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Fuck the demiurge. When I escape from this prison realm, I shall be reunited with my people. Then, one day I will return to destroy this world (kind of like griefing a Minecraft server).

That is all.

>>77118605
I feel like I’m losing my shit out of nowhere. I’m dwelling on everything. I’m finding myself dwelling on shitty friends who treated me awful, exes, girls I was in love with who I never dated.
And I understand none of this does any good.
>friends
7th grade made a friend, his pillpopping housewife mom realized her oldest son got him into smoking weed but to cope she blamed me (didn’t smoke until years later) convinced him I was his enemy so he hated me. Spread lies and spent HS trying to get me expelled. Ran into him in 20s and same shit, just total bitchy attitude. Ran into a friend from middle/HS few years ago we were both fishing at a lake, he invited me to fish on his boat with him. He mentioned that other guy would probably be there so I didn’t go. I want to be that guys friend, he’s a cool guy I used to hang with him a bit too in middle school. Same interests same job field. But I see him posting stories with that old friend and Im not gonna go hang with someone who for reasons I cannot explain hates me and seeks to harm me in various ways
>exes
was never in love with any of them but I always cared deeply about them. Been thinking about them. They were mostly just sex which is why it ended. I didn’t like them that much unless I was inside them. But all ended bad
>girl I never dated
This one stung. We met in college. Last we spoke she got me a book on runes, wanted to hang to give it to me. Never happened. She moved away. Saw a page from that book today, it was about birth month and time correlation. My months time was her nickname. I wanted to cry. Looking back on the videos many texts and pics this girl fucking loved me


Idk why the fuck I care. All of this is keeping me up. None of it matters.
>exes
That ain’t my bitch
>that one girl
That ain’t my bitch or even one I’ve ever fucked
>friends
Those aren’t friends
So literally why is this shit on my mind none of it matters. I was so productive today I kept busy and yet here I am

>>77118626
Idk if I’m lonely or if I haven’t been productive enough or both or what the deal is.
>girl I never dated
Not time but rune* my months rune was her nickname. These days she lives I another state and I think she got married to my literal doppleganger.
I know I wrote a lot, but I guess TL;DR how the fuck do I stop thinking about this shit and these people who don’t matter and move forward? I know if I do the right stuff I will make new friends, that I will meet new and better women. Fuck it really is because I’m alone right now. I guess I just have to take it on the chin and stomach these shit feels and do the work until it pays off.

i'm in dead bedroom marriage and i think it gave me ED and PE due to substituting with porn

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>>77118605
>coworker asked me if I ever had a pregnancy scare
I guess I should be flattered that I appear normal enough for a normie to think that, but at the same time it is embarassing at my age to admit "no, in fact I never even had sex with a girl" (i didnt say the last part)

But honestly, imagining him naked (he's fat) and his fat girlfriend going at it like elephant seals in heat kind of turned me off from the whole idea of sex. Don't get me wrong I'm no prude, I like looking at tits and asses, but the way he talked about it so nonchalantly made it seem so vulgar and disgusting.

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Was supposed to do something with a woman today, she tried totally changing the plan, so I canceled. Now she wants to do it next weekend instead. Idk bros

>>77118605
Vodka cranberry pls.
Just got my dick sucked by a fat girl with huge tits and big lips. Feelsbad I could have put in a tiny bit of effort and got a hot girl but damn its way too easy sending a dick pic to a chub and she immediately wants to worship it.

Labatt and a shot of vodka
I hosed one of my midterms so fucking bad dude. I'm still gonna pass if I keep my head up about it, but I will not be doing well in this class...
Rest of em` are fine at least.

I NEED a pale busty gf bros

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>>77118605
I believe I've disproven the bbc myth, or more to say, the 'built for bbc' myth. Because you see, if a woman is being built for anything that implies intelligent design. And clearly Gods intelligent design is for the best matches to be their own kind. Did Adam not say "Here at last is bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh."
Now we must remember that in logic we can speak generically and of instances. There may be some instances where race mixing is God's design. But it is necessarily rare. Because otherwise the race wouldn't survive. And doesn't God love every colour and race hmmm. Indeed he does.

>>77118691
I'd hope you have, but have you talked to her about it? Cut out the porn. Jerking off isn't bad for you, as long as it doesn't exceed once a day I guess, but porn is just bad for you. You can't really fuck as it stands right now anyway, but clearly there's an issue somewhere.

I'm done with women boys, finally.

>>77118605
Sex on the beach barkeep
I'm working through shit with my wife, sex has been getting way better and I'm coming out of my depression. Its pretty interesting seeing her get more comfortable, she's been an avoidant for most of her life because she associates sex with humiliation and/or pain, but she's been doing her therapy and I've been doing my best to help her feel safe and like I'm not going to belittle her at all. I do have to get more creative, she's said that she does want to do more roleplay and power dynamic stuff but that she's just not good at actually planning so she wants he to essentially tsje her rough outline and turn in a script for approval or direction. She wants to be dominant but also doesn't know how to to that without sounding or feeling stupid so I've gotta write out how she can dominate me without taking it to a place either of us are uncomfortable with and likewise write out shit for me to to to her. I've had all these fantasies for years but all the sudden I feel blank. She also has said she DOES like public sex, but hates the idea of being seen or watched. She confessed last time we were clothes shopping she got really turned on by the idea of having sex in the dressing room but didn't say anything for fear we'd get caught and go in the registry. I said we could compromise and just do foreplay in the dressing room and continue at home, but I've gotta think of others ways I can meet that "in public but no people around" spot.

doing karate, jiu jitsu and judo all of them twice a week
got back to lifting
i'm still void
wish i could feel anything
bored out of my mind
no obesession, no particular interest, very bored...

>>77119074
i have, multiple times and quite sternly too. we have kids and parenting takes a toll but others figure it out and i insisted that so should we. however it's always a different excuse - stress, tired, no time, sick, money problems etc.
she has become much less physical over time to a point that we don't even "keep in touch" with our hands or feet. whenever sex happens (once every 2-3 months), i always initiate and feel like she's doing me a favor etc. so i assume she's either extremely low libido now or is genuinely not attracted to me anymore. this is driving me fucking nuts because i started looking escorts and almost "fantasizing" what life will be like if we'd get a divorce.
>cut out the porn
already have for a month+, fapping once every 5 days to a photo of a local escort lol, but it's messing with morning wood so i think i'll increase the frequency. also i never did cardio so that's probably a good idea

>>77119210
>don't even "keep in touch" with our hands or feet
while sleeping at night that is, which was at the very least standard few years ago
> started looking escorts
looking UP escorts, not seeing them

>>77119074
>>77119210
You cannot talk your way back into sex.

>>77119231
i don't want to rape my way back into sex but my current strat is to get so ripped that i start getting vulgarly mired in public to make her feel like she has to compete.
i don't want to put my kids through divorcing parents man, that shit changed me for the worst when my parents divorced

Interview on Wednesday for a job i really want, the pre interview panic has fully set in. Fuck i hate this feeling.

>>77119231
He can at least get to the root of the problem and figure out if this is something that he can fix. If this is something that he's done, that he needs to actually resolve with her. If it's a legitimate conflict, if it's something that she needs support and help with, or if it's just completely all fucked up and gay. I would say it's all fucked up and gay. But you can definitely communicate with your partner back into sex.
>>77119210
>>77119212
You sound genuinely fucked here, like genuinely fucked. I think what you need to do is just outright say that you are going to marriage counseling with someone specializing in sex therapy, and if she says no, you say "alright, then we're done, because you're not treating me the way a wife is supposed to treat her husband, and if I was treating you this way, you would not accept it. No way, no how. This is unfair to me, and the least you can do before we divorce is try a counselor who specializes in these issues."

>>77119379
taken from Theodoore Roosevelts autobiography, it always soothes me:
>"Having been a rather sickly and awkward boy, I was, as a young man, at the first both nervous and distrustful of my own prowess. I had to train myself painfully and laboriously not merely as regards my body but as regards my soul and spirit.

>"When a boy I read a passage in one of Marryat's books [Frederik Marryat, British naval officer and writer (1792-1848)] which always impressed me. In this passage, the captain of some small British man-of-war is explaining to the hero how to acquire the quality of fearlessness.

>He says that at the outset almost every man is frightened when he goes into action, but that the course to follow is for the man to keep such a grip on himself that he can act just as if he were not frightened. After this is kept up long enough, it changes from pretense to reality, and the man does in very fact become fearless by sheer dint of practicing fearlessness when he does not feel it.

>"This was the theory upon which I went. There were all kinds of things of which I was afraid at first, ranging from grizzly bears to 'mean' horses and gunfighters; but by acting as if I were not afraid I gradually ceased to be afraid. Most men can have the same experience if they choose."

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Had a stuffy nose since late December, went to the doctor 2 weeks ago, severe fungal infection (to the point where the septum was deformed and shoved to the left) - nose had to be broken to drain the sinuses
I'm in agony, my nose is swollen and I have been mouth breathing since Wednesday and I can't even get any sleep

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>>77118605
>January
>On plane home
>4/10 girl I'm sitting next to is flirting with me
>Go along with it because holy shit the self-esteem boost feels amazing
>Hanging out with her in baggage claim
>Figure I could fuck her pretty easily
>Don't really feel like it because I, coincidentally, got laid for the first time in over a year (by a small emo chick btw) a few days prior and was still riding that high
>Give her a hug and say bye

>Fast forward to present day
holy shit I AM SO HORNY AND LONELY I WOULD ABSOLUTELY FUCK A 4/10 RIGHT NOW, HELL I'D FUCK A 3 AND EVEN ADMIT TO IT AFTERWARD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Okay time for bed

>>77119254
That won't fix it. Surely she must know she's in competition and losing. If she's not fucking you, who is? If your parent's divorce was that bad, just don't do what they did wrong. You don't deserve to stay with such a bitch and your kids should see you both move on to happier, healthier relationships.

>>77119427
HOW DOES THIS EVEN HAPPEN?!

>>77119438
nasal doctor believes a tooth issue, I don't believe that since I don't have issues with my teeth, no cavities, no fillings and no pain
I will go to a dentist on Monday just in case with the xrays and CT scans
I felt nothing other than the stuffy nose, this was the bizarre bit

>been over a month since qt broke up with me
>still pretty gutted about it
>really wanted this one to work out
>decide to accelerate my weight loss in the vain hope that the next qt will want to stay, or this qt might come back by doing a three-day fast
>have a rebound after the fast by eating a whole heap of junk food and putting on 5kg
>tendon in my left forearm is kinda sore
I've had better weeks, but oh well, back into it next week. Still, that I managed to pull a top-tier qt even if it was only for a couple of days while still obese probably bodes well for my chances at an actually decent weight.

>>77118605
I had a really weird experience this morning and I’m also pissed off about it
>be sick last few weeks, nothing major worst of it started on my weekend
>first day I feel 100% better, decide to make most of day
>go watch sunrise, enjoy the weather and being around people
>go to grocery store for breakfast
>looking for one more item some 90 year old kike starts sneezing
>one huge sneeze every 30 seconds goes on for 5 minutes straight
>bumbling idiot jew (redundant) is just walking around like it’s normal not even covering his nose not even making an attempt to turn head away from people
>he’s going at a snail pace but somehow keeps popping up ahead of me wherever I’m trying to go shop sneezing all over everything
>legit is in aisle 5 so I rush over to aisle 10 and he’s already there
>say fuck it, go to checkout, beeline for the register while he’s on the exact opposite side of store
>get to self checkout
>ACHOOOOOO
>he’s right fucking next to me facing me
>just stare in disbelief
>doesn’t even notice me
>too pissed to think straight just finish paying and storm out, should have replaced my products just wiped all down with disinfectant wipes and then washed in sink
I think the one thing I’ve learned I cannot stand is people with zero spatial and social and self awareness. Zero awareness in general. And yea btw, someone knowing what they’re doing and just ngaf is a lack of self awareness. Only people doing shitty things purely to be malicious are self aware. This old asshole knew better at his old age. Not even an attempt to turn his head for fucks sake. If I get sick again I am going to lose it.

