It's the start of the week again, take a deep breath in, hold it and exhaleWere you thinking of giving up today? No you weren't. You made it through last week, you'll make it through this one as wellWhat are your goals for this week? What do you plan to achieve? List it all down.Take a deep breath, hold it and exhale, move at your own paceWe're ALL gonna make itThe motivation thread is openPrevious thread >>77191457
i want to forget
Seven weeks without pornography.I won't lie, it's hard. After the initial start when your brain feels relief from being engaged almost all day every day, now it craves it. But aside from these moments I generally feel better in my skin.I've started another gratitude journal exercise where I try to write down in a matter of fact way whether anyone showed me some degree of affection or care or kindness. You see, I have a hard time accepting love. I always think they just pity me or they feel trapped with me or I've deceived them. So now I write down seemingly dumb stuff like "x laughed at my joke". I know it sounds cringe to some degree, maybe it is, but hopefully it's going to help me spiral less in my head. It helps me accept and understand that grandiose, movie-like affection doesn't exist and true love, true life lives in messy, tiny, low dopamine moments. They are humans just like me and they are doing their best to get along in this maze.I also started to fix my sleep. Little to no screens 2 hours before bed, always going to bed at roughly the same time.Also trying to minimize my phone time. My daily average was horrible. For now the goal is to keep it under 4 hours. For almost a week now I managed to hit this goal, even if I count meaningful app times like measuring rest time between sets with a stopwatch, music, audiobooks etc. So with all that I managed to stay within boundaries. Not right now, but later I'd like to get lower.Thank you, as always, for reading my blog. Take care! And hopefully see you again next week.
>>77227384I'm here to remind you.
>>77227354Let's get it lads
>>77227354New week, same goals. Let's fucking go, brosephs.>wife's asshole: any%>treadmill until abs>big lifting, little eatingAfter an almost 6 week dry spell wherein I'd decided not to beg for it as usual, finally got laid. Sunday morning, as I was laying in bed half alive, wife took off her PJ pants and rolled over to snuggle me awake. Fun times were had.This was an interesting experiment, but I think I'm shooting myself in the foot with the no-begging approach. Going to transition to a low-begging strategy instead for a while. Will see how that treats me until I've made more progress on the whole "getting juicy to make her horny/insecure" angle. I can't make any progress on my quest for anal if we're not having any sex.I have been forced to admit that my weight loss is probably proceeding according to plan. I've lost 10lbs in 2 months with a solid 2 weeks off in the middle and sloppy weekends. Will likely hit 10lbs more before pool season really gets going, which will put me in "noticeable progress" territory, and then another 10lbs before pool season is over should get me in the high teens for bf%. So it won't be abs this year, but it will be relatively pretty good compared to all the other dads. Just have to keep on trying.That's the trick, I guess. Whatever you're striving for, boyos, just don't give up. WAGMI(UHB).
Skipped class again today to play videogames and study.Hopefully I won't be kicked out once the year ends because of my low attendance. Not much I can do now since the semester is about to end, just wait and see. Grades are good anyways, so I don't see why not.Other than that, gym is good and fun. Cut is going slow now at a low bf%, but fine enough. Cuddling with my 115cm anime doll is bliss, and I'll get some anime figs for my birthday in a month.Life is good. Better enjoy it while it lasts.
I wish I had the same discipline for my mind as I have for my body. I am pushing myself to my physical limit but intellectually speaking I am so burned out and numb
>>77227384live to forget
>>77227468As long as your grades are actually good, yo. I went back to college at 35 and it was amazing how easy it all was if I just showed up and did the work. But you have to actually show up and do the work.
>>77227403This is inspiring to read. Well done and thank you!
I hit so many goals last week, 9% down in body fat, hit a weight goal of 215, a 20 mile run for the first time (60 miles that week), 205 working weight on bench…I’m feeling great about all this.The goal this week is to deload running a bit (50miles this week, so 10 Sunday instead of 20). Also want to be consistent with lifting.Biggest goal that is new is regular stretching after each run, I’m hopping it helps with recovery. Also hoping to add pull ups to my lifting routine this week, had a shoulder injury so had to hold off on shoulders the last two weeks.
>>77227529Nta but thanks for the advice
I just hit 5x5 60kg bench press for the first time today.I hope you hit your PRs too, brothers!
>>77227611congratulations anonbench is a hard exercise. i basically plateaued at 70 kg.
good news is i maintained game time limit and made progress on trying to rip all the scott adams videos but did not hit my goal there. basically gonna have to do ten a day which really sucks doing manually. app i created did not make it to app stores yet but it should be submitted for android by end of week. iphone is a little trickier, doubly so because i only have an old mac, but i'll figure it out. crossed another game off the backlog. skipped my long run last weekend because i got sick of waking up and running in shit weather. made it to all my driving range sessions though! goals this week - light leg days at the gym due to the run on Sunday. finish submission process for app. look into LLC and probably just register it so i can keep wife out of my nonsense. golf practice. maybe start on one of the last two games in my backlog. start digging into next app/game to develop. actually make it to confession this week.
>>77227616Thanks, man. I'll report back once I break that plateau lmao
Went out on Saturday and got drunk, woke up Sunday morning and just decided to keep drinking. It's technically not a big deal, but I already drink too much as it is and I took today off and basically spent most of it in bed. It just feels pathetic, because I mostly have my shit in order and developed good habits. I guess what matters is that I do better tomorrow.
