It's the start of the week again, take a deep breath in, hold it and exhaleWere you thinking of giving up today? No you weren't. You made it through last week, you'll make it through this one as wellWhat are your goals for this week? What do you plan to achieve? List it all down.Take a deep breath, hold it and exhale, move at your own paceWe're ALL gonna make itThe motivation thread is openPrevious thread >>77165865
>>77191457i WILL smell a hot woman's ass this week
I do pull ups at work when I’m bored with a bar. This morning when I did warm up dead hang. My head felt funny after 10 seconds so I let go. I started having tunnel vision, problem breathing and my head started to spin. I lost my balance which made me fell to the ground on my hands and knees. My vision went full black, heart hurting,problem breathing. All this took me by surprise and I was like shit am I gonna die what the fuck is happening then my body started convulsing BADLY. I lost all control of my body shaking like the ass of a black hooker that’s twerking. I went full panick mode begging god to not let me die. Please god save me I’m so scared don’t let me die I don’t wanna die. This went on for a bit and then while my vision was still gone I saw bright white light. Deadass hallucinated being in a busy shopping street full with people laughing and walking while I was still on the ground shaking. People were walking past me, some stopped i saw friends,family,strangers pointing at me with a smile on their face. My mom saying to person next to her he is a filthy junkie haha. Not a single person showed any concern or interest to help. Then my vision started returning and I stopped shaking. I was all alone so I continued back to work, had lunch and now I’m typing this. Weird start of the week I don’t feel so good lol
>>77191468Good luck!
>>77191492fuck, I hope you're not as disconnected from loved ones and isolated existencially as this hallucination implies.
I'm one month porn free now.It doesn't mean I didn't fap or had sex, but I did so without pornography, without gooning for hours and much less.One mistake I've made is that I caught myself looking at girls wearing almost nothing doing calisthenics on Instagram. However this made me realize something. It's not about wanting to see perfect bodies and imagining fucking them. It's about another fantasy. The fantasy of being... Whole... Of being accepted... Of being... Enough. When I see them smile at me I feel like in an unforeseeable future one might hug me and I'd finally feel enough. But I know it's a lie. Unfortunately women are humans, too, and human relationships are messy. I know it first hand. Yet I fool myself thinking heaven is right around the corner, and keep chasing something which isn't there.It'd be easy to say: lol, just love yourself bruh, but I'm afraid I'm at the point where answers won't come that easily. I think that instead of fighting it I should make peace with the fact that I'll never feel whole and this longing for something is always going to be by my side. I "just" have to make sure it won't ruin what I've built.Thank you for reading my blog. Take care. Happy Easter!
>>77191468rookie mistake. go for cute girl ass
down to three games in the backlog. I did mostly okay limiting the gaming but i was also off friday. thought of another game to put on there but ill wait until its on sale. maintained drinking goals - think i had maybe three drinks last week. got all my bloodwork back and i'm pretty much the picture of health outside of LDL cholesterol which seems to have a genetic component so its more about trying to minimize that risk. also my vitamin D and coritsol, glucose, omega 3 and uric acid levels were a bit out of range so those are going to be my focus. did not make the driving range. felt like crap most of the week because of allergies. justed booked my lesson though,hit 201 on the scale yesterday - if i keep this up i'll be comfortably under 200 in a month but 195 is still the target. Goals this week - driving range before golf lesson on saturday, get back into routine tomorrow, log everything i eat. come up with a plan for the health metrics that i can get back in range.
>>77191457>Were you thinking of giving up today?nope>What are your goals for this week?actually consistently work out, I never stick with it the longest I lifted for was 2 weeks and that was 4 years ago. I have a home gym to I got no excuses.>What do you plan to achieve? List it all down.- practice the piano every day.- start learning to draw.- get on a lifting/exercise routine.- read consistently as well.- get my oral hygiene up, I don't floss consistently and sometimes I skip brushing my teeth or wearing my retainer. I should also shower or bathe (with a bucket and rag) every day.- stop eating fast food last week I got that shit for breakfast like 3-4 times- clean my room and basement (where I hang out)- maybe get back into vidya, I think piano and drawing is more productive however- OH, and quit 4chan, reddit, reading manhwa online, porn, etc. I should live offline.
>>77191492That vision was false, your family and friends love you. In any case, you should reduce the amount of time you spend on the bar
>>77191457Week 3 of 12 for this program I built and am running. Siblings were in town so I lived a little bit over the weekend, probably ate too much but definitely nothing like I have done on holiday weekends in the past. Let's get it boys
>>77191556I am>>77191652Euh I’m sure they do but we have complicated relationship. I’m also not close anymore with friends or new people really. I started with gym a month ago and I’m making great progress which is awesome
>>77191557Congrats on quitting porn! I’m the same way, I’ve quit porn but I still fap. Oh well, we have to celebrate our victories. Try blocking instagram accounts with softcore porn. In the meantime, let’s keep building upon our foundations. Happy Easter!
>>77191600You’re doing great, so keep working hard! You’ve obviously developed a strategy, utilize it to reach your goal!
>didn’t have my hobbies to do this past weekend due to the holiday so literally didn’t leave the house at all except to bike aimlessly on Saturday for an hour or so>now Monday comes and it’s back to the misery of the weekIt’s so over for me man. Someone who’s my age mid 30s is supposed to be so busy with life that they barely have time to relax. They’re supposed to have a marriage, kids, a career, a house, and hobbies to need to balance where any spare time they get for themselves is a blessing. Then you have a complete loser like me who just sits in a room for an entire weekend making absolutely zero progress at all in my life for the ridiculous number of things I need to just scrounge together even the most basic life that most people already achieved a decade ago. My spirit is dead and gone. I’m just waiting for death at this point.
>>77191457Happy Monday, dudebros. New week, same goals:>wife's butthole: any%>treadmill until abs>big lifting, little eatingJust got back in town from Spring Break travel yesterday. Today's weigh in indicates I've probably lost a little weight, despite eating and drinking carelessly. All that tourist-walking added up, I guess.Settling right back into the plan. Should be looking good for pool season.
>>77191557Anons like you motivate me. I have been gooning everyday when my wife leaves for her run. Instead ofngoing with her I say I have homework (which I do). I graduate in 29 days. Last night I decided to hang out with some buddies instead of gooning. Im tired of porn, i dont even like it anymore, its just a weird habit to do. Im gonna keep going to the gym amd WAGMI baby.
I WILL LEARN THAT I PASSED MY CFA LEVEL 3 EXAM TOMORROW I WILL SUCCEED IN MY JOB I WILL REGAIN MY STRENGTH BY THE END OF MAY Tomorrow I’m receiving my exam results. I’ve been through this ordeal many times. I hope this is the final time I need to be in this position. I’m simultaneously extremely nervous and extremely calm. I tried my best until the very end. I pray it was enough to cross the mountain. I’ve worked unbelievably hard since I chose to embark on this journey. Now I’m ready to look out from the peak. This time I’m passing. The new financial quarter was begun. This cycle will be significantly less challenging than the previous one. Now I’m on my fourth filing. This time I need to master the process. I’m ready to prove to everyone that I’m capable and can succeed. Best of luck on your goals frens! Spring is beginning and so are new chapters of our lives! WAGMI!
Yesterdays lifts>bench 265x5 225x8 225x8>arnold press 5x10>cable pushdowns 5x20>face pulls 5x20Bench was a pr but the reps were grinders and I messed up my trap/neck, nothing major fortunately. 315 gets steadily nearerDeadlifts tomorrow, usually tuesday is squats but I'm deadlifting 2x a week rn because I want extra practice now that I've had a form breakthrough and quite frankly I'm sick of squats for now
>>77191642Those are all admirable goals, good luck! You’ve spent that money on a home gym, now you need to get your money’s worth
>>77191672There’s nothing wrong with living a little as long as you don’t go overboard or fall off. Now get back into the rhythm, you’re only going to get better!