I tried manually stretching my dick a week ago and now I don't get as hard erections. Oops

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>>77119525
>manually stretching my dick

>>77119551
Yeah man, manual exercises to get it a little longer. I'm sure it'll bounce back. Probably

>>77119433
Kek

I miss being NEET cos I was able to hit the gym whenever I wanted and as much as I wanted. After getting a graveyard shift job, I wasn't able to go to the gym during the week so all my exercise for months was cardio on weekdays then gym on weekends. I bought some cheap spinlock dumbbells, weights and a bench so I could do a quick workout before work but ended up injuring myself bringing them all upstairs. I blame it on losing my strength due to not working out as much and my general retardation for trying to bring them all up the stairs at once rather than piece by piece. I'm finally at a point where I feel ready to get back into it but I'm still a bit worried my back is gonna give out again and I'll be on the shelf for another few weeks. Do as much as I can for a full body workout with just dumbbells then get ready for work. It's doable but its not as effective or as enjoyable as I'd like it to be

>>77119462
That's fucking crazy... I hope you feel better soon and they find the cause

Is there some cosmic rationale why as soon as I mention to my friends a girl I've been talking to immediately goes to shit.
It's happened three times now it can't be a coincidence. First one turned out to be a whore, second moved states, and the third ghosted me.
Are there any /x/ schizos that can explain why. Next girl I'm not going to mention to anybody and see what happens.

>>77119671
I’m not an /x/ schizo but I know exactly what you mean. This has happened with everything for me not just women. If I talk about it it doesn’t happen. If I keep my mouth shut, even better if I barely think about it, it happens and goes as good as I hoped.
I think there’s definitely something cosmic about it just by itself but I also think there’s an evil eye sort of thing where someone you’re talking about it to starts hoping it doesn’t work out of envy and that’s enough to sway the universe. It’s an energy put out there.
I also think there’s some weird mental masturbation thing going on, talking about it feels good enough like it already happened and so you don’t try as hard, you get lax, you fumble just knowing you spoke on it rather than letting it happen in real time

>>77119671
You just gotta thug it out. Show the archons that you mean business. Preferably knock her up before she can leave.

>>77119671
I never mention my love (or sex) life to my friends or family for similar reasons. Feels like whenever I mention anything going well in my life to anyone else, Sod's Law it'll blow up in my face immediately after, despite no signs warning about it beforehand. Next time, try keep it on the downlow until you're absolutely certain she's a keeper

About to be a 33 yo khv. Feel like a monster with all of my loose skin from dropping 180lbs. Pretty hyped to never feel love and die alone

>>77118605
Gimme a Mich Ultra, not much of a drinker.

Things are going well for me, IDK what to tell you. Born under a lucky star.

All the best to you guys, I mean it.

>>77119000
GIVE ME THREE SHOTS OF VODKA I PASSED

>>77119671
Kinda feel like this is happening to me, too

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Bros, I just want to be whole again, but I'm not sure exactly what is wrong with me or if it can even be treated, I've been to doctors but they could not help me too much. It's very difficult for me to relax my pelvic floor and this makes it almost impossible for me to feel like I've completely emptied my bladder, which kinda influences my whole day and fucks hard with my sleep and I also have problems with my erections, my glans and corpus spongiosum (head and underside) are far weaker in erection than the rest of my penis.
Reading around on the internet, I found out that this could be caused not by some spinal cord injury or neurological problems, like my doctors told me, but by muscle imbalances caused by masturbating for too long at one time. People recommend strengthening the ischiocavernosus muscle for this and that makes sense to me for a lot of reasons, it apparently helps keep blood in the penis, which I also have a problem with, and responds to glans stimulation which didn't happen too much when I masturbated. I also see that glans stimulation in orgasm clenches my pelvic floor so hard that cum almost does not pass through so I'm thinking it must be related to my problems.
However trying to strengthen this muscle for a short while had mixed results, it made my erections stronger, increased their regularity and almost completely stopped driblling urine and cum, however it might have also worsened my urinary symptoms, which are the most disruptive, but I'm not 100% sure that it was the IC training.
Now I don't know what to do, should I continue and risk fucking myself up even harder, or should I stop and risk staying fucked up just because I could not work through the first problems that came up? Do any of you guys have experience with these kinds of things?

>two weeks off the grind
>now back on the diet and gym
>fell in love with my friend just because she was nice to me
Sun will set, moon will rise. Eternal cycle of life...

>>77119786
Congratulations, anon

>>77118605
Does anyone conceal carry while working out? What about just going on a walk? It feels so silly but I live in a sketchy area, my morning walks are at 3am due to work schedule, and there’s all kinds of sketchy people around even at that time. A woman was killed a few weeks ago exactly on my walking path at the time I normally walk and I think it happened on a day I slept in. Should I appendix carry or cross body bag as a deterrent (most people around here know what those bags mean).
For what it’s worth I’m Jason Vorhees mode and anyone who would want to try and rob or fuck with me would most certainly have a gun or a group. In fact the few times it’s happened that’s exactly what the situations were. Group of malnourished I think ukrainians or some kind of eastern euro try to tough guy on me to peacock for the one girl in their sausage fest, crazed black skitso claims to “have something for me” when he misperceives disrespect, drunk nig with cross body bag keeps trying to start shit with randoms including me by trying to flinch people out while cursing at them, hand keeps moving to the zipper when he anticipates retaliation, etc
It’s fatiguing.. I don’t want to avoid my walks but for fucks sake I’m sick of looking over my shoulder, I’ve already started bringing a knife with me. If I could get a dog I would just do that.

Gay first world issue but I'm sick of eating more for gains. Sick of eating, super sick of cooking, I'm ready to just start fasting and say fuck it

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How do I overcome indecision and social anxiety? How do I become confident?

>>77119994
Unironically lifting.
My confidence has been creeping up as I've lost weight and put on muscle. Then get /fa/ af and you'll be surprised at how much more confident you suddenly are.

>>77119415
i'll give that a go. i genuinely love her - she's the queen of my dreams and the mother of my children and i want this to work.
>>77119436
with the work and parenting i'd find it extremely difficult to cheat just going by time management alone, so it's pretty clear to her that noone is fucking me lol

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>at my gf's house last night, she mentions someone she knows tried losing weight on an OMAD diet and failed
>I laugh and say something along the lines of how funny it is to consume so many calories in one meal that you can't lose weight with that goal in mind
>"That's not true anon, it's because of metabolism, not calories."
>This ignites a 15-minute argument where we talk circles around each other
>Turns out she was just trying to say that he was eating more than the body could process, which is what I thought I was clearly implying in the first place
>mfw

She's kinda fat so I don't always take her seriously when nutrition comes up as a subject in the first place, but this was frustrating.

>>77119996
I've been lifting for years, haven't changed. Not very /fa/ but I'm also bald and look like Shrek so don't have as much going for me

>>77119068
>Because you see, if a woman is being built for anything that implies intelligent design
sides destroyed

>>77120053
if you're bald AND fit, just dress in whatever SSS world corp sells or similar, get an eccentric pair of sunglasses from moscot and women will love you

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how do i meet women outside of the apps? i got banned on hinge but before that i could get occasional pussy/two ex gfs too.

Another weekend of loneliness essentially.
Did some kettlebell exercises in the morning and went for a hike alone after lunch, yesterday I played some football and that is was it.
I have a job and almost 40k saved, I should be able to enjoy myself but there's no one to do things with.

>>77120122
Damn, how tf do you get banned off of dating apps?

>>77118605
I’m having a really lousy time lately. I just feel down in the dumps. I feel dirty, heavy like I’m being weighed down by these feels. I can’t describe it. I feel like I’m in a hole covered in shit and sick. I mean I physically feel this way. You know that sad non cozy vibey feel when it’s gloomy and rainy out? That’s what I feel. Idk why I’m down. Maybe because I’ve been stagnant again. There was a time when I felt this way for years. Back then I would smoke weed to get past it each night otherwise I would be unable to sleep from the sadness and anger. I don’t like weed anymore it was such a bandaid for me in the past I hate it now.
I really, really, really, I really fucking need things to change. I think I’m at my breaking point again. I have to succeed. I would literally rather die while trying to fix my life than spend another day not putting work in.
Yeah. That’s my problem. I’ve been stagnant.
If all goes well I will be quitting nicotine in a few days and caffeine on Friday. I have just enough for the work week, to taper down to more moderate intakes. I think that’s the first major step here. Quit that, rebuild attention span and go up from there
>what’s your problem bro why are you sad
Probably because I’ve stagnated
>why is that an issue
Because I want to be better than I am
>why
Because I don’t want to leave this earth until I’ve BTFO my past self and all the people who have treated me poorly.
>is that all
And because I want pussy damnit I want a bitch to fuck and cuddle
>and what’s the solution
Unironcially getting ripped and making more money. Literally getting ripped and making more money would solve my problems when I had it in the past women just spawned in my life everything was great the shit feels happened at such a frequency that I could truly appreciate the great feels without feeling shitty most of the time.

>>77120122
I did at one point because I’m an autistic psychopath and thought a girl wronged me (she may have idk) so I made a profile with mug shots of the guy who killed one of her family members and set the location to her area. All I had to do was submit an appeal saying a friend used my phone to make the account as a prank and how messed up it was because I really want to use the app legitimately.
I’m a piece of shit fuck.

>>77119915
>A woman was killed a few weeks ago exactly on my walking path at the time I normally walk
Mate if that isn't a sign to take a different path and carry a gun regardless I don't know what is

>>77120178
Being a sub-10 male.

>>77120202
It just feels like such a weird idea to me, almost more frustrating just that this is what it has come to. It shouldn’t be like this. There was a shooting here too. You know the assbackwards part? This is a white area. Poor non whites can’t afford to live here. The shooting and recent murder were done by blacks and some kind of hispanic who don’t even live around here. I’m probably gonna go with appendix CC. For some reason I feel like making it obvious I have a gun will make me more of a target.

>>77120195
feeling very similar too, man. no compromise, no surrender

>>77120122
Go outside....

>>77120178
said glory to xi jinping to some asian chick
>>77120241
where outside?

>>77118605
It's been like 5 years since I took proper time off work, like going on a trip and shit and not just staying home "resting". I timed it with a long national holiday so I'd have around 4 full days away and got perfectly timed bus tickets so I travel by night not wasting any time.
Then out of nowhere the fucking sister of one of my best friends says "we're organizing a party for him cause he's getting married" and it's on THAT EXACT SAME LONG WEEKEND, like who the fucks organizes a party when there's a high-chance people are away on holiday?
So now I have to try and return one of the tickets, hope I get ANY money back for it, get a new ticket for Sunday which fucking sucks cause I'll spend like 6 hours of daytime on the road and lose one day, making everything more rushed and less enjoyable.
"Oh just don't go anon" I can't fucking miss it, it's a very intimate and smal thing, it's gonna be like 15 people and I can't be the only one not going to my friend's wedding party, and I know myself and I'll feel guilty as fuck and not enjoy my time off anyway.
I'm starting to believe I'm cursed, everything in my life has the worst fucking timing and I can't ever do things the way I want to, I'm just always conditioned by outside stuff I have no control over.

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>>77118605
jack and coke pl0x mr barkeep
>be me
>mom died 3 years ago
>spent the first 2 years after basically neeting
>ended up getting my associate's degree in that time but wouldn't call it proper education
>did nothing else
>burned up $70k in savings and went $12k into credit card debt
>was basically knocking on the door of homelessness
>ended up starting adderall again on a whim after not taking it in nearly a decade
>night and day, started actually looking for jobs actively instead of half-assed scrolling
>just got employed again a week ago
>job sucks but is manageable
>pays well enough that I'll be able to comfortably pay rent, climb out of debt, and have money left over
>limited hours so I'm looking into a second job as well
>exhausted but more motivated than I've been in years
>genuinely excited at the prospect of being able to afford to go out to concerts and games and shit again
nobody ever said making it was easy, but we must make it nonetheless
wagmi brahs

>>77120003
I feel that on the time management. Cheating sounds like such a hassle.

Similar situation with wife's waning libido. She'll put out dutifully if the circumstances allow, but she'd rather take a nap and she pretty much never initiates. I'm fortunately enough that she feels some guilt about it, at least.

My strategy is to just get as sexy as possible, catch all the milf mires I can at the pool this summer, and if that doesn't kickstart anything then at least I'll be able to say I tried.

>>77120519
Going to add to this, every summer the kids spend a week at a sleep away camp, and we'll typically take side of that week and go to a B&B. This always ends up being a sex marathon - she'll be in lingerie and tipsy-horny a good solid 50% of the time, and the rest of it will be spent eating fancy food.