>>77227448Congrats on getting laid and losing that much weight! You’re making a ton of progress! Even though you won’t have abs, you’ll still mog the fuck out of most people! WAGMI
Started my lifting journey last July, lifted and trained for two months while fumbling around, lied to myself about bulking (I was just getting fatter because I ate a lot), then sprained my ankle and didn't do any lifting for 4 months. And then I got fatter. Went from 205 to 230lbs throughout the whole ordeal. Got told yes to a coffee date with a girl who then proceeded to hit me with repeated "I can't, I'm doing [x]" for a month. And so I've been back at things even better for the last 7 weeks. Eating at a deficit, getting cardio in, and progressing my newbie gains. Mirin' myself. Since March 8th:Weight: 228.6 214.6 lb (-14.0 lb)Body Fat: 31.8% 27.85% (~ -4% body fat)Fat Mass: 72.2 59.8 lb (roughly -12.4 lb fat mass)Performed with a Tanita BIA thing so water weight does fux heavily with readings. Workout A progressionIncline DB Press: 50 70Seated Row: 65 120RDL: 70 120Dumbbell Lateral Raise: 5lb dumbbells 12lbs dumbbellsOverhead Triceps Extension 25lbs 35lbsFarmer's Carry: 70 110Workout B progressionHack Squat: 65 120Lat Pulldown: 60 85Flat Press: 50 80Rear Delt Fly: 20 40Triceps Pushdown: 20 30Added deadhangs (85lbs of weight reduction via a machine, so maybe deadhanging 130 lbs) Cardio:6-8 hours of cardio a week, spread between Zone 1 and Zone 2 via incline walking, depending on body's ready recovery Resting Heart rate average from 65 (peaked at 70 on a bad morning) 60 (dropped to 58 on my best morning)Going to be hosting a class at the local library throughout the summer, increasing social reps Building my platonic relationships with other women who are performing mutual effort and investment. June is my first projected milestone for 205LBs in weight, 25% BodyfatSeptember is my first goal of 190LBs in weight, 20% bodyfat.I am roughly one week ahead of scheduleWAGMI
>>77227776Oh okay 4chinz. There should be an arrow on those weight progressions like ->I tried the arrow symbol but that didn't work.Pretend it's :Incline DB Press: 50 -> 70 and so forth
>>77227413Let’s do our best :)
I wanted to be at 125kg on 15th of april. I was at 131 at the lowest, now at 135. Started from 190kg.I can't do it anymore bros. I've lost my main motivator, the girl I liked. I've lost all the illusions. I also have gyno and it's getting more obvious. Idk what to do anymore.
>>77227768>congrats on having sex with your own wifeOof. I'll take it, but fuck, how low I've fallen.That's ok. Climbing back up.
This week: I plan to exercise more often, preferably in the morning.I'm returning to my daily calisthenics routine and trying to eat under 1800 calories to lose weight.Life has gotten busy and I went a whole week without doing any of the above. Started at 90kg, but now I've been bouncing between 85kg to 83kg the past month. I'm at 24% body fat and I want to get rid of this gut because I feel self-conscious whenever I tuck in my shirt.
>>77227518If you can find success in one area, try applying yourself in another. Hold yourself to the same standards that you use in fitness. You might not find great success, but you will find improvement
>>77227518It's hard to think, but I think it'll be worth it if you master it. If you master the mind, you can master anything.
>>77227569Congrats! You should proud of yourself and how much you’ve accomplished. Carry that momentum into this week
>>77227872You'd be surprised at how many dead bedrooms exist and the amount of wives that think it's rape for their husband to want them.
>>77227354my lower back hurts less than it did bent over rows, WAGMI.
>>77228111At this point I know she feels a little guilt about not wanting it, so she'll put out for obligation's sake sometimes. If that ever goes away, yeah, I don't know. I need to get juicy before that happens so I can always say at least I tried "for her" even if I know that's bullshit.It's easy to say now, but I'd like to think I wouldn't tolerate a truly dead bed.
>>77228189*less than it did when I did bent over rows last week.I am very tired
>>77227611Congrats on your bench! I’ll aim to lift even better this week! WAGMI
managed 315lb 3x4 in squat today! (5.5 months training seriously)unfortunately I only hit 90 deg on a handful of those reps, and broke it on one. rest of the week I'll be focusing on depth.still I'm very happy, also my ab injury is healing well and I didn't feel it on heavy sets today (mostly just getting into position)>>77227569huge! you're almost at your bw for benchworking weight, congrats anon>>77228189aw nice anon, healing is happening>>77227866external motivations were always going to fail you anon, you gotta do it for the thing itself. You've made huge strides.Keep at it. If you give up now anon you'll still have wished you did it (and didn't regress or gain weight)
>>77227866Do it to regain your honor. You already did a lot. Remember that no one takes fat people seriously. Women come and go. Your body is where your soul lives.
>>77227654Good luck with your app! Is it fitness related at all? You’re making the right move pivoting towards a field with more freedom
>>77227672You made a mistake last week. Now you have an entire new week to try again. Don’t dwell on your past too much, you’ll do better this time
>>77227918You’ve already made a lot of progress! Now really hone in so you can achieve your goal! You can do it!
