I can't enjoy my life in my country because I have PPPD
>>220640412What the hell is PPPD now?
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>>220640463It's like having a constant feeling of imbalance, like you have after you get on a carousel and stopBut it also manifests in other ways i.e. derealization, and slower thinking. Or just in general everything around me feels sped up. It's kind of related to anxiety and constant fight-or-flight responseI've had it for about 4 years now with varying strength, but I learned of the name of this disorder only a few weeks ago, which means that I at least can research this finally and don't feel so lonely. But it does take away life satisfaction
>>220640654I see. Well it sounds rough, hopefully there's medication to atleast mitigate the effect some what.
>>220640735I haven't found any, but some activities do help. Like riding a bike or lying down or meditation, or some eye following exercises Alcohol for example actually makes it worse the following daysApparently therapy also might help, I have one in 5 days . Never really been before and I don't feel like going because it feels useless but I guess I'll try. I don't even know why I'm going and thinking about cancelling
>>220640815I mean you got nothing to lose. Maybe they give you even a prescription that allows you to avoid work, that you hate. Who knows, I would give it a try.
>>220640654How did you get pppd? I got depersonalization from smoking weed as a teenager
>>220640960During university I once bought some shitty weed and I smoked it for about a month but it was giving me terrible anxiety from even small amounts but I kept smoking anyway because I thought it will help me sleep or relax like for othersBut one day I started reading about some brain haematoma or whatnot on Wikipedia after smoking, and started believing that I have that. And it gave me like a panic attack and I couldn't breathe, so I collapsed and couldn't move for a few or several seconds.So I'm not sure what that episode was, probably just like slight passing out from a panic attack, but after this I flushed down all weed down the drain, and in the following months I believe that my PPPD started. Idk if it was from the weed or passing out, probably both, just my body being overboard. At first it was hell because I had actual panic attacks and this kind of claustrophobia in my own body and also those random "jolts" of dizziness for 0.5-1 sec that made me like curl up But it was slowly subduing and now I am left with mostly manageable symptoms. On some days it's worse, but it makes the good days really good and I appreciate them. It also kind of pushed me to quit my old job and look out for a work from home job which I did 2 weeks ago, and I'm also making 70% more now so there are positivesBut the thing is I can't really buy anything with money that would give me joy.I am finding most meaning and pleasure currently in reading and learning about metaphysics, like Christianity or René Guénon, while long term wanting to collect money to buy an apartment. But I live modestly
>>220641439funny, sounds like we had a pretty similar experience.>I am finding most meaning and pleasure currently in reading and learning about metaphysics, like Christianity or René Guénonthat's very good, keep at that and you'll pull through.
I can't enjoy my life in my country because I have the 'tism
>>220640412The Amelia meme is so fucking gay.
