I transitioned to gain the attraction of a transbian and to try and eventually become her girlfriend. We are no longer on speaking terms due to tranny drama.I am now left wondering what the fuck I did, because I'm realizing I was never trans and that voice deep down that I thought was insecurity, was actually right when it said "you're a disgusting fake sociopath who larped a life as a trans person to gain social attention."Fuck me, sisters. What the fuck do I do now? I have tits lol, but the brain of a terminal man.I am not a transphobe. I do not believe my situation applies to all trans people. But I instinctually know there just must be other people like me online, and to these people, I ask: what the fuck?
tldr
>>40919875I took estrogen because transbian butthole made penis go bazooooing and trooning was the price of admission
>>40919865how long did you transition and how far did you get. also are you bpd
>>40919911I lied about being a tranny for 2 and a half years but was on estrogen for about a year and 4 months
>>40919911I have tits but manmoded in every social situation where I wasn't around trans women and wore compression shirts. Didn't really transition socially too much aside from being openly a tranny around other trannies.
>>40919922>>40919935why do you think you're not a tranny anymore? and why did you at the time? also how long ago did you and her break up or end speaking terms
>>40919865I almost trooned in college.You're talking about a pseudo religious cult based around sex, kink, and status that favors the young and rich. Nothing more. I think it's very far removed from the people who would have transitioned pre-social media.
>>40919988I don't really like what estrogen did to my body. I knew on a deep level I had absolutely zero gender dysphoria, that I only wanted to transition after meeting her, and that there was no prior anything indicating I would ever transition. I was a generic npc male.I brushed these thoughts aside at the time as insecurity and enjoyed the honeymoon of having someone who I immensely desired as my significant other. As I lost that, I realized that no, I was correct, there truly was nothing that made me want to transition, outside of on a deep level, I knew I couldn't date this person as a man due to their sexual preferences.>>40919989Grim but I trust the science chuddy. Big if true tho
>>40920070been theredone thatcoped by rationalising it with vague notions from the past now? Kinda just rolling with itSlept with a bunch of menDefinitely at least gayHappy that I could gay
>>40920222I was always gay tbhnona but like I just don't think I was ever trans. I think I idolized a tranny I met as the manifestation of perfection on earth and wanted to do anything in my power to get closer to her, including transitioning.Now that I hate here I'm just kinda like "now what?" And facing the weird reality that oh, there was actually nothing motivating me otherwise.
>>40920271what do you want to do in this moment?
>>40920271I got a slightly different story>Was a twink for me>Think it was more romantic/idealised than it was sexual, also some weird brother attachment stuff going on there>Think I'm definitely bi>kinda have dysphoria and a weird relationship with gender >can't entirely trust these internal narratives cause I ended up with a messed up cope when I was young (can't remember why) that if I believed a lie hard enough it'd essentially be as good as truth, and this has damaged my ability to accurately recall the past or develop any stable sense of identityAnyway good luck deciding on whatever you're gonna do with yourself now. I think I'm gonna keep my body as is more or less and do enough therapy that I can unravel the web of my own bullshit, or failing that, construct an empowering one.
>>40920511Be a man
>>40920748then you should go be a man, especially if you're unhappy with having an estrogen-dominant system! take it as a learning experience. maybe you should explore gay scenes.
>>40919865Your just a typical loser guy who trooned to satisfy your homosexual urges without having to deal with men or come to grips with yourself.Adopting a trans identity gave you something to be a part of and a dating pool of other estrogenated incels. Congrats your just like most troons on this board.. And predictably theyre trying to convince you your trans lmaoMaybe you are maybe not.. but this sounds like the classic white troonsbian backstory
>>40920959literally no one in this thread is trying to convince him he's trans lol
