I had an interesting moment before showering just now. I was naked, in front of a large mirror, and lazily inspecting myself. I've been on HRT for about three months now. There was a bit more breast growth, but other than that, I looked about the same. During that process though, for just an instant, I had a fleeting change of perspective. I knew I did not pass, I knew I did not look great, I knew there were plenty of flaws in how my face and my body looked, but I, for the first time perhaps, managed to see myself not as a man playing at womanhood, not as a man crossdressing, but rather, actually, somehow, as a woman. A woman that had been disfigured and led astray in development by some malignant force or other, but a woman nonetheless. It gave me a lot of hope, even though I know I have a lot of work to do, it was one step against the mental roadblocks I have in the way of seeing myself as a woman in any form. Any similar experiences? How does that go over time? There is hope.
I am not on any hormones. Wanna maybe start. I often look in the mirror and i feel like i look just like a girl, but its fleeting. I hate my voice tho
>>42181378I've had good moments like this but I started to feel really guilty and then really monstrous.So, with that in mind, I caution you to be vigilant of brainworms. Become a woman, nona. Do it for me and those who failed.
never as soon or as diametrically as you, but>How does that go over time? There is hope.yes :) for me it took maybe three or four years to stop feeling or thinking of myself as male. i don't feel female now (over five years) or even like a woman, really, but i definitely cannot see myself as male or a man anymore, at all. it was a very gradual change and i didn't actually notice it happening at all until i had some kind of epiphanic realization that my self-concept had been wildly different from how i remembered for some time.everyone is different, but presumably you will begin to see yourself as totally a woman after some amount of time on hormones.
>>42181849>I hate my voice thoyou have control over your voice right this instant!! voice-train now!!!!!it may be difficult but you have the power to make this change today, no hormones or anything required. i believe in you nona
>>42181378you type like a girl at least
Being anything over 5'10 as a MtF is a death sentence to passing. As a 6'0 tranny my face and proportions still are making me delude myself into thinking ill pass. I still cabt accept ill be a repper for life because I couldnt be anything more than a gigarapehon
>>42180689Im gonna assume your mom isnt mtf, so your argument is out of the window
>>42180139height is only the 4th most sexually dismorphic feature, literally doesnt matter
>>42180139where and when did u get the notion that being taller made you less appealing as a partner?
>>42180139what if im 5'10. am i gonna make it...
>>42180139Smother your man bones in female flesh
This is a thread for:manmoding,repping, or hons who knew of their transness at a young age and did not transition and now you seethe at gigaultrayoungshita who got on puberty blockers at 12 for 6 hours a dayQOTT1: when did you know QOTT2: do you hate youngshits or luckshits more ? And why?
>>42178654>Their experience is objectively antithetical to the transgender experience as we know it. When I see youngshits I feel the same as how I imagine veterans feel when they see meal team 6 clad in stolen valor at the supermarket. It makes me homicidal even.Spittin facts. They didn't have to fight like we did
>>42178940I have been very dysillusoned since I was child, thought my entire family were robots or scientists doing experiments on me I spend most of my time awake chronically journaling I’ve been doing this for maybe 6 years. I’ve been “repping” since I was 5 years old when I became aware of my nature I also have lo key violent thoughts to murder ppl and I virulently hate nonpassing troons (my self ) also I’ve built my life to negate my father picrel is sc with my therapist sorry if I did not explain well
>>42179273All right OP. You seem to be putting it on the line. I can give it a shot too.>QOTT 1We could argue the semantics of "knowing" all day, but I can say I was asking adults what life would have been like if I'd been born a girl when I was at least in middle school, and I remember feeling happy when an older woman said my eyes were too pretty to be a boy's around the same time.>QOTT 2At the moment youngshits, meaning youngshits relative to me being too old to post on this site. That's due to this bias: I have a nephew who has been transitioning into my niece. She is more than 10 years younger than me, which makes me depressingly frustrated since those are 10 plus years I never got.That situation also means I have to be outwardly supportive with my sister while feeling inwardly jealous, and balancing not looking like I know too much about trans whatever.>t. bitter repper in his 30s
>>42180963Damn anon, it’s scary for me being the only queer person in my family but that kind of fucking sucks I would not be able to cope especially with somone who is genetically related like she represents what you could have been:(
>>42175936i got hrt at 14 and im a manmoder. no im being entirely serious, strong jaw, long midface, big brow, 18.5 bideltoid at 5'9, humongous adams apple, like bigger than 95% of cis guys, and permantently masculine face. i say this to try to make yall feel a little bit better. we're not all passoids>QOTT1: when did you know12QOTT2: do you hate youngshits or luckshits more ? And why?i hate them all. its so isolating. i feel like im welcomed in neither community, youngshits or midshits.
