Old, Decaying, and Forgotten EditionPREVIOUS: >>40784444QOTT: what type of goddess would you be if you could ascend? example: i would be a goddess that lets hons and john 50s turn into beautiful biological women if they self harm in my name (this is just an example)
>>40810204Funger is suc a mainstay here that I think this is like Ma'habre Given the question ,it may be
>>40810420Mtfg is literally Ma'habre. Thats why I made it the picrel. There is nothing left but darkness and the denizens of darkness
>>40810446Lets go I got it
How the mighty have fallen.
Why does my hand smell like poop wtf
OhayouSleepy Sunday today..also I'm up during the morning! Unusual!
Tell me to kill myself and i'll do it. i'm right there. Please
>>40810842love yourself NOW
>>40810846Stop. Tell me what i want to hear. Please
>>40810849after the rain the rainbow
>>40810851whatever
>>40810842Goon your clitty to sissy hypnos!
>>40810933Nta but can I?
What's stopping me from raping you sissies? Really? What the could a weak little sissy like you do kek?
>>40811167post hairline and gut
>>40811211Do you prefer anal or vaginal sex?
TIL; The pathetic Bookie Rizzle is Englands most abusive man childsnew wonnavy won
kat told me snew has a beard now
>>40811490kat told me mongo cheated on her, verbally and physically abused her, is a rapist, starved her and is a cat fish (much uglier IRL than on pictures)worried is true?
>>40811543I honestly think it's so beautiful to imagine Jelle and Nick having sex. Two naked men cuddling together in bed with little boobs on their chests. Jelle pulls out his penis and rubs it against Nick's butthole. Nick made sure to douche so his hole is clean and there is no poop. Mono enters him. Their two males tongues embracing a long, wet kiss.It's beautiful and always teaches me that LGBT rights matter.Hatred and homophobia have no fucking place in this world.
stfu jfc
>>40811939mono won, nigga
snew rubbing his beard on nicks thigh cuts…. jelle walks in and kills them both and then himself
How're yall this fine navy day? I'm just hangin with my friend Sarah still and eating reeses pumpkins. It's been a very lazy comfy weekend for me I hope yall can say the same
nobody asked terry
erm hi sister I had an idea...what if we all decided to worship chud penises? I think it would fix most of our problems and chuds normally have nice big penises to worship!
>>40813389The people need to know
at what age do you have to start getting mammograms
>>4081401940 springs
>>40814026yeah i'm just paranoid because i'm scared as fuck of getting a mammogram as a manmoder
do you got any mtf friends who are namefluid?
>>40814097You’ve got to be kidding me, how do you even have relationships with people who aren close friends at that point
>>40814128she’s managed to keep the same discord name for almost a year now. i know her dead legal name and new chosen name. i also told them my own legal name. so there is s trust with us.
>>40810380it's not your fault probably. maybe your idea of success needs to change.
>>40814169Live just to spite the people who've wronged you. That was my reason for a while and it got me through till I learned to be happy again
>>40812419What is this
Evening already..
need to help friend inventory parts warehouse with hundreds of parts no idea how we're going to do it
>>40814428Ugh i wish you were rite, my tummy hurts
>>40814502Still no cavities at 56 years old I think I'll be fine
>>40814636Agp are retards
dw everybody, I have just received news that next week will be more productiveI can't wait tbqh
>>40814815Congrats on increasing productivity!!
i hate """love"""
>>40814846it's for everybody carol, you have to make the most of next week and read a lot mhm>>40814859I guess, did something happen?
Hiii idk what to say I'm just posting because I'm tripping on acid rn and I wish I had a cute emo trans girlfriend to share it with so badly like I'm just staring at yuri and longing so hard rnI want a gf so badly and idk how to like contain it anymore help how what do I do :c
>>40815074you can find like 5 here now, how many do you need and for how long do you need them?
>>40814894I've never dated anyone who actually cared about me. I'm just a therapist whore. They don't hesitate to berate or ditch me the moment my sex aversion kicks in or I need some helpJust broke off with a guy I was with. never again>>40814956for real. I'm going to die alone in a trailer in the woods. I'm like Ted K if she trooned out>>40815074I love acid, have a fun trip ^^
>>40814859but you love hate
>>40815186I get it, but don't turn to the dark sidedon't become bitter just cos someone who was never going to appreciate you ended up not appreciating youthat's honestly probably entirely their fault, not yours>>40815239fits me tbqh
>>40815239>shirt size xxxl lolIt's large, not xxxl. I'm only 200 lbs
https://www.youtube.com/live/Xq61_Dc-RXcSHAKSPEIR IS STREAMING
>>40815312is that you or a friend?