>>77191715Then don’t lose your remaining friends. It gets significantly harder to make new friends once you enter society
>>77191801It’s only over when your heart stops beating. You need a hobby. And before you try to defend yourself, you’ll grow older no matter what
>>77191838Good luck with your abs! Remember to do some abs exercises as well to make them pop
>>77191457>down to 96 kg in 6 weeks from 99.5>stopped porn and jerk off with a loose grip to try heal deathgrip that has ruined all my relationships for my entire lifeSlow and steady
>>77191754>Congrats on quitting porn!Back in the day we used to say "you never quit wow you just take breaks". I feel similarly with porn. I don't think it's possible to completely forget about it. I had like 3-4 months long streaks before but I always slipped back. This time I try to acknowledge that I have this weakness in me instead of fall into the trap of hubris and fool myself into thinking I'm invincible. I haven't played wow in 7 years I think but I still feel the pull from time to time. The thing which helps is that I've built a life which is incompatible with gaming. I have no time to play, and even if I do I have this priority list of better past time activities. Not to mention that sometimes I legit just stare outside the window for long minutes to reset my mind. With porn it's harder because the phone is always in your hand and when you work from home and have a lot of downtime you can basically turn your whole day into a gooning session without realizing it. But it'd be great to look back 6-7 years later and say: I just simply don't have enough room in my life to let in even a minute of porn.>Try blocking instagram accounts with softcore porn.You are right. You've made me start blocking and unfollowing them. Thank you for the encouragement!>>77191908>Anons like you motivate meDamn. I've never thought I'd motivate anyone. That alone is a huge fuel to keep going. Regarding being alone while your wife is not around: I know that feeling. I'd suggest doing some stretching or mobility while she's not home. It's a good complimentary thing to the gym and just keeps you busy enough not to fap while she's not there.>Im tired of pornThat's a good starting point. It's easier to let go when you are sick of it. Try to remember this feeling when the urge comes. Good luck, anon! And remember: even if you fail, you are not a failure. It's the trap of the addiction, making you believe you can never leave so why bother. So even if you relapse keep going.
>>77191977You’re definitely hitting 3pl8 by the end of the year! What benching program do you use? You’re crazy strong
>>77191457Sadly i did think about giving up today, passover break is over and got back to school, hurts seeing how all My Friends are popular and talkative with the girls while i'm still an autist loner, it specially hurts me when i hear girls talk with disgust when they get assigned with me on a group project or they have to ask something from me, happened to me again today on first hour and kinda just Made me demotivated for the rest of the day, i'm not even like horribly ugly or smth so i know it's all my own fault for not having social skills, i'm almost finished with highschool and feel like Ive wasted it all, any tips on how to improve My Rep are welcome.On the bright side ive gotten more consistent with hitting the gym, i'm still a begginer so my lifts are kind shit But i just hit 40 kg on bench, I want to get more into reading and i'm almost finished with the book im reading rn, Also trying to sleep earlier and stick to clean foods.I feel like improving myself won't help with My social stuff rn, cuz a Lot of the culture in My country revolves around materialistic stuff, like drugs, violence and lust, so i avoid most of it.
>>77192300You’ve come far already and will only improve as you continue to hit your stride. Good luck!
I pray for good news tomorrow. If not, I will complete by goal by the end of the year
>>77192318Thanks for sharing that story about wow. I also need to create a life that's so rewarding that I no longer have the power to relapse
>>77191457> Were you thinking of giving up today?No!> What are your goals for this week?Actually, I'm planning to put some order at home and at work, I have a bit of a mess on both fronts. >What do you plan to achieve?1. I had planned a date for today, but she hasn't confirmed that it's still on, so I think shit's FUBAR. 1a. I have a backup, she brought me some foreign cakes and wants to see me today but I first want to know if the first girl has canceled. 2. It's my Mother's birthday this week, so I am going to give her an envelope with money, she told me that's what she wanted, that's what she will get. 3. I want to walk again, I am planning to go on a trip in July and I know that I am in no condition to be trekking all day long. I am thinking on a Baby Steps approach. I could be adding more stuff to this original post later.
>>77192292Trying to remember do some hanging knee raises on cardio days, for now. It'll be a nice problem to have, having to worry about my abs actually popping, but it's hard to be motivated for it right now. Once I'm more in range it it'll be easier to convince myself.
>>77192379If you have popular friends, ask them for tips. Just being in their orbit will improve your life. Honestly, you're still young. Go to university with the mentality of becoming the type of person you want to be. High school isn't forever and it's nearly finished for you. Try to join as many clubs/societies as you can as well as make memories
>>77192606Good luck with getting back in shape! Remember to take small steps so you can reach your goal
I will be optimistic about the future. WAGMI
I love these threads. Hope everyone is doing ok and got a work out in. It's 8:30 pm here and I'm headed to gym now. I'll be thinking about the self awareness of cleaner fish and jamming Prince and death metal. Going for PRs tonight on my dumbell presses. Wish me luck bros. I'll check in when I get home and reply to mean comments. WAGMI
I think I've hit the natty limit after 14 years of lifting, I really can't get much bigger or stronger. Gonna switch to focusing on health, will still lift but focus on cardio and being lean.
Today's lifts>Deadlift 425x3 + 1 afterward with opposite grip>Leg press 5x10>1pl8 carries 3 sets of 3 round trips across the turf>Back extensions 2x10Deadlift finally moving again after a fucking eternity>>77192377I haven't followed a preset program in ages, the general structure I do is challenging top set - could be anywhere from a 1rm attempt or a set of 10, I decide on the drive over - aiming for some kind of PR, followed by 2-3 sets of volume work, sets of 5 if the top was less than 5, otherwise match the top set reps. Twice a week.BUT I'm also a fatty who eats a shitload of eggs and breakfast sausage, that probably helps more than any actual programming
>>77192732Good luck bro! I hope you smashed some PRs! What songs did you end up listening to? WAGMI
Update on the Pure app. It's not for dating, it's straight up for sex. Inviting a match to grab a coffee will result in unmatching. Always mention that "your place is nearby". Then it works.
Went for run yesterday (5.8km) was really humid and warm - felt great for about the first 2km, then I died. Looks like summer has arrived fellas.
>>77192914There’s nothing wrong with changing goals. You’ve made a lot of improvement, now it’s time for you to pivot towards another goal
>>77191715its time to seek God and reconciliation with your family.
>>77194708Ignore this loser. Can't wait until dems are back in power just so the christ larpers crawl back under their rocks.
>>77193388Checked and thanks for the advice. I’ve accepted that eating a fuck ton is one of the only ways I can get significantly stronger
>>77192157Oh yeah I’m 24 now and I experienced that it’s way harder than school. I’m still able to make friends when I do social activities but I prefer to keep relationships surface level. >>77194708I got ok relationship with my family. I was raped multiple times when I was younger and I never told anyone. I tried to move on with life but stuff changed desu. My mom told me she wished I was dead when my grades dropped and rest of my family ridiculed me constantly for not performing well. I do not wish any harm upon them but honestly I rather not spend with any time with them. Besides my nieces and nephews I don’t like to be around anyone.I do believe in god, times where I almost died I got saved when I genuinely should have not made it. But anytime I pray for an answer or any meaning to life I get only silence in return. We still ball regardless
>>77194601What matters is that you ran. Keep running, it’ll get easier after a while. Summer is here :)
I just put a splash of coffee creamer in my oatmeal and it's unfortunately delicious. How over is it for me
>>77194783You’ve lived a rough life, but you’re mentally strong. Don’t cut them out, but do find ways to minimize their presence in their life. Fuck it, we ball
>>77191838Hope you eat that hole soon, anon. Rooting for you
>>77195754Thanks, bro. I anticipate a lot of good sex this summer thanks to the kids being out of the fucking house, and by that point my cut should be paying off visibly. Wife also got some good news today which should result in a major de-stress at her job soon. All in all, I think I'll be well poised for pushing the anal front.Intending to concentrate more on the primary goal of getting my dick in her ass, which amounts to working her butt up to the plug I bought and then when the moment is likely, maybe she's lubed from a finger and warm from an orgasm, I'll rub my dick on her butthole and see what happens.Still going for the buttlicking, though. After I feel like the statute of limitations on the no she gave me a couple weeks ago is up, sometime when she's clean and I'm eating her pussy anyway, I'll give her booty the tongue. May take a bit for that right opportunity to come around - need to also have her in the right mood.Resolved myself to stop talking with her about sex stuff outside of the moment in general. I get a lot more yes when she's already got her pants off. The buttlicking I felt like I needed to ask first because I want her to be clean for it, but I really should have picked a better moment.Anyway. Still trying! WAGMI(UHB)
>>77195077Not at all. You had a temporary lapse of decision. Don’t let a bad moment ruin your day
>>77195077That's nothing, man, look what I did today. Fucking huge mistake, but I'll work it into the macros somehow.
>>77197088Shit, lol, doxxed myself with the brand on the cutting board. Let's try again.
>>77196877WAGMI and checked
I've been cycling almost every day for the last 10 days. Now I'm going out for day 11.WAGBI (we're all gonna bike it) bros
>>77198295Based bike bro. Hopefully I'll have my first ride this weekend.
>>77198299*in this season, I mean.
>>77191838>>77196877hell yeah analbro. just got through another ten day marathon of baby making sex and my dick was literally coughing up fumes at the end. im excited for recreational sex again
>>77196877>>77198339my cut is also going well, should be about ten pounds away but the weather has been shit for cardio + easter candy
>>77191457Do any of you have experience with adhd meds? I think maybe they didn’t work in the past and gave such awful side effects (anxiety paranoid crashes sleep issues etc) was because I was taking a fuck load of caffeine with it. I’m trying to quit caffeine and nicotine and I’m willing to try again but I kind of want to stay away from stimulant based meds.
