. So I am just here to say I'm honored to share this existence with someone as strong as you. You know your time is about up and yet, you persist. If anyone has earned apathy and nihilism, it is you, yet you don't off yourself. Every moment you are here is a blessing to the rest us, thank you, anon.

File: 1517357986713.jpg (25 KB, 480x358)

25 KB JPG

>>76738551
I share your pain, my brother...

I'll just have a water because even if I had a drink, these stories always sober me up. So why bother drinking? Might as well never start. Thanks for being here anons.

>>76742723
There is no failure to launch. That's a thing women say. For your entire life you are in a perpetual state of launching.

>>76742655
My wife clearly isn't interested in anal, so much so that's said so in conversation a couple of times and outright said no the one time I plain ol' asked for it. She never seems to say no to a finger or, most recently, a small vibrator up her ass while I'm munching on her pussy, though. I wish I could figure out what alignment of the planets I have to manufacture to get my dick in that butthole.

>>76742806
Is she interested and excited to have sex with you? Meaning, does she rock her hips with you to get the correct rhythm, does she grope you when you're on her, does she engage with more than just her voice? Does she lock eyes?

If so, then you have a you problem. Your problem is that you need more. STOP NEEDING MORE! If she's into you, she'll either open up to experimenting more or she'll shut down. Just stop needing her to do more, nothing makes women want to do less with you than you NEEDING them to. I wish I had your "problems" you gigantic baby (assuming she isn't Into you...if she isn't, RIP, sorry brother it's going to hurt in the heart a lot more from here)

i started working on my diet a couple of weeks ago, im down 5 pounds now, but i keep fighting myself on if i should force myself to wake up at 6am in the morning to go to the gym, or wait until my diet is more solidified before going first

>>76743006
Yes, she enjoys sex with me. Yes, she participates - a little starfishy sometimes, but mostly a happily engaged participant. That's never been the issue.

And I can't not need more. It's difficult to put into words just much lust I have for every inch of her body. On a deep, primal level I've got an all consuming craving to touch, taste, and fuck every part of her, and thus far I'm only 1 for 3 of that on her ass.

Feeling kinda down. Ive been lifting for almost 6 months now and although my numbers have been going up and theres no doubt of that, my body, more specifically my torso, still looks skinnyfat. Im thinking of adding swimming to my week to speedrun changes but Im scared it will be overkill and have my shoulders snapped like a mong

>>76743012
Go lift now. There is no perfect moment

>>76735458
Smart enough to be miserable, not smart enough to make use of intellect. Smart enough to be miserable enough to want to die but still smart enough to know it isn’t suicide I want it’s an escape or a change.
Nothings how I thought it would be. Nothing seems to work out well for me. I can’t tell if I’m just bay shit insane or if I genuinely keep having shitty luck with other people. The same kind of luck I have with goals I set out for myself. Nothing and nothing and nothing and then finally something lands and maybe it’s nice for a short while then BOOM it’s all shit and falls apart and I tear it to shreds like a child having a tantrum. I wasn’t always like this.

>>76742655
Nah she's just acting like she doesn't want it because she doesn't want you to think she's a strumpet. In her inebriated state, she showed her true desires. She wants to wanted by you. You're on the right track.

>>76742806
Ditto for you. Next time you're eating her out, just stick a lil tongue down there. Let her know that you crave every inch of her, exactly what you wrote in >>76743033
. Any woman will want to hear that.

>>76743033
>On a deep, primal level I've got an all consuming craving to touch, taste, and fuck every part of her
Well, she is your wife so it makes sense. Let me clarify myself, "don't need it" doesn't mean you don't want it...it means that you can live without it. If you're too "needy" she won't give it up, but it is OK to want it if she offers it. In other words, chill man, all in due time. You're probably making that time longer by wanting it so bad.

File: Screenshot_20251019_18572(...).jpg (593 KB, 1080x1293)

593 KB JPG

I'll take a stiff Mojito

>got fired from the position I got promoted to a few weeks ago lmao
>got my weight down to 180
>went camping with my friends in an abandoned mansion on an abandoned island and made a podcast there with them

>>76743118
>any woman will want to hear that
I've been telling her things like that for 16 years - if she doesn't believe it yet, she never will. It does still get her wet to hear it if she's been drinking some though.

