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>>76927805
Just me lost in my thoughts.

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>>76927805
3am drives to McDonald's when my family is sleeping. Eating at a lookout spot I would visit in my childhood and contemplating life.

>>76927805
upset tummy
apparently seeing floating oil in the toilet is not normal so cutting back on the fat to resolve this issue and return to normal.
other than that just lack of woman stuff. you know just being a retard or more like one of those dogs you see in human society videos biting at the hands of people trying to comfort him.
need to get the addresses of some of my buddies. they are tall older millenial white guys so i want to gift them white monsters with the message, "here is a white monster for my white monster". im giggling like a little girl thinking about it.

>>76927805
Nothing. I'm already unconscious at 11:30

>>76927805
Waking up in the middle of the night usually 3-4 am and in the darkness and silence lying there thinking about how I’m such a loser that most people couldn’t even comprehend it if I described it and why I make no efforts to change. How I’m now entering my mid-30s and have a life like that of a teenager with no girlfriend or wife, no kids, no career, no housing of my own still with my parents, not even really having any basic skills for life. Just lying there and usually start tearing up thinking about how I’ve completely and utterly wasted my entire life, why I never had any motivation to make anything of my life and how I was fine just rotting away year after year, and how I’m completely beyond help and know that my life will end in suicide so what’s the point. This usually happens to me at least one night a week, sometimes multiple

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>>76927805
>What's keeping you up at night, /fit/?
My girlfriend's insatiable appetite for sex

>>76927898
>Having sex
ngmi

>>76927902
>ngmi
Thats what she said :-(

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>>76927904
Your mom?

>>76927898
>having sex in 2025

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>>76927805
Thinking about how to not be a "failure to launch" story as I enter my 20s.

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Shoulder impingement on both sides
Can't sleep, keep snoring on my back... idk what to do
I just want a good night's sleep

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>>76927906

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>>76927912
>Accusing me of being indian for sharing an indian meme
ngmi

>>76927829
Where is the 24hr McDonald's still a reality?

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>>76927918
hahahaha

>>76927805
I hate sounding like a bitch but my mind keeps replaying moments from when I was bullied in middle and high school.
>got bullied by a group of black students for being white and they kept calling me a school shooter
>bullied for liking video games
>bullied for having good grades
>two upperclassmen threatened to knock me out and kick me down stairs if I ever talked to the girls that they liked
>one guy made fun of the way I walked and ran in gym class, also kept talking about how bad I was at sports
>girl spread a rumor that I was gay because I wasn’t into her
>different girl kept making fun of my appearance every day and kept kicking me in the ass (literally)
My family, my gf, and her family have been nothing but loving to me, so I hate that I still let these memories affect me.

>>76927805
I did that thing again when you come home from work and think you're going to just laydown for an hour at most for a quick nap then wake up 6 hours later past 11:00pm

>>76927937
It really sucks that you went through all of that, anon. But I know from experience that ruminating over past experiences does nothing but compound misery on yourself and ruin your own confidence. The more you focus on appreciating and building yourself and your life now, the weaker the past's influence becomes.

>>76927919
In the UK we have them all over. Shit there are two within 30 miles of me. You don't?

All I ever think about is myself. I want freedom from my self. Humility seems like such a valuable thing to have. Self pity/self hate/existential dread they're all the same fucking thing.

>>76927937
Get yourself a bigger trauma. That way that bullshit will seem insignificant when compared

>>76927945
Fucking hate this, I do this too. Coffee doesn’t wake me up anymore it just gives me the shits. I feel that I may have abused pre and energy drinks too long and now I can’t get a “boost.” I see all the people at work just drinking a coffee, or two, or three. It just keeps me regular which is cool, I guess?

>>76928060
One thing I've done to help is no drinking of any caffeine until after 12:00pm. Not eating lunch also help so if you're OMAD or Fasting it's a plus but I know it's hyper hard depending on your job. I've also accepted the psychological. There is a word for it but pretty much you're a Owl; you stay up purposely or non-purposely to have more time for yourself. I lean into it, it's 4:00am where I am and I've cleaned, did laundry, read a chapter in a book and now working on some writing.

>>76928064
I typically go into some hyper productivity mode as well. Do laundry, spot clean my place, do something asinine like redo my desk setup or draw schizo drawings to pass the time.

I don’t like to eat past a certain time to avoid going to bed with food in my stomach. However if I have lunch at 12 at work, get off at 4, crash when I get home, I end up eating at 10pm or whatever god forsaken time. I mean, it’s 2am local time for me right now so I’m already in the midst of the “Owl” time.

Doesn’t help that like a lot of these Anons, I tend to just think myself to sleep with no distractions.

>>76927898
Goodbye gains!!
>having sex with a girl
Faggot

>>76928134
>getting pegged by my wife
Preferably after a picnic, cheese, and wine. Then she makes me giggle at her jokes and tells me how pretty I am.

>>76927894
sir could you stop plagiarize my life

>>76928060
Have you tried slowly tapering down to re-establish your sensitivity?

>>76927805
I have the flu so bad I swear I almost died in my sleep last night. woke up like 8 times struggling for breath
I'm vaxxed btw

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The fear that I got too attached too quickly, and might have ended up scaring her away.

I can't help it, anything that touches my dick also touches my heart. And even if it might end up wounding me in the moment I don't want to be any other way.

>>76927805
I hear weird noises at night and it freaks me out because I imagine there's critters making those noises

>>76927974
After COVID a lot of the 24 hour places stopped being 24 hours for some reason

>>76928507
>for (((some reason)))

>>76928143
Reddit sex life

>>76927805
it's too hot under the blankie and too cold out of it.

>>76927805
High bpm.
You need to relax to fall asleep properly.

>>76927829
Sounds depressing and based at the same time.

>>76927805
Nothing, I slept like a baby

nothing cause I'm a heavy sleeper and have the opposite problem: things that make me depressed keep me from waking up
that said it's mostly burn out, i try so hard all the time and get so little time to myself, I feel like a slave to work, to my house, to my wife, to the peoeple around me, like if I take enough time for myself to truly rest and enjoy myself I'm a irresponsible idiot and god forbid I drink a little more than I should
I'm tired of being ashamed for who I am. the times when I was the happiest was when I finally got done with hiding myself from the world. I was so jaded that I became aggressive and confrontational. I was fighting with everyone, giving zero fucks, getting in trouble with everyone around me for standing up for myself. and I started to win.
but things have changed. now that I have a wife, an appartment to take care of and a profesional career to succeed at. I can't be fighting with my family, with my neighbors, with the law, risking getting beat up or stabbed for doing dangerous shit like before. I've also become soft, I don't wanna see the world burn anymore, I just want some slack.

>>76927805
>years passing by
>no job
>no gf
Soon my fitness goals would be around staying able to walk and exist normally rather than numbers going up or doing cool shit and I will have nothing

>>76927805

tomorrow's routine, preworkout pump mix selection and stimulator cocktail selection, high end items that i'm about to sell/buy. and what to eat the next day.

Yeah, I lie awake at night wondering how it’s possible for someone to live a life as worthless, pathetic, and miserable as mine has been, and never got any ambition or motivation to change or do anything to improve it and instead just wallow in complete misery every waking second of my life, thinking about how I’ve wasted everything, how far behind I am, and how I’ll never be happy or have any semblance of a normal functional life.

>>76927805
Usually it's the usual, 'man i'm tired of being single crap.' but it's actually I got punched in the face recently.

Bright side is, I learned getting punched in the face doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would.

Bad side is, I learned I don't like getting punched in the face.

Guess I need to go learn boxing now.

>>76927805
The girl at the coffee shop who I havent asked out yet.

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>>76927898

>>76927805
>Olympia of Infidelity
>A dull, unreliable middle-aged salaryman, Tamaki Kuroudo, is treated as a hopeless old man by everyone. Teased about his pot belly, treated coldly by his daughter at home, and when he happens to glance at his wife’s phone, he sees suspicious call logs with one of her coworkers. As he spends his pathetic days, his capable subordinate Ayase Mizuki invites him to the equipment room. While helping her move some equipment, he accidentally touches her breast and she records that very moment on video. After work, he’s blackmailed with the video and taken to, of all places, a sports gym? The price of sexual harassment is body transformation? A secret muscle-training comedy he hides from his wife!
Just read the first chapter, didn't realize I'd be into this type of thing. Thanks anon.

