Why not be an effeminate gay men without hrt?

>>40883445
literally me except I'm BVILT

I only live because I feel bad about my kefir grains and sourdough starter dying soon after me

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>>40883421
>QOTT: when did you give up your hopes for transition?
I'm still transitioning privately, but as for being openly a trans women? yeah, that's not happening. I gave up when I saw the Charlotte post on xitter, seeing how cissiods reacted for it has forever scarred me.

>>40883421
qott: I don't think I ever really had hopes for it since I didn't internalize anything until way too late
>>40864729
still need someone to do this to me

>>40883463
Kinda hot don’t you think - looks like tarzan - talks like jane?

>>40883421
It has a lot to do with when our culture is at now. To be honest I don't know if I really believe in it either.

>>40883562
LONDON
O
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>>40884051
american unfortunately :(
i really liked london for the few days i was there, need to go back

>>40883421
take your HRT, retards

Why is femrepgen so much more popular than this one?

>>40884707
female privilege

>>40884731
you're not wrong
men are icky beasts, deserving of death.

I want to play a ttrpg but I worry it'll be weird if I make a female character

>>40884731
I honestly don't see this as true.

i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry

>>40883445
I see the wanting to be a woman and wanting to be feminine as two different dreams. But you know, the truth is that the world just fucking hates feminine people in general.

>>40884933
absolute cope

>>40885015
fems aren't people tho, simple faxx ppl (male ppl - as i don't want to insult you all)

>>40885128
Yea I know. And I guess it's funny to see even gay men and most of the LGBT community also say that shit. At least you're fucking honest though

>>40885296
*hug*

>>40884707
probably because they actually talk to each other rather than posting "going to kill myself" once every few hours
>>40884461
no
>>40884786
would it be with irls or something online? I've never played one but I doubt it'd be a huge deal

>>40885015
feminine women are not hated at all...
men are hated for being feminine

>>40885312
They both are. You don't get it.

worst possible case scenario finally happened
an irl came to me of all people for trooning advice
i mean i guess i'm kind of the best person they could have asked considering how fucking retardedly autistic i am about this shit but like ffs

>>40885345
women aren't hated at all - except cuz of how they act

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>>40884461
Why? Give me a logical argument for a 6 foot tall, broad-shouldered man with no hips to inject estrogen, even though there is no chance he will ever look anything like a woman.
The most logical solution is to just be a feminine man, without trying to change what is impossible to change. It sucks, but it is what it is.

>>40885372
to stop further masculinization as you age and alleviate your dysphoria, because the alternative is to rot and let it get worse over time

>>40885353
do they know? i genuinely can't imagine someone coming to me for advice irl because it wouldn't make any sense

>>40885379
annoyingly, yeah
attempted social transition a few years ago but a lot of shit happened and tl;dr i've been repping (again) for a few years
thing is, though, i'm not necessarily detrans - i still *want* to, it's just not a good idea for me to (and i'm kind of still reeling from a lot of the stuff that happened)
i mean i don't mind helping them with it or whatever but ffs i wanted to put all of this behind me and pretend to be normal or something

>transition
>become awful ugly hon
>rep
>eventually snap and become a john 50
>kill myself
>become statistic
i feel bad for the trans community because no matter what i do i can't avoid making them look bad

>>40885394
that blows
you'd figure that if they knew all that shit happened they'd also know you wouldn't really want to talk about it

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>>40883421
this general is so depressing all the time. holy.

Watching shorts youtube gives me dysphoria

No not like that
Watching... Watching watching anything gives me dysphoria

Like there isn't any cure
It is over
Dysphoria is forever with me
I'm build like gay faggot My mind gay faggot
I look like total gay faggot
my view of life is gay and probably fake

It's over never even started
Dysphoria is for life with me


>when did you give up your hopes for transition?

When im realised that im broke loser and can't afford aesthetic life of a goth girl
When I realised that I live in war shithole
Without friends and hated by everyone

Irony there is visible war in this country like 3+ years and nobody from my family dead or get hurt
I hate this generic boomers idiots so much like hell
years nothing happened fuck
I probably die sooner

fuck this fucking planet

Lol

>>40885451
i think i might be one of the only people they knew they could ask about anything like this tbdesu, but even so, i'd have thought they'd have picked it up or something. then again they're really spergy ig
like i say i guess i don't mind helping them with it but that's more because i don't really care about the fact that it'd cause me discomfort or whatever. lol from a certain perspective it's pretty funny tho

>>40885488
omg yea it is funny, like hey I know you tried that and fucked it up so any tips for me to avoid that

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>>40885376
>to stop further masculinization as you age
I feel like at this point it's better to just surrender, honestly. I'm tired of merely existing, I can't imagine going out of my way to put effort just so I can look more androgynous for what, 5 years at most? It'll all crumble in the end.
That's not even the main goal anyways, I want to be a woman, not an androgynous male. It's better to be the latter rather than an ogre of a man, but at the end of the day they're still both men. The effort required to maintain that state is not worth the result.

>and alleviate your dysphoria
Being a hon would just make things worse, not sure why any dysphoria would be alleviated if I looked like Buffalo Bill trying on his new costume.
I'm not even sure I have ever felt dysphoria. I feel absolutely nothing nowadays.