As for the surprise ass-tongue relations, I think you're right. Sometime when I'm down there and she seems tolerably clean I just need to go for it.

She's not going to be into it if she gets a choice. I can see it now - bring a little vibrator along next time, start out with that in her while licking the clit, then switch it so she's distracted by the vibe on her clit and I'm ostensibly just licking around. Oops, that was a little low, hmm? Well, we're here now...

Anyway, now I'm just writing smut.

>>76743168
Hoo boy, have I done my best to keep a lid on the "need" part, but it's been too long. I honestly think I just need to manufacture situations where the yes and no of it aren't her responsibility.

>>76736506
you're telling this guy to become a prowrestler. are you retarded? One too many blows to your head hurr durr

>>76740794
just beat off

>>76742244
I've got no easy answer for you.

Unfortunately most women have an inflated sense of worth and are gravitating towards the same guys

You can improve your odds with

Having better (and multiple) pictures in your profile

If you have pictures of you fishing remove them
shirtless photo (unless you're ripped) remove it
photo of you drinking/smoking remove it

if you have some hobbies get photos of you doing those things,

If you don't have hobbies you should spend some money and travel out of state/country and post pictures of that,
Women are *really* into travelling, by showing those pics you signal to them 1) you like it as well 2) you have the financial means to do so


Have a few photos in there dressed better than casual (no jeans, no sneakers, no hoodie etc)

Volunteer in your community/be active in it, it will generally be a positive signal to women you care about others besides yourself

pick up some reading, start somewhere, it would signal to women you don't have the same brainrot as the people that play video games all day
do not put in your profile you're into video games, its a big turn off to women


If you are liberal thats a positive, if you're a conservative - keep that shit to yourself , in your pics, in your profile, and during the first few dates.

>>76741382
man, fuck your sister

>>76735458
>30yo
>On dating apps
>Still get matches like it's nothing
>Still get women saying things like, "Will you be my Superman?" (my nickname has always been Clark Kent)
>Feel nothing. 90% of them don't even have a bio written out for me to engage with
>The ones that reach out first are immediately put off by my autism and/or were fishing for compliments
I wish I knew where to meet women as easily as apps but they are all I've known since 2016/7

>>76740615
>Using - excessively
Nice AI prompt, faggot.

>>76739028
>No more intrusive thoughts about dumb cunts or old cunts from the dayjob keeping me up at night
>Those nights where you have dreams about your job and what needs to be done

>Can't figure out if I want to go all in and never go wage slave again or get back in the shackles
Same. I am at a point I can't stand not making money but have nothing to worry about for another 1.5 years. I am half tempted to put the shackles of blue collar work and just go at my own pace.
>You can crack the whip all you want, foreman, I'm not killing myself any harder than this.
>Oh you want me to come in on Saturday? I will for 2 hours. Maybe 3 if I'm enjoying a good conversation. After that I'm out and you can go fuck yourself. Tell the Gen X retards running the show to do a better job than their shitty fathers.

>>76735999
Alcohol basically blacked out 6 years of my life like they never existed. Now I'm age 38 and getting back to actually having memories

File: Screenshot_20241229_00181(...).jpg (311 KB, 732x762)

311 KB JPG

>>76743361
>Anyway, now I'm just writing smut

This is reminding me of the anon who was on a quest to piss on his girlfriend and chronicled it here for us. He was eventually successful and it was great. I wish I had taken screenshots

File: IMG_4568.jpg (160 KB, 1080x1350)

160 KB JPG

>broke up with gf
>good terms but had too many differences
>she wants a ring and no kids
>i want kids and not prepared for marriage right now
it’s sad but oddly peaceful. idk bros. she is a good woman.

>>76743797
Having kids out of wedlock is how we got to where we are today. You are part of the problem.

Bros, I probably have weird body dysmorphia and some kind of eating disorder. I get pretty extreme IBS before running which I use to my advantage to empty myself out and "make weight". I always get an extreme fear of failing my run and it makes my nervous. I always run one mile for the max speed my treadmill goes (10 mph so a 6 min mile) then catch my breath for 5 minutes and run for 60-90 minutes after which is the main weight killer. I think I overate tonight though. I tend to run heavy and put on a lot of sweat clothes to really drain myself and force sweating during my running. I also chew gum and spit on a rag to lower my body weight as well via dehydration. I have to run tomorrow as part of my schedule. Do I run tonight and maybe even do some self induced vomiting to keep my weight under control tonight? I don't know if I can do my routine tomorrow if I run tonight but I doubt I can get back to ideal weight tomorrow even after a full day of defecating from the IBS.