>>77197120Looks yummy. Try giving some to your friends
>>77198295>almost every daywell I missed 3 actuallyone cuz my ass hurtone cuz I wasn't going to take a second fucking shower before going to work the next dayand yesterday cuz I got really sleepy and felt like going to bed earlierother than that it's every day, I'm sticking to it as much as I can>>77198299thanks, weather's been really good lately for me (not too cold not too warm with some wind) so I've been taking full advantagehope you can have that ride this weekend, anon
>>77198344Congrats! Keep pushing towards your goal. What have the been the most effective methods in cutting?
>>77191457Made some progress at work this week. I am gonna finish the internship contract in 6 months(maybe extra 3). The lack of guidance at this place is fucking horrifying. I will continue with my masters full time. Sell my car then buy a bike to cut costs and work part time. Will reattempt for international scholarship. At this point idk how my life is gonna pan out. The energy I am spending at the job I will use it on what I want the masters is one thing for academia, but game dev is the other. i will execute my plan.
>>77198362I’d recommend staying away from drugs. I took a bunch of adhd meds as a teen and they nuked my libido
>>77198798I was on concerta during my teen years. Slowed me down way too much, basically retarded me to the point of being counterintuitive. The irony is when I quit it I got it all together, got fit started focusing and doing my classwork and getting As. Went into college, at some point started abusing caffeine like up to 1000mg a day at points. Tried adderall a few times. Worked for the first month then turned into masturbation marathons. Bad paranoia and anxiety, sleep issues, crashes.I think the caffeine (piss poor attempt to self medicate) needs to go before I do anything. It fucks with how the drugs affect me. But I don’t care if I lose libido if I can fucking focus for once again. Attention span ain’t what it was 10 years ago. Maybe the caffeine is the problem, still using 300-450mg a day atm
>>77198731Nobody knows how life will work out. It’s important to have a plan, but also accept all of the turbulence that will occur. It sounds like you have a solid plan. I’d recommend trying to connect with people in the video game field to learn more about the industry. Good luck!
>>77198428Wife and kids destroyed it, lol. Made big sandwiches for dinner so I could have some and still call it on plan.
>>77198339Goddam, I remember those days. I'll never forget my wife surprising me with the most amazing red lingerie to try and coax one more out of me and my dick just refusing.>>77198344Weather and holidays just happen. We can do all the math in the world, but that stuff is what it is. Can't get too down about it. I spent all week kind of failing on my cut due to jet lag, but next week will be better, so I'll just keep on going.WAGMI, bros. Sooner or later.
>>77198892Thanks for making these threads anon. Really appreciate it. Gives me a sense of determination reading other people's stories. I hope you are doing well! Enjoy the weekend and good luck with the rest.
>>77191457Something wonderful will happen to (you) soon
>>77198999CHECKED AND WAGMI
>>77199051I really love creating these threads. I make them for that very reason - I want to know how other people are striving to succeed
>>77199137Oh man, I didn't even notice those diggies. It's gonna be a good weekend, I reckon.
>>77199054Something great already happened to me this week. Now I have smaller wishes that I hope come true soon
I have passed my level 3 CFA exam! Although the paperwork to become a full charterholder remains, I am officially finished with my CFA exams. I no longer need to study. No more Friday nights spent next to textbooks. I haven’t really accepted that it’s over. My entire journey keeps on flashing before my eyes, like recalling a movie that I just saw. I don’t want to feel too much regret over the process. What’s important is that I’ve passed now. There were many painful chapters that I had to endure. I hope after overcoming these chapters, I’ve gained strength. I need to remember that I’ve proved myself. From this day, I need to live with the knowledge that I’ve proven myself as capable. I will succeed I originally came to /MIS/ because I wanted to share my professional and fitness dreams (I was in the thread that had this post). When MIS Autism Anon stopped making the threads, I realized how much I loved this place. I revived this general like a phoenix and developed a cadence. Since then, you’ve all gotten to hear me talk about my drama, in terms of studies, work, and fitness. I’ve also learned about your dreams. I appreciate getting to know how much you’ve all worked to achieve your goals. Even if you posted as a blackpiller, I want to believe that there’s something driving you to improve. We’ve all changed for the better and will reach even greater heights.Good luck frens! WAGMI
89 days of sobriety.Got a job.
>>77199568massive bro proud of you. the struggle of stopping something isnt easy
>>77199510Nice going senpai. I remember feeling like that in the past - grinding shit out, struggling and feeling like you're too retarded but then you do pass whatever and it feels so strange that you no longer have to study lol.
>started lifting because I just want to get girls >fast forward>stopped caring about girls and just want to lift for the sake of lifting>mfw I suffer withdrawals from not lifting (due to sickness and etc)
>>77199568Congrats! You've worked insanely hard and should be proud. Have you joined AA?
>>77199662
>>77200156Yes, I have a sponsor and I'm working on step 2 right now. I can feel the difference from where I started to where I am now. Cravings for drugs and alcohol aren't as bad.I have some ammunition against my addiction now. I see there is an alternate path my life can go (sobriety) and that's more appealing than the degeneracy I was living in before.Feels good man.
>>77199671Thanks for the praise. I just tired right now. I have time but I need to figure out what’s next
>be me>working at a shit job>manager sucks, half the staff fucks off while the working half picks up slack>had an interview at another place>went well, got hired>had to process a bunch of shit so it would take a month before I could work>stay at shit job in meantime>new job starts monday>went into shit job today>had a horrible shift that reminded me why I hate my manager>fast forward to 8pm>just texted in my "I quit" message>smoking a joint >gonna wake up and hit the gym at the time my shift was supposed to startthe dopamine I felt hitting block number was like a heroin hit bros
>>77200068So fitness has become a major goal for you and part of your routine. welcome back to the club, you've gained motivation and discipline
My life might be about to change gears pretty drastically. I have the second round of a big job interview coming this week. If I get the job, I will suddenly become a full-time worker in a corporate office. I have to admit that I feel scared to be facing such an extraordinary life change. I graduated university during covid and I’ve been pretty much trapped inside ever since. My life totally flatlined, which is my fault more than any other factor. I got into fitness during that time and made more progress than I ever thought possible. I absolutely need to keep that up. It has become very important to me. I don’t know, bros. Life is hard and stressful. There’s so much that I want. I want to make good money and be a self-sustaining person. I want to have friends and a social life and pursue romance. I want to stay fit and make gains. I want to enjoy my free time and consoom all my favourite media. I want to find inner-peace from all my mental bullshit and stay ahead of my desire to keep being a stoner drunky coomer degenerate. But it all feels very overwhelming. I know I need to take it one day at a time. But the bird’s eye view is frightening.
>>77201259money enables the rest of that stuff and a steady corporate paycheck mogs any sort of shift workgo to work, do a passable job, save your energy to indulge in the things you love
>>77201240It's just funny.Imagine going back and tell your younger self that you end up caring about lifting more than girls.
>>77201190Hell yeah, man. Moving on and up!
>>77201268Oh yeah I want that money. I’m gonna pursue this career. I’m just very nervous about it.
>>77200932Congrats! Support and community mean a lot when you're trying to amend yourself. Stick with the programYou're gonna make it :)
>>77199568Holy fucking shit, gg. Posts like this make it worth it to visit this board.>>77198445I had my ride. I underestimated the cold and the wind. It's hard to articulate this, but I found myself not enjoying it as much as I used to. Maybe I went too hard too fast and should have done a few lighter sessions to start the season. One thing is that the bike itself annoys me. I mean bike maintenance in general. I think I started to prefer the simplistic pleasure of running which basically only requires a pair of shoes. Dunno, we'll see. At least I was out there when most people were still sleeping, so that's a nice confidence boost at least.
>>77200068It happens to most of us. Welcome to the club. This is the point when it starts to become fun.
>>77201800its sunday morning, asshole
may your monday be sick brahs
>>77201259Congrats! I'm also the covid class, so I understand how hard it's been for a lot of us. We've really struggled to start our lives. Prepare hard for this interview, research questions and figure it why this company is unique. Unfortunately, you're not going to get everything in this world. But you will inch closer to achieving some level of happiness after you get his job. You'll still have time for friends, fitness, and hobbies, but less time. YGMI
>>77200068>I want girls>should I try talking to girls?>nah, I'll try lifting, then they magically will appearNigga
>>77203312I started lifting because I was too fat for girls at the time. (I used to get along fine when I was skinner).Then, I just lost interest in finding a gf along the way.