>>77228286Congrats! You’re insanely strong for a rookie
>>77228189Try to fix the problem before you injure yourself again WAGMI
I WILL live beyond my previous mistakes
>>77228800Goddamn, checked. WAGMI
>>77228814A future so bright we gotta wear shades WAGMI
I WILL GROW STRONGER IN THE GYMI WILL IMPROVE MY MENTALITY I WILL BELIEVE IN MYSELF I’m still processing that I finished the CFA program. Tomorrow I’m going to attend an informational session on finalizing becoming a charterholder. I’m still afraid that it’s all a dream, that I’ll wake up in a snowstorm back in January. I’ve finally crossed the finish line. I want to believe that now I can be proud of myself. I’ve shown resilience and proven that I’m capable. Now I need to learn to believe in myself. I’m regaining strength, I benched 2pl8 for 8 reps last weekend! I’m not sure I can bench 2.5pl8 for a single rep (my pr) right now, but I’m confident that I’ll return to that level by the end of June. Right now I’m researching different twice a week benching routines. I want to try my hardest to be able to bench 3pl8 by October 2027. Now that I’m no longer studying, I can fully commit to this aspect of my life. I keep on seeing guys bench more than me at the gym and they inspire me. I will reach new PRs. Believe in yourself who believes in you! We must find the strength to drill deep and unlock new possibilities! WAGMI
>>77227384Your past is your rear view mirror - look at it occasionally for guidance. Stare t too long and you’ll crash
im such a pathetic loser man. ive completely given up because theres no point to life when youve reached the level of patheticness that i have.
>>77227384Thank God for the Nostalgia Critic. He remembers it so we don’t have to.
>>77228195Nobody should tolerate a dead bedroom. Move on.
>>77227866keep losing weight so the next time that you'll fall for a girl you'll actually be ready, rather than having to yet again dream about what could be until you find out that it's too late
>>77229161Lol.
>>77229052It’s only truly over when you give up. You can always find small ways to improve your life
>>77227354Had to skip yesterday gym cause went to a baseball game. Was a good time, now back on the grind got a brunch date with a Christian cutie Saturday. Let's get it bros
Met a qt today. I asked her out tonight over LinkedIn. I take this as a good sign that I'm getting over the girl who dumped me. And so far she hasn't blocked me, so things are going well.
i'm getting bigger than i have ever in my life and staying lean. things are are actually changing tangibly - my gait has changed on its own, my shoulders spread on their own because i just feel stronger and more confident. i thought the whole mire thing is a meme but women are starting to look again (ever since the 190cm twink death) to the point that it's making my wife uncomfortable. we are so gonna make it
>>77229052brightest of the days and darkest of the nights, son. promise yourself that your hands won't fail and make sure that only death steals your fire. get up
>>77227672Based on your life experience thus far, do you think you would be better off by laughing this weekend booze up off and forgetting about it, or endlessly agonizing over it and living in a state of self loathing? Choose to enjoy life, dude.
>>77229582Good luck on your date! Remember to smile and use her name. You’re a stud, she’s lucky to see you
I'm so tired of it all
>>77229586Congrats on landing a new interest! You’re doing great getting over your last heartbreak. Try asking for her number though, LinkedIn is a terrible place
>>77230197Thank you. I hope it goes well. She seems like an exceptional young lady.
>>77227448lfg anal anon.
>>77228407not this one but i'm also working on a game that is basically /fit/ antics and memes
>>77231875>looking for groupWell, yes, eventually I'd like to get into threesomes. How amazing would it be to watch my wife ride some girl's face while I plow the other end? But one insurmountable challenge at a time.
>>77231903a threesome is not compatible with marriage. if you want threesomes, you need to divorce and start slutmaxxing, which will btw lead you to anal quicker too
>>77231908Yes, well, either way I'm chasing pipedreams here. They might as well be good ones.
>>77229604Congrats! Everyone is mirin’ you these days. Hopefully these stares inspire your wife to improve herself further
>>77227866>the girl I liked>losing weight for women>I also have gyno and it's getting more obviousor you're still really fucking fatyou've lost more weight than most people even could, don't let your huge effort go to waste
>>77228715it's because I would RDL the bar off the rack and row from that point so my brace would be all over the place. I did it from the ground and it was fine if a bit heavy for me to keep the brace under.
>>77231876Based! There better be plenty of jokes about skateboard squats and aniki
>>77228800God motherfucking damnwitnessedWE'RE ALL GONNA MAKE IT BROS
>omad last two weeks>not getting hungry during the day anymore
>>77232342Congrats man. Sounds like you changed your body's relationship to food, which is always difficult to do.
>>77232342You’ve powered through this situation and amended your mindset! Congrats!
I applied for a job interview in the next 3 days and my boys are helping me shoot my shot
>>77232051I actually never noticed that part of my form. Thanks for teaching me something new
i'm turning 35 in less than a month, and i'm gonna get my birthday present of being a nonsmoker
>>77232914Good luck! It just proves the importance of having good friends
https://youtu.be/pGc3dtxsXFI?si=nJCNjA4pPrZFNn7XI Want Your Love by Chic
Trying to cut back on porn again. Put it on an external hard drive so I have to get up and get it. That simple action allows me to clear my head and avoid watching porn. Thinking about putting some kind of safety locks on porn sites as well. I've wasted so much time masturbaiting
>>77233248It's not going to be easy anon, but I believe in you!
