Laphroaig PX with a side water, thanks!

>>76852035
Realized I may be literally mentally retarded. Like full blown mentally retarded.
>ex HMU
>think this bitch is crazy hot
>have since gotten my own place
>invite this bitch over
>tfw shes flying over because apparently she moved
>I end up buying the ticket (wasn’t super far so under $300 round trip)
>no refunds
>she’s coming mid next week for 3 days
>Mfw she’s calling me her bf suddenly
I hit a dab pen for the first time in years. I’m freaking out panicking. I thought on what all happened today and I believe I mentally retarded,bin not joking when I say this. I think I am literally mentally retarded. My general lack of self awareness
>pretty sure bitch is using me
>don’t even find her attractive she definitely isn’t as hot as I thought before this dab pen. Can’t believe I tried to date this. This kind of shit like this happens all the time. I literally think I am retarded. I don’t mean that sarcastic or joking I mean quite literally mentally challenged

>have been busy every weekend since late august doing my hobby
>pretty much ended last weekend but Sunday I will still have something
>tomorrow I have nothing and therefore I’m likely spending a nice Saturday sitting in my room doing nothing because I have no friends nor family to do anything with

>>76852045
I’m looking at so many of my recent interactions with people I think I’m straight up autistic or genuinely retarded some of the shit I say and do


I don’t know what to do


Should I cancel on the ex and just eat the loss with the ticket

>>76852035
double espresso or cuppa black.
either i am going insane or the vegetables are poisoning me.

>>76852077
let yourself live life, brother. hit it if you can but let this be a learning experience.

>>76852035
I'll have a bramble and pink prosecco for the mrs; leave the bottle, I'm trying to get in her ass tonight.

>>76852045
Damn man. Why would you simp like that?

>>76852071
What's the hobby? Can you just enjoy a chill day and try something new?

As for my deal, I'm crashing out after seeing some old pics of when my Ex and I got engaged. Damn Snapchat memories.

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i need a jap gf and a job, man

>>76852035
Just give me a fuckton of wings, ik you have some in the back. Teriyaki sauce, and a tall glass of cold milk k thx

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I ate a bag of salt and vinegar chips and it feels like there's a hole burned through my stomach.

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>>76852035
Half a gallon of whole milk, thanks.
Yeah just keep it in the jug, I like the handle.
Anyway, I used to have 45 minute to 1 hour weight training workouts three days a week and about an hour of cardio (practice) 5 days a week when I was a D1 athlete, but now that that's over I really can't find the motivation to keep up a solid routine. It's not the kind of sport where I can just join a rec/club league, either. How do I rekindle that spark? I don't wanna turn 30 and see that my physique is gone

Feeling passively suicidal I guess. No plan or anything but often wish I just died out of nowhere so everything could be over. I'm tired of being me
I'll take tap water in a solo cup

>>76852226
I feel you, had some spicy ass noodles yesterday and had diarrhea and then acid reflux today. Felt like I was getting gut punched.

A gun so I can shoot myself.

>>76852226
baking soda mixed with water

Miss my ex. Blasting it is..

>another week wasting my life at a worthless humiliating job
>another week taking the train and seeing all the normal happy people, successful guys and pretty girls who I’ll never talk to or associate with
>another week coming home to an empty place talking to no one
I wish I could just press a button go to sleep in a few minutes and not wake up. I hate being alive

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>>76852035
I’ve realized that I hate my family and will probably be cutting them all out of my life once my professional life gets off the ground.

Also, I got open water diver certified this week, so that was dope.

>>76852045
You were horny and that makes you retarded. Happens to the best of us. I know we're in NNN but next time you have to make a decision regarding women, jerk off first. Post-nut clarity is real.

>>76852266
Lift 3 times per week and look for a sport or athletic activity that will keep you engaged. Can be crossfit (I know), hyrox (yeah, I know) or a martial art.
>but those are for washed ups
As an ex D1 nearing 30 you're in your washed up infancy. Accept it and act accordingly.

>>76852035
cyanide and water, thanks

>>76852084
I think I just got way too high. Idk, my default has been nothing matters as long as I’m satisfied in life, doesn’t matter if I do talk like a retard if something is wrong with me so long as I’m doing the right things.
That weed had me thinking about every word I said in the last 3 weeks to neither person. Had me realizing this ex is batshit bonkers most likely taking advantage of a total autist.
Still feel high but
>let yourself live
I need some damn pussy man. Fuck it may as well not try to cancel, enjoy the few days she’s here.
>>76852101
Nofap and already being in a long dry spell man. But as I said I think I am genuinely mentally challenged. There’s a lack of self awareness when I’m interacting with people some times. I got high thought back to my recent interactions and I say the dumbest shit. I can’t be anymore clear than this: I may unironically be autistic or retarded
>>76852577
I jerked off immediately realized even more I wasted time. Gave it a bit, now I realize I just need some pussy. I’m gonna have to worry about her wanting to consider me her boyfriend.


I realized only bitches with issues who no one else wants to date wanna fuck me

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>>76852409
>>76852319
>>76852277

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>always get intense urge to sleep either in the afternoon or the early evening
>if I give in and sleep, even for just an hour, it keeps me awake throughout the night
Why is my body retarded? I sleep 9 hours at night, why can't I just sleep 1 hour during the day and sleep 8 at night? Why do I have to choose between 9 full hours vs 1+3 hours? I fucking hate it.

>33
>KHV
>got a chance to get laid finally
What do? I am a sperg and she will figure out I'm a virgin when I cum in 2 seconds.

>>76853104
put your peepee into her vagina and stop worrying about stupid shit
t. KHV 33 year old virgin

>>76852447
The family that financed your diving classes in Tropical Land? Man they sound like real assholes

Went too hard for too long and didn't take enough rest days. My joints hurt.
>>76853104
Go for round 2 afterwards

>>76852045
Bro you're just flying her out to fuck. Get your money's worth out of her ass and when she goes back ghost her.

>>76853104
You laugh about it, tell her you were too excited because she's so hot, and then get to licking (focus on the clit, bonus if she'll 69) until you can go again. Do not cry about it. Do not apologize. Have a sense of humor, and blame her for being too sexy.

Sex is inherently silly. You're sticking your inflated peepee into her slimy hoohah until you gush white goo from your peehole. If that's not the silliest thing you've ever heard of, I don't know what to tell you. Get over the idea of things going perfectly, they almost never do.

>>76853209
This. Literally just lie, say it's been a while since you took a break from dating/hook ups to work on yourself and you think she's sexy. Watch a video on how to eat pussy, do that, and go for round 2 if you're ready fast enough. Don't make a big deal about it.

>next step forward is to buy a house, i have enough savings
>i need to leave this place because it's where i've wasted so many years
>have been looking places on and off for months now, nothing looks good enough
>deep down i think anything would work
>can't pull the trigger

>>76852035
>was making solid progress for months
>every single lift is up significantly
>time all my lifts to go balls-out max last week and use Thanksgiving travel as a deload
>(lmao all I'll be lifting this coming week is forks)
>teenager comes home with a cold about 2 weeks ago
>she gets over it in 2 days
>I catch it
>I'm laid the fuck out for a solid 10 days
>better, but still not well
>was going to fuck the bejeesuz out of my wife this weekend so I'm shored up, but that's not happening
>WFH and job is super easy, so not even worth taking days off
>play so much Nintendo my thumb hurts (literally), which I know sounds amazing to you fuckers but I'm so bored
>probably going to be well just in time to drive 14 hours and sleep in a rapid succession of relatives' houses and not really be able to do anything I want for most of a week

I realize this is just a small stop on the railway of the gains-train, but I bought a ticket to ride and I want to ride, dammit. I was doing so well and now bleh.

>>76852045
Dude, just fuck the girl. She has to go home eventually, right? And you're both guaranteed laid and don't care long term, so now's your chance to push boundaries and go for the stuff you wouldn't push on a girl you care about. Fuck her face, fuck her ass, fuck her ass then her face, take her to a bar and pull another chick to threesome with, I don't know, now's your chance to try whatever you want to try.

Just don't nut in her pussy.

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>>76852035
There's this manlet PT in my gym who i know doesn't like me and the other trainers suddenly turned against me blanking me etc.

Today i walk in to get some towels before i start my workout, and i noticed that the receptionist was missing so i went and grabbed them by myself in the entry of the reception because the manlet was just standing there and out of nowhere the receptionist appears through the door and tells me the entry is prohibitted. And then i got autistic and said 'Where does it say that' and the manlet said 'it's common sense'. When my initiate reaction was just to get some towels because i thought no one was there..

>>76853255
Dude literally has a woman flying to see him that he never has to worry about running into and he's freaking out about it. And its an ex, not even a stranger.

>>76852045
>no refunds
Sunken cost fallacy, you have your own place so 300 is nothing for you. Cancel her tickets now because i'm smelling something bad is going to happen because you will be stuck with her for 3 days.

>>76852875
Omg I’m so dumb 3 days for fucks sake I would rather be alone

>>76853266
>Not killing his midget ass right then
NGMI

One leffe blonde, please.
Saw this old high school mate of mine that started dated this girl that broke up with me when we were like 17 and turns out their relationship worked and fast forward 15 years they have a son. Didn't get jealous or butthurt at all just got me wondering how much better life could have turned for me had I not been socially retarded.
At least I don't have to deal with relationship drama ahah, r-right guys? :(

>>76852447
did you take that pic?