For context I'm 5'09" and my goal is to never be over 125 lbs. My ideal is to be 115-116 lbs. The most weight I have ever lost in one day is 9.2 lbs through a combination of IBS, sweating, and spitting. I have at times used diuretics.

For years I have had a diet where almost every day of the year I only eat one meal a day and only after 6:00 PM and try to cut myself off from everything at 9:00. I also do not drink anything including water until after my workout which I make sure to always have done by 5:00 PM-6:00 PM. I regularly weight myself 4-5 times per day.

>>76743802
I mean I want kids eventually but also don’t have the means to move out and start a family in the next year. We are both 25 for the record.

>>76743797
>she no kids
>i want kids
>she is a good woman
maybe, but she's not your woman. you're both wasting each other's time

>>76743739
Sounds like a fucking hero.

Piss-Anon, if you're out there, tell us we're all going to make it (to a point where a woman will let us do all the weird shit we want to her body)!

>>76743842
Don't ring it if the life goals aren't compatible. Will regret.

>>76735458
My cock is huge. It’s a cervix annihilator.

File: 7D33A2D3-DA73-4C97-BF79-B(...).jpg (236 KB, 925x778)

236 KB JPG

>>76743802
Married Cuckold cope

>>76742755
Give it 2 years and ai will trick you out of your loneliness. It already would, if you're open to it.

>>76743082
Do a 3 day fast. It'll make you look lean for that third day.

She didn't respond at all to my texts and socials are blocked, guess my number might be too. Maybe this is good and a sign.

File: IMG_0170.jpg (91 KB, 1290x986)

91 KB JPG

I haven’t tipped my delivery driver in over 400 deliveries praise this land and it’s king

>>76735588
Sorry to hear that atom

>>76735661
Sounds like you need more chaos man

I'm 25 and have never been on a date
I have a career, my own place, a truck, pretty fit, decent investments and savings, but I've never even tried dating. I get lonely sometimes and severely touch starved other times, but I don't seem to want it badly enough to change my ways.

>>76744056
How's your personality though?

>>76741872
Mine is getting better by the day too. Gonna hit back ang legs on wednesday (carefully this time, under the discomfort or pain treshold) and we'll see.

>have friends Mark and Twain
>Mark comes with me to Twain and there's Twain's friend group
>Mark gets drunk and starts talking shit to me
>Both are years old friends
>Can't reason
>Go up to Twain and tell him to get Mark to GTFO since it's his house and I don't care enough to make a bigger mess
>Eventually happens
>The next day (as I predicted) apperantly I can't hang out at Twain's place anymore (as he told me) because his friend group lost respect because I didn't beat up Mark
>Also, since I came with Mark they think I'm retarded because he acted retarded despite me putting a clear distance and wanting nothing to do with his shit
I love socialising so much! Where are all the normal people at. Now my entire friend group got torpedoed.

>>76745530
lmao

>>76745530
Gay. Not you, the entire situation tho and the way Twain doesn’t wanna have your back. I’m sure you could have kicked marks ass, but that’s not the point. You’re what, mid 20s? We’re getting too old to “fight” to prove some kind of machismo bullshit. What a bunch of fags.
>even if accepted
They’ll just assume you can be disrespected in all various ways.
>friend group torpedoed
Yeah it’s retarded. This is normie culture man. Guarantee if you fought it would have still been an issue. You’d be the unhinged asshole who no one likes.


Look into the book The Prince. Study Machiavellianism. Take the break from Twain.

