I hate the fact that im probably genderfluid. I'll most likely keep repressing and denying it for god knows how long. Why couldn't I have just been a normal tranny? My life would have been so much easier. I could have just started hrt by now without any worry. But because im a genderfluid freak I just cant bring myself to start hrt and lose some of the masculine traits I like having. No matter what, i'll probably never be happy with my body
>>40938389many such cases. if only jusenkyo were real anonreal talk tho, i'd still recommend hoping on a low dose of e or androgen blockers. a middle ground of sorts will make navigating some of that dysphoria a bit easier
>>40938389>genderfluidisnt that cum?
>>40938855Doesnt taking low doses of estrogen not do anything? Atleast thats what I heard. Would just taking E without androgens also accomplish the same balance as taking antiandrogens would? Sorry im a bit dumb>>40938871sigh, I wish
it's ok to be an androgynous weirdo tbdesu
>>40938925e without anti androgens does nothing. testosterone blocks estrogen from doing anything.and before you ask, if you take anti-androgens without estrogen you’ll feel miserable and tired all the time and go through menopausal symptomslow doses of E do in fact do stuff, but estrogen isn’t really dose-dependent. the same stuff will happen at a low dose as a high dose. if it’s too low then it will be like not taking any, or it might be a bit less effective, but the main thing that does stuff is suppressing testosterone
not that related but holy shit canihavepromo jumpscare
>>40939610i knew i recognised that artstyle..
>>40939625the girl had talent I'll give her that desu.... I take a lot of inspo from her art. Socks what happened to her tho
>>40939675*sucks . I'm hanging myself
>>40939675I wish I had any artistic talent so I could draw like her. It makes me want to cry out of jealousy when I look at her art. It is awful what happened to her though>>40939530God, why does nothing ever seem to work out. Another hope of mine dashed
>>40939898You can try and copy though. That's what you do when you want your art to look like someone else's, you take inspiration. That's how I improved. As far as I'm aware she doesn't care if people take inspo
>>40938389no literally idk if its my aap or a cope or something but i just have moments where i look at myself in the mirror and am like damn im cute asf for a guy and like enter a completely different state of mind/personalityim never quitting hrt though ts is gas
>>40939946I could try to copy it, but then again I cant even manage to draw a half-decent circle with a drawing tablet. So im not sure if i could get very far>>40939981Do you just take the same dosage of hrt as a regular transwoman does? Is there anything particular that you do differently? Asking because I want to start hrt too
>>40940123Nobody is born being perfect at art. She was once a beginner too. I'd recommend trying to receate it as best as you can, conpare to the og, and adjust continually til you get the results you're looking for. Keep up at it with her other pieces and you'll get a feel for how she does things. Art skills take time to build, don't be discouraged
>>40940123sort of yeah but i think i have naturally high t so i go way over the normal amountim skinny and dont pass anyways so when i feel like being guyish or whatever i just wear a super tight sports braalso when i chose my name when i was rlly young it was just the girl version of a boy i was obsessed with (after i went schizo on him and we never talked again) so i just larp with that name online lmaoooi wonder what mental illness causes this >_>;;;;;;;
>>40940190were you assraped as a kid? i was and im the same way
>>40940204uhmaybehe didnt use his actual dick just his fingers but i was 11 and he was 17 so idk if it even counts as sa
>>40940225(oh also it was a different guy btw i stole the name from my ex best friend)
>>40938389go to enbygen and wallow in discontinuous misery with the rest of us. youre not alone.
>>40940162thank you very much, ill try, but im worried ill get too depressed to practice for awhile and then lose all the skill i built up again, as that has already happened once before. Is there any way to prevent that?>>40940190I dont particularly know if my t is naturally high or low. Thankfully I wouldnt have to worry about boobs if i start hrt since all the women in my family are flat chested. >>40940225Yes that very much still counts as sa. Im so sorry that happened to you>>40940294Damn, I didnt even know there was an enbygen, thanks. I feel envious of the person in the picture, they look very nice
>>40940461I'm not sure tbhonest... I have that same problem but with video games (one day I'll play re4 and dmc3... today is not that day though) maybe try to draw when bored? Or watch YouTube videos/listen to music while drawing for stimulation. If it won't make you jealous, I'd recommend looking at art and speedpaints for inspo (lotties speed paints can be found in YouTube, and a lot of her art is archived on the internet)
>>40939675what happened?
