>To be trans is to sin>Sinners must be punished>To be trans is to suffer>Suffering is punishmentBut is it ever enough? How will I know I've suffered enough to be good? When am I forgiven? >I need to be hurt.>I need to be killed>I need to suffer enough to be forgivenI've become obsessed with the idea of becoming sympathetic and forgiven through having an otherwise good man torture me for being a man who transitioned due to AGP meta attraction. But these thoughts too are sinful, for it's due to my fetish that I want it to be a man. How do I win. Even posting here is a way to induce my own suffering. I don't want to hurt anymore but I don't know how to live in a way that doesn't make me feel worse. I self sabotage and reject anything good because I'm an ugly man who rejected God's plan for my life. Instead of his truth my life is governed by a personal truth where I believe whatever makes me feel like shit.>Be meComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42060477Castrating yourself stopped you from being able to get it up??
>>42060504I mean, it never really worked even before I started taking hrt. The big thing was decreased libido
Women cis or trans are all the same and they all leave
>>42057379I stay but not with you
>>42059183This always hurts the most
>>42057379God I fucking wish I could post like this about my breakup but no it was "objectively the right choice" and "amicable" and "initiated by me"
>>42059209i’m listening.tell me what happened.
>>42059143It's not like they only left me 9 out of 10 times. They ghosted everyone else too
have you ever had a crush on a brother and sister?picrel they are brother and sister
>>42060022i had a huge crush on one girl for all of high school. legit love at first sight. she was cute, athletic, nice, funny, and we had good chemistry. it was different with her older brother. he was smart, athletic, handsome too, but it was confusing since i didnt realize i was bi then. i told his gf at the time (my friend) that i looked up to him and wanted to be like him, but it was pretty obvious that i had a crush on him.they were both really cool, nice people but also way out of my league. their whole family was pretty cool
>>42060022no but i had a thing for a couple
>>42060022Like many previous great men, I am choosing the brother
>>42060356they kind of look the same.
>>42059003fucked like 5 tranny so far all of them had small as fuck dicks like 2-3 inches max. where are all these big dick ones i see in porn?
>>42059422Chasers are gay.
>>42059415there's my chippy
Why would you want the trans girl to have a bigger dick than you? Isn’t that like insanely emasculating?
>>42059390if you want dick just fuck a man, ull probably be more satisfied
>>42059390>believing that porn reflects reality in any way shape or form
straight "romance" : male fantasyyaoi : female fantasyyuri : AGP fantasy
>>42059496what about my favorite video game, Minesweeper
>>42059496>tfw no Microsoft Bobthe absolute most fembrained game/computer organiser/ui and its not even on the list desu
>>42059496That image is malebrained. The brain of a retarded male.
>>42059496>picrelI agree>yaoi: female fantasyWhile most yaoi *readers* are female, the ones who are in for the porn are an overwhelming but quiet majority of males.
>>42060382The porn is part of what is being read though? Women are the ones drawing yaoi porn, making explicit m/m fanfic, and the ones viewing it. yaoi and just drawn gay porn are different demographics
I am a femboy and I want to make myself as cute as possible so I can attract more women so I can make them pregnant with my milk, I want to take HRT so I will be more cute and attractive to women but I’m afraid I might troon out if I misuse the HRT.How can I make myself more cute and attractive to attract women to get the women pregnant with my milk without misusing HRT and trooning out?>pic is me
>>42058511why did you blur it? :(
>>42058511>but I’m afraid I might troon out if I misuse the HRTWhat does troon out even mean in this sentence?Take smaller doses of e and don't take antiandrogens. That should fit your goal(s) of gradually (but slowly) making you cuter without affecting your fertility.Still, do blood tests regularly.
>>42058511You will need to take blood test regularly stop after nips get puffy because your tits will grow otherwise
faggot
>>42058791this is stupid from an endocrinology perspective, stop spreading the microdosing meme
I am in brutal desperate need of someone to make me transition. Not for fetish reasons but because I am so depressed and hopeless and utterly convinced IWNBAW but deep inside I know transition is the only thing that can save me. But I'm too brainwormed to ever do it, and there's no point because I'll never pass and there's nothing feminine about me mentally or physicallyIt's actually just over
>>42060372same. wish i could be a girl but i know it'll never happen. and i feel too agp to transition and be valid.
>>42060385KILL YOURSELF AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARG>>42060372>>42060381YOU ARE WOMEN PLEASE JUST TALE HRT FOR NOW PLEASEEEPLEASE DONT HURT YOURSELVES I LOVE
>>42060391but i don't feel like a woman. i feel like a man with a dirty fetish.
>>42060391I'd just be ugly. I'd make other trans people look bad. I'd make normal people uncomfortable weirded out with my presence. Other trans people make it work and I admire and respect them. But I'm not good enough
>>42060412WHAT DOES THAT MATTERWHO YOU ARE DOESNT CHANGE CAUSE YOU FEEL BAD TODAY>>42060430noone is eveer good enough and yet here we are
Does Milla Jovovich's hairline make you feel better about your hairline?
>>42058284does she tho>>42059115is she tho
>>42058265KEK
>>42059151doomp eet
>>42058265Yes indeed it does. Thank you for sharing>>42058284she doesn't.see:>deepset eyes>square jaw>BROW RIDGE HOLY FUCKING BROW RIDGE>hairline
>>42060397she's 50 now, it's the fate of all slav women to start looking tranny-esque when older
>be bishit tranner>years on hrt, good levels>try really hard to eradicate all traces of male sexuality in myself>still have an intense drive to penetrateHow do I stop this? I'm going fucking mental by now. I want to fuck my bf in the poon while collared and leashed and wearing a muzzle but I have no idea how to bring it up and I know he'd hate it.