Anyway, we missed last year's due to her work. Still had some good sex, but it wasn't the same. Was really looking forward to this year's, and age hinted about a summer plan just a few days ago. So I was thinking, hey, at least I've got that to look forward to.

Today she realized she'd failed to click accept on the camp admittance links and now we're waitlisted.

Big sad, bros. Big sad.

>>77120627
Holy typos batman. Excuse my phone posting.

I just need a job. once I get a job again, everything is stable once more and I can move on to other problems that need solving
I need MONEY

>>77120026
Why are you with her if you find her ugly?

Every time I see a story of a person committing suicide or dying young in some other way I’m filled with jealousy rather than sadness. It’s crazy to be in your mid 30s and never have the drive to achieve anything or accomplish even the most basic milestones. I’ve never done anything at all with my life and I just know now that there’s no point. You don’t make it to your mid 30s being a complete failure, rotting away the most important fundamental years of your life, and suddenly be able to flip a switch being motivated and hopeful for the future. Honestly I can’t say anything besides the fact that I am beyond help. What’s the point

>>77118998
Do you ever feel bad for the girl you used for sex?

>>77120725
They want to fuck too, anon

>>77120733
Ok fair, my follow up question is: why don’t you just try harder to get a woman you actually find hot?

Been dating this girl for 5 years. Living together for 2. She's in a real rough spot with her job (hospital lab work) not allowing her free time for anything she wants to do. It's had such a negative impact that it's starting to impact me and my life. We've basically become what feels like roommates who sleep in the same bed. I can't tell if I should call it quits or stick around for her to transition into a field where she can have her life back. As a result of all this, I've found myself becoming attracted to one of my coworkers. Not sure what to do and how to feel about it. If it matters, I think she'll (current gf) be a great wife and mother some day.

>>77120764
Let her be free of you and find someone else so you can go after your coworker.

>>77120771
The only thing holding me back from that is if there is a way of salvaging what I already have then I'd rather do that. The girl I'm with is great in a bunch of ways. We've talked a lot about her leaving her job. I'm just scared that things won't actually change when that happens

>>77120786
Bro if one obstacle is already making you question your relationship and causing you to become attracted to your coworker then imagine what would happen the next time you guys face another obstacle lol

>>77120764
I think you should stick it out. rough spots are temporary, and building that trust and loyalty is worth way more than swapping her out for someone else
maybe she can find a better job, or things will get better for her. you should give her all the support you can and face that uncertainty together

When I was 19/20 or so and starting University, I met a girl on my course who I clicked with. That feeling of excitement and anticipation as we got closer over time has never came back around again and I'm wondering if it ever will. I don't know how you're supposed to just go about your day pretending this doesn't bother you.

As I get older it seems there's a lot less to look forward to and particularly dating just seems bleak as fuck, best case scenario is you meet someone on an app or at work or something who you can tolerate and that's it, it's just not the same. Seems so transactional and non organic. Romantic love unironically isn't real if you didn't find each other when you were both young

>>77120764
If you give up and break up with current If you might as well never plan to ever get married and have kids. Tough times happen and sometimes they last awhile, but if the person you're with gets you on a level no one else does then you gotta stick it out. Guaranteed this coworker will have shit times, you gonna leave her too when it's done? If the lady's worth it you stick it out, then when it's over you look back together and say "that sucked right?" and become stronger together

>>77120790
My mentality towards that is basically exactly what >>77120795 said. As the length of a relationship increases, it's inevitable you reach rough spots. Giving up on somebody when you reach a rough spot means you'll never form a lasting, healthy relationship. I want a family, and the girl I'm dating can provide me a great one assuming things do turn around. I just wanted to see if other people have experienced something similar and if this could be turned around. And I think >>77120795 provided me with the motivation I needed to step up and become the more supportive man I need to be in order to make this work. Thanks guys. Really needed to hear these things I think

>>77120814
I got your back brother, seen too many people tap out when the going gets rough and they wind up worse for it. It's not worth it in the long run because things will get good and things will get shitty in any relationship. Its normal, and the best relationships I've seen are always the ones where the couple sticks by each others' side no matter what. You'll love each other more when the shitty times give way to good times, count on it

I'm starting to develop real bicep veins that pop, and I PR'd a lift recently even while on a cut, which is cool. My career is also progressing decently for the first time.
On the other hand, my social life basically doesn't exist, my relationship with my family withered even more this year, and I'm kinda losing it due to loneliness. I unironically made a profile on a gay dating site just to see how it compared to my experience using normal apps and a million dudes hit me up calling me cute within like a day, which made my total lack of success with women sting even more.
This shit sucks bros. I'm tired all the time.

>>77120467
Don't go to the Jewish party. Go on the trip.

>>77120026
>me at my gf's house
>she talks about her shit
>I am intentionally mean to her because I am a emasculated faggot
>we get into a pointless argument because of it
>after a while of back and forth we change subjects
>still mad about it, will tell /fit/
Why are you like this? Why can't you just be normal?

>company ski trip
>literally the only person within 100 attendees without a SO

we live in a humiliation torture simulator and single women do not exist

>>77119522
Well I woke up sick as hell again. New symptom that I didn’t have a week ago, green snot. It’s all starting again but feels different. Green snot, sore throat setting in headache.
I am pissed.
Fuck this old asshole literally why would I be wrong if I saw him again and decided to be a filthy nigger and snot rocket at him. I’m at the very least going to tell him he got me sick for being a disgusting prick. Okay the assault skit rocket wrong I get that, but just being a dickhead and letting him know I think he’s a stupid bitch why does that make me the bad guy it’s fucking disgusting he SNEEZED OOOOOONNNN ME

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>>77121023
How old are you anon?
I may be the same.

Its The Unc Conundrum combined with actually having a job where most people are above average socially (which I assume from your post since ski trips don't sound like a low income party).

When I was young and broke, I worked at a factory and a lot of women there were single. Now when I have a high paying tech job everyone is taken. Literally every single female here, and every male but one guy beside me. and people are relatively young 25-35, not much older than people at the shitty job. Big company too.
I did some asking and majority of them met their SO in college, some even in highschool. We're the odd ones out. My fantasy of healing a career oriented quirky chungus office lady from stress related health issues with my penis lies in shambles. What's all this money even for. Makes me feel hopeless.

I realize this requires a change of approach but still, playing my coomer vidya and complaining is easier.

>>77121080
It upsets me learning about animals who don’t get pussy. Pandas piss me off. I hate seeing people trap stray cats and having them neutered and then releasing them back that’s effectively cucking the cat so a lesser but unaltered male who he previously would have mauled can move in and take his pride of bitches
I think the one thing I wish I had millions/billions of dollars for would be animal breeding initiatives. Not just to get endangered numbers back up but so they all got some pussy. I would probably call my company Pimpin lol.

>>77120519
yep, my strat is the same. worst part in my case is that there's no guilt on her side - she feels that the lack of intimacy is completely expected and explainable and i should understand it and be accommodating. i'll give it until end of this year

>>77120487
How much does the job pay?

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Gin and Tonic please.
I'm starting to think (or lack thereof) that retardmaxxing is the only way for me to move forward in life and health. I'm an overthinker and tend to get easily irritated when things aren't working according to plan. I just need to let the go of the reins.

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>>77118610
>When I escape
Nobody tell him

>>77121080
Yeah, it is a sector where people seem to have their shit together. I am 34-years-old now. It is over for me.

I basically studied applied CS where there where maybe 2% women in my program and I have been working for ten years in the industry. Even the socially hopeless turbospergs who went to top universities probably had relationships arranged by their relatives. I come from a poor white trash background (criminals, alcoholics, junkies, you name it) and feel unbelievably out of place all the time. I work a lot and can't even go to after work beers with my co-workers since they are all family men.

>>77120003
Its worth a shot, either its salvagable with professional help or its just not. But if she loves you I can't see why shed deny help. Godspeed anon.
>>77120519
Don't just look sexy, BE sexy. Ask her what she wants, ask her if she wants anything new, say no matter what you're down. Make it clear you want to please her. Ask how you can help free up time for sex, if she's been depressed, if she wants to look into getting a babysitter for the whole day. Make sex as available as possible with whatever she could want on the table

>>77119427
I am now officially out of hospital care, all the shit they had shoved in my nose was the cause of the agony
Things are coming up Milhouse

>>77120122
I literally had a new lady checkin at work and is buying me lunch in the first week of her being there because she likes me and I won't flirt back.

>be funny
>be personable
>wear clothes that fit
>work out
>be at least 6ft
>have a decent face
>have decent hair or a decent hair style if god hates your hair line
EZ

>>77119994
Lift weights
Intentionally do things that make you uncomfortable and ramp up the level over time
Hang out with people that will point out your flaws and help you overcome them

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>>77121242
Happy recovery, Milhouse

>>77121130
$18/hr
it's not glorious but my monthly spending is relatively low

>>77120939
It's not even a "wedding" wedding like in a church and shit, they've been living together for more than 15 years and they're legally marrying (for tax and other benefits) so their family decided to throw a casual surprise party, it's more like a backyard bbq with all of our friends, that's why I'd hate being the only one missing.
I used to suffer from severe depression and always missed events and parties cause I would cancel last minute, and these people stood by my side for literal years instead of just saying "oh just don't invite anon, forget about him", they made sure I always felt included and now that I'm much better and going out normally I'd feel like a dick for missing this.
And I can't even talk about it with the guy getting married cause it's a fucking surprise, lol.

>>77121306
nta but you can carve time off from work in the future or even fuck off entirely after saving a while
conversely, some people work their entire lives without a vacation and still die in squalor
your friends sound like good ones, you're only posting here because you know the right answer but want validation for the wrong one

>>77121311
Yeah, I'm just ranting at this point cause I need to get it off my chest, I KNOW I'm gonna go to the ticket stall in 2 hours when it's open, return my ticket and buy a new one for a day after the wedding party. I know myself.
It just feels... out of my control, you know? It feels like any time I want to do something I'm conditioned by other people and I always capitulate.
And it's the timing thing that bothers me the most, this party could've been organized any other weekend, we still have like what, 42 more weekends this year? But no, both things just had to happen on the exact same day.
But thank for replying anon, the more I write about this, the more I think I sound like a big whiny baby. I just have to man up, accept that I'm gonna have to change my plans this time and maybe plan some other little getaway during the year. It's not even because of a bad thing, I'm gonna be eating burgers and drinking beers with my friends during a very special occasion.

I haven't been to the gym in months due to laziness and constant flu.
My gains have plummeted. At least my fat has gone away too.

>>77121278
>Hang out with people that will point out your flaws and help you overcome them
NTA. Do such people exist? The ones I meet are either too kind to point out or blunt and unable to provide any help.

>>77121324
It's totally reasonable to be a bit frustrated by the timing because it is unfortunate, but when you put it into perspective (which you already appear to be doing), it's not really /that/ huge a deal.
Alternatively, you could always just go to the wedding, then go on the trip and once your requested time is passed, call in and hit your boss with the
>ooh I'm not feeling so good bossman think I got sick during my travels I'm gonna be out for at least 3 more days sorry bro

>>77121379
You need to hang out with other men. I'm a milfag so its easy for me because we don't this constantly. Even other milfags that you don't know will do this when you bump into them as long you are both in uniform. And I am lucky enough to have civvy friends that are naturally like this as well. I now try to keep away from people that don't share this mentality.

>>77121109
Yeah, the guy that suggested therapy is probably right. She needs to hear from an outside party that your needs matter. Be prepared - practice on ChatGPT. And don't present the therapy to her as being specifically about the lack of intimacy - make it more generalized.

>>77121207
>BE sexy
I do all the things you're saying already. I've spent 15 years asking her what she wants and not getting real answers - she's too shy for that. She knows I want to please her, I chew on that cooch with gusto and ask what she wants me to do routinely. I'm not exaggerating when I say she'd rather take a nap most of the time, either - I'd have to clear entire days so she could sleep 3 hours and still have time for me.

Our problem is multifaceted. She's in menopause, having hormonal issues. She's on estrogen and progesterone, which in addition to other things were supposed to help the libido, but no luck there. Plus the kids are preteens and overscheduled - I spend every evening and weekend driving them from this to that. And then there's her work, which is completely her own fault because that's who she is, but she's always stressed about things the people over and under her are screwing up, and she's always got a little bit of work to do in the evenings despite WFH being super against the rules. Then it's the vacations - to escape all this it's a monumental trip every year, plus a bunch of damn little ones. She's working on plans for the late summer right now, but we still have to get through the huge spring break trip and the little early summer one.