Week 5 of no porn.I originally thought I won't report that often, but posting here gives me the feeling of accountability, plus it wasn't an easy week.Work after spring break really triggered me hard, but luckily I managed to just sit with the urge and the fantasies. But it wasn't a clean week. I managed to convince myself that that ecchi manga which was borderline porn and I didn't finished should be finished. But I realized after a few pages that I'm getting way too excited and that this was an elaborate self sabotage so I rather closed, trying to make peace with the fact I'll never know the ending.I've done some soul searching. I've realized what a shitty person I was. I won't say porn made me do this, but I guess it amplified things. There are the obvious "physical" sympthoms like always being tired and irritated. Then I know I've hurt people because I felt like I deserve more and better. While, in fact, I now understand that no amount of pussy is ever going to make me feel whole, real or pixels on a screen.I don't want to blame everything on this one thing, especially that I know others have it, too, but I have pectus excavatum. This made me hate myself from a very young age. So now even when someone says they love me, I instantly doubt them: they are just being nice or they pity me. And in a twisted way porn sells me the idea that one day this feeling of not being enough is going to magically disappear, real, unquestionable love will find me, I just have to search and indulge more. But when I do and find something, well, it won't be enough.I know these two topics might not sound connected, but I feel like they are very much connected to me.As a practice to overcome this, I've started to write these weird sounding statements. "I'm grateful for my legs because I can run with them." So while I try to mourn that I'll never look like the way I wish I could, at least my body gets me to places and still helps me experience life itself.Take care!
>>77191457>What do you plan to achieve?Killing myself
>>77191557I haven't masturbated in maybe 5 years, it had nothing to offer. All I want now is a hug
>>77191754>>77192318>Try blocking instagram accounts with softcore pornI've been unfollowing all of my followed accounts whenever I see something pornographic, it knocked out a few women that I once had good friendships with. Oh well, get your tits off my screen pls
>>77194783Christian here, sometimes the meaning of life is just to live. The entire world is the answer to some prayers
>>77197120Friday: Making bread for the next weekSaturday: Fuck
>>77203365>I've started to write these weird sounding statements.Gratitude is one of the most important things you can do every day, especially for the little things. I, for one, am grateful that I live in a part of the world that has electricity and is not getting bombed to shit at the moment.
I am .5kg away from hitting 20kg lost since January. I may actually make it this summer. Which will leave me with 15kg to go.Feels good man.
>>77203458fuck off with your incel bullshit
>>77203044Checked. We’re in for an exciting week :)
>>77203513Congrats! You’ve set your mind on achieving a goal and will succeed WAGMI
>>77203318>while fat funny guys were talking to women I mastered the barbellSo you either turned yourself gay or schitzo. You know it's easy to talk to women, they're also humans.
>>77203661Is it so hard to imagine that some people manages to find meaning and purpose outside of chasing pussy? I'm personally glad for that anon that he found peace.
>>77201806I don't think the man in the cave cares.
>>77203661>I mastered the barbellunironically yes.The dopamine hit is too addicting.
>>77191457Could use some direction or insight, have two paths to choose>stay in current dead end job working 4 days a week for min wage take mostly online classes probably largely part time get bachelors and be an engineerI know nothing about engineering. I would hope to do something with cars but again even that I know nothing about.>get into a trade probably HVACOnce again, no experience and know nothing about it.I feel so stuck and lost right now I have to choose something
335x4 on deadlift this morning, I'm so proud, I had never lifted before 5 months ago. Gonna keep going.Does anyone else find the psychological component challenging when first starting to lift heavy? Sometimes the weight doesn't go up because I second guess, or feel a twinge of fear, but if I grind through one rep I can often do a few more.>>77203513Nice! Keep going anon, you got this.
>>77203778I had never *deadlifted before 5 months ago. I'd been fucking around at the gym before then,eg had never put up a plate on squat or bench
>>77203730I was stuck working minimum wage jobs after giving up on college the first time. Finally made myself suffer through online classes first at community college for an associate's then took the guaranteed transfer to a real college for the bachelor's in IT. I'm now WFH for 6 figures and maybe actually work 8 hours a week.I fucking hated college both times. That stupid piece of paper sucked so much as to get, and now I don't even know where it is in the house. But having it instantly transformed my life.I was also part timing as a handyman towards the end of the degree, and that was rapidly becoming lucrative too. That was real work, though. I had to choose, and while the handyman stuff would have led me into a career owning my own company and paid more faster, it was also going to be a lot more of my life invested.If you need to fix your income now, learn to paint and drywall properly and go nuts with that. That was my bread and butter. The tools are cheap, materials are cheap, you can punch a hole in your own wall and practice at home, YouTube has a million videos on it.Find business by posting on Nextdoor, not Craig's List. Have ChatGPT or whatever tune you up a "handyman looking for work" with a little info about yourself. If you're white and 30+, that works heavily in your favor, but honestly it only takes a few successful jobs to get going.
>>77191457Happy Monday, dudes. New week, same goals.>any% wife's buttthole>treadmill until abs>big lifting, little eatingLast week sucked. Exhausted from jet lag, couldn't keep my diet together, lifts are all thoroughly in the dumpster, finished the week having utterly failed. I did, however, see my lowest number on the scale in years on Wednesday, so we'll see. New week, here we go.Weekend was good family time, but I got zero action. This is the point where I usually start whining and begging, but I'm not doing that anymore. I'll take the opportunity when it comes, and it will at some point.WAGMI(UHB)
>>77203801I honestly don’t think freelancing would work out for me how it did for you. My options are either stay in current job and juggle classes while I work it until I get the degree or try for a trade. Except from what I’m learning even a trade requires school and the typical “oh just apply for a helper or apprenticeship position they WANT to teach you” is outdated boomer tier “firm handshake and eye contact before you apply” type advice. So idk what to do. I feel fucked man I feel so fucked. I feel like I would be miserable in a trade unless I were to land a solo gig of some sort, or at least only have 1 partner to work with. I would hate being on a crew. I hate school that’s why I dropped out. I don’t even know what I would do as an engineer. The idea of “we need this product and it needs to meet these requirements make a model make some prototypes” sounds fucking sick to me it gets me harder than any other idea I’ve had but realistically how common are jobs like that?
>>77203470I’m the same way. I try to write down one what I’m grateful every day. Gratitude is a hard to master emotion, but I need to try
>>77203825I wouldn't go into trades in this day and age. The old guys are all assholes, the new guys are all immigrants that will underbid you, and none of them are competent.
>>77203825You have to work to live. That's just life. All jobs suck in some way. Even my glorious WFH 8 hours a week has its problems. The handyman thing you can start immediately on your days off, and you can abandon it if it doesn't work out. I got paid good money for easy work, and 5 years after stopping people still call me back. Just pick and choose your jobs, only take the easy stuff, and don't quit your day job immediately. And always buy the right tool for what you're doing, butnit doesn't have to be the most expensive one.
>>77203885The handy man thing isn’t guaranteed though and I can’t abandon it because then I have no job. I have a job right now that lets me just scrape by but it does let me get by. I appreciate the idea but I don’t think that’s a good course of action for me
>>77191457i'm not doing too well, bros. i've been putting in super long hours at work for the past year or so and been under a lot of stress to get stuff done. they pay well, but with ai getting better and better by the day i don't know how long i have until i get laid off. i'm just burnt out at this point, i've been super stressed for too long and my brain just cooperating with me anymore. i can't focus for shit, always in constant anxiety because i burned out.i always defined my worth based on my job, and now that i can't perform too well i feel like i'm spiralling and getting depressed. don't get me wrong, i'm glad that i was lucky and got a good opportunity, but it seems like i can't really do this anymore.i have nothing going on for me aside from work, i'm fat and awkward, got no friends. no romantic prospects either and i turned 30 recently. i have my own place, but if i lose this job then i'll have to move back in with my parents and then dating will basically become impossible. and it seems i'll lose this job sooner rather than later, either i will burn out for good and get fired or ai will take it and i'll be laid off.i don't really know what to do here, bros. i feel like i've really fucked up, that i didn't make a bigger attempt to improve myself socially or physically while i was on the gravy train. i really feel like i wasted my 20's, and now i'm 30 and i'm literally over one third of the way through my lifespan and things are likely to only get worse going forward. it all feels like it's basically over at this point
>>77203365You’ve made a lot of progress already. It takes a lot of courage to address your own flaws. There’s nothing weird about writing about gratitude or how you feel. You’re gonna go far as long as you stay persistent! Good luck!
>>77203968I said don't quit your day job, lol. Handyman on weekends.Look man, you've tried nothing and it's not working. It doesn't have to be handyman, but you don't have a better idea it sounds like.
WAGMI status?
>>77203981I think it's you and about 47million others in the same boat right now. Start giving less of yourself at work. Your job is not your life, or it shouldn't be. I'm not saying do a crappy job, but scale back yo.
>>77204106Green lights all across the board, sir. WAGMI is a go.