>>42060057>>42060139did you not actually read my post
>>42060025Fuck his ass, the ass is one of the least controversial parts, everyone has one, and if he's not a gentleman enough to give his wife that... maybe talking is the most viable solution
>>42060178Maybe I can ask him abt it tonight
>>42060187you'll achieve your goals, anonette, nobody can resist women! no matter how macho or bossy he is, a request made by his own wife is something to think about...
>>42060374I wonder if he'd be more open to the idea after he's had a few drinks. I mean, lots of men want trannies to top them and he's quite malebrained. Maybe that's just wishful thinking
why does it seem like the avg ftm is having a better life than the avg mtf. like even with dysphoria a lot of them dont suffer as much and do bullshit like transman femboys.
>>42051932easier to pass, and among liberal families there's more acceptance for ftms than mtfs imo
>>42056712yeah that makes sense, im glad im in a position in where i could prob pass once estrogen fully sets in. i wish there was a way to make all trans women pass tho. ig puberty blockers is the only way atm
>>42051932the average mtf would rope after one day in this miserable pooner lifeyou do not have the mental fortitude that it takes to be a sub 5'4 (bonus if you're western european where the avg male height for your age is 6'+) dickless babyfaced adult man with adult male desiresit feels like being dangled from a cage while everyone lives their lives around you happy moving on doing thingsand all you can do is watch and know that you will never be the man you could have been because you are a trannysometimes i think i've made peace with it and volcel cope because no one will ever love me as a man but other times all i think about is ropingthe only things stopping me are 1. my family would bury me not cremate me 2. not going to do the 41% meme any justice
>>42059025The average male height in Laos or Cambodia is around your height.And they're surprisingly accepting of trans people.Or at least were last year when I was there.I lucked out on height (just slightly above female average) but thank god for south-east asia or else i would've been hon dosed by the doctors.t. mtf
>>42059025you guys still pass even if u look like manlets.
>too socially stunted to get along with normalfags>too woke for the Chuds>too problematic for the alphabet communityIs isolation my only fate?
>>42050869>too problematic for the alphabet communityUhh no tf you aren't, have you met like any of the transgirls here?
>>42051262I've done this for a decade and a half after my life became hell, that's not comforting. It's been isolation.>>42052580?>>42053134I think I'm a good listener. I haven't met anyone even remotely as divorced from the human experience as me. >>42053761I have nothing in common with them and they crucify me over fiction.
>>42054538You sound similar to me. Intellectually I know that isn't true and if we talked we'd despise one another. The answer is you probably are destined to die alone, with at best a few vermin mildly pleased to see you go. Being an unlovable freak isn't easy and I know how hard it is to try to hide everything about yourself in hopes of being treated to something other than unhidden disgustBut who am I kidding? You're probably just another bdd narcissist in a polycule. Most "people" who claim not to have friends are
>>42050869sameim too gay for the straights sand im too straight for the gaystoo fem for the mascs and too mass for the femmesI guess im just a little differentI guess I just march to the beat of a different drummeran off tempo drummera drummer who can't keep time
>>42058375I'm most certainly not in a polycule.
don't tuck! confront society dickfirst! its the only way they'll come to accept that some of us like our shit and plan on keeping it
>>42057518why tuck for guests though? if they have a problem with you being trans, thats for them to work out. no reason you should be uncomfortable on their account. what about your family? its natural for mothers and daughters to be close, would you be embarrassed if your mother saw you like this?
>>42057518Cute undies
>>42056097i don'ti won't
>>42056665did you sell me weed in gr earlier this week
>>42056665aight respect girl keep your secrets
I wish bossy masculine cis women liked trans women
>>42057480I'm literally dating a dominant, masc femrepper I met on this board.Just try harder desu. Skill issue.
>>42057541Femreppers are men. He will poon
>>42057690>Femreppers are menYou don't seem to understand what a femrepper is.>He will poonI'm 95% sure he will not.Worst case scenario, I have a he/him lesbian bf who is even more masc than he is now. Not exactly a bad thing or something that would hurt our relationship.
>>42057541That a terf
I wish any cis women that liked trans women existed
>got BA>got SRSUrge to dress like a whore is overwhelming
>>42056330how this isnt my experience at all fuck my stupid tranny srsoid life
>>42056330Those tight clothes would look so much hotter if your little girl dick was poking through
>>42056133Same thing happened to me except no BA needed since I got C-cups naturally. Now get a bf to dress up like a whore for Nona.
>>42057763Gross! Not for me. I love my vagina
>>42060074Dress up sexy for a man, and watch him react to me, sounds fun
If gender dysphoria is normal, then why do 49% of those afflicted kill themselves?
>>42057718It's not normal in the same way autism and ADHD aren't normal.Does that mean people with gender dysphoria should be marginalized? No.
>>42057718If you think about it, 100% of them kill themselves, since their actions will eventually lead them to their deaths sooner or later. Really makes you think…
>>42058224Upon careful analysis: it would appear that the woman depicted in OP's image isn't as attractive as initially seemed.
>>42059431>Was giving birth not normalYes. Humans shouldn't exist.
>>42057718How do successful suicides answer self-report surveys?