>>76852035
>Ok so I need to create a good resume and figure out what exactly they are looking for
>Here's a video of some HR woman telling what she wants
>And then another
>And another
>And another
>Huh, it seems as if they're all contradicting each other
>Could it be that these wanna-be girl boss roasties are artificially judging a resume's appearance and format based on their own FEMALE POWER biases instead of looking for skills related to the actual position?
Nah, that would be heckin sexist! :))

>>76852045
Jesus Christ, you remind me of my fat IT nerd friend. He makes 200k easily but used to fly in girls/fly out to see girls just to try and woo them on a date. He finally settled in his 30s for a fucking hairdresser that I know will divorce his ass.

Meanwhile my 6'3", twunk, attractive ass is face fucking them. TF is wrong with you goddamn simps? Fuck you for making pussy harder to get besides being attractive, you bitch nigga.

>>76853355
Well in all fairness I’m not an IT nerd I’m and I’m 6’3” too.
My fear is that this is wrong because she is fucking batshit insane do you understand? She believes we never broke up and is calling me her boyfriend says her family can’t wait for us to get married we have barely spoken in years haven’t seen each other since 2022 broke up 2023.


I’m also conflicted because I don’t wanna spend that many days with her.

>>76853266
If it makes you feel any better, the manlet is intimidated by your presence. Not only are you taller but you are clearly more attractive and the only real thing holding you back is your autism. Even if you're DYEL he knows what your potential is and has to keep you down to keep himself up. Manlets are just like that. If you became even half-decent in social situations you could put that midget in his place. Also, if he's a spic, he is FOR SURE malding at your existence and wants to play David and Goliath with you. Make some social gains however you can. If the manlet keeps it up, put him in his place.

>>76853370
RUN, YOU FUCKING NIGGER! RUUUUUUUN!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUVFICtA2RM

Being alive is a curse

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>>76853174
Financed it all myself, bitch. I’ve had to do that for everything I’ve ever wanted that wasn’t a basic necessity my whole life.
>>76853341
No, but I live in an environmentally similar, albeit landlocked location. Summer is my favorite month here, and these kinds of places are my escape I often go to in my mind. Even during the certification dives this week, when the water was a maximum temp of 61F and it was raining, I just went here in my mind and never shivered or complained. I espoused the virtue of the power of the mind to my classmates (they asked how I wasn’t cold) and they looked at me like I was crazy. Their loss.

>>76853370
Dude, it's 3 days. Fuck her so hard her brains leak out of her cooch, absolutely do not let your cum touch her vagina, drop her back at the airport, and then block her number.

My bet? She's pregnant and looking for a daddy. Or she's up to something suspicious. Go into knowing she's not to be trusted, but she has to leave eventually.

>>76853453
>Fuck her so hard her brains leak out of her cooch
>Go into knowing she's not to be trusted, but she has to leave eventually.

What could go wrong?

I quit talking to most of my friends once i got sober. 100lbs down, dont want to blow my brains out daily but incredibly bored. Oh well

I want to fucking die

>>76853465
What could go wrong is he just cohabitates with this woman for 3 days after shelling out for the plane ticket and doesn't even get his dick wet.

>>76853489
Have you tried wanting to live instead?

>>76853453
I was on nodal and I jerked off 3x today. Now I’m worried about having boner problems
>up to something
Literally the vibe I’m getting and why I’m freaking out. The weed made it seem so clear. Oh well. Probably worst case scenario I end up with this chick even more obsessed. Best case we have fun, fuck hard, maybe I buttfuck her. I’m going to at least put a thumb up her butt
>>76853381
Yeah I’m freaked desu

I'm really depressed by how slow /fit/ has become. And they already killed the misc so its not like thats an option. I refuse to make a social media account I assume thats where everyone who is into lifting talks about shit these days. I just wish it was 2012 again. I swear there were at least 10x as many posters then as there are now. And not to mention we are probably like 2 weeks away from AI being able to solve all the captchas, if it cant already. So thats an existential threat to 4chan. I hate the world now

>>76853578
Time only moves forward

>>76852101
>Can you just enjoy a chill day and try something new?
No I can’t enjoy a chill day because then I’m doing nothing and have to think about how pathetic and alone I am and how I want to kill myself

>>76853566
That's the spirit! Remember, it's actually in your best interest here to make the sex bad for her. And hell, is it too late to buy an apron made of transparent lace and demand she cooks you breakfast wearing nothing but that and a buttplug every day? She'll probably be down for some kind of stupid domestic fantasy bullshit.

>>76852085
One day you will, Anon. Godspeed

>>76852409
Eh at least you have your own place, gives you privacy and if you somehow meet someone you have somewhere to take them to. I still live at parents which is way more pathetic (they're cool and we have a great relationship though).
But yes having no friends or gf to enjoy the good things of life with is pretty soul crushing and defeating. Specially now that everyone has having nice Christmas dinners, parties and sharing cozy and lovely time with their loved ones.
I wonder how many years of life being this lonely takes off someone's lifespan.

>>76852035
Bitches want to fuck me and they totally soak the beds and end up shaking from pleasure but they dont want a serious relationship with me. I himbomaxxed and bed skillmaxxed for nothing. Just pour me a tall glass of drain unclogger and cement mix. Make it double

>>76853733
None of this happened btw

>>76853761
Stay mad.

>>76852045
Smoking increased the test in your system and now you don’t want to simp for some bitch?
Wild

>>76853346
You might be the dumbest mofo on the board. HR doesn’t read resumes. HR makes AI read resumes. HR hires their friends and relatives and co-ethnics. Job board postings are fake

>>76853974
yes yes everyone's mad at the lying fag

>>76852447
>>76853426
That hype af. I’m rooting for you Diving King.
>>76853578
>2 weeks away from AI being able to
No we’re not. Anyone who knows anything about ai knows how fucking stupid you sound. It doesn’t work that way

>>76852085
Anon, as a fellow anal-aspirant, I need to know how this went.

>>76853761
I believe him and you’re salty.
>>76853733
You want something more.
Sluts should not be dated and should never be married. Just got to consciously and actively reject sluts and seduce the women who want long term.

>>76854034
What exactly makes his story sound like a lie?

>>76853996
Niggas really think flying a woman out to fuck is simping now. Sad

>>76854105
Just like how my ancestors did it back in the day! My grandfather used to fly out girls across to Oregon from New Jersey

>>76854105
Doesn’t matter she ain’t coming. I talked to her about whether she’s just playing or actually thinks we never broke up. She’s upset. Can’t refund the ticket. Shouldn’t have said shit but also kinda glad I did this bitch is crazy haven’t even seen her in years multiple years. I felt bad but was that not the best thing to do, clarify?

>>76854175
lmao get rekt

No gym today.
Road work near me, supposedly road work near me. Lanes are shut down, but not a soul outside working a local guy recorded for 3 hours before police told him to leave. 0 workers showed up in his time out there.
Sat two hours in traffic, made it 1.7 miles and then flipped around and came home.

>>76854175
>Doesn’t matter she ain’t coming
I guess no pussy for you. She was ready to get fucked but you missed you shot, tyrone will handle it

>>76854175
This is unfortunately the best outcome. I was all excited about that buttplug/apron idea, though.

From what you've said, though, don't be surprised if she still shows up.

>>76852035
Jack and Coke

Gentlemen, I have ascended. Last night, this gigastacy at the club I frequent asked me to dance with her. We ended up dancing and hanging out all night. She was all over me, touching my arms and abs and dragging me by the hand as she went around talking to random people. I didn't hook up with her because her friend would have likely cockblocked me, but I did get her number.

We're all going to make it bros.

>>76854013
So it's even worse than I expected and women are that fucking worthless? Got it. Thanks, bud.
>job board postings are fake
Oh thanks again, bud. Didn't know that. Are you a fucking jeet imparting his basic bitch knowledge onto me?

>>76854378
>Didn't hook up
lmao

>>76854378
>I didn't hook up with her
I'll bet somebody did

The girl who friendzoned me thought I was serious when I joked about taking her on vacation with me. Something really satisfying about her disappointment when I said "Maybe if we were dating or something..."

>>76854535
So are you a bot, busting that 1 anon's balls, or is /fit/ really made up of sigma male grindset fags who think they need to pay for everything related to a woman?

>>76854576
Huh?

>>76852035
A tall, cold flagon of cyanide my good man. Everything sucks and I'm tired.

>>76854597
Are you a bot reading off the thread and making a post?
Are you a troll making fun of the 1 anon who is talking about flying out a girl?
Or are you a faggot simp asking a girl you're not even dating to go on vacation with you?

>>76854604
>Or are you a faggot simp asking a girl you're not even dating to go on vacation with you?
I joked with her about it and she thought I was serious nigga. How could she think I'd take her to visit my parents near the beach when we're not dating?

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>>76852035
>haven't been in a relationship since I was in my teens.
>A few one night stands with about five hambeasts and slampigs in early twenties.
>decide to set standards for myself and go for a relationship
>no sex for a decade. No relationship.
>Asking out girls irl
>Get yeses or maybes but they are actually disinterested and don't even go on a date.
>>Last year decide to get super serious about finding one or I'll an hero.
>all the dating apps.
>match with girl.
>goes amazing.
>felt like soul-mates existed.
>Get hammered on date.
>pulls me in for a kiss.
>text flirting after date time. Time to massively fuck up and make an ass of myself.
>text her her boobs were distracting and her low cut top was unfair.
>Blocked.
>Dates with eight girls since.
>Eleven dates total.
>Only two dates didn't make it to first base.
>Get used as a rebound with a slampig out of one of them.
>No single girl feels like first one.

Anons did I fuck up with the love of my life and now I just exist to kiss girls who later ignore me and fuck fatties?

