It's the start of the week again, take a deep breath in, hold it and exhaleWere you thinking of giving up today? No you weren't. You made it through last week, you'll make it through this one as wellWhat are your goals for this week? What do you plan to achieve? List it all down.Take a deep breath, hold it and exhale, move at your own paceWe're ALL gonna make itThe motivation thread is openPrevious thread >>77165865
>>77191457i WILL smell a hot woman's ass this week
I do pull ups at work when I’m bored with a bar. This morning when I did warm up dead hang. My head felt funny after 10 seconds so I let go. I started having tunnel vision, problem breathing and my head started to spin. I lost my balance which made me fell to the ground on my hands and knees. My vision went full black, heart hurting,problem breathing. All this took me by surprise and I was like shit am I gonna die what the fuck is happening then my body started convulsing BADLY. I lost all control of my body shaking like the ass of a black hooker that’s twerking. I went full panick mode begging god to not let me die. Please god save me I’m so scared don’t let me die I don’t wanna die. This went on for a bit and then while my vision was still gone I saw bright white light. Deadass hallucinated being in a busy shopping street full with people laughing and walking while I was still on the ground shaking. People were walking past me, some stopped i saw friends,family,strangers pointing at me with a smile on their face. My mom saying to person next to her he is a filthy junkie haha. Not a single person showed any concern or interest to help. Then my vision started returning and I stopped shaking. I was all alone so I continued back to work, had lunch and now I’m typing this. Weird start of the week I don’t feel so good lol
>>77191468Good luck!
>>77191492fuck, I hope you're not as disconnected from loved ones and isolated existencially as this hallucination implies.
I'm one month porn free now.It doesn't mean I didn't fap or had sex, but I did so without pornography, without gooning for hours and much less.One mistake I've made is that I caught myself looking at girls wearing almost nothing doing calisthenics on Instagram. However this made me realize something. It's not about wanting to see perfect bodies and imagining fucking them. It's about another fantasy. The fantasy of being... Whole... Of being accepted... Of being... Enough. When I see them smile at me I feel like in an unforeseeable future one might hug me and I'd finally feel enough. But I know it's a lie. Unfortunately women are humans, too, and human relationships are messy. I know it first hand. Yet I fool myself thinking heaven is right around the corner, and keep chasing something which isn't there.It'd be easy to say: lol, just love yourself bruh, but I'm afraid I'm at the point where answers won't come that easily. I think that instead of fighting it I should make peace with the fact that I'll never feel whole and this longing for something is always going to be by my side. I "just" have to make sure it won't ruin what I've built.Thank you for reading my blog. Take care. Happy Easter!
>>77191468rookie mistake. go for cute girl ass
down to three games in the backlog. I did mostly okay limiting the gaming but i was also off friday. thought of another game to put on there but ill wait until its on sale. maintained drinking goals - think i had maybe three drinks last week. got all my bloodwork back and i'm pretty much the picture of health outside of LDL cholesterol which seems to have a genetic component so its more about trying to minimize that risk. also my vitamin D and coritsol, glucose, omega 3 and uric acid levels were a bit out of range so those are going to be my focus. did not make the driving range. felt like crap most of the week because of allergies. justed booked my lesson though,hit 201 on the scale yesterday - if i keep this up i'll be comfortably under 200 in a month but 195 is still the target. Goals this week - driving range before golf lesson on saturday, get back into routine tomorrow, log everything i eat. come up with a plan for the health metrics that i can get back in range.
>>77191457>Were you thinking of giving up today?nope>What are your goals for this week?actually consistently work out, I never stick with it the longest I lifted for was 2 weeks and that was 4 years ago. I have a home gym to I got no excuses.>What do you plan to achieve? List it all down.- practice the piano every day.- start learning to draw.- get on a lifting/exercise routine.- read consistently as well.- get my oral hygiene up, I don't floss consistently and sometimes I skip brushing my teeth or wearing my retainer. I should also shower or bathe (with a bucket and rag) every day.- stop eating fast food last week I got that shit for breakfast like 3-4 times- clean my room and basement (where I hang out)- maybe get back into vidya, I think piano and drawing is more productive however- OH, and quit 4chan, reddit, reading manhwa online, porn, etc. I should live offline.
