I dont know how to have a relationship while also suffering from attachment issues in my country. Do you guys mind if I make a pretty long blog post about my situation?
>>217218175Sure
Same desu, go ahead
just make it the first post next time okcunt
>>217218209>randomly meet cute native girl (19) online>she's an odd cute so I follow her>after a while I send a reel and she sends one back>we are just being vulgar to eachother, racist reels, saying whatever>she says she's using this 43 year old guy>says she has a thing for dilfs>tell her Ive messaged a few trannies>she gets upset and tells me that "as long as this dilf Ive had my eye on doesnt like them its fine">>find out a month later this was her friend's dad's friend (40 year old) she tried to go on a date with at 18Cont.
>>217218329>american social lives
>>217218329>this kinda pisses me off so we stop talking for a bit>she comes back, we apologize, make up whatever>things go smoothly but she's still using this 43 year old>before our first call she was getting the 43 year old to give her a ride home>got high around him and kinda ghosted me for about an hour before finally calling me>realized at this point that I was starting to like her (let's say mid to late october)>we keep chatting but I maintain distance and lash out when I can cause I want her to block me>finally bring up how pissed off this dilf shit makes me>she apologizes, says thats not her now, she cut off the 43 year old, shes serious about me>we go on and finally make plans to meet>ill fly to see her Cont.
>>217218442>she says she'll book an airbnb ($600)>whole time I assume she is just using me and she is broke supposedly so she cant book it early>I bring up the dilf shit again and she tells me that she met the 43 year old off tinder (5 days before my flight)>trying my absolute hardest to get her to block me but it doesnt work and im even more pissed>she finally books the airbnb 2 days before my flight>I get on my first plane ride and prepare for the first vacation of my lifeCont.
>>217218442>>217218557>want her to block meWhy? Is this some zoomer thing?
>>217218557>I get there but with very little plans, hoping that since she is the local she would know what to do>we are very chill together, vibe easily, etc>first day we didnt do anything but she did say her goal is to get me high (never been high before)>we ended up watching movies and ended with making out, didnt go any further because we are both virgins and didnt know what to do>she didnt spend the night and the next day she was busy in the morning with her friend, so I took a nice 4 hour walk on some trails (most fun I would have all trip)>on this day we do end up having sex but we couldnt wait till night so our 'plan' to go somewhere got spoiled>wednesday was terrible and I cant remember much, we got alcohol and weed>ended up crying and apologizing about us not doing muchCont.
Yeah shit thread shut the fuck up
>>217218598If she blocks me it confirms my beliefs about her and makes me look like the victim I guess, plus I believed she was secretely using me so I wanted to try and forcefully end the jig. Everyone in person around me said she was bad news and my gut did too.
>>217218725Okay
>random guy tells him to shut up>obeys
>>217218329>>217218442>>217218557>>217218707What's wrong with you people?
>thursday is thanksgiving>she feels bad because Im far from my family>invites me to hers>meet them and she has me lie and say that Im a college student she met recently>only white guy at a navajo thanksgiving>after that we walk around the city and then get back to the airbnb>her best friend had spent the last 2 days fucking some 38 year old magapede, ignoring everyone in her life>she asks if she can come to the airbnb, I say sure>she comes over and we finally drive out of town to go do something>she didnt know that the road to the place was fucking non existent>im driving and get her car stuck on a road>let her get out and she almost rips off her right front bumper trying to get out>I drive us home in absolute silence>weight of losing my virginity, disrespecting myself with edibles, and wasting the first trip of my life starts to dawn on me>she and her friend leave the airbnb to go drop off her moms car>i take an hour walk just crying at 7pm and left my phone at the place>I come back and shes a little confused and also I realize she has a weird submissive relationship with her friend>I chug maybe 3 shots of vodka and take 30mg>we start playing a board game and her friend is just grilling me with very targeted questions and I realize how much she has told her friend about me>finally shes "are you alright?" "You seem upset?">I say yeah Im a little upset we didnt do anythingCont.
>>217219897Not sure
@Grok summarize this blogpost in one paragraph
>>217218175Issues are issues. Where you live has nothing to do with it.