>>76927805
Late night is my only time for personal projects, looking for a new job, and lifting. The rest of my day is used up for my current job, my toddler, general maintenance of my home, and my ailing wife.

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>>76927805
For me:
>Cultured Thugs
>Tomboys & Muscle Mommies
>Being lazy
>Lack of confidence

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The bald spot on bradley martyns head keeps me up...

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>>76927805
The fact that jews basically run all are in full control of all western countries and de facto all countries after convincing some illiterate retards 2000 years ago that some rabbi died so they will all go to heaven if they believe him and in the scripture they wrote which is the sole reason for why things are the way they are today The scriptures includes them being god's chosen people (Deut 7:6),
moses telling them to kill innocent civilian women and take little underage goy girls as spoils of war to rape (Num 31:15-18),
jews should be lending money to goyim and rule over them (Deut 15:5-6) but not charge interest from other israelites (Deut 23:19),
spreading miscegenation because according to bible there are only two races, goy and jew (Gen 25:23) so according to bible white goy and negro miscegenation is not racemixing since they are both from the same nation and ancestor called esau as opposed to jacob the who scams and deceives his father to steal esau the goy's blessing btw (Gen 27) and which yahweh also hates esau the goy but loves jacob the deceiver (Mal 1:3, Rom 9:13),
the fact that communism is just christians and jews fulfilling bible (look up league of the just, eat the rich = Matthew 19:24) and is a repeat of the story of joseph in gen 47:18-19 who is sold into slavery to egypt by his fellow jews but ends up being a vizier in egypt and when his fellow jews come over to egypt he sells out and buys all of the arable land in egypt and enslaves egyptians with the threat of starvation
masonry which apparently pretty much everyone with influence is a member of, in its core is about making the world more biblically accurate and fulfill biblical prophecies and pretend they happened on their own accord as acts of god. Their most important symbols the jachin and boaz seen in pretty much all masonic lodges are from the bible which states that there were these two useless decorative/symbolic pillars which stood on the porch of yahweh's temple.

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>>76928623
Yep. It doesnt get any better than this

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>>76927805
i was thinking about this last night

>>76929169
i did this this past saturday. woke up, got some cereal and coffee, took a puff off the vape, turned on some simpsons and ate my cereal drank my coffee. then I started playing fallout 3

Nothing keeps me up because I'm usually too tired not to sleep. Although, most of my day is spent feeling the same way you do when you're kept up all night by the thoughts in your head, so not much of an improvement.

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>>76929075
>Tomboys & Muscle Mommies
based

>>76927894
Hello me from the future. I guess nothing will change in the next five years, like nothing changed during the last ten.

I want more money

currently saving 3k a month, but i can probably hit manager position in 2026 and start saving 6 possibly 7 if i stick to rice chicken broccoli. That means like half a kilo of gold saved every year which is effectively doubling my money saved in a 5 year period. I’m 30 currently and i really want to hit at least 1 million by 40. Currently 180k saved. By 50 i could retire comfortably with at least 3 million giving me 120k a year in dividends. (Or the equivalent adjusted for inflation ) While still having enough energy in my body to enjoy.

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when me legs are too sore to relax

>>76928716
>>76927829
Smoking a cig at 3am is definitely more based

>>76927805
All the time I wasted.
I’m 30 now…

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>>76927805
Fuck, I haven't got far in this one but I hope the husband doesn't cheat on his wife in the end, they resolve the misunderstandings and disagreements and their relationship actually improves.
I despise the filthy obsession japs have with NTR, it stinks of envy to high heaven.

>>76929675
Pretty much man. I’m just projecting here but if you’re the type of person who can let yourself rot through the most important years of your life in your 20s, it’s doubtful you’ll be able to fix yourself. I did that and then once I hit 30 it all hit me like a ton of bricks how I had completely ruined my life. And the past 4 years, have I done anything? Nope. I’ve continued ruminating and rotting into a further pit of depression, seeing how happy and successful everyone around me is, getting more and more despondent and miserable. To the point posting in a thread about how one or multiple times a week I lie in bed unable to sleep tearing up thinking about what I’ve done to myself, never achieved anything, never experienced anything, brain is complete slop, needing to kill myself just to alleviate the unconscionable shame guilt and regret that I have about my life

>>76927805
I can't stop wanting to be with her again. She's crazy but I love her so much. I'm being productive and doing my best each day but everything meaningless and empty without her in my life.

Spent 5k in the last two months on things helping my gf. 2k to fix her car, 1k for christmas presents she wanted, and another 1k to help her with her student loans. We've been together for five years and I thought everything was great. Decided to go through her phone and she's talking to some dude in Ohio, which is where her dad lives, and she's planning to vist there in February. I literally have no idea how to handle this situation. I didn't sleep at all last night and I haven't been able to think about anything since. Part of me just wants to freak the fuck out on her, but I know I need to start making arrangements to separate from her completely and do it smart. I am just so depressed that I did one set of OHP at the gym and just went to sit in my car for an hour after work.

>>76930165
I hate women so fucking much. Honestly, just kick her out or you will have to live with feeling like a cuck. This sounds reductive but she probably stopped feeling for you some time ago and is only in it for the money/stability now.

>>76927805
I don't go to sleep till the sun is up because night time is alone time, i can pretend my life is not shit because at night is not the time for life.
Then i put some video on to distract me from thoughts and tinitus and am asleep in 15 minutes max

>>76927805
Posting on /fit/, right now.

>>76930165
Anon, there is no doing it smart. Get everything you need and leave or kick her out. I left my ex wife after five years for the same reason. The last month was brutal causes she admitted she was lying the entire time and using me. You will feel alot better even after a week of not having her in your life. She does not love you. If you decided to stay together, good luck.

>>76927894
Like the others, this is scarily similar to me, down to the age and even the time i wake up and just ruminate for either half an hour or just never fall back asleep and decide to get out of bed. The suicidal thoughts started kicking in too once the seasonal depression settled in.

>>76930420
>even the time I wake up
Have you heard of “the witching hour”? It’s a long fabled hour in the day when it’s said that demons and spirits come out where bad shit happens, usually between 3-4 am. That’s why it’s not a surprise to see people get hit with this restlessness and ruminating at that time. But the real reason (not the demon BS) is usually that people are in REM sleep at that time and getting awoken from that makes you feel like shit

>>76927805
I keep listening to russian music

>>76929675
>>76930137
Have you guys thought about joining the military? It shouldn’t be too late at your age and you can hopefully test into a good role.

Just keep yourself open to the possibility of success and take chances when they come up, I didn’t accomplish much in my 20’s but was able to get a good opportunity in my 30’s and ended up making good money

>>76930165
>Spent 5k in the last two months on things helping my gf. 2k to fix her car, 1k for christmas presents she wanted, and another 1k to help her with her student loans. We've been together for five years and I thought everything was great.

This means nothing to women dude, they just take all this shit for granted. I lived abroad with my ex GF and I paid over $30k for her to get an advanced degree to help her career. Not to mention paying her rent, paying for vacations, and pretty much everything else every time we go out. Never cheated on her, never did anything to be a bad boyfriend...even spend two years taking lessons every day to learn her native language, even though she spoke English fluently, just to be closer to her. When she broke up with me, she told me she fell out of love because I was too comfortable and wasn't "chasing" her anymore. She was annoyed that I didn't plan more dates/events on the weekends and shit. And my female friends defended her (big fucking surprise) by telling me I was too focused on the future and not thinking about how she feels now. Just complete bullshit. Not saying I never did anything wrong but to just end it like that instead of working together to fix the problem is mind-blowing to me.