>>77191492That vision was false, your family and friends love you. In any case, you should reduce the amount of time you spend on the bar
>>77191457Week 3 of 12 for this program I built and am running. Siblings were in town so I lived a little bit over the weekend, probably ate too much but definitely nothing like I have done on holiday weekends in the past. Let's get it boys
>>77191556I am>>77191652Euh I’m sure they do but we have complicated relationship. I’m also not close anymore with friends or new people really. I started with gym a month ago and I’m making great progress which is awesome
>>77191557Congrats on quitting porn! I’m the same way, I’ve quit porn but I still fap. Oh well, we have to celebrate our victories. Try blocking instagram accounts with softcore porn. In the meantime, let’s keep building upon our foundations. Happy Easter!
>>77191600You’re doing great, so keep working hard! You’ve obviously developed a strategy, utilize it to reach your goal!
>didn’t have my hobbies to do this past weekend due to the holiday so literally didn’t leave the house at all except to bike aimlessly on Saturday for an hour or so>now Monday comes and it’s back to the misery of the weekIt’s so over for me man. Someone who’s my age mid 30s is supposed to be so busy with life that they barely have time to relax. They’re supposed to have a marriage, kids, a career, a house, and hobbies to need to balance where any spare time they get for themselves is a blessing. Then you have a complete loser like me who just sits in a room for an entire weekend making absolutely zero progress at all in my life for the ridiculous number of things I need to just scrounge together even the most basic life that most people already achieved a decade ago. My spirit is dead and gone. I’m just waiting for death at this point.
>>77191457Happy Monday, dudebros. New week, same goals:>wife's butthole: any%>treadmill until abs>big lifting, little eatingJust got back in town from Spring Break travel yesterday. Today's weigh in indicates I've probably lost a little weight, despite eating and drinking carelessly. All that tourist-walking added up, I guess.Settling right back into the plan. Should be looking good for pool season.
>>77191557Anons like you motivate me. I have been gooning everyday when my wife leaves for her run. Instead ofngoing with her I say I have homework (which I do). I graduate in 29 days. Last night I decided to hang out with some buddies instead of gooning. Im tired of porn, i dont even like it anymore, its just a weird habit to do. Im gonna keep going to the gym amd WAGMI baby.
I WILL LEARN THAT I PASSED MY CFA LEVEL 3 EXAM TOMORROW I WILL SUCCEED IN MY JOB I WILL REGAIN MY STRENGTH BY THE END OF MAY Tomorrow I’m receiving my exam results. I’ve been through this ordeal many times. I hope this is the final time I need to be in this position. I’m simultaneously extremely nervous and extremely calm. I tried my best until the very end. I pray it was enough to cross the mountain. I’ve worked unbelievably hard since I chose to embark on this journey. Now I’m ready to look out from the peak. This time I’m passing. The new financial quarter was begun. This cycle will be significantly less challenging than the previous one. Now I’m on my fourth filing. This time I need to master the process. I’m ready to prove to everyone that I’m capable and can succeed. Best of luck on your goals frens! Spring is beginning and so are new chapters of our lives! WAGMI!
Yesterdays lifts>bench 265x5 225x8 225x8>arnold press 5x10>cable pushdowns 5x20>face pulls 5x20Bench was a pr but the reps were grinders and I messed up my trap/neck, nothing major fortunately. 315 gets steadily nearerDeadlifts tomorrow, usually tuesday is squats but I'm deadlifting 2x a week rn because I want extra practice now that I've had a form breakthrough and quite frankly I'm sick of squats for now
>>77191642Those are all admirable goals, good luck! You’ve spent that money on a home gym, now you need to get your money’s worth
>>77191672There’s nothing wrong with living a little as long as you don’t go overboard or fall off. Now get back into the rhythm, you’re only going to get better!
