>>40920176
stop interacting with randos on the internet and embrace reality. why do so many of you talk on trans discords

same

>>40920176
Aww. I'm so sorry that happened to you! Medication can help with the panic, but it won't erase the trauma. You were betrayed by someone you should have been able to trust, it makes sense that you look at other people you should be able to trust and are afraid of them too.

There's nothing wrong with you, you're not broken, you're just traumatized by something that shouldn't have happened. You shouldn't be punished for that. You've got the same right to be included in society as everyone else, and you seem to want that, so maybe be patient with yourself and kind to yourself and find ways to be included that you are comfortable with.

I had big issues with cis women because I was molested as a child. One of the things that helped me was talking about what should or should not have happened.
Trans women should be supportive of each other, they shouldn't rape each other.
Trans women who are raped should recieve immediate care and support from both the police and the community.
Trans women who are traumatized by rape should recieve support and counseling so they can be reintegrated into society in a way that cares for them.

>>40920248
I don't that's the point. I used to. I'm not able to meet trans ppl irl really like it feels isolating. The only friends I have irl ive had since before I haven't met anyone new since lol that's so sad isnt it
Idk I just wanna feel safe again I'm a retard idk
>>40920273
Thanks for the message although I wonder if you'd still be nice if you knew I'm ethnically Jewish lol
Nah all trans women I knew dropped me because I was no fun afterwards. Medication never worked for me and gave me super shit side effects.
Society doesn't give a shit about loser trannies like me. No family no community nothing lol

>>40920255
Sucks af. I hate that this is what it's come to after having been so extroverted and a social butterfly really. I don't even know id what I went through really counts as SA/rape (I apparently gave consent but I have no memory of it as I was blackout drunk and high af so idk maybe I'm just a retardl but if it doesn't why do I still feel so fkn bad

>>40920318
you were raped, i had those exact same thoughts

>>40920335
Then why did no one side with me and everyone abandoned me :( I deserve everything bad that ever happened to me in my life my mum always said she shat pieces of shit like me every morning I deserve being beaten up as kid spat on. Knife to my throat I deserve everything I can't
Only family I still had contact with was my father and guess what he's a fkn rapist in jail for extreme rape lmao what a clown life

>>40920294
>I'm ethnically Jewish lol
There's no such thing. That's a Jewish lie.
Judaism is a religion not a race.
Semite is a race, and most semites are Muslim with the largest minority being Christian.

Find Jesus, he'll help you.

>>40920368
that’s really fucked up im sorry

>>40920377
It's fkn hard nona :( idk how i even made it without an heroing. I mean I'm a loser but I legitimately never thought I'd make it past 30 and yet I just turned 30 and I'm still here
I try to get better all the time then I fall again and fuck everything up

>>40920368
jesus anon, that's some full on actual trauma
ain't gonna bullshit you with advice, you probably know the stuff that's available.
you deserved better and I hope the future and the present can be gentler places to you

>>40920437
Idk feels like it's nothing sometimes I mean some ppl have it way worse i dont think i was raped as a kid (dont remember my childhood anyway lel) so yknow
Tried to see psychs but it's all bs they dont know shit I'm sure they're great for more mentally stable ppl though
At least I have my partner who's the best (she was there during the probable rape though but she didn't do anything she regrets not stopping it and not realising I was so out of it but she's the only person who stood by me)

>>40920176
There is never a time limit on when you're allowed to still feel hurt. But please know that you're not alone in this. I was raped as a little kid / was sexually violated again in Jr High & became a recluse after. That innate sense of safety most people have has never come back and the thought of physically being in the same space as even my longest 10+ year online friend gives me impending doom. And I grieve every single day. I grieve the person I could have been, the life I could have led, if things had been different. But yknow, even in this void of despair and self hatred and desire for death, its still possible to laugh or feel a moment of joy. I try to value them & hold it as long as possible, whatever it is. My friend telling me a joke or sharing something from his life, a hummingbird seeing it's reflection in my window, an episode of a show from a better time, anything to feel something positive. Though, the best thing you can do for yourself is not fight how you feel and sob it out when you need. Idk what else to really say but from the bottom of my heart I wish you so much happiness in the future and hope you make it <3

>>40920437
Oh and thx for being nice
I try the best i can to be nice to ppl and not hurt anyone despite the *diagnosed* (kek) BPD/CPTSD but it's a struggle

>>40920176
stop assosciating with other trannies

>>40920498
>Though, the best thing you can do for yourself is not fight how you feel and sob it out when you need.
Thanks I really needed to hear this im really sorry this happened to you :(
Life sucks so hard sometimes it's unfair
I have good times i have my partner i have my cat i do cool stuff often I just feel like socialising isn't something I can really do anymore yeah I never ever felt safe again like that. I don't even feel super safe with ppl I trust lol... I just want to stop being a disgusting money leech and find a job and not use others like my partner

>>40920526
It's not like I trust cis ppl way more lol

>>40920405
im in a very similar position and idk what else to say, i feel really bad for being kind of dry to you but i just want you to know youre not alone and im rooting for you

>>40920542
you should trust them more. unless you're a transbian, in which case this is the grave you dug for yourself and you just kinda have to live with that

>>40920549
Dw you didnt feel dry
Its past 5am here lol I should have been sleeping if I didnt panic like an idiot
Sorry your life is this way too i hope you can make it too

>>40920480
>>40920500
well, it sounds like a hard hand regardless of where it sits in the overall world wide all time trauma rankings.
Wishing you the best anon, take care!

>>40920571
Cis people are the source of 99.9% of the bad shit that's happened in my life. And all before I transitioned lol

>>40920587
Thx I'll try i sometimes need to vent idk i still struggle accepting the stuff I went through is real and not imagined I've been called a manipulative liar since I was a kid lol...

>>40920593
cis people are also like 99% of the global population, so it kinda makes sense that most of the interactions in your life would be with cis people. both positive and negative.