why do we get upset because theres things we will never experience because of how we were born? why isnt there an option to erase it all from our minds and live happily as the gender we were assigned at birth? i think it would be less excruciating than attempting to transition and still being unhappy afterwards, at least for myself and people like me who arent trutrans.personally, i think the fact that i feel this way mostly because i will never get to experience happiness in the way gay men who understand eachother on a deeper level than straight relationships would is stupid and biased because there are straight women who are happy with their partners, even if things arent perfect or if it turns out their partner likes guys more than them. i should be happy just being a straight girl. how do i remove the stupidity from my brain? i know theres people who suffer worse than this and my stupid ideas regarding this dont compare to what these people go through. but please, i just want the torment to end. im so lonely and unhappy every day of my life when i technically shouldnt because being a woman is supposed to be the best thing in the world.
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>>40950933Transition?
>>40950933Is the desire to experiance what one could not because of the way they were born not a universal human constant? Man was never meant to take to the skies and yet he does on a daily basis.
>>40950956yeah but see that still makes sense because at least agps understand that being a woman is objectively a good thing. and i should too. i just dont know why im so unhappy with it am i just stupid
>>40950956https://voca.ro/19EN0asKdael
>>40950986well but this doesnt fundamentally have to do with what they were born as. its much simpler to build machines to do certain things than to change stuff from your own body that doesnt even get close to what you wish you were born as. one cant just try harder because theres always a limit to that stuff and it only depends on whether you choose to see it or not, and some people can ignore it more easily but i cant and thats why ill never be happy. a lobotomy would probably make me happier than transitioning. at least hoping that i would forget i was born as anything or that there were certain differences at all in the first place. i also wish i was able to overcome puberty in the way all cis women did when they turned into adult women but im gonna be 21 soon and im still nowhere near over it
How old are you, op
>>40951056nvm just saw your last post
>>40951048My head injury that practically wiped my entire personality didnt make me feel any better about being trans desu. In fact it made it a million times worse. It wouldnt help.Tbh whats helped me was getting in to art. I started writing in my little schitzobabble journal, and doing little doodles and it alleviates a lot of the pain. Also reading about suffering helped a lot. Reading war memoirs.In the end transition is the only thing that can help long term but these are solid fixes short term.Idk thats just me tho.
>>40950933ur true enough jarbs, stop suffering, brother.
>>40951186my own art jumpscare ew ew ugly ew
>>40950933>i think it would be less excruciating than attempting to transition and still being unhappy afterwardsHow do you know if you don’t try? If you do things like cry over your sex characteristics, statistics are in your favour for improving your mental health.If it doesn’t work out, you’ll look and sound slightly more masculine. If that’s not the end of the worldto you, or even sounds desirable, I think it wouldn’t hurt to give it a try.
>>40951363Tbh its silly to say that trooning is the only answer. Being a tranny absolutely is a conundrum but I think repressing is absolutely a valid option. In a lot of ways there are very few happy options to being a tranny yes including transitioning. It will make your life a living hell most likely and saying 'slightly more masc' is especially undercutting the effects for pooners. Its a valid thing to say for troons but T is powerful as fuck.Idk. I just got news for my birthday that my discrimination lawsuit against my last workplace got thrown out because they destroyed evidence, and the union was in on it. They denied the existence of my written report that was made about what was going on, I starved for weeks as a direct result of getting fired from there, and I take it in context of the other things that have happened as a direct result of me being a tranny.But if anons dysphoria is bad enough that it is worth facing becoming a pariah then they should absolutely go through with it.Id imagine the discrimination would be less for ftms but again also the effects couldn't be covered up almost at all. Its a trade off.