>>77203981just take a break man. should be obvious even for you that you need one
>>77203455I’m not religious but I agree with that mentality. To learn to be happy in the moment and appreciate tiny gifts is what we need to live
>>77203981you said you are getting paid well. have you put money aside or even better invested? you are pretty much waste your life if you dont leverage your position/salary into more wealth since you are paying for it with your life. nothing wrong with grinding as long as it serves a purpose.
>>77204108>>77204118>>77204237i appreciate it guys. i have been putting money aside, but it's nowhere near enough to retire yet. even if my salary doubled today i'd probably still need to keep this up for another 10 years before i could even consider retiring
If you have been going to the gym consistently for a while then there is a 99% chance someone there has a crush on you bro
>>77204296could you just move to another area/country with a cheaper cost of living?
>>77203778>>77203787Congrats on your deadlifts! It took me way longer than 5 months to lift that much. You’re truly elite. Honestly, I can agree. Sometimes I feel like I arbitrarily limit how much I can lift due to fear or schedules. I need to start approaching benching with the mentality that I can always do more and not to limit myself by previous lifts
>>77191457wagmi
>>77204303>there is a 99% chance someone has a crush on youFTFYSeriously, you don't realize it, but there are plenty of women out there just as desperate for love as all of us. Looking back, I had so many girls crushing on me throughout life, but I had no idea at the time.
>>77204371Thanks anon, I'll keep trying. It's true tho, we can usually do more than we think. You got this!
>>77203823So you did find a little success. Keep trying this week, you know your worth and your capable. WAGMI
>>77204303i pray so
finally got to cross that game off. so dumb but now i can just concentrate on other shit. wife is already starting to poke at the booze again by sending me some retarded IG fake doctor. i had 6 drinks last week, spaced over three days. was already praying she's knocked up this time but not looking forward to conversations if she isnt. cut is going well but should go better now that i got most of the easter candy out of the way. need to get better about logging. less than three weeks until my run. Golf lesson went wellGoals this week:Back in the saddle, one hour max game time a day. Work on this employment project for knights of columbus. Get back to reading. Record all the scott adams microlessons because subscription is running out next month. Get to all my golf practices. Look into making apps with Claude. wagmi
>>77204106Still on schedule
>>77203981Try to find worth beyond your job. If you’re feeling burnt out, I need something else. Even if it’s something little to do every 2 weeks, it’ll keep you sane. Also don’t think in terms of life wasted. You still have time to enjoy life if you want to change
I probably just took a couple years off my life this past year of work.I don't remember a time when I consistently got more than 5 hours of sleep a night. I wasn't doing it to support a family, to achieve some grand financial goal, to attain prestige in this mediocre field, or any of that. It was just pure ego thinking that I was so important to keep wheels going that were I to falter, life would be worse for so many people.It hit today after the 7th back to back call with frustrating clients or people asking for yet more things from me that I realized this is not my life's purpose, and that this is simply a stepping stone to something larger. I have a good title, a good pay check, and the work is providing fun opportunities. But that's all bullshit at the end of the day, and i am at the stage to just take my life back.I won't quit my job just yet. But today was my first day back in the gym in awhile, and it felt good. That is the start of the rest of my plans to get back to the ownership of my own self.Fuck the jew York corpohomo economy.
>>77204427Thanks. Maybe I am holding myself back and can bench more than I can even imagine
>>77204544Good luck! You’re gonna get your wife pregnant soon. Knights of Columbus is a great resource in switching jobs. Ask around and see if anybody can help you. WAGMI
I will bench 2pl8 for at least 8 reps by Memorial Day
>>77204658Welcome back fren! We're always happy to train with you. Don't quit your job, but start looking around. If you're smart and capable, you'll find something. However, it does take time to land a job. You're making the right move in the end
185lb ohp today at 200lb, /fit/!fuck yeah wagmi
>>77204303but i only work out at home
>>77204495Ayup. I am learning to live with the 2 steps forward, 1.75 steps back. Gonna make it if it kills me.
>>77205012That’s a crazy strong OHP, you should feel proud! WAGMI
>>77201800hope you can have a better ride next time, as for me my tube has stopped holding air on sunday and today when I went to repair it I couldn't find the fucking tire spoons so I didn't fucking repair it for fucks sakeand tomorrow I have to go to the office so I probably won't have the time or energy to go and buy a new set of the spoonsfuck my fucking chud life, that said I am going to get the bike working this week >>77203044thanks brah, I had a nice gym session on monday
>>77205358What matters is that you'll make it eventually
>>77205533Bike maintenance is a bitch. I remember the first time I had to fix my tire I didn't know about dedicated tire spoons so I used actual spoons.Good luck! I hope you can keep your spirits high!
Don't know if I should go back to uni to get my masters/PhD or focus on just getting a government job.
>>77205820I got a masters degree.I feel like nobody cares a lot about it and I still get rejected because I'm a male. Transitioning to a women would get me a better job moreso than qualifications at this point lmao.
Just had perhaps the worst two months of my adult life. Was stuck in a relationship straight out of that new demented version of Wuthering Heights. Health bottomed out eventually, and I had to basically do nothing but rest and watch life pass me by for a bit. Finally getting back out into the world again. Just went to the casino for fun and made a couple hundred. Have started writing again. Got laid a few times with new girls. Happy about all that. The one nagging feeling I have, though, is that now that I've reached my 30s, I just can't do the hookup routine as much anymore. These girls sometimes turn out to be monsters, and it's now costing me my vitality -- and vitality isn't as easy to recover, the older you get. Most of the chicks I try to get serious with surprise me a few months in by saying the hate kids, or that they just wanna work and do nothing else with their lives. Starting to think that marriage just ain't in the cards for me. I've got a sinking feeling that no amount of working out or doing my own thing is going to alleviate this discomfort. Guess it'll just take time, as they say.
>>77205792>so I used actual spoonsjej, I used old screwdrivers the first time and after i snapped one I decided to buy the spoons>Good luck! I hope you can keep your spirits high!Thank you, I try in spite of the bullshit that occurs
>>77204544Oh and jerking off into a cup today after eight months of getting leaner, upping cardio, and taking supplements. My only bad number last time was dna frag. Hoping that number is down
Bought some new weights for le at home lifting, hit some new stuff today which feels like good progress.Went out with the gf last week and what was a good night turned into a very dumb blacked out argument, we ended up leaving early and missed the DJ we paid to see. While not entirely my fault I feel very guilty and worried that it might happen again. Needless to say that's me off drinking for the foreseeable future.I hate nihilists and pessimists but have started feeling those type of thoughts creeping in when I'm not distracted. I think about how nothing matters and we'll all be dead soon etc. at least once a day. I don't necessarily believe these things or want to live by them but seems impossible to stop thinking about.
>>77205533Don’t despair, you'll fix your bike eventually. Better days will come
>>77205820Focus on getting a government job. Education these days is a means to an end and the job market is terrible
>>77205956Don’t give up. I know it’s cliche, but there are women out there who want to settle down and have kids. But you do have to look carefully for a good one
>>77206199oh no, not despair, not at allat this point it's fucking comical how almost every single thing that could go even slightly wrong does for melike for some reason the foil on an egg carton was super tight and hard to pull off, so I pulled harder and an egg fell outnow it would be bad enough if it had fallen on the floor but it just had to fucking hit the toolbox that was standing a little to the sideI even cracked the shells of two eggs with the strength of my huge musclesafter something like that I could only laugh>Better days will comeI'll make them if I have toWAGMI
>>77201190This is like me but when I quit I stayed depressed and jobless for a year
>>77206541>Drops egg on the floor>Turns into the jokerIt can be really annoying when minor inconveniences pile up, but just try put things into perspective with the outlook that your life is relatively pretty good.
>>77206560Kek. Yeah, being jobless -- even if you have lots of hobbies and all that -- is actually hell. A fella needs something to do during the day.
>>77206565Yeah man. I'm studying so not neet but may as well have been. I quit so I could focus more on my course but ended up more distracted than before with less money and more depressed. Only just crawling back out of the hole I ended up in hence being on /fit/. Got a job lined up soon hopefully brah
>>77206176Don’t fall into the pessimistic bucket. We only live once, so it’s important that we live productively and happily. On our deathbeds, everything matters
>>77206560I was actually basically neeting (in college online with very little actual studying) for 2 years prior to the shitty jobbecame a huge pothead and wasted an obscene (to me) amount of money, still kicking myself for it but dwelling is for no onewe live and we learn init
>>77206541Better days will come. You have the right attitude. Dont get discouraged and take life one day at a time. WAGMI
I feel reinvigorated. After spending the last month completely distraught, lost and listless, I've re-found some amount of energy and I think I can turn things around next week.
