>>40962665
repression isnt real
stop feelign abd about yourself and either transition or at least admit you are faketroons and should just live your life as your agab like you could always do
hope this helps

>>40962710
>repression isnt real
subjective identity is not something innate to repress. its something you can choose to actively identify with if you feel it describes ur behavior best. no more no less. no such thing as a "faketroon", its not falsifiable

>>40962738
incorrect
there eist real fucking cis people who thing they are trans for multiple comblex reason but none of them ever is "i was and am a woman since i was born"
they are factually faketrans and only transition to fulfill some creepy fantasy and not to you know be their actual selves that they always where.
You either ARE a woman or YOU ARENT
there is nothing else
if you are transition
if not dont
simple and effective

>>40962710
Nah man, I repressed for a good while (although not while commiserating on 4chan) and I feel so stupid for not transitioning immediately all those years ago. But my family made me feel like I was just too manly and they said they'd never accept me and they started being mean to me until I said I was "over it." I should have just done it in secret. It wasn't even true.

>>40962761
see?
Actual reason given to repress and not "i didnt feel like it" like some peope in these threads
yeah sorry you couldnt troon early nona
it will be ok now

>>40962757
i dont really agree with the wanting to be something really badly = literallybeing that thing premise but its not very important

there are definitely people more and less like that but it doesnt say anything about a transition improving their quality of life long term. for vast majority of people its not going to improve things overall. trooning younger doesnt fix it for most. its just how it is

i think boymoding and leaning into androgyny and 'soft' but more normal styles is best for most people. i've been on hrt for a long time and had some facial surgery, i just dont think im litterally a woman because i wish i was born that way since i was young.

maybe its true i embody more of the female social archetype than male, i just dont think that matters

>>40962842
So you are faketrans?
There is no want or becoming
only being

I don't have any... Musicals, but I think that's more a gay thing.
My main hobbies are survival/prepping theory, wood working, literature, history, grinding in rpgs, miniature wargaming/ttrpgs (though I never play with anyone), programming, etc. All thoroughly male coded

>>40962710
closeted gays totally don't exist too right

>>40962872
What makes you think being gay and being trans is the same besides societal hatred?

>>40962856
Yes you grew male and are male now what?

>>40962882
no one has ever repressed or hidden things about themselves out of shame, it's true

>>40962896
hidding out of shame isnt the same as thinking you are male and can somehow stop being male

>>40962888
now I abandon it all for travel, netflix, partying, travel, tiktok, travel to pass

>>40962770
You were saying that repression isn't real though, not that people who "repress" when given the opportunity to transition are cis. Those are very different statements.

>>40962911
repression isnt real in so far as repressing a feeling isnt real
Repressing because you are unable to do things your way is different yes

>you aren't a repressor if you repress

>>40962855
i dont really get what you're saying? what do you think it means to be a woman?

>>40962908
>>40962908
sounds like a good life

>>40962929
they're just a retard tourist

>>40962929
i dont know because I am not one
Ask a woman to tell you
but yes women can be born in amab bodies and thus we need transitioning to exist as concept
but besides that everyone else who is male and wants to become female is delusional

>>40962933
women have it so good bro

>>40962935
Im not been on this board for too long it rtook some time to figure it out im just trying to speedrun the process for people whoa re like me

>>40962943
and you will never be one, unless ofc you think you already are one since birth

>>40962927
depends what you are thinking you repress

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

>>40962940
i think we mean the same thing? theres a very very small group of people who should transition bc it will work out for them. the issue is theres way more people who wish they were that really badly, and end up hurting themselves longterm because we made that distinction politically incorrect.
>>40962953
that isnt enough. you need to be born so physically and mentally effeminate its clearly your best option

>>40962908
esoteric stuff in more laid back way is nice way to spice up life and rather female coded. magical thinking is nice too. good even for repping. just dont join any dharmic orbother cults and dont do too much self discipline. maybe get some nice crystals and read channelinhs or something about astrology. maybe hindu astrology too. ghost&astral stuff. hugging trees n shiet. tarot and candles. you know the vibe. should go nicelyvwith art hoe/hippie/70ish retro inspored style.