>>76853104
Everyone's first time is awkward and embarrassing. Just fucking do it.

>>76853491
holy based i don't get how these niggas don't understand

>>76853578
Peak /fit/ was a blessed thing.

>>76853733
You'll snare one eventually. Enjoy the ride.

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>>76854618
why don't you just a new standard for yourself that you won't fuck fat bitches?

>eating my bagel this morning
>wife comes in and asks what I think about our toilet brushes
>i say i don't know
>she says she's thinking about replacing them because we got them over a year ago
>we talk about sticking with 2 (upstairs downstairs) or expanding to a third (so both bathrooms on first floor can have their own, and one for the two upstairs)
>we debate over whether to run to target today (i would have to move my workout) or going tomorrow before I re-stain the fence
>decide on getting it in today since we're doing a big shop for thanksgiving
>we research some toilet brushes so we know exactly what to go for when we go to target
ah, marriage

>>76854219
Seriously, government building and repair projects - especially road works - they should randomly execute one employee of the company for every day no substantial work gets done on the project. I bet that would miraculously resolve the logistical problems, they would magically find the supplies they need, bottlenecks would somehow get cleared, etc.

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>>76853687
>>76854037
Just a little finger action when she went down on me and I on her. I think loading her up with ciders has lead to the best results, both during oral and sex and afterwards she says it doesn't effect her running the day after like wine does. More research will need to be done.

>>76854665
Or just privatize it completely. Make it competitive and let taxpayers pick the vendors. They should be hustling to win your business just like AT&T vs T-Mobile.

We'll never do that, though, because that actually makes sense.

>>76854614
You're goofy, oofy doofy

>>76854036
lol AI denial fags are the biggest retards on earth

>>76854766
>ai post

>>76854668
Hey, a little finger action keeps her accustomed to the idea of things going in her ass, as well as serves to remind her that yes, that hole is there too. My wife has yet to give the ok for an actual buttfucking, but I feel like if I keep jamming stuff up there any time I can, sooner or later it'll be my dick.

>>76854662
riveting

>>76854369
Dude I’m in such a weird point in life. On one hand all I wanna do is be alone and have lazy days in my free time. On the other, pussy. But also, this particular girl is clearly not my best option. There’s a chance she’ll show up anyways. Idk what we’re gonna do together. Most likely fuck drink and maybe go on some walks or hang out at this place nearby. But 3-4 days of that? I only need to fuck maybe 5 rounds before I’m good for another few months of no sex.

>>76854656
>new standard.
You mean the old standard?

I just asked myself a question. What if I won?

>beautiful Saturday sunny mid 60s
>don’t step foot outside the house all day
Another wasted day in my waste of a life.

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I just turned 23. Man I have a friend who talks to me like everyday. I play videogames with him like every night. I don't know if I actually like him that much however. He loves me, wants me to be his best man. He's not really that great of a friend to me though. However, I don't really have any other social group now that I graduated college and have no job. He's a nice guy, but he is insufferable online, big on owning the incels, and a bit of a pick me despite having a gf. His gf doesn't have any cute friends for me either, can't profit off that even. Well, I guess I'll just try to dial back my time with him, I still need some human interaction or else I'll go retarded. I feel as though I can never be my real truecel self around that guy. Well, thanks for reading my shitty blog.

double whiskey on the rocks

I need a bit of advice, nothing serious but just need some thinking partners. I’m a middle school teacher and I teach a service leadership course (not ASB). We’ve done lots of fun things on campus but lately, I’ve noticed some of our student body is detached from the school. I brought my Switch to host lunch time Mario Party and those kids were the first to play and religiously played all lunch.

I want to continue this, but I get the feeling that maybe I should expand this to something else - my leadership students want to host tournaments, but they don’t know what games to play as none really play games outside of sports and Fortnite or Clash Royale. What are some games that could get up to 4 students playing? I have a modded Switch, but I think that maybe I need to buy an older system and get games for it like DDR or something. What would you guys enjoy playing?

>>76855061
Rubix cubes are cheap and surprisingly engaging for that age group.

>>76855087
thanks for the suggestion, I’ll put that on the list. Trying to get as many things as possible. Trying to convince my staff to sign up for a twice-a-semester competition against kids in trivia, sports and maybe something like a talent show

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>get fit in my early 30s after a really bad breakup and being skeleton mode autist my whole life
>miraculously start getting laid regularly
>ride the wave of newfound confidence, sexual prowess and much better body
>continue getting laid consistently with decent looking (5-7 usually) women for about a year and a half
>make a 7 my gf
>break up recently
>work too much to try to go out, met a few chicks on apps but only 1 wanted to fuck and its a big girl
>don't mind being a torta pounder but miss being able to freely throw bitches around, bend them over and start eating them out, etc.
>no wave of confidence, body is still good but now Im so used to it it doesn't feel special anymore, trying to fight seasonal depression while working 6-7 days a week, don't want to get back on Tinder to scroll endlessly hoping I'll get to fuck a 5 at best
>tfw can't outlift the autism forever

I've brought this onto myself, don't need advice or sympathy, I have simply come to bitch.

>>76855168
I'm 33 and got a blow job once 12 years ago

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I hate that I'm under so much stress. I can't wait until I'm finished with this period of my life. Cortisol is destroying my body. I can't wait to recover, to start going to the gym 5 times a week, to grow my bench press. I just need to pass this test.

"influencers" at the gym literally just a straight white couple with a skinny fat dude and a chubby girl with a matching sports bra and skin tight shorts. They stand around machines and film each other waving their arms abt and explaining bullshit exercises. I bet they get max 57 views on their videos. PISSES ME OFF dont do this shit when rhe gym is busy come back and do it when theres minimal people there it's just cringe and poor ettiquite no one's consenting to being witness to your lame fucking antics get a life, losers who cant do anything without needing a hypothetical audience need to stop going to the gym or refrigerator their mindset . Immediately I go home and post about it here. I'm a loser of a different kind. Garlic bread for lunchies

>>76855432
killing myself. Reframe their mindset not refrigerator . It's over for me

>>76855168
You should have been married by this point, not bragging about “throwing around bitches bending them over and eating them out”, pathetic

>>76855168
>seasonal depression
lol faggot

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>>76855432
>refrigerator their mindset
guaranteed replies

Didn't really go to the gym last morning but went after dinner anyways nailed my OHP working set, feels good mane never give up bros we are so back!

I want NNN to be over already. I swear it's distracting me even while I try to stay busy.

I keep getting dizzy, and I'm worried it's the minoxidil. I'm hoping it's just from having barely eaten this past week.

A stray cat meowed by my window and it sounded exactly like a kid. I almost had a heart attack.

>>76852035
>be me, last night
>on an evening train
>right next to me sits a qt alt-looking girl with a sophisticated impression to her
>quiet but courteous
>apologizes for the inconvenience of me having to get up and make way for her
>be tense the whole time she sits there
>whip out my laptop and do university homework, hoping she notices and gets impressed
>she fucking falls asleep
>train conductor wakes her up to check her ticket
>gets up and leaves the train about an hour before my station
>before she leaves, get a look at her
>haven't been able to get her out of my mind since then
I previously had thought my "type" were cute blonde bookworms, but I can't get over this alt-dark academia girl

>>76855223
Real

>>76855680
Domestic cats mimic babies' sounds so we're more compelled to tend to their neeeds. Cats are superfake.

>>76852035
Castle Lite, thanks. I've been trying to curb my cocaine usage, it's been going well. Haven't done it for 2 months now. But fuck me, the urge is getting stronger and stronger each day now. Just need to keep myself busy and distracted, that's the only way the cravings go away

update on flying the bitch out:
I was played. Called her early this morning to make sure she was up, she said she’s not going anymore. Said her parents were against it (26 year old woman btw) and they refused to give her a ride to the airport. She demanded I got her an uber I refused because pretty sure she would have made another excuse and just made me waste more money. Decided to check what it would cost and how far of a drive it was and she refused to give me her address for it, but kept demanding I got the uber. She finally gave me the address at 30 minutes until doors close so I didn’t bother.


$170 down the drain. Time wasted. I’m pissed at myself for being so dumb. I’m not really that upset it’s under $200 and nothing was lost, it’s not like this was a girl I had any feelings for not to mention the crazy shit I mentioned probably good that this happened. I’m just annoyed at myself for even entertaining this in the first place. She started saying I ruined her life and it’s my fault she couldn’t come and all this crazy shit

>>76852035
One glass of non-alcoholic Zhiguli beer, and an open sandwich with spinach and bacon.

>>76852035
Steroids
I don't care if I die young, I want power

>>76856337
It is not necessary to die if you took steroids, Arnold Schwarzenegger took them and now he is 78 years old and has four children. However, the type of steroids and the type of doping matter.

>>76856344
Arnold had a heart replacement or two
>>76856330
I’m considering getting into test. I’m trying to find the unbiased truth about it. Everyone likes to claim it’s super safe but it comes off as a cope. I think if you mostly just stay in natty range (so high dose trt at most) maybe occasionally blast like 300mg at most you’ll be fine but idk.

>>76852035
>be 1 of 3 fat kids from my middle and highschool who went to lose all the weight and come out jacked and tall
>ff 10 years later
>1 of us went on to become a doctor and passed away this month
I’m kinda sad I guess. He ran into me at the gym after I lose my weight and was genuinely proud of me, gave me this huge congrats. It was the most meaningful of anyones words. He was a good dude. I’m tired of having people my age die, people I grew up with. I’m only 30

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Hung my first axe last night (left)
>found it in a fire pit when I was backpacking with my dad as a kid
>carried it around with me in a tool box for almost 20 years
>finally cleaned it up and hand fitted a handle to it. Decided after a night to chop the handle to 10in because I already have two other hatchets that are the same weight/length
>gonna live next to the fire pit to chop kindling and maybe take with me camping when I'm taking a super compact bag
Been a good weekend lads. I need to get some breakfast and hit the gym after this Hunter cocktail barkeep

>>76856366
That sucks so much, anon. My condolences and simpathy to you.

