I will kill myself today but I haven't experienced a woman's affection in any form yet. Will I be missing out on much if I die anons?
>>215410981idk
>>215410981Paraguyanon do not do it. Don't kill yourself, we need more Paraguayans in the world. I'm confident you can get a gf
>>215410981female affection is good, but they can be evil creatures and hurt you terribly.do not do that, life is worth living, not because of women, but they make our lives easier and happier, if you choose a good one
>>215410981Don't you have money or things you can sell? I'd try to collect as much liquid cash as I can and go out with a bang. Join the Pattaya Flying Club.
Having sex with hookers is pretty good. Don't let any retard fool you, p4p is a wonderful experience. I'd spend all money on escorts before I kill myself.
>>215410981Yea it feels pretty goodget an escort My cousin told me about a hot paraguayan escort who was begging for his dick after the first session so just buy one
>>215411027>we need more Paraguayans in the worldI agree, but I'm not a worthwhile Paraguayan so my absence definitely won't matter much. Today at work a girl died after a cable fell on her and electrocuted her during the thunderstorm and she was a far more valuable person than me who did lots of volunteer work and helped a lot of people. It's Paraguayans like her we need more of
>>215411119>Don't you have money or things you can sell? Yeah, but at this stage I'm just too worn out and depressed to do any of that. You're speaking from the perspective of someone who still wants to live
>>215410981dont do it. i wouldve missed out on so much in the past year, and so much to come, if i had been successful
>>215410981someone who wants to die wouldn't be concerned with "missing out" on anything, the whole point of dying is to be gone and miss out on absolutely everything
>>215411235Brother you have nothing to lose, why not make some memories before you off yourself?
>>215410981Doesn't your mom love you?
>>215410981dated an asian girl for 3 years in my 20syes it is one of the best feelings in the world. to have a woman that loves you and is eager, cant wait for you to get home from your shift so that you can bend her over and creampie her then cook for you. she was happy just being by my side, and that made me happy...good times.
>>215411395What happened? Did she cheat on you?
>>215411395race mixing is degenerate
>>215411415Yeah, left me for her personal trainer at the gym.>>215411433meh it was worth it, if i hang myself now at least i experienced love from a woman.
>>215411290You're acting as if people are always completely coherent and never hold conflicting thoughts>>215411369No she gave up on me long ago. But it's okay I don't blame her
>>215411395Yeah one my friends told me something similar and said it made him really happy
>>215410981Dude, how old are you? I’m betting that you’re thinking it’s over when your life hasn’t even begun yet.
>>215411461Man that's brutal, I'm sorry.
>>215411532I'm 29. Lived through two decades of mental illness and addiction and suicide has been kind of a life-long project for me. I'm finally at the point where I overcame all of the fears and survival instinct that keep most people from doing it
>>215411594Have you maybe tried alcohol? I have been miserably depressed for 10 years now and a few beers once or twice a week keeps me alive.
>>215411639Yeah I did, but I had to quit because it always made me do things I later regretted and lost my best friend during a drunk argument because of it. I don't think I'll be drinking again
>>215411191>Today at work a girl died after a cable fell on her and electrocuted her during the thunderstormElectrocution has to be the thirdiest way to die
>>215411594I’d love to be your age again, I can’t change your mind but there’s so much possibility left when you’re in your late 20s and early 30s. You have time to turn it all around and have a family or work on a project that gives your life meaning or helps others. Something in you decided to post this thread instead ACK-king yourself, deep down you want to believe in life despite all the nihilistic bluster. All I’d ask is that you hang in there for a bit, give it a try for a little longer, even if it’s just sitting out in the sun a bit. Maybe see if there’s something in this world to love, whether it be a person or sone project greater than yourself.Sorry if that wasn’t good enough to convince you but I saw this in between closing Jira tickets at 12:25 AM and had to say something.
>>215411694Have you maybe tried weed?
>>215411753Thanks for typing all that anon, you seem like a very compassionate and kind person. I feel really bad that those words aren't enough to help me because unfortunately my daily life has become extremely mentally taxing and unberable where even the littlest things take enormous effort. I wish I could follow your advice and do the things you say but at this point it just feels too damn hard, and death feels so much easier.>Something in you decided to post this thread instead ACK-king yourselfI have to wait a few hours until my sister leaves the house to make sure she won't rescue me, that's why I'm still here
>>215411963please dont do it anon. she'll be very traumatized by seeing you there.idk if i can help you get your life on track but it takes more willpower to successfully kys, trust me
>>215411963at least live for your sister, dont be selfish. imagine the amount of pain you will transfer to her. Just stay on this shit hole rock with us, we are all suffering in our own ways. Fucking go to the store right now get a 6 pack of beer, turn on some king of the hill and sit back and relax. Everything probably wont get better, but there are things you can still enjoy.