>>77209154I’m glad you’re turning your life around. Remember to take everything one step at a time. You don’t have to be perfect, but you do need to amend yourself
>>77206561>It can be really annoying when minor inconveniences pile upoh trust me, I know>but just try put things into perspective with the outlook that your life is relatively pretty good.that clarity of mind comes afterwards but in the moment I often go insane, when it's thing after thing after fucking thing>>77206804>Dont get discouraged and take life one day at a time.I've been working and making progress on this for a while now and I've gotten much better at putting things into perspectiveand even though I got a nasty cold on wednesday I'm pretty sure my healing protocol will have me healthy tomorrow and many things will be acomplished then>>77209154great to hear anon, get after it!
>>77209546You’ll feel better eventually. For the time being, just focus on recovering. You’ll only make the situation worse by rushing your recovery. You’ll be back soon
currently getting over an acute schizo episode, its rough cause i couldn't really exercise properly for a few days, but at least i also lost some weight from not eating, gotta count the positives right :')
>>77209650I’m sorry about your episode. Are you at least feeling better now? In any case, get back in the saddle, gains await you
>>77209694ya im ok bro, back into the routine today, hope your gains go well too
another weekend, another 3 days of doing nothing. I am 38 and I sometimes feel like I miss out on "responsibilities" because everyone around me at my age seems like he is pressed for time. there is always the next annoying thing they have to do, really makes me wonder sometimes. not really complaining tho.
>>77210621Today is a great day to try again. Good luck
>>77206159I know alcohol, cigarettes and such things will negatively impact your sperm, but does a better diet or exercise make an impact in the other direction?
I am barely holding on.All I keep telling myself is that I'm still pretty young and can turn it all around later, but there's a worry that later will never come, that I need to take the small steps now to establish the base for improvements later, but then I just feel like laying in bed and staring at the ceiling.
>>77210708Do you at least have hobbies to occupy your time? They'll give you a lot of meaning
>>77212129Later will come either way. Start the very smallest of steps now. One little thing at a time, any single little thing for a start. And some days, getting out of bed counts.
I'm here nowI'm doing the best I canWhere are you now?Did your dreams come true?
>>77212059They definitely do positively impact your quality of sperm
>>77212549I do but they arent something that I can do all the time. I do enjoy my time of doing nothing.
Starting a new job and (slightly) upgrading gyms from planet fitness tomorrow and feeling goodEverything's coming up Millhouse
>>77209546>>77209623hit a really good gym session todayfixed the bike (I think, it was my first time using a tube patch kit so we'll see if it holds air in the morning)I did pretty much get the bike working like I said here >>77205533I still have a sore throat and my head hurt after the gym but it passed and so will the sore throat and occasionaly clogged noseI need to organize my fucking diet finally next week, clean up the apartment and look at making a mobility routine for my fucked up jointsI'm making progress, setting goals and meeting some of them, things are dare I say potentialy maybe looking up.Here's to the next week being better than this one lads.
>>77212971Good luck! Remember to smile and take notes. They wouldn’t hire you if they didn’t think that you’re capable
Week 6 of no pornography.I guess it's a good sign that I had to check which week I've finished because I kinda lost count?Anyway, nothing much to report. It was a hard week because the urges were real. I mean no amount of realization makes them go away. Knowing the triggers and the underlying patterns simply don't make them vanish. It's just there like longing for a cold drink on a hot summer day. You know you'll survive without it, but it's still there.At one point I even googled one random thot to see her stuff but I stopped before going too deep and I rather blocked her.Other than that the so called benefits of going clean has vague metrics, but regardless, I felt more alive this week. Cycling in the countryside, doing push ups in the morning sun, vibing to shitty music etc. I feel like I feel more connected to the people around me. As I said: it's hard to say whether going porn free is behind this or not. It's not like lifting where you put in obvious effort and results come week after week. But still.I think I should use my phone less. That could be the next big step. There's always something which pokes the old patterns in your brain. Sure, it's nice to see you are not this person anymore, but still. I think deep down I actually want to stumble upon these things.That's it for now. Thank you for reading my blog. Take care!
>>77213670Good introspection anon, you're definitely doing well, keep it up.
>>77213113Congrats on your bike ride! May this week be even better than last week
A couple years ago I dropped 50 lbs down to 155 lbs. Work got in the way and I lost all motivation. Recently I decided I want to cycle to work this summer. So a little over a week ago I dusted off my stationary airbike and have been doing 20 mins x2 per day even while working 13-14 hrs/day. I definitely sleep well now. My commute will be 10 miles each way so I need to work up to at least 40 or 50 minutes x2 a day here in a few weeks when I return to normal shorter hours.
I’ve been sleeping poorly and was woken up by a fire alarm, but I won’t let that ruin my day
>>77204544Last week - managed game playing time extremely well and got a working copy of employment doc. Made it to all golf practices (swing is getting smoother), recorded probably another ten or twelve videos but need to bump that number up. The biggest news was i can now vibe code apps and they come out really good. I spent $10 and was able to create the barest bones of a fitness RPG but the real crazy thing is this one i made yesterday to coordinate chores with the wife. within a few hours i had it working for the two of us and then my buddy wanted to check it out so i was able to redo the entire architecture to support pairing other couples. goal this week is to try to launch it in an app store just to see what happens and get the experience of packaging an app. sperm results came back and my dna frag dropped 20%. dont know if it was cleaner pipes or the pills or just healthier lifestyle but man that was a relief. Even saw 200 on the scale. Goals this week: Launch an app on the app store, get to confession, finish up v2 of the employment doc, finish up recording 2020 and 2024 scott adams videos. maintain game time limit
Goals: run 50 miles, 4 sets of 7 on bench with good form, learn a line danceI should probably rest my legs more given last week’s runs, but I’ll play it by ear.
>>77214021I used to occasionally ride about 11 miles one way to work. Paved trails most of the way, kind of nice.Then one time I got diarrhea on the ride due to crazy food the day before, which really amped up the difficulty, resulting in heat stroke. I held it the whole way and then shit blood for days and took like an hour before I could even do any work. So that was the end of that. There were really no bathrooms anywhere the whole way there.So yeah, scope out your ride path for emergency stops. That's a long ass ride to commit to every day. I know you can do it, though, and it'll be awesome.
>>77191457New week, same goals:>wife's butthole: any%>treadmill until abs>big lifting, little eatingShit boys, I'm at that point in my cut where I've made some progress but I often bounce off and fail. Work was nuts and really hampered my vidya-treadmill last week - I always have to slow it down if I'm doing actual work. And after a couple of parties this weekend my smart scale app asked if I was the same person or did it need to start a new profile. I'll shit most of it out, but I really need to get my act together if I'm actually going to make it.Zero progress on the wife's butthole quest, too. Haven't had marital relations in weeks, have honestly had maybe 20 minutes alone with her in the last month. Told myself I'd make a game of chicken out of it, see how long it'll go if I don't beg, but given her low libido I may be the only one losing this game.Strained my shoulder, too, so I pretty much can't do a push motion until that heals. Can still do my lower body and pulls, but feelsbadman. Back on track today. Should be able to get out ahead of the treadmill early this week. Pray for me, brosephs - it's getting tough.
>>77214111>asked if I was the same person trips of truth. the monday weigh-in is such a bitch but tuesday is usually fine (we tend to eat fish monday night and i'll weigh in after running tues morning)prayers up for you, analanon
>>77214021Good luck! Start cycling, no matter your pace. What’s important is that you’re moving
>>77214048Congrats on making your first app! You’re already on the path towards a better job. Try figuring out something that’s interesting and that isn’t available on the market
>>77214115Yeah, I weigh in morning and evening. Morning after coffee and poo, and evening just because I shower in the evenings and I'm naked so might as well. Last night's was the one that threw the scale for that loop, and I was 3lbs heavier than this morning's but still 5lbs heavier than Friday morning's. So literally 8lbs of fatassery, but it's already moving on through.This, I guess, is why doing regular weigh ins but also ignoring them completely is so important. In a few weeks I'll export all of this to excel and it will just be a wobble on the line graph that, I have to admit, points steadily down when zoomed out.If I'm being honest, I've had plenty of surprises in the right direction, too, where a week went better than expected. We just have to keep on keeping on!WAGMI(UHB)
>>77214111Are you the same person? Don’t you want to become a better man? Good luck with your goals and abs. You can do it!
>>77214287It has been me all along. I appreciate the vote of confidence. You are absolutely right, I want to be the best version of myself I can, if only to stand in front of her and say, look, you can see I'm trying.
>>77214065Good luck! Dont feel afraid to do less running if you’re still recovering from last week. Remind yourself it’s a marathon, not a sprint
>>77214312A man who’s trying is already beautiful. Keep pushing forward. WAGMI
>>77214206WAGMI
>>77212559Nta but those are great words
>>77214677I just hope he made it (out of bed).