>>76856325
Block that number, Broseph. Bullet dodged, lesson learned, all that stuff. Don't be too hard on yourself - we all have to learn some things the hard way.

>>76856553
It is what it is man. Was thinking with the wrong head. I need to get laid but I need to focus on more important shit first.
>get back in shape
That’s half the work for me. When I’m lean it’s way easier to meet women it just starts to happen. I’m no chad but I’m tall and used to get approached and asked out when I was healthy.
Unironically may run carnivore for a few months see how it goes.
>get better job
Idk what to do here. I need more money though.
>get more into my hobbies
Self explanatory
>start actually trying to talk to women I meet
Even out of shape I occasionally will stumble into those interactions or get approached but lately I’ve been passing them up

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I did a workout of 5x8 clean & squat, then had to run out and do a bunch of emergency repairs on the chicken coop
I feel like death, "shot" is the perfect description

I hate how I don't particularly feel tired during the workout but feel like trash after

>>76852035
glass of red, im trying the 9oz/day for a month challenge. Supposed to ve good for your gut bacteria or some shit. I just feel tired and shitty all the time, piss all the time. blood sugar is normal. I think theres some kind of weird endocrine tjing going on but my insurance wont kick in til january. Just have to scrape by at work and fake being interested/awake. Could be seasonal, possibly but maybe its just exhaustion from being older and not sleeping well. No apnea either. Eat a balanced diet, good penis.

>>76852085
its not really worth it bro, you can get permanent painful bacterial infection in your prostate, tear her ass, and she wont ever actually enjoy it and its going to strain your relationship if you keep pushing it. Ive only gotten it twice and she was in pain because i have a large penis. Didnt even feel all that great.

>>76852118
nip women will drop you like a hot stone out of nowhere and cheat on you, they are insects. Jobs are mostly bullshit but you can start from entry level and move up quickly now since the competency crisis and zoomer apathy makes you look like a god by default if you just show up and out effort in, then get a promotion. I went from doing gig apps to getting a technical career this way

>>76856457
Thank you man. It’s kind of harrowing how unbothered people seem by it. Ex girlfriends of his are just posting their dinner and nights out. Classmates are just posting whatever. Only 3 of us seem to even feel anything. And it’s like yeah we graduated 11 years ago but shit idk. I get it that people have moved on in life I get that death is normal but idk it kind of makes me realize how little I matter. This guy who most people loved passes and it’s just his wife and family making any mention. I’m not someone like him, sociable well liked etc. I know when I pass it won’t really change anything. Which I already knew, but now I can see it. I feel weird

>lose weight
>overall everything improves, not just fitness
>a whole lot more social interactions with strangers now
>social worries and anxiety returns
>over eat two days in a row
@_@

>>76857137
based

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Does anybody else feel like things are changing in a weird direction? Things feel so weird now, like nothing is real.
4chan is basically dead. I went on /pol/ after a few years avoiding it, the same threads are posted everyday. Social media is the same shit.
Youtube is boring. Outside is cold wet and shitty. I go to work just to kill time. The future is just getting shittier and shittier by the day.
Literally don't know what to do anymore.

>>76857277
>I went on /pol/ after a few years avoiding it, the same threads are posted everyday
This is true for every board now, basically all threads are made by Indians or bots. They just spam the same shit 24/7.

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>>76852035
Vodka.
Apparently, I am not allowed to drink anything else ever again.

My mother just visited me, telling me that I am fat, always been fat, and no amount of workout ever worked for me. So I must be type 2 diabetes.
Her old hamplanet friends found a cool medicine called Mounjaro they've lost a ton of weight with, and it will solve all my problems, and I must go and take a half-year long therapy with it, stabbing myself in vein regularly like they do with insulin.

One one hand it is nice she's worried for me, and I've been neglecting exercising a little with the new desk job. On the other I am feeling really fucking insulted. Way more insulted than if someone called me a fat faggot and sent me to the gym. I am not even denying I am not up to shape, I am ~30% bodyfat. But the notion that I need to get to some therapy that changes my hormones, because obviously something is fundamentally wrong with me, and no way oldschool dieting and exercise could ever solve it.

>>76857137
You got anxious because you attained something of worth and you’re scared to lose it. The fat life is worthless thus comfortable.

>>76856449
That sounds sick af. I always wanted an axe by my fireplace that is barred up

>>76856325
Wow so you were worried for nothing when she wasn’t going to come anyways. LMAO. That’s the problem with pomo world, it keeps encouraging critical thinking even thought it is proven and undeniable thst humans are irrational by nature and force. So people who should never think ever end up overthinking. Next time if you feel wrong just shout out curse words then put down the phone. Works every time

>>76857277
I see it too man. You know that South Park matrix episode where Stan sees the world as shit? Flowers are literally turds on stems, when his friends talk it’s just fart sounds and feces coming out their mouth, the sun is shit, the animals are poop, even his food is shit. That’s how I feel about everything man. Everything’s so shitty. It’s like theirs a veil of dullness cast over the world. Nothings fun. Everyone’s an asshole. The weather is shit. Jobs are shit. The market to get jobs is shit. COL is shit. Politics is shit (no matter what side you vote for you’re still eating a shit sandwich it’s a shadow oligarchy the candidates do t mean anything), fun things aren’t what they once were. Everything’s shit. The best you can hope for is find some motivation a goal and work towards it just so the shit sandwich you’re eating can have some cheese on it instead of being full of corn except even then you realize the cheese is also made of shit.

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Do you ever look at childhood photos of yourself and question where you went wrong in life? I saw an old photo of when I was no older than 5 and I looked so happy.

>>76857490
I’m just in a state of conflicting right now dude. Like let’s face it
>she’s crazy
She’s insane. Keep in mind we broke I don’t even know how long ago. We haven’t talked in idk how long. The extent of talking has been she hmu randomly and I say she can meet up with me but I’m not interested in texting my ex for no reason, she agrees then can’t make it last minute or suddenly has excuses.
And she was calling me her boyfriend saying I’m practically married. She got upset that I asked her about this as if I’d been leading her on. I had to ask if she thinks it’s normal to not see someone in years or talk to them ever and consider yourself in a relationship with them.
Then she started damnding I get her an uber but refused to tell me the address until it was too late. THEN the bitch starts saying everything’s my fault. It’s my fault XYZ this that the third are wrong in her life it’s my fault for this and this and that, and that I have no accountability.

The bitch is fucking nuts.
>good pussy
See above
>no other women
If this wasn’t clear
>sad
Part of me does care for her as a person
>confused
I’m just perplexed over this situation, I would be way happier if she just randomly texted me saying “btw I actually hate you and I was messing with you the whole time haha fuck you nigger faggot lol” I just can’t understand how someone acts this way and has no self awareness.


I feel crappy man. It’s for the best but wtf. Good thing I have the rest of this week off

>>76857531
Sounds rough. There’s a lot to unpack here. You have got a hard burden to deal with or rather the aftermath of a burden. I’ll take time anon but I’m sure you’ll figure it out

>>76857558
Part of how I feel now is like, okay this bitch may actually be crazy and not the smartest. How do I make sure she ends up okay? Like I’m abandoning a puppy somehow

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Everytime I'm alone I just wanna drink and go to sleep. When I'm with friends I'm feeling fine but when I'm alone it's like my heart is eating my body. I feel like absolute shit. I also look like shit.

>>76857569
Woah. In this scenario you have a desire to help this person who hates you and you still have feelings for her. This means any help you give her will result in her having relations with another man unless you lock her up in a nunery and even then as DeSade taught us nuns can cheat. That means any help you give her will result in you being cucking yourself. That’s bad. Cucks cannot attain paradise. Whether she ends up in another relationship or she dies in the street has nothing to do with you anymore. But if you give her any help you are doing a violence against your own soul. This is self evident truth. Please get a hold of yourself

>>76853355
>Fuck you for making pussy harder to get besides being attractive, you bitch nigga.
this is so real I'm 6'0" white 7.5/10 face lean and /fit/ and I'm fucking fighting for scraps in my woman-abandoned shithole corner of the country
>>76853733
Grass is always greener anon I've been himbomaxxing and bedskillmaxxing and this one woman wanted a serious relationship with me but I'm just getting started in my party era because I was a late bloomer chud (lost virginity at 22) and this bitch is 30 now 31 wanting to "settle down" after riding the cock carousel. Meanwhile I just want to hoe around and am constantly doing failure to launch because there are no young people with a party scene where I currently live.
>>76854378
don't listen to the demoralizers they're always crawling around this board. You're gonna fuck her and in all likelihood fairly regularly for a time
>>76856337
You'd be surprised out how powerless you can still end up feeling on steroids
>>76857277
I feel the same way. I remember the internet (and by extension reality) being sunny and inviting a decade ago. 4chan always up to something unhinged and original. Youtube homepage was vaguely optimistic, always some funny video to watch. People excited over novelty. Wanting to relax over their hobbies
Now everything is played out. Sloppified. Might be all the third worlders on the internet. Things like instagram expose you to the most retarded instincts of women, man, and brown people, and unlike before where there was always a funny rebuttal and a way to laugh at it, now there's no silver lining. It's just depressing.

