How badly have you wasted your life in your country?
>>221386312insanely
Im 28, Im still on time to turn it around
>>221386312>picI genuinely enjoyed living in such conditions before I had to move back in to my mom’s. All the cooked meals and ironed clothes cannot compensate for the constant nagging and background noise.
>>221386312far worse than 99% of the posters on this board because>i'm a truecel>i actually tried to make it in lifethe average /int/ poster is a fakecel normalfag who has a moderate degree of success or at least financial stability without ever trying
>>221386455I dont want to be the bearer of bad news but at 28 its already over, basically
>>221386312Nah its been good. I had a near death experience when I was younger and objectively should've died so despite the fact my career never really took off and I spent a lot of my life not doing much I regret none of it. Im just glad ive had more time to continue existing
>>221386455i started trying to turn it around at that age, i can tell you that it has been insanely slow and unrewarding. start as soon as possible. it's not easy, at least IMC.
>>221386517>Im just glad ive had more time to continue existingCant say I relate, it seems quite the opposite for me actually. As I grow older I just yearn to drift into a quiet and peaceful everlasting sleep. Being alive is tiring
>>221386455same but im 32yo
Not at all and in fact given my starting position with shit poor parents who took me to another country and isolsted me I am very proud that I haven't killed myself yet. Most would never have endured my hardship
>>221386312I'm mentally stuck at 16 and I'm almost 30. Done nothing but rot on the same room for all those years. Genuinely feel out of place whenever I have to go outside and interact with society or with normies.
>>221386635Mykola?
>>221386312By non-social standards I'm doing pretty well. I have a PhD, make 6 figures working from home, own a house in a quiet neighborhood in a nice part of the country.On the other hand I have no friends, no social life at all, I've never been kissed, and during my entire 20s I could count the number of memorable experiences I had on one hand. The entire decade of my life that's supposed to be the most memorable and enjoyable felt like it was shorter than some summers I had a kid. I don't enjoy anything so I don't end up doing anything. At the current rate I'll probably make fewer new memories during the entire rest of my life than I did during middle school.
got lots of money but things are kinda the same, money cant fix ur family you know.
>>221386729Are you Asian or Jewish?
i just realized how old i am
>>221386684No, Polack who came back
>>221386806Oi, m8, fancy a pint?
>>221386766White, shockingly. Family has been in the US since pre-revolution.
>>221386455at your age people already graduated university and starting out in their respective careers, building their portfolios and marrying their long time girlfriends>>221386631at your age people are already climbing the career ladder, starting to get into middle management, taking out mortgages to finance their first house, having their first or second child
>>221386729-White Anglo-26 years old- 80k job-200k savings-Exercise daily-Nice apartment-KHHV. Can’t even make eye contact with women who aren’t related to me.
>>221386584I went through that as well, its probably anhedonia related to depression. Was for me anyway, i found a new spark spending time out in nature and exercising but it was a long and painful process even though I saw it through. Time changes things
>>221387129Dude just do some sex and anxiety therapy with a female therapist, they have specialists for it >inb4 doesnt workNah I did it and worked for me. I lost my virginity at 23 after getting a therapist for those things
>>221387129>Can’t even make eye contact with womenyou see this i dont get, staring at cute women is one of the nicest things in the world, like don't you just find yourself locked in a girls gaze unable to look away for seconds ever? this shit happens way too often to me in the most random places
It's over for me. I'm KHHV and turning 30 this year. I don't even know how you're meant to even meet anyone here. It's impossible to even make friends in Canada because everyone here is so fucking stuck-up and standoffish. Just looking forward to leaving.
>>221387225>sex therapy with a female therapist Do you get to fuck her why not just buy a whore?
>>221387242No, because subconsciously I know this girl doesn't want me and has no interest in me. So staring is just torturing myself looking at what I know i can't have
>>221387306No but you get to talk about sex with a woman which does break down whatever mental barriers you have about doing so with other women over time , who can identify what sources or personality traits you might have to be aware of
>>221387225That sounds embarrassing as hell, but maybe worth a try. I can’t imagine how that would go.