I'm not a classic /fit/ incel woman hater by any means, but honestly that's the last time I'll ever bother with an age gap relationship. She was significantly younger than me and at times like that, the lack of maturity really shows. Only women over 30+ for me now. Anyways, for you, just get rid of her man. It's heartbreaking and you'll feel like shit for a long time but you already know what you need to do. None of that money shit makes any difference to women. They don't care. They don't understand how much you care either. It's just day to day, moment to moment "feels" garbage and she'll never take responsibility for treating you like shit.

The things I can't outlift
>a score of random health scares all stemming from an auto immune disease that I should have in theory been done with years ago after a surgery
>having no social skills mostly due to my own introversion but also because I've spent nearly a decade in my room and hospital wards due to said disease
>having no friends
>having nothing to do outdoors that I can think of besides a swimming
>apostasy laws
I just feel like I've missed out on and forgotten so much and every time I try to push and motivate myself in an attempt to fix it ends up an uphill battle of "why even bother you'll probably end up discovering you have some new health issue that'll make it all pointless or it won't lead to anything because you don't have anyone to share it with".

>>76930165
Leave her asap

>>76927805
Finding a good Var source

>>76927910
>entering your 20's
Here's a protip: Just get a job doing something you don't hate. You don't even have to enjoy it, just not hate it. Work hard at whatever it is, get promotions, and use the money to live your life. With the money you get with that job, use it to explore and figure out if there's something else you're good at and would rather be doing. You have 10 years until you're 30 to figure this out.

If not, then become as good as you can possibly be at the job you're at and use the money to fund hobbies, creative projects, etc outside of work and live a full life that way.

>>76929005
Just read a few chapters. It's pretty good.
Looks like the dude puts out just one short chapter a month though.

Toxic friendships. My former best friend, in particular, has egocentric views and acts as if I am not worthy of the friendship if I cannot fit him into my schedule. He does not understand that I cannot just drop everything and make time for him just because a certain time suits him. He does not understand that this does not make him or the things he wants to talk about any less important to me.

>>76928272
I’m a creature of habit and the pre is something like a call to action for the gym. Almost in a weird discipline way. I think I’ll alternate to start, one day pre one day done or just half scoop going forward.

Everything is worth a shot. No matter how big or small, don’t go gentle into that good night, night owl anons.

>>76930641
Just say no then man

>>76930647
Instructions unclear, now boofing fent and sucking dick for it

>>76927805
i fall asleep the moment i hit the bed ngl gang

>>76927805
I cant sleep because she is always in my dreams. Literally nightly. From my dream journal my subconscious seems to view her as two people: the best friend i fell in love with and the spiteful BPDemon that emerged when she would enter the split mindset. It keeps me up because I know, I know i didnt date two girls who shared one face, I know it was all always her and she knew it too. Do you know the study about the rat drowning? How if you save him when he is just about to give up and drown - let him rest for a few minute - and put him back, he will push beyond exhaustion believing he will be saved? im the rat. it keeps me up, even though her demon side ended things in a way where she will never come back, i have been primed like that poor rat, conditioned to keep expecting another go at it. another chance to fix everything. But it wasnt that just the demon left me, she took the light of my life with her. I still dont know now which one was the mask, and it keeps me up at night, because both of them live in my dreams. And it seems i cant lift this memory away.

>>76930710
not reading allat you gay nigga

>>76929841
>All the time I wasted.
Who said you wasted your time? The people on the internet that tell you you have to do X in order to live a fulfilling life? Who cares what you do man

>>76927805
The girl I exchanged glances with at the dorm I was staying at but was taken. She seemed really nice and warm. Most women my age are so cold these days

I just miss my dog man...

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Ah 430 am. Let the lying awake ruminations begin

>>76927805
My inability to speak to girls and get a girlfriend due to insecurities

>>76927805
Recently got diagnosed with Diabetes type 1. If they discover it where I work they will fire me. Have to pass a medical check up at work in 5 months.

>>76927805
paranoid schizophrenia

>>76927937
that sounds like a normal school experience minus blacks existing. i take that for granted... if i ever have kids they have to go to a white only school, niggers are too vile

>>76927831
do not say that to your tall white friends, ever, for any reason
>>76927894
I know how you feel but you have to keep
going. you can never stop.
>>76927911
face pulls, sinus surgery with mouth taping, external rotator cuff exercise daily, rowing a lot, and use a body pillow
>>76927937
don't worry bro these moments haunt all of us until the day we die
>>76928500
critters can't hurt you relax
>>76928728
you need to draw some lines. set aside times and places for you to recharge even if that's something "worthless" like video games or youtube or tv slop. afterburners on 24/7 will fuck up every aspect of your life and every relationship. also set boundaries for yourself regarding which encounters you refuse to engage in. for example I refuse to correct women when they are wrong and instead turn my attention to their boyfriend or husband, and if they don't have one I just ignore them completely. I also refuse to discuss anything beyond the superficial with brown people. these two boundaries prevent 99% of arguments or fights from happening.
>>76928755
it doesn't matter, do what you can do. what can you do? who can you help? whether you get a high paying job and buy a house and have a wife and kids or you stay n33t and eat tendies and help mom carry the groceries in forever it doesn't matter just do whatever the fuck you want as long as you aren't hurting anyone
>>76928885
change your environment, surround yourself with new people and immerse yourself in a new situation and change your behavior in some new way. repeat as necessary until the feelings disappear. refuse to quit and refuse to fail. find God. I felt JUST LIKE YOU anon. and now I'm a geezer chad living it up.

>>76928896
I have said for years that every single person should be punched in the face once in their life for this exact reason. now you know: you're not a pussy and you can defend yourself or someone else without irrational fear, but you're also not a dipshit going around picking fights with everyone and running your mouth because now you have the humility of being punched in the face.

>>76931050
>If they discover it where I work they will fire me. Have to pass a medical check up at work in 5 months.
What job would fire you due to that? Army?

>>76927805

Nothing keeps me at night because I do a lot of cardio, have a super low resting heart rate, and high heart rate variability. And I meditate and dont drink caffeine after noon. So I sleep great

>>76931130
>meditation
I don't get it anon, I think it's literally fake and gay. can you please convince me otherwise so I can share in the positive experience you've had?

>>76931172

Just think of it as fitness for the mind, and approach the same way you would with lifting or running. Are you going to see massive benefits within the first two weeks of lifting, spending about 20 mins 3x a week? No obviously not. Same with meditation. You have to put in the time and get the technique right, same with lifting. Too many times see guys talking about how meditation didnt work for them and they were just trying to sit in their room in the quiet for like 15 minutes and determined it was bullshit.

>>76927805
nuttin
i fucken, ive never slept better since i started ocnsumign MASSIVE amounts of coffee through the day
i always go to bed feeling great and acomplished. it must suck to live life in the slow lane, that's why you can't sleep cos u aint doin nuttin

>>76931451
huge SoC on me btw, that helps
sense of coherence.
im literlaly 2 congruent for demoralization. you cant squeeze nothin in its 'over OFR U GUYS IT'S FUCKEN OVER
i am ONE with the entire universe
wait until i get my hood and cloak

>>76931455
I hope your hood and cloak are of middling quality and bring you more nuisance than pleasure

>>76931520
>>
it all depends on the quality of materials i source
i trust the the tailors the list of tailor shops i have in mind to craft it will do good work.
the material selection is paramount
i just dont understand why anyone would wanna dress in the standard shit, like,
thats so retarded tome
i don't get it i guess. i literally need the cloak and hood. i am growing infuraiated with regular normal people cltohe sbro, i'm fuckin gettin heated man im getting really fucking angry.

once you see what i see, once you get to my level (and no one here ever will), you would understand what i mean. but, maybe in 1000 lifetimes, you will achieve this level. but you cannto do it now. i was incredibly lucky

>>76931540
You are cripplingly autistic and having delusions of grandeur. I implore you to continue posting on this site as much as you possibly can so that we may laugh at your misfortune.