My tranny cousin is hot and I feel like that's a problem.
>>42181857Why does this pepe have a super faint circle in the middle? Its tripping me out oh and you should fuck your cousin OP
>>42181857First for have sex with your cousin
>>42181857pls don't be my cousin
It's actually kinda funny how fast the guys calling me a man all day lose their minds when I call them a girl.
>>42179677Gotcha. This all sucks shit though and the meds I was given don't seem to be that effective.
"You sound like an emotional woman" is one of my favorite insults. It works them into a seethe every time
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>>42180361god i wish that were me (either)
>>42180361
ugfreak.to1. Would a product containing multiple forms of testosterone (Cypionate, Enanthate, etc) be more effective than just testosterone cypionate alone?2. What are the best resources for understanding different forms of gear such as Tirzepatide, Nandrolone Decanoate, Trenbolone Acetate, etc.?3. is 100mg/mL, 200mg/mL, 300mg/mL describing the strength of a single dose?Thank you
>>42180243also,don't post website links in your post. try going to sst (a search of sst + steroids should lead you to the right place) and look through some of the offerings. there's a lot of overpriced bullshit/dumbass 'testosterone booster' scams out there.
>>42180243God can you imagine anybody being so ugly? Can imagine doesn't even have a penis.
>>42180586off topic, get fuckedelliot page is a great actor and looks kind of funny, i love him>>42180547>>42180564Thank you
>>42180547steroidswiki has been banned now that i have checked and so i will be looking for its offspring on reddit. unfortunate but there are probably youtube videos or threads on other sites out there. will just put in the effort into finding them, thank you for your honest response.
>>42180674no, i meam the wiki on thw steroids subreddit.
is it easily visible if a guy struggles with his gender?like im cis boy but i sometimes have some non cis thoughts. like nothing serious but like sometimes it makes me feel a bit sad. but i think i have been quit subtle about that irl.however my friend said recently that i would make a pretty girl.like it had barely anything to do with the conversation we were having!!!it basically shut me up completely and i wasnt able to say much to him after that.it was awkward. but the thing that troubles me right now is that could he know something.... like i havent told anything to anyone irl about what i feel about this.
>>42181492>>42181505 is right. a good therapist is hard to find but this is a pretty bad place for self-discovery. you don't sound like you're old enough to be here, anyways...no offense......look for someone who deals with queer patients, specifically. i've been through five therapists in my life, none of whom have had any knowledge of this stuff, and it has sucked lol. it is important to have someone who knows how to help you.anyhow, this does sound like gender dysphoria, not that i'm here trying to diagnose you. just something to think about.
>>42181199I think im in a pretty similar situation as you. Ever since i started questioning my gender i have thought back at my life, trying to see if there were "signs". I complaining about people complimenting my voice (rather deep), i remember wanting to wear feminine clothing. Despite this and more, i dont feel like people see this in me. Maybe i am otherwise too repressed. It dissapoints me
>>42181741Even if you were masc growing up, there might be someone. Both of my partners in high school said it made sense for me to be trans. One of them even clocked me when we dated. But I was otherwise just an autistic, masculine boy who was frustrated with gender roles.