>>22138729330 to 35 is a pretty good place to be as a dude, if you were a woman you'd be pretty fucked though. >It's impossible to even make friends in Canada because everyone here is so fucking stuck-up and standoffishEh, everyone is looking for someone or something. Its better to learn how to be content with yourself and be confident , people will be drawn to you that way. When you have some sense of self loathing or anxiety people naturally avoid you, especially women who are a lot more socially sensitive
>>221387242Went into a pizza shop today and made eye contact with a girl my age for .5 seconds and then looked away and couldn’t look at her again for the 10 minutes I waited on my pizza. Didn’t want to creep her out. True story.
>>221386312it's impossible to "waste" a lifeconceptually, it's a moronic notion if you think about it for even 30 seconds
>>221387073cynical defeatism is boringeach person is living their own life, in their own time
>>221386455Who's gonna tell him?
>>221387507Ok so what is a homeless fentanyl addict doing if not wasting his life?
>>221387400Its supposed to be uncomfortable dude, its just something you need to confront regardless. It was painful as hell talking about sex with a relatively attractive woman for me personally, a part of me really, really hated it but the reason I hated it was the source I needed to work on and eventually I stopped having that aversion to sexuality after working at it for awhile. Lost my virginity almost immediately after I got over that
>>221387496you need to get some social skills man, looking at people is basic social skills, especially when talking to them, and again looking at girls makes brain go nice... we are literally biologically primed to like looking at them so your wiring is off here
>>221387477It's easy to say that in the USA but here all the people are extremely hostile and only interact with their family members. Literally everyone in friendless and the only people having children are immigrants. The only good thing is that my degree is through this year so I can emigrate out of Canada. Be thankful you weren't born in this frozen shithole of passive-aggressive drug addicts.
>>221386312>How badly have you wasted your life in your country?Almost 30's havent be able to get my own place, car or family, i have an end-way job and havent be able to land another job and every single day the fear to be seen as a pervert keeps growing every single day...
I have a stable, decent paying job with good work life balance and several fulfilling hobbies, but despite somehow losing my virginity at 19 I never developed the social skills to interact with women and get a new gf once that first relationship fell apart. So now I'm stuck being the weird but maybe (hopefully?) cool uncle to a bunch of kids but completely without hope regarding heirs or offspring who will take care of me in my old age the way I'm doing with my mum and grandma now.
>>221387548Sounds like a bunch of bull. You got scammed
>>221387687Nah. Lost my virginity, objective achieved.
>>221387640You guys have a higher degree of social capital than we do, the US is not as friendly as you think it is lmao.
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>>221387350why would i pay for that? i can talk about sex with e-girls
>>221387786>E girls Good luck with that buddy
>>221387810they are everywhere if you know where to look. the only difference is that i am not paying to talk to them
>>221387764USA is way friendlier than Canada. Go across the border from BC to Washington, and the people are way more talkative, people actually speak to each other etc. Compared to Canada, Americans are way kinder and way more social. I'm so fucking bitter I had to waste my youth here. If you didn't have your entire social life set up by the time you graduate high school here it's over for you. I stopped talking to people here entirely anyways, because being social here has gotten me fired from jobs, people trying to scam me, and overall gotten me targeted.
>>221387894funny, my dad said people these days are rude compared to when he came in the 90s>t. washingtonian
>>221387843Well then I dont think you have much of a problem that really requires therapy , yeah it would be a waste of time for you
>>221387894>Go across the border from BC to WashingtonOh I see. I live on the border and have been to Alberta and theyre pretty similar to people from Montana in general , not sure about BC. Washington is generally pretty friendly though so youre correct but its not thr same for the whole US
It could be worse, but right now I have some trouble imagining how.