I'm in my early thirties and I'm pretty sure by now that I was born with a sad soul or something. Things are objectively great, socially, financially, physically, everything... but I still carry this fucking sadness inside, it's my default mode of being since I was born. Everything I do essentially goes against what I am because if I followed my true desires I'd be a shut in NEET until the mold of my room killed me. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, and I'm also tired of asking myself what the fuck is wrong with me.

Oh, rum and coke please.

>>76857616
Hey man I appreciate this a lot you said this perfectly but I meant I realize there’s nothing I can do to help her. The only way I could do anything for her is give her a place to stay and cater to her needs which obviously isn’t an option. She definitely seems like she needs to rely on another person to go anywhere in life. It makes me sad. More like in the way you would feel bad for a puppy with downs. Like she’s crazy and probably not that smart. Which both means I can’t interact with her and also that I feel sorry for her.
>>76857642
>>76857494
>>76857277
A big part of it is saturation and overproduction. YouTube for example became all about mass producing videos. Take a look at the work that goes into a mister beast video. No I don’t watch that crap but he’s considered the poster child of winning YouTube right now. Even his thumbnails his team makes like a hundred and they change it until they pin point which thumb gets the most views. It’s all min maxed, and quality is sacrificed in the process. I used to watch vanoss and rooster teeth(pre insane liberalism and soifolk). It was just guys causally playing some games having fun and occasionally something funny happens.
Now what you got is nonsense a kin to 50 people lined up to take pics in a rented lambo to all post the same picture on their instagram trying to imply they own the car. Its missing soul. It’s fake.
>4chan
Same shit here. The soul was this place was used by outcasts and autists (Inb4 socially successful anons who have always been here pretend to think I mean friendless lonely). Now it’s full of redditors and normies after some TikTok dorks discord brought a bunch in here and yeah the whole certain areas getting the infrastructure and invading all media platforms too.

>>76857681
The soul of this place WAS the autists and outcasts*

>>76857277
I know exactly what you mean. Because of this, I have been using the internet less and less but also just failing to be productive because I'm unemployed and the weather has been shit lately.

>>76856226
good luck, anon. I am happy for you getting of that shit, it is pure poison.

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>>76852035
Tap Water.

My dad got diagnosed with stage 3 cancer a couple weeks ago.

Was doing really well before, was back in the gym, was working on my coding project. Completely fell apart when diagnosis happened. Didn't eat much of anything for the first week. Then last week I ate a bunch of crap and played video games all day to numb the pain. Now I'm doing a water fast today and getting back into the routine. After all the tears and the family settling into new reality, I'm pretty depressed. I was already a shit show before - no wife, no six pack, terrible social media addiction, highly unproductive at work and in general. Now I'm dealing with all my other stuff on top of everything involved with my dear father facing his mortality.

I was planning to airbnb a cabin in the woods to get away and focus on clearing my mind. Nice little shack with a loft bed and a wood burning stove about 2 hours drive from where I am now. Had to cancel that. Doesn't feel right to be away from my Dad right now.

So not doing particularly well.

>>76856337
I feel like people who want to scare potential users of gear straight should emphasize how much it fucks up your sex life. What use is a great body if you can't reap its benefits with the ladies?

>>76857511
I don't so much question it. I know what happened. But in my past self I see such wonderful potential, and it's indeed a sorrowful thought that despite that potential I ended up as I have. But God ordained I should, perhaps so I may learn something in this life.

Sometimes it's a comforting feeling to think that this life will be relatively short. The last 10 years went by in a flash. What's another 60, or whatever I'll get. Then it's off to the next place. I get also why people like reincarnation. It's also a comforting idea that I'll have as much time as I need here to do whatever is required. That I'll be forgiven for all the time I've wasted.

>>76857277
AI stuff is cool. If nothing else, it's fun to learn about more shit, and AI helps me do that.

>>76852035
2 shots of vodka and a molson
My computer crashed mid update, wiped the OS.

Orange juice cause I've been boozing all weekend.
Went to a friendshiving tonight. Hit it off with a tatted up girl. Think I'm gonna friendzone her. Invited my buddy. We're going to learn Python and shit. Both decided the guys there pursuing the everyman dream of a wife a house and kids is empty. We want to do something that matters. So we're gonna try building things and growing to hopefully make money that can aid us in pursuing real change. Hit lift prs and got way better at dancing in the past week. Brother is falling for the whipped husband meme. Time to fucking go no mercy

I've wanted to be a girl since I was like 10, but have 0 interest in becoming a troon.

Lifting weights has been helping make the voice quiet down a bit but it won't go away completely.

I would like a glass of strawberry milk please.

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>>76857511
Nah
I feel is l haven't changed much since the moment I was born. I was more naive and less-learned but the weird set of principles and processes that dictate my actions haven't changed all that much...

>>76852035
>excited for weekend, driving 3hrs to go shooting with some friends.
>get sick, have to cancel

Why must things go this way. Being sick also means no gym, finally felt like I was making progress after being sick a month ago. At least I get a 4 day weekend for the hday, that's a bit of a silver lining.

My friend just died. I knew her for 26 years. Yes, I put my dick in her. I am not invited to the funeral because her bf doesn't like me.

The bulk starts today. Setting a goal to move 1.4 million pounds by the end of December. There is an autospy cause some suspicious shit is going on. I figure I have a month and a bit before the funeral. Not sure why I bothering since he is a fat DYEL and you can't see fuck all in a suit. Just gotta do something.

>>76858720
>since he is a fat DYEL
the boyfriend is a fat DYEL.

I am not well.

>>76858720
My condolences anon.
Don't worry too much about the funeral, at the end of the day they're just social events that barely have anything to do with the deceased.

>>76857446
do you plan on going with your mums plan or will you try the normal method first

Life is a curse

24 cents of your best Californian red.

I broke up with my gf of 3 years. It's hard to accept that we weren't compatible after all.

>>76858720
>I am not invited to the funeral
>I need to get into shape for the funeral
Well which is it schizo

>>76857094
Another anon here but its definitly worth it. Im in a relationship of 5 years right now and it took me 2-3 years to normalize me eating her ass. I still only have anal every 4-6 weeks, because dame problem with dick size (8inches).
But she comes better with fingers in her ass now.
You just rushed it. You have to take months and years to condition her.
Protip: Start by only touching her asshole when shes about to come. Do that for a year and shell start to realize she enjoys assplay a little.
Its worth it if you plan to marry her.
If not and youre an ass lad, dumb that bitch, lifes to short for hoes that dont like anal.

>>76856966
>I hate how I don't particularly feel tired during the workout but feel like trash after
well maybe dont drink some kind of giga caffeine 20 chemicals b000stwe just because your favorite influencer markets them faggot. If you rawdog your workout like a real man, you wouldnt have that problem.

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>>76857479
Check your local thrift stores and antique malls. Fr you can find 100-200 year old specimens that can be brought back from the dead and the while project would be around $30

>>76852035
Ginger and chamomile teA

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>>76852035
Lagavulin 16 thanks barkeep
Fighting morality on this one because i'm almost considering being the 'other guy' just cause i havent had a root in a year and kinda desperate to ease my mind at this point.
>go pubs/bars with lady coworker after work on most fridays last few months
>most of the time we both get shitfaced
>only times we dont go out are when her boyfriend is back in town from working away
>even been to hers twice and just end up drinking more, smoking and watching old concerts on youtube
chemistry is very much there, but i've not taken the extra step because she's described him as her 'one' so i feel like a total asshole for even considering it, just havent had female attention in fuckin ages so i feel like im out of options

>>76858400
Sad to see your brother getting whipped, truly grim. My brother is like that too. He is in a long term relationship (kids, house and all that) with a woman who can't keep a job and has no impulse control regarding spending. When she's unemployed, she doesn't cook or clean. He's kind of a soft guy, so he struggles with keeping that bitch in check and I don't think he has the courage to just break up.

>>76859114
Anal is the last mountain I've got left to climb with my wife. I mean, a mff threesome would be nice, but that's a moonshot, whereas I feel anal is within reach.

I've asked in the past and gotten a no, but she'll let me stick fingers in her ass while I'm eating her pussy. I've gotten a small vibrator up there, bigger than fingers but maybe only 2/3rds the size of my dick, and she took that with zero resistance. Most recently I ate her ass a little - just kind of drifted down there while eating her pussy - and while she didn't say no she did make it clear that continuing was for my benefit only.

So yeah. I've played with her butthole during doggy, but I guess the next real boundary to break is actually sticking that vibrator in her ass while I'm fucking her.

I feel like if I just keep pushing the line, eventually she'll cave. Maybe. Hopefully. Sometimes I ask her what's on the menu as we're getting started on sexy-time, all very playful - last time she said "whatever you want" and then quickly tacked on "within reason." Crossing my fingers "within reason" will get dropped soon.

>>76859119
I don't tho
only supp I take is Zinc every other day

>>76857511
Nah, because my childhood was genuinely a disaster.
>alcoholic abusive father (he stopped and regretted it ever since)
>lived with grandparents who just wanted me to stop going to school and do manual labor for their business
>gangs with knifes and weapons holding me ransom during high school
>got into fights constantly
>generally friendless
If anything, I wonder why kid me can still smile back then.

>>76859074
I can go uninvited. There is a higher chance her bf is going to take a swing at me. That is the current plan.

>>76859425
Who are you doing this for? Not her, obviously. Does she have a hot sister?