>>42181492yeah you need to do something about thisdo you think it's going to be better in 10 years when you're that much older? you'll just be sadder.but fortunately you can change the future and become a girl by then
>>42181199In my experience it depends who's doing the observing. Most cis folks seem to be pretty dumb when it comes to gender, they just accepted the 3rd grade sex ed lesson of penis = boy, vagina = girl at face value without ever needing to give it any more thought. But there are exceptions, and some are more perceptive than others.>but like sometimes it makes me feel a bit sad.That's gender dysphoria for you. It's right in the name, feeling bad about your gender.>it basically shut me up completely and i wasnt able to say much to him after that.Sounds like it affected you a lot. Why is that?>>42181224First post, best post.Really, OP, you should find a healthier place than here to talk this out. It's important to know who you are.
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>>42175517who?
>about23, femboy/gnc, US, bi>looking forfrens>not looking forchuds, bigots, chasers>about me currently a neet that is very poor, quite shy and introverted but socialable enough to be able to hold a conversation and sometimes touch grass and do things with people. in terms of my interests i play a lot of vidya, i will probably rant to you my new stupid hyperfixation. i like pokemon and other nintendo slop (although mainly emulate), farming sims, yakuza, and some random indies that were cheap on steam lol. i watch a shit ton of youtube, and a bit of twitch and anime, and write sometimes. im not really into music, but i listen to a bit of hip hop, video game/anime music, and vocaloids. i also like basketball and then also listen to a lot of podcasts cause i cant be alone with my thoughts. im austitic and very traumatized, but some find it cute. politics is somewhat important to me and im a leftist, and it is important that while we made not agree on everything, i would apperciate if we held similar morals and values in that aspect. please introduce yourself in your first message!! it helps me out so much when trying to get a conversation going.>discordyaoitrashcan4
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might be the wrong board but screw it>ASL19/M & 20/M, both USA, both Bi.>About us2 sexy cute pale femboy twinks (can show proof eventually), looking for a girl to do an "online threesome" with. Probably just through a discord groupchat. Open to normal convos as well.>Looking forAny kind of cis bio F, preferrably into skinny femboys. Bonus points if you're a fujo or furry but we're not picky.>Not looking forAnyone else.hit us up if you want>Contactdiscord: dreadspiratesrobert (alt acc for obvious reasons)
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can somebody explain to me straight fudanshis? why do they watch gay porn?
>>42180474everything is porn if you can masturbate to it
>>42180539Have you thought that maybe they don't masturbe to it?
>>42181789why do they do it then?
>>42180301Uh for me it was because I was a repressing straight tranny, turns out.
>>42181834Maybe they find the stories engaging?
>cis men dont like mtfs and think we're gross (unless we cispass flawlessly)>cis women dont like mtfs and think we're gross (unless we cispass flawlessly)>ftms dont like mtfs and think we're gross (unless we cispass flawlessly)>mtfs dont like mtfs and think we're gross (unless we cispass flawlessly)There's literally no winning. I rolled the human monster gender
MtFs love twinky boi girl things.Chasers love twinky boi girl things.Poonahs love a near manmoder twinkhon thing.Women love a near manmoder twinkhon thing.Just be lithe and benefit
>>42180936The 2% of chasers don't count im talking about the majorityMost ftms treat us like gross freaks. Most mtfs too. Not even our own people are chill w it
>be me>cis man>looking at a list of the top 25 trans models on OnlyFans >each profile has a face pic of the model that you can click to read about them>ignore 24 mtf faces>my eyes settle on the 1 person my brain finds attractive >ftmEvery single time
>>42180892i think generally trans people are nicer to each other irl. on here its a diff case tho.
>>42180892i am ftm and feel the same way but opposite (i.e. nobody likes ftms). i think almost all trans people feel like this at some point, regardless of their label. fwiw, i prefer the company of mtfs to any other category. especially those who don't pass, as i don't pass either.