>>40962993
why arent you one?

>>40962944
stop posting no one wants you here

>>40962996
>i think we mean the same thing? theres a very very small group of people who should transition bc it will work out for them. the issue is theres way more people who wish they were that really badly, and end up hurting themselves longterm because we made that distinction politically incorrect.
YES
we are talking the same thing
>>40962996
>that isnt enough. you need to be born so physically and mentally effeminate its clearly your best option
Arguable where the line is tbhonestdesu

>>40962999
>this is what men think some women are like

>>40963010
make me bro
your validation failed
its time for 100% gatekeeping
Save the men and women from thinking they are something they are not
not more validation without evidence and scrutiny

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>>40962999
got antisatan. out of box. out of cube. there will be freedom me tell u
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=AcDn0M9AtSI
you ve been touched by "Her". dont stray too far or you will rot. walkbclose to thread and you will reapbreward. you know its true, trust your feelings as nothing is more real. YOUR feelings emanating from you not fears of mistreatment morpjed masquerading as your thoughts. purge the oarasite and maybe we can reach paradise

>>40963025
duh my mom is. tarot n ghosts n shiet but also goes to church.

>>40962996
> you need to be born so physically and mentally effeminate its clearly your best option
An old school opinion
Most trans women would not have been able to transition decades ago being held to this standard but they're clearly still much happier for transitioning

>>40963061
but they were held to that standard

>>40963036
repression is gatekeeping you retard
go back to plebbit

>>40963067
nigga like 3/4 of them lied when something was not stereityoe of trutran and told what was needed to get allowed to troon. in a way whats more trutran? lying to troon or being truthful because doc knows better than and risk not being allowed ro?

>>40963001
because i'm a man and can't transition

i slept for 13 hours last night. woke up about an hour ago and i'm now sitting at my computer. i desperately want to go back to sleep

>>40963061
its not. firstly they've never been held to that physical standard, at best they made sure they were really into men and put them through a 24/7 drag humiliation ritual to try to scare them out of it.

"clearly still much happier" cmon. have you met trans women? they're miserable. they have the highest rate of suicidal ideation and mental illness out of literally any group, except for maybe refugees directly from warzones. i'm not totally against it, i've "medically transitioned" but a full social transition is almost always a bad outcome

>>40963105
yeah we agree at least that you, a non female man, shouldnt transition but dont pretend you are sad for being male lol

>>40963113
good boy

>>40963112
sounds like there was a standard then?
and you needed to pass it...
and some men knew the right answers...
like come on

I had a massive crashout after an 11 year svusuve relationship so now I'm doing all the things I always held back on, like listening to emo music and watching skins. it's sad and melancholic and a little cathartic. I sjsi stay out until 9am doing coke with cool strangers so that's pretty fun I guess.

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>>40962710
do you seriously think everyone who lived with dysphoria before transitioning was even an option just all killed themselves? no they find ways to cope with it and lived out their lives.

>>40963154
lets be real if put in male body most of cos women would fail this shit. you must be really close to losing your shit if you have to cope in such way...

>>40963168
but now it is an option
your excuse?
cause it is an excuse
troon or accept you are male

>>40963174
imaginary scenarios arent real
transition or accept you are repressing nothign
there is no scrutiny anymroe there is nothig holding you back

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>>40963168
rococco was peak western aesthetics, and one of best times for reppers

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Repression is awesome, nobody knows I'm a woman inside of a male body I feel like a secret agent just living daily life. Regular men are actually retarded they are like dogs I can do whatever I want because I'm automatically in the top 0.1th percentile of emotional and social intelligence for males by virtue of this.
Only downside is I will never have a romantic or sexual relationship that isn't simply me secretly masturbating my ego while having no genuine attachment or fulfillment.
Also I don't get to be cute which can make me a little sad but it's easy to forget about if you try to be cool as a guy instead.
Pros are: get to indulge in infinite AAP. Women are drawn to my charm (ego boost). Get to live with full male privilege with none of the mental hangups regular guys have about masculinity because idgaf I'm actually a woman inside lol.