>>76745596
>Twain doesn’t wanna have your back
Took him too long to get Mark out of the house, and didn't seem to have put the good word out for me. You're right.
>I’m sure you could have kicked marks ass
Too petty to fight. No girlfriend there or something where I'd have to save face. Anyone that fights over this bullshit and is honest about doing so would have several face surgeries by now.
>You’re what, mid 20s
21. Already feel too old for it.
>They’ll just assume you can be disrespected in all various ways.
Yup.
>Guarantee if you fought it would have still been an issue
Yes, I doubly didn't want to do any shit because I'd put Twain into a mess for reasons I won't mention xD. And everyone in the room knew it. So I've been playing the good guy here.
>Look into the book The Prince. Study Machiavellianism. Take the break from Twain.
I'm taking a break from all of them. I've read into the books but I'll read into them again.
Basically, Mark wanted to uplift himself to impress the girls there (retard). and Twain is too pussy or doesn't care to go against the herd and put in a good word for me. That's how I see it.

Nice to see some input from you guys. I had to get it off my chest. Guess I should be more careful about who I associate with. Need to get some new friends.

>>76745624
And I am almost immune to snapping, but it also didn't feel good being insulted for long amount of time so I'm gonna hit the weights and commit more to discipline to make it clear to myself I'm not the person they consider me to be. Despite me not being an animal no one likes being singled out like this.

>>76743653
I'm not gay

>>76745735
>We talked about the issue multiple times but nothing has changed
>I'm not gay

>>76735458
date fell through at the last minute on saturday. she was so hot but far away. got another girl's number, but she's a single mom. idek man, I'm getting tired. my girl and I broke up almost 2 months ago & I'm getting weird cuz of lack of sex.

>>76742261
what do you do when all your friends are fucking losers? I'm the only one I know who works out. I pretty much work out and then abuse alcohol and cigs because I'm bored

File: just for fucks sake.gif (2.37 MB, 311x263)

2.37 MB GIF

>Fallen for a girl in work
>We get along amazingly
>Every conversation just feels natural
>She actively seeks me out in work to talk to me
>She's engaged
OF COURSE SHE IS. Fuck my life. I guess i'm staying single forever.

>>76745839
Casino night at work is going to be amazing for you. It'll take another year after that, but it's all going to work out in the end.

>>76745858
kek if only life was like a sitcom..... instead she will get married and have kids and i will die alone.

>>76745530
this sounds like a script to a shitty 90s highschool tv show

File: imagine being normal.jpg (1.33 MB, 1080x2400)

1.33 MB JPG

>>76735583
Today, I shall lift for you. I am terribly sorry for your loss.

>>76745747
I don't touch man dick for pleasure. Sorry

>>76745910
Just daily life in the Slavlands where everyone is hungry for each other's blood.

>>76743712
Yyyyep. Last job was a shit show and for no reason, the CEO knew I handled a lot of personnel stuff on the side (I should not have had any reason to), had a heart to heart with her and brought up important numbers and costs due to incompetent boomer mgmt and.... nothing happened. It was easier to let the boomer destroy the business unit then to effect any kind of real change. Women at all levels of mgmt also had a deleterious effect. We only had a few gen x manager level people, only one was cool and liked, and everyone else engaged in making a shit mire because they took the director's boomer ramblings to heart.

On another note, is a resume gap a big deal? Job market is complete ass for tech, I'm okay as I mentioned but if I do have to snag a new job I don't want sneering HR cunts going "UHHHHHHH so you didn't work for THREE MONTHS??? MIND EXPLAINING THAT???"

>>76745929
>for pleasure
Why did you add this?

>>76746338
>I don't want sneering HR cunts going "UHHHHHHH so you didn't work for THREE MONTHS??? MIND EXPLAINING THAT???"
They do ask but at this point I'm so bitter I just tell them:
>The employment rate in 2025 is worse than it was in the 2008 recession
>In June this year alone there were 14k new jobs and 1 million layoffs
>And that 14k is assuming we leave out the fact that 40% of job postings are fake
>Basically this job market sucks
I simply don't care. I'm not playing corporate nonsense. You want to? Cool. I hope you remember this conversation if and/or when you lose your job. It's coming, you HR roastie. Give it another year or 2 and your witch coven you set up for yourself will face trickledown layoff-nomics.

>>76742760
This. Great words

I have the hots for my mother in law. She doesn't know about it and would probably spank me if she did. I told my gf last night when I was drunk and she's making fun of me. I would've expected her to get angry or upset or whatever but I think she took it as a compliment. She inherited the shape so it figures I guess.
Anyways how do I fuck her.

>>76740548
whatever you do, do NOT let her drag you down with her. So many things in life, your job/boss/friends/family/etc SO MANY Things will try to drag you down to their shitty standards. you must be a bulwark .