>>215411963Bro, is there anyone you can talk to?I’m the anon who wrote out all that stuff. Real shit, I can’t believe I’m typing this but I’ve been shot before (in before amerishoot meme, this is serious) and the moment you here the shot and the blood starts flowing out you’ll realize you want nothing more than to live, you’ll be that’s forwarding and rewinding your life thinking to all the faces that loved you and all the things that you could have done with your life. I was begging the paramedics to not let me die. Three transfusions and an infection later that required a surgery and a bunch of antibiotics I’m alive. Maybe, just maybe all that crazy shit happened so I could tell you to cherish your life despite all the bad things that happened to you,
>>215412153And I just say all that because when you’re really depressed you can get detached from reality but in a moment like that everything (the future you have, the woman you could have been with, the family who cares about you) comes back to you in extreme clarity but it might be too late.
>>215410981Yeah, I'd def postpone killing yourself if you haven't raw dogged a chick and cum inside her, yet. It's 100% everything it's cracked up to be. Don't use a condom, though. I remember losing my virginity with a condom and wanting to kms because of how boring it was lmao
>>215412153I'm very sorry to hear you went through that anon, that sounds very tough, I hope you've recovered and are doing better now. I have gone through a similar near death experience last year when I tried to kill myself with a heroin overdose while I was drunk, but ended up being rescued at last time and had to spend 3 days in the ICU. I don't remember feeling regret before injecting it and passing out however, I only regretted waking up in the hospital alive and being forced to continue to live. That destroyed my survival instinct completely and I can easily do it again because I already crossed that line once, and I'm just not afraid anymore. If that hadn't happened to me then my survival instinct would've definitely kept me alive and stopped me from doing it.Still I wanna thank you for being so kind and thoughtful and I hope you get to live a wonderful life anon, you sound like someone who deserves a good life
>>215412153>Bro, is there anyone you can talk to?Only my sister is with me but she hates having to hear me talk about my problems and only gets mad when I do, so I don't bother her with that. I don't have anyone else right now
>>215412780tell us your problems, maybe we can help?
>>215412755You deserve a good life too man. I’m fine now, I can run 10 miles on the bone that was shattered by the bullet with no pain. People can bounce back from some crazy shit and you might be surprised by what is still left in store for you in this world, you’ve already come back from the threshold of death and lived to tell about it so I know you’re a tough man, something in you wants to fight. I won’t annoy you anymore but I hope you choose to stick around, I’ll ask about you tomorrow afternoon.
i didn't meet my first gf until i was 21, don't do this man. it can come abruptly
>>215412780For what it's worth anon, I was once in a very similar situation to yours. I know you can't accept anyone in the threads advice because in your current state you can't even imagine ever feeling good/normal again. I remember everyone around me telling me how it would get better etc. and it went in one ear and out the other. I felt so, so bad all the time and I just wanted to end it every minute of every day. It did get better, tho. It took a long time but it got so much better and in retrospect it terrifies me to think how close I got to bowing out. There can be a good future for you, anon. I hope you find the strength to get to where I'm at now. I remember the pain you're feeling right now and KNOWING I'd never feel good again. It will happen for you, anon; if you don't bow out.
>>215412821It's just like I said here >>215411963Every day is a mental torture, I get constant psychological pain that's so intense it almost feels like physical pain (like a really bad headache). Doing the smallest things like waking up, showering, brushing teeth, cooking, cleaning, etc. take huge effort, and taking on larger projects to self-improve and build a better future for my life seem impossible. Plus I think all of my years of constant drug use have left me numb and incapable of feeling pleasure, so I can't even enjoy the things I used to anymore, unless I start to get high again which would be a terrible idea. Basically the depression I suffer from is really intense, has been going on for a long time and I'm just at the point of total exhaustion.
>>215410981You will do no such thing stupid, the ummah needs you
>>215410981Thinking of doing the same but I'll wait until 40. Not caring before that.
>>215412874>>215412978Thank you guys. Both of your comments are actually very uplifting. I feel a sense of urgency with this because it feels like if I don't do it now that I have the opportunity I won't be able to do it later. But there's still some hours left before I'm can do it and I'll probably reconsider it now, you guys have been very nice to me, thank you. I wish I had people like you in my life
>>215413096I’m glad you are reconsidering. In the real world there are people out there who can add positivity to your life, it’s not easy to find them but they exist. Just give yourself some time, try to do something different that shakes up your frame of mind. Sorry if I’m not making sense, it’s late here but I believe in your strength. Something in you wants to live, to fight.