>>40815390friend
>>40815186It's been a mixed bag, lots of ups and downs, went from "I'm so pretty now wow young me would be proud" to "Goddamn I'm one ugly ogremoder jfc". I hope you find love anonette <3
>>40815629anxiety is such an obstacle. the most useful perspective I've heard about anxiety is that it's a signal that something is important to us, so it helps us distinguish what matters to us and to take care when approaching those things.
how many days of taking care of a kid does it take to essentially have common law adopted them
>>40816682You're their mother. Don't fiddle them.
>>40816705jesus christ fuck youbut nah this one isn't mineI mean it kinda feels like im their mom at this point but he was born when I was like 16which is crazy young but I guess not far off from when my kiddo was bornhis actual parents are just not really around
>>40816366Yea been there for sure, best bet is to just move on from people like that though. The people to focus your efforts on are the ones that love you enough to give you chances and not freak out over tiny mistakes!
loving sex and making out with mono sesh
>>40816874I love this pic so much
>>40816395Is Monos BBC not enough Kat??? pls don't break jelles heart SHE IS YOUR SOULMATE
>>40816865I've found a few, just takes luck and work.
>>40816911When they were split up, k said m can't get an erection and they're an asexual couple. And that m made k live in a spare closet lmao
>>40816901it's art honestly
>>40816932Why was mono bragging about his dick and how hard he gets it with pills and how much kat enjoys being pounded anally? Just lying like always? Figures I guess lmfao
>>40816962Yeah mono is a cringe retard like Navy, still needing to cling to the idea of being a big cock male stud while literally growing breasts and getting feminization surgeries. Lack of maturity.
>>40816988No way Mines small ugly and Jewish everyone knows rhat
>>40817129You're genuinely psychotic for posting in chasergen and then trying to gaslight people about it a minute later. Your faggy chasergen post even got immediately deleted at the same time as your posts in this thread got deleted. But I don't mind it too much because mono deserves getting cheated on and cucked cause he did the same to you.
>>40817129https://archiveofsins.com/lgbt/search/image/0q1Ze590_64XStrRIhCWUAhuhhh
>>40817073a shekel for a schmekel
>>40816873i don't get to see mine...custody stuff, interpersonal drama nobody here would really understand probably >kidsonly have the one daughter every other kid ive taken care of isn't mine by direct relationsometimes not even by bloodreally I wish I could get a house and just share it with my family and we could all take care of each otherbut things dont work out like thatwe dont get a perfect world we just have to make due with the flawed one we gotanyhow it's rewarding work regardless of the who's who's and why
>>40817366>I literally just looked at it and a ton of posts there are deletedhttps://archiveofsins.com/lgbt/thread/40810204/#40816366Lil bro still lyingyour whiny blog posts ITT also got deleted with your chasergen posts looking for BWC>picthat's not the pic you posted in chasergen tho fr fr
>>40817335Isn't schmekel the name of the money in the world with the big stairs from Rick and morty
>>40817392>IT WASN'T ME GUYS IT WAS.... IT WAS SOMEONE IN PRIVATE THAT I SEND THIS PICTURE TOO!nick you got a track record of getting caught in chasergen looking for chaser cock not the first time not even mongo is gonna believe this pathetic attempt of deflection rip bozo
>>40817485>>40817476Who cares?
>>40817485every tranny spams chasergen for attention blob
>>40817518nta but speak for yourself, I don't
>>40817499remove hayato's cock from the back of your throat for a second and think back to just a few days ago of you arguing with nicky boy about who is cheater and who isn't
>>40817538They call it transbiangen now because it's filled with transbians that soak up attention and ghost when you try to get to know them.
>>40817292You will never escape your master. Understand the grip I have around your soul, your body, your... everything.
>>40817539Posting thirst trap in chasergen to get validation (you)s is normal af we all do it and shed have no reason to lie when it's so normal. This not interesting drama/b8 is all I'm saying
What does it mean if cis women think I'm cute and say I look 17 (when I'm 22) but also say I look tall (I'm 5'9")? Do I have luckshit genes or are they just hitting on me? I've only been on HRT for 2 months.
>>40817557>when you try to get to know them.are you a chaser
>>40817560Hehe
>>40817567they're being nice, could be for a few reasons, maybe it's out of pity because they think you don't measure up
>>40817564>monogamous relationship with mongo bongo>posts in chasergen that she is looking for a boyfriend and dick, asking if anyone is in the EU>lies about it oh sorry forgot you're a cheater too so this is normal for you
>mom's boyfriend of half a year broke up with her because she never changed her facebook relationship off of "single"And boomoids call us snowflakes holy shit
>>40817598Siphoning pathetic chaser attention isn't cheating heh
>>40817602makes me wonder if my fetlife account still exists
>>40817614Then you never got cheated on either! :3
>>40817642Honestly, that's a pretty wise perspective hmm. Something to consider tho ig in private is more meaningful and cheaty to me? Hard to remember the feelings at the time
I streamed movies with some friends today c:Good day
>>40817595But they do it without me fishing for compliments.