>because the alternative is to rot and let it get worse over time
It won't get worse if you just give up and stop caring about how you look. I could try to improve my life in other ways, even though it's been hard to find anything that keeps me interested.

It is what it is.

>>40885541
heh yeah tbdesu
idk the stuff that fucked me over was a mix of paranoia and fairly specific shit that happened to me at the time, it's not like my advice would boil down to anything more than "here's a cliffnotes and don't end up a paranoid wreck like me" lol
there's a small part of me that's concerned for them, given we're in the uk and the uk's de-facto position seems to be that spergs are incapable of enough self-determination to actually be trans, but i don't have the heart to tell them to be like me

>>40885440
literally me
I'm at
>rep
I won't cave though, it'd be too embarrassing to transition again in my 30s and you can't even be a uwu transbian at that age anyway

You all are so annoying that I think half my motivation for going ahead with manmoding is that I can't stand being like... this.

>>40885590
<3 glad we could help
>>40885571
sucks if the advice is that manmoding/repping is probably the better way to go because that's bleak, idk anything about the uk/nhs though. at least the states there are places you're fine

>>40885590
manmoding is no different, but I hope you can graduate beyond that

>QOTT
I gave up my hopes for transition after realizing that years of hormones, surgeries, and coming out socially was a lot harder than just staying cis and dissociating

Does repgen believe in female privilege?

the worst part of being male is dudebro friends who think fear and hunger is art and recommend it to a sa survivor without a trigger warning

>>40885590
>motivation for going ahead with manmoding

What are you talking about?
Sorry Im retarded and can't understand you properly

>>40885653
I just think of those dancing girlbosses promoting their business on tiktok and think that's the dream I'll never have because amabs cannot be happy

>>40885657
she is medically if not socially transitioning
>>40885653
are Ukrainian women drafted?

>>40885684
But what about the everpresent risk of rape?

>>40885692
idk don't walk around drunk at 4am or learn to throw a punch

>>40885639
honestly it really is just that bleak here, it's not like the government's systematically executing trannies or whatever but the process of actually transitioning is thankless, needlessly complex, and ultimately a major blow to your social standing and (to a certain extent) your rights
i get that the point of it all is to make people desist but fuck it i guess it worked on me. sucks though because now i need to not freak them out with the same brainwormed paranoia that's kept me from going through with it but like. fuck it it's kinda cosmically funny that i've fucked myself over so badly that i'm responsible for managing someone else's transition
in a way i think i kind of deserve this anyway

roasties can earn 42 million a month on OF just for existing

>>40885684
>are Ukrainian women drafted?
There video about recruiting pooner on toutube

Don't know about the frontline

>>40885725
There are boomer sissies making millions on OF too senpai, the only thing stopping you is a sense of shame.

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>>40885656
dudebros like funger? i had the impression it was mostly women who were interested in the games, based on the online community.
it is pretty shitty to not mention the more fucked up parts of the game, sorry you had that experience.

>>40885762
I have a friend who is obsessed with Fear and Hunger and its lore and he's far-right and generally hates women and trannies. Same guy was really into Steven Universe at one point, he's prone to hate-watching/playing stuff.

being sexist in the repping thread, pick a struggle
>>40885723
>ultimately a major blow to your social standing and (to a certain extent) your rights
hasn't the uk gotten particularly insane about that recently too? like trans men just aren't able to use any gendered restroom anymore
>i get that the point of it all is to make people desist but fuck it i guess it worked on me.
lol yea pretty much same here. I always hate when people talk about "trans joy is resistance" or whatever, I'm just trying to act normal and not have anyone fuck with me. don't need being in public to become a political statement just leave me the fuck alone.
>in a way i think i kind of deserve this anyway
i'm sure you don't anon

I repress because I hate women
You repress because you hate yourself

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>>40885776
now i'm curious, what does he think of marina (aka the tranny character)? i wanna know if he just hates her or makes up some cope about marina not actually being trans

>>40885759
20 yo hotties aren't boomers you silly fuckup abortion

>>40885306
It's actually really upsetting to me. And I don't expect anyone else here to get it.

>>40883421
when i detrooned

>>40885785
>hasn't the uk gotten particularly insane about that recently too?
yeah, big part of the populist lean that labour's taking. given that a lot of talking points of growing significance here (like the migrant crisis) are still a bit of a hot topic, it's easier to be "tough" on groups of people that are generally disliked, like trannies or literally anyone on benefits
>like trans men just aren't able to use any gendered restroom anymore
there's a lot of stuff like that honestly, one interesting point being that if you're trans and want to engage in sexual activity with literally anyone, the onus is on you to confirm in writing somehow that you've told the other person involved that you're trans, because if they don't like you they can say you engaged in rape by deception. shit's wild. (i mean i wouldn't want to engage in sex anyway but still)
>i'm just trying to act normal
honestly yeah, same here lol
my big concern with this kind of thing is the sense going around that existing as a trans person is inherently exposing people to sexual content or whatever and it's like as stupid as that is i wouldn't ever want to run the risk of making people uncomfortable by just existing around them (more than i probably already do)
>i'm sure you don't anon
maybe logically
then again, i guess the constant paranoia helps keep me in check so it's probably for the best ig

>>40885824
I didn't stutter senpai, there are boomer sissies doing it and making bank.

>>40885785
It's pretty fucking funny isn't it?