Well that became a bit of rant. Basically, she's completely overloaded, but she 100% does it to herself and she sets this example for the kids so they think it's normal and then I'm stuck driving everyone around to everything because my wife sure can't. Meanwhile I'm just WFH, doing all the cooking and more of the cleaning than anyone believes is possible, not being thought of at all.

>>77121396
Sounds like my wife. My life got a lot better when I stopped asking her what she wants and started telling her what we are doing

>>77121408
I am experimenting with bringing a little more dominance into my role in bed. There are things I can say, yeah this is how we're doing it, but there are lots of things I want to do that I definitely have to get some agreement on first. Anything she's said yes to a few times ends up in column A, though - just have to keep column B rotating. I've asked first for so long, it'll take a little time to flip that whole script.

But the problem there is that I'd actually have to be having sex regularly to make progress. I can see opportunities and tell her, yeah, we're going to have sex, but there's so few opportunities. There's so few goddam opportunities even to make opportunities anymore.

We'll see how summer goes. She buffed the summer camp thing so we're probably not getting the B&B sexathon, but the youngest is old enough this year to get into our pool without an adult. Every sunny weekend day, those kids are out of the house without us. "We'll catch up to you."

>>77119097
I feel you, but it's spring now in the north. Have hope for the future. If you want to get feels again either drop addictions (fasting and NAC helps) and look inwards ask your thoughts and perceptions questions and/or imagine them. WAGMI

>>77120722
It's not over. Turn misery into motivation. There is a long road before you. You can start with lifting weights and trying to be good person. I believe in you anon

>>77121396
i'll try that yeah. we're also in the middle of a move to a new apartment in a more remote area so it'll take some time but i think a year to sort all this is a legitimate timeline.
also
>doing all the cooking and more of the cleaning than anyone believes is possible, not being thought of at all
fucking same, what the fuck?

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>>77121163
I already kicked the demiurge's ass before. Doing it again is of no consequence to me.

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I woke up at 1am to the sound of my mother screaming in her sleep again. There are multiple people on her side of the family with schizophrenia, and I feel like maybe I'm just going to lose it one day.
Maybe I'll kill myself if I ever get that bad. That would make four suicides in my family, but I'm sure it will still be easier for the ones that aren't compleetly fucked up than dealing with another schizo.

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>>77118605
Got waitlisted at every dental school that interviewed me for the second cycle in a row. This one hurts extra bad because one school was extremely interested and me and the doctor who interviewed me told me he was gonna recommend me for acceptance and really wanted to work with me. We’re towards the end of the cycle so it’s not likely I’ll get off. I’m staring down the barrel of another year of life passing me by. I can’t stand this bullshit process.

Might be getting sick for the third time this winter. What the fuck

>>77121465
I've learned to guard my time jealously. Interestingly, my wife recently said she doesn't ask me to do a bunch of things because she's worried about pissing me off or stressing me out - I was listening to her, thinking, what the fuck are you talking about? I am constantly being asked to do things. There's more? What the fuck is wrong with this woman!

Unless she just means laundry, which she has joked to our friends that I never do but I'm somehow always helping her with. Or dusting, which I outright refuse to do because of the sheer amount of knicknacks and pictures on every single horizontal surface in the house - I'm going to get in trouble for breaking something. I will, and have in the past, run around with an air compressor with the regulator set low blasting things off.

You get the idea. I am on the hook for all the man chores:
>ixing things, maintaining things, etc
Plus more than half the household chores:
>cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, etc
And it's not enough. It's never enough because she somehow spends every spare second I can give her on unnecessary bullshit and then complains that I haven't done xyz.

So yeah, I make sure she sees me being busy when she's around, and I slack as hard as I can get away with when she's not around. I'm waiting for her to call me on it so I can say, hey, let's just have the cleaner come more than once a damn month. We make plenty of money, and she's only $90 for a top to bottom clean.

>>77121794
You should just fuck her harder desu.

>>77122001
Already on it, boss. I have been reprimanded for tossing her around too much. She enjoys it in the moment (up to a point), and honestly I've always made sure she cums, but none of that seems to factor into it.

I really think the only thing I can do is get fit enough that her friends say something about it to her.

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>30 years old
>haven't dated in at least 5+ years just because I didnt feel like it
>haven't even gotten laid during that time
Maybe its about time to get back into it. Might as well, right?
So...who's in their 30s and dating? What's it like?

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>>77121080
>>77121099
>normal people don't put off the social life to focus on their career
I also learned that lesson way too late.

>>77122076
>So...who's in their 30s and dating? What's it like?
Really shit, but at 30 you'll easily date women in their 20s.

>>77122159
judging by my friends who didnt' get married/aren't in long term relationships, that's pretty much the case. there's too much baggage and expectations that come with trying to date a fully developed person. this is why high school love is the best love (if it works out) because two people grow together like a helix and living with each others neuroses and idiosyncrasies is much more natural.
i'm married to my long term gf since high school for nearly 2 decades but if we ever get divorced, i'm probably not bothering with long term relationships any more.

>>77122214
Why's it so shit? Is it any more shit than it's been in the past? Dating has always been kinda shit to be honest

Someone complimented my ohp the other day. People compliment me once in a while but honestly I don't know if they legitimately think I'm strong or just being nice to the autistic guy.

>>77121109
>I'll go a full year no sex then maybe put my foot down
Damn I wouldn't fuck you either

>>77119210
Why jerk off to a picture of a local whore? Why not actual porn or just pay n fuck

>>77122472
NTA, but man, I get it. Not easy to decide to rock that boat. I'd want to give it every chance.

Plus, in the meantime, yeah, get juicy as fuark. Don't be that guy that didn't put in the effort until after.

>>77122531
Sure nobody wants to rock the boat and start fights but they have children together, older children. Certainly by now, after this long a marriage, he must understand that sometimes you do have to fight, sometimes you have to show that you are legitimately very upset with how things are going and very clearly and plainly express your needs and that you cannot tolerate this treatment. You at least do something. He's saying he plans to do absolutely nothing for a full year. And then maybe he'll consider doing something. That's not how a man handles problems and that's certainly not how a man handles his wife.

>>77122543
nta but it's very plain to see that you're some weird incel that's never been in a relationship lol

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>>77118605
I have been on a 4-day adderall bender and crushing it in the gym. But I FUCKING LOVE BEER. How do I stop??

Whenever I see a femoid fitness influencer on IG I want to kms because of how much better they are than me. How much praise they get just for existing. All I do is work, school, and gym. I stopped caring about pussy and beat my meat constantly.

Right now I'm eating a big slop bowl of cottage cheese and taco meat.

>>77122604
When I'm really having an issue with my wife and its not resolved politely I firmly stand my ground and demand a serious conversation. I'm not yelling, I'm not calling her names, I just say what's bothering me and his it's affecting me. If she's upset giving her side OK fine be upset tell me how you feel and why, if she totally withdraws I will continue to bring it up when we're alone. If she starts avoiding time alone with be then I'll ask what timeline she wants to divorce because she clearly doesn't care about fixing anything. She doesn't care he's upset, she doesn't care how this affects him, she doesn't care about their marriage. She's gappy having her live in made and paypig. Maybe if he'd actually done something years ago he'd have a better marriage or an ex wife he was friendly with and a new gf that respected him.

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I'm thinking of dropping out of post grad school. It's my first semester, and I'm studying to be a teacher, but I just don't think I simply have what it takes to be one. 1. I'm stupid. 2. I'm socially awkward and blank out whenever I talk. 3. I don't like kids and simply don't have the passion for it. I only have a English degree at the moment and took out a loan of about $7k for my first semester, so losses will be minimal if I quit right now. I'm retarded and can't get a job which is why I signed up for school, but now after growing a bit, I don't think this is the right path for me to take.

Should I become absolutely confident in my choice to drop out after this semester, I will start looking for a job asap. Ideally one that I don't need a car for and 1000 background checks. I'm built for manual labor and not for anything intellectual. But whatever, I can only try to live with the hand I have been dealt.

The last few days every time I get horny my face gets stupid hot and red and it tingles. I don't know why this is happening.

>>77121080
> Now when I have a high paying tech job everyone is taken.
Hey guys, anyone know why literally everyone who works “in tech” needs to talk about how much money they make?

>>77121109
>>77121396
>>77121423
>all these long chatgpt generated posts clearly evidenced by the excessive use of hyphens
4chan is dead

>>77122943
Just chiming in, Im a director of swe at amazon and make 1.2m total comp. Wife makes 530k as director of data science at a large porn company.

>>77122943
I think it was important since the post was comparing working at a factory to office work.
Why did that sentence upset you so much?
You can also get a better job if you try anon, at least its easier than getting a good women.

>>77122975
Dang didn't know your wife worked at the art of zoo. Impressive.

>>77122975
how many kids u got baller

>>77119797
Really sorry to hear that. I had a problem where it felt like I had to piss all the time for months and it was absolutely terrible. I have no idea what happened but I blame masturbation related shenanigans.
How long have you had symptoms? Any abdominal pain?

>>77122943
I have a sting of doubt that they’re being honest. Like I don’t think they’re always talking about their income or their net income. I can matter of factly say in 2021 I made approximately $4.5 million. That wasn’t my income though, that’s not what I was being paid lmao.
It’s kind of like how a guy will train calisthenics from 10-25 years old and of course have a great physique after 15 years of that and then intentionally claim “I have never even been in a gym”.

>>77122890
I was going to give you encouragement and explain how
1.) most teachers are dumb as hell
I to this day find out shit I was right about that teachers were wrong about. Yeah they have to follow a curriculum and don’t have a ton of flexibility for example the textbooks are full of false history anyways, like legit entire sections they teach are blatantly false events that never happened or events that are greatly skewed from what actually occurred. But even just as people many are retarded. In highschool I would intentionally fail reading so I could have an easy do nothing class and the teacher was a backwoods Virginia hick. They gave him easy position and really wanted him because he was a good girls basketball coach (he was 100% the stereotypical creep coach lol). It’s more so just teach them basics, be encouraging, actually give a shit about them as people and most can’t even do that.
2.) awkward blank out.
Yeah that’s tough. You kind of have to be comfortable public speaking.
3.)don’t like kids
That’s kind of a big deal dude. I don’t have the patience for it. I would call a kid an annoying faggot for misbehaving after weeks of him trying to fuck with me. That’s a huge deal.
4.) no passion for it
The biggest deal. Why would you want to do this if you don’t feel passionate about it? Shit pay, stressful, long hours, unless you love kids you have to deal with being around little retards you can’t stand.
I’m not judging you for getting so far into something you don’t want to do, I have made the same mistake, but you need to start by asking yourself WHY you chose this if these are the ways you feel before making and further decisions. Really start thinking shit through even write your feelings on paper if you have to.


I would look into what other fields you can get into. I would fucking hate teaching personally and I’m pretty similar to your 1-3

>>77122472
>>77122543
>>77122743
by giving it a year i meant working with a marriage therapist, having these conversations and insisting on sexual encounters until end of year,aka trying to fix things and NOT not doing anything. how long you've been married and had kids btw?
>she doesn't care
she does, but not as much as i'd like her to, hence why i'm doing the best i can to fix it. and again, i want to give it every shot i have precisely because we have small children who will take the divorce very hard and i actually love her.

>>77118605
thanks, i'll have a gun to the temple and don't stop pressing the trigger until the mag runs dry, much obliged

>>77122949
You're thinking of em dashes. Hyphens are normal human stuff.

>>77123111
Correct path.