>t. me trying to get fit and fat fuck friends and job keep trying to destroy

>>76741415
life isnt about maintaining the "perfect path". its about getting knocked down and getting back up right away.

EVERYBODY gets knocked down. EVERYBODY veers off the course. the only separation between winners and losers is how quickly you can jump back on the saddle.

File: 1736356314068021.jpg (105 KB, 971x414)

105 KB JPG

>>76735510
Invest in noise canceling earphones or headphones.
>>76738949
>binge drink, and eat like a slob.
Why do you buy alcoholic drinks and easily consumable food?
>but
If you do not immediately throw them away and don't quit cold turkey, you deserve all the future suffering you will get. You will never make it, I can already tell.

>>76735661
Many women wil give a guy a chance when asked out if she is even remotely interested. If you are able to strike up a conversation and ask her out in a way that leaves an impression her attraction to you might change. Give it a chance anon, whatever happens it will be a significant learning experience for you

Found out this weekend that my wife cheated on me. We were having some trouble in our marriage but I didn't think it was this bad. And of course it was the guy I was told not to worry about. Haven't slept in 48 hours, met with a lawyer at lunch time today, but it hurts. Why even lift

>>76735458
Intrusive thoughts
>Stuck working at parent's shop because finances are relatively tight despite a fair enough cushion
>I'm able to get a tech support job that pays way more but my mom's condition is that she takes over my shifts even if that means she's at the shop for +10 hours every day, no break
>Both parents already getting a bit too old, got however many years on the horizon to try and get a good enough income and minimized expenses before they choose to retire
>Shop isn't busy enough to convince my mom to hire a new cashier, keeping me in this limbo
>All of that is supporting my college and I have fitness obligations to maintain
>Can't correct my little brother without fear of being marked for doom by false allegations, annoying as shit in the form of being loud and makes me lose sleep at night when he decides to rudely stay up past his bedtime
>General cynicism at the world, it's hard to find someone worth trusting at all
Hope
>I'm able to make it to plans for next Fri and Sat, a movie and some old friends
>Might be able to break out of the loop if I can get get my mitts on compensated tutoring and scholarships to make a buck despite being essentially locked out of getting a job now
>Mom's arranging to let me live on my own in one of her apartment rooms in the complex she owns under the condition I focus on school, still working at the family shop
>Steadily burning off pounds and getting back under 192lbs after spending 6 months longer than I should've at +220lbs

>>76746649
>MIL
>gf

>>76747227
At least you're doing the self-respecting thing and leaving her.

>>76747397
no, that would be murdering the other man

>>76747402
Woman moment.

>>76746338
>"UHHHHHHH so you didn't work for THREE MONTHS??? MIND EXPLAINING THAT???"

"I had a family member who needed care after surgery" or "I was taking care of my elderly parent for a few months."
You don't have to get into details; toy shouldn't actually. You could imply that it was health, or maybe that they needed help with their property or something. Just wrap it up with "Thankfully I was in a position to live on savings while I took care of them. Things are much better now, thanks."

Or

"I decided to take some time for myself before starting a new job. I did some travelling and finished a few things around the house, and now i feel refreshed and ready to dive into a new job."

Whatever you say, look them in the eye and say it confidently. There's no law that says you have to work all the time. Make them tell you why they have a problem with it. If you act ashamed, you're doing it for them. Also both of these imply that you are a responsible person who has savings to live on and isn't desperate for this job.

Chat, I'm this close to just frauding or outright stopping lifting. I genuinely do not enjoy any of the motions in powerlifting needed to build strength. I can't center my core enough to squat consistently in sets, I'm not making progress on bench, and every time I do deadlift I feel like I'm gonna hurt myself. I genuinely hate doing this. If my gym had leg presses and whatnot, I wouldn't do any of this shit. Moreover, there's so much bullshit online about how strong or enduring people are. There's no fucking way the average guy is benching 1-plate or squatting their body weight. Not a god damn chance. Fuck this, fuck that, fuck everything.

Vodka orange juice with pulp.

>>76747613
I quit benching today. I'm in such a black, bitter mood today. Life is so fucking stupid. Sitting cable pulls and I'm going the fuck home.