>>76852035
I genuinely haven't had a chance with an attractive girl that is single in a long time. Last girl I had a crush on was an acquaintances gf. Gym is mostly dudes and fat people. There are some at my church but if I spot one I can't find them after the service ends. Haven't had luck at bars and I'm aged out of dating apps (30). Grocery stores and strip malls are all just mexicans. I stg it's like these girls must just stay in bed on socials all day.
I just want to find a decent girl man.

>>76859480
Finding a decent girl-man can be tough. They usually don't pass very well once they're out of adolescent girl-boyhood, unless they're Asian I guess. Keep at it, though. You never know when that perfect chick-with-dick will walk around the corner into your life.

>>76858886
I've managed to negotiate like 3 months to get my shit together, and prove that this is unnecessary.

I am 35 and I think this new female apprentice in work (who is 21) wants my dick. Do I do it bros?

>>76859673
Ask yourself how important/replacable your job is compared to some poon.
I don't know your job. Maybe you already hate it, and/or can easily replace it. But I know mine wouldn't be worth any poon.

>>76858400
>bro we'll just learn python and make it
thanks for making me feel better, I don't deal with stupid people much, but just reading your post makes me feel smarter

>>76859562
kek well played

>>76859683
But anon, the poon.

>>76858227
My condolences, anon. Do you know how much time you have left? But regardless, make the most of each moment you have.

My mother is a pre diabetic and she has no home of her own so i take care of her. It really takes a toll on you.

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>>76858227
>>76860603
Stage 3 lung cancer is only *sometimes* terminal in nearly 2026; the best chance of finding effective treatments is to get a tumor biopsy sequenced for mutations to figure out why it's growing. If he *just* does basic bitch chemo like cisplatin plus gemcitabine or something without really knowing what proteins are expressed, that might not go too great.

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>>76860667

Thanks anon. >>76860603

So at first we knew it was cancer but had no idea the stage (they did a rectal exam and felt the tumor). He had rectal bleeding for literally 4 or 5 months and ignored it before we dragged him to the doctor, so at this point I thought good chance he has stage 4 so I was basically prepared that he was going to die in, like, a year of horrific lethargy. A week later we did the ct scan and mri and they diagnosed as stage 3 which is better.

For stage 3 his odds are actually pretty good, 5 year survival is 70%. Still need to meet with oncologists, but right now he's doing keto diet, 2-3 water fasts a week of 24-48 hours, and on high dose vitamin c and vitamin d. Probably his treatment plan will be proton radiation and chemo with the hopes of fully shrinking the tumor and avoiding surgery. There are also things you can take we're gonna put him on, niacinamide and tentatively Ivermectin, that increase the efficacy of the radiation in shrinking the tumor. Because it's rectal cancer, the surgeries can fuck you up, colostomy bags or incontinence from an asshole loose like that of an elderly homosexual, so we want to avoid surgery if we can.

We already got the biopsy and waiting on dna sequencing results. For rectal cancers, if that result shows it's MMR Repair deficient then there is a new drug that is extremely effective at shrinking that tumor, so much so they will give you that drug without chemo or radiation. 1/6 rectal cancers are this variety, so we're hoping his is also.

Thankfully we're in a position to get very good care. My mother is smart and energetic and does a ton of research, we have access to some of the best doctors around, and there's no financial pressure because my dad is retired and on medicare. I do think he has a good shot, but definitely there are some things I still need to learn from him and study, namely some religious stuff, that we've had to accelerate in the event he doesn't make it out of this.

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>>76852035
Water for me barkeep

>Cut going well before winter bulk starts
>Working on myself
>Working on my mindset
>One thing I still can't figure out is women
>Wasn't nice guy but following some old mystery/zan p stuff the past 8 years
>Holding my ground, but appreciating women that respect me, some respect back
>Just got brutally ghosted by a woman who seemed to be nice and into me, kept talking to me but dodging dates or drinks
>Texts me two weeks after to sink a knife in that I offended her and she was "so thankful" she saw the alleged warning signs... when I asked her why she kept making excuses to not go out
>Starting villain arc now

What are good dating/pick up guys now? I found the real game on twitter but he has less than 1k views per yt video and he says to literally pretend you're joseph stalin and emotionally abuse the fuck out of women and only ever throw out 2-7 word texts for every interaction.
There has to be more to life, and I've dated hot, amazing girls before that had self-respect and were intelligent and nice by treating them like women but man I can't take this shit anymore I'm still unmarried and women in the wild have gotten so much pissier than they used to be 5 years ago (and I have abs now, which I didn't 5 years ago)

I'm breaking down, bros. And its funny how one man's wishes is another man's burden
>work in tech
>somehow survived waves of layoffs
>basically only because i have to work 55+ hours/week to support a fat, lazy, retarded CEO
>about to be offered a promotion, but the thought of accepting it makes me want to kill myself
>have a girlfriend of over a year
>trying to force attraction to her because she's not gained weight but shes not done anything to lose it
>the only time i get enough sleep is on the weekends, otherwise i have too much work anxiety to get more than 5 hours of sleep
>gains i made last year are all gone
>supposed to have a winter getaway with gf in december, but im freaking out about the expenditure so it wont even be an enjoyable trip
Nothing feels good any more. I'm just doing low stakes gambling, drinking, and fucking my life up to feel something again in vain hope that I'll actually fix shit that's wrong with me. I hate to say its all due to work, but work is the worst and most consistent issue in my life and I'm clearly burnt out.

>>76861335
Impossible challenge: someone working in tech doesn’t mention that they work in tech. Literally the first line LOL

>>76858400
>we want to do something that matters
>dude learn computer coding
Die you faggot

>>76861366
Only pointed it out to emphasize how the goal of some anons is a destroyer of another.

>>76861366
It's literally the second

Everything with my start up still seems to be progressing well.

SHE CALLED ME BUD

>>76861484
Talking about the greentext. Has to open the gate talking about working in tech LOL god these people are so insufferable

>>76861372
And what is all this stress for anon? I mean you’re working in tech, so surely all this work is doing something to make society a better place, doing something tangible to positively impact people or nature or animals, and isn’t just work to keep enriching your company and CEO, right anon?

>>76857094
>she wont ever actually enjoy it
This is a lie. You just need to be attentive and patient.

My experience has been that it's a bit like a food craving, sometimes you want it real, real bad, other times you couldn't care less, but as a general rule, you don't really do anal as a regular thing. Every 4-5 months there's a week or two where I can't stop fantasizing about doing my wife's ass, but then a couple sessions later I've had my fill of her asshole and got it out of my system for the next couple months. I think the regularity and the temporary aspect of it helps a lot with making her more accepting of the idea.

Lemon ginger kombucha for me, thanks.
How do y'all deal with being low status?
I dropped out of college years ago, been doing formations here and there but never could ascend to something I could brag about.
I currently drive 20feet cubes for a company. It's comfy and I like the job. It has everything I want, except the pay and title. I keep feeling like I'm behind and/or lesser than my peers. what do?

>>76858720
I'm sorry anon

>>76859425
>>76858720
>gatecrashes a funeral
>it's the boyfriend that's being weird
Anontachi...

>>76859162
You have to wait for her to initiate it. The person in the relationship has to start it. Otherwise you WILL RUIN the good thing you've got.
If she initiates, go for it. But until then enjoy the friendship.
There's a 99% chance she does not reciprocate your feelings and enjoys having a friend to hang with on Fridays and would be devastated if you made it awkward and she couldn't hang out with you anymore.

>>76859673
She may be cute but mentally she's a child and it won't be worth it. High chance she'll ruin your work life

>>76861975
Women at 35 are no more mentally mature either, it's just a lifestyle change that comes with more responsibility that you might confuse with mental maturity

>>76859425
lmao peak cringe

>>76861531
>all this work is doing something to make society a better place
I thought I was, or at least I was rationalizing it that way. I work on the security side so I tried to justify it as I was protecting the people my clients service.
But that was cope. I'm doing security for shit like private equity and investment advisors - dumbasses playing fast and loose with stupid amounts of money. I'm running myself dry for people that are actively making the world worse and while I'm seeking a way out, nothing is happening quickly.

The internet is demoralising me
Everyone is attractive, rich and fit

>>76862079
Hey man, I'm doing well, but I'm not rich or fit or particularly attractive.

>>76862079
Just quit eating social media slop.

>>76861886
Stop caring about social status. Live free from the expectations of others.

I'll take a jack and coke
>all my friends getting Gf's
>I haven't even really talked to a woman in 2 years
I'm happy for them but my god does it make me feel like shit and like a loser.

>>76852875
>That weed had me thinking about every word I said in the last 3 weeks to neither person.
overthinking is pretty standard, worked wonders to give me crippling social anxiety when I was high around not fully trusted people
>Had me realizing this ex is batshit bonkers most likely taking advantage of a total autist.
might be true too tho

>>76852875
also she can yap whatever she wants, but she can't make you her bf without your consent. do it in a flirty way but remind her that she's flying back and you only wanted to catch up to see how you're both doing without making huge long term plans. if she tries to use pussy to manipulate, you're a big boy and don't need to let her get her way

>>76861335
that's exactly how it goes in a shit job, maybe you could provoke them into firing you and sue for a settlement?
I had a terrible, we had RiF and I literally took the money and unemployment before they finished saying "We're sorry but-".
I used to writhe and bang my head on my headboard due to the work-related thoughts, all the dumb bullshit and risks. Twitching because of intrusive thoughts of fat boomer managers being obscenely stupid and rude pieces of shit.

It's all... gone now. None of it mattered, only my soul remains. I wake up each day and make coffee and go out onto my balcony and watch the sun rise, the birds sing, and the providence of God's green earth come into bloom, and I would even take a 120k/yr job if it meant losing this.

