I've had a phase during high school where the name Pakistan would come up randomly anywhere with no context, there was nothing unusual happening there but everyone was suddenly talking about it and no one seems to notice it but me. I started getting obsessed over it, start spending all my free time reading the news from there and reading books about it, my parents through I was radicalized by the talibans and I felt a great connection to it. I started to notice every south asian person on the street and it made me unbelievably happy. I started to stalk a pakistani childhood friend but the neighborhood she lived in got completely locked. I ended up in a psych ward where I was diagnosed schizophrenic and given aripiprazol and it kind of got away but it was the only thing that made me feel alive plus my friend and his psychologist think I am not actually schizophrenic so I stopped taking my injections one month ago and it came back a couple days ago. I spend my day learning urdu and listening to pakistani music and I go outside searching for a pakistani guy I knew from high school, I haven't seen him for nearly one year but I spent five hours next to a train station he might take just to see him. I keep hallucinating him onto other people so it's hard to know if it was even him. I can't talk to pakistani it feels too intimidating like a superior human race. I don't know if a lot of pakistani people are here but I would love talking to one or just being acknowledge by one would make my month. I am unemployed so I can't travel but anyway I think I would just go full psychosis if I was surrounded all day by pakistani
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>>217158410Here’s a much briefer summary:The anon developed an intense, obsessive fixation on Pakistan and Pakistani people starting in high school, including stalking, constant research, and hallucinations. They were hospitalized and diagnosed with schizophrenia, but stopped medication after others doubted the diagnosis. The obsession has now returned: learning Urdu, listening to Pakistani music, searching for people they knew, and hallucinating them onto strangers. They feel overwhelmed, intimidated, and emotionally dependent on this fixation.
Calm the fuck down, Baburjeet Khan.
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>>217158290Don't they Rape children and best women to death there in Pakistan?
>>217158290here, have a pakichu
>>217158290>real genuine schizophrenic on this boardWowImagine taking medical advice from a psychologist
>>217158290keep us posted
your past lives?
>>217159564I don't have more to say just I am really obsessed with the pakistani guy, he kind of became an imaginary friend, I spend so much time thinking about him it feels like I know him personally even though I never spoke to him (I just eavesdropped him when we were in highschool), I felt that we were meant to meet each other again but I can't wait for it to happen so I am trying to find a way to befriend him but it's hard when I am stalking I am not very good with people
I can't let this post be archived before a pakistani has answered, please I know it's 1am down there but I need this
>>217162201Hi I'm formerly pakistani Just go to sleep my baby <33
>>217162201Im Pakistani habibi come to Lahore
>>217162302I'm half satisfied, can't sleep yet
>>217158290saaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
>>217162333Are you really pakistani ? That would make me really happy
>>217158290 Find a pakistani girl and go down and dirty for her
>>217163876God I'd wish but I don't even know one to start with plus I am really bad with people and the guy i know from high school is a sort of ethno nationalist i've heard that he don't want pakistani women to date non pakistani i don't want to betray him
>>217163497No sorry
>>217164206If you betray him you’ll have a qt paki wife tho. So who cares
>>217158290>delusions of reference>confused and disorganized speech>hallucinationsUh yeah, I'm thinking you should go back on that aripiprazol anon
>>217158290This but for me it was Burmese. Also I'm not schizo but I do have a weird affinity for Myanmar. I even went there and got a gf, only had to return due to wanting to make more money. Join an urdu language channel from Reddit I'm sure they'd love to hear someone is learning their language.
>>217165916Shut the fuck up, I want to see where this goes.
>>217158290i expected a UK flag when i read this
>>217165999I tried the pakistan reddit but the mods didn't approved my post asking for art recommandations, I will try the urdu one, thanks
>>217158290you lucked out starting with abilify. it’s like the only antipsychotic that doesn’t turn your brain off
>>217166331What is it about Pakistan that you love so much
>>217166597I don't even know, just anything related to it make me excited, i've watch a show today and a character looked south asian and i instantly loved him and was so sad when he died, just pronouncing the word Pakistan feel so thrilling, O love the sound of urdu, i have empathy problem with people but i feel weirdly close to pakistani and can actually feel empathic toward them when i can't even with my family
>>217166743>O love the sound of urduآپ کی مسکراہٹ مہرِ تاباں پر بھی پردۂ نور ڈال دیتی ہے، اے میرے محبوب۔Aap ki muskurahat mehr-e-tabaan par bhi parda-e-noor daal de, ay mehboob.You should post in the middle of the day (+5 GST), some paki may be browsing.
>>217166743Pakistani wooman wait for you saar. You need to geomaxx to Islamabad
>>217167449I would if I wasn't a schizo neet
>>217167598Get back on meds until you have enough money for Pakistan then.
>>217167831If I get on my meds I probably wouldn't have any reason left to go there
>>217158290Why post this gay image? Are you a homo?
>>217170246It was the most fitting image I had on my computer because I love pakistan
>>217158290This I browse /int/ for
Anon you’re so cool I need to know more about you I don’t want this thread archived. It’s a gem
>>217164206>i've heard that he don't want pakistani women to date non pakistaniAre Pakistani men allowed to date non-Pakistanis according to him?Also, my parents are Pakistani immigrants but I was born in Canada and never had much of an interest in Pakistan.
