I ruined my life with drugs and alcohol before I could even get on hrt.If any young person sees this, don't do drugs and take your hormones early.If you have thoughts now they'll stay with you forever, atleast for mtfs.Stay away from narcotics and alcohol they can blind your dysphoria, but they won't get rid of it. Once you sober up you'll remember how miserable you are..If you believe in god and are afraid of god frowning upon you, I can't tell you anything but I don't understand why god left me with such unresolved feelings.The religious answer I got was to repress them or go against them It only made it worse.Do what you feel would make you happy It's not noble to torture yourself nor are you being honorable by doing so.<3
>>40937052you have a good starter point ryan. just do it nowbut yeah you're right i went through the same thing. to other repressanons out there if you're 15y and dysphoric and you do nothing to fix that you will probably be a 20y and even more dysphoric and depressed
>>40937161>>40937052Hons
>>40937161
>>40937052since when did u start taking your shelved hrt ryan?
https://youtu.be/HCcVdCe4mW8
Yup, it never goes away completely and if you manage to get rid of it temporarily if will come back stronger, it also gets worse with the years.
>>40937481ThisI should've started at 13 when I was sure of it.
>>40937052ygmi, youre a great person and im sorry to hear you repped for so long i repped too
Does the dysphoria go away after full transition?
>>40937516I'll never know but when each step alleviates it, recently took a big leap and it changed my life, I still get sad for love stuff but doubt that'll ever go away, but everything else is bliss.
>>40937052Thanks so much, beautiful<3
>>40937516I don't know but it's definitely to take hrt than torture yourself.
>>40937052Why is there cum on your mouth?
>>40937516I haven't finished my transition however I've been on e for 5 years and it has certainly lessened it, I used to have breakdowns and panic attacks when looking at myself in the mirror and had to take drugs. that hasn't happened for a while now, I still feel dysphoric but now sometimes I can look at myself in the mirror and it'll cheer me up
am i just not trans if i got way worse after starting hrt? ive never wanted to kill myself so badly
>>40937176>>40937052is this the same person?
>>40937052eyes really are the best facial feature, and physical feature overalland it's not an opinion, it's just pure fucking fact, and it's not even close.
ryan my beloved...
>>40937052but drügs are fun >.<
>>40937052can i take drugs after i start hrt for say a few years
>>40941707you can always take drugs. they don't discriminate
>>40941806yay
>>40937052Ho boy I can recognize those far away eyes. I remember having them. Good luck anon, shits hell but you can make it.
>>40937481tru. supression seems to be directly linked to interference with funtioning. the more fucked up and occupied with obtaining and hiding or gooning it the better... opiates and escapism is nice one. drinking turns into sobbingfest often... but gotta keep blasting brains when repping or i start going mad. other way is inducing low key ocd about some topic and rabitholing.
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>>40937052I would literally murder people for your face instead of mine.
>>40937516its manageable
>>40937052OP, get laser/electrolysis and thin out your eyebrows.
it's over
>>40942353You can have it. you can have everything
id drag my poon toob through broken glass for you bro
>>40942509Bro...>*Brings out packers*
>>40942512shieeet i needed a new one anyways the dragon lizard one was getting old
>>40942519dood... This is gonna be awesome dood