This is how I used to think until I ended up reading some cognito-hazard on the internet that broke my internal sense of self that assuredly viewed myself as a woman and suddenly I had terrible dysphoria about everything.

My advise to reppers is, don't think of yourself as men, or that dysphoria isn't real, or that it's just AGP, or anything like that, your inner self wants to believe in yourself as a woman somehow, so you're going to end up trying to feed that with bits of this or that.
Rather, simply skip all the steps in between and step right all the way over transitioning so you never have to do it by declaring yourself firmly and absolutely a woman inside of yourself in your identity. If you can genuinely believe that you have a female soul and are just piloting this male body then you don't need to worry about feeling a sense of distance from being a woman over facial hair or masculine hobbies or any other nonsense like that.

hope that helps.

>>40963213
>This is how I used to think until I ended up reading some cognito-hazard on the internet that broke my internal sense of self that assuredly viewed myself as a woman and suddenly I had terrible dysphoria about everything.
what was it
show it to us

>>40963128
epic troll dude

>>40963213
too bad i dont have a female soul/ don't want to be female intrinsically/ don't want to socially transition at all and the only thing that makes me want to kms daily is my body

>>40963201
rococo is gaudy. i prefer something more elegant and restrained

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reppers ywnbaw hahaha oh man I'm such a troller bro im showing your tearful responses to discord afterwards lmao

>>40963175
my excuse is that i know its not going to work. im too masculine in appearance and in personality. i could never keep up the "performance" of femininity either. i can barely mask my autism as is. its just not feasible.

>>40963213
I am a man and always have been thus im not trans
dysphoria is rela I just dont ahve it
Its not agp thats just dysphoria, im just kinky and like trans bodies
Souls aren't real
I like msyelf
I am a man and I am free

you are just a narc lol

>>40963272
>keep up
yeah faketrans
man up?

>>40963259
Just disassociate and focus on your soul-body.

>>40963242
Actually I made the whole thing up because I thought the perspective was interesting as opposed to the usual stuff around here.

>>40963279
you do you boo

>>40963213
high iq and eq pinkpiller post. excellent one!

>>40963302
>Actually I made the whole thing up because I thought the perspective was interesting as opposed to the usual stuff around here.
more fakeshit fake shit
good to know

>>40963287
yeah thats what im trying to do.

>>40963311
Men dont waste their lives online
Go read a book and fix your sleep schedule

>>40963269
you dont look like that

i need to be chemically lobotomized to stop being a fakeagp faketrans nigger

>>40963341
Just stop coming to this board and feeding your obsession
you are a man go act like it

haha i am owning the troons by telling reppers ywnbaw

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>>40963321
>Men dont waste their lives online
thats actually what quite a lot of men do

>>40963360
not real men

Woke up again

sick of this

reppers arent women yes
but more importantly they can never be women cause they are choosing to be men

>>40963364
just like how you're not a real woman

>>40963378
Never said I was

>>40963364
like you, jeet

>>40963413
weird racism and wrong

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I want noone to escape

>>40963175
respectfully i can only speak to my own experiences but the benefits of being more comfortable in my own skin are massively outweighed by the drawbacks of not being able to keep a job and financially support my family, or for that matter making the people around me uncomfortable and scared just by virtue of existing in public regardless of how optics-minded i am
just because you can do something doesn't mean you necessarily should y'know? maybe it makes you less determined than people who are actually going ahead with transition (which, fair enough, i'll admit i'm a pussy lmao) but that's hardly an indictment on whether you're actually a tranny or not

>>40963449
your dysphoria is fake then and you are just using transitioning as an escapist fantasy?
cool

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seething envy towards asian males

>>40963526
>envying male
anon...

Estrogen doesn't do anything to fix your mental problems. Doesn't fix depression, anhedonia, anxiety, or anything like that.

