i think i'm addicted to cutting. nothing gives me relief like it does. my dysphoria persists despite hrt and i continue to make myself ugly. smoking, drinking, hitting myself, none of it works like cutting does. why can't i stop? have any of you successfully stopped? how?
i don't know if this would apply to you, if you really are addicted (sorry) but i slowly started going for longer periods (a few days, a week, two weeks, a month, etc) without cutting, and eventually i just became kind of afraid of it. i still cut but it is extremely rare because i can't get myself to really do much more than scratch myself and i only do it at the absolute worst of times when i'm desperate since it doesn't work like it used to anymore.while trying to get through periods without cutting i would pitch my fist at my thighs and forehead and it never worked the same but it helped a little. i still do that. i'm sorry it hasn't helped you at all :( this response is probably useless but it's all i've got
>>40940526haven't figured out how to stop but i can offer solidarity. can't go on t yet due to external pressures and it's the only way i have to manage dysphoria. i need to stop, it's only making me even more fembrained and ruining my chances at ever passingbut iwnbam anyway so it doesn't matter that i'm a woman with a woman brain.
>>40940526cutting makes me feel less dysphoric too. i think it makes my brain feel like my body is how it used to be, when i was cutting myself as a teenager
>>40940526i know its memed a lot, but completely unironically age regression helped me cut back cutting by 90%. i think this is a common alternative coping mechanism cause like 90% of the littles i know have a history of self harmcutting provides relief and an escape from being overwhelmed and age regression provides that same feeling. being able to forget about everything scary or anxiety inducing about the world and just enjoying something sweet is very cathartic and relieving
honestly idk if its possible to stop being addicted :(the only thing that helped me was getting a girlfriend, and i haven't cut in the 6 months we've been together but i still feel the urges every daygood luck nona <3
i dont know if i was really “addicted” persay but i would cut atleast once a week, usually more and quite deep (by my standard idk, i hit fat a few times)the only thing that made me stop (for a while, i still cut when i rlly need to, and sometimes do small ones for my bf because he finds it hot) was getting a big cut infected. it scared me so bad i didnt cut for probably 2 months and have completely stopped going that deepi probably cut like once every 1-2 months absolute max now, and theyre only light dermis cuts 2-3mm widebasically the point of my yapping is you need something to scare you out of doing it (hard without also risking shit like having ur limb amputated or something idk)you could also try something to replace it or therapy idklots of people have successfully quit cuttingive heard some people replace self harm via cutting with self harm via going super hard in the gym. gym is good for tranners, you can build muscle in places that make ur form more feminine. or you can literally just run on a treadmill till you physically cant take another step
>>40940622Atleast try not To Cut anywhere that Would Ruin phalloplasty grafts.So no arms. No thighs. No sides. No stomach.
>>40940526to avoid self harm do things like cold showers and exerciseits not just dysphoria, self harm becomes an addiction by itself
>>40940972oh yeah i already do that. i've devoted my sides and arms to being potential phallo grafts so i only fuck up my tits, thighs, and hips. the more dysphoric it makes me, the more cuts and burns it gets (with the exception of my rapehole, which i also need to preserve for future phallo).
>>40941032being real how is a cold shower gonna helpim miserable and dysphoric, take a cold shower now im miserable, dysphoric and cold
>>40940526You have two options: try to address what is making you cut OR try to minimize cutting damage.My subjective idea would be to get in a safe monogamous bdsm relationship as a pain slut and go from there.>t. not a cutter but keep ending up with friends and gfs who are
>>40941143Cold vs warm showers should be used for different purposes. Cold showers are very useful for discipline and warm showers are useful for relaxation.>>40940526Don't hate yourself OP! You have the power to stop, I know you do! I have friends who stopped their self-harm addiction and I am positive that you can too. Take it 10 minutes at a time and distract yourself with vidya, movies, TV, etc. Instead of telling yourself, "I'm not gonna hurt myself for a year", you should tell yourself "I won't hurt myself in the next 10 - 15 minutes." Every time a thought of hurting yourself comes up, remember that mantra. Take it 10 minutes at a time and soon you'll make it a full year. You can't promise to yourself that you'll never self-harm for a year because you can't predict what will happen in a year, but you CAN promise to yourself that you won't harm yourself in the next 10 minutes because you have control over the next 10 minutes. Take it 10 minutes at a time, you can do it! I believe in you OP! :) Sending you lots of love and support <3
>>40940604no, it isn't useless. thank you for the advice>>40940622i'm sorry. i hope you can get on T soon. cutting isn't a gendered thing, though. don't let the worms teach you stuff like that.>>40940797for me it feels like there's a pressure within that i can only release through cutting. like opening the lid of a pressure cooker.>>40940825i don't think that sort of thing is for me, thank you though.>>40940852thank you. i hope i can get a girlfriend someday.>>40940934i've never gotten a cut infected, they always heal super fast which is... good and bad. good bc healing, bad bc they go away quickly and my fucked up brain gets mad. and i'm ftm actually, i was going to the gym pretty consistently for awhile but i just sorta stopped. idk why other than depression. i dunno what could scare me into stopping. if my friends found out maybe. but i don't want that.>>40941032cold showers help when i'm feel dissociative but not when i'm overwhelmed.>>40941213i'm afraid of dating right now. i don't have the best self esteem and no one deserves to date someons who hates themsslf so much. therapy isn't helping but i think i may just not be very compatible with him.>>40941253my job sort of helps with this since i can't really cut while working. i can try the 10 minutes at a time thing.. it can be hard because sometimes i do it without thinking. like something takes over my body and just does it. i feel very weak willed. thank you for the kind words
>>40941452>im ftm actually apologies anonnbut i think thats actually even betteryou can go crazy in the gym without worrying about getting “too big” cos more muscle will make u look more masculine (i think im not an expert on ftm stuffs)you could try going hard in the gym, idk how much it actually helps but ive heard anecdotally some people using it to stop self harming and yea idk your friends finding out is a good tradeoff for maybe getting you to stop, simply because thats gonna taint their view of you forever i think. id rather explode than have my friends find out i cut
>>40941530OH and my final tipget the fuck off this website anon, it literal poison for your mental health
>>40941452That sounds very stressful, I'm sorry to hear that OP :( Thankfully, it seems you've already completed the first step as you've recognized that you have a habit of doing it instinctively. You're not weak-willed OP, you're stuck in a loop. People get stuck in loops all the time, the problem is that your loop is very harmful. I don't have any experience in breaking bad habits but I know that the more you consciously break these habits, the easier it gets. Also, out of curiosity:>1. What does your average day/schedule look like? >2. What do you *want* your day to look like? >3. *How* can you achieve that?I'm positive there are support groups and/or therapists in your city with people who want to help you! There's also subreddits for people who offer guidance to others suffering from self-harm (Ik it's Reddit but there are many people who have been through what you went through and I'm sure they can help you). I'm going to bed soon but there are so many people here who care for you and are willing to listen to you whenever you feel stressed, powerless, or if you just want to talk. You can absolutely stop your self-harm, OP. I believe in you and I know that you can believe in yourself too!!! I'm sending you love and support OP. You have control. You are not weak-willed.
>>40940526Cutting addiction suucks. I havent done it in years and still get the urge to all the time. Idk if it ever goes away.
I fixed cutting by parsing working out as self harmspecifically the painbut I'm a dude so ymmv