>>40885841
an angel lost her wings ;__;

>>40885817
People like you is one of the reason why I repress

In the end we all becoming what we hate

>>40885818
He doesn't talk about Marina much, he doesn't like her. He mostly talks about like, Le'garde as his favorite protagonist from the games.

I become so ghoulish off hrt, my buccal fat disappears. Maybe it's a readjustment to male pattern fat and I just need to stick with it to teach some normal?
My family thought I had cancer or something, as though it was rapud weight loss

>>40885853
it's awesome, some people have very special brains
>>40885843
> big part of the populist lean that labour's taking.
i love my centrist parties let's give it up for centrist parties
> if they don't like you they can say you engaged in rape by deception. shit's wild
that's insane, jfc. like gay panic defense clearly just exists to backsolve hate crimes
>i wouldn't ever want to run the risk of making people uncomfortable by just existing around them
right? i put so much effort into making myself as unnoticeable as possible in public it's insane to think that I'd be exposing people to a fetish or whatever. but it's not really a good faith thing so not like it matters to think through that much
>i guess the constant paranoia helps keep me in check so it's probably for the best ig
i get it and feel the same about all of my mental illnesses but it's probably not true

>>40885948
>that's insane, jfc.
there's a lot of stuff like that here, kinda sucks. even beyond law there's a lot of stuff that gets selectively enforced in particular ways to make it possible; like the whole thing of GPs refusing to refer people to the gender clinic then citing religious concerns for instance
it's not like it'd massively affect me specifically but when that's the climate, it's worth keeping your head down ig
like if i were to be stabbed up by someone for being a tranny then i die, no biggie, but then my family's made into a huge media spectacle for ages and i don't think that's fair of me to inflict on them (even indirectly)
>not like it matters to think through that much
i guess this is true
idk i just feel this sense of visceral discomfort at the idea of making people uncomfortable like that it's probably kinda lowkey abusive and/or manipulative of me to think like that but i guess it helps me stay under the radar

you know its over when not even faceapp can fix you

Any low is faketroon hrt repper here?
I’m mef agp no gd tocd but I take hrt to not go bald

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I’m a man
I don’t look like a woman
And that’s okay

>>40885884
You know, the problem is that odds are that even if you were magically turned into the cis woman that you dream of being then men and other women would still fucking hate you.

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>y

>>40886665
>men and other women would still fucking hate you.

But it's still better than being hated by everyone as a male

>>40885856
i was a man before and after

>>40886718
I'm just saying. Everyone here wants so badly to pass and be beautiful, but then you have to actually consider what kind of bullshit that really brings upon you. Whether you're a man or a woman, I think people will just resent you. It's nothing but genuine hatred in the end.

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

Why? Being a woman isn’t different from being a man
Wear a dress and like fuvk men or buy expensive rings

i can't stand being a submissive male. it makes me feel nauseous.thinking about it
i don't even blame submissive males who troon. it's the only partial remedy available

>>40886834
>Being a woman isn’t different from being a man
why must you turn this thread into a house of lies?

>>40886846
I’m the king of white lies baby girl
Suck my gock
I’m female btw
Being aggressive scary to children and a sex freak to women makes me extra female

>>40886783
Well people already hate me for not looking normie enough
Idk maybe when I became more ugly or fat
than everyone be ok with me or don't give sh because too old

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on my improvement era
how do i learn to be more sensitive? i have made people upset multiple times because i usually say something that comes off as very cruel when i genuinely have no intention of it being that way. one example:
>discord friend vents about her self-image issues
>mentions how she hopes she'll get over it someday
>i say she probably won't because society constantly prods around that wound on people for profit
>friend gets upset at me
>why did i say that
if im gonna rep i need to learn to be a better man. is this autism? how do i lessen whatever the hell causes this behavior?

>>40886912
>discord friend
Hang yourself nigger

im a 10 year neet, holy fuck. i hope my life isnt over

>>40886950
20 year neet here

>>40886835
I don't know. I wish there were more submissive masculine males out there. Just in general it's associated with evil and some sort of wrongdoing.

Should I fap my hairy sack?

>>40886977
You should beat your balls to the pain

>>40887009
Meh
W/e
Cumming is dreadful antway

>>40883421
I never had hope. While I still wish I was a woman, I'm too passive to do anything about my appearance, and I couldn't pass to begin with given I turned 24 only yesterday. Even if I could, I don't have friends and my family wouldn't be into the idea, and I'm not independent enough to burn the only bridges I have with other people.
>>40884707
We're more cognizant of the fact that our dreams are incompatible with reality, so we're more depressed, turning inward rather than talking to others. Basically what >>40885307 said.

Yeap
I’m just a man
Nothing to be done
I give up

As a man or as a woman, they'll never see you as a person.

babydollanon are you here?

>>40883421
new years. im just happy now. life is just that much smoother

>>40886665
Brutal but true. People hate ne for me, not because I'm a trans girl

Social dysphoria (not gender related, but friendless) is worse than gender dysphoria ngl

>>40886718
This, though. Being a woman is better in every way, even in it's downsides. Even as an obviously trans hon. Safety and life ruin risks aside, transition has long-term proven benefits ;)

>>40886740
I've always been a woman so long as I've breathed. Especially when ragerepping.