>>77233248delete it all. it's all online anyway, you can download it again if you decide you want to watch it again. i use leechblock and clearmind browser extensions to completely block out porn
>>77233294I'm not that anon, but unfortunately some porn you enjoy now might completely go missing later. I even had cases when I couldn't find a video I watched only a month ago. So I understand his frustration to save.But also: I understand that the mind can go panic mode if you take too big steps at once. In my experience gradually tearing down the habit is better. Just trying not doing it for a few weeks. Then when your nervous system understands that everything's safe, you can move on to delete and so on.
>>77233832Not either of you guys, but the secret for me managing my porn addiction was evolving beyond the need to save the porn for posterity. There's always more of it. Attaching yourself to any piece of it constitutes investing yourself in a relationship with it, and think about that - you're in a relationship with a piece of media. The girls doing porn are disposable, so their work is as well. Don't develop any kind of feelings for any of it. Enjoy it and move on.This doesn't mean you can't have favorites. But it does mean, hey, maybe if it's hard to find that one clip you liked, it's time to let it go.
>>77233026Congrats! You’re giving yourself the greatest present - worth through improvement
>>77233248Right there with you brother. It's hard as hell, but if I can quit drinking and smoking I can quit watching porn and so can you.
>>77233248You need to delete it all. As long as it’s around, you’re going to relapse
i thought things were going worse but I thought about it and it turns out they are going better actually
Today's lifts>Deadlift 3x5 @ 3.5pl8>Db rows 3x9 @ 120s>lat pulldowns 4x12>Face pulls 5x15I'm omad anon from above, happy with these lifts considering deadlift day last week was a train wreckTomorrow is sled pushes as heavy as possible for 30 minutes, my heart was doing blast beats past time, hope I don't die kekarooni
Analanon here. What a weird fucking week.I have been completely underwater all week with 9000 little things. Running from thing to thing to thing every day.Wife was all stressed out on a work trip - she was literally standing there crying in her hands when I picked her up from the airport. Seems ok now, but she's also just had such a busy week subsequently that I don't know if she just hasn't had time to drop another shoe.Kids are now both out of the house tonight, apparently. Camping and sleepover. Instant date night, I guess. Need to feel her out, see what she wants to do. Will make sure I get sex out of the deal - probably going to propose a stay-in and cook up something nice, split a bottle of that honeymoon winery membership wine (heavy pours on her side), and then just absolutely tongue-baste her. Will tickle her butthole but not push the agenda.And I discovered my bluetooth scale can swing by a whole pound depending on how I stand on it or where on the wonky tile floor it's sitting. So yeah, that's nice.So highs and lows all week. And now a potentially glorious Friday night?Anyway. Hope you all have a great weekend. Get out there and touch/taste/fuck some butts!
>>77235818Progress isn’t straightforward and isn’t always linear. You’re moving forward, so don’t doubt yourself again
>morbidly obese single mother asks me out>agree because I'm kind to a fault and Jesus said to do unto others and I always would have them agree to go out with me when I ask>she says i must find her pretty if I agreed to the date>say i don't because I'm not a liar but have a belief in inner beauty>she cancels the dateShe really let that inner beauty shine here, if I'm honest.
>>77236050Congrats on those lifts, especially the deadlifts! Do you actually think face pulls are worth incorporating into your pull day?
>>77236153Well shit.As soon as I got done typing that out she texted me a restaurant, so we're going out. Will still get the sex in there sometime.Coincidentally, a local $$$$ restaurant she's been wanting to go to opens reservations for the following month on the 1st at noon. She requested I make happen this for our anniversary, open ended as to the actual date.So I fire up the site at the appointed time, our shared calendar open on another screen. Gotta be fast, slots are limited and disappearing right before my eyes. Get ahold of a day and time, nothing on the calendar... bang. Success.Happily send it on to her, triumphant, done good etc.Her reply is that it is the date of a party she's organized to host at our house for a couple of families we know. I'm aware this is happening, but she didn't put it on the calendar and I didn't have any time to think and check around for conflicts.So I've just put down a non-refundable $1000 payment on a schedule conflict.It'll be fine. Those families will 100% understand the entirety of the story and happily reschedule, absolutely no doubt.But fucking hell. I can't ever win. Anytime I think I'm winning, she's got something up her sleeve to fuck it up.
Saw someone on /fit/ shill garlic as a way to fix your body odor. I have always had really badly smelling sweat so I had to use deodorant all the time or people would call me out on it. I read a bunch of studies on it and it said 12 grams of garlic a day. Study had people eating real garlic and some on pills, with both groups seeing improvements, so I opted for pills. First 2 days I still wore deodorant, but yesterday and today I didn't and I can't smell myself even after a workout. I asked my brother if he could smell anything and he said only very faint.I have experienced no side effects so far. Will continue with the pills and see if it's still working after a few weeks. Might update here again.Pic related is the pills I take
Lately I have been craving for a gf, and I have been talking to more women but I can't get myself to like them in a romantic way. I just don't feel it. If they are hot I feel lust but that's it.How do you guys do it? Do you just force it or do you actually feel things for your gfs?
>>77236508>>77236153Good luck! Those families will definitely understand. It’ll be easier for them to reschedule than the other way around
>>77228956CFA man congratulations! I am planning to take the CFA in Nov. any recommendation? I am studing only with Kaplan Notes.
