>me mtf 20> live with gf of almost 2 years in current apartment for 1 month so far> 1st ever relationship, we've had problems but have mostly worked through it>realized i don't really know if i want to be in longterm relationship / don't know what i want / not ready for this / not sure if the relationship is gonna work out long term> kind of want to break upi think its truely just over for me, nothing is really wrong on paper with our relationship, i just have this feeling in my gut. i'm not ready. if it continues on it will just hurt her. if i breakup it will hurt her (we just moved in together, shes friends withmy friends, loves me a lot, etc etc). i feel like a terrible person. i probably am. idk. i want to kill myself so that she doesn't have to experience a pain like that. if i stay im also just going to feel pain. idk what to do whole thing is beyond fucked. anyway can anyone give any pointers on how to cut yourself ive never done it b4
>>40931683You have pathologically low self esteem. Its why youre a troon (not the other way around). Youve destroyed your persona as a means of escape from it. You cant accept love for the same reason, it only exacerbates your self loathing. You dont want to kill yourself to save anyone pain, you just want to kill yourself and your trooning is a step towards killing yourself, persona first, then body.
>>40931683>don't really know if i want to be in longterm relationship >not sure if the relationship is gonna work out long termhow come? i think everyone has these feelingsI would only want to be in a relationship with another person again if that person is my best friend and i would treat them accordingly. Seems like a lot less stress
Just breakup with her, you dramatic retard
>>40931683just be like me and do nothing. its simple. now im 20 days from my 10 year anniversary with her. let it ride boyo. save worrying about consequences for later.also what this guy said. very trukepilled>>40931717
>20>1st ever relationship>kind of want to break up>i think its truely just over for me
>>40931683You should act like a reasonable adult and express your concerns in a calm and truthful way. The true death of a relationship is when you cant tell your partner what is wrong. Killing yourself will probably be the most emotionally damaging thing you could do to her.
>>40931683that's tough, how long is the lease?
>>40931683you have an avoidant attachment, i know because im one tooyour brain makes up a bunch of excuses to self sabotage (you don't really love her, you don't deserve her, wanting to date the other gender, fomo, etc.) because deep down you're empty and you have zero self-esteem because your caretakers didn't love you righttalk to her, educate yourself and therapyi'm going to be honest it's a constant battle but try not to give in to the intrusive thoughts, you're worth it and you deserve love no matter what your brain tells you
>>40932154Holy shit anon that was some genuinely dynamite advice I didn't think was possible on this website