>>76931128
Air traffic control in Europoorland

>>76931552
sweet summer child

>>76930165
>>76928960

>>76931552
its really like weird to me, that not everyone wants to wear a cloak and a deep hood.
thats kind of like, now that i understand everything and exist on a completlely different plane, from where i'm standing, from this very very high place and i look down on you all, it seems extremely, extremely bizzare that everyone dresses essentially the same.
do you guys ever actually think about that?
sure you think you have styles, but its all thes ame

if everyone wore a cloak and deep hood, it still woulnd't be the same as everyone dressing the same right now, plus the deep hood is actually NORMAL, you're not supposed ot just wlak around and show your face to strangers, thats abberational, that's extremely weird bro
plus everyones cloak would be different because they all make their cloak and robe differently from the cloth they want, the type of stitching, and so on,
but, to wear store bought clothes, thats really weird, and also, pants and like shirts, that's extremely weird, and then not earing a hood??

not wearing a hood all the time? i can udnerstand the summer i guess, but even then a light linen hood would be good i think, i dont want anyone seeing my face, you're all extremely, extremely weird now that i think about it.

>>76931070
So, help me understand. If that's a normal school experience that means other white people can do it too, right? So how does that protect your future(?) children from not being bullied by white kids for the exact same things minus being bullied for being white?

>>76931789
Oh, you're just a paranoid schizophrenic

>>76931789
its the hood. i've narrowed down the problem to its essence
its the revealed face. we are forced to reveal our faces in public, liek slaves. we have no privacy.

if we had bare faces in the past its because we lived in small communities where your identity was fixed. to have your face exposed, ie to wlak around without a hood, in the modern world, is a gross invasion and violation of your privacy, it is a massive massive affront, a spit in your face.

i do not owe anyone the reveal of my face in a modern setting whether thats a small town or a giant city. i didnt sign up for this. and as usual, my intuition about this is compeltely in line with historical standards.

it makes NO sense to wlak around without a hood and to have your face revealed. it's, to me, the same basically as walking aorudn naked.

i am done. i'm telling you i'm done. i can't get my cloak made yet, but i can tell you that every single place i go i'm going to wear a hoody and have the hood up.

>>76931864
sweet summer child, i...
***pat on the head***
stroll along now, i think you have a netflix sitcom to watch or something

>>76931866
Every single camera on every single device with an internet connection is sending a live feed of your face to the NSA at all times.

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>>76927805
>wife and I have been having a lot more sex than normally lately
>wife and I work at the same place and have opposite shifts
>I don't play videa or anything but I have a Discord for my YouTube channel that I use to discuss related topics
>wife is one of around 5 Discord friends I have
>where we work tou aren't allowed to bring cellphones into the building and Discord is blocked on all the computers
>notice that she's still on it a ton anyway
>she changed her profile pic from a pokemon to a seductive lady doing seductive things
>huh, thats unusual for her tastes
>about to have vacation coming up soon, the only video I play which I haven't touched in a year just got a major update
>get her laptop to update the game
>she's signed our of her Discord
>weird, she uses it to play DnD every week with some online nerd friends and I have never seen it signed out before
>go to bed
>she wakes me up when she gets home around 2AM
>pretend to sleep until I hear snoring and check her phone
>her background is an AI picture of her DnD character and another one I'm not familiar with embracing provocatively
>tf
>check her gallery
>not even joking like 80 similar AI images of them touching provocatively
>get on her discord
>find the other dude who's avatar is on her background
>them embracing is also the background of his phone via screenshot
>turns out they have been writing a sex fanfic of their two characters (some segments are >20 pages long at a time) and talking about how it makes them feel for the last 3 months
>the reason she's getting home so late is because she's voice chatting with him in the work parking lot for up to 3 hours a night after getting off work and then coming home afterwards
>read for almost 6 hours before going into work
>a few times in the last month she's visited her DnD group in person and this guy is also there
>it's a ~4 hour round trip to see them and $25 in tolls

This is so bizarre I don't even know where to begin with it.

>>76932010
Good luck on the divorce. Be sure to tell your friends and family she cheated before she has a chance to spin a web of lies.

>>76932010
time to dress up as that dude's character while you fuck her

>>76932022
From what I can surmise they have never had anything actually physically happen. He's a 400LB man-child/land whale and even though he is clearly interested in my wife she shuts down any advancements that he makes immediately and reminds him of boundaries for whatever that means.
>>76932085
She probably pictures it every time we fuck desu. She's been reading smut novels for the past 9 months or so and I attributed her sex drive to that but we have only been more intimate the last month.

>>76932094
You're staying with this bitch after discovering all this? I don't normally call people cucks, but you're a cuck, dude.

>>76927805
chronic nerve pain

Everything's fine is the problem. I don't have any financial problems, interpersonal struggles, or a woman holding me down. I'm doing great in the gym and I'm about to bench 315. I'm inching closer to 30 years old with success under my belt. I'm maxxing out my investment accounts and living a quiet, peaceful life. The problem is that I want more than that. I don't know what the fuck I do any of this for anyways.

Job is fine but I'm not passionate about it and hate dragging myself out of bed to put on a fake personality at the office. I try to bond with my roommate, but all he does is watch Nick Fuentes streams and scream at the top of his lungs about the Jews every time I try to converse with him about literally anything else (not that he's wrong but it gets old). And, in a cruel twist of fate, here I find myself complaining about having half my rent paid in exchange for doing a few extra dishes.

I guess I can keep working towards purchasing a house. But, once I've achieved that goal and paid off the whole thing, why the fuck am I here? That thought keeps me up at night. I have no purpose and no desire to continue.

>>76932094
Anon, if I were you, I'd still consider this infidelity. She had the opportunity to ask you to do this nasty shit with her, but she chose to introduce another man into her life to satiate her.

It's your husbandly duty to indulge all your wife's nasty, depraved fantasies. With that being said, she didn't even give you a chance to, and that's wrong.

>>76927805
Nothing. I sleep like a baby

>>76927805
im lonely and too autistic to do anything about it

Cheated on my wife 3 months ago with a coworker. Relationship had gone sour with her moving a 3 hours drive away for work. Didn't see each other much, and when she was home was was always tired, wanted to do nothing and easy to anger. I was fed up with it. I confessed immediately the next day after it happened and we tried to make things work these past months but the jarring realisation was that I don't love her anymore. I dropped that last Friday, and she angrily kicked me out with nothing but the clothes I was wearing and my phone. Slept on friends' couches the past few days.The only upside to this all is that the coworker I cheated with is actually into me, and that I might actually ask her on a date in a few weeks.

>>76932010
I want to let you know that i've been through similar shit in 2021 with my ex. Is gonna be hard but when you are ready you have to leave her. Good luck

>>76930165
Damn bro. I am sorry. Sell back the xmas presents or put em on facebook marketplace. Cut all ties and everything. Very tragic. I don't get how you can put so much effort into a relationship and someone can throw it away without a second thought. Not to mention fucking cheat.

That is part of the reason I am very hesitant to even have my girl move out with me, as I would be taking a brunt of the costs.

>>76932094
>>76932177
This. At any point, she could ask to role-play with you or some shit. Not hard at all to ask.

>>76932181
Dating a cheater is a red flag but good luck

>>76930458
I feel like she was using you for money if anything. If she wanted to go out more often she would have just told you. Nobody jumps straight to a break up over something like that.

>>76932170
join some local interest groups and become a stand up guy in your chosen community. join the board of local nonprofits that make impact, become known, youll end up at political events and you could run for office. its this, or leverage your success so far to get a officer role in your chosen branch and deploy for adventure.

>>76930165
Remain calm and first confirm that its not her brother or cousin or anything like that. If things are what they appear to be then take a few days to make sure everything you need is packed up, passwords changed, her name isn't on any of your shit, etc. and immediately end it. No negotiating, extended talks, arguing, "taking a break", etc. Just get a clean break up and go your separate ways.
Also it wont feel this way in the moment but consider it a blessing to have to deal with this from a GF instead of a wife.

>>76932170
Literally the only thing you talk about is money. First thing you mention is not having financial problems. Then you mention maxing your investment accounts. Then you talk about your job. You talk about your horrible roommate but at least he covers half your rent. Then you talk about paying off a house. Literally all you have in your life is money money money money money. Then you say that your lack of “a woman holding you down” and “interpersonal struggles” is actually a positive in your life when in reality those are the reason you have no purpose or reason to be here nexuses your entire life for a literally just on the pursuit of money. Pathetic.

