whats going through your head
I guit drugs after 3 years and I genuinely don't remember what kind of person I was before. What my interests were, what I did with my time, what kind of things I talked to regular people about, etc. My addiction had consumed all of my time. Staying clean is the right call, but I'm just so lost right now. I have no idea how I want to spend the time I used to spend on drugs.
fed doxing thread
Recently been having very clear, detailed mental images of my corpse post suicide. I have a wife and son. I'd like to believe i wouldn't do that to them but I'm not too sure anymore. Struggling pretty consistently with depression for ~20 years. Feels bad man.
Deciding if I should leave my wife and kids. Wife cheated on me 10 years back and I kind of blocked it out but recently started to remember a bunch of details of how it happened and some shitty ways it was done and I just can’t block it out anymore. Not sure anymore
>>30121553What happened recently that brought it back on your mind?
>>30121590Had a horrible nightmare which was so vivid and made me remember so much is what brought it back on my mind. Some background detail about why that is significant is that is how I caught my wife. She made a new “friend” in college and she would not stop talking about him. Red flag one but ignored it. Then when nappin near her I woke up from a nap and told her about the crazy dream I had that her and her “friend” had sex (maybe my subconscious pointing it out) she said she didn’t want me to be uncomfortable so she would stop talking to him. Week after that she confessed because my dream made her feel guilt. Just the surface of the story tho
>>30121634That relationship is over. If there isn't resentment, it will be in the future. It will eat you from the inside out, man, and that melancholy will spill into your kid's lives. No doubt about it.
>>30121515sounds like me after I quit consuming porn>but anon you're on /gif/you should see all the filters I run
>>30121515take walks. youll figure it out
>>30121634Keep it for the kids to stay strong. That's about all I can say. Or make her feel extremely guilty about it but I doubt she's capable of really feeling such a thing.Baring guilt inherently means taking responsibility.
genuinely gonna do it boys. ive been sitting here for 10 mins at this reply box wondering what I should type.. thinking about going into the 1000 word essay I could type up of whats wrong with my life whats been bothering me ever since I was a kid. But why would I most of you are gifted people average decent goers. Idk what got me such a lucky bad of cards honestly love you guys and the past couple years ive spent heresomeone to talk to.....