>>40817664pity then
>>40817657What movies?
>>40817702A bootleg recording of Book of Mormon, Gehenna: Where Death Lives, and another movie I forget the name of
>>40817560the nose always gets me. every time
>>40817722have you seen Friday?
>>40817678I don't think so lol
>>40817917you have much to learn about how women do social interactions
>>40817937Thank god tranniez are autistic failed men wearing girl clothes and not women
>>40817958don't crash out sweetie
>>40817937then why have multiple girls told me I'm cute and I look young
>>40817917it's a funny movie but sort of scary
>>40818105consolation>2 months hrtare you out to them
>>40818179no they're literally just random women I've met once or twice. One of them seemed genuinely surprised when I told her I was in college.
video games....suck
>>40818314have you played forza with a ffb wheel?
>>40818325nope not into racing games
>>40818314Play fantasy life 2 the girl who stole time
there's something wrong with me but i'm not sure what yet, need help but don't know where to get it, need a job, but don't have any skills, i'm lonely and touch-starved but i'm too mentally ill for someone to love mekms feels inevitable
>>40817883No, what’s that about? Right now am watching this really weird Chinese movie about like there’s like a bandit guy who is betrayed and then ends up amnesiac and he becomes a monk and like also there’s stuff with a monastery and his old bandit gang and they’re trying to steal the great seal of ChinaIt’sReally trippy and confusing
Why'd I have to be born in this shithole country...
oh god i had no idea i spend that much money wtf
>>40818605>lyft, delivery food, subscriptionsno wonder you retarded millennials keep complaining about money
>>40818605Bet it's mostly the delivery. I started just goin and picking up my food I don't cook myself and it's insanely cheaper. Also started using plex and pirating everything again. Fuck the corpos
>>40818629i hate millennials>>40818645it takes 2 seconds for it to read my statements
Damn avocado toast eating millennials
>>40818682yes. i also use it to see if my tiny white pecker is really small according to peer-reviewed sources
>>40818682i didn't realize how much i was spending on delivery and lyft it's a hassle to tally all of it up also constructive criticism is helpful it's like if i sent my parents my statements
>>40818523what happens if they get the seal?
>>40818671Paste eating Welsh zoomers
>>40818721Oh it just finishedWell they wanted to sell it for money igThe chief mc guy got ahold of it but then the old monk died and encouraged him to become a real monk during that and so the chief mc guy then felt bad and then his ex gang in cahoots with the British kidnapped a local village and tried to ransom them for the seal but then the two remaining monks and the mc guy fight them and then an army of warrior monks from elsewhere deus ex machina the ending and then the mc guy throws the seal into the sea so that people stop fighting over itAnd then takes a bunch of religious vows
>>40818746sort of like lotr
>>40818750are you ok?
>>40818711lil nigga. its kinda common knowledge that delivery services and lyft are kinda pricey. subscriptions? idk what that’s for but you do a lot of tech gizmo autismo shit which is kinda pricey in its own right
>>40818750You’re honestly getting better. Keep drawing. Once you git gud enough, maybe you’ll finally get over your ex best friend and stop being a mentally ill retard
>>40818758But Chinese ig
>>40818216yes anddo they also say you have nice hair?
While I was injecting into my thigh I started getting pain in my lower leg. Did I hit a nerve or something? I obviously stopped and picked another site which didn't cause any pain, but now I'm worried that I hit something or was accidentally injecting air into a vein.
>>40819084you’re going to fucking die
>>40818808yeah you're definitely improving.
>>40818711I mean owning a car is probably more expensive unless you need to drive 5+ days a week. And delivery kinda evens out because nowadays it's more expensive to buy ingredients and spend hours cooking and cleaning
>>40818750Is that fucking Negan lmao
https://youtu.be/EvkcJ1k5rT0One of these types of nights, I wish tomorrow would never come
I know a trans women from Florida who is Cuban and her family owns a mansion that is being seized from the state because her uncle is a drug lord.
so you're saying there's gonna be a vacant mansion in florida soon
>>40819687maybe it's an archetype
i'll never be able to afford ffs and that's ok
>>40820680u scared me nigga stop posting that shit
I need advice I've wanted to transition for for almost 5 years at this point when I started being real with myself. I'm around 6'6 with a feminine build/hips and boyish facial features and have been called pretty before and I didn't even start growing little facial hair until 24 I'm 25 now. My main concern is not being able to voice train because trachea damage that I'm still trying to get looked at. Is it worth it to still try and transition or do I just cope and live vicariously through a tgirlfriend
>>40820822>6'6>thinking anything is femininelol, lmao even
>>40820920underweight twink would get mistaken for a girl in pfps with my face no filters, jealously is a disease get well soon
>>40820979I wish I was 6' 6". Not trans but I think it would be neat to tower over people like that.