>>76747638
>>76747613
You're getting filtered by a 1 plate bench?
How much do you weigh?

>>76747613
>Chat
You deserve to be weak

File: 99b983892094b5c6d2fc3736e(...).jpg (31 KB, 665x537)

31 KB JPG

is it normal to only feel good when i'm lifting weights and never any time else?

File: 1517484625302.jpg (74 KB, 801x754)

74 KB JPG

I don't wanna get a job. I want a japanese gf and enough money to not need to work.

>>76745837
Either you make new friends or try to convince your friends to have a healthier lifestyle.
For the latter, in my experience, you kinda have to ease them into it. You can't tell them to just hit the gym, they'll be very resistant towards it. Find a activity adjacent to having your body moving around, i.e. sports, hiking,etc.

>>76747662
I'm 6'1.6", and for most of my life was around 165. I'm 175 naked, now. I spent like 3 and a half years laying in bed for over 23 and half hours a day. I eventually spent 100 days running, and then another 100 days going to the gym. Then, I got a temporary job and lost gym progress. I could do 1-plate, but fell below to 35 plates for a full set. Even now, I genuinely struggle. I can't reliably squat a plate for 3 full sets. I can deadlift 270, once.
>>76747676
I'll kill you and your whole family because I'm stupid and have nothing to live for. Fuck you, retard.

>>76747613
>chat
Kys zoomie

>>76747841
I'm 30-fucking-years old, you annoying cunt. I'm the youngest of millennials. This world is boring, so I make my fun.

>>76743089
Have you considered therapy or anger management classes?

>>76747613
Wow, this is either excellent bait or you are a massive bitch. Please stop lifting because if you have this attitude I guarantee you're ruining the gym you're going to. You don't like lifting? Then stop. Be sure to complain about your shitty physique over the next several months

>>76747787
You can't even press your bodyweight let alone 3/4 of it, you really think you could overpower a baby?
>I'll just use a gun
We both know you don't posses the strength to engage the hammer.
>.6"
lol
lmao

File: images (20).jpg (6 KB, 247x204)

6 KB JPG

>love to lift, love to train
>progress stalled because I simply cannot eat anymore
>all my go to meals make me sick now
>ruined my pallete and find stuff I loved to eat like chicken and salmon inedible unless someone else cooked it

I fucking wish I had a gf that would cook me tasty meals. I don't even want pussy I want somebody that spawns me meal prepped food

>>76747967
Fuck you, cunt. I don't have self-image issues like your stupid asses. I just want to be stronger due to basic maintenance. I GUARANTEE I look head and shoulders better than the average person. You're all crabs-in-a-bucket, lying retards. You do this to inflate your own egos.
>>76747977
I own an old .357 Colt, Glock 17, and a really weathered bolt-action Winchester .22. i have fired all of them.

And I would still choose to stab you because fuck you.

File: Grinch.gif (2.66 MB, 498x267)

2.66 MB GIF

I am better than all of you, and you wouldn't last a month in my life. I will continue to improve for its own sake, and you will continue to exist only because I permit it. Be grateful.

I've reached an age where if I don't stretch before bed I wake up in pain.

>>76748027
Big words from a dude who benches less than your average 15 year old.

File: keeell.gif (3.96 MB, 444x241)

3.96 MB GIF

>>76748213

>>76746352
Because I have to touch my dick to piss and clean it. Masturbation is gay because your man hand is touching a man dick out of pleasure

Man what even is my life right now
>bullshit wagecuck stocker gig
>all that’s keeping me afloat right now, almost 30
>bullshit day yesterday
>bullshit ass aisle to do all alone, only 10 hours to do what would take most people 15 to complete
>vendors keep getting in my way setting up where I had been working since 4am
>customers keep standing right where they see me working not even saying excuse me just staring at the product, some don’t even take anything just stand there wasting time for 10 minutes
>wnd up getting super claustrophobic and have mini panic attack have to go out to car to calm down for 10 minutes
>eventually finish my shit and go home right on time at the 10 hour mark
>back been fucked up for last week and a half some kind of pulled muscle, shoulder all fucked up feels like the rotator cuff is pulled hurts to lift anything heavier than a half gallon with that arm, knees fucked up (old injuries)
I ended up saying fuck it and took today off. Coworker that normally works on the same shit as me has been out of town and comes back in today. I did all the harder pre holiday bullshit.
I feel a bit guilty, I can’t afford to miss a day. And I’ll have a few weeks paid off soon. Oh well, I needed it. I feel like shit. Bed is all fucked up, body is in pain, sleep is fucked, feel super unfocused. Like this is all I have going on in life.
I have managed to quit vaping which I count as a huge win. I’ve been using pouches and those are pretty easy to stop using. Started with 1 pouch an hour now I’m able to go like 4 hours without one. In fact I’ve been up for the past 5 hours and haven’t used one yet. I don’t even have any desire to use one and the package is right next to me.
>lung pain gone
>sinus issues going away
>out of breath feeling gone
>overall stress and anxiety down/ can manage better by mentally saying “chill, I’m fine. I’m not gonna die. This ain’t shit.”
Focus is still shit though hope my attention span comes back.