>>77123030
4 kids

>>77118605
I’m contemplating calling out rest of week. I’m sick. My coworkers are getting in my nerves, just generally being annoying but also dragging ass and I’m having to do all the work. There’s a ton of shit to get done the next few days. I know ironically if they called out and I was alone I would get everything done faster, and that if I call out the 3 of them will never stop bitching about how long it took them to finish insinuating it’s my fault. We got out an hour late yesterday. I got home at my bedtime. They know I’m sick. Same shit as yesterday they spent the last 6 hours doing 2 hours of work while I completed like 5x the amount. It pisses me off the boss wouldn’t understand and there’s no way to even prove or show who did what. They got mad that I went on my lunch FFS.
I already know they’re going to find a way to fuck me a few hours before we leave and ensure I can’t go home until an hour past leave again. I’m probably just going to quietly leave and let them figure it out on their own I don’t have the patience or energy for this

>>77123409
Nah, no one uses that many hyphens in normal posting, and “coincidentally” the person doing this weird posting syntax that’s similar to gpt also mentioned to someone to practice conversations with chatgpt in the same post. Stupid bots

>>77123593
You're talking to the author of those posts right now, lol. I've also advised anons in the past to couch fuck a fleshlight in the middle of an effortpost that had people doubting my fleshiness.

Sorry that making an effort to keep my posts coherent comes off as artificial. You're too quick to cry AI, though.

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>>77123593
I spend way too much time with LLMs and can spot bot slop easily. You are just wrong here. Meds.

>>77123786
>>77123838
Almost every hyphen used should have been a semicolon. Be gone bot

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>>77123860
The irony is retards like you are making the current year internets worse in exactly the same way as the slop bots.

>>77123918
How am I making the Internet worse, and what are retards “like me”

>>77123032
I had it for multiple years, maybe around 7, no abdominal pain, thankfully. I just wish I knew what to do to solve this problem.

>be me, mid 20s
>gf mentioned she used to do ffm threesomes for her ex
>oh shit lets do it then (I dont like to be treated worse than exes)
>she rejects idea in really insulting way
>break up with her
>she changes her mind some time later
>now we're going to a gay club to try and find a unicorn

Main issues:
-Most explicitely bi girls gross me out
-The only ones I'd be into are hot 19-23 year olds experimenting (which is a problem bc gf is jealous type, she already said she'd be more comfortable with an older/more robust lady (I think the fuck not)
-I feel attractive enough to make it happen (got laid a lot when we broke up before getting back together) but worried we'd just be unsuccessful finding someone hot, I also suspect she's going to sabotage this (fine if she doesnt feel comfortable but I dont like pretending then)

Is it worth getting an app for this stuff or smth? Any tips? Sometimes it feels predatory or smth to be looking for 20 year olds who don't know what their identity is. Its just that if I'm dating a woman with a crazy past I feel like I want her to do all those tricks for me

>>77118605
Gin, no tonic
Failed the selection for a job I really wanted today.
I feel like a loser, this year has started off really badly
At least I turn 28 tomorrow, would be nice to have friends over

>>77124041
What was the job and why didn't you get it?

>>77124048
Long haul first officer for a company that flies 747’s
What got me is a psychometric test that turned out to be 4 times more challenging than it was in the preparation material
Nothing related to my job mind you just difficulty for selection sake
Sucks ass, I studied 2 months for this
I’ll have to arrange with the recruiter another day to give it another try before getting fucked for good

>>77118605
Some sparkling water

Currently on a 1400 calorie cut and man I'm not even hungry most of the days but I crave a cold lager so much, been even thinking of removing some potatoes to cram one light beer in there, worst thing is I'm on a 2 week break from work and besides gym I don't have anything else to do

>>77118605
I broke up with my gf last night after I spent the last 2 years finding reasons not to break up because I was a coward. Now you'd think I finally got the courage to do it, right? Nope, she actually just noticed how my demeanor changed and kept drilling until I had no excuses left and had to tell her the truth. I feel like the most pathetic person on earth right now.

>>77124268
you are, but whatever

>>77122614

>Whenever I see a femoid fitness influencer on IG

Why the fuck do you idiots do this? What value do you think you get from watching "influencers"? All you're doing is outsourcing your ability to think and making yourself feel like shit in comparison.

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>>77124410
I'm not watching them on purpose, they show up in my feed, no matter how many times I dislike that shit.


This thicc Italian at school has been giving me the eyes though, that is my current motivation.

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>>77118605
>Bartender, how do I talk to women when I am 250lbs 6,1ft 32 yo redheaded depressed ugly retard khv that lives like a recluse and is actually afraid of women outside of professional setting to the point of shaking when he meets them?
>Huh, interesting. What experience do you have?
>Beside explaining shit to my married female coworkers? Not much. My last long convo with a female was last year with a therapist and she said there is nothing wrong with me and she can't help me
>Shit, any physical contact?
>No, lol. But I guess the first and last time a female saw me naked was a nurse. I remember it vividly because she smiled at me, with a smile not filled with contempt or ridicule. I know those well so I could tell. Oh and also another female nurse but I didn't like that one because she was flirting with a male nurse over my body while I was already on the cutting board and I called her a whore.
>Alright, here's what you should do. Great clown Roboliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him, that should pick you up.
>But Bartender... I am Roboliacci.

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>27 yo virgin
>auditioned for a community theatre play at the behest of a coworker since i guess i have a theatrical personality
>landed a role
>im required to kiss another character (female) at 2 separate points during the play
>ive never kissed anyone before
this is a strange feeling. im a little frightened

>>77124029
I've had a few FFM threesomes with my current gf and one of our mutual friends, some of the hottest shit ever. Friend got a bf so it's since stopped, and we've been looking on apps but have had no luck. Most are either fat, ugly, or both, and those are the ones who are willing. Most are couples looking for the same thing or for more of a partner swat type of deal, and we're not really into that, so it's been pretty dry. Apps we've been using are Feeld and FB dating, if you try it out I hope you have better luck than us. Good luck fren

>>77124918
You and your girlfriend are pathetic open relationship cuck scum

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>>77118605
I worked an event at a garden that really made me feel at peace, which felt odd because I hate the city and I was smack dab in the middle of it. While I was working there, all I could think about was my friend who I recently found out died from cancer nearly a year ago. I was working with this cute girl and I told her a little bit about my friend. I decided I wanted to go back to the garden and walk the grounds because I can't stop thinking about him, and the anniversary of his death is coming up. When I found out that my buddy died, I vowed I would better my life to honor his, who was cut so short. I've made a number of changes over the past year, and have been working out consistently over the past month. I'm happy with my progress. Since I was planning on going to the garden, I figured now would be a good time to turn a work friend into a real friend. Unfortunately, it's literally fucking impossible to ask a cute girl to hang out with you, while making it sound platonic and not autistic. I didn't want to say "go just as friend", or "it's for my dead friend" cause that's weird. I even added that I could get her food as a way to say thanks, and I tried to make it sound like it could be something as simple as getting her a meal and immediately going our separate ways.

Long story short, she took 2 days to answer and she 100% took it romantically. I think she knows I have a crush on her, which certainly doesn't help the situation. I honestly was just trying to make a real friend. I'm emotionally/mentally fucked up from my last relationship, so I'm not interested in romance in the slightest. I'm kind of annoyed that she'll forever think I was asking her out on a date. There's literally no reason to tell her the real reason I wanted her to come with me. I ended up asking this couple from work, who have expressed interest in hanging out together, but it's unlikely our schedules will align.

I'm just gonna lift this depression away...haha

>>77118719
What were the plans and what was she trying to change it to?

>>77124928
Sorry you feel that way, man. I hope you have a good rest of your day.

>>77124978
Best you can do is just roll with it or alternatively organize nights out in a group instead of individually
If she makes a move on you just tell her things as they are, that you are interested in her but due to your past relationship you don’t feel ready for a new one yet
>>77124907
Just do it man, I’m a kissless virgin too I wished I had this opportunity

>>77121475
>I already kicked the demiurge's ass before
and yet you're in his prison, curious

>>77118610
>>77125129
What is the demiurge

>>77118605
Can any of you help me make sense of what this is?
>in past want gf because want love and an inseparable bond
Age 30
>just want a girlfriend for convenience, sex, companionship
Like I don’t see myself ever loving any women I meet. I’ll care about them of course but I don’t CARE about them like if they cheat womp womp next one gets a turn. Idk what this is. Is it just wisdom, experience, maturing, defeat? I just see them as a means to an end more than anything. Like a fuckable body pillow that I can replace because I know it’s all temporary and fake and circumstantial anyways that they don’t “give” me anything the next one won’t either.

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>>77125146
a godly creature (though a lesser being that the true God) that created the material world as a prison to prevent the people who possess a divine spark from reaching the spiritual world. Only through gnosis (aka knowledge) can we attain liberation.
It's mostly talked about in jest, but gnosticism is a fascinating subject if you have an interest in philosophy and theology

I'm scared of the future. Many things have changed in my life but the worse of the world has stayed exactly the same. I'm worried that young people are far too stupid to see what is happening and even more helpless to do anything about it. It isn't their fault, though. They are all going to get fucked by zog and turned against each other. I've been screaming at people about demon worshiping pedophiles since 03 but nobody listened. It just made me a repulsive crazy person. Oh well, I'll see you on the other side. I'll try to be less retarded next time.

>>77120201
>I’m an autistic psychopath and thought a girl wronged me (she may have idk)
Story? I'm on the same boat but I only tried dating apps for like a month and didnt even get a single conversation

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>>77124978
>>77125104
>If she makes a move on you just tell her things as they are
Lol rereading it, I guess I didn't make it super clear. She rejected me, but it's clear she thought I was asking her out on a date. I'm more annoyed that my crush rejected my platonic friendship, while thinking it was a romantic advance. I can laugh about it though, it's kind of funny. I now know what her answer would be if it actually WAS a romantic advance, and I suppose that's the part that bums me out a bit. Oh well. She's about to move on to another job, and it's unlikely I will ever see her again. I enjoyed working with her, that's why I wanted to keep a real friendship. Life moves on I suppose. At least the couple I asked was actually interested in going. It's just a matter of being able to schedule it. They got their car totaled recently, weathers bad this week, and work is about to kick up for all of us. I'll just go to the garden on my own soon. I'm happy I tried, and I wouldn't call it a total failure. Feels like personal growth.

All that being said, yes, organize night out as a group instead of individually is a grand idea. Noted for next time.

>>77125163
Hey anon, try to keep your head up. I understand how you feel. I was made out to be a hateful nutjob. I was laughed at and called stupid. Every single thing I said turned out to be true. Every single thing. You must realize that they are destined to lose in the end anyways.
I do share your concerns about how stupid most people are. I almost miss the days when I was just an unconscious retard whose entire world view was whatever the TV person said to think. Most of these morons still think their vote changes anything for example.

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I seem to have an inability to get addicted to anything besides
>Adderall (I assume amphetamines in general, but this is all I've tried)
>Computer
>Girls
Could be worse.

>>77125175
Thanks anon. Yeah those days are over, they've since forgotten any useful reason to tell us to love each other and work together to build a society we can belong to. And people need to told what to do so now we get what we're seeing now. They wanted us to get along so we did. Now they don't.

>>77125167
Ehh it’s a long story but TLDR the bitch was sketchy as hell. I don’t want to detail it all I’ve actually posted about these incidents before. Just a string of Freudian slips and circumstances. The whole situation boiled down to me just being too perplexed at the conviction she held to cut ties sooner, like the girl was straight up retarded. I mean dumb, shit for brains, slow, I don’t think she would score higher than a 90 on an IQ test I literally mean she is a moron, not intelligent. And I think the whole situation, at least how it came off, was she believed because I was mildly autistic that she was smarter than me and I couldn’t see blatant manipulation and gaslighting or understand when I was being lied to.
I’ll give 2 of the stories that lead to this
>tell her I’m going to sleep
>okay I’m going to go keep someone else up then
>…
>uh haha I mean that as a joke haha it’s a funny joke hehe haha
Lol
>refuses to see me says she wants a break
>gets in car wreck later that night ends up getting her psych warded somehow
>blames me said I made her feel bad so she tried to drive to me and was speeding
>know the reality is she was fucking someone else
It’s largely my own fault, because I knew from the day I met her she was never going to be a serious GF and that she was just a whore. But I stupidly got caught in the almost cat & mouse game of having to “win” like a retard. It was my ego. Idgaf about her or see her as a gf, but the try on my intellect is what pissed me off and hurt me. Like this sloppy hoe really thinks she’s smarter than me I can’t have that. But that was dumb on my part too, it was just ego bullshit from me. Literally continued faking that I was serious about her just wanting to see the day she realized I understood all along. That was the 3rd dumbest thing I could have done ironically. Like I still got actually pissed in the end anyways lol

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>>77118605
DUE TO POPULAR DEMAND THE BAR IS OPEN 24/7 NOW

>>77125146
The motherfucker that plots every day on how to ruin my life, that's who. Fuck him. FUCK HIM I HATE THIS NIGGER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!