>>77191715Then don’t lose your remaining friends. It gets significantly harder to make new friends once you enter society
>>77191801It’s only over when your heart stops beating. You need a hobby. And before you try to defend yourself, you’ll grow older no matter what
>>77191838Good luck with your abs! Remember to do some abs exercises as well to make them pop
>>77191457>down to 96 kg in 6 weeks from 99.5>stopped porn and jerk off with a loose grip to try heal deathgrip that has ruined all my relationships for my entire lifeSlow and steady
>>77191754>Congrats on quitting porn!Back in the day we used to say "you never quit wow you just take breaks". I feel similarly with porn. I don't think it's possible to completely forget about it. I had like 3-4 months long streaks before but I always slipped back. This time I try to acknowledge that I have this weakness in me instead of fall into the trap of hubris and fool myself into thinking I'm invincible. I haven't played wow in 7 years I think but I still feel the pull from time to time. The thing which helps is that I've built a life which is incompatible with gaming. I have no time to play, and even if I do I have this priority list of better past time activities. Not to mention that sometimes I legit just stare outside the window for long minutes to reset my mind. With porn it's harder because the phone is always in your hand and when you work from home and have a lot of downtime you can basically turn your whole day into a gooning session without realizing it. But it'd be great to look back 6-7 years later and say: I just simply don't have enough room in my life to let in even a minute of porn.>Try blocking instagram accounts with softcore porn.You are right. You've made me start blocking and unfollowing them. Thank you for the encouragement!>>77191908>Anons like you motivate meDamn. I've never thought I'd motivate anyone. That alone is a huge fuel to keep going. Regarding being alone while your wife is not around: I know that feeling. I'd suggest doing some stretching or mobility while she's not home. It's a good complimentary thing to the gym and just keeps you busy enough not to fap while she's not there.>Im tired of pornThat's a good starting point. It's easier to let go when you are sick of it. Try to remember this feeling when the urge comes. Good luck, anon! And remember: even if you fail, you are not a failure. It's the trap of the addiction, making you believe you can never leave so why bother. So even if you relapse keep going.
>>77191977You’re definitely hitting 3pl8 by the end of the year! What benching program do you use? You’re crazy strong
>>77191457Sadly i did think about giving up today, passover break is over and got back to school, hurts seeing how all My Friends are popular and talkative with the girls while i'm still an autist loner, it specially hurts me when i hear girls talk with disgust when they get assigned with me on a group project or they have to ask something from me, happened to me again today on first hour and kinda just Made me demotivated for the rest of the day, i'm not even like horribly ugly or smth so i know it's all my own fault for not having social skills, i'm almost finished with highschool and feel like Ive wasted it all, any tips on how to improve My Rep are welcome.On the bright side ive gotten more consistent with hitting the gym, i'm still a begginer so my lifts are kind shit But i just hit 40 kg on bench, I want to get more into reading and i'm almost finished with the book im reading rn, Also trying to sleep earlier and stick to clean foods.I feel like improving myself won't help with My social stuff rn, cuz a Lot of the culture in My country revolves around materialistic stuff, like drugs, violence and lust, so i avoid most of it.
>>77192300You’ve come far already and will only improve as you continue to hit your stride. Good luck!
I pray for good news tomorrow. If not, I will complete by goal by the end of the year
>>77192318Thanks for sharing that story about wow. I also need to create a life that's so rewarding that I no longer have the power to relapse
>>77191457> Were you thinking of giving up today?No!> What are your goals for this week?Actually, I'm planning to put some order at home and at work, I have a bit of a mess on both fronts. >What do you plan to achieve?1. I had planned a date for today, but she hasn't confirmed that it's still on, so I think shit's FUBAR. 1a. I have a backup, she brought me some foreign cakes and wants to see me today but I first want to know if the first girl has canceled. 2. It's my Mother's birthday this week, so I am going to give her an envelope with money, she told me that's what she wanted, that's what she will get. 3. I want to walk again, I am planning to go on a trip in July and I know that I am in no condition to be trekking all day long. I am thinking on a Baby Steps approach. I could be adding more stuff to this original post later.
