Why is it some people have fantasies about being loved, wealthy et cetera, and then there is the Dirlewanger type that just likes to saddism?
>>18246911Connection is bonding, love, belonging—the warm feels. Agency is impact, power, leaving a mark—the I did this feels. But sometimes fucked-up validation loop emerges. The brain learns that inflicting suffering IS the ultimate form of connection.Others' pain becomes the most intense, undeniable proof of your own agency... Suffering in others becomes the only proof their own existence is real.
>>18246911God abuses, harasses, terrorizes, threatens me more if I fantasize about "benign" things like playing sports. He's a retarded sadistic tranny who rapes my mind every second of every day and thinks he can say that literally anything I think is evil. Just like 2 hours ago he was harassing and terrorizing me for thinking about flat earth vs round earth and the reliability of government narratives. All day every day God terrorizes, harasses, abuses, threatens etc me for literally anything I think or do. It's impossible to fantasize about "being loved, wealthy etc" because I'll be abused for it, sometimes I fantasize about killing my abusers which is a reasonable reaction to being abused. God is also a retarded tranny who projects his evil into my fantasies and if I actively negate his evil impositions in my mind or think about how he will try to putrefy some fantasy he pretends this is participation in his evil or affirmation of his impositions because he's a retarded delusional sadistic tranny faggot. He imposes his retarded evil delusions on my fantasies then tries to pretend that his evil impositions are core features or premises of my fantasies because he's a delusional evil tranny
>>18246911Because people who want the former are submissive faggots and people that enjoy sadism have domineering personalities. High testosterone.
>>18247975Future mass shooter detected.
>>18247975Really? Typically outgoing joyful people are strong and engaged in sports and relationships, meanwhile the edgy fags who cannot look people in the eyes are left alone to wallow and brood.