>>76932385
Btw if anyone has it, someone post that webm of the white nerd with glasses standing at his stove saying “I got the apartment the degree the job and car, is this all there is?” Because it applies perfectly to you. No friends and no relationship, thinking that money is your ultimate goal to happiness

>>76932385
Fuck dude, you've got yourself a point. I've been moneymaxxing for so long that I didn't even realize that it's all I even talk about when I want to bare my soul. I'm going to change this about myself.

>>76932365
I'd prefer the former...working for ZOG doesn't interest me. I do have interests and hobbies that I've been neglecting for a while. I was a gigging drummer in high school/early college and would love to start doing that again.

>>76932396
I've seen it around many times. The irony is that I thought it didn't apply to me since I have a good relationship with my parents, work from home, and lift weights.

Trying to get std free sex for just my aesthetics. Straight sex at that. DOMS for the late nights weeps like a little baby

>>76932486
>>76932491
start drumming, get into yohr loval music scene, engage as an artist with other artists again. record some shit and put it on sournclpud or ig or somewhere build a presence. make a website. meet a girl with the same fundamentals as you - music, other interests. as soon as you have a good woman youll find purpose in family. the trick is finding someone who clicks and you have to embrace your own interests and persona for that. bitches fucking love musicians so send it dude

>>76932181
You are disgusting and a fag. Should have divorced your wife before being with another woman. Absolute faggot coward.

>>76932496
>because I work from home
And yet another “brag” about his job that has absolutely nothing to do with the topic at hand

>>76932503
Hell yeah. I will. Thanks anon

>>76927829
Riding my unicycle through the abandoned mall at 3am to spook the liminal space zoomers doing tic tok investigation bullshit

>>76927831
You're just a quart low

>>76932184
This.
>>76932010
Its not the DND group that is worrisome, its the insane lengths and time that she's putting into it that's a redflag. She's putting the sex RP thing before you. Maybe she doesn't feel like she could do this with you or some other kind of bullshit.

The conclusion will likely be that she wants to have her nerdy geeky DnD roleplay sex with the other dude while also enjoying the fun stuff she's getting from you. You need to deal with this situation and probably storming off ASAP will be bad, but give it a few months. Don't make the shit mistake I made and let relationship infidelity bullshit drag on for around 2 years where you're slowly rebuilding trust just to see it crushed again. You kill yourself mentally and during all that time you could've found someone who actually put your needs first.

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Those I've failed.

My girlfriend is a CFO making more money a year then I've seen in my life and she recently told me she's with me for my looks and because I have a big cock and now I don't know if I should feel like a chad or a backup plan/safe bet
This isn't a shitpost it's a cry for help

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>>76927805
my intense desire to sleep on my back, and failing every single night.

>>76932813
Sure bro

>>76932813
>Trophy boyfriend to rich gf
Nigga, get yo bag nigga gotdamn

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The thermic effect of FEWD. Either that or starvation.

>>76930458
Ur a fucking loser and a simp

I think i might be actually psychopathic. I literally seem unable to care about anything that doesn’t affect me. At work people think of me as super friendly and helpful. I’m the go-to mentor, my boss says new hires always flock to me for guidance etc but i don’t care about them at all. I just help them out cause I like being respected and appreciated. One of them got laid off last week due to budget (thanks Trump) and was sobbing to me and the only thing i could think about was how annoying her crying was and what i would eat for dinner

I’m not even trying to be edgy. It’s a weird mix where i can completely understand a persons motivation and feelings. But I’m completely apathetic towards it, unless i fabricate emotion. Kind of like the show Hannibal with the main character being able to role play the murderers in the crimes he’s solving. Without the gay attachment.

>>76933165
I used to think I was a psychopath too. I think it's just aspergers. Since autists lack the capacity for empathy, but they can simulate it if they're high enough IQ.

>>76927805
Question why
in 3 years i lost a lot weight (400-180), stopped smoking, stopped drinking alone, found a job, stopped consuming caffeine, i even lowered the amount of porn i watch which was the hardest of it all (no puns)

still i wake up at 6 am and just lay on bed for 5 min asking myself why
i was this close of doing something stupid so i said maybe a change in scenery would help so i try to apply for work visa in any country so i can work in a farm or factory or hotel something... turns out no-one wants to give a work visa to a university drop-out

fixing your life may help. it didn't work for me but hey at least i can climb stairs without break so that something

>>76933176
Maybe. I don’t think i actually have Asperger’s though. At the very least I’m very high functioning. It’s not so much that I’m incapable of human interaction. I just don’t care.

sup gankstas

>>76931113
good post

>>76932794
Are you the guy who trained to become a vigilante?

>>76932181
kys

My hip and lower back pain it always feels stuck

That I’ve accomplished nothing in my life
That I’ve never experienced any of the normal things that people do in their lives (I could make a laundry list of things I’ve never done, experienced, or owned and most people probably wouldn’t believe me)
That I still live in one of the most beautiful, wealthy, successful places in the world (because I had the misfortune of growing up here and never leaving mommy and daddy’s house) and I’ve experienced and gotten none of it
That I’m immeasurably insecure about these things and yet instead of using them to motivate myself to change and/or to leave, I use it as a reason to hate myself even more, think about how guilty, ashamed, regretful, and humiliated I am, and see why there’s no point

I spend most of my time literally scoffing to myself about how much of a loser I am. I’ll just be walking down the street or even just see other people who are clearly normal happy and successful and just scoff to myself, say of course, reflect again on how much of a loser I am, demotivate and beat myself up even more. I haven’t been happy in likely more than 20 years. You know what it’s like to spend what should be your most formative and happy years angry and miserable the entire time? I wish suicide pods existed. I wish I could press a button before going to sleep and just die painlessly during the night so I wouldn’t have to be “kept up at night” anymore

>>76927805
That picture is literally me, save the hot anime girl part, I'm in bed roasting every night, I lay there with the covers off while I'm in my underwear with two big box fans going on full blast and with my ceiling fan at full blast sweating my ass off, in fucking December and I can't sleep for shit because its too hot.

Fuck Florida.

>>76932813
ask for a ring on your finger

>>76933745
>lives in florida
>doesn't have an ac

>>76933817
Wish I had that kind of money.

unemployment

>>76927937
you need to make a list of these people, quietly locate each of them, then destroy them without them knowing it was you. Keep destroying them. The niggers are easy, just follow court records. This will cure you.

Woke up with a migraine. Can't take pain meds.
Ugh.

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I don't know where else to post this rather blackpilling incident
Background
>be uncle
>tall good looking
>c suite manager at large company
>typical high performing male
>has a beautiful family of well raised children
Incident 1
>one day visits my apartment with his family
>my cat brushes his feet
>he gets audibly shocked and stands up (he's not a fan of cats)
>his wife makes a disgusted face and lambasts him for reacting that way instead of checking on him
>okay.jpeg
Incident 2
>my grandma, uncles mom, passes
>uncle cries during eulogy
>after crying his heart out he sits
>wife, next to him, doesn't comfort him at all
I don't really know what to make of this except no matter how high value you are, you can't really show any weakness to the one who supposedly should have your back

>>76933890
>>his wife makes a disgusted face and lambasts him for reacting that way instead of checking on him
Based wife. You have to be a special kind of psychopath to not like animals and his wife is right to be wary of him
>>wife, next to him, doesn't comfort him at all
I mean, what do you want her to do? People sit and cry in silence at funerals. Maybe put a hand on his back or something, but it's not the time nor place to make a scene and start group hugging or give words of encouragement and shit during a fucking eulogy. I guarantee you she supported him plenty at home in private

>>76933956
>You have to be a special kind of psychopath to not like animals
The wife hates animals even more lol
>Maybe put a hand on his back or something
That's the thing, nothing was done, not even a pat on the back

>>76933956
>I guarantee you she supported him plenty at home in private
Gonna need a source on that, chief

>>76933890
>c suite manager at large company means he’s high value
They’re the most worthless people in society

>>76927805
That i couldnt deadlift my last pr attempt (210kg/463lbs). I tried 200kg/441lbs before and did it, but these damn 10 extra kilos fucked me.