>>40820979pictures do not accurately reflect how giant you are
good night everyone, I think I'm finally done with this shithole
>>40818968my mom did
>>40820979My guy, my dude, you are a fucking 6'6 ogre. There's not a single piece about you that is feminine. Simple as.
>>40821203>my guy my duderather be an ogre than a bandkid
if you're gonna be massive, at least be funny
wish I had motivation to finish even one of the dozens of unfinished and unplayed games
>>40821264It's funnier knowing you're not even a passoid
ayo we got a 6 foot 6 nigga in this bitch acting like they can pass if they trooned? i'm weakkkkkk bruh i'm WEAKKKKKK
>>40820822nobody is going to be able to live your life, and you can't live yours through someone elsethe fact someone else might be more feminine isn't going to put you at easeI'm not saying things won't be difficult, but if you're sure, then what choice do you really have?
>>40810204So apparently some trannies online are upset that people who are in the closet IRL but very much openly trans online are stealing valor or some shit.That's honestly really dumb because there are so many people who are trans but not obviously so. Like, obviously the stealthoids. Boymoders who look like women count for this too. And the closeted manmoders, do their experiences not matter?It just seems like such an asshole thing to say. Like the only trannies who matter are the honmoders
I can play tic tac to on my arms rn
>>40821713I guess, but reductionism and equivalency of lived experience isn't nice eithertry reconciling it while not being horrible towards one group or the other
>be me, closeted boymoder>meet someone, introduce myself with male name>they know I'm LGBT right away and ask me about pronounsFuck
im still wearing the bra
>be me>go pee>piss is a masculine shade of yellowFUCK
>>40821953Bro yellow is a girl's color. Are you a girl or something
>>40821953at least it's not red, right?
>>40822009You think my yellow pee is girly?>>40822021Yeah, that'd be scary... Then I'd really be manly...
>>40822030have to get the balance just right, just enough hydration and kidney disease to make it light pink
こんにちはI awaken
damn itif that had posted just one second later...
>>40822221My condolences
How come trannies are never cute or attractive like cis girls?
>>40822793cause we ain't real girls dawg it's not that complicated
Making soup again :D
>>40822809But even in terms of personality, you can at least act like real chicks even if you don't look like them
>>40822993*fart and poop on you*
>>40822062Whatever happened to the pissing blood anon?
>>40823528whoever hasn't leaked a lil blood hasn't lived tbqh
>>40823548Pedro stfu
>>40823566sounds like early onset dementia is taking hold
oh, ohI'm jonesin'for a bonin'yea yeagive me a knife cuz I'm a ronin
>>40810204funger funger funger
>>40824132Go watch some sissy hypnos or something. Freak.You aren't an anime girl.
>>40824164i prefer a recommendation for a painless method of suicide
>>40824424dying in the arms of your beloved
>>40822870what kind? I might make some today if I feel better
McDonald's or innout?
i’m so fucking hungry. me and my gf haven’t eaten much in a month bc she doesn’t get paid until the end of the month. im loosing my curves, sisters. its never been so over…
>>40824488both are mid. I watched reviewbrah sip a blue and pink milkshake from McDonald's so get that
>>40824424What would you do if you got raped and ended up getting boypreggers?
cis bi guy hereI would date a trans women, but they need to be super muscular. I want to be ridden into oblivion by their neovaginas in the same way cis female bodybuilders did to me.
>>40824433>of your beloved ones gone, like tears in rain...
>>40824586
>>40824508ok I'll report back with my review
fard
nothing sorts me out like a fag and a diet coke. lush. looking cute today too and it's sunny. it's been a lovely day
Test
The waitress at the Indian place put her number on a card, so I'm guessing this means I'm getting even more handsome. Hru troonsexuals doin today? Good i hope :)
>>40825756don't say it like that, it's gross ...I'm doing well, still taking notes from le deuxieme sexe, hbu?
>>40825814Sounds fancy, I as a simple country boy do not know what that is. Am doing well though, considering buying a small parcel of land by one of the local rivers so I can camp ansld kayak a bit easier.
>>40825859ugh! surrounded by country bumpkins! nah it's just an old book by an old french lady in the 1940sland sounds nice tho, you can have like animals on it and stuff, then get up early and watch them wake up
>>40825947I might get enough for animals but I think at most I could have chickens. Definitely gonna plant some fruit trees though!