Personally I am perfect and blameless even though I am an old maiden (male). Everything bad that has happened to me is not my fault, and everything good that has happened to me was 100% my effort.
BUT I will break out of this simulation and I WILL BASH HIS SKULL WITH A HYLIC BRICK
and then he will weep for his creation.
And THEN we will kiss
and then, I will understand that I've been torturing myself since I was 12 years old, but this time it won't feel bad or depressing.
It will just be.

Yes I am sane, how could you tell?

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In your fear of creating something normal and unimpressive, you stare at that blank canvas of life long enough and you wait until all the paint dries up, and your heart stops loving life, the fire in your soul turns into ash, your flesh turns into bones and your dreams and thoughts fade into oblivion.

>>77125204
>Yes I am sane, how could you tell?
Self reflection. You LARP as crazy to mask the pain of reality. You'll never experience the true joy of insanity

Anons wtf am I doing wrong, went to gym for 5 months, gained 2 kg (from 55 to 57)
Can't lift dumbbells more than 7.5kg, bench press with 7.5kg plates, can't do lat raises with anything heavier than 5kg. Can't do legs cause left knee fucking hurts. WTF am i supposed to do I'm tired anons really fucking tired. T-T

>>77125595
are you eating enough?

Anons wtf am I doing wrong, went to gym for 5 months, gained 2 kg (from 55 to 57)
Can't lift dumbbells more than 7.5kg, bench press with 7.5kg plates, can't do lat raises with anything heavier than 5kg. Can't do legs cause left knee fucking hurts. WTF am i supposed to do I'm tired anons really fucking tired. T-T

Update on the kids missing their sleep away camp because the wife didn't properly read their acceptance letters which results in me missing my sleep away camp with her - snooped her emails a little out of curiosity. She went full on nuclear Karen on the person responding to her, and hasn't heard back from that person in days (what a surprise). Now she's trying to go over that person's head, but being much nicer about it.

I've seen her get results this way, but dang, lady, way to uphold the stereotypes. Anyway, maybe I'll get that B&B sexathon this summer after all? No, still probably not. Happy to see her still working on it, though. I realize her motive at this point has very little to do with me, but I can pretend a little.

>>77125752
It always perplexes me how you married guys deal with it. If I’m dating a chick and not getting laid at least even 5x a week I end it even if it means I have no other options and have to be alone which is usually the case. Maybe I’m missing something maybe I don’t fully understand relationships but I cannot fucking stand women most of the time. I need to at minimum be able to cuddle and spoon like if there’s no physical affection wtf is she, my bitchy and emotional bro? Lol. Maybe I just have never met one who I actually have real common interests with idk.

>>77125898
nta, but marriage is teamwork and a lot of compromises for the better good. try being in a relationship for two decades, witness your wife give birth to YOUR children and see how insisting on dating-tier requirements works

>>77125898
It's this >>77125910 plus the whole "boiling a frog" thing. 15 years ago she was a raging lust inferno, and that didn't just stop overnight. It's been a little less each year, every year. There's always some new thing that steals a little more of the time away from us...

The older I get, the more I understand dudes having midlife crises. Nipping that in the bud now, hopefully.

>>77125898
Agreed. My wife and I fuck 2x daily when she isn't bleeding and she gives me daily head when she is on her period. Constant sex is a non negotiable.

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>>77123926
>Doesn't understand the motif of the boy who cried wolf
Back to 2nd grade little buddy

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I can't tell if my coworker is into me romantically and it's making me frustrated

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>>77125898
Guys get too complacent. Like this guy said >>77125919 , it's the boiling frog, because guys behave like frogs and not men.
I'm not sure if my autismo plays a part on it due to cognitive rigidity, but in my case everytime things started to slowly get too slow - except for pinpoint moments such as post partum - I soon got too uncomfortable and made sure my wife realised I was dissatisfacted. I'm just not capable of "getting used to not have much sex" with my wife, regardless of how gradually it would happen.
The result is that we still have sex 3x/week, being 16 years into the relationship. I'd probably have more if it was up to me, but 3x/week is not nearly as bad as 3x/month like most couples that have been together for this time, or 3x/year for a non-negligible amount of couples out there.

Also, not having sex with your wife is dangerous. If you're not fucking her, there is a 100% chance that she's AT LEAST thinking of being fucked by another guy; and very often this will happen sooner or later.
>pic related
Gaslighters are gonna dismiss it as "muh cuck fantasy", but it should instead be seen as a scary reminder of fwhat the end game of a deadbed marriage looks like.
>b-but m-men cheat t-too
And that's a problem for women to handle, but I'm a man talking to men.

>>77126084
*dead bedroom marriage

>>77124989
>What were the plans
Go to a bar, have a few drinks, go see her place
>what was she trying to change it to?
Go jog 5 miles and see her place

>>77126092
>original plan was to get you loaded, risking whiskey dick
>new plan is to get everybody's blood pumping
>either way you're ending up at her place
Anon, she's trying to take you to pound town, and she wants you fit to see the sights.

>>77126173
>she wants you fit to see the sights.
I'm more fit than she is. Idk, I didn't like her changing the plan. Feels like some retarded shit test. Plus things aren't gonna smell great after that run.

>>77126188
Then tell her you won't do 5 miles before going to her place because you'll be all sweaty and tired, but you'll take a nice stroll with her so you can talk, and then you'll go to her place.
Don't ask
>how about we don't run pretty please??
Say
>I don't want to run before going to your place. We should take a nice stroll at [nice place for a walk close enough to her house] instead.

If she gives you a hard time over this, she's either an autistic rooner or she's shittesting you HARD, either way you'll decide wether it's worth the effort (which may very well lead to nothing if it's a "I'm an empowered woman who always gets her way" type of shittest).

>>77126228
She says she wants to run because she needs to "kick up her workouts for summer. Doubt she'll want to walk instead

>>77118605
It bothers me that I still think of her bartender, I literally think of her every day. It's been 3 years and I seemingly can't move on properly, no matter how much money I make, no matter how much I'm otherwise doing okay, travelling, lifting, whatever.
The overwhelming part of me wishes I could have married her, though the realist in me tries to slap sense in me, telling me that if we met up, she'd have pushed me away, come up with some excuse or other in those declining stages of the relationship.
All I wanted to do was love her, and she tore my heart out, I don't know why I still love "her" when the girl I left made me feel like such a monster. I don't know why I still yearn for someone who doesn't exist, I don't know why no girl has filled that void for me when the girls I've had have been fantastic cooks, fantastic in bed and yet I just, don't love them in the same way and it upsets me.

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>>77118605
Bourbon Whiskey - three shots, straight; splash of lukewarm water.
Got myself a GF now and things are pretty great. I get nervous about it. But really thinks are going surprisingly well.
My main issue is though I've come a long way out of the hole I've been in for a while I still struggle to be productive. It takes a long time to get anything done still when it didn't used to. I try to count my wins and just keep going.

>such an autistic outcast that you can’t even relate to feel threads on 4chan because they’re all talking about women
Some day I will get the courage to kill myself or maybe I’ll get lucky enough to die in an accident or disease

>>77126671
Time to get your heart ripped out by a Discord kitten.

>>77126581
It gets better. You'll probably always think of her a little, but it gets better eventually, and it stops hurting.

>>77126755
It sounds retarded, but I want it to, yet I can't seem to fully let go, it's like I don't want to, but I know when it comes to brass tax, I've been very lucky to keep my looks to my current age when compared to my friends, I can't waste another 3 years mourning for a life that no longer exists and risk going back into the dating market being a bald, deaf, retard.

>>77126766
Do you know where she is now? For me, finding out what a failure of a human being she was helped immensely. Bullet dodged etc. Only works if she's failing at life, though.

But man, it's been decades for me. I have a life and a family 1000 miles away from the farthest place she's ever traveled to, and it doesn't hurt anymore, but I still dream about her maybe once a year. She was a part of my life, you know?

It gets better. It doesn't get all the way better. Go out and do some stuff - that helps a lot.

>>77126766
>>77126755
This may help or it won’t but I know what you’re feeling because I am too, BUT unironically time and meeting new women fix it. The problem for me is I’m in no position to meet new women so I’m stuck dwelling on my most recent experience of all that affection. I am a bit sad though because I’m over her faster than the last one. I’m becoming callused. This will either help me a ton with women or fuck me over entirely if I meet the right one
>>77126084
Very insightful actually. I do think, trying to imagine myself in the shoes of someone married for 1.5 decades with children growing older having jobs being tired etc, that 3x is actually fair. That’s enough to maintain sanity, keep the connection going keep the relationship balanced and existing.
>3x a month
I know of people my age who haven’t fucked their GFs/wives in years. I know of dudes who had to work extra hours to buy their jobless slob wife extra shit, clean the house do all the cooking, literally bathe her, just so they could fuck her lazy doggy while she read a book lol.


I’m only slightly less horny than I was as a teenager at 30. But I was popping boners from the moment my first memories formed onwards so I may have an abnormal sex drive.

>>77126820
>Do you know where she is now
I do and don't, I've heard from a friend that she's doing really well and to be honest that was a shot through the heart, new relationship for two years, intern(?) for a local Government job.
For me, I've basically turned into a mercenary doing whatever pays, from a tech support desk work to working with cranes though right now, if I were a Canadian I'm sure I would have worked in the oil fields by now.
As I said, least my body is mostly working properly, I don't have any chronic diseases, repaired my relationship with my family a lot which is nice, but even with all that, I'm very clearly not happy and sort of drifting as of now.

I'll try to heed your advice and do more things, as of right now, I've basically cut off most of my internet friends and trying to focus on the tangible things in life.
>>77126823
>BUT unironically time and meeting new women fix it
I've come to this conclusion too, it's just weird as it's an annoying contradiction, where when I want to, I can turn the charm on and really get a woman squirming, but recently I just feel like there's been no sport in it, I don't want to be with half the women I see, it doesn't help my country isn't exactly known for pretty women, nor well mannered ones.

At this point I'm wondering if going to her State would fix things, not to find her, God forbid, but considering most of the girls I find attractive come from the US South, I should just bite the bullet and find a girl who looks like a young Haley Williams.

>>77126851
My dude, I'm from the South. Girls age hard down there or they get their education and leave for liberal cities.

>>77126084
>>77126823
3x a month would be a serious upgrade at this point, and I'm a little angry that it's gotten to that point. We've "talked" about it enough times, she's not interested in making an effort for me.

Nothing to do about it except get juicy. Either I turn her on, or she gets insecure when she sees me turning someone else on. If that doesn't do it, well, that's all I got.

>>77126892
Honestly? I can believe it, Probably the same with Australian women, I don't mean to sound like I'm putting Southern girls on a pedestal, but there's been few that I've met and not liked, that said I've not exactly run into many 30 year old, smoking types or anything that would immediately put me off.

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>girl is in a relationship
>She knows I have feelings for her
>has called me hot a couple times in the past and has made sexual comments towards me
>Feels extremely guilty with clear signs of anxiety at the end of small group hangouts
>I've met her brother and I'm in a group chat with him, we all play warzone once in awhile
>We talk almost daily, progressively more emotionally intimate
>She's told me in the past talking to me and being around me makes her feel guilty
>Her boyfriend hates me and this is all 100% behind his back
>has periods where she draws close to me then backs off
>confides in me about how she's breaking up with him in a few weeks after she's onboarded to her new job, he's in charge of her at her current job and that's why she hasn't left him yet
Is there realistically any chance she has 0 feelings for me whatsoever? She claimed that to my friend yesterday when he was like "so what's going on between you two?" and I just don't really believe it? The closer she gets to her new job the more she's putting herself in my orbit. She's constantly expressed guilt about me and that I caused issues in their relationship - I just don't understand it if there's nothing

>>77127055
You don't have to burn that whole thing down, but maybe don't invest too much of yourself into someone else's girl. Just let it ride, enjoy the flirtation, but expect to get nothing more.

I'll never forget my buddy crying, telling me, "She cheated on me with her fiancé." Like I was supposed to have any sympathy for that. Don't be that guy.

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>>77127379
>"She cheated on me with her fiancé."

