Confess your sins, write someone a letter, or just rant.
i think i genuinely am just done with any and all dating/sexual stuffi am 30 years old and i have had my heart broken so many times i dont know what i am doing wrong. i have never broke up with anyone, i do my best to be kind to people and understand them and their point of view and they just leave me behind anyway. people often tell me i'm handsome, i'm kind, i'm funny, etc. i have no problem finding people to have sex with, but i dont want sex. i just want to be loved, that's all. maybe that's weird for a cis guy, i guess. i dont really think about or fantasize about sex any more, i just really desperately wish i just had someone there i can touch and kiss and be with. i live alone and have no pets, i have almost no irl friends, all i do is play video games and work. i dont care if it sounds desperate, because I AM desperate. i just want someone to cherish. i've already done all the things. i work out, i have a decent paying full-time job, i can cook. i'm six feet tall and have a big dick. i'm already all the things people point to but i still cannot find someone to actually love and care about me the way i love and care about others. so i think i'm just gonna give up, and find peace and satisfaction within myself from now on.
>>40907113I almost named myself Sophia/Sofia but everyone got it first and I didn't wanted to have a generic name (like fucking Josh, my dead name)
I willingly hurt people in my early 20s because it was completely legal, positively reinforced and I don't regret it to this day. I don't really feel much to begin with and I long for death because existence is not only boredom but also a joke. It'd also be nice to get a normal start at life if reincarnation exists. I will not elaborate.
I confess I'm bumping my own thread.
I wanted to fuck my mom really bad when I was a kid into my late teens.