>>221386312Well I am currently having an extremely agonizing toilet visit so I think it could have gone better
Is there a single person in the world whose life has improved since these became a widespread thing?
>>221386517>have near death experience>it makes you even more ok with doing nothing with your lifeLol what
>>221386455nigga it's over
>>221388926I achieved some of my goals not all, mostly revolving around travelling , fitness, and /out/ stuff. Honestly it made be contemplate how much of my life was being wasted trying to achieve some material or academic goals that wouldn't make me any happier and I found contentment just being alive.
>>221386312I do see an issue actually. Dude should have put TV up on fireplace mantle instead of the world.
>>221386312Everyone younger than me has a job, fiancée and a group of friendsI currently have none of these. Also khhv, etc.
>>2213863124 years stalking an imbecile female who's getting fat. Luckily my mind is clear now.
>>221386455anon, I...
>>221386495
>>221386455But will you?
>>221387242being cute isn't enoughand this >>221387496, don't want to make other people feel weird
>>221389400>an imbecile female who's getting fat.Don't they all...What's her favorite snack? Lol.
>>22138631220 years on the rat race and a soon to be unemployable retard
>>221386312I feel like I should give a shit about being a khhv but I don't I am not asexual, but I can't muster the (admittedly minimal) effort to try dating, I spend my days doing nothing and gooning alone if I ever get the desire.It used to make me feel bad when I was 18 but now I can't bring myself to care even if I try.
>>221386517I've had multiple near death experiences and they didn't affect my thoughts in any way.
>>221387073Literally who fucking cares? All of the things you listed are completely meaningless
>>221391486no you didn't
>>221386312>>221386500>>221386517I came to term with how I basically wasted my 20s but also feel a little reconciliation how I also got to avoid the serious life changing pitfalls of my peers (debt, having kids when they weren't ready, getting married to an asshole for 9+ years). I've been basically just masking as a wagie while reconnecting with my family lately but I really need to talk to people my age...
>>221391569High-speed car crash that knocked me out and two accidental drug overdoses.
>>221386455that's what I've been saying for the past 13 years
>>221386312Define 'wasted'I was born autistic so I never had a chance to achieve anything to begin with
Trying to function but I wouldn't rule out a date with a hemlock sprig 10 years or so from now
>>221387350Would that help with my issues? My biggest problem is that I fucking hate women and if I ever date one I'd insist on her being a virgin and preferably around 12 years old.
>>221393868Well you'd do well to convert to Islam then I guess
>>221393954I've been thinking about doing that. Do you have any advice on how to go aboud it, and which country should I emigrate to? Pakistan and Iran seem like potentially good choices since the West doesn't have too much influence there.
>>221391486Its not a guaranteed thing to have a near death experience and come out with a different perspective, but the way I almost died was pretty terrible. I had a complete psychological collapse and hallucinated that my blood was possessed by demons and tried to bleed myself out with a knife and started digging into my wrists with my fingers and ripping bits of my flesh out. I still remember the sensation of literally digging my own flesh out of my wrist and how unclean my blood felt. Kind of didnt have a choice but confront those memories or kill myself after I started regaining my sanity a bit some months later, even immediately after it happened I was so crazy I barely even knew that I mightve died at all. Kind of hard to explain, I didnt really have a sense of self i guess. So you know whatever failures or issues I have now just dont seem as serious anymore , to be frank its a miracle im as functional as I am at all.
>>221386312still have hope i guess. finals are next week and i have one more year of college to go
>>221394101That sounds pretty cool. I wish I had experiences like that, but I'm just boring and stable.
>>221386312On the one hand, I've never had sex with a woman, and my few furtive attempts at sex over the course of my life came to nothing.On the other hand, I'm white, tall, healthy, debt free, and have money in the bank. I have interests that I pursue in my own way, and I am not on the hook for some divorce over some unattractive woman, or for child support to some kid. Or even imagining a happier domestic situation, I feel happy that I don't have to care for others.The thing that doesn't get pointed out in the classic OP image is that above all other things, the living space is clean. I've lived in squalor for a period of years, but that gets old. I even fold my laundry and put it away now, all by myself, just as a simple mastery of personal space, and without real need of others.
