I always had gender dysphoria, but I never had any kind of innate gender identity. I knew I had to start transitioning for my own good, but I didn't really know if I'm a tranny, an enby, an hrt femboy or anything for that matter. I didn't even know if i wanted breasts, how would I be supposed to know if I didn't even know how it feels to have them? I was pretty indifferent about breasts growing or not back then.But everything changed when i was 1.5 years into hrt. I suddenly realised that I do in fact want to be a woman. I would not want to give up my breasts, even though they are just stereotypical puffy nips. I want all of the aspects of living as a woman, both physical and social. But I can't, will never have a proper childhood backstory, I will never be a mother, I will always be a stupid tranny, only seen as a cheap replica of femininity, no matter how many surgeries I would get.I have finally figured myself out and it made me miserable. Now I spend my days crying into the pillow, thinking how I will never be able to carry a child, hoping that some kind of deity sees me and pities me. I don't self-harm, I don't do drugs, I don't delude myself with sexual stuff because I know too well that none of this can actually do anything about my situation. Ultimately I will never be complete, I will never have a true sense of self, I'm nobody.
>>40962256very slavcoded picyou are not complete because of your medical issue, but you are a woman deserving of love, a family and a fulfilling life nonetheless
>>40962256Freak
>>40962256I've dissociated so much from my core self, I don't even know anymore what it feels like to want something
nigga sweep ur stairs that shit is a hazard
>>40962256Transwomen aren't women. Not literally.Some look pretty damn close to women but they're still transwomen. Forever.If you set your goals realistically, transition makes a lot more sense and still feels better than being a man.