>>76931854
thats just part of growing up, honestly if you dont have it worse at home then feel blessed that kids being kids to you is all you have to worry about. i was a fucking asshole in school and people treated me as such, it showed them a valuable lesson early on. that people arent all sunshine and rainbows and the real world sucks ass.

Thinking about how it’s a week away from Christmas and despite being in my 30s I’ve never bought a Christmas present for anyone. Never had a girlfriend to buy a present for. Never really had friends to buy presents for. The only family I would regularly see are my parents (no siblings) and I’ve never really bought them anything because a. They buy stuff all the time b. They’re hoarders and don’t need more shit c. They don’t have hobbies so I don’t even know what to get them

And also in the past the handful of times I’ve bought been gifts for birthdays or holidays usually they either don’t use them or it becomes an argument in some way

But yeah basically just a good indicator of how alone I am

Frequently after workouts i am too tired to sleep. My heart is still pumping, I cant think and focus on anything, but sleep is completely impossible, if i am lucky ill fall asleep at like 3 AM.

G

>>76927894
Fucking hell lad why did you have to do me this dirty during Christmas season?
Most of the failures you mentioned apply to myself as well but I've learned to live with it. Maybe once every couple weeks I feel down when thinking how bad I fucked up to the point of having no social life whatsoever and being on minimum wage at 35 but the rest of the time life goes by without any pain and usually I sleep like a baby but this night after reading your post I woke up at 4am sharp with a dreadful feeling and thought about it for like a few seconds before falling asleep again.

I come to this place for a laugh or the unusual inspirational post, not to become more aware of how shit life is.

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>>76932010
>3 hours on the phone
>in person visits
>he's (apparently) 400lbs
Brother...

>>76927805
The fact I'm in love with a married woman. It's not just that, but also the fact she seems me like a monster, it just hurts to see her avoid me despite both of us having a casual friendship prior.

>>76933165
>annoying her crying was
I've been there a few times.
Lots of us have some of the traits but aren't Ted Bundy tier lunatics. Don't worry about it.

>>76934691
Yeah anon that was me through my 20s, just living with it and not really thinking about it or caring. Then I hit 30 and it hit me like a brick wall so everything went to shit. I went from at least interacting and joking with people to pretty much shutting down and becoming as miserable as possible, and it’s been that way for 4 years. Did I use the 4 years to improve my life? Of course not. Just thinking about how I wasted all my life and now it’s beyond help

>>76927805
The fact that none of us will reach the potential of our specific genetic blueprint because of the sheer amount of toxins in our environment. The fact that we do everything wrong from the moment we're born like wearing conventional shoes and being fed baby formula to being pumped full of pharma slop

>>76927937
>>76927949
We can't forever living our lives through our traumas and bad memories. We have to move on. I know what it feels like be haunted by your past everyday. I wish I could forgive myself for my own weakness and even though I'm not exactly a religious person I'd pray to god to give me enough strength to do such a thing.

>>76927805
>What's keeping you up at night, /fit/?
everything i've done wrong
but i cheat it by literally getting ultra-tired
this way i just fall into bed with no struggle

>>76927910
>failure to launch
Don't even worry about that. Life is best enjoyed while young.

>>76934882
Know the feeling far too well and it's definitely pretty difficult to change your perspective when you keep getting older but still have nothing to show for, missed all the important milestones and are stuck in a permanent state of numbness. It sucks but the very least we can do is enduring the suffering with the hope of a better tomorrow, succumbing to the darkness isn't an option.

>>76927910
You have alot of potential when you are that young as long as you make the right decisions and live fully, well i don't know how to do it or if you could succeed or not or is it just based on luck but that's what i learnt from my failures.

Also it's really easy to succeed when you are young it's gets harder and nigh impossible later on.

>>76927805
got in a verbal fight with my Dad today as he was insulting our ancestry and hurt his feelings. i dont see a good way either of our lives end or our relationship working out. we're both horrible with emotions. please fix yourselves while you still can

>>76935217
There never will be a better tomorrow, anon. When you’re people like us who make it to our mid 30s with no accomplishments or milestones, when you’re a person who has the most important years of your life in your teens and 20s and early 30s and can’t get the motivation to work on yourself and develop then, when you’re sitting here in middle age 10-15 years behind where you’re supposed to be, you aren’t suddenly going to flip a switch, get all the motivation in the world, and fix all these deficient aspects of your life. For me it’s similar logic to all the people who love to parrot the “dude just solo travel bro, you’ll find yourself, you’ll be forced to interact with people” advice to losers like me. I can think of few things more terrifying than the prospect of traveling alone, thinking that the horrendous personality and lifestyle I’ve spent over 30 years creating is going to flip 180 degrees because I’m in a different place on the map. No, I’ll just go there and not only will I still not talk to anyone and be miserable, it now I’ll have the added stress of hundreds or thousands of dollars spent on travel expenses, in a place where maybe there’s a big language barrier, knowing that I’m supposed to be enjoying it but I’m not, etc.

Sorry for the “doomer, crabs in a bucket” mindset if you or anyone even bothered to read this, but unfortunately this is how my loser brain analyzes situations. It’s also why I won’t go to therapy, because there’s no point. No therapist will either a, be able to relate to me, or b, be able to remedy the lifetime of shame, regret, and humiliation of what I’ve done to myself.

>>76927805
drinking too much liquids.

>>76935578
Why are you listening to yourself? You said it on your own: you're a loser. I wouldn't listen to a loser. Whybare you? Go fix your shit

>>76927805
Thief FM

>>76927805
the gas and bloating from GOMAD is keeping me up
damn it mark you never warned me about this

>>76935578
save 6k in a year 500/mo and spend a year traveling a low cost route. southeast europe thru turkey to syria. sea, vietnam thru thailand to bali malaysia singapore and phillipines. fuck it, go to uganda and ball out working at a safari. you can make friends and memories at any age. do t doom man. make some moves. i was born when my dad was 47, he had a crazy life rhat mostly took off from his 20s traveling and moving around the world and eventually he made it work. nobody has a blueprint for what is success. all my money i spend traveling every year ror two, making friends, making memories, living my best life as i can. do what makes you happy and fuck the nigger in your head.

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>>76927805
Lads I think I can only be loved and fall in love with a muscular femdom tomboy.
I knew one once and I left her and now she's with a disgusting guatemalan (don't ask I don't even know how) and I'm stuck haunting dating apps.
Only thing I have going for me is my 6-pack is back but the only girls that like/match with me on apps are at least 5 years younger than me now and dumb as rocks.

>>76927805
I have a staph infection on my stomach rn

This rock hard shit I’m trying to pass without too much blood.

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>>76935905
Welp, partial success.

>>76935921
On a cut? Stress? Dehydrated?

>>76927805
Kratom withdrawal. Cutting back is easier at night without outside world stressors. Go 8 hours dry, take unisom, sleep 8 hours, and hey, 16 hours with no kratom.

Shit needs to end. Taking some time off work after Christmas to suffer through the rest of this and get it done and in the past where it belongs.

>>76929233
My lifting goal is to mog the strongest girl I've seen at the gym. Hopefully that leads to something, I noticed she was literally bending down with her ass in full view when I was near. Or maybe I'm so beneath her she doesn't even care if I look?

>>76935921
Vaxx status?

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>>76927937
A good trick with these is to view the memories like something you saw happening to another kid.
Think "man, that was rough, kids are jerks. I hope he's doing well now."

Remembering losses keeps you feeling bad, so stop associating with that bullied kid, be a sympathetic but passive bystander in those memories.

Same goes for any anons struggling to forget cringe stupid stuff they did in their younger years.
That was some other kid you saw exploding, or dropping his spaghetti, or putting himself out there and getting rejected.

You know enough about his life to say "it's no wonder he said/did those things, given the situation. I'm sure he's doing fine now."