>>40825756>Hrui am doing good! i took the makeup stuff i learned and put it into practice today. i looked really good i think. i went to a bbq with some people i've known since i was a teenager. including an old friend who is now a mom. i spent most of the afternoon playing with her 4 year old. we played spider man and he couldn't remember my name so spent all day calling me 'her' which i thought was funny. then on the way home i stopped for a drink with two strangers i ran into which was weird but a lot of fun. it has been a lovely day
>>40825962like a lemon tree for sure, maybe a goat or a rabbit>>40825967hey that's wonderful, are you going to see any of them again soon?
>>40826006the strangers or my old friends?well i just moved city to somewhere my old friends live. i have a weird relationship with them (in the way transition often leads to) so its been nice reconnecting. they seem to want to keep that going. im going to do karaoke with a couple of them, and they said they'd invite me to their regular board game night thing. so yeah!if you meant the strangers they said i should go back to the bar i met them at to say hi sometime so maybe i will as i've not found my new haunt here yet
>>40826071wow that sounds amazing anon, I'm happy for you, you've got a whole new life coming togetherit sounds very exciting
>>40826188aye its cool! not the first time this has happened this is now 'whole new life' for the third time h-ahayou get better at it each time tho and i have a nice apartment now so feeling more positive about this one :)
>>40826224ahh yeh, sounds wonderfulI mostly just go from meh to meh, but it gets me around and where I need to be, y'know?
>>40825967Sounds like a good one anon, I'm happy for you. Fingers crossed your days continue to be filled with fond memories>>40826006I was thinking like an apple tree, a pearl. A cherry and maybe one other. Will prob be like 1 acre at most
>>40826324Pear*
>>40810204I want to be a woman but at the same time I realize im completely male socialized I dont act anything like a woman, I dont socialize like a woman, I dont have interests that women generally have, I dont know the first thing about being a woman. I wouldnt fit in socially at all even if by some miracle through HRT and surgery I "passed" I even doubt thats possible at the point I am in life.Should I just put this to the furthest corner of my mind and forget about it? These feelings wax and wane right now theyre strong but sometimes I can forget about it. I have taken HRT in the past idk it made me calm inside but didnt fix how I felt if that makes sense.
its nice to read that others can still find happiness and move up in the world makes it easier to leave the world to those that deserve it. its bittersweet but my world has lost its colors, i hope the next one will be prettier. maybe ill be a rainbow, just there for a moment but full of colors that would be nice. people remember pretty rainbows.happy for you all
>>40826495Depression can be addicting ngl, but it's possible for anyone to get better, improve, find happiness, etc. You are not an exception i promise silly anon. If I could dig myself out of my misery anybody can
>>40826324>>40826366oh yeah, I guess you could eat apples and pears too, and pearls would make you p rich ngl>>40826452idk, nobody can really take responsibility for that except you, and it's like you also have to learn to accept things might not be perfecteveryone is different of course, but who can really say, and only you know what is acceptable>>40826495stooooop!! don't do it anon! don't give up! don't fall into a pit of darkness!! grit your teeth, struggle and push yourself up, don't give up! even with the taste of blood in your mouth you should never stop!we were all going to fake it all until we make it remember? everybody was supposed to make it so don't give up, you have lived this long, you have to become the queen of lies and put on a smile and fight back the tears!keep going and someday, don't know where, don't know when, but your struggles against fate will surely make you sparkle and shine bright and then you will be like rainbows too! never give up until you can see that distant scenery of the promised future...
>>40826764Dang that was some beautiful advice you gave to anon. Good on ya
>>40826764But I could be worse off if I transition because I wont fit in as a woman, Im not socialized as one. I act more like Beavis and Butthead despite wanting to be a girl. I just hate feeling like im not being true to myself..also theres not really a go back option, once you have boobs and stuff you kinda have em for good
>>40826764i tried nona but i was not made for this world, its people i don't belong here and im tired, tired of this tug of war between the search for a little happiness and the overwhelming force of dread and loneliness sometimes you cant win, you got to let go and hope things will be different on the other side
I hate when I'm concentrating on something and there's sudden bursts of noise and my concentration dies T_T
>>40827042what were you concentrating on carolfren>>40826324ty! i hope so too>>40826314icic, well i hope you find the next step is meh to nice! sorry random one but is this mariemoder?
>>40827693>for freea full time employee of the fbi i wouldn't exactly call it free labor
>picObviously you do. This isn't even "humble" bragging, just outright bragging. Fuck off.
Postpaid cell service is such a scam
>>40826845Nobody here has been "socialized as a girl".
hey does anyone have experience with corset trainers? im looking to get into rib binding so if anyone has any advice (like, is it worth buying name brands or will aliexpress ones work) it would be greatly appreciated.
>>40828867you should buy name brand for the material. cheap ones make you break out. might as well give yourself costochondritis in style
>>40829632Half of these words cease to exist when you unplug the internet
>>40829720ur too realitypilled should be more doomer hikki neet goblinmoder
i want to build a 90s gaming pc
>>40828867Need real steel boned one specifically for waist training but they do work
>>40830069you can still do it
>doomer hikki neet goblinmoderyou called?