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>>40883421
When I looked in the mirror and realized I'll always be too hideously ugly for any trans girl to love me romantically, even with surgery.

>>40886783
Not really. Passing is overrated but it happens to coincide with what we really want - being treated as the women we are, being safe and keeping our dysphoria down.

Passing does not = beautiful. But yes, every feminine woman wanfs to be pretty, cute and beautiful.

Being awoman is hell, but people resent me already. Mogging as a woman is a really good feeling for girls like us anyway. Euphoria even for cis girls desu.

>>40886819
You are a woman, you just can't see beyond your current physical and brainwormed state.

>>40886834
It's not the same. Physical dysphoria exists as do strict social roles and sadly horrible treatment amongst most.

But yes, dresses are great. Better on E though to at least fill them out a little better in time- but imo even day 5 HRT I still look great in some dresses :)

Don't go outside tho bc id get hatecrimed lol. Live in the hood of Sydney lol

>>40886835
This whole idea that trans women are just submissive men sickens me bevause I will never be a man and even when I LARP as one, I'm far from submissive outside of the bedroom.

Nothing wrong with guys being subby even though I'm not into it, though.

>>40886846
What is a man? A miserable pile of secrets! (Like really being a woman inside)

cried again award

>>40886858
>internalized transphobia due to bad apples
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lNZ_Rnr7Jc

>>40886862
You will never be a normie. Literally nothing to lose transitioning tbqh in this situation even if it takes time to resolve safety stuff.

If you're in this thread you are not a normie.

Nobody cares anyway, it's the blunt truth. People will always betray you. Don't let social fear stop you from being you - actual safety yes but work on it!

>>40886912
Just be the bitch. Works for me ;)
>encouraging bootlicking is apparently manly
Ok, woman

>>40886941
Ngl every time I see Groomercord mentioned I think this. Still, stop encouraging suicide. Illegal btw.

>>40886950
It's hard to fix but there is hope. Permaneet here that makes monet via crypto so its kinda sorta a job.

Don't expect to integrate into society - you left it for good reason. But outsociety improvement is doable, or even stuff like ubereats on a bike 99% of ppl can learn to do.

Don't give up on yourself!

>>40886975
It's due to hatred of women and the feminine, unironically. Patriarchy sucks.

Trans girls right there with you, ngl.

>>40886977
Just for old times sake..
STOP FAPPING, START LIVING!

FR FR better uses of your time.

>>40887446
Motivation and comorbids like depression are tough. Take it easy but have a long hard think about whether you'd be happier masculinizing or not.

>>40887491
I urge you to not give up on yourself - even if your dreams are impossible like mine.. rage agsinst the machine if for nothing more than spite.

>>40888702
Many trans women are free of the chains of looksism. Don't give up.

>>40888743
;_; Hold on for yourself, or at least. For me. For us.

babydollanon please

>>40888841
Literally who?

It’s not that i’m trans its just a weird obsession with the idea of being trans that i’ve thought about everyday for a decade straight. Normal stuff.

god being drunk is awesome. should do this more often
>>40886112
>then my family's made into a huge media spectacle for ages and i don't think that's fair of me to inflict on them
honestly that's the biggest thing stopping me desu, I've always thought that I'm going to kill myself at some point so it's nbd but selfishly I think irl stuff makes it many orders of magnitude that if I transition and then kill myself it'll be something right wingers celebrate and I don't really want to do that to my family. looking forward to killing myself normal style some day
>>40889017
yea for sure for sure same
>>40888841
we gave her a song and everything rude to run away like this really

>>40889151
>i've always thought that I'm going to kill myself at some point
pretty much same here, and like you say it just doesn't feel fair to put my family through the whole thing of being a spectacle for a while
i'd say i couldn't live with myself for doing it to them but that'd be kinda ironic i guess
>rude to run away like this really
to play devil's advocate do we think the name "babydollanon" is really doing any favours?

>>40889195
it does make me wonder what it'd take to make it so people aren't even curious if it's related to anything. like I'm sure as long as I drilled holes in my hard drives I could take a year long bender and then at the end people would just lament my family as being full of alcoholics without a second thought. like surely there's some elaborate way to kill myself where it's not an issue. maybe that's what repping really is, makes u think
>do we think the name "babydollanon" is really doing any favours?
ofc she'll be back :)

>>40889260
it'd be nice to be able to go through with it without causing any issues tbdesu
i often have this odd... fantasy, i suppose? of my consciousness being killed while my body, still capable of existing and acting in ways that people expect, can still move around. just so it doesn't have to cause any grief, y'know?
idk. it's strange what all of this can make you think at times
>ofc she'll be back :)
maybe they're already here lol

fuck. shits bad. couldnt sleep much. had that images of what should, could be going through my head, cried, got chills what the fuck. it feels like... hunger somehow. longing to be a woman.... glowing heavemly images going throuhh my head... i stopped feeling dissociated... perhaps being off opiates for a week caused it? i am going mad. serioisly now considering fleeing and trooning. got financially better, grandma is near dead, so is schizo nasty fuck uncle, sister is in mod teens so mom is occupied with her, dad kinda distant... maybe it could work? imagined how we could get together after... maybe its madness... is there way to make some money that involves cryptofuckery? where to flee? canada sounds ok but its hard to get.