It does no good to dwell. You need to just move on from it. There's literally no insight to be gained by rewatching a memory of your young self make mistakes, in an environment that no longer exists, with people who are no longer the same.

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I've been thinking lately about all the things that are decorative.
The planet has so many cool things, and we interrupt those things to give ourselves decorations.

We neuter the cat, taking away it's ability to procreate, for our convenience. We love the thing, but we kill it, it becomes decorative.

We cut flowers, killing them, because they look nice for a few days on the table, as decoration.

People are now largely decorative. So many people are alive just to run service jobs for other people who run service jobs.

I dunno man, I don't think I want to decorate or be decoration

>>76927805
>"why am i sleeping when i could be genning and gooning to AI porn?"

>>76936437
Curious, I came to the same realisation recently. I was identifying with cringe shit from years or even over a decade ago, but then I started telling myself that shit happened to a different person. I'm not that guy anymore. It helps.

I've been cutting and found that because I was chronically low on glycogen my cortisol was spiked and that was causing me to get shit sleep, adding a bowl of rice and cutting back on my protein a bit while staying within my caloric goals fixed the issue with my sleep, but I'm not hitting my protein goals anymore but getting good sleeps I deemed as more important than getting 1.5g per lb of lbm or lessening the cut.

the fact that i cant stomach the fact that a girl i know might be into me and im too scared to ask her out because shes also the ex of a friend of mine

I can't escape my humiliating past
it's immortalized on the internet
and my arms haven't grown an inch in 2 years

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>>76927805
I miss my BPD ex.
I don't care the love and affection weren't real. At least I got love and affection.
(...and tons of horny sex)

>>76936820
BPD??? whats that?

>>76935820
>dumb as rocks
So they're brain matched. Not seeing the issue here.

>>76936822
Big Polish Dishes. She was a chef.

>>76936822
Burger and Pizza Diner. Always making exquisite food.

>>76936827
>>76936836
ok ok...but seriously... what is it? im not following!

Recently I've had a community outreach center (open air drug den) open up across the street from where I live. I don't have the money to move, and worked really hard to get the house I'm in so I don't want to sell it. I've had 10+ break-ins this year and the last few ended violently. The cops aren't doing anything about it, and even though I put up cameras and have evidence of them breaking and entering my home I am "not allowed" to prosecute them according to the judge who presides over criminal court here (Canada is so gay, never go here).

People in my neighborhood are selling off their places one by one, or renting them out as airbnbs, and it's gotten to the point where my kid doesn't have any friends on my street anymore. I'm laying awake at night wondering if I should just start killing these junkies, but I can't bear the thought of my child growing up without both parents and my wife having to deal with things on her own. Things feel pretty hopeless bros.

>>76935578
Travelling abroad unironically is a major confidence booster. You're out of your comfort zone and the new language, people, flavors and sights every single day makes you more outgoing and risk taking.
At home I avoid doing things alone because someone you know might see and judge you but abroad I couldn't give a fuck, I'll ask questions to random people in the street, I'll tell scammers to fuck off, I'll get drunk a enjoy myself, it's like a window for the person I really wanted to be.

At home I'm shy, over conscious, anxious but somehow that all goes away as soon as I land in Italy or Slovakia.

As for small wins I had one today, just went to this nice coffee shop and stood there alone enjoying a couple beers a a decent snack. Sometimes life ain't all that bad.

>>76936822
Big piss drinker

>>76936888
as a foreigner from outside the US, it seems to me like a small town in the Midwest is your solution to what troubles you my man. just avoid any place with too many Somalis lmao

>>76936903
does that count as bdsm? im currently talking to a girl whos into that but im not sure if she'd go that far? even though ive always wanted to try doing that

>>76927805
Work mostly. With the holidays getting closer the more we get called out for people who offed themselves. Sucks every time we find a grandpa hanging from the garage rafters, or a middle aged woman in a bath tub with her arms cut open.

>>76937227
Damn that's a tough life dealing with the results of people that decided to end their lives. The holiday season really is a hard time to endure if life isn't going your way.

>>76927805
Man this thread is depressing. Nothing keeps me up, I sleep like a corpse. I shut my eyes and the next time I wake up is to my alarm on my phone. Hell, half the time I fall asleep along side my kid (always read him stories before bed). I wake up at 02:45 four times a week to hit the gym, so I essentially go to sleep at the same time as him. Normally I aim to slunk out and say goodnight to the missus and the his little brother, but I'm just gassed a lot.

Legit, my only concern is that I don't get enough sleep. I work two jobs and lift/run. It's hard to align it all. Wish I had more loose time in my schedule for my hobbies too.

But legit, I can't complain. Never been happier.

>>76936888
Any chance you can burn the cunt down without being caught?

>>76927894
Your goals are too big. Choose one of the below

1. Choose a big goal and break it down into small steps, with the first one that you can complete within a month..
2. Choose smaller goals but more of them.

Focus on changing one thing and do it completely rather than trying to change everything at once.

And like the other anon said, keep going. Like the saying goes, "if you're going through hell, keep going."

>>76927910
Terry ate pasta and drank tons of soda. Kill yourself ketoschizo.

>>76933844
A window AC is like 300 max for the nicer ones, how the fuck can you not afford to get one?

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>>76927805
>“The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’

>>76927805
Life long skinny fat, always wanted to get fit and bulk up but every time I tried doing any weight training my blood pressure would drop, vision goes dark, almost passing out, etc
When I discovered this I was hoping it was somewhat common to diagnose and get some treatment so I could do it, but after multiple appointments, tests, and years gone by I still don't know, and I don't know if it is getting worse.
I always worried about pushing it and my heart just giving out or something so I never did that (and I won't).
It is on my mind lately because I have been getting some other weird symptoms while not doing any sort of weight training that I don't know if they are related.

>>76927910
I remember making a similar post 5 years ago.
How time flies. I'm worse off than I was then haha

>>76927805
I'm slowly coming to realize that I'm not capable of understanding that love is shown towards me. I'm in therapy and have gotten past thinking that no one was paying attention to me, but realizing I just haven't cared is making me care

>>76927910
Nigger, you mean you're 19? Fuck you. Fuck yourself. You got nothing but time. Pick a direction and run as fast as you can. Get gud at something. Find an okay job that 40 hours a week covers your basic needs. Then find something that brings you true fulfillment. That is much harder but worth it.

I found my fulfillment. Ive been an art fag my whole life. But it took me until I was 28 to get a high paying job with any skill I had. You will always feel behind. That's okay, use that as fuel not a distraction.

>>76927805
I am reflecting upon this year. A lot has changed for me. I almost got a felony for trafficking drugs across the US. I lost my fiancé, my job and my car. I also lost 50lbs and can bench a plate now. I moved back in and out of my parents place. I lay here looking at an unfamiliar ceiling with my mattress on the floor. I landed a great job, making more money than I ever have before with benefits and all remote.

But as the year closes. Why do I still feel so empty? So miserable? So full of hate? All of my friends are happy for me and the changes I've made. Why cant I be happy for me?

Meth and thoughts of my ex.

>>76927894
Turning 34 next April, and I also live with my parents, with no house. Only difference is I sleep like a baby nowadays and never wake up anymore. I know that the regret and shame may seem insurmountable, but let me help you carry on, because you absolutely should. The fact you still live with your parents means that you are probably lucky enough to have been born to ones that love you. Even if they are disappointed, that in itself is an insanely fortunate roll. You're also glorifying a bunch of grass that isn't as green as you think it is. Corporate wagie? Living hell. Most careers? Unsuited to you or a nightmare that consumes your whole life. Having a wife or girlfriend? Extremely dependent on your selection of woman, and the wrong choice could make you wish you were back being a lonely loser. No housing? Absolutely terrible, but also probably means no DEBT. Be grateful for the little you have. Yes, you have wasted 15 years of precious, invaluable time that you will never, ever get back. But ruminating on that won't change anything, except your likelihood of perpetuating the cycle or killing yourself. The beautiful thing about being at absolute rock bottom is no-one has any expectations of you. You are effectively a clean slate. You have a very, VERY late start, but you can take your life in whatever direction you desire now. And you have the maturity and life experience to make a far more considered choice than someone 15 years your junior. It'll take a decade or longer, but you can still turn yourself into what you want to be. You just have to have the courage to stop punishing yourself for the past, and make the most of today. Embrace the schizophrenic MADNESS of your situation, let it possess you, and go after whatever you really want to do. You literally have nothing to lose, so why not try? Anyway, ganbare brother. You can do it. And I swear to god, you better fucking lift.