It's a giant fucking meme

>>40963540
it fixes your body being non female
unless your brain is female its useless

>>40963533
I'm male, at the very least I could've been an asian luckshit

>>40963554
if you wish for thing s why arent you wishing to be female?

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>>40963547
>it fixes your body being non female

>>40963562
yeah, that too

Well,
Turns out that the girl who seemed a bit of a tomboy and pretty fun and brat playing beach volleyball has 2k followers on IG
How can I get her as a tall twunk with a very asymmetrical breast development.

:p

beating reppers until they transition

>>40963242
Not him but for me it was this
https://youtu.be/pboAMp42MFU?si=YhX61PE6aSzNIWDN

>>40963804
Xddd
I’m not watching that

>>40963692
beating reppers at checkers*
forgot to add that part.

i seriously dont know why i got so obsessed with being trans

if im totally honest, i like being male, i dont really want to be female, having boobs and wide hips and stuff seems uncomfortable and reminds me of a deformity. i want to be a twink forever. i look in the mirror and i dont recognise myself, but that doesnt make me a woman or even trans. i am very mentally disturbed. ive psychologically checkmated myself into being massively distressed over something i cant change and that i wouldnt be happy with even if i could

I'm trans, I just won't pass if I transition and I know firsthand attempting and failing stresses me out more than not trying at all

>>40963965
You could take the pressure off by accepting you'll never pass, and instead, trying to just do things that make you seem less like a man, and only use she/her pronouns and stuff with your friends in private, kind of like a "part-time" thing. It doesn't have to be either "I pass and can go stealth and live 24/7 as my gender" or "I'm repressing and getting more and more masculine/feminine and it distresses me and I'm not doing anything about it except posting on /repgen/"

>>40963978
I've done that, boymoding but being out online, and it's no different unfortunately
I was more aware of my dysphoria being trans tbhon

>>40962665
I like baking. I used to have a bunch of other feminine interests as a kid but I repressed them so long ago they're just not a thing anymore.

I prescribe every mtf repper here 0 mg of Estradiol Valerate a week.

>>40964031
hrt reppers on sui watch

>>40964029
you make cakes?

>>40964039
Sorry, I also forgot to say I prescribe FTM reppers 0 mg of Testosterone a week. I do not discriminate.

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>>40964029
baking is manly? gastronomy is the male's domain. How many female chefs has won three Michelin Stars and five red knives and forks

>>40964052
Yeah and other sweets. I've already got everyone in my family begging me to make them pumpkin bread again this year because of the season. It's funny, baking is acceptable because they can stuff their faces with it, but if I ever did anything else feminine or came out as trans they'd hate me for it.
>>40964067
The OP said 'stereotypically'. Baking is considered stereotypically feminine in the US, especially if you're doing it non-professionally. Whether a stereotype is true or not is irrelevant.

are there actually subreddits or discords where people laugh at reppers? i'm interested in joining for repping reasons

>>40964029
i used to enjoy baking a lot with my mom when i was younger. maybe i should try getting back into it

Why are FTM reppers so much happier than MTF reppers?

>>40964039
that's literally the dry repper prescription. hrt reppers take a therapeutic dose

>>40964139
because they're women and being a woman is better

>>40964137
The funny part is that I barely even eat what I make. I get a tiny little piece (or like one cookie etc.) then ship the rest off to some fat family member that'll devour all of it in a day or three.

>>40964156
Trooth Nook.

https://youtu.be/VAyhzKfZb7c?si=ON2dztcLzosju0hc

>>40964139
women live life on easy mode

>>40964121
r/4tran kinda??

>>40963692
beat me please

>>40964497
Joey Ramone repper vibe af. 1965-1995 rockn is agp coded in a repressed but tasteful way. half way in drag, names like gTwisted sister etc... challenged some energy... but what i know i am skitzo

>>40965250
*chanelled

>>40961452
I'm not talking about becoming a woman having existed as a dysphoric man before. I'm actually talking about you having developed XX chromosomes, and never having been you. exchanged all the circumstances of life for being someone you don't even know. If you are extremely pessimistic and depressed, the answer may seem easy, sounds like a glamorized suicide. Masturbation was just a dirty example, it could be anything.