>>221386455You can do it anon, I did too. You're still young. Don't let the incels demotivate you
>>221386312No point in whining. If you feel that way make a change. Things can always get worse.
>>221394101cool
beyond words
>>221386455Oh no no no…
I could have gotten into a masonic school in Switzerland, was literally apporached by the principal but i wasted it.
>>221386312Nothing to waste there to begin with as a truecel.
>>221397151true, can you really waste your potential when you never had any?
>>221386455this but unironically
>>221386495trvkenvke
>>221386729just travel nigga
Life is a nightmare when I'm off my meds
>how many of your productive and healthy years you didn't slaved away to the big nosesYeh, you're in the right bucket to ask this question. I may have autism, because I've never saw a point in having money, a wife, friends or even being admired.Of course it would make things easier, but they ask for a price too big to pay for maintaining them.I wish to live like Thoreau, Walt Whitman, Ralph Emerson and Tolstoy. Alone, seeking peace with my existence, finding joy in hardships and manual labour, living and dying on simplicity.No one will remember me, perhaps I won't even have a grave.
>>221387073The avg age for the first child is above 40 for european men, nigger
>>221387515Good post by brazilians, Im surprised
>>221386455LMAO
>>221386495WahrheitsnukeI love my mother but living with her is emotionally draining. Nothing beats the pleasure of coming back from work and just being able to relax without someone nagging/talking 24/7.
>>221386584This. Everything is so tiresome. I can't remember the last time I genuinely felt happiness.
>>221397151>>221397208I feel I could've made something of myself if not for a shitty upbringing. But maybe everyone feels like that lmao.
>>221386455If you've a job to cover enough of your expenses and live in a okish neighbourhood. You're already set for life. Women don't care about whatever job or status you have that much desu.
>>221386312Ive wasted my life big time. I used to be single and free. But then I got married and my wife is going to take all my money. I can't afford to live here anymore so I have to leave and go abroad to some where more affordable
I've seen multiple girls I had a crush on when I was younger get married to men that look like me. I was always too scared to approach them because I thought they were out of my league
>>221386312its over
No one ever reads these. All I feel is shame, embarrassment, disappointment and anxiety. I have built great fortresses made entirely of anxiety and self-hatred. The walls will never come down, I will not talk of this to anyone. I will never accept myself even if I burn in hellfire for eternity. I gave all I had and have no regrets.
>>221401693I didlulchill dude, we're all anxious sacks of meat and water
>>221386455Sure you are.
>>221401693I feel you, mang. It sucks. I wish I'd never been born. It doesn't help (i know that), but you have fellow sufferers. It's shit, but in 60 or whatever years - hopefully less the way things are going - we'll be done for good: death, eternal and immutable. Rest.
great thread
I started turning my life around at 26. Life is a continuous work in progress
i just cant get anything done.
>>221402069I should read it again.
Time lived is rarely a waste of time, you are always learning even when it feels like you're doing nothing, and sometimes you need periods of inactivity to make you a better person.
>>221402069I bought this from amazon because of you, fyi. Ive heard its good from anons here but you finally made me get it
>>221407342That book made me cry.I don't know if you can call it good, but if you are a certain kind of person it will break you.
I think the worst feeling is that I feel like I've never actually done anything to change my life, even though I'm constantly thinking about and constantly replanning. Everyday is exhausting and I feel powerless, and yet I'm not actually doing anything. I look at my whole life and it was just the same day over and over again.
honestly probably alot. i really need to commit to living my life like a persona protag.
>>221411071Literally going through this today. Feeling absolutely terrible and I struggle with the same thing as you.I encourage myself with a Hemingway quote."But man is not made for defeat.A man can be destroyed, but not defeated."