>>77236699Cfa level 2
>>77236276It’s your fault for being too kind. You’ll never make it in this world if you don’t know how to say no
>>77236699>>77236706Good luck on your exams! I give myself 6 months with the final one being review and practice test. I really liked Kaplan schweser since it gave me a lot of structure and practice questions. Also make sure to take the official CFA practice exams on the portal
>>77236508$1000 on dinner? Holy shit dude, do they give you a hand job as they serve you??Anyway, I hope you get the ass. Just put your tongue on get ass. Just do it, anon. Stop overthinking it. The more I follow your story, the more your wife kind of sounds awful. I hope I'm wrong. Good luck
>>77236665Just keep on going on dates. Through proximity and activities, you'll become attracted to her
>>77236665Love is something which usually develops over time. Yes, the love which hits you at first sight is also possible, especially in your teens, but usually you just enjoy the company of the other person for some time until you realize you feel something for them and then you identify that feeling as love. I'd say keep dating one girl which you find the hottest or the kindest or the most interesting or whatever and see where it goes for a few months.Good luck!
Have had trouble staying focused on losing weight recently. Was 89 kg and wanted to at least get below 80 kg but preferably 75 kg. 2 weeks ago a little kid looked at me and called me "very chubby". His mom was furious at him and apologized but 2 week later I am already down 7 kg.Thanks kid.
I got the job and now I’m severely anxious. How do I actually be a full time office guy? 40 hours a week sounds like a nightmare. I’m very scared.
>>77233248Why don’t you delete it?What are you saving it for?
>>77233832What are you going to do with it? Pass it on to your offspring?Ask yourself why you are so worried about losing it, if you are trying to stop porn use.
>>77237216>$1000 on dinnerWe do pretty alright, both of us 6 digit earners, but yeah, holy shit is my attitude too. We can afford it once every so often though. Shit like this definitely plays into my thinking when I'm looking at PC or car parts.I think I paint a poor picture of her here. She's attractive, intelligent, as supportive as any woman can be (not saying much amirite haha etc) and always willing to put out when circumstance allows. She's just also not horny anymore and thinks of sex as a maintenance task. She'd generally like to get it over with as little investment as possible, and she won't go out of her way.For instance, dinner last night was a great time, came home and happily fucked her brains out, but she really just did the minimum and then went to sleep. That's fine once in a while, but the problem is that lately that's all I get. Ignoring the details of my whole anal quest ridiculousness, man, sex is still fun for me, and I want to try new things in general - not so for her.So yeah, considering she's putting out from a sense of obligatory wifely duty, I guess things could be a lot worse. But they could be a lot better too.
>>77238268Good job, fatty. Remember that kid whenever you want to relapse again. People can see you and your body
>>77238577kek
>>77238284Honestly, the secret to surviving waging is to always have something to look forward to. Regardless of whether it’s a hobby or friend, it’ll keep you living. One of the biggest reasons i didn’t an hero during a period is I promised I’d call my old man every 2 weeks
>>77238656>not pissing all over Stacy
>meet up with a girl 3 days ago>texted everyday for a week till that>date goes so well that i didn't even realize 4 hours has passed>hug her at the end of the date >set up a 2nd date monday>texts are still there but me being so inexperienced cant keep up a good convo>just asked if she ever ate salt and vinegar chipsim gonna fuck this up so bad. she was sooo cute too fuck. she kept sending me autistic shit on ig like fucking unearthed graves on a metro construction and i fucking loved ithelp me anons not to ruin this because im fucking retarded
>>77238852I am an incel and reading your post frustrated and enraged me greatly.
>>77238855no worries anon im 27 and khvits my first time too so im fucking enraged at myself too
>>77238860I am also 27 khhv lmao
>>77238411Then try making sex exciting for her
>>77239049No one's reading that long fag black pilled novel
>>77239049I don't think cutting back on porn automatically means the person hopes to magically get pussy because of abstinence.Sometimes you just know something isn't good for you and and one day you realize you want the best for yourself.
>>77238852Just focus on talking but also contributing to the conversation. If she has any interests, you can use them as a guide to conversation
I've got a date with an incredibly cute girl. I was utterly enamoured by her beauty when I met her, and when I asked her out. But I didn't read the fine print before asking her out, and I'm probably going to call it off.
>>77239735>fine printMotherfucker just go on the date. You don't have to marry her. If you already know it's probably a no anyway, you're free to be your absolute self and see what happens.
>>77238940Yes. Hence, trying to get abs, trying to push for new, interesting things.The anal stuff is my goal, but I'm constantly trying to do some little different thing. A new position here and there, etc etc, but ultimately she just wants to lay there on her back. She's resistant to anything but vanilla sex, too, and any kink whatsoever is forbidden.I firmly believe how much women enjoy sex is primarily determined before the clothes even come off. If she's excited going into the bedroom, etc etc. Hence the quest for abs. Hence a million little things. But I also think she just needs to see other women sizing/chatting me up, fire up a little jealousy.So yeah, I'm trying. Flailing at it all, a little. I don't think any of it will ever be enough, but I'm still trying.
>>77239735Don't count yourself out yet. The fact that she even said yes proves you have a shot. Go there with a positive attitude and smile.
>>77240298>>77240298No, it's not that I think I don't have a shot or anything. It's just that I used other information on her profile to work out she's probably in her 20s and thus too old.
