i cant cut myself or kill myself because i was stupid enough to make people and animal care about me.im tired of this tranny existence and its too much for me. my flesh prison disgusts me daily and i cannot tolerate it well at all. if im left alone with my thoughts it takes no longer than 10 minutes for my mind to find itself enthralled with the idea of ending my life.in the past week alone ive thought abouthanging myselfshooting myselftaking a bunch of pillsziptying a bag over my head and ziptying my wristsslicing my wrists open in a warm bathjumping in front of a truckjumping off a buildingdriving headfirst into traffic or an immovable objectwhy am i so creative with these methods? why cant i be creative in ways to improve my life or cope better with trannyshit?
happy 16th birthday
>>40948552Shame you don't really look like that
>>40948552Have you had a single thought that's not about you ya fucking narcissist?
>>40948552You need to detach yourself from such volitional formations.It's your ego that's in the way, try meditating and go to some kind of communal activity every week.Like try go to a mormon service even if you don't believe in any of their teachings.Just soak in the atmosphere and talk with people.Maybe go to a bar or walk in a park.You need to escape this attachment to your own suffering.The buddha pointed out three hinderances that hold us back from reaching our potential.They are hatred, ignorance and desire.It is out of compassion that the buddha did everything he could based on the different capacities and proclivities of people to alleviate their suffering and ultimately end it.From his perspective, people were just gonna be reborn anyways trapped in a never ending cycle of life and death.That made the goal working on people in the here and now.Maybe try reading some buddhist literature.The Dharamapada is a collection of sayings of the buddha where he explores many different aspects of the human condition.Using logic he shows you the roots of your suffering and ways to deal with it.More than that ways to be free without violence.I love you.I feel your suffering.I let it pass through me but I understand.You can be a beautiful thing in the world.
>>40948811Do not fucking go near Mormons.I cannot stress strongly enough how fucked Mormonism is for brainwashing.
>>40948870Mormons are some of the nicest people in the world.They have some of the highest rates of happiness and volunteer more time than most groups in this country.There a shining example of high civilization.So what they believe that they're gonna have endless spiritual sex on their own planet in the afterlife.Honestly it sounds gonna based.Why don't I just want to become one myself but I'd have to be convinced.But not everybody has to be convinced.Some people could just enjoy their community for being upstanding and nice.
>>40948955Just a hypothetical. >trans woman goes in for a surgery>something goes a bit wrong>trans woman needs a blood transfusion Mormon stance is...?
>>40948973You're thinking of jehovah witnesses my friend.Jehovah witnesses are legitimately controlling and unfun to be around.At least with mormonism, you have all this cool lore and lots of strange , but interesting white culture.For instance, they discourage caffeine use so instead they created a whole culture of these cool soda shops that make their own special soda which is fantastic.They use all natural ingredients I'm told to give their members energy without getting them addicted on caffeine.Their temples are set up in a really strange way where they have all these different chambers where they complete rituals.One of the things they're known for is baptizing the dead.They believe it offers them a choice if they ended up in spirit prison which is kind of like a purgato leave and ascend.They don't believe in hell and believe the vast majority of people are just gonna chill out in the terrestrial Kingdom. Take off like the best version of a regular human life forever.Also joseph smith actually opposed slavery during his time which is pretty cool.They didn't really welcome in black people for a while but they have modern phophets that allow the church to adjust as time goes on because they believe in gradual societal progression.They even supported non-discrimination against LG.B.T signed into law in utah.Seriously look it up.
>>40949024Ah yeah, my bad.Wrong loony religion.Mormon stance on alcohol, coffee, and tobacco?What about HRT and also socially transitioning?
>>40949091They are generally against the drugs.There are divisions within the church is retaining to trannies.If you want to hear the progressive side then I recommend you read queer mormon theology.There's a lot of talk right now about them officially ordaining gay marriage as part of the church.Even getting them sealed at the temple.However, who knows where it goes, I think the turning point will be the next Phophet.Generally though they support legal protections for everyone including trans people's rights to access hormones.
i have a good solution for youstop thinking and youi wont think those things and you wont want to kill yourself.its so simple you definitely wont do it and will keep torturing yourself for years
>>40948552I fucking wish you worst because you have people care for you. I don’t feel bad for appealing people
>>40948552lean on your support network, you're lucky to have it. i don't have anyone and cope by cutting myself, not worth it.
>>40949123If a member is pursuing a social transition—which involves changing grooming, dress, names, or pronouns—this can lead to restrictions in their ability to hold church callings or receive temple recommends. For individuals on HRT, they may only be eligible for temple recommend and ordinances if they are not also attempting to transition to the opposite gender. The Church's policy distinguishes between HRT as medical treatment and HRT as a step in a gender transition.Individual situations are handled through counseling between members and local leaders, with guidance sought from Area Presidencies and stake presidents. Transgender members will receive an annotation on their membership record which groups them with violent sexual predators and child abusers, and bars them from working with children or teaching church classes.Before 2024, transgender baptismal candidates were allowed to join the LDS Church if they had not surgically transitioned.As of 2024, even if transgender individuals have only transitioned socially, they are not allowed to be baptized.>>40949123>Generally though they support legal protections for everyone including trans people's rights to access hormones.
>>40949123Sorry, I just wanted to hear from a "trustworthy boi" on the Church's stance on transgenderism.
>>40949160i eill sound insane and unhinged and i don't want to be in the nuthut. id rather die.>>40949159they dont know these things? how the fuck do i tell my bf or my therapist or anyone who cares that i fucking think about suicide this much and see it as the only logical solution to the fact that my shit is cooked because of my genetics. im post ffs and nearly 10 years hrt and i still get sir'd by most. i see a man most of the time in the mirror. there is no fix to this. im not dysmorphic. im dysphoric because i look like a man and am treated most often like a man. i never got to express femininity as a child because of my christcuck household and it ruined my life.