Do you think you would value the idea of being a woman that much if you were one? Probably not, which is why the human condition is insatiable.

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It's that time of smoking weed again where my repper ass looks at pictures like this and imagines myself looking like that

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Anyone else experience the egg_irl fanatic-> repping transgender -> enlightened AGP -> cis AGAMP pipeline? Let's call it the reverse trans awakening.

>>40965691
uh kinda, i went from thinking transitioning was the only way i can continue living to realizing it really doesn't matter and will most likely not work out

>>40963213
>>40965751
>>40963174

Just going on this board I realized most of it is horseshit. It's only people clinging onto extreme gender roles. Reducing everyone to these stupid ass stereotypes.

>>40963269
This place makes me realize the LGBT community is full of absolutely shitty people

>>40965751
I went from I'll kill myself if I don't transition to I'll kill myself if I have to be a hon one more day
I'll probably transition if I ever save enough for ffs and the results are flattering but I'll probably be too old to enjoy life then anyway so idk

>>40964690
Womenbros, our retort?

I would transition but only if I was affirmed by a partner tbhon. Kinda wish I just settled for a gross chaser or something and soldiered through insecurity until I felt better
It's pathetic but it is what it is

>>40966143
>too old to enjoy life then anyway so idk
this causes me to freak out. gets more buggimg and nagging to act now as before i could not due to financial reasons

>>40966327
I honestly hate the idea of it all being about codependency. I just want to be allowed to exist on my own.

>>40966327
this is why when reppers date each other they end up transitioning

>>40965691
lmao no I was a gigachud, I deserve this. By the time I stopped hating trannies and accepted that I had the brain of one I knew that it was already too late for me to do anything about it. I never really had any hope to let go of except for the dream that one of my magical genderbender fantasies would come true someday.

i could've transitioned when i was around 18-22 if i wasn't a retarded coward

I dont think anyone deserves to transition unless they are truly the gender they say they are
Which is why I believe all of you suffer justly

no one likes a repper but no one likes a late transitioner either

>>40966486
that'd be ideal though

>>40966978
no it's not because other reppers won't date me

I repressed nothing because I was never female

>>40966995
hey

I repress because what if in my last live I was an ftm repper

>>40967099
The shit that ftms write is great repfuel

>>40967043
hii

>too busy tomorrow to drink today
pain

>>40962665
take your HRT, retards

>>40963692
Fucking reppers daily until they transition

3 years detrans and looking back on my old pics debating things
grim

>>40967300
but this sounds like a disincentive to transition? :3

>>40967190
Get a vape you little bitch

>>40967274
Hrt is meaningless

normalize giving reppers a fifth of mid shelf liquor as reperations

>>40967375
You didn’t want to be a real man?

>>40967423
I am a real man, it's just grim I would've dated my cute in an ugly way ass

>>40967432
Ohhhh
Yeah not hard to find something better either ya know

>>40967375
I barely had a tiny window of time where transition was even a possibility and I still hate myself for missing it, I would legit kms if I were you

>>40967460
Shut up foid

>>40967409
I don't want another bad habit and I know I would love nicotine so I've never tried it
also I already gave up on the not drinking today thing because I was watching anime and having a snack and a drink would go way too well with that to pass up

>>40967460
eh, if you don't pass and it's just ruining your life it isn't worth it.

>>40967477
I wish
>>40967485
yeah that's why I'm here

>>40967460
what's stopping you?

>>40967525
being a hulking 6'2 man with a massive man bones

Some one please kill me

>>40967581
post them

>>40967625
Sending my strongest curse your way

>>40967626
I've gone my entire life without posting my disgusting face on the internet, don't think I'll facefag that easily

i feel bad for my bf, im jsut gonna get older and become more and more unhinged until i have to break his heart

>>40967669
this is why you're not supposed to date as a repper anon
what's it like having a bf though?