>>40830090everyone cares about arbitrage these days when i was a kid i could go to the recycling center or the flea market and find pentium 2/pentium 3 era parts for practically free as well as crts. i had like 10 pentium 4 optiplexes, apparently even those are now in vogue... now it costs just as much to build a new pc as it does to build a vintage one. is it really worth it? not really imo. >>40830098isa
>>40830089what brand?
awhile ago I posted about my mom dying in the hospital from substance abuse issues. despite the doctor's saying it was over she survived. she's not ok at all but she's alive. idk why im even coming here to say this nobody cares but I guess im happy she survived it and wanted to tell someone
>>40830404What Katie did
This is a satire post @ law 3nforcement. Just me being silly. I am just pretending. after some trial and practice i think i got it right now.fuck the tranny curse, the loneliness, the abuse PTSD, the abandonment. s@nctified su1cide ligature strangulation im out, unknown tranny nobody will miss signing out. Apologies to the Hotel staff tomorrow.
>>40830661Wouldnt you rather like talk about it with someone? I can be an ear for you anon.. I know I'm basically the most hated person here but I promise I'd listen.
How should one dose enanthate to maximize estrogen but minimize boobs? I think 5mg/week is too much
>>40830740>maximize estrogen>minimize boobs pick one
>>40830661i hope you changed your mind
I have detransitioned and it feels better than failing as a hon, but I still feel like I absolutely wish I was a woman. But feeling better about myself going around acting and presenting fully masculine again makes me wonder if I was never actually trans to begin with.
>>40832227ur a full whole serving size nigga then. why u here lil bro?
>>40832356Most of my adult life was spent as a transwoman but now that it's over with, I have no idea who I belong with or where to go, so I kinda just defaulted to posting here while bored. I guess it's not really my place now. I dunno, anon
>>40832227never detransition
>>40832385It feels like a weight lifted off my shoulders, though. I no longer hate myself and my appearance, even though I still am not happy with it. There's no more staring in the mirror in horror at how bad I look, now it's just a distant dislike that I accept. There's no more anxiety whenever I go out, I can laugh again with strangers that make conversation with me every now and then without feeling like I'm about to have a panic attack. I don't know anyone that's felt like this and it doesn't seem normal to feel this good to detransition. Most people get more depressed, right? I'm doing better, I just don't know why. I clearly still have the woman habit of talking about myself too much though.
>>40832227Same, we are the truest of moders now.
>>40832413I have not done my injections for a week and I already hate how I look so much more - but then again... boobs...
>>40832427I didn't get any of those even on injections. HRT did almost nothing after 5 years even though my levels were always good. I never once felt any euphoria or whatever. It's been like a year since I've taken HRT. I'm covered in hair. It just doesn't bother me much anymore. It just felt like I can't polish a turd, that there was no possibility to feel good about my appearance or presentation as a whole being built the way I am. There was no outfit or makeup that made me feel good, even passing in public didn't feel good. There was just no point.Why do you not want boobs?>>40832418I'm sorry you didn't make it.
>>40832413is this what having a weight lifted off your shoulders looks like at 3am on a weekday?
>>40832465Compared to what I was like before, hell yes. I was ready to kill myself most days of the week, and now I don't even humor it.
>>40832413>I clearly still have the woman habit of talking about myself too much though.No dude. Thats not a women thing. You’re either a self-absorbed drone who yaps non-stop or an autist who talks too much. You were never trutrans who have an indestructible delusion that they’re women. You’re just a dude who faced the truth and accepted the responsibility of having to live with your original inherent features. Congratulations
>>40832427>>40832418>>40832490>>40832488take the medicine and stop being retarded
>tfw voice giga-passoid that people fawn over when they know me over discord voice chat even though I'm shy and don't talk much, I trained my voice really well>tfw body semi-passoid but ruined by chronic health issue that's making it impossible to gain weight>tfw bridge troll ogre goblin faced gigahon with bone structure that could be fixed by FFS if not poor as fuck but horrible skin despite doing everything right and currently having clear skinWhy did my parents do this to me
>>40832527It's a test from god
>>40832527why are you blaming everyone else for your problems? you estrogenized failed males always do this. im not surprised that homosexual low test males like you seek escapism via tranistion rather than facing the music
>>40832557I'd be ugly as a man or a woman. I'm too short and too feminine framed to be successful as a man and my ugly face doesn't help either. Taking hormones at least stopped the acne and hair thinning which is an improvement. At least I can go out in boymode and not feel like I wish I would die literally on the spot. The way I'm treated by other people significantly improved after I was on hormones and just reinforced my belief in lookism. The most important thing in this world other than money is being beautiful and the two can go hand in hand. Being beautiful leads to getting money, and having money can lead to being more beautiful. I have neither.>>40832548Why
>>40832575you’re just another incel moid who fell into the incel-tranny pipeline. nice. just what this shitty board needs
>>40832575Who knows the mind of god?