>>76862224
Same but I'm at 12 years

WATER

>>76862371
this, work stress ruined my life, and the current job while mediocre finally feels like I'm living a decent(ish) life for now

>>76852035
>ITT I learned that boomer hate truly is universal
What a dogshit generation.

>>76862585
It is the first line of "weak men create bad times". Someting that used to take generations to get through now escalate much more quickly.

The Jews ruined my life

I just woke up at 3 PM, and I really cannot be fucked to get out of bed. I'm going to, but I really struggle with both eating food and going to the gym every other day. I only even do three exercises (bench, squat, sitting cables), but I don't get anything from it either. I exist in this weird place where I don't believe I deserve the love of others but also know I likely wouldn't put up with the attention of it. I'm getting older, and lost opportunities whether I wanted them are not make me feel vulnerable.
>>76863244
So true, bestie.

guys should i buy a 1990 Toyota Camry as my regular drive around car, it's got low miles and looks good. safety isn't a concern I know i'tll crumple and instantly kill me in a crash

>>76864005
>1990 Toyota Camry
As long as it's not too expensive. People always talk about how reliable old cars are, but they never talk about how much of a pain in the ass old plastics & rubber bits are since they degrade. Check any belts, the engine mounts and stuff like that. They shouldn't be expensive or difficult to replace, but you should be ready to set aside some time & money for maintenance.

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Just water please.

The early winter air smells like I feel it has not since 5 years ago. Man that was perfect. The early dusk, the late night walks around the neighborhood, the sitting in the car playing music on the radio, the occasional cigarettes and strangely sweet juul hits that would make me feel all dizzy and weird, watching movies till 4 AM, whistling wind and freezing cold and painting on the inside of fogged up windows. The sitting on icy concrete in the middle of an intersection overlooked by a gigantic spruce or fir tree with blinking white lights as first snow fell, the beautiful silence in the chilly nights. I think it was the first time someone other than a family member baked me a birthday cake. The time I went for a run in the woods in a short-sleeved compression shirt and almost froze my hands off, the hot fruit tea in a funky vacuum glass I drank outside right after while watching a blackbird pick winterberries off snowy bushes.
I guess I'd have that rather than water, if I could just one more time.
Everything closed down yet I felt alone not for a single moment. The beautiful Christmas lights everywhere. Running away into my car after leaving a gift at a doorstep, then arriving home late and delaying the entire Christmas dinner, but it did not matter one single bit. Everything in the world felt right.
It was such pure joy, actual bliss, I have been looking for it ever since. I don't want to return to the past, yet every single moment, every single action I take, I do so with that feeling of the past in mind, hoping that one day I may find it again, in a different place and time. Every once in a while, a stray smell teleports me back and for a second everything feels safe and happy. Then I'm back here.

>>76852035
>1 cup of McDonald's ice cream with a garbage bag
>1 water with ice
>1 McDonald's coffee
>1 toasted bagel, plain
>1 beef jerky
>1 pickle egg
>1 science textbook

that'll be it, I'll go sit at the booth while that gets prepared. Just put it all on 1 plate

>>76863244
get your head out of your ass
get off pol

>>76861335
your girl won't pick her socks up unless you lead by example
you don't sound motivating. Sorry that's the female psychology

>>76860610
Why doesn't she have her own home?
I'll read whatever you write. Possibly reply too.
t. son of a hoarder mother

>>76862079
are you perchance an instagram/tiktok consoomer?

>>76858244
Beg your pardon?

>>76865201
You become a homosexual

>>76859683
pussy
>>76859673
yes don't listen to the faggots
there's a new asinine zoomer dating rule every week. just ignore them. if your parents followed them you probably wouldn't exist
t. 25 year old chad

>>76862179
the problem is when you want things you can only get from others. how's he gonna party with the cute girls how he is? Life is a negotation

>>76865208
didn't happen to me, man

>>76859314
If the gangs holding you at knifepoint were female would you have minded so much?

>>76853355
Get fucked normie asshole

I think one of my favorite plants is going to die.
Two weeks ago it was full of flowers. Last week I noticed it had no new flowers about to sprout. It is always producing new flowers so it was weird, but since it had so many I didn't pay attention to it. Two days ago, I noticed some branches were withering. I don't know much about plants but I instantly thought it looked infected, however I just cut the dying branches and didn't do anything else. Today, I noticed it was full of some small flies and those white silk sacs bugs use to reproduce in the base. I tried removing them and when I moved the healthy looking branches to reach the base, they fell off as if they weren't even stuck to the plant in the first place. Now it looks so small and weak, you wouldn't believe it was at full bloom just two weeks ago.

It makes me so fucking sad. I hadn't cried in so much time. When I moved out I realized I had a love for plants that I didn't know I had in me and I do my best to take care of them and this plant in particular was so successful, always growing and blooming, and in the span of two weeks it went to shit. Her name was betty. It might sound silly to someone who doesn't care about plants but I feel like shit.

>>76865335
lmao you gay bruh

>>76865353
I live with my big titted fiancee whose breasts I suck every day. She doesn't give a shit about plants however, she probably thinks I'm retarded for mourning a plant, but it's a living being. When you interact with them every day and take care of them they become more than just decoration.

>>76865370
Yeah, you're a gay virgin.

>>76865376
You have no idea what it's like to take care of something. The sadness I feel for losing a beloved plant is nowhere as bad as the sadness I'd feel if I was a total fucking loser. In a way, I feel a little better now.

>>76865335
I'm not sure how many plants you have, but get it away from the rest of your plants. Change the soil. spray the leaves with alcohol.

>>76859425
Dont listen to the other 4cucker crabs in a bucket, if she meant something to you and she would have wanted you to come to her funeral its alright to go for a little and pay respects.

>>76865335
You gotta murder the bugs, neem oil or insecticide soap will work if alcohol does not

>>76865376
Let a man be a man, some retard like you is always gonna call someone a gay virgin unless they just sit in the middle of an empty room and do nothing.

>>76865907
hope he sees this

As good a thread as any:

>be me
>walk into PF per normal
>look to the right
>They added barbell "squat platforms"

Pretty sick, ngl. There's another location in my area that was a regional chain that PF bought, and they have a huge free weight set up. But this was just the local PF... kinda blew my mind that they added barbells.

>>76866174
The PF my dad goes to has full racks, benches, and a 2nd floor indoor "track"

>>76852035
What the fuck am I supposed to actually do? I got this week off from work and all I have done is cycle between scrolling on my phone on the couch, playing video games and jacking off.
It got me thinking, if money wasn’t an issue what the fuck would I do with myself? I realize buckling down and working hard isn’t a time issue I have all the time in the world even with work.
So like, okay, cool for now that’s one thing I can focus on. Be productive with chores fitness and such.
But even that’s all of what, 2 hours a day. So then what? What the fuck do I do. Like what’s the point of life or anything?
>work faggot ass job
>pay faggot ass bills
>take care of faggot ass health
>have couple faggot ass hobbies
>do faggot ass chores
It all seems like a massive distraction to pass the time until I die. Even with shit like
>go on faggot ass vacation
It’s still just a distraction to make things bearable. I don’t quite get what the point of this is. I miss being like 10 years old playing pokemon emerald with my friends while it was chilly outside.

>>76865376
I'm underage: the post

>>76852045
>he literally paid escort-who-looks-like-a-model price for an ugly roastie BEFORE he even got the chance to fuck her AND she's clinging to him like a bug now
you can't make this shit up

>want to look like a cute femboy
>spend 3 hours in the gym every day training like a pro body builder
>

>my tongue slipped and told the roasties at work i go to therapy, while chatting them. at least i saved it and didn't say anything about mental illness. i saved it by saying "oh you know, handling stress, emotions"

>>76866260
reddit: the reply

>>76866281
Such is the duality of man. You could live vicariously through the femboys you'll be banging once you're big

>>76866281
What would make a man want to look like a femboy

>>76866532
I'm bi

>>76866571
Hi bi, I'm anon.

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>>76866587

>>76866596
Woah. This frog looks like he's facing on way, but he's actually facing another.

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My dad said I don't get girls because I'm not exceptional.

>>76866625
You should steal his girl

>>76866337
>i saved it by saying "oh you know, handling stress, emotions"
You should have said some family member died

>>76866637
Hello Freud, how are you

>>76866642
Wrestling the hog to the Oedipus complex, and you anon?

>>76866666
calm down there giga satan

I need advice on a woman:
>be me
>see this one gal from time to time practically everywhere
>same gym
>asks me to spot her multiple times, despite me not even being the nearest fella
>one time comes to talk to me and asks a bunch of stuff about me
>encounter her regularly, try to exchange a few words every time I see her
>took a while for me to realize that I have to ask her name, due to my undiagnosed social retardation
>anyway, I see her nearly every week somewhere if not in the gym
>she probably was interested in me first, but after my poor social skills and lack of initiation, I think that interest has faded out a bit and we act like some work acquaintances now

I don't know, I'm scared to try to ask her out because I encounter her all the time. Best way to ask her out is in the gym, but fuck doing that around people. I have a crush on her and now I get anxious all the time that I see her.

Writing this message makes me wonder how the fuck I've managed women before. I guess they've just came from friend group etc. This gal is practically unknown for me.

>>76866337
good save. why do you go to therapy anyway

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>>76866666
Talking to mommy ai bots.