>>77240444Nevermind, bullet dodged. Just go hump your waifu pillow and keep yourself pure for when the revolution comes and cunny becomes legal again.
today's lifts>bench 3x6 @ 245>incline bench 5x8>lateral raises 5x10>pushdowns 5x15I'm on about a 1,000 calorie deficit but bench is the one big lift that hasn't been affected thus far, probably because I train it twice a week, deadlifts are noticeably harder and my squats have died
>>77240454It's a shame, because she was a real stunner.
>>77240460I can't believe you're that strong at benching even with a 1000 calorie deficit. You should feel proud of your strength
>>77227354But it isn't Monday?
>>77240325I've never been married but I was in a long relationship that ended up this way. It was very hard when it ended but in hindsight it was the right thing to do. I miss having a steady partner but I don't miss sex that feels like a chore
I'm optimistic about next week. I'll try my hardest to have a great week in terms of work and fitness
>complete loser, always miserable and depressed>decide to take a tip from these threads, maybe ill actually try thinking positively about monday for once, try to think positively about the week to come instead of assuming the worst>playing a sport today sunday, pretty much the only thing that brings me any excitement or anything to look forward to, been doing it for years>get what i fear to be is a significant hamstring injury, no sign of it coming, no warning, just running normally and feel terrible pain, never been injured in all these years playing>is probably going to affect my near future this week, who knows how functional i will be, and god knows when ill be able to play the sport again, so now i wont even have this to distract me, it will just be me alone with my miserable routine every single day with no distractionsi swear god wants me to kill myself
>>77241653>Thinking positive about Monday, huh?>Kek, nothing personal kid
Week 8 of no pornography, so I guess I'm roughly on the two months mark.It's hard lately. Makes me question whether the whole thing worths it at all. I often miss looking at it, searching for it, discussing it.I even had these weird periods when I was just sitting in my chair and felt anxious, nervous, stressed, panicky or I don't know how to describe it without any reason. Only thing which kind of eased it was a little doomscrolling, so that's why I think it could be a withdrawal thing. Heck, at the same time I even had this unexplainable pain in my lower back which just vanished by the next day. And the thing is I realized I wasn't panicking. I just felt the panic. I was aware of it. Like standing in the cold shower and staying still and unfazed.On the other hand, I started to notice things in a way I'm also unable to explain. Suddenly the sound the gravel makes under my feet, or the wind playing with a tarp, or (I know it sounds cringe) simply holding an onion in my hand felt... real? Interesting? Calming? Like as shameful as it is back in the days I loved WoW because with all the little sound effects and ambiance it felt more real than life itself. Or how food feels heavenly in a Ghibli film. So these moments kinda felt like that.I feel kind of stupid, to be honest. Same way some people drink and don't think much about it some people just jack off to porn without turning it into this heroic journey of damnation and redemption. But anyway. I'm just realizing how deeply I'm entangled by this so I cannot make proper, objective statements, I can simply share my experience.I kept my boundaries with the phone use and the bed time. Which is nice I guess.Take care, have a great week!
>>77227354Starting a 3-day water fast today.See you guys Wednesday at 7 PM.
>>77242133good luck boss, move any snacks out of view to avoid temptation
what a week. don't get me wrong, it was a long frustrating week but it was productive and ultimately fulfilling. i decided to submit to apple first, just because i figure it'll have a larger base to start with and thus more testers. took me days of fucking around to finally figure out a small issue but got it and now it's in beta review. i figure i'll start the android process slowly but i have some other projects to work on and debugging sucks. looked into the LLC and it will probably be where i put my first few hundred if this thing actually makes money. had a screening call with a recruiter at a consulting firm that reached out to me. i think this might be a good opportunity and it's local and veteran owned/operated so i have a pretty nice in. work has been a total shitshow most of this year so making progress in the job hunt and the app feels amazing. I had my ten miler this weekend - there's no other way of putting it than i completely dominated every other time i ran it. i took almost ten minutes off my previous best time. i'm still kind of amazed because it's not like i put in extra hard work, i just kept moving forward without a break. even got further on my game backlog, just a few more missions on one of them and then an RPG to close things out. Goals this week - work on my next coding project, take a little time to work on the android build, get some golf practice sessions in, get my application in for the consulting job, and do my recovery workouts. going to try to spend a few hours recording the scott adams videos and also work on the employment guide that i kind of blew off for a bit. WAGMI
>>77241653I’m sorry about your injury champ. Give yourself time to recover. You’ll only make the situation worse if you rush it. Life isn’t linear, it’ll pick up eventually for you :)
>>77227611going to attempt this today, been hospitalized for a month and lost a bunch of weight. Went last week and did 55 for 8 for one set. WAGMI
todays lifts>squats 3x5 @ 275, 315, 335>front squats 5x6>db rows 3x10 @ 120scutting has destroyed my squat, acked my back on the 335 set (385 is my 5rm), did some ack stretches in the spin class room in lieu of a fourth lift today, I think I'll be hearing the bob & brad theme a few times this week
>>77241851Stay strong! You’ve already come incredibly far. You’re falling back in love with life and discovering happiness in little things. Don’t ruin your progress for temporary joy
>>77227354New week, same goals:>wife's butthole: any%>treadmill until abs>big lifting, little eatingLast week was quietly overwhelming. No support from anyone and everything just slightly falling apart. But I got through it and had a pretty good weekend: date night culminating in good vanilla sex, family time, yard work, and put my last nail in a part of a multi-family project that all the useless white-collar dads couldn't do to save their lives. That last one won me points with a half dozen other moms, which always comes back to my wife's ears eventually.Interestingly, weight stayed level. Today's weigh-in puts me even with last week's, so I didn't lose progress on my cut. With a week like this previous one, I count that as a win.And now we're through it. This week should be ok. I'm already a step ahead with everything, even. Spring has sproinged, I'm feeling good, and the game is on. Wife's asshole is so close I can taste it (haha).Keep at it, boys. WAGMI(UHB)
>>77242171Congrats on submitting your app! The fact that you’re having companies reach out means that you’re clearly qualified, so keep applying/looking for roles. It’s admirable that you’re using your hatred of your job to motivate yourself to improve. Everything will work out, just keep working hard!WAGMI!