>>77192292Trying to remember do some hanging knee raises on cardio days, for now. It'll be a nice problem to have, having to worry about my abs actually popping, but it's hard to be motivated for it right now. Once I'm more in range it it'll be easier to convince myself.
>>77192379If you have popular friends, ask them for tips. Just being in their orbit will improve your life. Honestly, you're still young. Go to university with the mentality of becoming the type of person you want to be. High school isn't forever and it's nearly finished for you. Try to join as many clubs/societies as you can as well as make memories
>>77192606Good luck with getting back in shape! Remember to take small steps so you can reach your goal
I will be optimistic about the future. WAGMI
I love these threads. Hope everyone is doing ok and got a work out in. It's 8:30 pm here and I'm headed to gym now. I'll be thinking about the self awareness of cleaner fish and jamming Prince and death metal. Going for PRs tonight on my dumbell presses. Wish me luck bros. I'll check in when I get home and reply to mean comments. WAGMI
I think I've hit the natty limit after 14 years of lifting, I really can't get much bigger or stronger. Gonna switch to focusing on health, will still lift but focus on cardio and being lean.
Today's lifts>Deadlift 425x3 + 1 afterward with opposite grip>Leg press 5x10>1pl8 carries 3 sets of 3 round trips across the turf>Back extensions 2x10Deadlift finally moving again after a fucking eternity>>77192377I haven't followed a preset program in ages, the general structure I do is challenging top set - could be anywhere from a 1rm attempt or a set of 10, I decide on the drive over - aiming for some kind of PR, followed by 2-3 sets of volume work, sets of 5 if the top was less than 5, otherwise match the top set reps. Twice a week.BUT I'm also a fatty who eats a shitload of eggs and breakfast sausage, that probably helps more than any actual programming
>>77192732Good luck bro! I hope you smashed some PRs! What songs did you end up listening to? WAGMI
Update on the Pure app. It's not for dating, it's straight up for sex. Inviting a match to grab a coffee will result in unmatching. Always mention that "your place is nearby". Then it works.
Went for run yesterday (5.8km) was really humid and warm - felt great for about the first 2km, then I died. Looks like summer has arrived fellas.
>>77192914There’s nothing wrong with changing goals. You’ve made a lot of improvement, now it’s time for you to pivot towards another goal
>>77191715its time to seek God and reconciliation with your family.
>>77194708Ignore this loser. Can't wait until dems are back in power just so the christ larpers crawl back under their rocks.
>>77193388Checked and thanks for the advice. I’ve accepted that eating a fuck ton is one of the only ways I can get significantly stronger
>>77192157Oh yeah I’m 24 now and I experienced that it’s way harder than school. I’m still able to make friends when I do social activities but I prefer to keep relationships surface level. >>77194708I got ok relationship with my family. I was raped multiple times when I was younger and I never told anyone. I tried to move on with life but stuff changed desu. My mom told me she wished I was dead when my grades dropped and rest of my family ridiculed me constantly for not performing well. I do not wish any harm upon them but honestly I rather not spend with any time with them. Besides my nieces and nephews I don’t like to be around anyone.I do believe in god, times where I almost died I got saved when I genuinely should have not made it. But anytime I pray for an answer or any meaning to life I get only silence in return. We still ball regardless
>>77194601What matters is that you ran. Keep running, it’ll get easier after a while. Summer is here :)
I just put a splash of coffee creamer in my oatmeal and it's unfortunately delicious. How over is it for me
>>77194783You’ve lived a rough life, but you’re mentally strong. Don’t cut them out, but do find ways to minimize their presence in their life. Fuck it, we ball