>>77214717The first step is always key, breaking out of the cocoon and into the world
>>77191457While ruminating today I realized something. The difference between now and then, is not that things are less painful, or that they are suddenly working out. In many ways I am lesser, than who I was before.The biggest difference, is that I carry on. More even, I cannot fathom not carrying on in the future. I feel like I have no alternative. Its move forward or perish.Its been six months since the last time I gave up on something big. Perhaps I should even feel proud about it, not that I will.I just want to be free. I realize that there are some wants in life I simply must give up on, some things I wont't be able to achieve being this old, well its alright.It could have been worse, shit once I thought I won't survive past 16 and now I am twice that age. One thing that feels hard giving up on is love. But thats's a ridiculous though when I think about it. I never knew love, I was never loved. If Il'll manage to love or at least forgive myself in the future then that would be a great success. So in reality I am giving up on a fantasy of mine. Why should I assume it was ever possible for me? People much better than me, more deserving don't have luck in this department, its alright.Matter of fact is, I am laying in bed typing this. Thousands of kms from home. Tommorow I will wake up, drink coffee, work and watch the sea from a balcony.Then I will walk around the old town, looking at all the hot attractive people that have fun. With each step I will think of how worthless and hideous I am. I will look at people and I will see in their neutral faces the most vulgar looks of contemp directed at me, for daring to spoil their presence with my hideous demeanor. Despite it, I will take that each step, because all I can do is move.Couldn't even leave my house a few years ago. Now look at me.I just want to be free. I just want to enjoy my shit without shame. I just want to be. One day, I'll get there. With each step.
I WILL REGAIN STRENGTH IN THE GYM I WILL ADOPT A HEALTHIER MINDSIGHT I WILL SOCIALIZE ONCE A WEEK I can’t believe I missed making a post last week. I guess >>77199510 served as my post. It’s weird knowing that a massive chapter of my life is over. I’m happy, but I’m mostly tired. I think it’s going to take a while before I fully comprehend it. I need to see the CFA letters behind my name for me. For now, I need to start considering what I want to be. Professionally I won’t start looking for a new job until the fall. I’ve decided that I need to stay 2 years in my current role. For now, I’m aiming to find a meetup I like and regain my strength in the gym. The latter is going quicker than expected, I want to be able to bench 2pl8 for 8 reps by Memorial Day. I’ve given up on cutting for my class reunion, but I do want a superior body. I’ve been thinking a lot about what I’ve learned from the CFA process. Now that I’ve passed all 3 levels, have I earned the right to be proud of myself? I’ve always struggled with self confidence. I’ve always compared myself to people with more success. But now I’ve conquered a huge mountain. Many people would have quit if they faced failure. I’m exceptional in terms of drive and refusal to give up. I will become the type of person who’s proud of his own reflection. Good luck frens! WAGMI
>>77215049Motherfucker, you don't have to be proud of yourself. Be proud of me, who is proud of you! Wait. That's weird.Buddy, it's ok to feel good about a goal set and achieved. There's more to do, but you've got a box checked off. That's always worth a bit of pride.
It's been a fucked up week but I still want to be motivated by hope and love. My dad told me that God came to him with a revelation and that he is going to tell me something on his deathbed "that will negatively affect me for the rest of my life" He thinks he is Donald Christ. I got pissed off and made a fool of everyone and now we probably won't ever talk much again. I am trying all I can to remember what anger does to me. I love God and I hate the Antichrist
>>77215099Thanks for the encouragement Kamina and checked. I need to believe in myself. I worked insanely hard and succeeded in a huge goal. I will be confident in myself
>>77214717I even managed to go to the start-up accelerator thing I was supposed to go to today.I think if I can manage a repeat performance sometime this week, everything is going to be okay.
>>77203661I only like talking to humans online. In person I want to end the encounter as soon as possible.
I've put off finishing my assignment for about 2 weeks now.I've also put off studying anything for about 4 weeks now.Because it's easy. It's easy to just ignore shit and let it pile up.Comfort really is the worst addiction I'm going to finish off my assignment and gym this afternoon.Keep pushing forward bros, WAGMI.
>>77215188Sounds achievable. You got this under control, broseph.
>>77191457I’m 6 weeks into a 90 day push to lose 20Lb, run a sub 27 min 3 mile and spend 3 hours a week strength training in 3-4 sessions.>My 3 mi runs went from 34m 14s to 29m 35s>lost 11 Lb>averaging burning over 900 calories a dayNext step is to refine strength training into dedicated splits
bench press progress>255lb for 3>245lb for 5>225lb is now too easy
>>77215105Don’t give into anger. Your perspective is correct, love and positivity will get you far in this life. Don’t let your father ruin your day or week. Good luck
>>77215199Your social skills are a muscle. You need to actively train them or else they’ll atrophy
>>77204216Literally Ecclesiastes >>77194783Read more scripture brother. Start with psalms for good feels and truthful affirmations. Meditate on the word and then come back and read some more, not all in one day either unless you’re so inclined. Go back and reread the story of the garden in genesis, then some more psalms. After gaining some knowledge and confidence check out Job, you won’t like it and probably won’t understand it but read it and some more plasms and maybe proverbs. Do this over and over and check out other books as well but go back and try to understand the point of Job, the purpose of it all. Godspeed and God bless.
>>77215204Just do it. You can't keep putting it off forever. Think of how much happier you'll be if you do it now
>>77215261Congrats! Those are all admirable goals and I hope you achieve them
>>77216046Thank you brother. Gratitude is the enemy of resentment. I should count my many blessings. Life is too good to waste it
shit I posted on the wrong gen >>77217718I finally went to the gym, a few months after signing up. It was a bit intimidating, and there were more people that I was hoping for (all very fit and confident). But I got over it quickly despite my joke weights, it helps I didn't have to wait for stuff.It's also been 3 days since I've been eating right and maintaining a calorie deficit.All I have to do is hold this for two months and I would be in a much much better shape than I have been the last few years. I welcome take any tips that will help me to not abandon this two weeks in, as I have done the last 20 times I've tried
>>77215264Great job with your bench press! Is 245 for 5 equivalent to 255 for 3? I would have assumed you could do more weight for 3 reps
>>77217722just keep showing up and keep posting. the fit and confident people are noticing that you're showing up and they're gonna notice how much better you look in two months and they'll be hoping you make it. they also are gonna wonder what happened if you stop showing up.
>>77217177Thanks brother, still hard at work on it.>>77217722Keep going. Everyone starts somewhere. I used to be extremely insecure about how I looked in the gym that I wouldn't use a big machine like leg press. Now I do hip thrusts in between sets when I'm using it.Going to start reading pic rel. Will this mindsetmaxx me or just make me gay?
>>77217113I’m not religious but I do lack a connection to the heavens. I should follow your directions. I might even find a community out of it
>>77217244Life is a gift, let’s try not to waste it
>>77214111>Zero progress on the wife's butthole quest, too. Haven't had marital relations in weeks, have honestly had maybe 20 minutes alone with her in the last month. Told myself I'd make a game of chicken out of it, see how long it'll go if I don't beg, but given her low libido I may be the only one losing this game.IKTF. At first wife was very busy with work, then she caught a cold which turned into a cough, now she's better but work's ramping up again. Got to a point where I had a wet dream despite being an almost 40 oldfag. Gave up on butthole any% long ago, we had anal a couple times when we were younger and she didn't seem to hate it, but nowadays I just rub her asshole with my finger and that's it. Shame, she has a nice ass but small tits.
>>77217939>Meditations It's a good book. Epictetus is also great, so is Seneca.>>77217722I work out at home but I went to the gym because I wanted to try out a machine and it was a mixed experience. It was humbling for sure. You are the biggest guy in your home gym but maybe not so much in a public space. I think it's nice to feel like you are part of a community but it requires some time to get used to it. It was also really crowded despite the fact it was 7 in the morning. I think I rather stick to my stuff at home. If it's your only option definitely stick to it. It's going to get better and easier. Good luck, anon!
>>77217722The best routine is one you can commit to at first. Don’t be ashamed of lifting light weights, everyone starts there at first. Good luck!
>>77204303Not to brag, but I know this for a fact. Now I have this new kind of autistic anxiety when I feel they are one (1) conversation away from realizing I'm socially retarded and losing any real interest in me, so better act cool and deattached and never reciprocate so I don't get hurt.
>>77218197sooner or later you'll have to face the hardest battle: accepting yourselfJust bee yourself and you might be surprised by the fact that there are people that like you for who you are and that will love you without you needing to keep up a facade
>>77218213>accepting yourselfThanks for your words, this has been on my mind a lot lately to be honest, but most of what I am is because I disliked myself. I'll never be enough for myself then I'll never be enough for another, how do I break from this this?
I think I'm making it anons. 27 years of being an incel and finally I have a date on 27th. I'm so excited. Texting has been good but I need more ideas to not let it dry. I can't wait to be a normie. She seems really cool and smart. I've worked on myself for so long that I think I have an okay personality too. It's just a matter of if I spill the spaghettis or not. Wish me luck guys.
