I've been relentlessly wanting to transition ever since I've found out it was an option to begin with. I would immediately chose to be a woman if I could, and seeing woman around my age only ever fills me with envy and sorrow.And yet, I don't feel any dysphoria in relation to my own body, or how I am perceived.Do I have a masculine face? Yes, it is what it is.Do I have a masculine frame? Yes, it is what it is.Do I have a masculine voice? Yes, it is what it is.Am I being seen as a man by everybody else? Yes, and again, it is what it is.If I desire to be a woman so much, why don't I feel more dysphoria? Why is it so easy for me to just not care about all of this? Is this just radical acceptance? Am I dissociating more than I realize? Or am I simply just completely faketrans?The lack of dysphoria makes transition seem like an objectively insane thing do to. Despite wanting it, it feels like there's nothing for me to gain from it. Quite the opposite actually, transitioning will undeniably make life harder, and for what? Soft skin and gyno? I'm aware of how insensitive this is, but at this point I wish my dysphoria would be worse, so that I'd feel like a transition would be justified
Is this just a shallow and fleeting desire, stemming from vanity, or is there more beneath the surface, waiting to be slowly brought up to the surface?
>>40933614I don't know what you have, but I suggest you don't transition yet
>>40933614Take your pills, Alice. I don't understand what you mean by "no dysphoria" but everything will make sense once you start it. You will either continue or stop once you get bored.
>>40934044This surely is reasonable advice, but not transitioning feels like wasted time if I'm honest, despite not even knowing whether I truly want it>>40934161>I don't understand what you mean by "no dysphoria"I mean no dysphoria in the most direct way possible. I don't think I am dysphoric about being a man, since I pretty obviously don't feel any concrete distress from it. I'm just wholly indifferent to it, and can live just fine being one.I've even tried hormones for about 3 months, and it didn't make anything make more sense. Transitioning still felt like an insane thing to do, with which I was ruining my life, despite mostly wanting it. I've stopped hrt to give it more thought, or in hopes I'll realize it's even silly for me to consider taking it, but I'm still thinking about it months later.
Dysphoria is not the same for everyone, and what you feel technically counts as dysphoria
>>40935175I guess, but that doesn't change the fact that I feel no distress from my birth sex, and I don't think apathy counts as distress
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Did anybody else feel this way prior to their transition, or am I just a confused cis guy who gaslight himself?
>>40937718I'm more or less in the same position. Mostly leaning towards delusional cis man, since that would be the easier outcome
>>40938067I'm glad I'm at least not alone feeling like this, and I hope you'll find out what works best for you
>>40937718I did. I now have SRS, FFS, BA...I'm gonna be real wirh you homeboy, I transitioned because I wanted to. There wasn't much more to it than that. Was it 'right'? Was it better? I'll never know. We just press on. I suppose it depends on your ideals and view on life. For me, I have always just done what I wanted.
>>40938912>I transitioned because I wanted to. There wasn't much more to it than that.That's pretty dope ngl. I definitely get too caught up in what is supposed to feel "right" that I completely forget that I can do something just because I want to. Would you say you weren't dysphoric prior to transition, or was it something that only became more apparent in retrospect? Also, how did you conclude that this is something you truly want?
>>40939030I had instances of what people seem to describe as "dysphoria". Certain fashions and behaviors and things that girls engaged in did trigger a sense of envy in me, and a sadness that I couldn't do it. However, I never had a sense of "looking in the mirror makes me want to throw up because im a man" type feelings i see some people describe. Like yourself, I simply accepted it as something I couldn't change, not knowing any different. I also did have bottom dysphoria almost as long as I can remember, always wishing I had a vagina and imagining orgasming through one when I would masturbate, etc.As for your second question, the timeline was more or less like this....I got ffs and switched from male presenting to female presenting. I got a bf soon after. It was during this time I realized a couple things... A) I didn't quite pass yet and B) I wanted SRS. I had 'bottomed' before as a man before I transitioned, but it never felt right. For me to truly feel right with my partner I knew I had to have the right configuration. Not only that, but I wanted to wear certain clothing, I wanted to just be a normal girl. I suppose I knew the choice was right when I never had the desire to go back to being male.