>>40889300
yea totally get that. but that's kinda what I mean about repping just being a way of achieving that - I feel extremely stuck irl and have all kinds of bad habits that will probably kill me that I have no motivation to solve because of this. who gives a shit I never gym and never go outside, this is just run off to make it less embarrassing when it inevitably happens. i've already sorta split my brain in two, only solutions from here are finding a way to join them back together in the real world or just sorta let it suck with one half here / one half there and then eventually kick it in a way that makes a bit more sense

has anyone gotten laser? I'm thinking about starting laser in the next 4 months. I still look like a twink at 28 (29 real soon), and I just want to see my maxxed out potential before it's game over. Feels vain to get laser, but honestly the time saved from shaving would be worth it in the longrun anyways.

>>40886835
tried to fit in that sub male type but thats just not it

>>40864729
if youre a girl pls beat me till i'm dead

all right gentlemen whats on the porn docket today
>self insert in sensitive straight sex
>close ups of cock worship
>bdsm stuff
>drawn porn of torture and violence
>unobtainium fashion stuff on pinterest or ig
>self esteem destroying femdom pov stuff
i did the last one last time it was too intense

>>40890223
>jack off to porn with women in it
>feel envious, get sad
>jack off to porn with men in it
>compare myself to him, get sad
i can't win

>>40889676
I think it helps with 5 o clock shadow

>>40889676
wouldn't it regrow in a month without hrt?

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>tfw iwn be a vk queen

i just jack off to trannies caus eim agp/agamp

GOON your sissy clitties <3

>>40890774
Devillish.

Something something start living

Also, we're women on the inside - not "sissies". Sissy stuff is gtoss as hell.

>>40886950
>>40886959
you are such an inspiration

>>40890949
And gooning

>>40890774
I do, quite a lot actually my dick actually hurts from all the masturbating.

>>40890767
we should jack off together to one another

>>40891072
im not a woman

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>>40886959
giwtwm

>>40890223
>>40890272
THIS

>>40888654
>This, though. Being a woman is better in every way, even in it's downsides. Even as an obviously trans hon. Safety and life ruin risks aside, transition has long-term proven benefits ;)

Only if you pass enough to fool normies into thinking you are cis woman aka stealth

>>40888790
>Ngl every time I see Groomercord mentioned I think this. Still, stop encouraging suicide. Illegal btw.

Why don't they never mention another social media? Only fucking cord

it's superior for this site or what?

>>40891919
every other one asks for your phone number and private information?

>>40890767
I get an insane dopamine rush jacking off to trannies but it's like holding my breath underwater, I have to close the tab within a few minutes or the post-AGP depression kicks in bad.

how am i supposed to have a normal sex life as a straight man when i like men and am submissive? it's fucking hopeless

I'm a now succesful 31 y/o tranner previously living with parents throwing my life away repper 4 life AMA

>>40892947
>living with parents throwing my life away repper 4 life
me but homeless instead

>>40892947
What made you decide to stop repping?

>>40893040
Realised I was 100% on the way to kms before 30 (a certainty that I'd had since I was a teenager) so since that was a given might as well give it a try, if it didn't work it wouldn't have changed that path's ending.

Also started to get first signs of MPB and shaved my entire head in a panic which kind of pushed me into WTF am I doing with my life mode.

when I started to get mpb I just took duta and kept repressing

>>40893089
just take more pills instead of just duta DUH

>>40892712
Anon if you like men and you are amab then you will never ever ever be “straight” in any meaningful way so i think your first order of business is accepting and loving yourself exactly as you are

Don't take hrt unless you plan to stick with it. Nice full breasts are one thing to goon to I guess but they deflate off hrt and become saggy/gross

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your future

>>40893793
I goon to too many asian men wearing these ngl

>>40890377
e-e, fuck

>>40893255
i want to be either a straight woman or a straight man but my sexuality makes it impossible to be a straight man and i don't want to be a troon
i don't know how accepting anything fixes that?

>>40890767
>>40892598
been a while since i was here, but you guys will be the only ones to know what im talking about
>>40890223

>be me
>dysphoric for years
>every time i look in mirror, brain screeches “wrong”
>cope, repress, still miserable
>mess around w/ AI faceswap one night
>see myself as female version for first time
>instant silence in my head
>like i gave my brain the missing vitamin
>keep using it
>start realizing something wild
>irl male mode suddenly feels way easier
>not a punishment anymore
>cuz i know i can switch to female mode whenever i want digitally
>male body isn’t a prison
>it’s just the “physical loadout”
>now i’m not fighting it, i’m actually enjoying it
>strength
>size
>presence
>all feel like bonus stats instead of defects
>confidence shoots up because i’m no longer trapped, i’m expanded
one body
>two modes
>literally cured dysphoria with a GPU
>made being a dude fun again

fap to yourself and skip transition, i literally made myself bored of the idea of transition because of it

>>40888707
i can do all that virtually AND go outside
dont listen to them bros, take the AI pill, all the fun, none of the costs and responsibility, quit, purge, hide it when you want, return at any time, no consequences.
literally had chapters of illustrated novels starring me as a woman and its cured all sorts of aches and missed experiences, now im happy.

>>40886912
use AI, i outsource all my emotions to it nowadays, much cleaner.

>>40884707
as a successful repper who only visits the rest of you out of nostalgia/pity

the successful reppers meme/become iconic
then leave because we are living life/busy achieving our life goals

why is it despite transitioning I still want to go throw away my vial and go back to repressing?