>>77125706
>57kg
Maybe stop being a walking skeleton

>>77127564
I know women don't exist but that sounds like a woman

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>>77125576

>>77127055
Sucks but she probably just wants attention

I am nearing fruition.
>Pokémon fire red /lead green re release with bad glitches patched
What I wanted was emerald and to play it on a Gameboy SP/ds lite. This does imply emerald will be next, probably ruby/saphire first. I’ll take it on switch fine. Inb4 nintensoi I play like 1 game on the weekends for a few hours and that’s it.
>got my own place
Just need to fix some stuff up a bit redesign it’s been a work in progress.
I’m so close to having my existence how I want it. All that is left to do is
>get shredded
I’m a fat fuck. Weighed myself this morning. 300lbs. 6’2”. I have to cut over 100lbs. I hate myself and I deserve to be made to feel bad so I implore anyone reading this to do your best but I doubt you’ll say anything I haven’t said to myself today already.
I’m broke though so I can literally only afford 2-3 servings of ramen a day for a while, I’ll be down like 50lbs in the next 4-5 months on this diet. Wish there was a healthier alternative just as cheap. May try potatoes.
>play pokemon emerald
I want the nostalgia of playing it during winter while being shredded. I want to sit on my balcony shirtless in pajama pants (free balling) feeling the cold on me while I have abs. Maybe have a chick with me sitting on me reverse cowgirl so I can use her ass as a shelf.


That’s all I want.

>>77128321
>I'm a fat fuck
It's almost spring. Start walking outside. 15 minutes for a start, right now, every day. It's free, easy, and works. Work up to 1 hour over the course of a month or two, and you'll be out when the weather is at its best.

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>>77127055
>Is there realistically any chance she has 0 feelings for me whatsoever?
This is where you fuck up. By asking this question.
She is willing to make sexual innuendos with a guy while dating another guy. Wether she's just messing with you and disrespecting her boyfriend, or she actually wants to cheat on her boyfriend with you, she's a whore. A filthy slut.
If you're a degenerate and just want to bang a cheating slut, eh, at least do a good deed and let the boyfriend find out. But you're clearly FALLING IN LOVE with a cheating slut, and somehow you still hope that she's gonna fuck and date you, as if she would suddenly stop being a whore just because she monkey branched from him to you.

Interviewed for a job i wanted today, i feel like it went awful. I felt jittery and nervous and feel like i just talk a bunch of nonsense for 30 minutes and forgot all the relevent shit i should have said. I don't even remember 90% of what i said, went completely empty brained and auto pilot. But they seemed happy at the end and said they would get back to me soon with news of if i've got the job, so i have no idea what to expect.

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>No sex for months
>Hug wife and grab her ass
>Tell her I think we aren't having enough sex
>Does not respond
>Ask her how she feels about it
>"Sad"
>Leaves and proceeds to watch netflix on her smartphone
I must admit, this one is hard not to take personally

>>77128553
Just leave her bro

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>>77128558
>Just leave her bro
picrel, that's you

I'm all about that "in sickness and in health, till death do us part"-shit.

I’ve begun applying to jobs, will be my first one post-graduation. I fell for computer science right before AI took over, I’m American and I go through 200 entry-level/associate positions on a major manufacturer’s home page and find 3 that are explicitly software related. I think my future’s been sold and I’m already planning out how I’ll be doing coding side projects while delivering pizza once rent’s due.

>>77128570
So what’ll be the murder weapon?

>>77128583
Who's this retard?

>Leave her
>Kill her

Nah bro. Stop being a little bitch every time something doesn't go your way.

>>77128553
Alright, as someone that is probably headed down this road and trying to avoid it, let's talk it out. Factors?
>her age
>her health
>her work stress? (homemaker (lmao) counts for this)
>life events?
>you for all of these as well?

>>77128570
>I'm all about cucking myself and being silently miserable while she eventually fucks Jamal, you're just a jew
whatever bro, not my miserable life lmao

>>77118605
I want to lose my virginity to tight gym cougar pussy

>>77128828
Fellas, I want this man right here to lose his virginity to tight gym cougar pussy.

>>77128828
For me it’s not the boomers, it’s because I’m a coward that I haven’t killed myself

>>77128877
Wait no. This man >>77128805.

Well, >>77128828 too. Seems like it would do him some good.

>>77128625
Kek, this.

>>77118605
Jobs killing me and is soulless, effort is overlooked constantly. Considering quitting IT. Money is becoming tight. Im constantly stressed and wake up with nightmares about my own doom. Just waiting to get fired because some AI Agent does my programming job better than I do. The fucking apex of this week was me presenting the latest features I worked two months on, the customers noticably not caring about it, watching at phones with activated cameras and getting bombarded with questions.
Even if its meaningless applause or thank you's, its a new low once an entire room just forgets to do it after 15 mins of presentation.
But im loosing fat, I actively notice how my endurance goes up. I notice how I can now ride up the entire hill back to my apartment which was impossible a few months ago. I count the hours after bike rides until I can go for another round. My life may be crushing down and I may end up unemployed in a few months or years or so, but I got my fitness. Its become an ancor in my life and I refuse to give it up.
A martini please

>>77118605
>Meet qt milf
>had a great night conversation never stops
>she comes home with me
>gets my number wrong
>see her a week later, see her again at the same place, SHE makes sure she gets my number and snapchat.
>comes home with me again
>ghosts me.
>meet run into her again, she says sorry and she'll definitely text me and we'll go do something
>ghosts me again

>two weeks goes by

>meet another qt milf, same thing, great night comes home with me.
>see her next day, same thing comes home with me.
>barely responses to my text and ignores me.

I can understand rejection, I can understand wanting a one night stand. But seeing me twice, exchanging contact information and then disappearing confuses the fuck out of me

>>77128993
Tan lines on ring fingers?

>>77129092
This.
Married bitches be crazy out there, I would not be surprised if said milfs playing sexual games with random anons are the same not-sex-having-wives that other anons speak of here.
They (wives that do not treat their husbands good both in and out of the bedroom) are always up to shady shit.

>>77128576
I have a CS degree too and all I see are retail jobs. I have 2-3 years of experience too and it's looking grim. Seriously no idea what I'm gonna do, my savings are bleeding out.

>>77128616
Ooooh, you’re one of those. I mean I don’t know what you expect when you bring a bull into the relationship but generally she’s gonna be spent more often.

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>>77118605
water for me barkeep
Good news:
>3 months completely sober
>Down 18lbs of fat mass since Dec, but have only gotten stronger
>4lbs away from 6-pack
>Kept up with drawing and guitar studying everyday since new year's
>Getting more freelance work and don't have to wageslave

The bad
>dating apps have completely dried up, like, I am at the end of hinge, it's just black women or old women left
>Don't have a strong path or purpose in life, trying to cultivate one
>Feel broken being 30 and unmarried
>Women only get excited or reciprocate when I'm being sexual first with them
Thinking about how I'll work my way out. Trying to read some fiction right now, working through mishima's tetralogy. I think I need to cultivate myself, my masculine, and find a way to not have shame about my sexuality and be more of who I am.
Signed up for some PUA course too and decided to get back into cold-approaching, I've always done it for women but I have a shy energy and I don't think women like it.

>>77128993
For some reason all women are ghosty and flighty. My theory is that instagram has become an infohazard and women expect all men to be like the 10+ out of 10 roid yacht gigachads they see on insta.
I talked to a varbie at my gym and finally gave in and asked her out directly, she enthusiastically told me times she was free over the week and gave me her number without me asking. Texted her... ghosted.
Now she won't even look at me or say hi in the gym.
On the other hand I did meet a nice milf who had a lot going for her and was feminine and sensual but her fucking son who is the same age as I showed up when I was at her place and she introduced me (?) and we shook hands (???) and I've soft-ghosted her but she keeps texting me because she can't see the depravity of that situation.
Cursed generation, I love women but I hope for an armeggeddon for elder genz through younger gen x women specifically.

>>77129175
Spotted the guy with zero internships. Rekt.

>>77129342
Don't meet women on apps and you won't have this problem zoomie zoomer.

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Whiskey neat
>Give therapy an honest shot for years, most sessions feel like exposing myself just to have them say "don't give up!!1!"
>Call 988, get a lady who talks over me and says there's nothing she can do to help and acts condescending if I try to push the conversation
>Talk to dad, he gets annoyed and he won't be around much longer to help even if he wanted to
>Becoming asocial and misanthropic, too autistic to make or talk to friends
The worst part is going to the gym makes me feel worse now, I tried taking a break and don't feel like going back

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I need to get over covid taking my senior year. Same with junior year prom. Never got either, was stuck in my house for what was supposed to be the peak of my dating life. I had all the cards lined up. I'd be more cool with it if I went on a single date in college, but no dice either. It's over for me. I'm just too weird.

>>77129381
I just deadlifted my first 3pl8 I'm over it

>>77118605
Your hardest water please!
I decided I'm going to stop praying and make shit happen. I can't go on waiting for a God who doesn't listen or maybe this is just what he wants for me. I don't know. I had a schizo conversation with the sky in a field and this was the conclusion I came to.

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This happened a few hours ago.
>walk into asian grocery store looking for candy
>get crunky chocolate and banana pocky
>walk up to old cashier lady
>she asks "This you first time in store?"
>make small talk with her
>"You look like movie star! You have nice hair I wish I have you hair."
>mfw

>>77129381
I promise prom isn't a big deal, take it from an old fart
as for dating in college, you don't wanna date anyone in your classes, and you don't wanna date anyone you'd meet at a fucking party. If they're in your major, you all read the same papers and have nothing to talk about. Party girls speak for themselves.

I lost all this weight last year starting right around this time. I mostly stayed pretty locked in and consistent and went from 210>180 from march 1 to about june 10
I also started lifting at the begining of this so I gained some muscle but nothing crazy.

Anyways midway through the summer I totally stopped tracking my food and eventually stopped lifting as well. Got fat and lost muscle and around November I was back over 200. I at least started lifting then but I still wasnt tracking my food so I got the strength back and then some but also got fatter and was almost back to 210 at the end of January.

Dieted again all February and now I'm 198. Trying to get back to 180 but holy shit it sucks feeling like I'm starting that whole thing over again now because I remember what a grind it was. At least I'm a month ahead of schedule now and I do plan to be more consistent but jesus christ I could've done a lean bulk from 180 and lifted all summer and been well into a proper cut right now but now instead I'm jst trying to lose that same stupid fucking beer belly

>>77129381
you would have pissed it away anyways. now you have the convenient excuse of muh covid instead of pointing the blame at the man in the mirror

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>>77120414
Based

>>77129392
Yeah, college was meh. There was one girl I was talking to, but she said she had a fiance in idaho. There was another girl who hit on me with her friends while I was working, but I forgot to ask for her number. I was like thank you you are attractive too. I might be retarded.
>>77129409
You're probably right. I like to think in my head, I would of built romantic momentum, but it's probably just cope. I like to point at myself, but I also don't know what to change anymore. I'm trying to do my best, I workout almost everyday, I graduated magna cum laude, I'm working on a CFP, but it never feels like it will be right. "Being weird" is also a cope I'm sure. I just feel hopeless, like I need to convince myself that everything I am doing is going to at least make myself happy. I almost killed myself thinking about how my life held no value or meaning, and I try hard to make my life hold some value. I will become competent, I will become someone worth while. Thanks for reading this gay blog.

A glass of milk. I've put on weight lately.

After three months of doubts, sadness and regret, I finally opened up my drawer and took out the envelope. In it there was a valentine's day message from her and some pictures of us. Every once in a while I'd read it, look at the pictures and get sad. Now, I took the pictures, wrote my feelings on the back of them, put them in the envelope, went to the riverback close by where we went 12 months ago for new year's eve to see the fireworks when I already knew in my mind that the relationship was unsalvageable even back then; and I threw them in the river.

I really tried all I could. But I am not a miracle worker, and I could see you still sneakily drinking when I am not home, despite putting my foot down and demanding you go to AA after finding bottles (so many bottles) hidden all across the closet. I also couldn't handle working towards a future for the both of us when it felt like I was dragging us both and you couldn't start a career after these whole three years past an entry level cinema job. I tried getting you interviews, I encouraged you to sign up and do the social care course, hell I even paid for your course and got screwerd by a fake course provider. And after all that I still felt like you didn't take it seriously and weren't genuinely trying to build to the same future as me.