>came out at late 20s>started hormones at 31,mid 30s now>I'm tired of feeling like I look like an ogre.>Im tired of watching other people transition and pass me up>I'm tired of everyone getting surgeries done but me done>Im just exhausted, its been going on 4 years and I really dont feel any further along outside of my paperwork I feel like its only a matter of time until the people around me who transitioned in their 30s totally pass me up and leave me in the rear view mirror. They are all on their way to becoming women or are them now and im stuck looking like Fred in a dress from courage the cowardly dogThere are so many days when I think to myself I should have just ended it when I realized repping was a mistake and I'd permanently disfigured myself and probably destroyed any future I had. Don't listen to the desistence bullshit it never gets better it just gets harder and when you finally bite the bullet you are so much worse for it. That kid that couldn't carry the weight and said fuck it and transitioned as a kid, they were right you carrying that burden like syssyphis was incredibly stupid
>>42179808jesus my condolences, was it HRT-related, or did they figure out what it was?and yeah in that case that sounds like a good reason to push for them to give you proper healthcarealso gratz on the hiptiddymalefail, as a chaser I'm all for more passing girls for obvious selfish reasons
>>42179634I've gone a little insane (maybe a lot). People stare at me when I go outside and I wave back at them or smile awkwardly. I'm somewhat of an embarrassment to my family but they are generally accepting of me so long as I dont hon it up too much or date guys. I have no friends or social life so I just go grocery shopping, hiking, look after my pets, etc. My life is mostly uneventful unless a transhobe sees me but I ignore them as best I can. I would like to start a family with someone but no one is interested in me because I dont have anything to offer.I used to not be so jaded early on in my transition because I had hope that I'd eventually pass but no matter what I do over the years it is not enough. Sorry. My advice is to surround yourself with ppl that are a positive influence on you and encourage you to transition and leave manmode/boymode etc. Get out of your comfort zone too, but not at the detriment of your mental health. Idk what else to say without doxxing myself so left some stuff out ...not that anyone cares.
>>42179863Official diagnosis was Myalgic Encephalitis. She started having severe issues about a year into HRT. Personally I'm sure she had something else as well. Maybe multiple sclerosis. Maybe NCAH. She was bedridden for 3 years before dying. And still no idea how I malefailed. I'm a very, very obvious hon and frankly terminally malebrained (it's a pendulum sometimes I'm super fembrained and I love it).
>>42180096I’m too stubborn I fear but I see my self in your future soon my family will never be okay with this, my friends are good but I won’t listen to them I’m so insecure and miserable I guess
>>42178523
What did /lgbt/ get for christmas?
i got a ThinkPad T480, an electric razor, some adapalene gel, a dremel, and a set of craftsman sockets>t. rich grandparents
>>42169200I got raped for christmas and became forced into homelessness again..
>>42181131RAPED? Wtf. What happened…
>>42169200Is this pic ai
>>42170059I need MWAHnon so badly
post desktop ,guess letters
Not home so a phone background >>42180082Gay m>>42177582Mtf>>42177553Mtf>>42175768Mtf>>42175193Mtf>>42175147Bi m
guess mine (very hard)
This actually took far longer than expected to post. Hope you all enjoy. Prob obvious but whatever. You rapehons need more in your lives besides anime, touch grass.
>>42175193My favorite one so far:D
>>42174810cisgay>>42175147mtf bi>>42175768cism bi>>42180082transbian>>42181252transbian>42181294transbian>42181464mtf bi
>tfw Scorpio Moon, the most malebrained moon sign, so I can never be a real girl
>>42176528Genuinely thank you so much for all the effort u put into this, anon. I’d be happy to repay you with a tarot reading sometime if u wanna drop ur disc :3
>>42176528Also just would be interested in general if any of my placements support the fact that I’m trans/a woman, like is there anything there that makes that obvious
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>>42166625all the mtfs talking about astrology in here r gmi that’s like the most fembrained thing to doom about
>>42180764you only think so because you don't know about astrology and therefore don't know how over it can be...