>>76933860
unironically this

>>76938803
Enjoy jail

Seeing people around me actually make it
Even my best friend is getting married now, I wish him all the best of course, but I'm really struggling to make anything happen for myself

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>>76927805
Nothing, I sleep great. I was a NEET for a year, but then decided to do a forklift course and now I have a stable job, and thanks to living with parents I can save 90% of my money and invest it. I work out, read books, play games, watch movies, interact A LOT with people at work. My family would see it as bizarre, as for them I'm an eccentric introvert who rather stays in his room, but at work I'm the guy who strikes first the conversation. I talk with my coworkers, boss, hr girls. Any kind of things from video games to politics.
It's true that 'when amongst crows, you must caw as they do'. I'm filling my interaction needs with humans like that easily, and simultaneously develop my own speaking skills, which helps me with everyday life.
I'm not afraid at all of starting new job, changing professions, talking to a stranger, chasing for a new skill.
I bet I would be more anxious if I had some debts, or shit people around I have to deal with. But with the latter I learned to deal by responding to other humans the same as they do to me. If someone is nice to me, I return it back. If someone is bad to me, I return it back. The thing is, if you behave that way, people WILL respect you more, you just can't be afraid to sometimes tell someone that he's a liar, hypocrite, faggot, or simply to tell them to fuck off. It works.
So, everything is fine. I just hope there won't be a WWIII and I won't have to die for jewish interest, or my country won't be flooded with third world sub 80IQ immigrants

My sister had a baby with a degenerate and she is bringing all that emotional trauma dumping into my parents. This has been going on for 3 years and I don't know what to do. Once the bum called my mom screaming at her and I called him right away and he stopped for a bit but now it begun again. My parents are coping that my sister is sick and we need to help her but this shit is so toxic

>>76938539
Drug trafficker loses everything, then gets a high paid fully remote job, of course

>>76938586
Every once in a while you find a gem post on /fit/. This one is it.

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>>76938823

>>76938843
Are you bigger than the guy?

>>76930165
Hey Anon, I had my GF cheat on me too, found out the same way. I took her back, but I don't think you should in your case. She was young, not even in her 20s yet and we had only been together two years or so, and I only took her back to see if forgiveness could ever work in a case like that. And she put in work to show her loyalty and how serious she was to keep the relationship. She never asked me for much money either.

In this case, your GF has stolen money from you, planned time with this guy, and most likely was very serious with keeping an ongoing relationship with him. Even if you forgave her, that shows she not taking your relationship seriously at all, especially with how much you've given her. Forgiveness is also a hard, lonely, insecure path. At the end, I feel better, but I could have felt just as better if I had dumped my GF. The only difference is which struggle you'd like to fight.

>>76938980
yes, he is 173cm and im 178cm but i think he is a little heavier.

>>76939098
Tell him to fuck off then. Next time he gets aggravated with your mom teach him a lesson.

>>76938586
This is a good mindset to have, but are to successful outside of living with your parents?

>>76935939
ive been wanting to try 7-oh but kratom is illegal in my state and no one will ship it here, so ive just been staying sober. havent drank booze in 2 years, havent done narcotics in 5 years.

>>76938949
I had a full time job, bro. I worked fulltime overnight at a warehouse. I wasn't some drug runner, I was moving a few pounds of Marijuana from a legal state to a non legal state in order to buy a car. But yeah, I got a ridiculously high paying full remote job, enjoy being a little wage slave faggot.

Maybe work on your skills, resume or portfolio. Oh and I am 8 months clean now.

>>76927805
It's the only moment where I can enjoy silence, stay with my thoughts (my true ones) and enjoy a good film.

I know is bad for health and every morning insufferable, but at this point is the only thing that makes me chill and relax.

>>76927805
My former self. I’ve come full circle
>chubby kid
>fat kid
>8th grade growth spurt end up skinny (didn’t know until I looked at pics recently, thought I was still obese)
>gained it all and more back year later
>12th grade lose it all intentionally better habits exercise diet etc
>college begins rail thin
>life changes
>start lifting
>life gets better
>on top of the world feel like the king the top dog instead of the weak fat loser for once
>go through bullshit get depressed stop giving shit about diet stop lifting
>spend 22-29 obese losing more and more muscle basically lost all
I’m 30 in a week. I want to fix this. It keeps me up at night. It says at me daily these days. It was on my mind before I saw this thread. I’m gonna sell a bunch of stuff I don’t need and buy some adjustable dumbbells and a bench, maybe a couple other things like doorway pull-up bar maybe a vest to walk in.


What can I do in my apartment?
>bench
>curls
>row
>pullups/chins
>pushups
>various deltoid movements
>shrugs
>tricep stuff
>lunges
>goblet squats

How do I form a 3 day routine based on that?

>>76940032
Just figure it out. Start off doing movements you like, some basic curls to give you a bicep pump so you feel good about yourself.

Do that every day, unless you can't cause you're sore from the day before. Use a weight that starts out easy and gets hard around 12 reps.

Add others in, string them together into fun little routines that hit a couple of glamor areas. The important thing is to make it rewarding in the short term, because you won't care about the long term rewards today or tomorrow.

Just do some simple lifts at home and go for a lot of walks to lose fat.

>Adjustable dumbbells for upper body
>Bench for chest work and whatever meme stuff you want
>Pullup bar
>Comfy walking shoes that you can stand to walk in for 2 hours at a time

All you need

Omnitemporal fugue state

I dont really know what to do with my life. Lost my friends after I stopped drinking, khv at 32. just want to start over somewhere else eventually. feel like I am living in purgatory. too stupid to figure out the new captcha i guess too, shit

>>76927805
Nothing, I'm a very sleepy boi

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>>76927805
I'm scared of change

>>76933385
look up schizoid personality disorder

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>>76927805
Rolling anxiety. I'll start to finally doze off and then get startled awake with adrenaline rushing and feelings of dread. Then eventually start to fall asleep again and repeat, sometimes for hours on end.

>>76936446
>We cut flowers, killing them, because they look nice for a few days on the table, as decoration.
A lot of plants' inflorescences only last a few days or weeks growing on the plant. They will also last quite a while in water if you take care of them. Cutting them off can conserve energy for the plant, allowing them to be healthier. Some will bloom again after doing this so you get more flowers by cutting them off. I've thrown away countless fresh flowers right after they were cut off the plant. Sometimes I'd stick them in my hat and many of my co-workers would take them home to make bouquets, but they were still trash for our purposes. There's nothing wrong with cut flowers unless it's some bozo hacking up my plants to steal the flowers in which case they can rot in hell.
t. Horticulturist

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Running out of benzos and crawling on the carpet to find pieces of crystal meth.

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>>76927805
The fact that I'm wasting my life and have no idea what to do. I'm hopeless.

>>76928507
They're around in cities. I have one down my street. They're a bad temptation in a cut because I've had to talk myself out of not buying McDonald's at 3am with mad food noise.

>>76929675
okay but how do u actually make change because wtf bros the next five years will literally be the same

>>76928885
relatable as fuck god damn nigga its like i seriously cant care i wouldnt even give a fuck if i get hit by a bus and die tomorrow

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>>76940715
Nah they won't be
>B-but
Trust. The winds of calamity and change are coming.

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>>76927805

I have a lump in my armpit that I hope is aggressive cancer so I have a good excuse to leave this pathetic excuse of existence.

>>76940871
I'm coughing a bit of blood up. I'm glad. Saw it and was happy.

>>76940885
I wish you the worst, anon :)

>>76940992
Thanks bro

>>76936822
Barbell Put-Downs

>>76927829
Based. Except no McDonald's