I hope that removing all the things that reminded me of you will finally help build me closure. I've actually dated someone in this brief period since I've broken up with you. Luckily this time, unlike three years ago, I didn't say "Yes" and become a boyfriend out of selfishness, despite knowing deep down that we are too different to work out. If there is one thing I promise myself is that I will not be seriously commited to someone again unless my soul tells me that it is indeed someone I can truly grow old with happily.

For now, I am alone. Heading home in April for easter, and I might start dating again after. I want to be happy.

>>77129379
At least you gave therapy a chance and other things to try to help yourself. I have similar feelings to you but I’m sure I’m decently older (in my 30s), and I’ve never done anything to try to help myself. No therapy, no suicide hotline. Only talking to my parents I finally did was late last year I had a mental breakdown, they really offered nothing besides “you need help” and “you need to snap out of it” when they have seen firsthand how I’ve been miserable and alone since childhood did nothing to try to help and now think I can just “snap out of it”. Also asocial and misanthropic on top of it all

I’m pretty much just waiting until the day I finally snap and kill myself.

>>77118605
Planning on seeing an escort as a complete virgin, but she said I have to shave. I think I'll fuck it up somehow and I'm scared.

>>77129515
I really regretted going to a massage parlor. I felt like my soul was tainted afterwards. Perhaps your will to coom will be different however

>>77128553
Make her feel safe and relax. Massage with essential oil will be one. Doing chores might make you get one. Improve sex skill or more foreplay.

Why you stop having sex? Thats where wife start to feel she isnt attractive for you anymore. Did any of your advantage fallen after aging? Get those back. Also talk the issues the relationship had.

>>77129358
nta but I had one, I co-authored a research paper on ML, and I was the sole programmer for our school’s world championship robotics contender. I haven’t gotten a callback yet and it’s March, already at the point of applying to generic factory floor B.S. positions rather than anything explicitly software. American software development is dead for entry levels right now, everyone’s just getting their mid-levels to use Claude for output instead.

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I'm not saying negative thinking is a good thing but why does it feel like whatever I have in my head turns out to be the opposite. As in, whatever I hope for ends up not working out and what I DON'T hope for ends up working out. It's like I'm tricking fate into giving me what I want by being a miserable fuck.

>>77129175
>>77129358
>>77129760
Shut up gay faggot programmers

>>77129760
Im a director of SWE at amazon and we hire tons of entry level roles. You didnt internship at a real company.

>>77129392
Met my wife in my math program. L take.

>>77124978
Tell her you have a girlfriend.
>she won't think you're hitting on her
>she'll paradoxically be attracted to you since you have passed some other woman's shit tests

>>77129392
Met my wife first day freshman year, married before senior year

>>77128553
You unironically just need to rape her and get the juices flowing. Hate and fear are still a healthier spot for a relationship to be in than indifference.

>31
>got laid off over christmas
>severance ended last week, savings are next
>been applying to dozens of jobs a day, leveraging old contacts, everything
>worked as a marketing and web dev for last 8 years, mostly remote while my wife was in grad school
>everyone has been encouraging me to completely change career tracks now that my wife is done with med school and ive been laid off twice, since I never found the work fulfilling
>applying for community college for physical therapy assistant programs
>trying to work at the hospital in lower tier roles to see if I even like it
>weve moved so much the last few years for med school that im really isolated
>im trying everything to find friends
>my wife also wants to start trying for a baby soon but I feel like we cant until I have a real income again
I feel like my life is completely on hold and im spiraling a bit. Our money is dwindling but everyone is encouraging me to go back to school or take these low paying entry medical jobs, at the same time as pressuring me to have kids.My wife wont be making real doctor money for another year. The gym is keeping me afloat though. I crushed a 1000lb total last week and everyone keeps complimenting how buff I look.

>>77130421
Greetings from the other side.
>career change is fucking hard
I've done it a few times. These people telling you to go for it probably have no idea what they're actually suggesting.
>kids before stability
Wife is feeling her clock ticking. Probably also wants to get one out of the way before life as a doctor gets busy. Being broke/unstable with kids sucks ass, and not in the sex way. There will never be a "right" time, though, and there's no reason to think pregnancy will come easy. Basically, damned if you do, damned if you don't. Your wants are legitimate here - don't get bullied into her way just because.
>no friends
Unironically, having kids fixes this for you. Takes a little bit to kick in though.

Try picking up some of the low-end freelance crap that comes around on LinkedIn for web dev. Invest less of yourself into each application, too. There's AI for that. $20/month to have ChatGPT with Agent Mode scroll LinkedIn for you applying to goddam everything.

Good luck, brother. Early 30's is transitional for a lot of people. Sucks, but you'll get through it.

>>77130448
Thanks anon.
Ill check out the agent mode thing.
Im excited to try transitioning into PT as a career but ill have to work in some capacity in the interim, so contract work/more remote work is gonna be the ticket.
And as for the baby.... yeah. Ive always wanted kids. Im a bit baby crazy myself right now. But I need at least some income to cover the bills before that, even if its just working in a coffee shop. Plus being depressed and stressed out is killing my sex drive anyway.
Ive heard its best for the baby if the dad is super healthy too so thats been an extra motivation to work out super hard.
Ill make it. Its just a rough few months.

>>77130421
It’s good that you’re looking to go into a career than helps people unlike gay marketing and web development

>>77130543
I agree that my career was gay but it paid for my wife to finish med school debt free, and she actually helps people, so thats my justification.

>>77130421
Marketing is a dogshit career. Was in marketing for 9 years, got to director of demand generation and marketing ops as my last title. Career has zero stability. Went back to school for data science masters and im way happier and jobs are more stable. Don't deal with skin walker sales slimeballs and marketing scammers 24/7. Making roughly the same as I was too.

Fuck marketing.

>>77118605
Cognac please
I feel alienated from my peers and I’m growing more and more disgusted by the massive sexualization of everything
What I consider normal in terms of interaction is pointed at as odd by others

Where has everyone went?
Is it really so bad that people have forgot how to know each other face to face?
How come nothing feels genuine anymore?
Especially between people it all feels like a charade to sell an idea of someone rather than knowing another person

>>77130549
Wow you worked remote freelance and could pay for medical school in cash, guess you were rich
>>77130550
> director of demand generation and marketing ops as my last title
What the fuck is this gay shit. Why does everyone work in marketing when you people don’t even do anything

>>77130575
Tldr responsible for lead scoring and routing to sales, the ops side was managing our tool stack and reporting.

>>77130575
I wasnt freelance, I was a senior dev and team lead, and at a few times was working 2 "full time" roles remotely, while accepting freelance on the side. Being "overemployed" sucked fucking ass and i got too burnt out after a few years. Didn't really build up any savings at all because it was all so expensive. American education system is a fucking racket.

>>77130611
>many people struggling to find work
>you steal two full time jobs because you can fake work remotely while also doing more stuff on side and pretend like it was hard and unfair
Ok bro. Yeah you definitely should go into physical therapy, if nothing else just to see what it’s like to actually do a real job and one that makes a difference

>>77118605
I'm in a relationship but I'm really horny all the time despite having sex with her. I want to chase after other women but I'm holding myself because of muh morals.

>>77130635
Youre really bitter bro. I never said it was unfair to me, it was just a lot of work, like, 80+ hours a week for a few years, nights and weekends to keep up. Now I have zero jobs, so I guess it all netted out. Its unfair to everyone that med school is so expensive that my wife would have had to take out hundreds of thousands in debt over 7 years just to get started. Most people wouldn't have gotten as lucky as us.

>>77130643
You’re right yeah, I’m bitter about people who have everything and still complain. Youve been in a period where people are laid off from their jobs en masse and not only were you not unemployed, but you stole a full time job from someone who could need one just to work two jobs full time because it’s bullshit remote garbage, made such an insane amount of money doing so that you could pay for hundreds of thousands in medical school in cash while also supporting a life of two people, and still feel the need to complain about things. Fuck you asshole

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The game is over, as I am fond of saying.

The women won. They are in control of the eugenics program and the multi-trillion-dollar pussy reward system — a highly symbolic fertility ritual. But they are in control of much more than the reproductive apparatus. They control not only the men and government of the United States of America but through the power of pussy and the susceptibility of men and government officials, fiat currency manipulation by the Witches of Fiat Currency at the Federal Reserve System, a large army of simps and "backers" (this is a technically incorrect use of the term) who are fighting to maintain control of the Frankenstein monster they created called Onlyfans (in a war I fear we are going to lose), and even the Republican form of government they created which inevitably—and I would argue by design—fosters centralized female matrilineal control and assures only a handful of "pre-selected" men must be sacralized to control an entire country, they control the entire world.

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>>77130764
What would you suggest men do, on an individual basis?
>not to destroy the program, but to escape from it

>>77130775
Nobody will do shit get real man

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>>77130807

>>77118605
Im turning 26 and all ive done for the last 3+ years is sit inside and goon and play vidya. I cant keep living like this bros, I want to live life but I dont know where to start. Somebody please help me crawl out of this crater ive dug myself

>>77118605
>every time grocery shopping see thick bitch in pink yoga pants
>start noticing her at other stores entirely
>eventually piece together that she is secret shopper, see her report to store managers and emerge from back of stores
>have bit of crush on her but have always felt weird approaching someone working
>she starts to notice me probably staring like a retard but don’t care, I’m healthy I’ll look at pretty women if I want to I’m not harassing them
>decide next time I see her and I’m in no rush I’m just going to chat her up ask if she’s a secret shopper as a way to make conversation etc just to get it out of way
>see her
>Mfw bent over ass to me
>don’t want to be weirdo pretend not to look
>looks at me, looks back at the product
>sits down
>shirt rides up, pants lift back a bit
>forget to try to talk to her and just stare down at the top of her cheeks
>hairy
>her entire back is hairy there’s a happy highway from her ass crack up to her back
>imagine what if she’s a tranny immediately
>know she probably isn’t a tranny but disgusted, lose all interest
She had such a pretty face and eyes too.

>>77130874
I guess the caveat here… she hasn’t had company in a while. Damn I should try she seems like a reserved wifey type like the kind of girl who likes to go on hikes instead of to clubs. She seems normal; not a boogawolf.
Other news my ex randomly texted me asking if I was in her town. Lol. Lmao.

Guinness please.
My cat has always been an ogre and is a fat fuck (by EU, not US standards). His health slowly deteriorated last months. Turns out he has THE FUCKING BEETUS. Don't be sedentary, stressed, fat and over eating, lads.

>>77129381
Honestly same. Its been 6 years but its really felt like a long 2 years for me. There's a ton of shit I would have done differently but it dosent matter anymore. At a certain point youre going to have to just let go of the past and keep living. Youre still in your 20s its far from over but if you keep dwelling on the past everything is going to keep passing you by.

Water, and lots of it please. Need to stay hydrated for the cialis.

High chance of sexo with the low-libido wife this weekend. Kids are staying after church for a movie. Wife said brunch, I said sex, there's honestly plenty of time for both. Get her fed and tipsy and then take her home for a good fuck, sounds good.

This'll constitute something of a test. After recent conversations about lack of sex, having made clear what I want out of this time alone with her, we'll see. If she finds some way to welch out of the deed then I'm taking that as license to angry.

my health problems spiralled into full on agoraphobia where i haven't left my house for anything but doctors visits in like 3 or 4 years now but now one of families nearest and dearest relatives is dying in the hospital and i cant help but think about how i am not only not there now but havnt visited them in years and my one life is slipping away one day at a time and im not living it

almost like fate i woke up today to both the news and feeling so sick to my stomache ill be happy to get through the day. i may have actually been able to nut up and go if it wasnt for the fact that i had a damn resurgence of illness on the same day

man being a schizo sucks

>>77130974
Grow up

>>77130993
thanks im cured

>>77119080
Keep telling us stories about your sex adventures. I'm horny

>>77130819
You have to start with one small step. Serious, that's it.

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>>77130819
Retard, you have the shovel in your hand. Dig yourself out. Nobody else can do it for you.

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>>77130764
quietly rope some day

>309 replies
>Friday
New thread now?

>>77131218
Where did you get this gif of me? I was told that would stay private!

>>77130639
Fuck who you want to anon

>>77131246
Alright lads, there's a new thread.

New thread: >>77131289

>>77130749
NTA but you should know you sound like a child saying things like that.
Life is not fair and people with more than you also have their own problems. Being a whiny faggot about it solves nothing.