monday monday mondaylifts are a bit stuck, but I learned some new cues that I think will help, especially on DL, and hit proper depth on squats today! That's one off for 2/3/4> bench: 185x4> squat: 315x4> deadlift: 335 x4
>>77242301Sorry about having a disappointing day, but you have to expect to lose strength when cutting. Keep lifting, better days will come
>>77242498Congrats on hitting 3pl8! Form is important when you’re lifting hard, so you’re on the right track
>>77236508Bro, first of all you are obsessing over her and she has you around the little finger,This will end very badly if you don't get a hold of yourselfPlan some shit for yourself, go on a trip with your mates, let her miss you, then tell her all the things you did without her2) best way to buttsex is to eat her out from behind, make her ass wet that way, make a big foreplay bitches love that, make her moan, then tell her you gonna fuck her ass
I ate so much fuckin broccoli last night
>>77242386Celebrate your little victories - like sex or completing that project. You’ll get her butthole soon WAGMI
>>77236521big if true>Will continue with the pills and see if it's still working after a few weeks. Might update here again.please do
>>77240460>but bench is the one big lift that hasn't been affected thus far [...] deadlifts are noticeably harder and my squats have diedweird, should be the reverse as cutting makes bench strength drop due to leverages and shiet
>>77242964Agreed. I can squat and deadlift roughly the same amount on a cut but my bench drops instantly
>>77241709Jesus believes that we will rise to the occasion
>>77242826I find it difficult to argue with anything you've said.>>77242896Little bit at a time!
Does anyone have the image of the man full of extra skin saying "is it over now?" And a reply saying "you've got a long way to go, king"?
I will get over my past trauma and learn to deal with my family and myself
>>77242133You can do it!
>>77227354Got back on my diet seriously, new job is going great, started going to church with my grandparents, but still no prospects for getting a girl. There’s a young adults section at our church that I think I’ll try this Sunday. Maybe I’ll actually meet my future wife at church and it won’t be just a meme.
I WILL GROW STRONGER IN THE GYMI WILL DISCOVER SELF CONFIDENCE I WILL BELIEVE IN MYSELFI attended my first CFA event. I should try to go to these events often as they’re a good opportunity to network and learn. I hate that getting a better job involves networking and relationships, but it can’t be helped. I need to become the type of person that other people are willing to help out. One goal for the next 2 months is to finish my CFA application. I can’t wait to start emailing clients with the CFA designation. The CFA process was insanely difficult. I faced many challenges and tasted failure. But now that I’ve reached the peak, am I strong? I want to believe that I’ve proven myself and can live with confidence. But doubt still exists within me. I must become the type of man who’ll bet on himself.Good luck this week! We’re gradually becoming our own heroes! WAGMI!
>>77243603So almost everything is going well. Don't dwell on the one negative mark in your life, you'll find a gf soon. Good luck at church!
I WILL BENCH 235 FOR 5 REPS THIS WEEK
>>77242332>>77227560Thank you, anons, for the encouragement!Take care!
>>77243792Do it!
>>77244465I will. I can’t think negatively
>>77242964that was indeed the consensus of what I should expect but here we are>>77242301today's "lifts">sled pushes idfk as many as I could muster over 40 minutes, pyramid from 4pl8 to 7pl8 and back down>15 minutes goymill walking with long strides to unfuck my backit worked, the pain is mostly gone unless I turn my body weird and deliberately fish for it, now my right glute just clicks every time I take a step with that legI also got raging wood on the drive home to the point where I was considering jacking in traffic
>>77244731You made the right move not pushing yourself too hard. Tomorrow you can return to the gym with full strength.
Hi anons how is it? Im very good even though ups and downs keep fuckin me up. But lately thanks to meditation and therapy ive made very big steps forwards. Day to day may be hard, but if i look at the bigger picture it aint that bad :).>A questionI'm a 170cm manlet, weighing 81 kg. I was very much in shape 2 years ago (72 kg!) but my last relationship made me forget about gym a bit (going there from time to time, 1 months on, 2months off and so on), so now after many attempts of getting back into the gym i realize that:1. i dont enjoyit anymore, 2. harsh truth, im a manlet and being big at 170cm looks awful. I don't wanna be big anymore.So what to do know? i'm already on a 500cal deficit. Should i continue with gym or try soemething else like swimming or calistheincs? My objective is to be lean and not look like a dwarf anymore.Have a nice tuesday my friends :)
>>77244983If you don't care about being huge or strong, and gym isn't doing it for you, calisthenics is absolutely ok. Make sure you hit everything properly.