>>40895411
Because you aren’t female enough
Only women can troon out

Life as a man is ok and I enjoy it and trooning for a fetish is bad
Gn

life as a man is ok but it makes me want to kill myself

life as a man is hell. I can't express any emotion off hrt beyond anger. Maybe it's a psychological block not a hormonal thing but how would I even explain dysphoria to a therapist or something. Fuck.

How do I resist the 'HRT repping' psyop? I keep thinking that maybe it would help but other times that it's just an excuse to start HRT

>When you take HRT and realize it's a giant meme, "mental effects" don't exist, and that dysphoria is unsolvable

wooooooow I got scammed

>>40883421
I realised I'm 6'2 and that I have a very masculine face.
I'm manmoding right now but I look basically the same, no malefails ever.

>>40890593
Who?

>>40896045
THIS

>>40892533
Yeah

>>40897333
>I'm 6'2
>no malefails ever.

No wonder. I wonder why you here.

>I'm 6'2
People like you are the kind of why I scared to go outside


I would easily be a tranny hon with build like that or whatever
Why don't you?

where do you guys think your tranny thoughts come from?

my browbone casts a permanent shadow over my eyes

>>40898052
Brain development issue caused by a hormone imbalance in the womb. I've got gyno too, which is often caused by such, so I feel pretty strongly that this is the most likely explanation.

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I dont think I can break. I just would literally rather die than go back to being trans. I'm constantly in agony if I think about it. But I'd rather be constantly suffering than to be a tranny.

>>40898052
I don't have any good idea. A bit before I entered puberty I developed a complex around secret cross-dressing while fantasising about being a girl. Later, in my teens, I would engage a lot in escapist daydreaming about living as the opposite-sex-I. If I had to guess, I'd say a combination of prenatal hormonal imbalance, gender balance of role models in early childhood, something vaguely similar to erotic target identity inversion (compounded maybe by quasi-autistic traits), and subconscious desire for a monolithic, structured enemy to pin my troubles in general to.

>>40898052
i'm ugly and unapproachable and i feel as if my autism would be tolerated more if i wasn't a man

i am nondysphoric and spend most of my waking life wishing i were a woman

>>40885372
picrel is so fucking cool desu
gay ass vampire
>>40885376
i would hate becoming Wario as i age lol. is that enough reason to take hrt
(i'm 20 and would definitely not like looking any more masculine. is it agp? is it some sort of fake brainrot? idk. but i do know being a manly man ain't for me.)

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do you know about any SERMs that wont give you boob and are good for hair and skin?

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>>40897418
it from dazzling bad
vk is japanese rock full of crossdressers

need to affirm a hrt repper with a ten body who never shows their face

>>40900642
that's insane wtf makeup can truly do wonders
>>40900664
what bmi must i be

I wish I was a goth male tranny man

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pinkpills won't manifest an innawoods gf and 640 acres

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giwtwm

I wish I was trans to groom university aged men into transitioning tbhon

I’m not even trans
Yey
I’m not happy about it
But that’s life right?
Bac to eating my life
It was a nice dream to think I could be a girl
But I never was
And never will

Anyone on hurt you need to dry room Now
Repression is external
If you repress for beliefs and still use your dick it only knew you were a girl in adulthood you are not trans you are cis men
Help yourself and detroon NOW

>>40901120
I'm on hurt :(

guys you should only use the genitalia you never had for pleasure, c'mon

>>40901133
You don’t need sexual pleasure

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>>40901141
i gotta goon

Dead

the hrt repping meme and its consequences have been a disaster for the repper community

>>40902888
idk if it's just private or hardly matters, growing your hair out is worse

>look in the mirror today
>look extra ugly
how am i this gross looking wtf

At least I'm pass as loser broke Incel

i just want to get a fulltime job at this point and timeskip towards my death but i cant even manage that

i stood naked in front of a full body mirror and now i'm ready to kill myself

>>40904475
if I had a full-time job I'd just get ffs so I guess my incompetence saves me

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asian men have it so easy

>open xitter
>selfie of passing/mostly passing trans girl
>close twxtter

>open xitter
>selfie of passing/mostly passing trans girl
>goon sess
>cry
>close twxtter

>>40905135
i skip the gooning and go straight to crying, much more efficient

>>40905146
I'm very quick with it tbf

>>40905171
cute

>>40905146
I skip the xitter and looking and selfie parts and just start crying.

>>40905250
i can do that too if you want

>>40905316
I want us to be happy, anon.

>>40905433
i don't think i can do that

Hard core survival as a male

repping makes you only want the good times
is repping basically being a spoiled bitch?

>>40906370
No kind of opposite

>>40906454
will reppers care for sick people

where is my wife larry

>>40906602
Yeah
but not me

severance but it's a hrt repper as the outie and trans woman as the innie

I love reading crystal cafe as a form of self-harm and femdom. I love seeing real lesbian womyn justify violence against people like me because they think we're invasive sexual predators. I just imagine all of my nicest trans friends being treated like 50 year old balding perverted creeps and it turns me on

tfw got a lesbian tattoo in my transbian phase but now I'm a gay detrans repper

i wish i could be a lesbian

>>40906784
having to constantly keep spare male clothes around because every time you exit the elevator you find yourself, yet again, in an amazon basics skirt

I think I seriously might kill myself when i reach 30
which isnt far away
i am nothing anyway
just waiting for the process to find me

>>40906983
sure, donate to my ffs fund before you go

>>40906993
sorry already gave all my digital money to someone else

>>40906918
I guess I realize the hatred is just always present

>>40906965
I don't think I want to be any kind of gay person. Because when it comes down to it, they truly do hate you, and you're expected to just fetishize that shit to justify it.