>>40832413i think you are not describing something positive so much as the absence of something negative but you know that. like this is not a 'good' situation for you, so much as its just a relief from the stuff you were struggling with as a trans women. which from what you gather seems to have been poor self image, anxiety, fear, stress. all very understandable and relatable. but also all things that can, with persistence and effort, be worked through. i suppose with that in mind this to me comes across as picking easy relief over the long term, difficult work of building self esteem and resilience. and i wonder if repression (because you are a repper now) will eventually feel painful once the relief from your suffering wears off and it becomes mundane.i worry for you anon because if that happens you'll have ended up cooking on T more and so the self acceptance and such will be a lot harder should you retrans
>>40832575are you an actual transmaxxer thenweird
>>40832649you sound like a delusional man on estrogen. most guys who detransition tend to hate it. I know most of you trannies hate detransitioners because the concept of detransitioning invalidates your delusions. sorry but the world isn’t black and white
>>40832610No I'm not bitch, I've wanted to be a girl since I was literally single digit age and couldn't understand why I felt that way. I literally would try to change my voice even back then to sound more girly and cute. Everyone thought I would be pretty when I was little too but they were fucking wrong.
>Everyone thought I would be pretty when I was littleum wat
>>40832686despite everything you said before, you start backtracking the moment you’re caught red handed. its over, lil bro. now, we know you’re a short incel loser moid who fell for the pinkpill. just confront the truth and accept it
>>40832714That shit pink pill red pill black pill shit didn't even exist when I first started transitioning and taking HRT, but go off being retarded if it helps you feel better.>>40832696They said how beautiful I was and would be and so on. Shit like that. How all the nurses wanted to hold me when I was a baby because I had a full head of blonde hair and big blue eyes.
>>40832666>it would be a shame for you if you repress and john 50yeah such a weird delusional thing to think. you are clearly also a repper or some other form of tranny who was not brave enough to get over herself and do what needed to be done. you are content with feeling miserable and taking it out on trans girls who made it. pathetic and i look down on you. every day you look a bit more like your dad
>>40832636Well I wish God would let me be happy at least for some of my life because I don't know how much more suffering I can take. Like I feel like I need a miracle at this point.
>>40832725>OOOOO IF YOU GIVE UP YOULL JOHN 50 OOOOOOyup, thats typical black and white autistic thinking. ever thought that transitioning isn’t simply for everyone? not surprised that line of thinking surprised you because you’re an autistic man pretending to be a girl
>>40832747how long did you last before you detransed anon? does it hurt? >ever thought that transitioning isn’t simply for everyone? yeah i know. its not for those too weak or cowardly to go all in. some of us are less pathetic and make it. couldn't be you i guess. sad!
the funniest thing is its not even that hard it just takes time and persistence. it really is telling on yourself to be like this anon >>40832764. shows how weak of character you are. i can be sympathetic to those who find it too hard but keep it to themselves. but god imagine being like this guy. imagine aging into looking like your father because you were too scared to do your eyebrows lmaooooo>i feel bad doing girly stuff :(weak willed
>>40832764>he resorts to sarcasm for being called out on his autistic male thinking >he doesn’t try to disprove my point eitherLOLLLLLLLLL
>>40832789im not being sarcastic, im saying very genuinely you were never going to make it because you are worse than me. see >>40832773
>>40826803nah I kinda suck tbqh>>40826845I guess... I never had much choice, I'm like the vampire lestat something about a choice I never had tbqh>>40826972please don't say that anon, I will not know how to find you in the next life to make sure ur ok, I am not good at that sort of detective work, so it's gotta be this life that we can talk to each other don't ever give up>>40830661nooooo anon please don't stop posting! we will never become friends this way, please don't ruin our friendship... I am praying so much rn please funpost tomorrow or today ig>>40830740iunno, you get them after a few weeks, but maybe that was due to the immune condition...>>40832227>>40832413wow what a story!>>40832725>>40832747I support everybody, everyone can identify as any age they like, I'm like 56 tbqh
>>40832867are you cute?
>>40832898of course not, I'm very old
>>40832903wait you're not mariemoder?