>>76748656
You need to get a better job

>>76748676
I have my eyes on the navy. Genuinely want to do construction mechanic (diesel mechanic). It sounds fucking sick. Get to shoot guns and play with heavy equipment and exercise as my job? Shit sounds cool. I’m getting in shape for it. I doubt I would do more than 5 years though. But yeah you’re right, I need something better. Better paying, something I have actual interest in doing that doesn’t feel like a total fucking waste of time, something where I actually have to think and face challenges of some sort, something where some form of growth can actually be fucking made. That’s the problem, stagnation. I need to be constantly challenged and pushed upward.

>>76748733
The navy is going to be objectively worse.

I just want someone to hug me and tell me everything's going to be ok. I'm so fucking tired of being me. I am such a fuck up sometimes. I'm really ashamed of the way I behave but I can't help it. I wish I could tell everyone I'm so sorry for bringing constant shame and disappointment onto them. But no one wants to hear that shit, they'd just prefer if I stopped being a degenerate drug addict drunk retard. And I can't. When I'm sober I'm so good, too. Every problem that I have is something I make up out of nowehere cause I can't just not drink and fuck everything up.

>>76748027
if only you put this much effort into lifting

Man fuck crushes, is there a way to stop having this delusional feeling?

It just randomly appears and overpowers everything else, I can't stop thinking about this one girl.

But the retarded thing is she lives in another continent so I don't have a chance with her, I know it will just end up with me being hurt in the end.

>>76749206
it's biology. your best best is to find a cute girl near you to focus your energy on. This has happened to me twice. The feeling will occasionally come back, but just ignore it the best you can. Go on a few dates and try not to wallow.

>>76748775
I know that man. It’s no days off, my body will always hurt, I’ll probably have even more injuries after I’m done that act up often, ton of work daily. But I’d oddly be happier doing that than this. There’s a point to it. And I don’t mean that in a patriotic way either lmao. What I’m doing now is pointless. Like totally pointless I work at Walmart ffs.

>>76749217
I think the main reason why I like her is because it feels like I can talk to her like any of my bro friends without holding back except she is female; while for real life girls they maybe look pretty on the outside and I might be attracted to them physically but their personalities and interests never align with mine.
I don't care enough about your clothes or new iphone or tv reality show or girly gossip or whatever normal girls talk about.

This one plays souls games, read Berserk, has good taste in music, we can joke about jews and niggers or whatever and it feels we would be good friends even if she was a man.

I'm scared I'll never find someone else I can talk to as openly if I give up on this crush and that I will be stuck with a roastie wife eventually, settle down only due to pressure of old age to have kids and a family but ultimately regret my choice of wife.

>>76749206
I know that feel bro, i always crush on people already in relationships. FUCK.

>>76735458
Leek soup, please. Turns out once again it was not depression: I was just severely consipated. I emptied my bowels two nights in a row and just feel way better now.

>>76749550
As that other anon said, I'm sure there's some good biological reason for it but it just feels bad like you're emotionally ill.
Even if you both have a crush on each other and get together who is to say those feelings won't just go away randomly similar to how they got created randomly I mean.
Wish you could control them easily with a button.

>>76748961
Have you actually tried treatment or do you just stop on your own?

the training won't make my sins go away

It feels like everything is working against me somehow. It's like I can't relax, everything pisses me off, I feel so bored all the time that I get headaches from it, yet I can't actually do anything to remedy it.