>>40898052
seeing Lesbians making out

I refresh the same 3 pages, waiting for dopamine
nothing matters

>>40898052
Feeling like I don't have a body to begin with.

for dopamine low key wish fulfilment videogames on drugs are best. too bad ran out of drugs... first morphine then bag of stims(nep which oddly does near nothing to keep it away). without evening junking or blasting brain in some way its few days tops before start obsessing and plotting how to... the fuck... no way out... 6'1 sigh

I feel like I've beaten myself into being nearly asexual.

>>40907302
now beat me (my dick)

>>40907302
sames... low test from abusing stuffs and dissociation. i played with phytoestogenics in past. got some growth, played with... stopped as coworkers low key noticed..and there obviously were shirtless times near impossible to avoid. and now cant really bring myself nto fap with dick, doesnt feels right... fucking brainworms. still having some hope somehow.

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from a philosophical point of view i am cursed as a repressor it's as if there is some invisible force that keeps me in this state and everything i do ends terribly

Reality is dead and I killed it when I was 15 and I wished for everything to dye so I would go to school anymore

Where is babydollanon?

/babydollanon/i

New rope:
Only take estrogen(pills so no effects) and slowly detroon so I can die a man

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>>40883421

i got off hrt and havent been on it for the past year

why does everything have to be scary

>>40907854
This is hellish

ive genuinely known people who take hrt and it does literally nothing except give them tits, so now they are men with tits.

wtf is wrong with pinkpillers? dont they realise god hates some people?

I’m in hell I’m in hell
I feel aweful
I need to go back on e
I need to
My mind says this but my body doesn’t move
I’m dead

I will never transition. It doesn't make sense to continue to think about it. I would sooner die

it makes sense when you realize that this is just character building to get you ready for your real life next time

coming out of the closet is like microdosing suicide

I'm a fake, I was just gaslighting myself

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i cant win and i am going insane. my entirw life has been stolen from me by this curse. but there is nothing i ca do except bottle it up inside. i want to cry but no tears ever come

No, you aren't a woman, you're a weird gross man addicted to porn.

>>40909935

A lot of it is the fact that our culture is so fucked up. So it's probably impossible to know the answer. I mean, you're on a board for trans people and people here still hate trans people

babydollanon …

u + hrt = hurt

u - hrt = miserable life of regret

>>40907951
unfortunately I'm in that boat

>>40911417
>miserable life of regret
either way it is. with few exceptioms there is no good way out of it. being dissociated, zombified or haunted by this shit is no good either... reppingn is spectrum of getting mad to rottmaxxing

>>40909935
Now this is a story all about how
My life got flipped turned upside down

Dubs and I kill myself this week

>>40911810
maybe next week friend

>drink pesticide
>survive
>voice is now strained, airy, and sounds feminine
it's so over

>>40911884
bonus points if you got testicular damage.

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>>40883421
I want to die.

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here we go again... when i was just doing evening codeine i could sleep without much brainworm bugging me. see if it will work. there might be some mumbo jumbo involved... neighbor who lives inder me goes on a trio and i will walk her dog and she talks about energies talks to trees, has aome spooky stones and talking stick yadda yadda ..maybe she wants me to crack... shes 6 foot tall ukie so suspicious but prolly not troon.... or i am going mad. eh more mad.

>>40910288
Or you’re not a biological woman, but something inside you yearns to be treated and seen as a woman, therefore you are a transgender woman

>>40912065
something inside me yearns to be treated as a cartoon fox woman with big tits

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>>40912157
based

gm repgen. finished east of eden yesterday, really good book would recommend.
>>40912014
you have a concerning amount of drugs friend
>>40912065
oh is that what that is

Anyone else's brain pick a different physical feature to doom about each day? Like for me, my brain wants to stress out about my shoulders.

I injected T for the first time about 24 hours ago. It's supposed to peak around this time but I actually feel pretty flat, depressed, bored and unmanly. Will keep running this experiment for at least a couple of months. As of yet gender dysphoria and neurotic tendencies have not healed. However my sense of self could still change if the physical changes make me chad.

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>>40883421
Im a repper looking to have sex with another repper I think that would provide some escape for both of us.

would you still rep if you could get every single surgery you wanted, free of charge?

>>40914938
No surgery for my frame and height

Transitioning is the most humiliating thing ever. "Transpride" my fucking ass. Who would be proud of this? Who would want to be this?

>>40915007
reals. also social aspects, cant imagine it where i live. would ignite from shame. would absolutely need to go to some woke place. i am not autistic to be able to troon where family and all known people live. even of i manage in future i would still put on male clothes and binder when visiting family. mom maybe would swallow it somehow if i made teary hysterical talj and lived far away overseas in lands of woke...

