why is everything so hard. why is it so hard to be happy. why is it so hard to just accept i was born a man. why do i keep mutilating myself for a standard i'll never reach. why is it so hard for me to keep friends or even just any form of meaningful connection without needing to abandon them out of paranoia. why is it so hard to be normal to have been born normal to have a normal brain that doesn't try to fight against the stupid male body it was born in. why is being happy so hard. why is not always being crushed by fake things my stupid tranny brain made up so hard
i know a nikon file name from anywhere
>>40961374its a sony a5000
>>40961361>why is it so hard for me to keep friends or even just any form of meaningful connection without needing to abandon them out of paranoiaPlease seek therapy. I never addressed this critical flaw in my own psychology, and now I'm too old and it's too late and I'll never have love or friendship. I'm avpd to an extreme fault, even with people that are so nice and accepting it makes me hate myself more that they accept me.
>>40961409dirty lens boy.
>>40961420i can't seek therapy i won't seek it because it can't work for me. the last time i was honest to a therapist i was immediately institutionalized and spending even just the legal maximum 3 days there shook me and traumatized me i do not want to return. i don't want to be put with the seniors again. i don't want to be in the moid wing. i don't want the screaming overdose guy at 2am. i dont want to not be allowed to close the door to my bathroom. i don't want any of that but i know there's no way to avoid it if im honest with anyone i know in real life (my parents and immediate family mostly)
>>40961361Stop waiting for it to become easy and become someone who can deal with its difficulty. You becoming a woman is a 0% possibility. 0.000000000000%. ZERO. It will not happen. Whatever small chance there is you can learn to be happy as a man, it is infinitely more likely than you becoming a woman.
>>40961427I KNOW I KNOWi only noticed it when i got my photos on my computer like a week later all my photos from the start of the month have it it makes me sad
>>40961460I'm sorry to hear that. When they ask you if you are suicidal tell them no unless you are suicidal because in some places it's mandatory that they ward you if you say you're sui plotting. Look I'm a lot older than you. Don't go through life like this or you will want to kys fr one day. I've been very close to killing myself. Go to therapy but don't tell them stupid shit like you're going to kys if you're not.
>>40961485 very nicei've been thinking about buying a sony but their color science is just generally not pleasing to work with so i might try an x100
>>40961483>You becoming a woman is a 0% possibility. 0.000000000000%. ZERO. It will not happen. i am so deeply and sadly aware of this>Whatever small chance there is you can learn to be happy as a man, it is infinitely more likely than you becoming a woman.the chances of both are 0
>>40961501im like the last person with any knowledge about cameras. i know how to use mine but i have absolutely no clue about models that aren't the 11 year old Sony A5000. to me the colors don't seem that bad, and if they're /egregious/ i'll find a way to pirate lightroom and fix it
>>40961502Youre wrong. Your life could be worse than it is. You could cut your fingers off right now and itd be worse. Not doing so, your life is better. There are any number of things you can do that will make your life better or worse, do as many of the bettering things as you can. You dont even really want to be a woman, its just an impossible goal youve set yourself exactly so you can wallow in your own misery. If you cant do whatever you can for youreelf to improve your life, then pick someone you love and devote your energy to improving their life.
>>40961539the problem with sony cameras isn't that they're sony its that everyone buys a sony
>>40961578>You dont even really want to be a woman,but i do. its the only thing i want its what i spend hours of my day obsessing over the smallest things but i just know deep down ill never be a real woman and ill always be a tranny. i want to be a woman. but its biologically impossible for me.>If you cant do whatever you can for youreelf to improve your life, then pick someone you love and devote your energy to improving their life.i've tried that and it always ends worse. i always mess it up and ruin the one friendship i had allocated to me for the year
>>40961617Would you rather live a worse life or a better one?Who else but you is going to improve your life for you?Just do the best you can anon. If you misstep, try again. Its hard but its not mysterious.
im too sleepy to read this thread but i think your pictures are exposed nicely, and you have interesting subjects, but you need to work on your composition.also hope things get easier for you everything is indeed really hard
