>bad childhood>Essentially no ability to relax>Nervous system constantly active thinking about shit i have to do or what happens>cant go to sleep peacefully, always have to come up with a fantasy usually one where i am captured and beaten as a soldier and now lying on the ground just to fall asleepI try not to stress but really i am always on edge and whenever something does not go to plan its a big crysis in my mindIs this somehow fixable or am I gonna life a short stressfull life?
>>77237192Yes it's called anxiety disorder and meds can help
Get ambien tell your doctor you have insomnia
>>77237192Same here. Sleep: Listen to mildly interesting videos on relaxing subjects to keep those anxiety loops from getting started.Day: Direct your hyper-vigilance towards constructive uses like saving money or doing chores more efficiently, rather than just obsessively thinking about stuff you have no control over.When the anxiety just won't shut the fuck up: Exercise. It's hard as fuck to get started while your body is tensed up and your nerves are overloaded, but if you can, it will snap you out of it pretty quick.If you can't, what I do is *lean into* the anxiety rather than fight it. Shake harder than you need to. Take panicked breaths harder than you need to. Be aware that it's an anxiety attack, take control of the nervous responses, and just let yourself be stuck in panic mode until the adrenaline overload fizzles out. For me, that's the quickest and safest way to get myself out of it.
>>77237192>sleep hygiene>breathing and relaxation techniques>meditation>yoga>pennebaker journallingThese are all practices that could help in the short term. In the long term, you basically need to work seriously and consistently on healing and personal growth. If you grew up adapting to a retarded dysfunctional family system and an environment that felt dangerous to you, the consequences of that will be something you need to learn to manage and slowly chip away at.
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>>77237192you're dealing with a insecure unstable past with a lot of trauma and unmet needsit will take some time to unfuck and unwind everything but things will make sense and then not make sense and then make sense again; it'll be a constant tug of war where you'll be making marginal progress at a time, but progress is progressas someone who went through that, it took me until 33 to finally work through it all. I got sent to jail on a false allegation, my parents put a restraining order on me, I got thrown out of the house I was living it at the time because of fuckass roommates. I met people along the way who helped me; got me admitted to the right programs and lived in a shelter for 6 months to get back on my feet. I said fuck everyone I ever knew in my life, when I was at my lowest no one showed up anyway (except 2 people that ultimately became my best friends). I embraced a new community to reinvent myself exactly how I saw myself in my mind (supreme master ruler gigachad king). I said fuck everyone who didn't instantly recognize my greatness and bowed and kiss my feet. I met people who I viewed as equal and we became good friends. Life is way better now but I know those years of pushing through it were absolute hell. Think about what you feel you need the most and bothers you the most and give that to yourself; and ultimately, embracing Jesus will make it all the more easier. He can give you everything you felt like you missed or didn't have in life, and in the He made it all make sense and redeemed everything everyone else ever destroyed in me>>77237341also do this except mentally; kill them in your mind by cutting them completely out of your thoughts. If they're not in your head and you've removed yourself from their presence, they don't even exist anymore>>77237293>>77237310go fuck yourselves
>>77237192Any redditor retard telling you to medicate wants you to die, fyi. You can find peace, you will need God>but I'm le atheimist sky daddy doesn't realYeah yeah, suffer then
>>77237192 (OP)All your feelings are valid bru. To often what we go through determines who we became. Sadly, it is our responsibility to pick up the pieces. As long as you have health insurance bruh you are unstoppable. >>77237341love it>>77237365>>77237369quit being a bunch of queers about god. take meds too.
>>77237372>I'm an evil atheist demon and I want people to diebe gone retard
>>77237372you're the only queer here mateif I didn't have God/Jesus I would probably be living like a troll under a bridge somewhere tweaking on fent. He was the one who made it all possible. To God be the glory, cope, and smd faggot xd
>>77237365>also do this except mentally; kill them in your mind by cutting them completely out of your thoughts. If they're not in your head and you've removed yourself from their presence, they don't even exist anymorewhat to do if that person is you
>>77237192You're already dead, non of this matters, just do what you want and have fun!
>>77237341From all internet stories that never happend this one never happend in 120%
>>77237192>and whenever something does not go to plan its a big crysis in my mindThat's alright anon, it's not that bad of a game I wouldn't mind if I had that in my mind
>>77237365>I got sent to jail on a false allegationits scary what they can do to you without a single shred of evidence other than an accusation.In my case charges never even got filed, but the fucking dickhead detectives were doing their best to find anything they could, even accusing me of shit my accuser didnt.
If it makes you feel better I had a good childhood, struggle to relax or turn my brain off, and can't fall asleep without either fantasizing or just thinking about something in general to the point where I know I'm falling asleep when my thoughts get more disorganizedHonestly wonder if it might be ADHD or something
>>77237595I developed social anxiety as a kid from basically scenarios in my own mind.For example, every tv show and movie I ever watch growing up had the trope of kids getting beat up and shoved in their locker the first day of high school. I was terrified of high school my whole childhood and I even spent my entire time in high school terrified that any moment I was going to be beaten and shoved in a locker even though that literally didnt happen to anyone at all/Fuck you hollywood jews
>>77237341My dentist told my parents my jaw was fucked but my parents told me not to worry about it and now I am not only recessed but in constant pain on my face. Funnily enough they paid for my brother to get his 0.1 cm tooth gap “fixed” even though it’s not a health issue in the slightest and would’ve gone away with age anyways.
>>77237365Remember that other schizos will always tell you to not take your meds even if they are the only thing that realistically can help you.
>>77237427then you have some serious soul searching to do if it really is you or just ideas people put in your head. Ask hard questions and be completely honest and objective with yourself>>77237566In my case the public defender and DA were sucking each other off and extended my jail time instead of releasing me for reasons completely unrelated to my charges. I ended up biting the bullet and bailing out and hired a private attorney immediately. I'm looking at a felony and up to 4 years state prison and I was chilling in my room the entire time. Bottom line: fuck roommates and fuck landlords that don't vet your roommates or even tell you about the new one moving it>>77237638Yeah sad faggotI got a second opinion and the MD said he didn't detect any long term disabilities or mental illness based on my stories. I may have been admitted to psyche facilities (mostly due to my fuckwad family) but they slapped a label on me immediately just to be able to push meds. I never needed that shit and only took it for a while with little results: in fact I dealt with side effects that were worse than anything they were supposed to treat and it only served as ammunition for my fuckass bitch gaslighting mom to call me insane and tell me to take my meds every time I confronted her about something. Fuck you and fuck your mom, fuck your entire bloodline
>>77237372>God bad>Violent revenge fantasies and drugs goodSelf-hatred can be a very self-indulgent thing and peace will continue to elude you until you understand how.
Ive had an awful panic disorder season for last 2 months. But good news my brother Ive found some techniques that help sleep. Dont listen to too much music, listen to your inner monolog. Eat raw garlic for supper to relax, Shower before sleep and smoke weed. We are already on fit so your supposed to destroy all adrenaline out of your muscles and make your body produce testosterone instead of cortisol. Spring is always hardest time for anxiety it will become easier in summer I promise you brother. GL