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>>40912157
thats funny cause i drew this piece of a man who was turned into an anthro wolf woman being sexually harassed by a hunter in the forest a few days ago

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>>40915039
get it so much this. i am sure my 14 yo sister would be fine... but seriously need to flee to even start doing it properly... would still keep suicide set just in case. (like 6 grams of morphine in pills and fifth of vodka should do it if not tolerant much to poios)

>>40915071
always found transformation themes to be fascinating in not sexual way... being made one of... not only mtf transformations... perhaps its due to not liking what you are and wanting to be made different but not daring yet to name it ...

>>40914938
Know what, probably not. All my measurements are firmly in the male/female overlap range, if I could have ALL the surgeries I wanted, I could comfortably move that down out of cishon territory and live in peace.

>>40914938
does this include the lobotomy i need to get my brain to work right

The dysphoria isn't constant and every time it goes away im convinced I've fallen for some psyop and mentally punish myself for being weak minded

could going to a mental hospital help? my family really wants me to try because repping ruins all my mental health

>>40915186
it goes mostly in times of being exhaused, numb or when your obsessing about some topic/thing. when you get better, rested, healthier blah blah it goes in full trothle, gets lesser to dormant when (near) rottmaxxing. happy repping or getting over it is a meme. selfnimproovement, manning the fuck up etc simply cannot work, one thing that could is religious brainrot and even then you could get derailed by angelic androgyny and likes...

>>40915212
sound like plot of nicer forcedfem story... seriously you might end up getting pinkpilled or if you keep it secret zombified with ssri/benzos or worse neuroleptics.

>>40915274
what? this has nothing to with forcefemming my family does not know at all they can just see how bad i am all the time wdym by being pinkpilled

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>>40915274
>>40915212
doubt that'll happen. i was recently in a private mental health ward for 3 months. i told them i thought i was trans when i first came in but it pretty much became ignored after they focused on my other issues (depression, unmedicated adhd, social phobia, eating disorder etc)

>>40915420
how was it? similar problems

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>>40915428
i actually really liked being there. made some friends, became more happy, gained weight back, met some interesting people and became less of a hermit.

>>40915451
hm thanks, i might consider going its not like my life will change if i dont go

>>40914938
no surgery for having to shatter my family's perception of me

please god make it stop

you're all such drama queens, get a hobby or something.

>>40914882
I wonder what a repperXrepper relationship would be like

>>40915701
its one of my hobbies tho, escapst playing of viedeogames as a girl, blasting brains with drugs, nerding at ncbi and combing hair into 80s big hair are others. are other

>>40915701
it doesn't help

>>40915701
>>40915820
The idea of being a woman becomes less cool when you realize there are so many things women are just mentally incapable of

>>40915889
nta but I don't want to be a woman thougbeit, my mental illness does.

>>40915889
>women are mentally incapable at lots of things
so nothing would change if I was one, cool

>>40915889
I literally don't care. I went through ten years clinging to that "Man women are so evil and inferior blah blah blah" right wing cope for dear life and guess what? It diminished my GD not one single bit that entire time. I no longer care, I'd trade the 10 IQ points or independence or ability to drive or whatever the FUCK you think women can't do/are inferior in if it made me a woman already.

>>40915889
>mentally incapable of
some intimidation/standing your ground alpha bullshit i guess. inherently tied to nasty effect andrigens have in mind... meh. even bleh. i am years past that bullshit normie trad brainwashing

going to cry again lol

>>40916132
Women can't be into videogames or whatever malebrained hobbies you have in mind and can't be attracted to femininity for one thing. The thing is they're fundamentally passive, and operate on these logic gates that prevent them from having the kind of free will and agency that men have. I realize men can only imitate this by rendering themselves comically submissive and helpless, slavelike

>>40916228
Not really. You'll see even FTMs say the similar things.

>>40916243
What part of "I no longer care" do you not get, anon? Almost every cope you have, I used at some point. Been there, done that. I'm out of them. The only thing stopping me now is my fucking shoulders.

>>40916266
As if that'll make them not hate you.

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having to bunch my shoulders close together and feeling the skin on my back move is genuinely one of the most suicide inducing experiences i have ever felt

>>40916243
doing this kind of gender essentialism + sexism combo is an insane cope, "women can't be into video games" is just laughably not true (one of the top valorant coaches is a woman, for example)

im nothing

>>40916494
Coping that women can think the same way as men was the real delusion. There just isn't the same motivation. For them they do it because of money or social standing.

can i kill myself please

>>40916893
going to be a big day for you when you finally meet a woman in real life
>>40917239
i dunno can you

>>40915718
Extremely hot I think

>>40915718
t4t relationship in about a month

>>40917327
need this so bad

>>40917475
me too

>>40917251
It's just the truth, most anons here would tell you the same.

>>40917327
feels like suicide pact is another option

life is genuinely unbearable, i cant believe most normal people are happy to be alive.

>>40917633
Everyone else can fit into their neat little heteronormative mold

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>>40917327

>>40918429
god i wish that were me

You didn't lie, you all told me to never tell no one about being a repper and I didn't listen, now I see. Fuck you all were so right, it's not worth it, just keep it to yourself, don't even imply it. Say it's something else like chronicndepression if you really need to, but don't admit to it, ever, don't even imply it, hell don't even think about it when you're in the presence of someone else, no matter how intimate you are to this person, keep it between you and the grave.