I'm going to drop a redpill so big I may be killed for it so listen the fuck up you little queer:
Blacks are 50+% of the US population
Wanna know why theyre in so many ads? This is why.
Wanna know why all political consideration goes to them?
This is why.
Wanna know why they're treated like kings and role models for our kids?
This is why
Blacks are the majority, and one day soon the veil will slip and it will be made known. When they're 65+% which will take about five years.
What's this mean?
Everyone who thought they'd be able to fight and resist the nigger beast will see a lost battle, one they missed participating in. The war is over, we've utterly lost. With other brown skins whites will be 10% of the population, it's game over.

What's this mean for (You)?
While you get weaker the nigger tide strengthens and rises, and soon you'll be underwater, under black, brackish nigger filth water.

>>76866186
I graduated with a molecular biology degree and wasn't able to get a biology job. then I started this basic educational website about biology and I became completely obsessed with studying and writing articles. lately been reading translations of german cell research from the 1800s and thinking about learning german so that I can read everything in the original. if I had not been producing content for this website I wouldn't have had the drive to learn anything at all. really, I was not a good student back when I was still in university. becoming a prodoocer instead of a consoomer has changed everything and given me a lot of passion for the subject.

>>76866741
did you miss the part where im mentally ill

>>76865201
Not that anon but isn't it the case that if you go on T for an extended length of time your balls won't be able to bounce back to their original production volume if you ever stop completely? Like your balls go "guess you don't need us anymore" and just stop producing T altogether.

>be me
>Most on and off gymfag
>Haven't reached notable benchmarks other that repping 135lbs ohp
>Those days are long gone
>Fattest I've ever been
>Go karaoke
>Hot redhead accuses me of being gay
>Flirt with her
>Got my hand on her thigh most of the night and she grinds on me
>Grabs my hand and leads me around
>Pecks me on the lips out of nowhere
>Later on, I put a mint in her mouth
>She says "does my breath stink"
>"Yeh"
>"That's so rude anon"
>We make out a few times
>She goes home in her uber
I can't help but think if I were fitter and had a better body, I would have slept with her.
And it's not even the sex I wanted to do. I just wanted to stroke her tummy.
I don't know if I'll ever become truly desirable again. I have 25kgs to lose to be worthy of love again.
I'll have a chocolate water, barkeep

>>76854662
That's bleak man

>>76854662
Jesus that's horrific

>>76867606
yeah but what kind of mentally ill

>>76868054
bipolar, GAD, SAD

>>76857511
I found an old video that i recorder when i was 13 and i was shocked by how different i was, how i spoke and how i behaved myself. I know that people change when you grow up, but still, it was a weird experience.

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>>76857511
yeah, I was so full of happy emotion as a kid. funny how it can go.

>>76866724
You're overthinking, don't overthink this.
If you really like her and want to try moving to next base, chat a bit with her and look for an opportunity to slip in the phrase: "your boyfriend must be a really happy man". You're probing to see if she is single and interested in you. Her response will reveal the answer to both of these questions.
Just be chill and everything falls into place.

I hate my mother in law so fucking much i feel like I'm going to go crazy

>>76870040
I feel ya. My family stresses me out so much. I wish Thanksgiving wasn't so stressful

>>76870111
i've been in a really good mood all day from knowing that i have no social obligations to eat dinner with family since i live so far away from them. for me it was just a bonus day off. i had to go shopping this morning before the stores closed and seeing everyone so anxious and stressed out made me feel better about my antisocial behavior. i really dislike thanksgiving. christmas is a much better time for family.

>>76870111
No she lives with me so i have to deal with her every single day. If i only had to see my in-laws at Thanksgiving i could deal with it but this bitch never leaves.

>>76869983
There's certain emotions I haven't felt since I was a kid.
A few nights ago I had a dream feeling that lost emotion. Was like being hit by a hard wave of nostalgia.
Made me realize how numbed I've become.

i am addicted to porn and jakking. I cant focus on work anym-ACK

>>76852035
One vodka soda please. Another night with no sleep.

>>76852035
Just water. Im 6 kgs down from my weight on september, so 13 kgs down since last year. Uni is taking a toll on me but ill manage, also i gained weight on summer but lost it already. The main issue is loneliness but ill manage it too i guess. Most of my friends only hang out to party so i dont see them as often since i want to lose weight and gettin g drunk every week doesnt help.

>>76852035
Something to numb the pain forever. My problems are bigger than my muscles. All I wanted from life was a wife, kids, and money to raise them in a not-shitty area. Basically what my parents had and found not enough. Now I'm old and I have no money to even move. The area has gotten so shitty that even the middle class teens who used to come over to pretend they are hood have stopped coming. I have no future, no say, no outlet to express my opinion, and now my hairline is starting to recede.

>>76852035
>don't lift
>mostly fine
>lift
>in the middle of my session i sit against a wall and stare at nothing having an existential crisis
i just want to lift weights man

I live in a rural area and we don't get good mobile coverage.
Had emergency calls only/no signal at the one time I needed signal to do my disability phonecall assessment (I'm a schizo NEET, I used to work but we had a change of managers and I can't deal with them plus customers being more cuntish as time goes on)
I'm just going to have to reapply and wait another 3-4 months. Currently drinking a cheap bottle of white wine on an empty stomach. Probably play some FFXIV or Halo once it hits.

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I'm getting real tired of this lifting shit. I've been doing good all year and have seen basically no results in weight loss.
I am 5'9, 230lbs. According to calculators my BMR is 2,040 Calories per day. I am a High School Teacher so I walk at least 6,000 steps a day.
I have been eating at a constant deficit of 1,000 - 1,500 calories a day. Mostly protein too, I have high protein with each meal.
I go to the gym 3 days a week. I walk a mile on the treadmill every time, I've even upped it to 2 miles over the past month.
I mostly lift, Monday = Chest/Arms/Back, Wednesday = Legs, Friday = Chest/Arms/Back. I've seen improvements in my lifting, but no weight loss.
In January of this year I was 200lbs, in May of this year I was 240lbs, Today I am 230lbs. I have only gained, not lost. How is this even possible?
At this point I think I just need to accept that I will never be skinny in my life, I never was skinny, I've been overweight since I was 10 and it started when I was 8.
I think the best I can really hope for is to be some Russian Strongman Type freak who just lifts and lifts and is never skinny.
FML.

>>76857511
I've basically spent my entire life living in the past. I look at pictures of myself as a kid and see a skinny body with a genuine smile. Sometimes I wonder if something happened to me as a kid and I just forgot about it due to trauma or something. I look at myself with so much potential, I would do literally anything to start over. Its something I think about almost constantly every single day. I would do LITERALLY anything if I was guarenteed to wake up tomorrow and be 8 years old again. Start it all over again. Stay in Baseball, Stay in Scouts, study more do everything more. When I was a kid I was fine academically, I loved reading and programming and I had dreams of scientific careers. That all got drained out of me as I grew up. I should've stayed active, I should've stayed part of a community, I don't know what happened to me. I hate myself, always have, always will.

>>76871851
Measure yourself at the waist and use a body fat estimator like this: https://www.calculator.net/army-body-fat-calculator.html to check your body at percentage. If you're heavier than before but your body fat dropped, you're making progress, even if that means you gained weight in the form of muscle rather than just straight losing fat.
Also, try longer-duration forms of cardio. The body typically goes into beta oxidation (burning mostly fat as a fuel source rather than carbs) after long periods of energy demand, whereas shorter periods can be supplied with energy by other systems. Anything over 30 minutes should start to push you into beta oxidation, depending on your training level.

>>76872105
According to the calculator you sent, my body fat is at 39% right now. Which is honestly lower than I thought it would be.
Right now I am 230lbs. I would like to be a healthier weight by May 2026. My goal is 170, which seems like it is hard but doable.
But honestly, I see no reason why I shouldn't be below 200 pounds again in the next 6 months if I keep working out and eating at a deficit.
Maybe I need to do more cardio like you said. But from what I've always been told, eating at a deficit should be enough. I figured going to the gym would just boost the process.

>>76872328
There's multiple parts to it. Gym training provides the stimulus for your muscles to grow and for your body to hold on to muscle during caloric restriction, which over time helps because muscle consumes more calories than body fat. Long-duration cardio helps shift into beta oxidation, which burns fat more quickly than just caloric restriction. And of course eating at a deficit with high protein intake will help to shed weight.

>>76872364
>Gym training provides the stimulus for your muscles to grow and for your body to hold on to muscle during caloric restriction
This was the original basis of my plan. My overall goal was always to lose weight. I didn't really care about lifting or getting stronger or anything like that. The only reason I lift weights is to stimulate my muscles so that my body doesn't eat them when I'm at a deficit. I just heard that lifting tells your body to avoid the muscles since you're actively using them. Sure I've got stronger this year, but that was never my true goal. The lifting and High Protein diet was all in the pursuit of weightloss. Since I also heard that protein takes the most energy to digest/process. It seems like eating anything else is a waste. I want my body always working.

>>76872393
Getting stronger is a sign that your muscles are developing, which means you're slowly shifting the balance between fat and muscle. Keep at it. Getting stronger has a lot of other benefits, from bone and tendon strength to improving mobility, that will improve your overall quality of life.

>>76861975
21 is ancient, hell 16 was considered ancient until Feminists wrecked the current iteration of civilization

>>76862079
Leave the internet for some time, go walk around a walmart for entertainment

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Every fish in my aquarium died except for two. I made a dumb mistake. Bums me out lads. Loved those fish.

>>76872627
Sorry to hear that anon. I used to have a nice tank full of fish but the dilapidated apartment i lived in killed them with some kind of mold then my gf threw out my tank. I wish i could have fish.

>>76872822
Thanks fren. I had a decent squat session about it. Hope you can have a tank in your life soon.