>>77218231Good luck anon, remember that to fall asleep, you must first pretend to be asleep. That's how everything else works too.
>>77218229"nobody can save you butyourself.you will be put again and againinto nearly impossiblesituations.they will attempt again and againthrough subterfuge, guise andforceto make you submit, quit and/or die quietlyinside.nobody can save you butyourselfand it will be easy enough to failso very easilybut don’t, don’t, don’t.just watch them.listen to them.do you want to be like that?a faceless, mindless, heartlessbeing?do you want to experiencedeath before death?nobody can save you butyourselfand you’re worth saving.it’s a war not easily wonbut if anything is worth winning thenthis is it.think about it.think about saving your self."we are our harshest critics. Think about the people that you know well and that you love, try to briefly view them through a clinical lens and notice all their imperfections, their failures, all their shortcomings that you normally don't even think about. Then ponder on the fact that you love them despite it all, on how easily you forgive their flaws, and realize that it's the same for them with you. There are things about yourself that you hate and that you obsess over but your loved ones either don't see them as a big deal or they don't even notice them, aspiring to be better is a good thing but it doesn't mean that you should feel insecure about who you are now, because you are not perfect and you will never be, you're just a human who's trying his best.The world can be harsh too, outside of their hearths people act superficially and tear each other apart other minor things, but when they do it to you you must keep in mind that they don't know you, that they aren't even viewing you as a real person but rather as a puppet to use as a stepping stone or as a punching bag or whatever they need in the moment. They are blind to the real you and you are to theirs, pay them no mind and don't let them affect your opinion of yourself
>>77218231gg! and gl. Make sure to report back anon
>>77218270I'll do. Its really weird since she was the fist one to contact. Many times I thought got her bored but doesn't really seems like it since she keeps sending me voice messages and short vids and pics about her life. It's actually really exciting engaging with someone romantically. I never thought I'd be ever that guy. I'm actually happy for once lol
>>77218231Good luck! I’m 28 and never been on a date.
>>77218062Work is such a cockblocker. For a while wife and I were both WFH, that was great for sex. Then drumpf normalized demanding full time back in the office, and now it seems like I hardly ever see my wife, let alone her butthole.Pinning a lot of hopes on the idea that my kids can get themselves into the pool without an adult this summer. Won't help weekdays, but hopefully on weekends we can tell them, you go ahead, mommy and daddy will catch up.
>>77218255Really great post, thank you. I must become my own hero and save myself
Fat hereHow the fuck do you guys do it Dieting is fucking painfulI didn't know how much my life oriented around stuffing my face with caloriesNow I can't fucking look at soda or booze without deep fucking shame but I still find it near fucking unbearable to skip meals and stay below 1000 calories a dayWalking is fine but the constant aching fucking feel I have is so fucking irritating Do I just chug water and black coffee and tank it?
>>77218734Why would you stay below 1000 calories?Coffee and chicken stock do help though.
>>77218793I'm trying to dump as much weight as I can before I see my family in June
>>77218794Focus on being 500 calories below maintenance while exercising. You’ll lose weight while retaining motivation
>>77218805Thanks anon. I never really realized how much fucking sugar everything has in my basic diet until I started reading the back of the labels. It's tough but I'll figure it out
I did the job interview and by golly I got the job. Yippee! Now I have a full time office job like a real boy. And while I’m excited to have some money to spend on stupid shit, I have absolutely no idea how I’m going to stay consistent with my fitness. Especially considering my commute will be close to an hour each way. Any tips or ideas for how I can make this easier on myself? I workout from home, which helps. I’m not willing to give up on my gains.
>>77218734You need to imagine the man you want to be. Don't you want to improve? Don't you want to feel pride in the man in the mirror?
>>77218862Office building gym?
>>77218931Yeah they have one, so that’s an option. But damn, I really like exercising at home.
>>77218978If that's what you want, then prioritize working out right before work or immediately after you get home
I squatted 3 pl8 for the first time today
>>77219196Congrats anon!
Anons, venous leak ED is now curable with two treatments! Either ultrasound(non-invasive, needs multiple applications, bretty cheap, like $80 per) or platelets injection into the base of your dick(more expensive).No more popping cialis like tictacs!
>>77219196nice job, anon.
>>77218862>ippee! Now I have a full time office job like a real boy. And while I’m excited to have some money to spend on stupid shitYeah, that gonna be replaced with apathy soon.> Any tips or ideas for how I can make this easier on myself? It's best to wake up early and do your workout in the morning.By the time you finish work, you will be too mentally drain unless you manage to form a habit.if it's your first job, I recommend the morning routine because you wouldn't be able to handle the stress for the first few months.
>>77218734Just lower your caloric intake bit by bit.Replace snacks with low caloric foods.This results in slower weight loss, but it requires less will-power than eating below 1000 calories immediately which is important for consistency.
>>77218978my advice is to get it done before work. now that you're going into an office, there will be happy hours and hangouts and stuff. you will get tired af too. just get the workout done, cross that off the list. it helps fuel your day too
Brosephs, I complained on Monday about fucking up my cut all weekend, but I am pleased to report that I've already hit my routinely scheduled goal on the scale for the week without resorting to extremes, as though the weekend never even happened.Goddam, boys, we might just make it (uhb). Gotta just let the slippages go and keep on keeping on.
>>77218862Congrats on entering society! I know it’s rough, but it shows your progress. You’ll find a way to balance hobbies and work
>>77219196Congratulations! I'll dance in your honor
How do you do it Anons? Like how do you go on and live in society being confident but not selfish? How do you do it?
>>77221214Maybe I'm misinterpreting your question but what helps for me is having an anchor. Figuratively, of course. For men it's usually a mission, a goal, a passion. Like no matter what happens or what or who comes my way, I only have workouts and workout related goals in my head. I organize not only my day but my whole life around it. Sleeping, eating, family time, chores. I don't mean I'm the embodiment of confidence, but it's something I can anchor myself to. The office is shitty today? Doesn't matter, I have pumped today, and I'll do my best today so I can pump tomorrow, too. Is the wife a bitch today? Doesn't matter because I have a workout later today, so I fix her now so she doesn't interfere later. I always had something like this in my life. Sometimes it's arts, sometimes hobby coding projects at home.In my experience (and reading about other people's experiences) I think a man is only happy and stable if he has something he can hyper fixate on. Those who don't have this will surely gravitate towards things which emulate purpose like video games and porn (or alcohol and drugs).Take care, anon!
>>77221214What do you mean without being selfish? I guess you "share" what you have in abundance and protect what's scarce.
>>77219894good job! Slipping up can even be a good thing sometimes as long as you immediately go back to your diet afterwards, you get to enjoy food without worry for a moment and it resets your determination to keep going on your weight loss journey. Basically it makes it all easier to handle in the long term, just need to make sure that a cheat day doesn't become a cheat week and then a cheat forever
>>7721402110 miles is quite far but if it's relatively low elevation change overall then it's not that badwhen I was younger I used to cycle a bit under 10 miles one way to a carpenter job up and down mighty steep hill through the countryside, the only saving grace was that the road was paved>>77214046Hope you didn't gut burnt>but I won’t let that ruin my daygreat mindset>>77215105>I love God and I hate the Antichristbasedme too
>>77215049Its insane! can't believe you finally fucking pased.fucking hope core!
>>77218231God I hate this retarded post even more than the first time I saw it
>>77221444I think it helps hormonally, too. I notice I'm much stronger willed when I'm well rested and fully fed (surprise, I know). Gotta work on treading that line.
>>77221730I'm doing OMAD to lose weight but oftentimes I end up eating too little on my one meal and I definitely feel weaker than normal, so if I know that I'll have to strain myself physically I just eat normally or even at a surplus the day before in preparation.I like cutting hard and it feels good but it just doesn't leave you with much energy, can't perform well without fuel in the tank
>>77219894It’s a process. It’s fine to make mistakes, but it’s the overall trajectory that matters. Congrats!
called in sick on monday and usually dont have work on friday so only had a 3 day week. sun is out and the stock market is booming. this is one of the good rare moments you have once in a while.
>>77221941Sometimes we need to stop and appreciate the little wonders of living. Good for you for enjoying life
>>77221699Thanks. I’m insanely happy but it still feels like a dream. I want to believe that life will only improve for me
Okay, let's bump this thread so we can start again next week
>>77224393>>77224389>>77224387>>77224395I am feeling so bad for not updating the /sig/ archive guysbut if you only know what real life is currently wanting and needing from me :(still thanks to you all for sharing it and helping out other anons <3
>>77224401No problem! You're making the right choice prioritizing your real life. Eventually you'll have time to update the archive. Good luck!
And that's a wrap, frens WAGMI
