Im really toxic... iv been toxic since i was 20 and i think my toxicity has only gotten worse.. sometimes i feel like the toxic version of rick in rick and morty during the detox slime episode. For example:I have an online friend for kinda like 2 years now. And im often mean to her, call her retard, say maybe she needs an iq test, that she is gullible etc(to be fair she falls for alt right talking points)Feel bad about it later, so i try to apologize to her so i write this:"Sorry for being mean yesterday...(tho u probably deserved it)"And she still hasnt written back, which is probably wise because toxic negative people like me only bring downfall to those around me.. but anyway im thinking to myself, wow, is this really the best i can do? So i guess i have truly realized i am extremely toxic go a baffling degree. And i cant help but think i deserve at least 50% of the hate i get. I uhh... im sorry. I uhhhh. Im just sorry everyone..
Uhm..hello..? Hewlp pls..
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>>40923320What's the goal here? Don't be toxic it's not hard anon
>>40923555WHY did you have to respond instead of just letting this shit ass thread die? This is why this board sucks shit now
>>40923555The goal i guess is uh... being less toxic;_;Iv tried loads of times.. But somehow i always circle right back around to being mean...
>>40923572You can choose to change whenever you want anonLiterally the only barrier between the sort of person you are and the sort of person you want to be is just
>>40923584Is just you*
>>40923584Y-yeah..... you're probably right... h-haha....
bro you are trans and you like other faggots, of course you will be an unstable piece of shit, no transbian can control her emotions so they are all like this, pretending being """autist""" is just a self defence mechanism to try to control those emotions. Just accept that you will have to be constantly meeting new people every 3-4 years because you are a soul drainer. You can find peace knowing that you don't love any of those fags, you just want to feel in control and loved by them, just go find new ones
>>40923320Being like this, and especially calling people retards, is top tier male-brained by the way. Just thought I'd let you know.Not even your mean comments pass.
>>40923320If you're really remorseful about your actions and want to change then the most important thing is to be honest and accountable with yourself. I would recommend therapy and training yourself to break overly negative thought patterns and negative attention seeking behavior
>>40924000Thats a very negative outlook!>>40924005Yea i know im very moid brained... meow....>>40924069Yea tbqh i agree. But for me therapy just doesnt come into question. I kinda HATE critic.. and i hate listening to dem damn eggheads...
>>40924000>soul drainernew descriptor for the ex