>>40967636
It’s workinv

>>40967300
are you hot

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>>40967581

>>40967710
I'm FUB

>>40967931
don't be

go back in time and groom me

i love the whiplash between not wanting to be a tranny and wanting to be a woman

>>40968958
thats the same for every tranny
t. ranny

>>40969011
being a non dysphoric repper sucks

i feel like shit miserable depressed bc i am ugly..

iwnbaw but at least I can take it out on my prostate
>>40962665
qott: not really, i read a lot of fiction which is kinda feminine nowadays but don't really have a taste for the kinds of romance/fantasy that are usually a part of that. i tried reading one of those hockey romances and just got way too turned on by it

i managed to get groomed at 14 and didnt troon out because i was too scared and didnt know how to get hrt.

im now a 30 year old man

What artist does /repgen/ coom to?
t. likes demedemedemead

the only way I can imagine myself being comfortable as a man is if part of my soul split off and turned into a woman and then both soul fragments got married

>>40969373
rudysaki

>>40963692
plzplplz
i think easily my stupidest fantasy is a bf who beats me so hard during sex that he feels bad about doing it after and i have to cuddle and comfort him while everything still hurts like hell

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>tfw you get invited to hang out with the boys and realize men are the most disgusting things to ever exist when in private

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do you guys think realistic android bodies are still viable in this century or nah

babydollanon are you there?

>>40963526
Hi mtf korean here I lit look like this and never pass. Sexual dimorphism is worse for asians westernoids just never notice it

>>40970782
This century maybe, but like 2099 territory.

>>40970799
move to hyperborea

girls dont say it is what it is but im not a girl so it is what it is

I need to rip out my teeth so badly

>>40970799
expanded.facial.planes
>>40971245
this. or at least femboys. androgenic hair and browbone are abomination

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Watched Demon Hunters yesterday thanks to an anon who recommended me last week that I watch it.
Really enjoyed the whole movie apart from those cringy facial animations with the exaggerated faces. Cried a bit at the end I'll admit it.
My fav of the trio is definitely Zoey. She a cutie patootie. Giwtwm.

>>40970799
marry me

>>40969086
sex with larry

>>40970782
realistically, probably possible by the end of the century, but unequivocally not recommended
>your consciousness being interrupted to play ads filling your entire field of vision because you're only on the $1,000 pm value package and not the $3,500 pm deluxe connection package
>the company going bankrupt but your consciousness being erased by remote enforcement if you attempt to make unauthorised alterations to "your" body
no thanks

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>>40971551
What it sounds like got me so bad

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Sadly woke up again repsters

>>40969373
Jugatsu Usagi.

https://youtu.be/RWGS1BrQDGE?si=GgNjxMXbVO7EmrZ7

Okay Testosterone experiment results: Tried for two weeks and it makes me absolutely miserable, moody, and made me feel ugly. Was planning on running this for at least six weeks but cannot bring myself to do another injection. Time to order my hrt unfortunately.

>>40972680
*time to order my estrogen

I have a tonne of syringes and needles now so may as well try injections

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>>40971746
Yeah...
The part where they sing takedown was kinda sad too. Felt so sad about my poor girl.

Stopped injecting recently. We reppin now boyssssss

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>>40971648
>your consciousness being interrupted to play ads filling your entire field of vision because you're only on the $1,000 pm value package and not the $3,500 pm deluxe connection package
time to start building my fortune now, then. not a massive fan of hoarding wealth, but you gotta do what you gotta do to be an android girl without ads in your brain.
you also can't stop the elites from putting backdoors in your artificial body. but if you can't beat them, join them.

>>40972680
thank you for reporting back and confirming my priors anon. good luck with estrogen.

>>40971648
>>40973991
cope hope. i want to belive. ai singularity n shit... or at peak hopeless i was doomscrolling... like in. literal sense. r/collapse hoping world world burn, we would die, perhaps some fireworks to look at before sweet relase. thwaites, collapse, venussification, less so nuclear war or microplastic doom. cant be a woman, lest see world burning dancing among fires and ashes, praising deity of destruction... gone better now... anyone relate?
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=K9Tw8baMPpM