>>77244983Progress isn’t linear. You’re wise for focusing on your long term trajectory. If I were you, I’d focus on swimming/cardio for a toned body. Good luck fellow manlet! WAGMI
>>77227354not even back fatigue during this barbell row session. I managed to bump my reps up to 3x8 (80kg) and then I did neutral grip pulldowns to absolute failure. wagmi.
>>77245138Congrats on those lifts! You’ll have a line down your back soon. WAGMI!
I finally hugged a girl fags. OMG. After 27 years of being a khv I finally got a baggie. She is really really cool to speak with. Gonna take her out to dinner this saturday and kiss her. Just before our 2nd date ended she said that I could do whatever I have in mind to her and there is no need to be shy. I almost cried there. Im so excited. If she doesnt get bored of me she might be the one.
Today I called the gym to tell them I'm going back tomorrow.I haven't been since Easter.I had a major health scare but I'm glad to finally go back to my routine
>>77245217You’re a stud! Make sure to smile and remember her name. I’m 28 and never kissed anybody. I need to follow your direction and make it
>>77245217Brother I am filled with joy for you. 22 never had a gf but you give me hope.
>>77245231What exercise are you going to do to rebreak your hymen.
>>77245366It's gotta be bench press manThough I'm going to have a discussion first and I think it's time to focus a lot more on cardio
>>77245231Welcome back! Don’t rush into working out, it’ll take time to regain your strength. But eventually gains will return
Rescuing from page 10Off day today, skipped my morning protein shake to compensate, should be below 2000 calories for the day
>>77247407Your willpower is strong. Good job adjusting yo a rest day. You’re gonna make it
>>77245217go and get her tiger
Thanks for the reminder OP. I need to remember to breathe and think positively
I am the 25 year old virgin schizoid doomer guy returning once more because I finally must own up to myself, fully.I spent several weeks partying with other westerners in SEA recently, and whilst there, I finally started opening up to people more and making friends after forever. But more importantly, I had to confront myself.I noted that lookism only seemed to partially correlate with getting girls, and other shit, namely social skills, seemed to be as, if not more, important than even how you look. I can no longer subscribe to pure lookism as a model, even if I do think my looks help overall. This nice milf lady at a rave who I was talking to whilst on Molly even said she doesn't think my issue is my looks. And also said that the mdma state of hyper sociability can be tapped into by assuming that those around are excited to see me/interact with me. So reframing my perception could help a lot there, and will likely be necessary. I do wonder if im actually autistic or a psychopath or something since I dont really feel a lot of emotional resonance with those around me, and I also ended up growing more disagreeable in the past months of travel, and especially the last few weeks of being surrounded by people (I punched someone in fact), although I consider disagreeableness a good thing after a lifetime of being a pushover. My closest friend there actually said he could see the autism in me, but that it's actually a gift.1/2
>>77248521Using whatever autistic powers of supreme pattern recognition i have, alongside the resilience I've built up, I will construct a workable social mask that let's me be "charismatic". This simply must happen now, I wont allow it not to.Perhaps most important of all, I was forced to acknowledge my addiction. I've used weed, nicotine, booze, coke, amphetamines, mdma, benzodiazepines, kratom, opioid pills of various types, smoked opium, ketamine, psychedelics, and yet, I never grew addicted to any. Bc there's a drug that hijacked my brains reward centers before the rest, and screwed me socially.Porn has been so cataclysmic for me, and I was so delusional, that it took me till I was 25 and drunk with like 4 randos in a SEAsian dive bar to admit it and realize it's harm. I must quit this shit. I fapped 4x last month, 1x to actual porn, and it has to stop forever. I must do this if I want to succeed and be healthy. I must. Otherwise I won't be able to even get it up for a girl.On a last note, I'm in a new SEA country now, and I intend to settle here and teach English for a time while I pursue my other goals of getting jacked, being sociable and other personal stuff. Protein and housing is cheap, and there's a fair number of tourists/expats here.Im almost done with the TEFL cert and I'm gonna start looking for work very soon now that im on the ground. Wish me luck boys
>>77248531>blaming it on pornSo close, Anon, and yet so far.
>>77248521>>77248531Good luck with your new life as a teacher! I’m not sure the right term is being disagreeable, I think a better term is being assertive. But I’m in the same position as you - I spent my entire life cowering and passive. I need to follow your direction and utilize my autism to succeed socially. Porn is really fucked up. Try getting in a relationship, it’ll distract you from porn. I’m glad you’re okay!
>>77248531Good luck bro.I'm feel a bit similar to you, also unsure whether it's tism or schizoid, or avpd, or just extreme bell curve introversion. I often daydreams about doing the SEA thing (with less drugs), or some other big trip that would unlock the normie side in me, and then I come back to my family and start talking normally and everything goes back in order, like it was when I was 8. The timeline is fixed.Honestly I don't think I can do the acting thing. At 27 it feels like my personality is locked in, I'll miss out on a different life, but pretending to be someone else does not sound appealing to me no more.But do tell us how it goes
>>77249569I’m the same way. I always fantasize about taking a long road trip across America or solo traveling. If I ever get significant time off, I will go
>>77249686I never took action for anything in my life but I'm certain I will do it. Most likely I will do a long distance bikepacking trip or road trip, not the social SEA sexpacking thing.I've watched hundreds of video of people doing it.wagmi brother
>>77249725Let’s work hard so we can both explore like in our dreams. WAGMI brother!