>>40832867hey kirakishou . how do you feel about the feeling that you get inside of government institutions and bureaucratic buildings. do you think it's a different kind of feeling from the standard corporation. for me there is always a visible difference. also can you post your phone number? i want to sign you up for one of my favorite message hotlines so that you can call and check it out, but they're closed for public calls and you have to register. after you post it i'll add you on there and then you can call. (270) 301-5797
>>40832909iunno what that means anonypie ~<3
mannnnnnnn i had chipotle for dinner and it was pretty yummy going down but i am absolutely paying the price for it rn. been on leak mode, bussy straight brown pissing for the past 1-2 hours many trips god damnit
>>40810204a lazy goddess that does nothing but watch anime and play video games
>>40832968oh! sorry. i am the anon who moved city and was talking to you about makeup. i thought you were another trip called marie but im not sure why. i think for a small while she had a trip that starts with a k and i got confused lol. are you actually that old? how long have you been transitioning nona?
>>40832967what! I don't really know about working the phones...I find that I am quite suited to institution life, such as for example analysis and unspecified diplomatic duties>>40833036aww anon I am glad you have a lovely dinner, but sorry that other stuff happened to you...>>40833050oh, yes, it's all quite confusing, we are all shades and figments of identifies that coalesce for but a moment and then fade away...I am quite old I find, and my biological age is thru the roof, and my tissue can age ten times as fast as normal!!! how cool is that?!I was built for perma old age!
hip and lower back pain never going away just kill meeeee
talking to my grandmother in her 90s on the app, then someone she knows looks over her shoulder says hi and says I'm beautiful...
>>40833362Shoulda whipped ur pp out and asked how fem it looked
>>40833397but how? besides I was raised catholic so I am repulsed by your humor, hmmph!!
>>40833418yeh u don't pass hon
>>40833443aww if u say so, hru anon?
>>40833449Jesus & God both hate you for the mockery you've become.
おはよう :D
>>40833519aw no they don't, they're pretty nice dw we're coolI've got pews upon pews of franciscan monks praying for my success and healthby the power of infinite poverty and prayer, infinite compassion and humility, infinite peace and forgiveness, I literally cannot fail or falteron the day of my judgement I've got a nice spot reserved with the philosophers and we'll all have some teatee hee hee~!
>>40833632wait a second... it's not morning for you!
>>40833675yeah but I'm just getting upso its basically morning
>>40833681oh carol... in three and a half weeks you will be back to normal at least...
>>40833725why 3 and 1/2? :o
>>40833733I have calculated it, if you keep getting up a lil later eventually you will loop back around... I am a genius...
Farts smell extra good today yay :)
i have decided to claim my birthright and chavmax
one of those days where i miss being able to jack off and cum
does anyone have this meme of a propoganda poster where bayonet-fixed kalashnikov's are stabbing parachutes which represent psy-ops?was posted ages ago and can't find it in archives :/
>>40834732yeah i got it
>>40834652I woke up with an erection, again
Do you have good bussy?
ok this time with soup makingI think the tofu hasnt broken up yaaay
>>40834981horaayyyyydid you try the firmer one? :)
>>40835192I put the tofu in at the end instead of at the starttho I kinda wish Id done the frying it thing..
>>40835212ah! yes this is very important especially with softer tofu. braising it is good yeah, you can get the edge rly crispy. and when its crispy like that it soaks up liquid rly well, which is nice for soup
Why are trans "girls" so bad at cooking? Arent women meant to know how to cook?
>>40835422im a great cook tyvm. i'd give your mum a run for her money
>>40835422I'm not that bad at it T_T
>>40835658you're literally learning and for your age cook way better than most, cis girls included. so don't worry
>>40835784Most cis girls I've met enjoy cooking and have already learnt how to by the time they're adults
>>40835801and carol knows how to cook and enjoys it too? like shes improving just as anyone does with any skill through their entire lives. pipe down you donkey you're making a fool of yourself
>>40835784How old is carol?
it's official I've wasted 25 years of my life to the day :')wut do i do now frens?
Hey gals! Just came home from spending a few wonderful days in the Netherlands with Mono and Kat. Things are much better in person than boring internet drama would make you think.My favorite memory happened on the second day when Mono invited me into the living room.She sat naked on the couch, stroking her erect cock. Next to her sat Kat, trying to hide her penis, but I could see she had a powerful boner."Come, join us. We are gooning our lesbian woman clitties."She didn't have to tell me twice. I sat down and so the three of us started stroking our dicks.
>>40835422maybe I suck completely idkbut my christmas dinner went well enough last year my families trusting me with it again this yearfeels like a good sign as far as anything can be
>>40836784I thought they're German
how do u girls farm attention on twitter
>>40837084meds
Naz go raise your kid. Stop being a deadbeat dad
>>40836744Happy birthday Naz!! You can now listen to this song!! https://youtube.com/watch?v=6vJsyCmvQAI
>>40837771thank you anon :>gud tunes, it's been a nice day todayfinishing the owl house then I'll probably watch even more cartoonswud go out if I could but not a bad settle desuit's comfy
